i finally decided to go thru w/ it. last nite, the beautiful kaela kang was werking on her journal, so i decided, i gotta just sit my butt down n' get my journal all caught up n' sorted out. well, so now i have "the beno journal, 2002 edition." :-) well, right now, it's just 1 document, but soon, i'll make it palm / handheld friendly by making a "recent entries" document n' an "archive." u get it? so ppl can use avantgo to dl the "recent entries" to their handhelds. (uhm, is ne1 really gonna do this?! i know i do that w/ kaela's journal! *sigh* so well, yup, this'll be it! :-) whatchu think?
i haven't decided yet: i might put the archives in 4ward chronogical order, like the old, original beno manifesto was. in ne case, i'll leave the "recent entries" in reverse chronological order, how the beno journal editions have been. well, i'm just gettin' things started, so well, please give me some time to get everything competely sorted out. this current document'll be the 2002 archive, in the end. i still gotta make the "recent entries" document. well, shoot! 1nce i do make the "recent entries" document :-), "this document" might not necessarily be the archives! *roll eyes* right? what i mean is that i'll prob'ly have a duplicate copy of this entry in the "recent entries" document 4 a while, so until this entry becomes not a recent entry, it'll exist in both places, i guess. *shrug* i'll call the recent entires document the "palm edition" or the "handheld edition." well, i'm tempted to call it "the handspring edition," but that might be a bit 2 much of a produkt endorsement, right?
[later] ok, i've done some more werk to make this journal a better place. well, it looks like i'll be tweaking dis n' dat quite a bit 4 a while. the colour scheme: how is it? nasty? it's the same as my current index page, but maybe i should change that 2! hey, u know what? this feels good. it feels really good. i feel like i'm making progress in life, like i did when i finally moved out of that ghetto, dump apt n' its awful living conditions. (of course, it was 1nce a more pleasant place, n' i don't wanna belittle the apt as it was in those days.) so yah... u know, i wanna put a bit of graphics/fotos in my new 2002 journal. after all, more ppl r using dsl etc, so websites r getting flashier (both literally n' figuratively). (in other wurds, pun slightly intended.) hrm, maybe i can use emotikons instead of ascii smileys! :-) that'd be nice, huh? in fact, u might even say, that'd be dope! however, do kids say that nemore? that sounds more like sumpthin' toby'd say in gest, mocking "kids these days." boy, oh boy. life sure is exciting, right? :-)
dang, u guys don't even know what i've been up to these days cos i've been so bad 'bout updating my journal so far this yr! :-) ha ha ha. *sigh* well, i'll get to that eventually. uhm, i guess there's no better time than the present, right?
fri nite: kaela n' i stayed home like a coupl'f boring old farts. wait a sec! did we eat dinner? uhm, it cms like we did. we must've. that wasn't the nite we went to koryo sutbul; that was thurs. what did we do on fri nite? uhm, i don't think we went out @ all! uhm, we ate a li'l leftover kimbap n' some fried dubu, that kaela made. we ate the dubu w/ kim [4 future reference], nori, dried seaweed, say it "geem.") i werked on our 'puters. u know what? i netwerked our 'puters! woohoo! i was so happy! now we can both be on.line @ the same time. now we can both write in our journals @ the same time!!! then i installed my ati all.in.1 wonder 128 pro pci video card, in place of my ancient, generic agp video card. *sigh* i dunno if that's benefitting me much yet. i haven't gotten the ati software to werk properly w/ win xp. i dunno whether to do a fresh, clean install of win xp or just to sit n' wait 4 a new version of the software to pop up on the ati site. i know they're supporting win xp. if u can, i recommendju switch to win xp as soon as u can... that is, if u use windows. heh heh, i know i have a linux fan here or there, n' that's definitely kewl... altho' it's a big mystery to me where u'r finding ur apps. *sigh* oh, it feels good to start my new edition of the beno journal! :-) neway, we spent fri nite doing that 'puter stuff n' talkin' 'bout the wedding. i woke up very late on sat. i had planned to wake up 'round 1000a to go to the post office to pick up our mail, which was held 4 us by the post office while we were on vacation. i woke up @ 1238p. i freaked up, but kaela sleepily reassured me that the post office was only closing @ 200p n' that i should just get up n' go. well, i did. i waited 4 a long time to get our mail. i talked on the fon to jerome 4 a while. i used a new handsfree kit i bought 4 cheap in taipei. it actually werks pretty well. geez, how many lousy handsfree kits have i used? well, this 1 is fine. the 1 roland gave me was really good 2, but i accidentally broke it while in socal. the day we went out w/ supermike, johnny, n' phil, i accidentally left the cord dangling out of the car, so the plug, w/ the microfon volume control, fell off. nuts! well, i brought a bucket full of mail home. kaela was still asleep n' continued to sleep. later, she woke up n' freaked out 'bout going to c wedding sites. haste makes waste, i later told her. we left the apt in a hurry @ 'round 400p, n' we didn't get all that much accomplished. by the time we got to the south bay, it was really dark. we couldn't c much n' weren't even sure where we wanted to go. well, we were also starving. we shared a grande nonfat hot chocolate from starbuck's b4 we drove out to find hakone gardens n' villa montalvo. we were driving kaela's kia cos my subaru needs service. then we ate dinner @ tk noodles cos my dad was telling kaela that she had to try their radish cakes n' cheap noodles. my old leland classmates cindy n' helen luu's families started up that chain of noodle houses. i don't quite understand their specific culture. i believe u call their ppl chow.jo n' they're a ppl from south china. the noodles r similar to vietnamese pho, but a li'l diff. neway, i just wanted to let kaela try out this kind of fud. then kaela realised she needed sole grip sticky things 4 her new boots. we went to target n' did a li'l shopping. we got sidetracked by the psx2 n' gamecube demo stations. i was playing this kewl anime rpg on the psx2. it was fun, but i know we prob'ly made some li'l kids very mad cos we were playing the games, n' they wanted to play. *sigh* well, shoot! we never get to play video games! no time! well, then we drove back up to berkeley w/ plans to come back down to the so bay the next day, on sun. jerome wanted us to hang out, but we were just 2 exhausted. on sun, we went back down, checked out wedding sites, did laundry, n' had dinner w/ my mom @ aqui. i was so exhausted b4 we went out to dinner. i fell asleep on the family room couch.
2day, my cowerkers took a computer programmer out to lunch @ the marin brewing co. this programmer's leaving 4 'nother job, 1 in downtown berkeley. man! i wish i could werk in downtown berkeley!!!
[later, 838p] ugh, i was so tired after werk, so tired n' stuffed from all i ate 2day. in the late afternoon, we had another party 4 the programmer that's leaving. we had this fruit custard tart thingy. i'm so full, n' i'm not in good shape. i'm like 10 lbs over what i've considered my normal weight. i don't like it. i don't think the gained weight is muscle. *sigh* i don't like it. after werk, i went to the bank, made a deposit. then i picked kaela up from yali's café. i took her to safeway, but i was 2 exhausted to go in. i tried to sleep in the car while she slept, but i had a bad parking space 4 that: from 2 directions ppl were driving into the parking lot, entering facing my car, so they'd shine their headlights in my face. so i couldn't sleep. then we went to longs drugs, n' i picked up snowboarding pics from the disposable camera i dropped off on, uh, fri! oh yah, we did that on fri nite, right? so we did leave the house 4 a li'l on fri nite. man, we didn't have a very eventful weekend, did we? it was a pretty "domestic" weekend, but that's fine. we needed to recover from the trip, n' we need to plan 4 the wedding.
well, planning 4 the big uc berkeley taekwondo club snowtrip has become really stressful. i didn't know so many of my friends'd bail on it. i mean... *sigh* i don't mean to sound pissed 'bout it, but it's a li'l frustrating 4 me... cos i spent so much time n' energy planning this big trip, hoping my closer friends'd come, but in the end i've just planned a trip 4 well, some friends n' mostly ppl i don't really know. @ the same time, i feel fine doing that cos i know i gotta assume leadership resposnibilities as a black belt in the uc martial arts program. i know that. i know some of my friends had to bail 4 financial reasons etc. but *sigh* u know, like some of my friends r bailing cos they don't like certain ppl who r going, but man... even tho' i don't blame them, i really don't like the route they're taking. if there r ppl in the taekwondo club that r bad influences, we shouldn't bail! we gotta take a proactive stance or whatever. if we don't take leadership, of course the bad influences will! i don't support these "bad influences" in the taekwondo club, but 'least i hope i can be a good influence by participating in these events. i dunno... i know some ppl think i just care way 2 much 'bout the taekwondo club. i know. but... *sigh* i know my friends do 2. i mean, it's not that all i have in common w/ these certain friends is taekwondo. no. but i really like taekwondo, n' i am gonna spend time w/ ppl who do taekwondo w/ me, so well yah... as i've sed b4, i'll hang out w/ ppl who want to hang out w/ me. *sigh* i dunno. it's sort'f an emotional conflict w/in me, i guess. i guess this sort'f thing makes me go thru introspection of sorts.
i dressed a li'l less sloppily to werk 2day. why? i dunno. i wanted to wear this shirt my mom gave me. i was just in the mood to dress nicer. in the past few months or in the past 2 yrs or so, i feel i've dressed sloppier to werk. i've had my occasional mood swing when i wonder if i dress nicer i'll get more respect n' maybe eventually more pay @ werk. eh! but ppl's attire @ werk varies so much @ my office. i never know what to wear. naturally, on my own, i have a specific style i wish i could wear, i guess... or a coupl'f of styles. like, i like to be sort'f casual sometimes, but i also like wearing like hrm.. upscale clubbing kind'f clothes. that's what i like to wear the most, i guess; but like i also gotta dress casual sometimes, like on my way to n' fro taekwondo practice, right? i try to care 'bout what i wear when i'm "casual" 2 tho'. hrm, i sound so vain, huh? well, shoot. i just think 'bout what i wear now n' then. neway, what was my point? i 4get. well, i just wore a button up shirt n' slacks to werk. in the past yr or so, i've been usually wearing jeans, cords, khakis, or slacks w/ long sleeve polo shirts or occasionally a sweater. 1nce in a rare while in the past couple'f yrs i've worn button up shirts. back when i was an intern @ ebmud, i wore button up shirts more often. the official dress code was that every had to wear a collared shirt to werk @ ebmud. the old electrical engineer @ my company, the 1 who quit, used to wear like t.shirts or sweatshirts to werk. the programmer usually does. since the other 2 engineers left the company, i feel i don't hafta conform to a particular style of dress so much nemore cos there rn't really other engineers, i guess. heh. neway! ha, what kind'f engineer worries 'bout what to wear to werk?! ha ha. *sigh* i dunno: werk is werk. n' they say u get paid more if u look nice, right? well, shoot... i dunno what i can do.
[later, 1048p] well, i sed i want to add more pics to my journal now.
here's a pic:
so i'm trying to get my journal hooked up w/ avantgo. *sigh* i'd like to get it to werk, not so much that i expect ne1 really to want my journal on their handheld/palm/handspring, but cos i just wanna accomplish this as a personal project, u know? well, i put it on my handspring.
[later, 1115p] so when we dropped off our boards @ any mtn 4 tuning,
the guy werking in the shop, who actually cmed decently knowledgeable,
told me that my board is really shot n' that it won't last much longer
cos'f delamination which has let water into the inner layers of the deck.
well, hrm... 1) he's prob'ly just trying to stimulate spending @
any mtn n' in the snowboard industry in general, 2) i don't need a
tip top shape, brand new, sparkling board, 3)however, i do feel like my
tail hasn't been so springy, that i can nollie better than i can ollie.
hrm, so maybe water damage has made my tail less springy?
maybe. neway, i don't have $$$ to throw 'way on a new deck.
i ask the guy 4 my free tune from my tahoe card, n' i'll consider
buying a new deck @ the end of the season. this is my 4th yr on
this deck, n' i have thoroughly thrashed it in the snowpark, i
guess. this just makes it even more messed up that only my
board survived the 1st trip up to tahoe this season.
...or do u daoyu!? on my drive into werk this morn, i was listening to disc 2 of some 3 disc korean dance musik compilation i got in taiwan. i bought a few similar korean dance musik compilation sets. they were decently priced, i guess. they r made in taiwan, not korean imports. that's more common. neway, the album cases have some misprints in the korean text here n' there. it's funny. i like how these cds have the full track of remixes i haven't been able to find the full track of b4 on korean imports.
while driving i realised: koreans call soy milk "dooyoo" or "bean oil." taiwanese call soy sauce "daoyu" or "bean oil." man! this could cause confusin, couldn't it? koreans call soy sauce "kanjang." taiwanese call soy milk "daoling." in mandarin, soy milk is "dojang," but what do u call soy sauce in mandarin? in japanese, it's "shoyu." in taekwondo, we call a place of learning martial arts a "dojang." ok, that's ur asian linguitics lesson 4 2day!
[later] 1154p: what a day. shoot, i don't have ne energy; n' u
know why? cos i don't get exercise! *sigh* werk was bizzy. i drove
my manager to his motel room cos he's staying there 2nite instead of going
back to dublin. then i had a jamba juice 4 lunch n' bought gas.
later in the afternoon, i went to compusa to buy an 80gb usb2.0
external hard drive 4 my werk. 2nite i had the taekwondo snowtrip
meeting. wow, ppl can really tell i'm pretty frazzled. ha,
it's funny the things they say. like this 1 gurl johanna was saying
that i fire off 'nother frantic e.mail every 15 mins. ha ha. true.
oh yah! the beautiful kaela
kang can't come to the snowtrip till sun cos her 4mer boss passed
away, n' she's going to the funeral on sat. crazy, i'll be driving
up to tahoe w/o kaela! :-( but then she'll ride back down w/ me.
after the mtg, clarence, sam chen, kaela, n' i 168ed. we hadn't
168ed in a long time.
i'm typing from my office 'puter 2day instead of writing from my handspring
.
i don't think i'll have time to hotsync my handspring till later
2nite. we're gonna have pizza 4 lunch @ the office 2day.
last nite, i was very gla to c fellow online journalist (super)dave kim started posting
on bronx's. that's kewl.
well, how r u 2day? really! i'd like to know. me, i'm ok. i woke up fine this morn. i ate 5 mandoo leftover from the beautiful kaela kang's lunch yesterday. she steamed 1 batch, then 'nother; but she was 2 full from the 1st batch to eat the 2nd batch. i also grabbed 2 pouches of fruit gushers n' 2 chocochip lowfat quaker granloa chewies to go. on my drive in to werk, i ate a pouch of fruit gushers. in the past week, my "check engine" light had been on. @ the gas station yesterday, i opened up my hood literally to "check engine." i saw that a screw was wiggling loose, a screw that was part of a clamp on a hose 4 my air intake. ah! so when i got back to the office, i tightened the skrew. on my drive home, the "check engine" light was still on, but when we left the rsf, it turned off. it hasn't turned back on since, but thru.out this past week, it has been a li'l off n' on. *shrug* in ne case, i'm bringing my car into albany subaru 4 service 2morrow morn.
kaela's in sacramento 2day 4 an interview. raymond went w/ her cos he wants to go to sac. uh, who drove? i dunno. *shrug* last nite, late @ nite, i werked on sumpthin' 4 my webpage: i uploaded some li'l emoticon/icon/graphics/smiley thingies. [a li'l later] uhm, i guess i just went n' added a handspring icon thingy to the text in the 1st paragraph now, huh? so we had pizza 4 lunch. hrm, i still feel kind'f antisocial @ office gatherings. i think @ that going 'way party thingy, i felt a li'l more talkative, but 2day i was back to feeling antisocial.
u know the funny thing 'bout my handspring icon thingy is that i'll bet i can't even c it when i view my journal on my handspring, huh? 2 small. ha ha ha. but when i view this on my 'puter, it should be 'bout right.
i can't believe i'll be driving up to tahoe on fri nite w/o kaela. it's weird! well, i'll drive her back home, but the drive up n' sat'll be weird! i wonder whom i'll snowboard w/! in case u 4got, kaela's going to a funeral service on fri 4 her 4mer boss who untimely passed away this week. :-(
'bout snowboarding, lemme share a pic w/ u:
so kaela's @ an interview 2day, u know? me, what if i got a new job? *sigh* i sure could use a higher paying job! i sure wouldn't mind a closer job! man, i'd love to werk in downtown berkeley... or even on campus! what kind of job could i find on campus? i figure they prob'ly have engineering grad students werking 4 really cheap or nuthin', right? hrm... dunno; really dunno. i'd like to werk in berkeley, n' i think i'd like werking w/ berkeley ppl. dunno.
[later] so yesterday, i bought this 80gb usb2.0 external hard drive 4 my werk. it's pretty kewl! it werks pretty well. wow! if i ever need 80gb of portable storage, i'd consider buying 1 of these puppies if i had ca$h to throw 'round. :-) i don't understand how fast the data transfer rate is tho'. ne1 know? it's just pretty convenient from what i've cn now. usb: good stuff, huh? they have usb floppy drives. they rn't that cheap tho': like $50-60. kaela always complains 'bout how her floppy drive doesn't werk. do they have compact flash to floppy adapters??? if so, how much? tek stuff, tek stuff, tek stuff. i gotta stay 'way from buying ne gadgets! maybe i can buy them 4 my werk or talk 'bout them, but i gotta stay 'way from buying them. however, last nite clarence did say that the price of ram has gone up n' that it's a good thing i put 1gb of ram in my 'puter when i did. heh heh. :-)
'nuff w/ the tek stuff! i should talk 'bout sumpthin' else!
there must be sumpthin' nonmaterialistic to talk 'bout. no
tek stuff, no snowboard equipment, no talk 'bout what i wore to werk this
or that... well, these past couple'f days i worried that my journal
appears really egocentric n' maybe uh... narcissistic? well, shoot a
personal on.line journal should talk 'bout the author's life,
right? n' well... if i include a pic or 2 of myself every couple'f
days, it's just cos i wanna record how i look like in this time of life, u
know? i'll grow old, right? "even children get older, i'll get
older 2." isn't that the line from the smashing pumpkin's cover of
fleetwood mac's "landslide"? i might have gotten the quote wrong.
i don't wanna get old. "i don't wanna grow up, i'm a toys r'
us kid." no, i know i need to mature now n' then. can't be a
kid 4ever, right? what does that mean? it means
ppl'll kill me if i were to live a party party life all the time as i go
on in yrs, right? well, i dunno. lemme tell u, i want
to have fun! so how is my life supposed to be @ age 26?
am i not allowed to go clubbing? am i supposed to be
engaged? what kind of job am i s'pposed to have? do i care?
u know, yesterday i showed up @ the rsf in the martial arts room in
werkclothes. yesterday, i wore a buttondown shirt n' corduroys.
(i thought i sed i wasn't gonna discuss what i wore to werk!)
i felt a li'l dressier than my sloppier days @ werk, (altho'
i'm just wearing long sleeve polyester polo shirt n' cords 2day). i
went to the martial arts room held that snowtrip mtg n' didn't practice.
i didn't know that i could practice. roland e.mailed
me saying that he heard the rsf was open till 1000p now.
when i got to the rsf, the sign on the rsf door told me that roland was
right. still, i didn't have ne taekwondo or werkout clothes. *sigh*
i need exercise!!!!! 2morrow, i'll lead a demo team werkout,
the 1st in a long time. sometimes leading demo team werkouts isn't
much of a werkout, but my personal goal 4 2morrow's werkout is to get a
werkout! sometimes leading demo team, frankly, has been
frustrating. leadership: what is it? well, i've had to be a
leader of several things in my life thru.out the yrs. this is just
1 thing. i think 'bout my leadership abilities. many times
in my life i've had to think 'bout my leadership abilities, really ponder
them. 
<-- that's my "pensive" icon. i hope it's not 2 small to c.
well, shoot... on a handheld, it must be 2 small, huh? ok, lemme show u my
"pensive" icon: 
better? if not, i'll show u a bigger 1 later! :-) i
still need an "emoticon" 4 a plain smiley. i wouldn't feel right
stealing the ikoncode 1s from bronx's or nething like that. nope.
yah, so i'm gettin' graphical w/ this latest edition of the beno journal, eh? well, i'm just trying to keep w/ the times. i can't believe i'm still just coding in html instead of x.html. *sigh* i feel really primitive. how come i don't do ne flash on my website? *sigh* i know. :-( i gotta keep up w/ the times! neway, u know what? i'll always feel that content is most important. it doesn't matter how flashy u get if u have nuthin' good to say, right?
