beno at the crossroads

this picture shows me at some truck stop town that has an in-n-out burgers.   i was with a carload of taekwondoists coming back from a tournament in long beach.   we noticed this street sign.   other people that were in our crew that headed south noticed the sign on their way down, when they stopped at the in-n-out earlier.

looking at the picture, i see myself standing on "bernard dr."   i see a sign that asks me to go left or right.   i must make a decision.   go one way or the other.   that’s really significant in relation to my life at the time this picture was taken...   i didn’t realise, at the time this picture was taken, that vivian was going to break up with me; but she was.   i knew i was facing a big career decision: stay or leave ebmud for a startup, advanced pathology systems.   times change, and i’m at the crossroads of life.

but i’m a driver; i like to drive.   well, it doesn’t have to be in a car.   i’ve always liked a good journey or exploration by any means of transportation.   i see a sign like this, i have to turn left or right.   i might not get a chance to find out where the other route leads.   i might never come back to that intersection, especially if things go right.   if they do, i keep going in the direction i chose.   i encounter other intersections, other crossroads.   it’s all fun. i see new sights, hear new sounds, learn.   i feel free.

in the background of the picture, i see a big sky.  i’ve always lived in valleys or near hills, and i rarely see this kind of sky.   a light shade of sky fading into a deep, darker shade of sky.  that’s a lot of sky!   and flat ground! that’s a lot of flat ground that i see in this picture.   i can go anywhere!   well, i’ll probably stay on the road, but if i were to go off the road, it wouldn’t be as bad as if i were walking over mountains or across oceans.

so i continue my journey.   i know i’ll run into unexpected intersections, turns, and dead ends.   hey, some surprises turn out to be really great!   and i have faith.   i know things turn out for the best in the end.