2morrow's gonna be a big mess. why? i gotta drop of my subaru @ the
shop @ 845a. then i gotta go to werk. then i gotta come back
to berkeley n' lead demo practice. somewhere in btwn that, i gotta
pick up kaela's n' my snowboards from any mtn's repair shop! i'll
call them 2nite. maybe there's a chance they finished them 2nite,
right? well, i gotta get my subaru back from the shop on thurs nite
after practice. heh, i'd better have it by fri or else big trouble.
man, oh man. that's my life, i'm sorry to say. i
dunno if u like it, but that's just how i live. must i be sorry to
say? hrm... more pondering. heh
heh.
i just think mashimaro
looks pensive in that pic. it looks like he's sitting on that
branch next to the toilet w/ a plunger on his head just pondering life.
well... i've cn the flash animation cartoon, n' well... maybe
that's not really what he's doing... or wait a sec! he doesn't put
the plunger on his head in the actually cartoon, right? that pic is just
from the opening screen, right? u know how much kaela n' i like
mashimaro! well, shoot! look how much kaela by herself likes
mashimaro!
sometimes i worry 'bout the state of affairs @ uc martial arts' taekwondo club. i'm very nervous 'bout our hosting the 2002 world university taekwondo championships in june. i'm very nervous 'bout that. it's such a bad time 4 an american university to host this event; w/ the economy in such bad shape n' all. well, the last time we hosted this event was in 1986, right? uhm, wasn't that the 1st world university taekwondo championships? how was the economy back then? we didn't go into recession until 1987, right? or no. hrm, sorry 4 being so bad 'bout economic history! well, from what i quickly read on the web in 15 sec(ond)s, that big stock market crash that sent us into recession happened in 1987, as i thought. so the economy was pretty good in 1986, right? right? or were we on our way down? hrm... i was alive in 1986, how do i 'member it? i 'member being in 5th grade. i felt relatively good 'bout life. i really liked being a 5th grader, being in the oldest grade @ simonds elementary skool in san jo, ca. i was a webelo scout, the highest level of cub scout. i played soccer. well... soccer is a fall sport, so i was playing soccer in the fall of 1986, when i was a 6th grader just starting bret harte middle skool. 5th grade felt good. i felt pretty self.confident. 6th grade sort'f destroyed that confidence. middle skool does that to a kid. 'least, it can. i 'member 1 day in middle skool, prob'ly 6th grade, when i came home from skool n' started crying 4 no reason. uhm, sure; that's pretty embarrassing to talk 'bout, but i'm being pretty open here. come to think of it, @ times when i was a 5th grader, i was pretty cocky. in 6th grade, i think i got a li'l humbled. i won't say "humiliated," just "humbled." i think ppl thought i was a relatively smart kid. hrm... but @ times i felt pretty "uncool," etc. heh, those r the stoopid things that middle skool kids get all depressed over, right? shoot, those r the same things that middle.aged men get depressed over; so don't laff 2 hard! hrm... u know, i guess by 5th grade of elementary skool, i felt i really knew who my friends n' allies were. u know what? i think there were ppl were my enemies earlier in elementary skool, but by 5th grade we were 'least allies. like, guys who were more like bullies to me in 4th grade ended up being my allies in 5th grade, so i felt good 'bout that. i felt i knew who my friends n' allies were, in 5th grade. in 6th grade, in middle skool, i guess there were so many new kids, n' so many of the kids from my elementary skool went to other middle skools. so i felt lost. yah, now that i think 'bout it, i can imagine that i might've come off as undeservingly cocky in 6th grade. u know, by 8th grade, i felt better, just like in 5th grade. like, guys who didn't get 'long w/ me in 6th grade were more my friends by 8th grade, 'least "allies."
hrm, so how do u determine what's "the right" 'mount of self.confidence? there r cocky ppl that really turn me off, ppl i don't like cos they're cocky. however, u know what? i don't necessarily like hangin' w/ ppl who just kick themselves 'round all the time, ppl w/ no self.confidence, wishy washy ppl. no, that's not good. why? well, u end up making decisions 4 them n' feeling 2 responsible 4 them. then that becomes a burden. how do u live ur life n' theirs. a person has barely 'nuff time n' energy to sort out his/her own life, u know? still, if u'r a friend, u can loan a bit of time n' energy to help out a friend. "that's what friends r 4," right? heh, now there's an 80s reference! ha ha.
uhm, how did we go from a discussion of ucmap n' wutc to a discussion 'bout my adolescence?! c? that's why i feel so dang egocentric! well, 'member, we sed i'd think 'bout where my life was in 1986. it's the 1 reference i've got, right? i mean, i was 'live in 1986. however, i guess i shouldn't described how i perceived the economy in 1986. hrm... c? doesn't that mean i'm egocentric? cos i was 2 bizzy thinkin' 'bout my life in 1986 to observe economic trends! uhm, could u possibly 4give an 11 yr old 4 that? <:-) how was my family's expenditure in 1986? didn't we buy a new volvo that yr? hrm, the 80s: wow, it's weird to look back n' think 'bout the hairdos n' fashion. weird, weird, weird.
i really don't like cocky ppl. a person should be able to laff @ his or herself. a person that refuses to laff @ him/herself 1nce in a while... ng! no good! :-) laff... u should laff @churself, but not beat urself up. that sucks 2. hrm, that all sounds really critical, huh? u know what? i've been both neway... i think.
just now, 4 no apparent reason, my cowerker's doggy started crying. oh, i c. it's cos my cowerker closed her shades n' walked out of the office. he thought he was being left behind. i c. however, she came back, n' he stopped crying.
ah, what a day. it's been a full day, a bizy day. soon, it'll be time to go home. not yet, but soon. i dunno; werk these days doesn't feel like werk back in my ebmud days. in those days, 'least 4 a while, i actually drank coffee pretty regularly. actually, in my early days of college, i drank coffee pretty often. i don't drink coffee very often these days, btw. i really don't. 1nce in a while, after a good, fancy dinner, i'll have espresso; but that's 'bout it.
i think 2day, i'll delete my 1st entry from the "recent" page n' just leave it in the archive. yup. that's progress, right? :-) just now i got 'nother 1 of those dumb e.mails from civics@geocities.com that sez my geocities website data transfer rate is above quota. apparently, i'm only 'llowed to have 3gb/month of data transfer, so they make my geocities webpage unavailable when i go over quota. i dunno when they make it available 'gain. 'least ocf is pretty nice. i worry 'bout pissing them off 2, tho'. well, it's good my page is mostly text, right?
[later] well, it's 'bout time to leave the office, i'd say.
:-)
???? ??. if u can't c those korean hangeul characters, please get unionway software. i wanna be able to make my journal a li'l multilingual. if u r reading this from a handheld, then u need to dl hantip. or maybe cjkos werks, but i don't like it so much; altho' that software'd give u chinese, japanese, n' korean, not just korean fonts on ur palm os handheld . ur other choice, on ur 'puter, is just to instal windows w/ asian langauge support. neway... gwiyuhwuhya haeyo. it should be cute. i thought those were the wurds i heard while listening to baek jiyoung's "geudae saengkak" ("?? ??"). i thought, 'ha ha, the beautiful kaela kang'd like those wurds. well, i checked the lyrics on.line. it's not "gwiyuhwuhya haeyo"; it's "kiwuhya haeyo" ("??? ??)"), "it should take care." oh well... sometimes u heard the wrong wurds, u know?
last nite, on my way home, i stopped by 99 ranch. jerome, laura, n' andy were having some of us over 4 dinner. i wanted to pick up some beverages 4 them. also, i wanted to get some taiwanese style raisin bread. c, @ my ahmah's house, we had this delicious taiwanese raisin bread. i was hoping to find some @ either 99 ranch or shengkee. well, i bought sprite n' boone's fuzzy navel n' 1 dzn eggs from 99 ranch, then bought a loaf of not.as.good taiwanese raisin bread from shengkee. i gotta find an asian bakery 'round here that makes raisin bread as soft n' chewy as that kind we had in taiwan! well, i went home after that. i got home b4 kaela. apparently, she took raymond up w/ her, since raymond wanted to go home to sactown to his parents' house to pick up some stuff or sumpthin'. after leaving sacramento, they both went to some bridal store, so raymond helped kaela look 4 wedding dresses. he took pics of her w/ his digital elph, n' she later showed those pics to our friends. she won't let me c them cos i guess ppl say it's bad luck 4 the groom to c the bride in her dress b4 the wedding, right? well, i'm thinking we'll prob'ly have some wedding pics taken b4 the ceremony, so i'll avoid looking @ these pics, but i'll hafta make an exception 4 those wedding pics. i figure, maybe what counts is that i don't c kaela in her wedding dress except 4 when she's all properly preened n' everything. that's 'bout right, right? well, not like she's gonna wear her wedding gown many times. ha ha. neway, so when kaela got back to berkeley w/ raymond, she picked me up from home n' drove us to jerome/andy's. jerome cooked some meat 4 us to eat ssam style (?), wrapped up in lettuce leaves w/ rice n' paste sauce. laura made this kewl mango salsa dip. ah, it was all so yummy. raymond brought some chow mien from his aunt's restaurant in sactown. it was a good dinner, n' we played psx2 games. simpsons road rage is fun! grand theft auto 3 is sick but amusing. we watched the simpsons @ 1100p. i was so exhausted/tired/sleepy. i can't believe i have so little energy these days! man, the taekwondo snowtrip is really stressing me out. i can't believe some ppl e.mailed me yesterday, saying they want their $140 deposit back, even i based the rented cabin size off of how many ppl sent me checks! grr! geez! some ppl! i couldn't believe how nonchalantly these ppl just sed 'could you please send me back my check,' etc. as if! they gotta 'least pay 4 their share of the cabin rent. it's not fair! *sigh* this snowtrip is really frustrating. *sigh* i don't mean to grip 'bout it. i dunno what else to do tho'. it really frustrates me. all i know is i'll get up to tahoe, hit the slopes, n' just have a good time no matter what. i love snow. i love snowboarding. i wanted to help ppl have a good time snowboarding, get the taekwondo club involved w/ snowboarding... it's gotten so messy, but i'm determined to have a good time.
btw, yesterday, i mentioned the gian simmens x156 pro santa cruz deck. do u realise what the graphics on the deck r??? it's a guy djing! ha ha. c? yah, i think that's a kewl board! :-)
man, being in a economic rece$$ion really frickin' $tink$! "i
wish i had a magic monkey paw!" heh heh. *sigh* i do wish i could be so optimistic 'bout finances like i was back in 1999. i wish. :-( it's not like that these days. when the economy sucks, lots'f things suck. u worry 'bout $$$; ur friends worry 'bout $$$. things just rn't as nice! like, 4 1 thing, $$$ really sucks... n' well, it can cause conflicts btwn ppl, even friends. n' when the economy sucks, u end up w/ more of these $$$ conflicts btwn friends, i think. heh, i'm stating the obvious, right? i'd think so, but i dunno. i'm not a smart man. hrm... is that 2 much like beating myself up? i should go 'round saying, "i am a smart man, right?" how 'bout: "i'm good 'nuff. i'm smart 'nuff. n' dogggonit ppl like me." hrm... yah, maybe i should start looking myself in the mirror every morn n' saying that, my "daily affirmation." u think? do i have 2 much self.confidence or 2 little? i'm not sure. well, maybe i'm just egocentric w/ low self.esteem. bah! i shouldn't say that, right? i don't have low self.esteem! u know... really! i don't think so... but i do think i ponder life a bit. do i ponder life 2 much? not enuf? hrm... lemme ponder that 4 a sec: 
on my handspring 2day, i noticed that the "tiny" mashimaro icon is big 'nuff to c on a palm os handheld. oh, handspring visor edge, i should never have doubted u! ha ha ha. neway, yup, that's my "pensive" icon, n' if u click on the image 'bove u can c a bigger version of it... uh, unless i did the link wrong. :-)
man, 2day's a hectic day, 'member? i dropped my car off @ albany subaru this morn n' had them give me a lift back in their courtesy shuttle blue minivan. i took a blueberry doughnut n' a li'l, li'l bit of black coffee from their complimentary breakfast table. can u believe i drank coffee? just a li'l, since i talked 'bout it a li'l somewhere recently. oh yah, i was talkin' 'bout how i used to drink coffee @ ebmud. well, yah; i drank a li'l coffee, just a li'l. i ate a doughnut. the guy dropped me off @ the stoplite @ the nearby intersection, since i sed it was fine. i walked from there. i saw the brown window kitty in the antique store window. it's not ur avg housecat. it's some less domestic breed! it just lounges in the window. i went upstairs. kaela was still asleep n' not ready to go to werk yet. i was able to talk to her a li'l, so she told me just to tak her kia n' go to werk, but to set the alarm clocks 4 her. okilee dokilee. altho' i wanted to leave her some of the raisin bread, i took the loaf cos i didn't have time to divvy it up. neway, *sigh* it's not as good as the bread we had @ ahmah's place, so she's not missing that much. i got in her kia n' drove to werk. i had 'membered to take the fastrak from my car n' the cal rec club parking pass in case we need it 2nite. 2nite's gonna be so bizzy. i'm supposed to go to a uc open mtg w/ dr. lieu, but i dunno if i'll be off werk in time. neway, i sed we'd have demo team practice @ 730p. ugh, i hope this skedule werks out right. i'm nervous. what's 4 lunch? am i hungry? i don't think i'm hungry, but i can't tell; n' i know if i don't eat now, i'll have missed my chance. should i go to the bank n' deposit checks? what should i do? i'd like to be outside instead of inside.
[later] so u know what? i ate kfc 4 lunch, drove out to central san rafael n' went to kfc. ugh, fast fud, huh? well, i was reading dave kim's web journal, n' he mentioned kfc cole slaw somewhere, n' i thought, "hrm, yah... some kfc chicken n' cole slaw wouldn't be bad right 'bout now." kaela doesn't like cole slaw much. kevin yang loves cole slaw. i don't love cole slaw, so it's no big deal that kaela likes cole slaw. hrm... but i guess if guys wanted to throw a bachelor party 4 me, instead of doing nething dumb like hiring a stripper, we could sit 'round n' watch horror movies n' eat cole slaw. after all, those r 2 things i don't do much of w/ kaela. but really! i don't love cole slaw. neway, i had a 3 strips meal w/ cole slaw n' mashed potatoes. w/ the small drink, it was like $6.20. man, just a simple fast fud kfc meal in marin county is so expen$ive. or is it like that everywhere? *sigh* the bad economy's making me eat unhealthily. i'm werking harder 4 less $$$, n' my diet is suffering. in the past, i'd never eat fast fud! 'member when i was werking in sf? i never ate fast fud then, but fast fud wasn't much of an option, 'cept when i drove out to marin county to run errands. actually, there is a kfc (maybe even a kfc / taco bell combo) on geary, but i never went there. i ate chicken burritos, turkey sandwiches, n' bagels all the time in sf. my dad told uncle "jeff" that he could find out what i eat by reading my journal. shoot, i never really realised that i talk 'bout my daily diet so much here, u know? i guess it's pretty obvious, but i didn't really think 'bout it. i don't mean to make this a fud journal, but i guess it's partially that. hrm... but it's more than that... i hope. the san rafael kfc has this buffet, n' lots'f mexican n' white labourers / blue.collar werkers go there 4 the buffet. i dunno how much the buffet is, but it's prob'ly not much more than what i paid 4 my lunch. still, i really wouldn't have wanted to eat buffet. ugh! u kidding me? i didn't even finish my meal. the blue collar werkers prob'ly scoffed @ how li'l i ate. "greenhorn?! who's a greenhorn?! what's a greenhorn?!" ha ha.
this afternoon, my manager gave me a per4mance review, which he sed was overdue since nov. i guess so, huh? i was pleased to hear i got a pretty good review, but u know... raise? *sigh* i was not surprised @ all when my manager sed, "well, i could give u a retroactive 5% raise that goes back to last november, but..." uh... i 4get what he sed, but basically, shoot... we dunno if the raise'd go into effect b4 the company runs out of $$$, huh? man, that's depressing! ugh! :-( u know, i shouldn't talk 2 much 'bout this kind'f company stuff, so i won't say 2 much more. i never know if ne cowerkers check my journal or what, u know?
well, albany subaru just called to ask if they can keep my car overnite to fix it. i'm glad the repairs r covered by warranty. they sed they'll have it done by noon 2morrow. yah, i think it should be ok. i just hope i can get this all sorted out b4 departure time 4 the snowtrip, u know? that's a must. hrm... maybe i can even meet kaela 4 lunch in berkeley n' then swap cars. yah, that'd be fine... n' in tobytalk, that'd be dope! :-) i do need to call toby back, but i don't have ne time to chat right now. it's a usual bizzy werkday 4 me, u know?
[later] i feel all weird 2day, a li'l jittery or nervous or sumpthin'. it's crazy to think, but maybe it's that li'l bit of coffee i had this morn! i feel really jittery! when i was sitting in my manager's office 4 the per4mance review thingy, i just felt really weird, maybe a li'l lightheaded or sumpthin'. crazy. n' then i walked back to the imaging lab, afterwards, to do some biz, n' i just still felt really like weird. it's hard to describe. i think i still feel weird. it's like i feel like sumpthin' big n' bad has just happened, but i know nuthin' really big or bad has just happened. maybe it's just the stress of the snowtrip planning? actually, right b4 lunch i felt really good cos i had a bit of a breakthru in getting rides 4 ppl. as i left 4 lunch, i was almost joyous over such a petty thing. well, i was happy 'bout it. i felt a li'l relieved. @ times, 2day, i've felt like i didn't get 'nuff sleep, but u know what? i actually did! i went to sleep @ a very decent time yesterday. i woke up early this morn n' couldn't really fall back asleep. i tried. then eventually, i prob'ly slept 4 a very short time then woke up to the alarm n' took a shower. i woke up really easily. it was nice n' warm in our room thanks to the wall heater. ugh, even tho' it's not quite as cold as december, it's still not very warm in berkeley; so i still worry 'bout the pg&e bill. :-( 'least we switched to fluourescent bulbs now! :-) kaela was so enthusiastic 'bout that! that's good. i'm glad she was so revved up 'bout changing the bulbs. boy, oh boy... 2 day is a hectic day tho'. is that why i feel jittery? is it cos i gotta go pick up the snowboards n' get to the rsf in time 2nite? geez, i'm s'pposed to go to that uc open mtg; but since i likely can't, i should fire off an e.mail to dr. lieu, huh? uhm, i'm kind'f blabbing right now, rn't i? *sigh* c? i'm all jittery! i'm writing 2 much, huh? oh yah, i drank some diet pepsi 
n' dr. pepper w/ my kfc lunch. ugh! i hate support republican pepsico! can u believe they don't have storm or ne kind'f lemon.lime soda @ the soda bar there? i was looking 4 it, but didn't find it. i saw orange slice, n' i started looking 4 lemon.lime slice. i 4got that lemon.lime slice doesn't exist nemore, that it's called storm now. i should update/redo my index page, huh? well, ppl tell me they like the nutritional facts 4mat, but uh, i dunno. i do feel its time to change sumpthin' on my webpage. uh, when i find time! *sigh*
[later] 615p: i'm missing the uc open mtg right now n' frantically doing stuff 4 the snowtrip, while trying to make it to pick up our boards n' go to demo team practice! 2morrow, kaela needs to go somewhere 4 her werk. what do i do 'bout a car?! i'm screwed!
well, the snowtrip came n' went. the group was pretty good n' responsible, making my life easier. on fri nite, i left berkeley w/o the beautiful kaela kang. i picked up young, clarence, mikey, n' deanna. we headed up i.80 to tahoe. we had dinner @ in.n.out in roseville. i accidentally ordered a 2x2 meal, when i just wanted a 1xmeat meal. upes. 3 cars got to the cabin b4 us. i took a small bed in the loft of the cabin. i had to take a ladder to the loft, but i figured it was @ least a bed, n' i was sharing the loft w/ my passengers. the loft had 2 small twin beds, n' this other driver jose, who arrived right after us took that bed. i thought it was kind'f cold in the loft. i didn't get the greatest sleep cos i was 2 cold. in the morn, we took off 4 boreal. i had to do lots'f werk in arranging this trip n' lots'f werk during the trip, but it was fun.
on sat, @ boreal, i boarded w/ lots'f ppl. i got to do some freestyle n' boardercross. it was fun n' intense. i hadn't boarded so much @ 1nce w/o a break in a long time! it was like back in the days when i'd board w/ supermike, i guess. we had pasta 4 dinner in the cabin. i didn't eat much. i was just so exhausted. i wanted to sleep, but i had stuff to do n' i did wanna hang out n' socialise a li'l.
on sun, we left late to squaw. finally, i was reunited w/ kaela. jerome, laura, roland, n' alice came up w/ kaela. the group rate deal @ squaw was less stress 4 me than the group deal @ squaw. it was a li'l awkward 4 me @ squaw cos there was the big group that boarded w/ me on sat n' wanted to board w/ me 'gain n' then there were my closer friends who mostly rn't as experienced as most of the ppl i boarded w/ on sat. of course, kaela n' i were gonna stick 2gether. as kaela sed later, it would've been nice if darlene could've boarded w/ us. back in the old days when i'd board w/ darlene, kaela wasn't experienced 'nuff; but now she can board w/ us fine. we 1st boarded w/ jerome, laura, roland, n' alice. @ 130p, we had to meet w/ the official trip group, so we left them. oh yah, earlier when we sat w/ the smaller crew @ the "high camp" lodge's cafe, we saw the olympic torch go by! i snapped a couple'f pics. later @ lunch, we found out ting got to hold the olympic torch! after lunch, wei came w/ us to do some steeper slopes than we did in the morn. it was a short day; 'least it felt like a short day to us. sat was a much fuller day.
in the evening, most of the trip ppl went into town to eat @ the casino restauant. i felt bad cos some ppl got left out cos their drivers left w/o them. that was sort'f messed up. my car was packed.
sun was me n' kaela's 2nd anniversary. i felt so bad that i couldn't do much to celebrate it that day. kaela brought me a present: a new toiletry bag n' a tie clip! she brought a cake from shengkee n' 2 bottles of champagne. i guess she wanted to share these w/ the group, but linda had already brought 2 cheesecakes, so i told kaela we could just take them back home. i felt so bad that this snowtrip had to coincide w/ our anniversary... but i guess we got 2gether @ the peak of the snowboarding season, n' snowboarding's been a big part of our relationship n' our lives, like taekwondo. still, i was very sad i couldn't do more on sun. i have dinner reservation 4 wed tho'.
on mon morn, we packed up to go. it was hard to wake kaela up. she finally got up when young went in to wake her up. oh yah! the snowtrip participants actually gave me a diff room to sleep in, a nicer 1 downstairs w/ a queen bed. they let me know on sat, since they were all asleep on fri nite... 'least the 1s that were already there. the drive home on mon was crazy! there was a big, big backup on i.80 cos'f a snowstorm. 1nce 'gain, i was sooooo glad i have my subaru n' don't hafta chain up. i drove cautiously. i think maybe the insurance companies r right that guys drive more carefully after age 25. i think i now appreciate n' take use my all wheel drive w/o ne notion of invincibility. i think i drive slower now. i wasn't that much of a speed demon in the old days (compared to some other guys); but i honestly think i'm much more careful now. *sigh* weird to think.
2day, i was so sleepy @ werk. i was a li'l depressed cos my cowerker, the programmer, is leaving. i'm depressed cos the 2 of us took on the werk of 4 ppl who left in the past coupl'f months. he'd been here a long time' but of course not as long as i have. he also graduated from cal' but several yrs b4 me. i think we really got 'lonq. he used to bring that labrador puppy to werk. i'm very nervous 'bout his departure. like me, he really believed in the company. others also really believed in the company; but i know certain others just wanted to make a quick buck n' get out. *sigh* i need to look 4 a new job. :-( where?! dunno. :-( c? li'l depressed 2day.
[later] 707p: i'm @ home. kaela's still @ werk. now, i'm typing on my 'puter instead of scribbling on my handspring. i should be getting stuff ready 4 2nite's demo team practice. 'member the days when i used to come home from werk 'round 600p, then take a nap b4 taekwondo practice? it's been a very long time since i was able to nap b4 practice; a very long time. time flies, doesn't it? it really does. in those days, i was already werking @ this present company. i've been werking @ this company 4 over 3 yrs. that's a very long time. so if i'm gonna need to find a new job... well, that takes time. i never have time during my werkday to do stuff like that... uhm, i'd feel pretty uncom4table doing that @ werk 2... but that's all silly, isn't it? there was a time n' place when looking 4 'nother job on company time was a very disloyal thing to do... altho' so many ppl were doing it. nowadays @ my company? ppl won't even know it... will they care? dang, it's prob'ly expected. *sigh* what can nebody say? me, i need $$$ to pay the bills, this company right now doesn't have $$$ to give me to pay the bills, u know? :-( there was a time when ppl'd might've scolded me saying i should be looking 4 a job during my hours after werk... that or studying 4 the gre. they would've sed i was wasting so much time in my evenings going to taekwondo practice. well, shoot. these days, i don't go to practice that much. look @ me! i'm an out.of.shape, fat slob! so what's been eating up my time? *shrug* snowboarding? no, i don't go that much... maybe it's writing this journal! is writing this journal some kind of shameful vice? does it eat up time? what do i get out of it? what the heck do u get out of it?! u learn what i ate 4 lunch. i didn't even tell u what i ate 4 lunch 2day: i ate a chicken picante burrito @ roadrunner burrito. instead of my usual black beans i got pinto beans, the kind that kaela likes. i still had whole wheat tortilla. i went to the larkspur landing roadrunner burrito after going off to san rafael to buy gas @ the beacon gas station. the 1 i go to now is always 1 cent cheaper than the 1 @ the major intersection... it's down a li'l rd, just a li'l bit away from the 1 @ the major intersection. i save my penny on each gallon. after lunch, i strolled the corte madera village mall. it's a ghost town there. there r some good deals, but it's a ghost town. ppl just don't have the $$$ they used to, right? i sure don't, right? hrm, or have things changed that much? "has the world changed, or have i changed?" that's a quote from the smiths' "the queen is dead." btw, i wanna thank kelly (llamrei of bronx's) 4 signing my gbook. it is a diff gbook from the 1 u prob'ly last signed! as u know, i'm constantly changing my gbook, so u can have fun signing it over n' over 'gain! :-)
well, it's still anniversary "season." :-) 2morrow nite, i'll
take kaela out. i have reservations @ a restaurant. i think
it'll be good. :-) yes, i'm very happy to be w/ kaela. u know i'm a
lucky man, very lucky. i try to be a good person... try. as
they always say, "behind every great man is an even greater woman," right?
i hope that doesn't mean kaela has'ta be behind me, but i do
appreciate that she's stuck w/ me n' is by my side! :-)
this morn, on the net, i found an interesting product: a gomadic visor edge to mobile phone internet cable. i'm very interested, but i dunno if i'd be able to get it to werk 4 me. *shrug* so how r u 2day? of course, i wanna thank the beautiful kaela kang 4 1nce 'gain gracing my gbook w/ her presence. :-)
last nite, i ran demo practice. heh, we got our new demo team jackets! :-) they r part of a warm up suit, but i dunno where our pants r. :-o practice was pretty good, altho' we were far from ready to do the runthru that apparently master yoon thought we'd be ready to do. u know, it felt so good to get some exercise finally! my legs feel a li'l sore, but that makes me feel alive! 'member "i feel sore alive," the entry from last yr sometime? yah, i feel sore alive. it's good. after practice, after showering, kaela n' i walked w/ raymond to my car, which kaela parked on oxford. c, after werk, i came home n' put a frozen lasagne in the oven. when i left 4 practice, i had to pick up kaela from werk, but u know what? i 4got to turn off the oven! thus kaela dropped me off @ the rsf to get practice started as the demo team leader, n' she drove my car back home n' turned off the oven. then she drove back, parked on the crowded berkeley streets (crowded now that skool's back in session), n' came to practice. i'm so thankful she did that 4 me. really, she did her duty as a demo team member! u know? i mean, sometimes i'm running late to practice, n' i feel ppl r just like, "where the $#@$ is beno? if he doesn't show up in 5 mins, i'm going home!" n' stuff like that. grrr! u know? why should i lead a group that'd think like that? instead of complaining that i'm late n' that we're wasting time, how 'bout giving me a hand instead?! well, kaela did... i know ppl'd say that "oh she's ur fiancée; of course, she'll do that!" neway, that's besides the pt. really, she was last nite's demo team mvp! neway... where was i? well, raymond, kaela, n' i had to walk far to get to my car. i need to get a new cal rec club parking pass. kaela wasn't sure if she could park @ the rsf meters last nite, so she parked far, on the street. it was 2 late 4 boba drinks. we just went home. kaela n' i ate the lasagne, not all of it just enuf. we missed the simpsons cos we all dillydallied @ the rsf 2 long. well, i guess it was just good to c every1 back 'gain. after dinner (weird to call it dinner when it's @ 1130p, huh?), i werked on my resume. i need to update my online resume. i sent my resume to 1 company. i can imagine it being a good job 4 me. *sigh* do u realise how underpaid i am right now?! ha, the whole idea of werking 4 stock options? *sigh* it's all so far 'way now, huh? i guess it's all 'bout cold, hard ca$h now, right? *sigh* right b4 dinner, i talked to seunghwan. he's moving to toronto soon. we'll hang w/ him on thurs nite. it'll be good to c him. it's weird cos i never c seunghwan n' chals @ the same time, n' they live 2gether. seunghwan moved out to cali 4 a job, but the job disappeared (cos'f the messed up economy) by the time he got here. thus he's moving to toronto... also cos'f immmigration probs. why am i saying "thus," so much?
i'm wondering if i should change 2nite's 800p reservation to an earlier time? not sure. i think we could make it earlier, but i don't wanna miss the reservation either. :-/ man! i'd really love to get some .gif emoticons goin' in here! these ascii smileys? they're ok, but i'm willing to get w/ the times n' get graphical. ha! it's not like u'all'r reading this journal via gopher! ha ha ha! yah, u must be using 'least mosaic! huh huh huh *snort* ok, sorry 4 the nerdy sarcasm! i'm not that much of a teknogeek, right??? <:-( hrm, i did start out this entry discussing a yuppie teknogadget! *shiver* scary! well, if i am a yuppie teknogeek, ain't that 'least worth sumpthin' in the job market?! gimme a job! :-) please?
ah, i 'member going to job fairs! :-) ah, going to job fairs @ the end of the 90s, when the economy was great... we'd get all sorts'f freebies cos companies wanted us! :-) ha ha ha. wasn't that kewl? just think 'bout all those toys n' trinkets they handed out. uhm, do they still do that?
[a li'l later] ah, i ate lunch. man, i worry that my stomach stretched out over winter break cos yesterday, i wasn't that full after eating my burrito. i'm ok right now. i ate some of that veggie lasagne n' a huge orange, the last of that bag of oranges we bought from pusan plaza. those oranges were huge! i had to throw 'way 2 of them cos they started growing penicilin on them. yuck! xp well, that veggie lasagne ain't healthy veggie lasagne; it's like veggie alfredo lasagne. nuts! it's pretty good, but man! it's so bad 4 me! :-( bad bad bad! my cowerker who's leaving, his wife (who sort'f werks 4 our comapny) just came in w/ their cute lab/daschund puppy. i'm really gonna miss that puppy! *sigh* so... is writing this journal that much of a waste of time? like, could i really use the time i put into writing this journal 2wards finding a good job? *sigh* dunno. i should go to the bank right now, shouldn't i?
[later] i never made it to the bank cos my manager n' i got in a conversation 'bout cars, buying cars, n' car maintenance. he just bought a new mazda protegé. it was good to have a conversation @ werk. u know... that's rare 4 me. 2 often my cowerkers talk 'bout, i dunno, movies that i never saw or that were "b4 my time," musik that i never heard or that was "b4 my time," etc. or hrm... they talk 'bout shows they saw on pbs or discovery channel. i guess, if i had to watch more tv, i'd rather watch pbs or discovery channel instead of some other netwerks... i guess.
[later] has it been a while since i last whined 'bout getting old, etc? ha ha. do i whine 'bout getting old, or do i just talk 'bout it? i hope u don't think i whine. do i feel i'm getting old? yesterday, i talked 'bout driving slower now that i'm older. hrm, lemme tell u! i do wanna avoid those doubled speeding ticket fines that clarence told me 'bout. he sed all traffic violation fines doubled as of this past new yr. really? well, shoot! i really don't wanna get a speeding ticket! heh, :-) do u? ha ha. *sigh* well, this morn, i dropped kaela off on campus 4 her class. i dunno if she actually had her class. i haven't talked to her since this morn, n' she was unsure if the class was actually gonna happen 2day. *sigh* i wish she would say that this won't be a stressful semester 4 her! i wish... but i know it'll be stressful, that she has her thesis to write, etc. u know, driving on campus nowadays, i really feel 2 old 4 the college scene. don't i? i mean, i have lots'f friends from taekwondo who r young, but hrm... it's like i think by now, college students gotta perceive me as an older person helping out w/ taekwondo n' thus knowing some college kids... that as opposed to some1 who is their friend cos we're 'bout the same age. uh, am i making ne sense? i dunno. i think, actually, i started thinkin' 'bout this during the snowtrip. i felt pretty old. of course, ting n' randy were there, n' they're much older than i am. garth's the same age as me, but he doesn't show ne signs that he thinks 'bout his being much older than these college kids. i've been 'round berkeley 4 a long time. i have! i've been in the taekwondo program 4 a long time. as i've sed many times b4, my role's gradually shifting: i used to be a college kid in the program, but i'm slowly shifting roles to that of the older members, the guys who graduated a long time 'go but like to werkout n' provide support. they end up doing much of the office werk n' administrative stuff. they don't get to practice as much as they want to, i'm sure. *sigh* that's not great, i guess; but they r very generous ppl. yah, i respect them. neway, *sigh* i dunno why i'm talkin' 'bout that stuff. u know... it really isn't certain where the heck i'll be like in a yr. shoot, i really hope hope hope that i'll be in cali4nia. i really don't wanna move out of cali4nia. will kaela find a job out of the bay area? will i? u know... really! i need to find more $$$, find a better job... n' i need to go where the $$$ is or whatever. :-( that sounds so... i dunno... what's the wurd i'm looking 4? bleak? pessimistic? i dunno. it's 1 of those "harsh reality" things that realists like to throw @ me, i guess. seunghwan mentioned that he feels so bad that he didn't get to enjoy the bay area to the full extent. he wanted to stay here 4 'least a yr or so, but he got booted out after like 6 months. he thinks he'd really like it here, n' wants to come back to give it 'nother try asap. i do like the bay area. *sigh* when i look on monster.com, i look in the east bay n' in san jo / silly valley. so far, i haven't looked outside those 2 areas. uhm, i guess i should tho'.
[later] after surfing on monster.com 4 a while, i feel a li'l depressed. will i find nething?! last nite, i saw a posting 4 a job i thought i might like in a location i'd like. i sent them my resume. *sigh* i dunno if nething'll happen w/ that tho'... well, shoot! that's stating the obvious, right? u never know what'll happen when u fire off ur résumé, right? *sigh* i need $$$. why won'tchu ppl pay me 4 being an on.line journal writer?! [later] 2day's a weird date: 0123. there's all these movies that kaela n' i haven't watched yet! we haven't watched a movie in a long, long time! hrm, maybe we can watch a movie on fri nite? *shrug* dunno. [a li'l later] i haven't put ne graphics on my journal in a while. i don't have ne good pics lately. hrm, i could take a digital pic of myself in my cubicle or whatever; 'nother self.portrait to show how i look right now. well, i'm very shaggy right now. i need a haircut, badly need 1. i weighed in @ 154 lbs last nite, so i guess i might look 'bout the same as i have in the past 2 yrs but heavier than i was circa 1999. do i look older? *shrug* dunno, but i do worry 'bout it. i dont "streses" 'bout it, but i don't like aging. oh! it's not "aging"! it's "growing up"! *sigh* u think? maybe i can find more icons to use 'round here. do u want more bunny icons??? just let me know, i guess.
[later] well, i gotta bust outta here soon. we have dinner
reservations @ 800p, as i sed. i'm taking kaela out to dinner 4 our
2nd anniversary, as i sed. :-) yes, that's a happy thing! i'm very
happy that kaela's been w/ me 4 2 yrs. i really love her. :-)
i'm gonna write this entry on my handspring.
last nite, i took the beautiful kaela kang out
to dinner @ rivoli restaurant on solano ave. in berkeley.
ah, such good fud so close! i took her out to celebrate our 2nd
anniversary
, which happened last sun. u hadn't
4gotten, hadju? we had a wonderful dinner. berkeley
restaurants... or "fine" berkeley restaurants rule! i.e. "fine" berkeley
restaurants kick @$$! they kick big time, super obese, succulent
@$$!!! why? cos they have good fud yet r pretty humble n' modest in
attitude; i.e. they r really "com4table." like, i'd say rivoli, lalime's, n' café rouge r
like this. actually, rivoli reminds me of lalime's. i had
"portabella" shroom fritters as an appetizer. didn't we have
portabella n' sweetbread fritters @ lalime's? kaela had an endive
n' feta salad 4 a starter. entrées? seafud choucroute 4
kaela n' "chicken cooked 2 ways" 4 me. the 2 ways were baked n'
fried, i guess. that makes it sound not nearly as good as it
actually was! it was very good. we had apple crepes
n' coffee 4 dessert n' had a german reisling w/ dinner. it was all
so good. u know what? since the economy suck so bad, prices
@ fancy schmancy restaurants have gone down a li'l. that's
good! not 'nuff .com billionaires.on.paper to fill their seats
these days.
here's a pic that roanna medina posted on the "caltkdteam" yahoo! club page:
n' a movie?
i haven't had sushi in 2 long, n' i haven't cn a movie in longer!
so... who wants to hang out??? heh, who's reading this?
i have kitty pawprints on my hood. i like that. can we not say "life is good"? sure, the economy sucks, but we can find happiness!
yesterday, i got 3 e.mails from old friends 'bout kaela's n' my engagement. it's good to get substantial letters from friends, e.mails that rn't 'bout how much $$$ some1 owes me, when we hafta meet 4 a mtg, etc.
[a li'l later] can u believe, in korea, mcyukyuk's has a kimchi
burger?! i've eaten their bulgogi burger but now am curious
'bout their kimchi burger. i had leftover vegetable lasagne 'gain 4
lunch. it's not healthy vegetable lasagne! it's cheesy, fatt'ning,
alfredo lasagne w/ some veggies. i dropped kaela off @ skool this
morn. b4 we left home, i ate 2 slices of the shengkee cake, our
"anniversary" cake. i've eaten like 4 slices, n' kaela hasn't eaten
ne @ all. it's delicious cake, but i shouldn't eat so much cake.
why do they spell it "shengkee"?!?! it's pronounced "sungji."
what r we gonna do this weekend? i tell u, i wanna go watch
a movie on fri... n' eat sushi!
[later] a couple'f weeks 'go, when kaela went to safeway, while i tried to sleep in the car, parked in the lot; kaela bought some snacks: chocochip quaker low fat chewies, fruit gushers, powerpuff girl fruit rollups, fruit by the foot. i bring some of those snacks w/ me to werk sometimes. a li'l while 'go, i ate a chocochip quaker chewy (granola bar). it makes me think of elementary, middle, n' hi skool, when kids'd have those fuds in their bag lunches. in the future, what will our kids want in their lunches? there's this oscar meyer lunchables commercial that really bugs kaela n' me. we can only hope our kids won't pout 4 not getting brand name, commercial, packaged lunch products like lunchables! scary!
[much later] *sigh* what a bizzy day! 'nother bizzy day! 2 much to do.
:-( i gotta get outta here!
129a: man! i really do wanna buy this gomadic visor edge to startac fon modem cable thingy! it'll let me use my startac fon as a wireless modem 4 my visor! i e.mailed them to ask 'bout the warranty. they sed they'll refund me if it doesn't werk, it has a 30 day warranty, n' if i buy a v60c fon upgrade, they'll give me a v60c compatible cable 4 50% off. that's pretty good customer service, i'd say. really, it's hard to find that kind of customer support these days, i think. *shrug* dunno.
[later] late morn: i wanna thank a semi.anonymous reader 4 signing my gbook. :-) yah, maybe my new 4mat makes u scroll 2 much. i'll c what i can change, but i confess that i might not be the best web designer in the world. *sigh* i don't have my soundsgood mp3 player w/ me 2day cos i left it in my big green backpack after the big snowtrip. :-( i could use some musik w/ me @ werk 2day.
[later] so i really wanna watch a movie 2nite! sure, a
beautiful mind sounds fine. or ocean's 11, lord of the
rings, i am sam. the count of monte cristo, the royal
tenenbaums, or... well, the beautiful kaela kang
won't watch the mothman prophecies n' maybe not brotherhood of
the wolf, but i would. i wonder how vanilla sky is.
will i watch a movie 2nite? who wants to go w/ me?
can we eat sushi well, last nite i ate some cali rolls w/ my chicken teriyaki dinner @
daruma. we went to eat w/ seunghwan, since he's moving to toronto
on sat. this morn, i e.mailed him 'bout the visor edge to cell fon
cable since he also owns n' uses a visor edge uhm, is it ok if i write to u while on the toilet? [later] i was wondering why no1 was e.mailing me. then i
realised there was a prob w/ my unix based e.mail program (pine). i
closed n' reopened it n' found all these e.mails ppl had sent me this
afternoon. :-)
[later] to illustrate how shaggy i am right now, here's a pic: [later] so i call this the 1st real fri nite of the yr cos its
the 1st fri in berkeley w/o big plans like snowtrip plans etc.
hrm... n' the weekend b4 that, we were just plain exhausted,
'member? 750p: so we had demo practice. this morn, the beautiful kaela kang n' i woke up a bit
late. she was s'pposed to have that eye appt w/ dr. susan link @
1130a, but she reskeduled it 4 1230p when we woke up late.
actually, i woke up early to take a shower, then went back to sleep.
i would've showered yesterday, but i was just way 2 tired after
coming home from jerome n' andy's. c, we went there last nite n'
had dinner n' watched office space w/ a bunch'f ppl.
earlier yesterday afternoon (fri), kaela went shopping in sf w/ laura n'
roland. then laura dropped kaela off w/ me @ home, n' i drove us
back to the americana apt. laura n' kaela cooked some pasta... some
ravioli. oh yah! kaela n' i 1st went to blockbuster video to rent
scary movie 2 n' the princess diaries. parking there
was uh... heck! :-) (no need 4 profanity, right?) well, we ate pasta,
played andy's psx2 (simpsons' road rage n' ssx2) n' watched office
space.
2day, we went to walmart in pittsburg (where dr. susan link's office
is). we bought a few things from walmart. i drove to
richmond via san pablo dam rd. we ate pho @ the 99 mall. we
bought some buns from shengkee after looking @ bunny paraphenelia. 210a: we just came back from watching the count of monte cristo.
hrm... i really enjoyed this action flick, but i gotta say: it cmed
very homosexual on so many levels! yah, i really have
nuthin' 'gainst homosexuals or homosexuality, altho' i am totally
straight. i'm just making an observation. the count of
monte cristo was the "gayest" movie i've cn since happy
together... or hrm... had i cn a more homosexual movie since happy
together? prob'ly not.
[later] 102p: so we gotta do housewerk 2day. so many chores to
do. we've started laundry now.
[later]1115p: man, the whole day was spent doing laundry. we
also watched the princess diaries n' scary movie 2. i
cooked dduhkbokki 4 lunch n' chicken dumpling soup (from a costco bought
kit) 4 dinner. so much laundry! the beautiful kaela kang cut my hair!
the only time i left the apt 2day was when i went to safeway b4 cooking
the dduhkbokki. this morn, i drove the beautiful kaela kang to skool.
she woke up pretty ok; she sed she felt refreshed. good; i like to
hear that. we hurried out the door 4 her 900a class. i wish
i had 'membered to grab a frozen dinner out of the freezer 4 my lunch
2day. upes. does this mean i'll hafta go out to forage 4
expen$ive marin county fud?! :-( nuts. roadrunner burrito?
overpriced mcyukyuk's or bk? *shrug* dunno. neway, kaela @ 1st sed
she'd take my umbrella to skool, but it was sunny as we drove in to
campus. i didn't c ne1 w/ an umbrella. she asked me if she
should still bring the umbrella. well, when u ask some1 that kind
of question... well, when i'm asked that question, i think 'bout
how i'll be held responsible 4 the person's being soaked in rain if i say
that he/she shouldn't bring an umbrella n' then it rains.
n', of course, i think 'bout how the person'll hafta lug an umbrella
'round in the sun if it doesn't rain. what if the person
losing the umbrella on a rainy day? neway! i made up my mind n'
spoke: i told her not to bring the umbrella. as i drove off to
werk, i changed th cd. i removed the baek jiyoung cd i got in
taiwan n' put in my 2nd copy of lee yoonjung's album. c, i have 2
copies cos i ordered the cd from yesasia.com, then i
didn't receive, so i told them. they sent a 2nd copy. then
the 1st copy came. well, shoot! to send it back? it wouldn't be
worth it to either of us. there was a time last fall when the usps
was soooo slow. actually, that cd was backordered. it
was s'pposed to come w/ the rest of a bigger order i had from them.
neway... that's what i listened to on the way in: lee yoonjung. there's the
link to her "official" homepage. i think u'll find plenty of
internet links 'bout baek jiyoung since she got into that big, videotaped
sex "scandal" way back when. *roll eyes* geez, how can u call it a
"scandal"?! all that happened was that she had sexual relations w/ her
exbf, n' he was jerk 'nuff videotape it w/o her permission n' sell it to
the press or whatever. well, i don't totally have the story
memorised as i'm not the biggest baek jiyoung devotee or nething
like that. i know either her manager was her bf or her
manager got the tape from her bf n' sold it. sumpthin' like that.
i'm sure plenty of the other bronx's junkyard forums ppl know the whole story like
the backs of their hands. not me. lemme tell u, it
was very kewl to meet up w/ bronx's junkyard forums member chris
(photon) in taiwan!
when i got to the bridge, i took out my handsfree kit n' called toby
back. he called me last nite while kaela was cutting my hair.
i guess i would've called him back 'cept i got so sleepy n' went to
bed. nelson also called me yesterday, but i haven't called him back
yet. i haven't checked my voicemail yet since these calls.
apparently toby left me a voicemail 'bout his jeff kan's possibly not
being able to take the white belt taekwondo class w/ him. jeff kan
is a guy i knew from 'long time 'go n' who's now toby's neighbour.
c, i know hisolder sister elaine a better. we 1st met while
ushering 4 some concert @ stanfurd. i think a taiwanese violinist
was playing w/ a korean pianist or sumpthin' like that, so a bunch of us
kids from the south bay taiwanese youth group went to usher 4 the concert.
elaine n' jeff were part of some big cousins netwerk w/ bunch of
other kids i knew. they were all cousins somehow... either thru
near or distant blood relations or else thru marriage. i guess of
that big family i knew elaine n' jeff n' their cousins tracy n' jessie
best. ha, jessie was always such a big troublemaker when he was in
middle skool n' hi skool. @ those taiwanese youth camps, he'd give
the counselors so much stress! heh, but in hi skool, even tho' he was a
clown n' an attention getter, he was really socially responsible, so we
counselors liked him. neway! yah, toby called n' nelson called.
i'll check my voicemail soon, n' in ne case, i'll call nelson 2day.
i think (super)mike lim called me last week but didn't leave a msg.
*sigh* sometimes i don't call ppl back so promptly when i know
it'll be a long conversation... these ppl r definitely ppl i consider my
friends! i just know i'll talk to them 4 a while, u know?
sometimes i wonder if that means i have social anxiety. wait!
that's not what social anxiety's 'bout! social anxiety is when u get all
nervous 'bout a big group situation, right? yah, so i'm totally
thinking in the wrong direction. neway, i like catching up w/ ol'
friends, but i want 'nuff time to do it. if i know some1's calling
me just to say, "hey, the movie's @ 1040p," i know it won't take long n'll
call back asap. *sigh* man, so many things to do in life, u know?
like, i need to get the musik 2gether 4 2morrow nite's big demo.
i found some korean buddhist meditation musik. i think it'll be
right 4 that. it's funny that most korean.ams just assume all
korean culture is so "christian" cos so many korean.ams r christian n'
many of those korean.am christians r very, uh... zealous. like,
many christian korean.ams don't realise how buddhist n' confucian korean
culture is. neway, i don't think of taekwondo meditation, let 'lone
just a demonstration of taekwondo meditation, is much of a buddhist
experience; but the musik sounds very right 4 meditation. it's that
quiet asian flute kind'f stuff. according to the mp3 label, it's by
some kim dongyoung guy. *shrug* heh, the track i like 37 mins long.
what'll dr. min say if we just meditate 4 37 mins? ha ha ha. :-)
dang, that'd be a stressless demo 4 me! :-)
yesterday, we did tons of laundry. i had to carry 2 full
hampers up the stairs last nite, n' i tripped on the stairs. upes!
so i have a bandage on my left knuckles right now cos i scraped
them 'gainst the stucco wall of our apt bldg's exterior. no big
deal! it's just funny cos if i have bandages on like that, ppl'll assume
the wound is from some big taekwondo experience, like i was breaking
bricks or boards n' cut myself; or i got in a fight n' punched some1 n'
cut myself. *roll eyes* well, on thurs nite, i also scratched
myself up after practice. my right pinky toe's nail was a bit sharp
n' i accidentally cut my right foot. xp geez, the dumb scratches n'
scrapes i get, eh? talk 'bout lame!
so i wonder how u all r doing. those of u w/ on.line journals,
i should go read those now. well, shoot. i hope u've updated
them! heh. ok, i just read johnny chang's online journal. hrm... when guys
have pics of their gfs all over the webpages, if i get caught reading
their journals @ werk... man! ppl'll say stuff! :-) but johnny, u've got a
great page. thanks 4 keeping up ur journal! sometime, we
should meet up, eh? yah, i don't think it's bad to have pics of ur
gf/fiancé/wife on ur webpage. no, it's great! it's good to
know how u'r doing n' how ur partner's doing, n' a pic is worth 1000
wurds, right? now i'm reading jeongkang's journal. looks like jeongkang right
a good n' entry 2day or... yesterday. it's a bit long, so i'll
spend some time reading it now. ok done. good job, hyung. :-)
i already checked some other peep's journals, but they weren't
updated. kathy/kyungmin (moonbabie on bronx's) updated, n' roger (maxpower) updated on fri. kathy, indian fud is
good. pkphil, i
just checked ur page. man, take care of ur foot, which ur friend
ran over w/ her car. well, i hope other on.line journal keepers /
bloggers update their journals soon. man, i miss "moonhee's illustrated daily journal," which he hasn't
updated since this summer. :-( he had such cute cartoons!
uhm, yah... so did i ever get to talkin 'bout the snow?! shoot!
so i was driving in over the san rafael bridge, n' i saw the
snow!!! there's snow in marin county!!! not just on mt. tam, but on the
foothills, the small hills! when i got in to my office, my cowerker
told me it snowed in novato, like 0.5 inch! crazy! man, what if
there's snow on grizzly peak? i wonder if there's snow in san jo on
mt. hamilton or mt. uhmunum. how do u spell that name? (beno tries
to speel but fails miserbably.) oh! it's spelled "umunhum"!!! dang,
there's a webcam atop mt. umunhum, but the webpage isn't werking. :-( hrm!
or maybe my company's firewallin' me from it! a.ha! yah, that happens, u
know. oh well. so dang! there's so much snow! i heard last
winter, i think it was, when it snowed in the san jo mtn's, ppl went up n'
tried to snowboard in san jo. eh! geez, i'm sure that's 1 way to
scratch up ur base fast. i wanna go snowboarding this weekend.
i do. it rained last nite in berkeley as we were going to
sleep. as we were going to sleep, kaela heard the rain n' sed that
it was raining. i listened, n' i heard the rain.
in my office 2day, i have my soundsgood mp3 player on my handspring, n'
i'm happily listening to mp3s. right now i've got kim gunmo's
"gaji anhneun gil" (the road not taken) playing. heh, isn't this
such a claptonesque ballad?! hrm, i wonder if master jang likes
this song; cms like his style. ooh! now i heard it snowed in the oakland
hills! kewl! *sigh* yah, i 'member when it snowed in san jo. i've
toldju this story many times. it was in my 8th grade, in uh...
1989, i guess... like jan or feb, i guess. i was out
skateboarding, n' it snowed. the snow melted when it hit the
ground. last, last sat when we were @ boreal, it snowed, n' the
snow came down in actual snowflakes! i like that.
[a li'l later] i was just listening to the calling's "wherever you will
go" on my soundsgood. man, what if they had telnet 4 palm os?
hrm, that'd be kewl w/ that visor edge to startac cable.
ooh! i think they do! "tucows pda telnet". uhm, i think it's
palm os n' not pocket pc. yah, it's gotta be. hrm, there's mocha
pocket telnet n' there's palmtelnet. hrm... which shoudl i use? i guess i
want 1 that'll emulate a vt100 term. *shrug* heh, so i'm getting into
full.on nerd mode, now, eh? c.mon y.all! getchu'r nerd on!
well, shoot! i might hafta test out several programs b4 i find the 1 i
want, which'll be the 1 that'll werk best. right? hey those tucows
cow icons r kewl! they use cows instead of stars 4 ratings! :-) all
the pda telnet programs get 4 cows. nuts. [a li'l later] i just changed
the frames layout a li'l. hopefully, u won't hafta scroll so much.
*sigh* well, shoot... i'll try to fix it even more when i figure
out a better arrangement. [later] office space was a pretty funny
movie, huh? yah, andy is like me in that he likes those kinds'f
gen.xish movies... like the new jersey trilogy thingy... those
clerks, chasing amy, dogma, whatever movies. i
haven't cn jay n' silent bob strike back yet, but i still wanna c
it on video! i meant to return those 2 videos this morn, but
since we were in such a hurry this morn, i 4got. so... office
space: andy thought i'd really like it cos i'd relate to werking
life... werking cubicle life. yah, i do. i werk in a
cubicle, but i werk 4 a small company, not a big company. i
used to werk 4 a big comapny, ebmud, but it was a semi.government
job, not a big corporate job. it's diff. heh, i don't think
i'd ever go fishing w/ a neighbour like the guy in office space.
heh, i had this dream this morn, that i got into a small car
accident. my brakes weren't werking, so i accidentally, slightly
rear.ended some jeep cherokee or sumpthin'. kaela was w/ me.
neway, i gotta stop n' get out even tho' it was just a small tap.
well, the driver was like a uh... a redneck u know? n' i told him i
was sorry that i just barely hit him n' it was cos my brakes were messed
up. then he sed sumpthin' like 'that's cos u'r driving a damn
import! that'd never happen on an american car!' or sumpthin' like that.
n' i sed sumpthin' like 'yah, i really would've wanted to buy an
american car, but there was nuthin' good.' (i was driving my subaru in my
dream.) neway, the dream went on 4 a while. somehow i spent
some time w/ this "redneck." we talked 'bout sumtphin', but i 4get.
neway, i 'member i talked to him 4 a while, n' it wasn't like
violent or nething. i don't think the guy totally changed his
attitude after the conversation, but i cm to feel like i somehow
positively affected his view on guys like me... asian guys, i guess.
*shrug* i mean, as an asian guy, i think i encounter those kinds of
situations, where i feel i gotta prove to some1 who's prejudiced 'gainst
asians that i am not what they think. u know? *shrug* really! if
u'r an asian guy reading this, u must understand 'least a li'l what i
mean, right? like, what do u do when u encounter prejudiced ppl in
america as an asian.am? sometimes it's just not worth. some
prejudiced bigots r just not worthwhile ppl. heh, "some"??? u can
figure, eh! sheesh that person'll never get newhere in life, who cares?
just let them think whatever, as long as he stays out of my way, etc.
but then there r other times when, as an asian.am guy, i just feel,
"dang, i gotta represent!", "i gotta show that the asian.am community
deserves to exist in this country!", etc. 'member, i think in the
past i mentioned some article i prob'ly read on.line or in a
magazine 'bout how asian.am men gotta take it easy sometimes; that we
all think that the future of the asian.am community all rests upon how we
handle some 1 single encounter w/ a nonasian, etc. u know? well,
werking in marin county, where asians r definitelya minority
(unlike in berkeley on campus), i think i encounter situations now n' then
where i feel i'm put to the test. 'is this asian guy a respectable
human being, or does he suck just by virtue of being asian?' ain't that
the question every1 here's asking? i was born in america. i
was raised in america. i speak english. but!!! u know what?
i really like asian culture. i really respect asian
culture. must i do everything in a nonasian way to "fit in" in
this country? well, what if i wanna do things asian style?!
personally, i think i have the right. *yawn* i have the right to exist as
an asian n' asian.am man! it's cold in my cubicle. i'm
hungry.
oh yah! speaking of yesasia.com, i got my 1st associates program
paycheck from them. heh, well shoot! it was more of a rebate.
i get a kickback if ppl buy yesasia.com merchandise thru my
website, right? well, yah... i got $16.58 back from them. heh, it's
pretty much just a percentage of whatever i spend there myself via my
link. i know, in the past, jerome n' brandie bought stuff from
angelpop via my website, but i think this paycheck is actually from all my
own purchses. i think jerome buys from yesasia.com via bronx's
(peter's) link. that's fine. i like bronx's junkyard, n' i
wanna support it, so that's kewl. still, i think i should just use
my own link. if i win the lottery someday, i'll donate some $$$ to
bjunkyard.com. ain't that a trite question? "what would you do if
you won the lottery?" shoot! well, i'd buy a house! i'd hrm... i'd buy
stuff 4 kaela! :-) i'd buy stuff 4 my family. i'd buy some stuff 4
my friends, i guess. i'd donate $$$ to ucmap, so they wouldn't
have such ghetto 'puters in their office! i'd maybe donate to other
university programs... like the college of engineering or sumpthin'.
dunno. neway, that's a trite question, isn't it?
[later] @ lunch, i went to eat @ fresh choice, n' then i went to the
post office to mail off a check, then i went to the bank in greenbrae to
make a deposit, then i went to compusa in san rafael to buy a serial cable
4 the a ups (uninterruptable power supply) @ the office. during
lunch, i had many, many thoughts i wanted to write down. uhm, i
might've 4gotten them all. i had so many thoughts. i already
started writing this entry on my remote unix acct, so i didn't want to
start writing on my handspring cos i wouldn't be able to upload that text
until i got home. uhm, well, i guess i could've jotted down some
notes, right? well, u know what? the check i sent off was 4
a cheap, cheap deal i got on ebay 4 a 2nd hotsync/charger usb cradle 4 my
handspring visor edge, so i can hotsync @ werk. heh, notice, i
really like handspring stuff? man, what if i got a job @
handspring? heh heh. u know? i really like this memplug springboard
that is out on the market. it lets u plug compact flash memory
cards or smartmedia cards into ur handspring. that's kewl.
2day, buy.com's "price mistake of the day" deal [slightly later] while i was driving there was this 1 lee yoongjung
track that really caught me. i think it's called "akiko 67," n' it
has this 60s jazz sound w/ muted electric guitar or whatever u'd call it.
i like it.
[later] man, it's pretty annoying n' embarassing that the ucmap website is
soooo outdated, uninformative, n' disorganised! well,
raymond is in charge of it, but he sez he can't do much to fix it cos
everything that goes up needs to be approved by dr. min. man, i
dunno; but i really dislike our webpage!
[later] evening: dang, it's really time to bust out'f this blasted
cubicle! ...this cubie. why am i still here? i was wasting a
bunch'f time trying to hook up an old powerpc mac to the company's netwerk
cos they need to pull some files off of it. *sigh* man, that 'puter felt
so ancient. i pretty much never werk w/ macs. it was very
weird. i didn't move the files off. nope. *sigh* i really
gotta get out of here. demo practice is gonna start 0.5 hr early.
i need to burn that musik onto a cd. *sigh* hrm... i'm not
totally sure what other musik i wanna use 4 the demo. maybe a lee
junghyun track off of magic to go to my star. dunno.
neway, i really gotta bust outta here! "early" in the morn: i came to werk early 2day cos i need to leave
early to attend all the taekwondo events 2nite. @ 530p, we have a
black belt mtg. @ 600p, we have the promotional ceremony. @
700p, we have our big, big wutc press conference demo. after that, we have
our big wutc press banquet. man, i came to werk in normal
werkclothes. b4 i leave the office, i should change into taekwondo
clothes w/ my demo team warmups on top. then after the demo, i need
to shower n' change into a suit 4 the press banquet! argh! what a day! n'
my stomach feels all yucky! it feels like i ate n' went to sleep
last nite. i sort'f did. after practice, raymond, the
beautiful kaela kang, n' i
went to sweetheart café on durant. i had a boba drink [later, continuing after werking 4 a bit] we left the durant fud
ghetto. i brought raymond over to our place cos he needed to
borrow a suit jacket or "sportscoat" or whatever from me. i lent
him my banana republic black suit jacket. then i drove him home.
i came back. kaela n' i ate a li'l bit of leftover chicken
dumpling soup that was very starchy. i wrote a li'l e.mail n'
massaged kaela's back a li'l. then i went to bed. i pretty
promptly fell asleep. it's so cold in berkeley 'gain! rent's
due this week. man... *sigh* i feel i have lots'f bills n' stuff! i
don't get it. why is my checking acct balance so low? i
spent 2 much @ christmas, n' i deposited all my $$$ into savings not
checking. *sigh* finances suck. $$$ sucks.
[later] early in the afternoon: i ate leftover dduhkbokki 4 lunch.
i cooked that dduhkbokki w/ many not.so.fresh ingredients.
c, we went grocery shopping @ pusan plaza, what, like the week that we
came back from taiwan or so. then there was the snowtrip weekend,
n' then i finally cooked the dduhkbokki on sun. urgh. so
yah, the odaeng (fishcake) wasn't very fresh. the baekchu (bei chai
/ napa cabbage) was not very fresh. the shrooms, not very fresh.
oh! do u
actually not know what dduhkbokki is? hey check out this
site: www.ttukboki.com. even if u do know what
dduhkboki is, check it out! :-) it's got this cute mascot "bboggi"man.
he looks like a... uh... uh... i dunno what he looks like!
but he looks like he's got worms growing out of his head... hrm... i
know i had a better resource 4 dduhkbokki education somewhere! oh
yah! here it is: ttukboki.hihome.com. ah, that's the resource i
meant to direct u to! :-) oh shoot! what am i thinking? all these sites r
in korean... if u can read korean, u prob'ly know what dduhkboki is.
(duh!) so... uhm, hrm... neway, i guess what i was thinking was that u
could look @ the pictures n' get an idea. here, in case u'r totally
clueless, here's a decent picture: dduhkbokki pic. neway!!! i ate leftover
dduhkbokki 4 lunch, lots of it, lots'f not.so.fresh dduhkbokki. i
felt kind'f yucky in the stomach afterwards. that happens when i
eat not.so.fresh leftovers. i think i worry so much as i'm eating
that i'm gonna get a stomach ache that my stomach starts feeling bad. ng.
(ng = no good, ok?)
kaela has swimming classes in the morn. man, i wish i could have
physical fitness activities during the day! instead, i sit in front
of a 'puter monitor or somewhere in my office n' get fat. :-( i don't like
that. 'least when i werked @ ebmud, we had our own gym! >:-( i
mean... i don't expect my li'l company to buy a gym, of course, but geez!
i wish i could werk 'gain 4 a company that has a gym! i was
thinking 4 a sec what i should do w/ this fri. i guess i have this
fri off due to the way things go @ my office. i was thinking 4 a
split sec: "hey, i should go watch mothman prophecies cos kaela'll
have class." eh! i think i have better things to do w/ my time. i
could either werk on my djing stuff, pack 4 tahoe, clean up the 'partment,
or werk on finding a new job, right? oh yah, so i guess we're going
to tahoe 'gain this weekend w/ a group of p.crew ol' timers.
uh, i wonder if they mind my discussing it on.line. *sigh* i
guess sometimes ppl get all upset 'bout that kind'f stuff cos i mention
some event on.line, n' they don't wanna invite every1! :-( *sigh* eh!
frick. 2 late, if they don't like it tuff. there r some
things i don't mention on my journal cos ppl tell me not to.
really, if u really want me not to mention something on.line,
then... i guess just say it. i mean, heh... i honestly think some
of my friends r deathly afraid that i'll say sumpthin' on.line that they
don't want me to. yah, i talk 'bout what i do each day, over the weekend,
etc. so yah, when i have friends that have "exclusive" events or
want to exclude certain ppl... yah, i guess they worry i'll mention it
on.line n' some1'll read it, this n' that. *sigh* geez... yah, ain't that
just the grand dilemma 'bout having an on.line journal? me, i
prefer just to live a shameless life, an honest life. i really try
not to do things in life that r so shameful that i can't mention them
on.line, i guess. heh... but it's not like i'm that much of
a moral, moral man! *roll eyes* 'of frickin' course, i per4m my
daily sins.' heh... i just thought that sentence'd sound kewl. hrm...
maybe that's how i make cynics gravitate 2wards me, as i mentioned b4.
weird. *shrug* but yah, i am not cynical, n' i am not w/o sin.
*breathe* ah, so well... how r u?
wow, it's well into the afternoon now. i've gotta leave early 2day.
this feels very awkward. i'm usually the very last to leave,
n' i usually leave way after every1 else has left, u know? weird!
it feels so early, but it's not that far off till i check out 4 the
day. sally just recently found out 'bout kaela's n' my engagement.
whoa, i didn't realise we didn't tell her; but i guess we haven't
cn her in a long time. hrm, she never came over to our place, huh?
we invited her to our housewarming party, but she couldn't make it.
neway, she told us we'd better tell dr. min 2day b4 the black belt
mtg. ok, so 1 more thing to do 2day. crazy, huh? i'm
actually not per4ming all that much @ demo, but i've taken more of a
director role. i've done that in the past. there've been
times i was more active in the demos, n' there were times when i played
director more. u know... *sigh* lemme tell u, "demo team leader"? i
don't think ppl realise what it's like to be in my role, sometimes.
like, yah, it's a "leadership" position, but u know... i don't always want
to do what i hafta do. like, i sometimes get the impression ppl
think i want to be in some kind'f leadership/power position. do i?
u know, i'd rather be simply practicing taekwondo. @ the
same time, some1's gotta be the demo team leader. when i'm
demo team leader, organisational activities eat into my practice time...
organisation n' coaching activities. sometimes tho, u know. *sigh*
i do wish ppl'd just cooperate w/ me a li'l more to make the
"organisational" stuff run smoother... cos geez! like, if ppl rn't gonna
listen to me when i need to say sumpthin', shoot! yah, i'd rather be just
off kickin' padles n' improving my own techniques instead of sacrificing
my practice time to organise the demo team. in recent days, i've
tried to express this msg to the demo team members... n' i'll continue to
do so. neway, u know i avoid talkin' 'bout demo team n'
taekwondo politics 2 much here cos it's just not right, in some ways...
but well, i think this is fine.
[later] almost evening: ha ha, funny! i won a bizness card drawing @
the greenbrae chevy's, the 1 near my werk. i won a free happy hr 4
my office on a mon-thurs, 400-700p. ha, what's up? how come i win
these things? 'member? i won that free bowling party... but then i
never used the certificate, n' it expired. that 1, since it was @
albany bowl, i figured i wanted to use 4 my berkeley friends... but
this 1, since it's in marin county, i might as well use 4 my actual
cowerkers. heh, well, we'll c. man, i can't believe it's almost time to
bust out of here, n' it's not even 500p yet. so this is
what it's like to werk a normal werkhour day! check out thekron 4 tv news website.
scroll down to "kron 4 news videos." then click on "tae kwon
do championship." the video opens w/ jerome kicking paddles.
it shows more of the demo than we pessimistically expected, but doesn't,
of course, show all of the 20 min show. i don't think u can c
either me or the beautiful kaela kang. oh well.
they interviewed jason han n' dr. min. [later, early
afternoon, as opposed to "morning," when i started this entry] u'd better
view that video asap cos i dunno when they'll take it down or whatever.
i'm having a very productive day @ werk 2day. heh, since i left
early yesterday, i think cowerkers might be scared that i went to a job
interview or sumpthin'. nope. i'm hungry n' want lunch, but
i'm on a roll w/ my werk. i have korean fud leftovers from last
nite in my car but no rice! i should brinq them in from my car n'
refrigerate them.
[later, still haven't had lunch] after the demo, we put the room back
in order. then we showered (well, some of us showered), got
dressed, n' went to the press banquet. kaela looked fabulous. :-)
[later, late afternoon] after the banquet a bunch of us went to the
korean bar eumak seisang, aka "world beat." the famous competitor
esther kim was our special guest, i guess. we had a good time w/
both demo n' competition team members.
i walked to mcyukyuk's 4 lunch n' had a mcdouble meal. i browsed
in r.e.i. n' any mountain. i think the x.pro gian simmens board
doesn't come in a 156 size, only 152 or 159. they do
have an x.156, but (if it matters) it has diff graphics. of course
i know it's lame to care, but it does feel better to have graphics
u like, i guess.
check out this cute pic of a hamster n' a "microdrive," which i hear is compatible
w/ compact flash. apparently, u can find cheap compact flash on
ebay. shoot! u can find mashimaro products on ebay!
[later] if u like cute snowboard graphics, then howzabout this
cute santa cruz logo: [later] oh yah, last nite kaela n' i told dr. min n' dr. ur 'bout our
engagement. dr. min gave us serious advice n' a congratulations.
dr. ur teased me sayinq he was jealous or sumpthin' but then
congratulated us. ha, that was interesting.
[a li'l later] dang, i wish dsl were cheap, n' we had it @ home.
i got get the heck outta my office! what a day! i
still haven't called nelson back. [later] so i went to blockbuster
n' rented swordfish n' tortilla soup 4 us. we'll eat
leftovers from last nite. so last nite, we watched tortilla soup n' swordfish.
ok, the beautiful kaela kang fell asleep during swordfish, so i
guess she only watched part of it. she didn't know that
tortilla soup is a latino.american remake of ang lee's eat drink
man woman. i knew that, but i only recently learned
that. i 4get where... it was on some trivia quiz... maybe on the
screen @ the movie theatre or sumtphin'... but we didn't go to ne movies
lately 'cept 4 the count of monte cristo, n' by the time we got
there, the previews had started. maybe it was when i played some
trivia game on flipside.com 1 day last week. *shrug* neway, we
watched the movies.
tortilla soup was pretty good, but i think cos i'm so familiar
w/ eat drink man woman, i can't help but feel it fell a li'l short
of the original. @ the same time, i think it was a good effort, n'
definitely not a bad movie. ha ha, wait till u c whom they
casted 4 the "studly" p.e. teacher! ha ha. yah, the movie has its
differences but stays pretty true to the original.
swordfish: well, shoot. when i saw the commercials when
it 1st came out, i was pretty hyped to go watch it. then i noticed
the hyped died down pretty quickly, so i knew sumpthin' was wrong.
yet i still wanted to give it a shot cos i liked those
commercials so much. eh! it really wasn't all that! *sigh*
so i guess tortilla soup was the better of the 2 movies.
neither will now become my favourite movie or nething, but i guess neither
really, really sucked. heh. :-) neway, last fri when we rented
scary movie 2 n' the princess diary, i thought there were
tons of movies i wanted to c @ blockbuster. last nite, the store
was so quiet n' the shelves were all stocked, yet i felt i couldn't find
that many movies i wanted to watch. *sigh* maybe we can watch
the fast and the furious sometime. even tho' the commercials
made me think it's a dumb movie, it cms to have caused a bit of a buzz
'mongst the younger generation. i just wanna c what all the hype's
'bout. i considered renting a horror movie to watch on fri morn,
while kaela'll be in class, but i dunno... i didn't. jay and silent bob
strike back doesn't come out on video till the end of feb according to
blockbuster.com. nuts. i considered rat race.
4 some reason the trailer made the movie somewhat appealing to me.
i've always thought cuba gooding jr.'s a good actor, but uhm... snow
dogs? u know, i love doggies, but uhm, i dunno if this
disney movie'll be ne good.
[later, in the afternoon] a bunch'f us from werk, we went to lotus
indian buffet in san rafael 4 a going away lunch 4 our programmer, the 1
w/ the lab/daschund puppy. i'm so full! [a few mins
later] man, i can't believe it's the last day of jan! it's the last
day of the 1st month. oh! i 4got to mention that on the way from
the banquet to eumak seisang, i stopped by toby's to give him his dobok n'
jeff's n' pick up my christmas present from him. he gave me a ck
short.sleeve shirt n' the dvd of bad boys. yesterday, kaela
tried to play roland's chicken run dvd on her 'puter's dvd/cdr/cdrw
drive, but she couldn't get it to werk. hrm... we need some dvd
player software. we don't own a dvd playet; but 'member... i wanna
get 1 w/o a region code. is till gotta go home to san jo n' do the
region code hack to my mom's dvd player. region codes suck!
so i was looking @ the blockbuster homepage, n' did this movie rating
thing that helps u find movies u might want to watch. it pted out
that i still haven't cn good will hunting. i dunno if i'll
love the movie, but i do wanna know what "how do u like 'dem
apples?" is 'bout!!! i've cn that expression used on reruns of the
old 70s tv show taxi. while we were in tahoe 4 the "big"
snowtrip, we saw a rerun of perfect strangers as we were packing to
go home. some ppl love that show, n' others think it's really
racist. balki bartokamus is naive, but he points out the
absurdities of american culture... but he's also quite a clutz. so
does the show portray immigrants in a negative way? or is it good
american social commentary? or is it just plain lame? or is
it 1 of the greatest shows that ever aired?
so 2nite is the 1st "real" taekwondo club practice of the semester.
crazy. i hope i'm in shape. i'm glad i gave the demo
team a decent werkout a coupl'f times last week. i hope that
helped. [quite a bit later] so i had to drive out to san rafael to
drop off a 'puter system to ship out @ fedex. man! u know what? i
hafta werk 2morrow now. i get mon off, but i werk 2morrow. *sigh* i
wanted to take off to tahoe early. now what? confused. i'll
try to werk earlier n' leave earlier tho', i guess. it shouldn't be
a hard day; that's 4 sure. well. heh... stuff like that's
never 4 sure!!! who knows when i'll get all sorts'f stressful werk
all the sudden? *sigh* well, i'm obviously not gonna rent a horror
movie n' watch it 2morrow while kaela's in class. what will i do on
mon? *shrug* @ nite we have demo team practice. during the day?
i guess bum 'round berkeley, do housewerk, werk on dj stuff. heh!
same ol' same ol', right? or uh... werk on my résumé
stuff? it's not so much that i'd werk on my
résumé, i guess i'd be looking 4 places to send my
résumé. *sigh* yah, i came in late 2 werk a li'l 2day.
my manager bugged me 'bout that a li'l. urgh. i had a hard
time waking up... n' then i drove kaela to campus. u know... i
think i had a hard time waking up cos'f the partying on tues nite.
when u party, sometimes it takes more than a day to recover...
sometimes, it feels like it takes a whole week to recover!
neway, it's not like i partied that hard. i guess i
really started this semester off w/ some big stress w/ the snowtrip n' big
wutc demo n' all... but i sort'f have a break altho' we have
some big demo during the 0.5time of the cal v. ucla basketball game on feb
21. i sort'f have a break. i'll try to chill,
try to relax, try to kick back, try to breathe, try to remain calm.
well, shoot! it's time to get all that wedding planning biz done, no
doubt!!! *sigh* u know, 1 of eileen n' harry kim's friend asked me to help
him prepare some musik 4 his wedding in feb by burning cds 4 him.
really, tho'... i can't commit to sumpthin' like that these days... i feel
sort'f bad cos i don't want him to have a messed up reception, but dang!
i've been running 'round so much lately organising this n' that... *sigh*
hrm... i just wanna live a healthy life, eat healthy fud, n' get good
exercise!!! i wanna have a decent werkout 2nite. :-)
hey, u know what? i have some advice... u know, b4 u ever buy nething,
check e.bay 1st. however, make sure u check the
shipping co$ts 2. [a li'l later] so this morn, kaela was saying
she wants to install the palm os adobe acrobat reader on her handspring.
:-) kewl. c, palm os handhelds r kewl! :-) u can do so much
w/ 'em! well, maybe since i'm werkin' 2morrow, my visor edge to
startac internet cable'll arrive. i got a package 2day, but it was
some other 'puter part 4 my werk. oh yah, i didn't check my office
mailbox 2day. upes. hrm... i wonder when it'll get here.
well, 2nite, we have a ucopen mtg after the practice. *sigh*
well, kaela n' i r the committee heads 4 the volunteers committee.
:-/ well, really... as long as the other committee heads cooperate, it's
not that bad of a job, i guess... it really helps when the
other committee heads try to manage their volunteers well. i know
when i was the concessions or hospitality committee head, i called
all my volunteers myself to make sure they were gonna come, n' i made sure
i knew where they were during the event, etc.
neway, 2morrow nite, we'll be off to tahoe. on the slopes this
weekend, we can use the walkie.talkies that roland gave us 4 christmas.
:-) u know what? when i was a kid, i really
wanted a pair of walkie.talkies. i really did. then my mom
actually gave me a pair 4 christmas. but then... i didn't really
have ne1 to use them w/. like... i guess i had a friend that'd come
over... but we didn't many opportunities really use them, in the
end... but i appreciate that my mom gave them to me. i dunno where
they r now.
[a li'l later] ok, kaela called me. i'm gonna spend mon fixing
her 'puter. i gotta pick her up from starbucks when i get back to
berkeley. i really dislike picking her up from that starbucks cos i
can't park. 2nite there's a cal basketball game. ugh! u know
what that means, right? *sigh* it means parking'll be near
impossible! :-( ok, i gotta bust outta here! [a few sec(ond)s later] oh!
i 4got to title this entry... hrm, what to call this entry? i can't
believe 2morrow's fri. heh, ok. that's the title. i can imagine
using that title over n' over 'gain! so i'm @ werk 2day. i saw our accoutant upstairs has his giant
golden retriever dusty @ werk 2day. i like that dog. u
know... yesterday i was driving in to werk, n' i knew i was late,
but i just felt so... ugh, i dunno... a bit fed up. like, i
knew i'd sort'f get chewed out 4 being late, but i was just
thinking, "dang! why do i hafta drive out to marin county 4 werk every
day? i wish i werked somewhere where i knew i could get a boba drink @
lunch every day. *grumble* *grumble* :-( " yah, that was my thought
on my way in to werk yesterday. well, it's fri. tgif, u
could say, right? yes, tgif indeed. :-) 2nite we leave 4 tahoe.
that is good. that is very good.
last nite, we had the 1st official taekwondo club practice 4 the spring
2002 semester. hey! toby started taekwondo! :-) he's a white belt.
brian chi, sophia, jeff wang, n' pam r teaching his class.
funny; so many instructors! :-D funny funny. eh! but they're good
ppl, so i'm sure it won't be a "2 many cooks spoil the soup" deal; nope,
not @ all. our practice (black belt / red belt class) practice went
fine. it's nice to have the semester on the way. we had our
uc open mtg. it was in the office, so that the competition team ppl
could use the mat 4 practice. afterwards, we were supposed to go to
this surprise b.day party 4 christina fu @ blake's, but i was really 2
tired to go party... like tired from this week, not the practice.
also, i knew i'd be coming in to werk 2day, so u know... i just didn't
wanna party party. funny; master yoon gave the beautiful kaela kang n'
me a roast beef n' cheese sandwich. i have no clue where he got
it, but it was pretty good. he might have brought it from home cos
it was wrapped in foil. *shrug* dunno, but it was good. some of us
r going off to tahoe 2nite, u know... so we were discussing the rides,
lodging, lift tix, n' all those plans last nite. *sigh* i was
kind'f frustrated cos it was taking a long time, n' i wanted to shower, go
home, n' sleep. neway... the ride situation was/is so messy.
like, i know i'm driving, but there's like 'lot more ppl going, i
obviously can't drive 'em all, n' no1 was committing to driving.
that was frustrating.
i have a schpiel on that: u know, here... i'll be cocky 4 a sec. @ the same time!!! @ the same time i do want to share the
snowboarding experience w/ my friends. i think i'm friends w/ many
ppl who didn't get to go snowboarding as kids... i didn't get to go
snowboarding as a kid cos snowboards didn't exist yet! ha ha ha. well, i
went skiing 1nce in 8th grade... i'm so hungry. i'm here in my office all alone now. from
my cubicle, i can c my car, n' the license plate holder says, "i'd rather
be snowboarding. that has almost never been so true as it is now.
[quite a bit later] i ate a huuuuge burrito @ puentez taqueria in san
rafael. i ate that huge super deluxe chile verde burrito that fell
apart; then i pondered deleting most of what i wrote above in this entry.
*sigh* i know it sounds very cocky, but i sed what i sed 4 a
reason. i mean to inspire n' motivate not rag or demean. u
know, i'm sure tho' that some taekwondo ppl'd say the same thing 'bout
taekwondo. sumpthin' like 'i'm so good @ taekwondo, n' if u wanna
be good @ taekwondo then u ought to make the sacrifices i made.'
true. u know... but my msg to ppl this semester is that i'd
be better @ taekwondo if i weren't given so many organizational duties, n'
i need ppl to help me w/ these organizational duties so i can catch back
up in taekwondo skills... really! i could be better if i just
didn't have so much organizational crap to take care of... but does ne1
care? *shrug* i dunno. maybe i'm just considered 2 old, so
i'm just s'pposed to take care of more organizational things n' get less
practice. *sigh* if so, that sucks. neway, i'm sure ne1 who's good
@ nething'll hafta admit they didn't get good @ whatever they're good @
w/o some sacrifice. shoot, if we all sat 'round on our butts eating
doritos in front of the tv, none of us would be good @ much, would we?
hrm, well, we might be good @ tv trivia... n' that'd come @ the
price of sacrificing exercise time, etc... of course, u could exercise on
a exercise bike or stairmaster n' watch tv... but u'd be
sacrificing doritos... unless u can exercise n' eat doritos @ the same
time. i, personally wouldn't want to. *sigh* i can't believe
i ate that huge burrito. "i can't believe i ate the whole thing."
that's homer's quote. wasn't it his senior quote in the yrbook?
so on my way to san rafael, i saw this uhm, like marshy swamp on the
way. i saw these 2 rocks sticking out of the swamp, n' saw a wake
'round them. u know what i mean? like sumpthin' was
wiggling or vibrating or moving. whoa! much to my delite the rocks
weren't rocks, but they were duck butts!!!! it was a pair of ducks
sticking their heads into the water, prob'ly to look 4 fud! i love
how their butts stick in the air when they look underwater 4 fud! :-)
i can't believe how politically conservative the world's gotten.
i was participating on some political discussions on bronx's junkyard
forums, n' i realise that ther r so many young ppl 2day that just don't
care 'bout social welfare, women's rights, abortion rights, environment,
civil liberties... they care 'bout stuff like national defense, low taxes,
n' uh... i'm not even sure what else! they just all like bush jr. n' the
republicans. whuh?! it's scary. what's going on? seriously!
i think kids that r growing up 2day r more politically conservative than
the kids i grew up w/, u know? last week, roland n' i were talkin'
'bout some politics stuff n' got on the topik of the comic
boondocks. i like the political view of that cartoonist...
or is it a group of cartoonists? neway, this morn, i was browsing
thru the
ucomics.com collection of boondocks comics. heh, ok, i just
went back to the site. the cartoonist is aaron mcgruder.
neway, i think the comic strip is very amusing. 'lotta times i
don't like political comics. u know... i dunno if u'll be surprised
by this or not, but i don't really like doonsbury that much.
i sometimes like its "mr. butts" strips, but in general, i don't
really like doonsbury that much. i like the
boondocks. heh, i know the following statement'll make me sound really
stoopid, but uh... well, heh, no excuse... sometimes the boondocks
has 2 much text, but i still like it. ha, so now i sound
semi.illiterate, eh? *sigh* ha ha ha. "hey, jughead! didja hear the
supreme court reversed..." heh, simpsons reference from "girly edition"
(5f15). ha ha ha.
u know, i've written a bit much lately, n' i've included lots'f
graphics. this means i had to clear out the "recent" entries page
often this past week. i'm worried some of u may have missed some of
the entries n' should check the archive.
neway, yah... i feel weird cos this journal entry was very boastful @
some pts, right? i don't mean to say that i'm suuuch a great
snowboarder; but i just wanted to say that if u wanna get better, u gotta
"really want it" as lugheaded jocks'll all tell u, right? heh heh.
"u gotta really want it n' give 110%!!!" ha ha ha. seriously,
tho'... that's all i'm saying. hrm... but lemme tell u. here's
'nother thought i've had 'bout snowboarding lately... like, when i walk
into a snowboard store, i think ppl prob'ly assume: i'm a yuppy. i'm
asian. i must not be very good @ snowboarding. n' if i am, i must
be a downhill freeride kind of guy. i must never ride halfpipe.
maybe i do a few jumps here n' there, but i must never pull off ne
real tricks. hrm... i resent those false assumptions. i'm
not that great, but give me some credit here.
[a li'l later] check out this interesting bit i found on the kpix bay
area news section of yahoo! news: [a li'l later] no1's sending me mail 2day. i think there's a
prob w/ my mailbox or my address. *shrug*
[later] ugh! i gotta bust outta here! i gotta get home n' pack to go to
the slopes! argh! well, laura's car is well on their way to tahoe.
i got a map to the cabin faxed to me by the realtors. u
know, i think i might have stayed @ this cabin way back in 1993! weird,
huh? if so, that's sort'f freaky. only "sort'f" cos it isn't
impossible when u use the most popular realtors in tahoe. *sigh*
weird. well, we'll c. there's still a chance it isn't that 1.
it's just that from the description n' the pics on the web, it
sort'f reminds me of that cabin.
hey, lemme share some pics w/ u: *sigh* so why am i still @ werk?! i really wanna bust outta
here. my manager yesterdasy sed i'd have a "light" skedule 2day, n'
then he gave me all this stuff to do. what did he mean "light"
skedule?! i had plenty to do 2day. *sigh* i'm here all by
myself. i could've just goofed off all day n' not done my werk, but
i've kept bizzy w/ werk... n' daydreamin' 'bout snowboarding! ha ha.
*sigh* [a li'l later] shoot! it's starting to get dark! i really
gotta get out of here! i gotta get on the road to tahoe! aaaahahaahaa! :-(
[later] ok, it's time to bust outta here! tahoe or
bust! 1152p: well, superbowl sunday is almost over. really, superbowl
sunday didn't affect me much @ all. really, i don't pay all that
much attention to football or most traditional american pro sports.
well, we were off snowboarding this weekend. on sat, we went to
northstar. on sun, we went to sierra@tahoe. so yah... laura
rented us a cabin in king's beach. i drove up to king's beach on
fri nite w/ the beautiful kaela kang, roland, toby, n' jocelyn in my car.
we stopped @ the pinole in.n.out 4 dinner. man, it took us a long
time to leave berkeley. i was quite displeased that i was stuck @
werk so late. then, after we packed n' left, after i picked up
roland, jocelyn, n' toby, i realised that i 4got my snowboarding jacket.
i knew i'd definitely need it this cold winter weekend.
after i went home to get my jacket, while we were @ the gas station
filling up, roland realised he 4got his wallet, so we went back to his
place to fetch that. finally, we got on the road. we went to
in.n.out in pinole, as i sed. there, i ran into my old manager from
ebmud. i think
he was w/ his bandmates, as he avidly plays guitar in a rock band of some
sort. i briefly chatted with him, and he sort'f hinted that i'd be
welcomed back to ebmud. that idea sounds very tempting these days,
u know... mostly, it's cos'f the ca$h... that's kind'f ironic cos u'd
think a public organization would be where i wouldn't find $$$, but
geez... in this day? *sigh* i dunno... neway, kaela took the wheel from
pinole 4 a bit on the 80. then i took over in auburn, where we
stopped to use the bathroom n' buy lotto tix 4 the then $48 million dollar
jackpot. as far as i know, we didn't win, but i guess i ought to
check our tix when i have a chance.
well, we got to the cabin 'round 100a, w/o many complications. i
was a bit 2 much the typical guy who thinks he knows where he's going, n'
even when he doesn't sez he does. neway, that didn't co$t us much
more than 5 mins @ most. i simply made a wrong turn @ the end of
267 onto 28. i didn't realise that the direction that laura was
giving to kaela over the fon were from the 89 not the 267. heh,
funny that i'm getting more used to calling hwys "the 50," "the 80," etc.
in the socal style. ha ha. well, we got there 'round 100a n' got
settled in. laura had invited some of her college friends, n' i was
suprised that i sort'f knew 1 guy, samir, from leland hi skool.
well, we showered n' went to sleep after we found our sleeping spaces.
sat morn, we took off 4 northstar. toby n' some others from
samir's car needed to rent boards from dave's ski/board shop in king's
beach. argh, i wanted so badly to give toby a free rental from my
tahoe card, but we
found out that the free rental offer didn't apply to the peak season but
the card had a misprint. *sigh* geez! what an annoyance! grrr!
well, i felt bad. i didn't mean to decieve toby! i wanted
him to have a fun trip w/o 2 many expen$es. i really wanted to
minimise the co$ts 4 him. *sigh* neway, the rental process took
sooo long, so kaela, roland, n' i went to the king's beach safeway to buy
some sandwiches 4 lunch. well, we went to northstar. ah...
snowboarding was fun. hrm... how was it? well, i'll tell u:
the theme of the weekend was that it'd be a downhill n' maybe a li'l bit
of freeride kind'f weekend. i didn't get to do nearly as much
freestyle as i wanted, but eh! being the cocky guy that i proved
myself to be in my previous entry, i
guess i had to prove to my friends that i could handle whatever they threw
@ me: steep downhill black diamonds, powder, moguls, whatever!
neway, i really like snowboarding... ne kind of snowboarding! i did
get to ride the terrain park, a rail, n' the 0.5 pipe 1nce. *sigh*
1nce really isn't enuf, but eh! it was ok. i rode tons of fast,
fast steep downhill stuff, n' kaela n' i experienced northstar's lookout
mtn 4 the 1st time. well, dang... it was such a full day!
ha, i had our motorola 2way radio on, n' we heard so much junk!
every1 else's insignificant chitchat. neway, it was such a
full day.
well, we met up w/ johnny n' michelle there, so we took them to truckee
to return their rental boards, as they were coming back to the cabin w/
us. samir's group was leaving that evening, so johnny n' michelle
were taking their place in the cabin. since it was getting late,
our car (johnny, michelle, toby, kaela, n' i) decided to eat in truckee.
we wanted to eat @ sizzler, but it was closed 4 reconstruction.
instead, we went to the mongolian bbq buffet off of 89. we
ate plenty n' were full. man, we witnessed a really embarrasing
racist conflict, where these 2 redneck families tried to pick a fight w/
the restaurant staff. geez! i kept thinking, "as an
american, i'm just so embarassed 4 them (the rednecks)." i
mean, i know the typical nonasian clientelle @ that restaurant is
not so ignorant. like, why the heck do they come to this chinese
restaurant to eat chinese fud n' then speak deliberate racial slurs to the
owners? they were just a plain embarassment to the american publik,
i'll say! geez! neway, i guess nuthin' got violent or nething, n'
the redneck familes left after eating. i don't know exactly what
the fuss was over, but they were just plain rude n' ignorant. *roll eyes*
well, we drove back to king's beach. toby returned his board
just in time. later, when we got back to the cabin, we found out
toby could've returned his board @ ne dave's ski/board shops,
including the truckee location, which would've been very easy 4 us,
since we were in truckee! d.oh! then we bought some breakfast n'
lunch fud @ the king's beach safeway. after we all showered, we
played this party game, this card/trivia game called apples to apples.
it's laura's game. it was really fun. neway,
we didn't wanna stay up 2 late. i let every1 know that the drive
from king's beach to sierra@tahoe'd take like an hr!
well, the drive to sierra was very scenic. there's that 1 short
stretch of 89 where u've got a cliff on both sides of the road.
that's kewl n' not 2 scary when the weather's as nice as it was 2day. (uh,
now it's 1219a on mon 2002.02.04, so by "2day," i mean yesterday.)
well, we had 241 (2 for 1) coupons 4 sierra. laura got them 4 us @
carl's jr. $25 4 a lift tic, not bad. we crammed our stuff
into lockers. ugh, that was an ordeal! then, we took off.
ha! do u know, kaela n' i didn't do ne beginner runs as warmups
this whole weekend. both days, we pretty much jumped right into
black diamonds. oh, i guess sun's 1st run was an intermediate
boardercross type run w/ lots'f medium sized ramp/jumps. that was
pretty fun 4 me, but i dunno... andy n' jocelyn cmed to want to avoid that
run, preferring the downhill kind'f stuff. again, that was fine w/
me cos well... i know kaela doesn't do jumps much either, but i'm fine w/
doing downhill, n' she is 2. well, dang, i went really fast on the
1st black diamond downhill run. i was pretty used to going very
fast this weekend, but there was this pt, where i didn't have a whole
lot'f control n' there was this big ball of ice in my path, so i skidded
out on the icy slope. i ended up tweaking out both my ankles a li'l
cos i hadn't tightened my bootlaces much yet. i was in a bit of a
hurry earlier, so i figured i'd get to it later. upes.
still, i tried not to let the slightly twisted ankles bother me @ all.
eh! i know it affected my riding, but i just went on w/ everything
as normal. we did lots'f downhill, covered most of the resort.
i got to do a li'l bit of freeriding jumps, but u know i prefer
terrain park ramp jumps. i got to ride the pipe 1nce @ the end of
the day. well, it was fun. i wonder when i'll ever 'gain get
to have a whole day of just freestyle riding. i sort'f did
that w/ s.mike n' toby b4. really, i don't hafta, but i just
wonder if it'll ever happen 'gain. neway, downhill, fast riding
ain't bad. heh! to me even moguls ain't that bad.
it's exercise. :-) there was this 1 pt. where our black diamond group
(toby, andy, jocelyn, kaela, n' i) reached this 1 mogully slope w/ these
ski skool kids skiing down it. heh, i guess my ego wouldn't let me
have the li'l kids go down the moguls n' me go down the nonmogul beginner
run that would bypass the moguls. nope nope. ha ha. *sigh* c? i'm pretty
bad! i've got 2 much of an ego 'bout snowboarding. *sigh* neway, in the
past coupl'f yrs, since ppl like andy n' dave n' jocelyn all prefer
downhill boarding to freestyle, i've taught myself to do moguls by just...
well, riding down as straight as i can (not plowing), yet jumping from
mogul to mogul while turning my board a li'l back n' 4th (frontside
backside frontside backside) over n' over... i figure that's the closest
thing to riding moguls as snowboarders can do. i don't get how
andy's friends rich n' jenny can like doing moguls so much on
snowboards... it's good exercise... but then lots'f ppl just plow thru the
moguls or falling leaf it. uhm, that can't be 2 fun. i mean,
wouldn't it be more fun just to hike down then?
neway, dang... a long time 'go i told dave or s.mike that since my
board's a freestyle board, i'm sort'f @ a disadvatange 4 all this downhill
or backcountry riding. whomever i was talking to replied that he
was sure i wasn't really pushing my board to its physical limits.
@ that time, i had to agree. this weekend? i think i
really pushed my freestyle board to its limits as a downhill/backcountry
board. u know, it's a short, flexible board. it's not made 4
cutting n' gripping icy slopes really or taking on bumpy surfaces, but i
gave it the worst these mtns had to offer, i guess. u know how i've
pondered the idea of getting a new deck ever since that any mtn repair guy
sed mine was so thrashed? well, shoot... *sigh* to me buying a new deck
involves many, many decisions n' factors, etc. *sigh* i'm really
thinking of just not buying a new deck cos really... i'm gonna be
very picky 'bout what i want... i dunno... i want to get a
good freestyle deck... yet i also know that i will be sort'f
pressured to do more downhill n' backcountry riding in the future... @ the
same time, i really don't wanna sacrifice my board's freestyle per4mance @
all, u know? eh! *sigh* whatever! to some extent, a board is just a board!
it's the rider that makes the diff, right?
*sigh* well, it was a really fun 2 days of snowboarding. there
were many, many, many cal students or alumni on the slopes this weekend.
'least it appeared so by the amt of cal paraphenalia i saw on the
slopes. well, we drove back to the bay area in like 2.5 hrs.
we ate dinner @ vh noodle house in albany/richmond 99. it's a chow
jow place; like tungkee noodles. it was good to have sumpthin' warm
n' soupy. dropping off all my passengers took a long
time. 111p: it's mon afternoon, n' i'm @ home. what have i done 2day?
i woke up 'round 845a, drove the beautiful kaela kang to class, came
home, ate the leftovers of the giant safeway submarine sandwich that toby,
kaela, n' i shared @ sierra, watched a few musik videos on my 'puter, n'
then went back to bed, then i drove back to campus @ 1250p to give kaela a
reader 4 her class since she 4got it. what a life, huh? it's
great, huh? right now, i have the mp3 of britney spears's "lucky"
playing. cheesy pop musik crap, eh? well, i've always been a
sucker 4 this silly li'l song; dunno why. maybe cos it tells a
story, no matter how cheesy. being able to loaf 'round like this on
a mon, i must be pretty lucky, eh? well, it is relaxing, but
i don't feel all that great cos i got this twisted ankle. when i
1st skidded out @ sierra on the "castle" run yesterday morn, i thought my
right ankle felt worse, but by the end of the day my left ankle felt
worse. i guess it's cos i didn't tighten my left boot much after
the skidout cos i usually prefer not to tighten my left boot 2 much since
my left instep starts to get sore after lots'f riding, 'specially downhill
riding. that sort'f sucks cos if i were just riding freestyle, it's
a li'l more ok to ride w/ looser/softer boots: i don't put as much
pressure on them as i would doing heavy carving, n' i feel better
doing tricks n' stuff w/ looser boots, right? more room to twist n' tweak
to do grabs n' stuff. neway, when i just walk 'round the apartment
2day, if i put ne pressure on my left foot or put ne sideways torque on
it, it hurts. right b4 i went to drop off the reader w/ kaela, i
went to my trunk, opened the boot bag i left there, got my neoprene ankle
brace out, n' put it on. it feels 'lil better w/ it on.
last nite, b4 we dropped toby off, we stopped by kaela's sister
jeanna's exroommate christine's place to pick up the christmas presents
that kaela's relatives gave kaela's family to give to us. kaela's
family gave it to christine in socal to bring back up to berkeley 4 us.
it's february, n' we're finally getting them. they gave me a
reversible, hooded jacket. it's dark grey fleece on 1 side n' black
on the other w/ snowboardingish stripes down the sleeves. it sort'f
reminds me of this reversible, black n' grey barn jacket that my mom gave
me back in jr yr. yah, i really wore that jacket out. i wore
that jacket 2day. when i dropped kaela off, i had it on the black
striped side, n' when i dropped off her reader, i had it on the grey
fleece side. i'm not really dressed right to go out in the publik
2day tho'. i feel like i'm wearing pretty much clothes to stay in
n' do housewerk cos that's what i planned to do 2day. oh, 1 thing i
gotta do sometime this month is put a new stomp pad on my board. my
stomp pad fell off as i was getting of the lift 4 my last run of the day
yesterday. i was putting heavy, heavy wear on my stomp pad cos i as
going down w/o strapping in quite a bit this weekend. i've always
tried to practice riding w/o strapping in (my back foot only 'course).
i even try going of li'l hits n' doing those 1 footed tricks that u
c on like video games n' stuff, stuff that skateboarders do, but
snowboarders shouldn't. eh! i'm still not very good @ doing ne of
those tho'. i tried to do what skateboarder in my time used to call
an ollie south, a parody variation of the ollie north, where u ollie
(jump) n' stick ur back foot off straight off the board. (4 the original
ollie north, it'd be ur front foot, hence the variation's name. get
it?) heh, maybe it's doing stoopid things like that that's got my left
ankle all twisted! ha ha. *sigh*
man, our apt's a mess. that's why i wanna clean up 2day, but
*sigh* just walkin' 'round the apt is a quite a task right now. oh,
it's not just cos'f my ankle; it's that there's so much junk on the floor
n' i gotta navigate 'round it. i just wanna take a big garbage bag
n' throw 'way everything... well, the stuff that could possibly be thrown
away. u know, i 4got to mention. *sigh* sad news: sometime
yesterday, i lost 1 of the motorola radios! :-( sad sad sad. i
suspect it might've been when i skidded out. it was in my front
jacket pocket, but i found the pocket unzipped later in the day when we
stopped 4 lunch, unzipped n' w/o radio! :-( roland had just given
the pair to us. *sigh*
u know, when i look 4 a new stomp pad, maybe that's 1 of those things i
can check ebay 4, since i recommended to all of u to check
ebay 4 always b4 purchasing. well, right now i'm dling lots'f junk
from audiogalaxy, so i can't surf the web. u know, lots'f rock
songs these days sound just like early 90s grunge. whah?! how can
these bands get by sounding just like pearl jam n' stone temple
pilots?! just like 'em! *shrug* well, it's just the nature of pop
musik, eh? it doesn't hafta make ne sense or have ne logik @ all,
it just hast'a shake $$$ off of kids.
it was really fun to snowboard w/ toby this weekend. i am
really, really glad he got to snowboard w/ us! *sigh* i feel
so bad that the free rentals i offered fell thru. :-( i guess it's been
kewl this winter that i got to snowboard w/ old friends both toby n' phil.
that's kewl.
hrm... i just dled the old rolling stones original version of the song
"i'm free." i dled it as research cos yesterday on the ktvu channel
2 news they were talkin' 'bout superbowl commercials: 1 had what i thought
was the soupdragons' 1990s cover of the song, but the newsppl called it a
"rolling stone's" song, so i was thinkin', "wow, the original sounded
just like the soupdragons' cover?" nope, the original
doesn't sound like the soupdragons' cover n' the version in the ad was
indeed the soupdragons' version. aha! c.mon! shouldn't these ktvu newsppl
be able to mention that that track was a soupdragons' cover of a
stones' song?!
man, i dunno where to start cleaning up! this place is
such a mess. :-( it all just makes me wanna go back to bed, but i know i
can't n' that i gotta start somewhere. *big sigh* i just wanna go
out n' get a boba drink, since i definitely can't get 1 2morrow during the
day while i'm in marin county. :-( it's like being in exile, huh?
ha ha. i cancelled demo practice 4 2nite since a bunch'f us r beat
from the snowtrip this weekend, n' i also wanna make sure ppl go to the
all ucmap mtg on wed @ 700p. man, i also sed i'd werk on kaela's
'puter on this day off. *sigh* yah, i dunno where or how to start
w/ that cos the place is such a mess. ugh, i'm listening to this
"korean mix" mp3, u know, a continuous mix like the stuff i do.
ugh, the transitions on this mix r awful! why do ppl
publish crap like this on the web? if i recorded a mix like this,
i'd be so ashamed! ha, as u c... as i've got 2 much ego 'bout my
snowboarding, i've got 2 much ego 'bout my djing, right? *sigh*
314p: well, i've gotten started on cleaning up this apt. i've
done some stuff, but there's plenty more to do. it got warm.
it's warm 2day. i changed out of the abercrombie & fitch
thin wool sweater that kaela gave me n' into the tabasco t.shirt that
grace n' steve gave me. it's much warmer 2day than it's been in the
recent past. dang! i sure wich i had a cold boba drink right now.
this is such a change in climate. this winter in
berkeley has been 1 of the coldest in yrs. toby agrees w/ me on
this 1. i feel really yucky. i'd better go wash my face b4 i
wash the dishes. being a usually industrious guy, i just can't help
but feel like i couldn't done more 2day; if only i hadn't slept 4 most of
the morn. *sigh*
351p: well, i did the dishes n' cleaned the kitchen. i dunno
what to do next: either clean the bathroom, fix kaela's 'puter, or clean
the bedroom. *shrug* *sigh* i think 4 a change of pace i'll werk w/
kaela's 'puter instead of continuing w/ all these domestic cleaning
duties. really, i don't mind doing these "housewife" things.
why should they be considered housewife things. men gotta
take care of chores like these 2. while i was cleaning i was
thinking 'bout how kaela told me her friend linda's visiting in a coupl'f
week n' his bringing her current bf kevin. kaela told me that linda
told me to keep kevin bizzy while they look @ wedding dresses.
kaela sed that linda told her to tell me to look 4 bars n' stuff.
bars?! uh... whuh? n' kaela sed linda sed, "he's the typical sailor."
yah, i knew he used to be in the navy n' is now an air traffik
controller, but that doesn't help me figure out what to do w/ him.
how many military ppl do i know? sam sa's in the army reserve. ryan
nishikawa was in the navy... or wasn't it the marines? what does
she mean by "the typical sailor"? like, isn't there a stereotype
that "sailors" r gay? like the village ppl's "in the navy" n' that 1 gay
navy guy that supposedly hit on me in the rsf? so i'm s'pposed to find a
gay bar? heh, i'm sure linda'd kill me if i sed that, but
heh... what's w/ the "typical sailor" thing? i mean, i'm already 1 to
avoid stereotyping n' typecasting, so well... hrm, that tip doesn't help
me find an activity to do. like, heh... can i just take him
snowboarding? does he like musik? if he was into musik i could take him to
guitar stores or cd stores or sumpthin'. bars? well, hrm... shoot,
i go w/ ex military ryan to bars, but they're korean bars. american
bars? c'mon, i'm not that much of a fob, being born in ann arbor,
michigan n' all. sure, i know american bars, don't i? kip's?
or is that 2 much of a strictly uc berkeley hangout? spats? or is spats 2
fruity cos it's a... what do u call it? a chi chi bar? those umbrella
drink kind'f places... uh, what 'bout microbreweries like triple rock? so
uh... do i just take this guy that i just met out n' get him drunk?
as much as i enjoy beer, wine, liquor, n' cocktails in a social setting,
like... that just sounds a li'l 2 alkoholik 4 me. so uhm, hrm, what 'bout
just showing him 'round the bay area, like a driving tour? i'm usually
pretty much game 4 that. in the past i've enjoyed playing tour
guide: "here's coit tower. here's north beach. here's
chinatown. here's the golden gate bridge..." that kind'f
stuff. uh, does "the typical sailor" like boats? uh, i can
take him to c like uh... the marina or uh... a boat store? ha ha. how
'bout going to like david n' busters n' playing video games or sumpthin'.
*shrug* we can even win stuffed animals 4 our women... who won't be there,
so we'd be just a coupl'f guys walkin' 'round w/ big, cute fuzzies. ha ha.
520p: i just uploaded yesterday's entries to my page. i didn't
upload till now cos i was dling mp3s. i tried to hook up this data
drive i brought home from werk that had all my personal files. i
tried to hook it up to kaela's ata system 'puter (as opposed to my
scsi system) to move the files off the drive, but when i hooked it
up there was no data there. *sigh* well, what i lost was tons of mp3s n'
musik videos n' many personal documents. *sigh* boy, oh boy. well,
i'll return the drive to my office 2morrow. this is so weird that
i'm @ home on a mon. it's weird. i'm more used to having a
fri off when every1 else is @ skool or werk n' then getting 2 more days of
weekend after that. this is very weird. i had 2 weekend
days, n' now i'm home on a mon while every1 else is @ werk or skool.
*sigh* weird. i realised a while 'go that all i ate 2day was that
leftover safeway sub sandwich n' a li'l bit of trail mix. i grabbed
the box of life cereal n' ate lots'f life cereal out of the box while i
uploaded yesterday's journal entry.
650p: ha! there is exactly the stomp pad i'm looking 4 on ebay,
n' it's a good deal so far... i've gotta bid on this thing. :-) eh! but
the shipping n' handling... hrm... i won't bid 2 high. [a few secs later]
dang! ppl r really fighting over this stomp pad! hrm, it prob'ly
won't be worth it in the end. we'll c.
834p: kaela made some very delicious spam (lite) pasta 4 dinner w/
lots'f asparagus n' shrooms. i tried not to eat 2 much 2nite cos i
didn't expend many calories loafing 'round the apt 2day, u know?
*sigh* well, it looks like i'll be spending 'least $25 to replace that
lost radio. :-( looks like my best deals'll be @ either fogdog.com
or oshman's. there's an oshman's in the great mall, right? heh, i
did look on ebay already. ha ha.
1127p: *sigh* i have that awful feeling that i more often get on sun
nites when i dread going back to werk after a weekend, u know?
*sigh* i wanna go to sleep soon. these past 2 days' entries don't
have many graphics. nuts. it's lunchtime. i'm microwaving a healthy choice frozen dinner
right now. "tv dinner," i haven't heard that term used nearly as
much in recent yrs as i did in my early yrs. sign of the times, eh?
so guess what! i got my handspring visor edge [later] ok, i ate my healthy choice beef stroganoff. i'm not
totally full. i also ate a quaker chewy lowfat chocochip granola
bar. i thought 'bout going to longs drugs to buy some sports tape
to wrap up my ankle. so far i haven't gone, n' i guess i prob'ly
won't. i'm a li'l sleepy. this morn, i dropped the beautiful
kaela kang
off @ the rsf, so she could werk out b4 her swim class. i wish
i could werk out. i don't wanna get all fat n' wimpy.
[later] what a day! just 'nother day. i'm bizzy@werk.com.
i managed to find a li'l tiae to fax in a taekwondo equipment order
4 a bunch'f ppl that need equipment. [later] i'm listenin' to my
soundsgood mp3 module i wonder if i can get toby to go to those early sat morn taekwondo
classes w/ me. then we can werkout 2gether w/ the ol' timers.
i told him 'bout those classes, n' he sounded interested.
lately, i find myself sometimes thinking, "i've had my fill of
disrespectful, punk kids!" i sound like such an old fart! i
don't wanna be an old fart! [later] i'm home. i snacked on some life cereal straight from
the box w/o milk. on my way home, i checked ebay 'bout a pair of
walkie.talkies i bid on. i lost the auction, but eh! i really only
want to buy 1 neway. it's not safe to surf (the web) n'
drive! well, as soon as i found out i lost the auction, i stopped
looking @ the web. i promise not to do that very often! i
concentrated on driving n' had a thought," i've had my fill of
disrespectful, punk kids... especially those that r as old as i am." ha
ha. *sigh* 107a: i'm writing this entry using palm telnet on my handspring visor
edge [later, late in the morn] so i just filled out my application to take
the engineer.in.training (eit) exam. i made out my $60 check n' put
it all in an envelop ready to send. it needs to be postmarked by
feb 15 4 the apr 20 test date. 1) what's the eit? it's the 1st
state regulated test that an engineer takes to get professional
certification. u don't need to have professional
certification as an engineer, it's not like being a lawyer n' taking the
bar exam; but it doesn't hurt. the eit is the 1st step.
later, i would take the professional engineer (pe) test. 2) why am i
taking it? i really need to leave my options open, n' if i
ever wanna go back to werk 4 ebmud, unless i wanna be an intern 4ever, i'd need to
have taken the eit exam. it's not s'pposed to be an extremely hard
test, n' u only need to get a 50% to pass... so what do i have to lose
besides $60 n' a good sat(urday)? oh shoot! it's the cal day sat! we'll
have a taekwondo demo that day! eh! the demo team can take care of
themselves! i gotta take care of my career! c! i do have
priorities! don't ever tell me i don't!!!
*sigh* so neway... heh, that handspring to startac internet cable is
really kewl! 4 a while last nite, it wasn't werking, but i figured
out late it was cos i was logged in to the beautiful kaela kang's
internet account from home already, dling tons n' tons of mp3s. i
c. i guess @ peak times, the internet service doesn't letchu log in
2ice or sumpthin'. *shrug*
[later, early afternoon] i ate a healthy choice frozen dinner 4 lunch
'gain. 'gain, it wasn't quite 'nuf. i drove out to the corte
madera post office to send off my test registration n' then to the
greenbrae bon air shopping center to deposit some checks into my checking
acct. @ that strip mall, i then went to jamba juice n' bought a
peenya kowlada jamba juice n' a mind over blueberry bread thingy.
why do they hafta spell it "peenya kowlada"? that spelling messed me up,
n' i asked 4 a "peenya kowlooda." eh! i'm not that
embarassed. i like jamba juice. i say its better to drink
smoothies than coffee. however, jamba juice is 2 expen$ive.
i was trying to save $$$ by eating frozen dinners 4 lunch, but then
i went n' blew $$$ on buying a smoothie cos i wasn't full. nuts!
n' where's that boba drink yesterday, when i mentioned that "i've had my fill of disrespectful,
punk kids"; i didn't mean specifically in the taekwondo club, no.
i'm just a li'l fed up w/ kids 2day in general... n' as i sed, that
includes kids that r 26 n' up. heh, i don't mean to sound like a
misanthrope; u know i'm not! i'm not a pessimist! some might even
think i'm an idealist or a romanticist. cynic? pessimist? no way!
as i sed b4, on bronx's junkyard forums, i've encountered lots'f kids w/
very politically n' socially conservative views. that scares me.
i'm worried, yah, that american (n' asian.american) society's
gotten way 2 conservative. @ the bon air shopping center i saw that
some "comfort food" restaurant is opening up. whah?! will some1 please
blow up that storefront b4 the restaurant opens up? what's going
on? am i like the parents on family ties w/ their shamefully
republican son alex (played by the younger michael j. fox)? how did
i end up as such a modern equivalent to the washed up berkeley hippie?
that i am not! i'm the normal 1 here! every1 else is
crazy!
in the shower last nite @ the rsf, garth asked me how my werk was
going. i told him how i'm stressed that the company could
disappear, etc. he told me just to go back to skool, go to grad
skool. well, heh. it's not like i haven't thought of that.
i told him that there's just that gre n' application thing that's
quite in the way, u know? n' yah, he understood. n' i sed going 4
so long w/o my usual paycheck'd be pretty hard; n' he understood.
of course, w/ my sednign off this eit exam registration, it makes me feel
like firing off a gre exam registration. i sort'f figure, what have
i got to lose? in the past, i'd be worried 'bout getting a bad
score n' having that reflect poorly on my registration later, if i scored
better n' tried to apply. but what if it's now a all or nuthin'
thing? uh, is that the right term? no, i mean... like, it's maybe now more
of a "what have i got to lose?" deal, u know? well, of course, as
always: we'll c.
this morn, heh, we woke up to both kqed n' z95.7! ha ha,
the kaboom boombox woke us up w/ npr n' the alarm clock radio woke us up
w/ gene n' julie. *sigh* eventually, when kaela got up to get
ready, i asked her to turn off gene n' julie, n' i continued to listen to
npr. really! i'm liking npr so much more than i ever expected i
would! heh, it sure beats waking up to rush limbaugh or hot talk
650 ksfo! ha ha ha. u know, speaking of radio stations, while we were in
tahoe, toby pted out that the king's beach dave's ski/board shop had a
radio station on that sounded like a classic rock station from back in the
1990s. it was playing 1970s n' 1980s rock. toby pointed out
that classic rock stations 2day, play rock songs from the 1990s. i
agreed. yah, kfog plays like natalie merchant etc. ksjo? it
prob'ly plays like red hot chili peppers, etc. ha, n' z95.7, the
top 40 statioin, plays all that lifehouse n' calling stuff that sounds
like pearl jam n' stone temple pilots. so i read on y! news that
scott weiland of stone temple pilots (stp) is in trouble 4 domestic
violence. man, u can find all sorts'f dirt 'bout celebs on.line!
ugh, just a few secs 'go i killed a spider that was scurrying
'round on my cubicle wall. yuck!
[less than a min later] i just checked my e.mail n' saw that i received
a mail that was obviously a virus. i had cn it b4 but
deleted it w/o thinking 2 much. maybe u've heard of it; it's that
"snow white and the seven dwarves" viruses. i always assumed it was
just porno spam n' deleted it, but 2day i thought, "hey, that looks like a
virus!" i deleted it right 'way, n' then, on google, i searched
"snow white virus." as they say, "lo n' behold." yah, it's virus.
u can read more 'bout it here: symantec's page 'bout w95.hybris.gen.
[later, mid.afternoon] did i mention to u that when i connect to the
inernet w/ my handspring, i'm connecting @ 14.4? heh. yah, minor
detail, eh? so yah, it's like the good ol' days of 14.4. ha ha.
c? that's why my webpage up until now was so low on graphics.
while on the kids these days r on dsl; @ home, i'm still dialing in
on a 56k. sure, @ werk, i'm on dsl, but not @ home! *sigh* i
wonder when i'll ever have dsl @ home. really, i'm trying to hold
out as long as possible. i just want cheap internet service, if not
free internet service. u know, i 4got 'bout this, but
sometime back in college, toby n' i got free access to some1's earthlink
acct or sumpthin'. toby's friend sort'f "hooked us up," u know?
i 4get if it was earthlink or what; but basically, toby's friend
hooked us up w/ the login n' passwd; so we used that all the time.
i 4got when exactly that started n' ended. eventually, the acct was
closed or sumpthin'; don't 'member. well, shoot, in configuring my
handspring to werk on the univeristy dial up, i really had to reminisce n'
'member what it was like to dial.in using a modem program n' do all the
sign in procedure. i had to write a script to werk w/ that.
wow! it's so weird to apply knowledge that u've really filed in the back
of ur head. well, in the end i was a bit of a proud engineer... i
mean, getting my handspring n' kaela's handspring hooked up to the
wireless internet was sumpthin' that made me feel like... *sigh* i dunno,
like i was glad i could do it.
u know, when i was talking to garth in the rsf shower, i also mentioned
a thought i've had many times in the past. we're both 26 now, n'
many celebrities died @ age 27: kurt cobain, jimmy hendrix, etc.
check out "they died when they were twenty-seven" 4 more 411 on
"the 27 conspiracy." so i told garth, as long as we make it past
27, we'll be ok.
back to politics: so do u know 'bout those bright orange flags @ some
berkeley crosswalks??? u c, there r a coupl'f berkeley crosswalks
that r infamous 4 fatal automobile.pedestrian accidents. some
berkeley city politician got a program going, where the city puts a bucket
of bright orange flags on each side of the crosswalk, hanging on the
lightpost. there's a sign that tells pedestrians to grab a flag,
carry it 'cross the street, n' put it in the bucket on the other side.
whah?! 1) u know kids'll steal the flags! n' 2) whah?!?!
in taipei, u've got these led pixel crosswalk signs that have an
animated person walking 'cross the street next to a countdown. as
the countdown reaches like 10 secs, the animated person starts running.
this is not only very hi tech, it is very cute. this
flags 'cross the crosswalk idea? it's simple, arguably effective, cheap,
n' really tacky, i say! geez! talk 'bout coming up w/
the lamest ideas just to avoid hi technology!!! u know... there r
contraptions in this world that r super hi tech, but then don't get the
job done cos some intrinsic flaw in its basic principles... but u know,
sometimes u just gotta take a chance on hi tech. u know, if they
think the crosswalks r 2 dangerous, they should'f gotten an engineer to
devise some sort of system w/ sensors, automation, n' even mechatronics or
sumpthin'! i don't expect these flags to last very long.
'gain don't call me a pessimist! i just, as an engineer, do
believe in teknology!
[a few secs later] like, here's a bad plan, but a better plan than
bright orange flags. they could have an optikal sensor that
recognises when a pedestrian enters the crosswalk, n' then have a big
spotlight shine a light that follows the pedestrian 'cross the street.
that's not a hard system to design. 'course it'd mostly werk @
nite. how 'bout if, when the pedestrians enter the sidewalk when
their light turns green, water jets turn on shooting recycled water up in
the air, making fountain, a wall of water btwn the cars n' the
pedestrians? ha ha, 'course that's a more insane idea... shoot, but it
beats having sensors tell if there's a pedestrian in the crosswalk n' if
there's a car approaching 2 fast, n' having rocket launchers blow up the
speeding car b4 it runs into the crosswalk! ha ha ha. c, that's
teknology i can't approve of! the spotlites n' the water fountain
jets sure beat the pants off of bright orange flags that disrespectful,
punk kids'll undoubtedly steal! there'll be contests to c which
foothill dorm suite can collect the most flags. or else, u'll hear
that the phi delts r pissed that the pi kapps have more flags than them.
[later] early evening: *sigh* man, i wanna bust outta this office,
outta this cubicle. i wanna go home. i have that all ucmap mtg in the rsf @
700p. eh, i'll prob'ly be a li'l late, lookin' @ the time right
now. what's 4 dinner? i'm hungry. i'm sleepy.
i don't wanna be here. it's dark outside. the sun's been
going down later now, as the yr slowly progresses; however, it's dark now.
it was warmer on mon in berkeley, but 2day 'twas cold in corte
madera. i'm hungry 4 some substantial fud. i have some dried
apricots in my drawer, some peanut brittle candies in my bag, n' some
quaker chewies in my car's trunk. no, i'm hungry 4 sumpthin' w/
substance, sumpthin' warm. :-( *sigh* i wanna get outta
here! well, mon was warm in berkeley, n' then the rest of the week was colder
4 me in corte madera. 2day, it's raining/drizzling in corte madera.
u guys know i live in berkeley n' werk in corte madera, right?
that's why i talk 'bout these 2 cities. neway, *sigh* yucky
weather... yucky weather, but i sure hope it's snowing in tahoe!
the beautiful kaela kang n' i'll be absent from the tahoe slopes 4
the rest of this month n' until *sigh* i dunno when. maybe we'll
have a berkeley taekwondo snowboarding daytrip after the uc open.
if it's the weekend right after the uc open, then that'll prob'ly be the
very next time we go snowboarding. *shrug* dunno. dunno dunno
dunno. we've got biz to take care of in the bay area, u know?
argh, i hate it when the semester gets into swing when kaela gets
stressed out by skoolwerk. i hate that. the semester's getting
underway n' the taekwondo skedule'll settle into a routine.
*breathe* yah, most likely i won't practice mon-thurs; prob'ly i'll
skip wed, as i did later last semester. 'member, @ the beginning of
last semester, i was going mon-thurs. i do however wanna get
some butt gallery / weight lifting werkouts in 1nce in a while, u know?
'gain, i wonder if toby'd be interested in going w/ me to the sat,
early morning, combined family taekwondo classes. *shrug* of course, i
worry if i can wake up 4 that. *sigh* ha, am i sighing 2 much in
this entry so far? am i sounding depressing? i sure hope not.
n' yah... i did sign up 4 the eit exam on april 20. i
guess sometime btwn now n' then i'll spend some time refreshing my
mind 'bout engineering material... gotta exercise my engineering skillz,
right? ha ha. *sigh*
last nite, we had a pretty fun n' relaxing nite 4 a midweek nite.
we had that ucmap all program mtg, the all clubs mtg. i was
disappointed in the taekwondo club turnout. it was a much shorter
mtg than i expected. i was sure it would've lasted longer.
i fed the rsf meter 4 40 mins, n' we prob'ly stayed 4 somewhere
btwn 40 mins to an hr. afterwards, roland came w/ kaela n' i to
juhngabok happy family, the korean.style chinese restuarant on telly in
oakland. i must concede w/ the orange county koreans that juhngabok
is not nearly as good as bookkyuhng in garden grove, but shoot... it's the
best korean.style chinese restaurant i can find in the berkeley vicinity
right now; n' also, they sponsor the uc open, so i do like to patronise
them. i had jjambbong (chao ma mien). kaela had maewoon
jjajangmyuhn (spicy jiajiangmien). roland had ggool hodoo saewoo
(honey walnut prawns). personally, i thought it was all pretty
good; but kaela sed she had stomach probs w/ her maewoon jjajang.
still, she wanted aisukuriimu afterwards. ('member, aisukuriimu is
japanese 4 ice cream.) we went to ben n' jerry's on oxford, n'
kaela bought us aisukuriimu. well, i couldn't get past my
conscience n' order full fat aisukuriimu, so i chocolate fudge brownie
lowfat frozen yogurt. i told roland 'bout how, back in
college, i 1nce participated in this market research survey 4 ben n'
jerry's, where i had to describe flavours i wanted. i really wanted
chocolate sorbet. well, kewl! a month or 2 later, they came out w/
"devil's food chocolate sorbet." later, i found out haagen daz had
already been selling a chocolate sorbet 4 a while. i had never cn 1
b4. i had always thgouth sorbet's were always made fruit juices.
roland sed he always thought that 2. 2day, roland has a job
interview. i wish him the best of luck w/ it.
why did i ever leave? shoot, all the engineers there pretty much
told me to go out, explore the world, experiment, find a startup, make
tons of $$$ off of stock options, n' get good experience in a field that
isn't as ancient as publik h2o. u know, i have enjoyed
werkin' in a hi tech field. if i went back into publik h2o, i'd
surely miss digital imaging. back then, i really wanted to werk in
motion control cos i felt that was what i studied the most in college.
the h2o company job wasn't all that mechanical, more electrical.
controls related? yah, it was, but it was controls using
somewhat archaic control devices. :-/ somewhere there is a good job 4 me,
n' it'll pay me what i need.
[later] this morn the sierr@tahoe folks e.mailed me back cos i e.mailed
them that i lost a motorola 2.way radio somewhere on their slopes, prob'ly
on the "castle" run. the receptionist sed she 4warded my e.mail to
the secuirty dept. altho' i know there's a pretty good chance i
won't get the radio back, i'm glad they responded. that kind'f
stuff makes me feel better 'bout this world, to know ppl 'least try
to make u think they care.
[maybe a min later] u guys know what my political views r, right?
i'm a registered democrat. i care 'bout minority rights / women's
rights / civil liberties, the economy, abortion rights, the environment,
n' teknology. i believe in being nice to immigrants.
yesterday's 1100p episode of simpsons was the "proposition 24"
episode, the episode titled "much apu about nothing" (3f20). that episode
came out right when the state of cali was voting on a proposition to make
it illegal 4 the state to provide services to illegal immigrants.
what was it? proposition 187? i 4get. of course, there were
many protests 'gainst it on the uc berkeley campus. heh, i'm
downright proud there was. if there weren't berkeley students that
cared 'bout these issues, i'd be very ashamed. hrm, this episode
originally aired on 1996.05.05. hrm, maybe i was wrong in saying it
aired when prop 187 or whatever was on the ballot. uhm, lemme do a
li'l net research 4 a sec. please hold on. ok, indeed, i was wrong.
prop 187 was on the ballot in nov 1994! weird, huh?
ok, that was my soph yr of college, when i lived w/ fahad n' vince, that's
right. hrm, ok. well, obviously, prop 24 on the
simpsons is related to cali's prop 187. 'member? that yr prop
186 was 'bout publik statewide healthcare. i c. neway, i'm
getting 2 old n' 4gettin' which yr had which proposition, eh? no, i
'member now.
so i was saying b4 that i'm so frightened n' disapointed that so many
young asian.americans express such conservative political views.
kaela e.mailed me a commentative reply, not condoning their views, but
well explaining her thoughts on where they're coming from. i wish i
had that e.mail here w/ me, so i could show u. nope, i dled it on
my home 'puter's eudora n' filed it. nuts. neway, from what
she sed n' what other ppl have sed, like on bronx's junkyard forums, i
realise that many young asian.americans vote conservative republican cos
1) they'r families own biznesses n' don't want a big gov't regulating n'
taxing them, 2) they feel asians have gotten where they r due to hard werk
w/ no help from the american gov't, 3) many asian.americans r christians.
true. 1) yes, many asian families own liquor stores, dry
cleaners, video stores, restaurants, beauty salons... true. 2) affirmative
action in the uc system didn't necessarily benefit east asians, the
cjk asians, altho' they did benefit southeast asians n' women,
possibly even asian women, possibly even east asian women.
3) true, many asian.americans r christians: just think of
all the korean baptist n' presbyterian churches u c, all the chinese
baptist churches n' all the taiwanese presbyterian churches. many,
many, many, eh? yup. so yah, those r some forces that have convinced many
asian.americans, many young asian.americans even, to vote
conservate republican.
i don't necessarily think it's right tho'. sure, i'll
keep an open ear or 2; but so far, i'm still not convinced that
conservative political views r what's best 4 the asian.american community.
hey! i don't need to care 'bout the asian.american community
when i vote, right? i should just think what's best 4 humanity in
general, right? heh, butch'u know me! i do care 4 the
asian.american community. i can't help but care! i want
what's best 4 the asian.am community, n' i'll express that thru my voting.
i hope my votes help benefit the asian.am community!
how do i feel 'bout those factors 1), 2), n' 3)? 1) many asian
families own biznesses n' don't want a big gov't regulating n' taxing
them. yah, i can understand that. sure, who
likes having taxes taken from their paychecks? who
likes being told they gotta do things only the way the gov't likes
it or else face punishment? i don't like it! i pay 2
much taxes as is, n' i hate speed limits! asian families have been
pretty successful opening their own biznesses, right? but shoot! is
that the best u can do in this country?! is that li'l liquor store all u
ever wantch'ur family to achieve?! sure, u make $$$ enuf to
feedj'ur family, maybe even putch'ur kids thru college; but frick! is that
enuf in the big picture? sure those small biznesses r good n' quite
an achievement 4 asian immigrants, but the asian.american community can
achieve much more than that n' deserves the opportunities to achieve much
more than that. sure it's good to make $$$; but $$$ isn't
everything. 2) asians have gotten where they r due to hard werk w/ no help
from the american govt. well... u know, so many young asians talk
'bout how affirmative action is bad cos it kept asians out of uc skools.
when i was @ uc berkeley, it cmed like there were tons of asians in
the engineering depts. i looked 'round n' there were so many asian
students, right? well, shoot! 1nce i got out into the werking
world, what happened to all those asian engineers? *shrug* in the
real world there rn't that many asian engineers, in the big
picture of things. n' how many of them advance up the ladder into
management n' beyond? not enuf, right? same w/ other fields.
r there enuf asian ceos of big companies? r there enuf asian
politicians? r there enuf asian athletes? asian actors?
asian musicians? asian pop stars? sure, an asian
immigrant can come to 'merica, set up a liquor store n' make a bit of $$$.
an asian immigrant can come to 'merica, get into a good skool, get
a good college degree, n' make a bit of $$$. shoot, but what's a
bit of $$$?! asians ought to be able to accomplish much more than
that. why don't they end up in top exec positions often enuf?
sure u got jerry yang of y! n' a handfull of others, butu know? a
glass ceiling does exist. u really think the playing field
is level? no. as i was saying on the bjunkyard forums, shoot...
don'tch'u think a conservative white boss wouldn't rather give a promotion
to the dude that played polo or went yachting w/ him last weekend than the
punk that was off partying @ a korean club, playing ddr, n' drinking boba
over the weekend? heh, as i sed on the forums; sure that's a
very silly example; but my point is that the "good ol' boys club"
sure does exist! n' u know... sure, asians could play that game 2.
why not promote the kid that went noraebang/karaoke w/ the boss
last nite? sure, we can play "good ol' boys club" 2; however, do u
really think we have a fighting chance by this 2 wrongs make a right
method? u know, personally, i don't think so. to me, it's just the
right thing to level the playing field 4 all. affirmative action
isn't just a race thing neway... there r many women,
including asian.american women, who face discrimination all the time. 3)
many asians r christians. sure, yes. in a very long.stretch
way, i do consider myself a christian. why must asian
christians be part of the conservative right?! there r plenty of nonasian
christians that r christian n' liberal. is rev. jesse jackson not a
democrat? well... the sad truth that being thrown in my face is
that asian culture has been n' still is much more conservative than some
others. we'd still like to pretend that good ppl r all chaste,
devout, n' moral. why do u think asian pop has so much ses, finkl,
n' s#arp?! 2 many asians wanna believe all their pop icons r a
bunch of innocent virgins that do no wrong! they wanna think in a
pleasantville way that the youth of 2day r better than those gen x
slackers! it's no diff than how conservative americans love cing britney
spears shake her supposedly pristine @$$ on the telly advertising pepsi!
they wanna believe that the youth of 2day r a bunch of abstinence
preaching flag wavers that will restore 'merica to the dignified moral
standards it had in the reagan yrs! sure, that's an idea many
asians wanna buy into. no, their kids rn't having teen sex cos
they're all 2 bizzy studying 4 the sat n' going to church fellowship!
we r the model minority; we do no wrong. we do no wrong, n'
we don't sin. why do we need to support abortion rights, when our
kids'll never have unwanted pregnancies cos they're 2 bizzy studying n'
praising god? so that's what lots'f asians wanna believe, eh?
i say i'm an idealist n' a dreamer. still, i can't
support the conservative right, the moral "majority"! no way!
why should i support scarlet letter legislation?! i'm a
romanticist, an idealist, n' a dreamer n' i support love, compassion,
4giveness. it's only sometimes a facade that asian kids don't get
pregnant, don't do drugs, don't join gangs. sometimes its true.
perhaps in those cases, we can sometimes thank traditional asian
parenting. sure, that's 1 reason why we're the model minority n'
the conservatives pat us on our heads. "good dog," they say.
it's only sometimes a facade that we're good ppl, but sometimes we
slip up. i'd rather c my asian brethren rehabilitated than
executed, just like i'd rather c all my american brethren treated w/
4giveness after repentence. christianity is a religion not a
political affiliation.
*sigh* well, that stoopid political schpiel wasted 2 much of my time
2day. during that time, i did take breaks. i did
werk, n' i also went out n' bought gas. u know what? since
my lunch wasn't filling, i stopped by burger king n' bought a whopper jr.
meal. i ate the fries n' drank the diet coke, but i didn't eat the
whopper jr. i'm saving that 4 later. i bought gas @ the
beacon in san rafael that sold me 87 octane gas r $1.06 / gallon.
that's better than the $1.25 / gallon i paid earlier this week 4 @ #1 gas
in berkeley. that time, i just bought 0.5 tank. oh yah, i'm
ommitting the 0.09. upes. so the prices were $1.069 v. $1.259.
*sigh* neway, i'm not gonna talk nemore politics now.
olitics suck, n' my grandpa told me to stay 'way from politics.
[much later] *sigh* what a day. what a rainy day!
it's cold n' rainy/drizzly. i ate that whopper jr. now. what
a day, what a day i received in the mail this cheap but super
sleek/kewl compact flash card reader i bought on e.bay. it's really
kewl. i like the design. n' it was cheap. :-) if only
the memplug cf card handspring adaptor wasn't so dang expen$ive! *sigh*
last nite, i reinstalled hinet recorder on my 'puter n' resumed dling korean
musik videos. i dled 2 baek ji young musik videos: "choorak" n'
"dash." i'll dl more soon. 2nite we'll have practice n' then
a uc open mtg. [a li'l later] i finally gave a title to 2day's
entry: "suhngin," adult. heh, funny. earlier i was thinking 'bout
that britney spears song "i'm not a girl, not yet a woman." i
wonder if that's a popular song 4 transvestites. will i
finally get that boba drink 2nite? afternoon: didju notice that my page was unavailable 4 a long time
last nite? heh, prob'ly not, huh? the server was down 4 a while.
i was having probs editing my page earlier last nite. it was
frustrating. i kept getting disconnected, n' my "recent" page was
all skrewed up. i wanted to correct it, but i was having the most
frustrating time. then later the server was just plain down.
*shrug* i dunno why. neway, i was silenced. i felt like i
must've been censored or sumpthin'. heh heh. it's big
brother watching me, right? ha ha... yah, right. *sigh* so
now that we've talked a bit 'bout how z95.7, the bay area's top 40
station, censors musik cos its owned by mormons... ugh, i really don't
want to support them. listen, i don't have nething 'gainst
mormons... compared to many ppl i encounter. some ppl i know
really hate mormons. they say that mormons r all racist
white ppl that believe in bigamy/polygamy etc. well, actually, i
went to hi skool w/ many mormons. i was in band w/ many mormons.
heck, i even lived in idaho 4 like a yr or so, right? :-) i
don't hate mormons. however, if u'r gonna say that u'r all
conservative n' gotta censor musik cos u'r a mormon, i'm not gonna really
like that. ugh, now i really prefer to wake up to npr over
gene n' julie! heh, the beautiful kaela kang was
discussing donating $$$ to kqed last nite in the car w/ me, raymond, n' roland.
heh, i sed, "imagine if some1 made $$$ selling counterfeit kqed
merchandise," like their "famous kqed tote bag." ha ha ha. yah,
that would be very wrong, eh? well, i know my dad used to
contribute to kqed. yah, that's good. i mean, it's not like
i've got tons of $$$ to throw 'way, so well... i don't think i'm all that
up 4 donating yet, but like it's 1 of those organizations i'll definitely
give $$$ to when i win the lottery: ucmap, kqed, the humane society, the
world wildlife fund... some aids research... abused women's shelters...
hrm... what else? ha ha ha ha, of course! bronx's junkyard! ha ha.
yah, sure, there's gotta be some like asian.american organizations that
i'd donate $$$ to if i won the lottery. of course. *sigh* neway, i
have yet to win the jackpot, right? :-)
well, 2day's been a relaxed day @ werk, a_relaxed_day@werk.com.
kaela came to visit me. we went to lunch @ indian village in san
rafael, a place that dave yee introduced me to. the 1st time i
brought kaela there, we saw dave there w/ his cowerkers, talkin' 'bout
stocks, etc. stocks... man, oh man! *sigh* funny to think, eh?
*sigh* what can u say? stock options n' all that, it just ain't
what it used to be n' it prob'ly won't ever be what it used to be.
*sigh* yah, i took this current job cos'f all these stock option offers,
etc. dang, i practically took a pay cut, banking on stock options,
u know/ well, shoot! that stuff don't fly nemore, eh? nope nope
nope. *sigh*
[a li'l later] well there's much much indian fud in my stomach right
now. i'm so full. *sigh* well, i wonder what we'll do 2nite.
no clue. yah, i'd like to do sumpthin' fun. who
knows? 2morrow morn, will i go to that 900a morn class? *sigh* i
dunno. u know, i'd sure like to get some kind of
werkout!!! oh, i didn't mention, huh? last nite, @ taekwondo
practice, we had a decent warm up. then we stopped n' had a referee
seminar. *sigh* that's all good, but dang! i need/want to werk
out!!!
hrm, this site dealtime.com cms to be a much better price search
engine than i originally gave it credit 4. originally, i thought
it was like salesmountain.com, some really slow, very limited in range
price search engine, but it's actually pretty good, it cms... i mean, 4
non'puter stuff. 4 'puter stuff, i usually use pricescan,
pricewatch, streetprices, n' uh... cnet, i guess. i wanna get a new
dakine spike stomp pad. according to dealtime.com my best online
deals r @ fogdog n' oshman's ($11.99), just like it sed 4 those motorola
t5100 radios. well, i personally think i could get a decent deal by
driving down to tri.city. *shrug* there's also 1 currently going 4
$7.50 + $4 s/h on ebay. hrm... dunno. i need to know tri.city's
price.
i'm so full. hrm... so what'll we do this weekend? my
dad'll be in town. i'll have lunch w/ him on sat. i
think kaela'll go w/ me, but she's definitely freaking out 'bout
her thesis 1st draft. *sigh* well, what to do? i'd
like to have a produktive weekend. i haven't cn my san jo
friends in a long time. *sigh* sure, the apt always
needs cleaning up. the days r getting longer, u know?
slowly, they're getting longer. i hope the tahoe snow stays frozen
4 me. please, throw on a few more feet of snow 4 me, please!
i dunno what to do. we've got taekwondo demos coming up.
we'll hafta practice 4 those, but man... as demo team leader, it just
really frustrates me when ppl don't come to practice. i really
can't put up w/ ppl wasting my time so much these days. i've
stressed so much 'bout putting on good demos. sure, i appreciate
that my peers n' dr. min n' master yoon c that i put effort n' time into,
but u know? if ppl really push me by ditching practices, i start thinking,
"how much is it really worth to me?" i don't mean to get all bitchy
this semester, but i'm sort'f @ the end of my rope w/ lott'a things.
i have many goals 4 myself in taekwondo. yah, if i
weren't wasting all my time waiting 4 ppl to show up to demo practice;
yah, i'd be werking on my 540! i'd be werking on higher halo kicks!
i'm pretty fed up! serious... neway... i don't mean to gripe in publik
'bout such internal bizness matters. :-/ *sigh* so what am i gonna
do this weekend? well, shoot! last nite, after practice, we went to
the durant fud ghetto, went to mandarin house. kaela n' i shared a
bamboo 'shroom chicken n' each had a boba drink. argh! i just realised that i don't have my handspring/startac cable! i
think it must've fallen out of my pocket in my cowerker's car. i
went w/ her to help her pick up her new tv, n' i must've dropped it in her
car! argh! so i won't have it over these next 3 days! *sigh* i
can't believe myself! x( what did i do? ha, i just got all addicted
to wireless web browsing, n' now i've misplaced my wonderful cable! *sigh*
ok ok, i'll spend 1 3.day weekend in the stone age w/o wireless web
access. :-( it's been so much my favourite toy these past few days, but
now i've misplaced it. :-( why did i hafta put it in my pocket instead of
putting it back in my bag?! grrr! [mins later] ok, i just left my cowerker
an e.mail, but she prob'ly won't c it till mon. *sigh* oh well; as
i sed, back to the stone age! i can't have 1 fedexed to me overnite
to my apt, right? ha ha ha. ok, i'm not that ridiculous!
sheez, if i were more of a teknojunkie n' if i were an eecs
graduate, i'd make 1 myself. it's just that the connectors r hard
to buy in small quantities. i should just leave it plugged into my
handspring all the time? that's how kaela cms to have it. ok
ok, breathe! *breathe* i will survive this weekend w/o wireless web
access. repeat. i will survive this weekend w/o wireless web access. 1141a: dang, i need to get my butt down to oak airport to pick up my
dad... his plane lands early, like in 6 mins! shoot! it was s'pposed to
land @ 1205p, but it's early. dang. n' well, heh, i guess i lost
track of time earlier. last nite, the beautiful kaela kang n'
i ordered a nino's brazilian pizza via waiter.com. we ordered the
"mario's special," which has linguica, heart of palm, black olives, n'
artichoke hearts. it has lots n' lots of cheese, but instead of
tomato sauce, it just has tomato slices. that's nino's brazilian
style pizza, as opposed to their italian style pizza. b4 we
picked up the pizza, we swung by safeway to buy some beer to have w/ the
pizza. we bought some sapporo. it looks like all the asian
beers or on sale 4 the lunar new yr. this morn, i woke up early,
picked up toby, n' went to the early sat morn, all levels taekwondo class.
it was pretty fun, a very "family" environment. heh, i get
to stand w/ the rest of the black belts on the side of the room, as
if i were already a 3dan. *sigh* just imagine, someday soon i
do hope to be a 3dan. u know that
i'm a 2dan right now, right? neway, practice went well. i
taught a short segment 4 the new white belts. that includes toby n'
2 others. after practice, i dropped toby off. i felt like i
had time, n' it was such a gloriously nice, blue.sky day! i
wanted to buy kaela a boba. now kaela's gettin' ready, n' we'll take off 4 oak airport very soon.
dang, i should maybe cleawr out the trunk, huh? i've got my
taekwondo bag, n' my snowbarding boot bag in the back right now.
ken called a while 'go. yah, i haven't cn him or nelson in ages.
i really want to go hang w/ them soon. kaela has her 1st
draft of her thesis to write this weekend. *sigh* dang, i don't
have my handspring/startac internet connection cable! :-( in fact,
this morn, i 4got my handspring @ home. man, crazy, huh?
what's w/ me? how did i end up as such a teknojunkie?! i
believe in teknology. ha, i don't wantchu to think i worship
teknology. no. it's a beautiful day outside.
[later] 1030p: so i had a full day 2day, i guess. we went out to
lunch w/ my dad. i picked him up from the airport w/ kaela.
then we drove thru alameda looking 4 a lunch spot. eh! my alameda
geography isn't good 'nuff. we then drove to oakland chinatown, but
it was way 2 crowded. we ended up going to the new restaurant
jangtuh soondae on telegraph. mmmm.... soondae! u know i like
soondae. the soondae there is very fresh. i liked it.
u guys know what soondae is, right? it's a korean rice n' blood
sausage. we had a very big lunch. then i drove my dad back
to the airport n' went home. then jerome picked me up to go to the
walnut creek broadway plaza mall. jerome n' sophia had build.a.bear
stuffed animals to make. somebody gave them the skins, n' they
needed to stuff them. u guys know build.a.bear workshop, right?
u make ur own stuffed animals. 'member, i got kaela a world
wildlife fund panda from the valley fair build.a.bear workshop.
well, we browsed the mall. dang! clothes r expen$ive 'gain, now
that the winter clearance stuff is gone. *sigh* yah, i haven't been
buying clothes much lately. *sigh* since the economy plummeted, i
haven't shopped newhere like i used to back during the good ol' days of
the teknoboom. *sigh* well, after shopping/browsing, we went back
to berkeley. btw, in jerome's mpv (his parents') we had jerome,
laura, sophia, roland, n' me. then we picked up kaela from home n'
went to eat @ pasta pomodoro on college. man, that's the 2nd bad
service experience we've had @ pasta pomodoro in a row. grrr! i say we
should go to fillipo's pasta instead from now on. it's pretty good.
there's a location on solano n' 'nother on college. someday
soon we gotta try grasshopper, the asian tapas place that is very close to
where i used to live. *sigh* can't believe it opened after i moved
out'f that dump. well, we had pasta pomodoro 4 dinner. i
didn't much like my puttanesca pasta; it was 2 sour. i preferred
kaela's malfadine, which was this wavy pasta w/ shrimp, asparagus, n' a
creamy tomato sauce. we also shared a spinaci salad, which was
pretty good; better than my puttanesca. *sigh* well, we're
back home now, n' i guess kaela's werkin' on her thesis. 324p: i'm standing outside the door'f our 'partment waiting 4 the
beautiful kaela kang.
we're going to ucsf. [later] 335p: now i'm waiting in my
car, outside her werk. she has'ta pick up sumpthin'. in the
car, i'm currently listenin' to park kiyoung's "sijak." hrm, it's
sort'f a femme rock pop song. somewhere btwn alice 97.3 lilith fair
stuff n' vonda shepard, probl'y more like the ally mcbeal singer n' more
"pop"py. earlier, @ home, i took a listen to the "damn, it feels
good to be a gangster" mp3, the song from the movie office space.
what a lazy day. these past few weeks... ah! a squirrel!!!
i don't get to c squirrels often 'nuff cos i werk in dagnabbed,
squirrelless marin count. *sigh* neway, these past few weeks, i've
dled plenty of mp3s, as if i'm addicted; but i haven't been burning thcm
to cd or uploading them to my soundsgood. i've been 2 lazy, i
guess.
well, i gotta take kaela to ucsf to do some thesis research. i
wish i had my handspring/startac internet connection cable w/ me. :-(
i'd like a boba drink. [a few secs later] i just moved my
car. i'm waiting w/ the engine on. i moved so that some man
could move his car out of his parking space. i moved my car to a
bad spot, blocking a walkway. then the uc parking n' transit guy
drove by. i wonder if it was bad i was where i was. however
he didn't bother me, prob'ly cos he knew i wasn't parked. [later]
355p: now i'r waiting in the red zone outside of quikley. kaela ran
in to get us boba drinks. talk 'bout yay! yay! we haven't
had much to eat yet 2day. we both ate our pasta pomodoro leftovers
earlier. what a lazy day. we're 2 lazy to eat, right? haha,
no. i wish i could go werkout in the rsf 2day. i really
wish. oh a... [later] 428p: i'm waiting @ an sf atm 4 kaela to
deposit some $$$. there r 2 cute doggies here. [ater] 459p:
i dropped kaela off @ ucsf, n' now i just pulled into a parking spot on
geary in j.town. [later] 553p: i walked 'round j.town 4 a while
browsed the shops.
oh! i 'member what i was s'pposed to tell u earlier: this morn, i
watched moosa. it's a korean historical movie. it's
in both korean n' mandarin cos the story involves both korean n' chinese
ppl during the koryo period. i guess what might make this movie
somewhat known is that zhang ziyi is in it. i watched the videotape
that joon borrowed from jerome, i think, n' sent back to me from garden
grove to return to its proper owner. i guess its owner n' joon now
kaew that i haven't returned it yet but soon will. neway, i watched
it. this version does not have english subtitles. 4
the mandarin dialog, it has korean subtitles. heh, i guess this
makes it the movie 4 me, but it's rather graphically violent in a
braveheart, non.kaela.pleasing manner n' i didn't understand all
the dialog, by far. it's a very long movie, n' i didn't pay
attention thru.out the whole thing; but,from what i digested, it's 'bout
these korean uh like prisoners of war in china that end up protecting a
chinese princess from this big warlord army that wants to kidnap her.
*shrug* n' 'long the way they pick up a bunch'f chinese elderly
ppl, women, n' kids. it cms like a very good uh "epic" movie that
deserves an english subtitled version that play in more than just a few
arthouse theatres 4 a couple'f nites in just the major, cultural cities.
*shrug* i mean, chunhyang didn't get the exposure it
deserves .
so it's 609p, n' i'm still sitting in my geary blvd parking space just
outside of j.town. in case u haven't figured it out. i'r tizzily
scribbling 'way on my handspring visor edge. in case u haven't
figured it out, i really wish i had my handspring/startac internet
connectin cable w/ me. earlier i really wished i had a digital
camera w/ me to take a pic of the gorgeous day in sf. we drove on
haight thru haight ashbury to get to ucsf. the blue sky was
beautiful! when i was walking thru the outdoor plaza of j.town, the
sky had the most beautiful sunset colours n' a beautiful flock of pigeons
circling in the air, completing the skyline picture. i really
wanted to aake a picture but had no camera. now i'm hungry n'
wondering what's 4 dinner? i dunno what's our budget'n this
recession economy in the midst of planning 4 a wedding. *deep
breathe* i'm now listening to y2k's "heiuhjin hooei," a bit of an alltime
power.rock tune 4 me. u know, y2k is a korean/japanese rock group.
i think only the singer is korean. the vocals r in korean.
ha, i'm parked in a korean area of j.town, by kim's gajuhmpoom gwa
gwigook suhnmool (housewares n' gifts). oh yah, btw "moosa" means
warrior in korean. in chinese, the 1st character is "wu," but i
dunno what the 2nd character is in chinese. it should mean
sumpthin' like "esteemed person." i know the character looks like a noble
person sitting, i guess. neway... *sigh* i'm hungry! while
in the j.town mall those sophie's crepes smelled n' looked sooo
good. what's 4 dinner?
in a way, i wish i could've watched the sun set on ocean beach 2day.
i'm sure it was beautiful. so how r u?
earlier, i considered calling darren wong ("idigu" on bronx's?up since
i was in sf w/o much to do; but i thought he might be bizzy studying.
[just a li'l later] 637p: i'm still waiting 4 kaela to call me to tell
me to pick her up frm ucsf. i'm so hungry. do u know how
good a sophie's crepe sounds right now?!
[later] 727p: i'm waiting, stopped 'cross several motorcycle spaces w/
my blinkers on, outside ucsf. 110a: tgim; thank goodness it's mon. ha ha. my manager
has some bumper sticker like magneted to his filecabinet or sumpthin' that
sez sumpthin' like: "workaholics: thanks goodness it's monday," or
sumpthin' like that. u know, i don't werk 2day. i already
werked on fri, n' well, so i take the 1st 2 mons of the month off
'pparently. *sigh* this is a very strange arrangement. on fris,
there's just 2 of us in the office. well, it's a very lax
environment; i like that. still, it doesn't feel quite right.
yah, i can werk on my own skedule, sort'f; but i still end up
kind'f stressed. on mon, i don't hafta go in 4 werk, but when i get
into werk on tues, i feel more stressed. *shrug* c, fris r usually easier
days than mons, right? like, i would think i'd like skipping mons
cos sometimes mons r disastrous. *shrug* dunno. somehow, if i skip
fri, i can get a good, early start on the weekend, n' everything's kewl.
if i skip mon, well... hrm... yah, i would think i'd be
skipping out on more stress, but somehow it just don't / doesn't
werk like that. *sigh*
well, after i picked the beautiful kaela kang up
from the ucsf library last nite, we tried to go eat @ ebisu afterwards,
but it was way 2 crowded. [ok, i was massaging kaela's back; now
i'm back.] man, it was so frustrating driving 'round that irving
st. district! well, we drove off to j.town; back to j.town! ha ha.
we ate dinner @ fuku sushi. it's the restaurant w/ all the
autographs on display; like keanu reeves's autograph is on display
outside. it's by sophie's crepes, on that side of the mall.
it was a pretty good meal, but kind'f expen$ive. actually, kaela
picked up the bill cos she pted out i drove her to ucsf. true, so i
graciously accepted. then i bought us some dessert @ sophie's
crepes. guess what; since it was kind'f late, they stopped making
crepes! grr! however, we could get gelato/sorbetto. kaela got
espresso n' green tea gelatos. i got passion fruit sorbetto.
well, after we finished our dessert, we left 4 home. what a sun,
eh? sumpthin' a li'l diff, i guess. hrm, like, i guess i sort'f
wished i could go to like a movie or sumpthin' last nite. we still
haven't cn lord of the rings or a beautiful mind or
oceans 11 or... hrm, i just saw the name of 'nother movie we need
to c; i 4get... hrm, sumpthin' that's been out 4 a while, sumpthin' we'd
better c b4 it leaves the theatres. uh... *sigh* i 4get. well, we
came home n' took care of bizness, i guess. kaela sort'f got to
werk on her thesis. i took care of other biz, mostly stuff over the
net. 4 example, i had to seal a ebay deal on.line. i bought
a replacement walkie.talkie, but guess what, 4 $2 more than the lowest
retail price (oshman's / fogdog), i got 2 walkie.talkies; so i
guess when we have friends w/ us we can use all of 'em. man, lemme
tell u; i'm gonna put our address labels on those radios! why didn't i
think of that earlier?! i gotta be more careful w/ that stuff?
*sigh* so uhm, i found out i won that auction yesterday, i guess.
i also found out i won this other auction on a digital innovations
skip doctor cd/dvd repair machine. both these buys were such
good deals. i'm pretty happy w/ those purchases. neway,
so... i took care of those things n' did other things on.line. all
this on.line biz cmed to take 4ever. i guess it was cos i was dling
mp3s part of the time. nuts. c? that's why it somtimes cms
so logical to me to get dsl. *sigh* however, really! i don't wanna
spend that kind'f $$$! no no no! we've got a wedding to save up 4!
well, i don't hafta werk 2day, n' *sigh* i guess it sort'f feels good.
'member? b4 we left 4 ucsf, i was listening to the office space
soundtrack song "damn, it feels good to be a gangster." well,
dang... it feels good to be in this economic rece$$ion,m don't it? heh
heh. that's very hard to say, right? just think of all my
fallen homies, those who've gotten laid off b4 me. (well, i hope never to
get laid off.) *sigh* but just think of all the teknobust
casualties! just think! so many victims! *sigh* but is there a
"bittersweet lining" to all this? i started pondering late last
week if the teknobust has opened doors 4 some of my peers. maybe
some ppl got laid off from the teknology n' engineering jobs n' now r
pursuing things they really wanna be. well, roland went 4
that interview @ berkeley ironwerks to be a contracted personal fitness
trainer. he got the job. good 4 him. my 4mer cowerker
chris got laid off, but now he's spent several months travelling in europe
n' south/southeast asia. so... if i get laid off i can be a
fulltime remix/club dj n' spend the rest of my time practicing taekwondo.
then i can be what i've always wanted to be: a guy that got
disowned/killed by his parents! ha ha ha. well, shoot! i'm just
kidding: 1) i don't think that's my dream life, n' 2) well, i shouldn't
say that my parents'd do that to me, altho' no1 can deny they'd be very
displeased. *sigh* but just think. how many of my peers swore in
1998 they'd be retired by now, but instead find themselves laid off now.
crazy, huh? well, am i benefitting from the teknobust cos i
get to take 2 days off each month? *sigh* i dunno. i guess
it gives me more free time. it's 142a on a mon morn, which is a sun
nite to me, n' i don't hafta worry 'bout going to sleep to wake up 2morrow
morn to get to werk on time. if i were totally unemployed, i guess
i'd say that every nite, eh? well, shoot! lemme tell u, i
really don't wanna be unemployed. i'm just weird like that.
ha ha.
u know, this situation sort'f reminds me of 'nother. back in
berkeley engineering, man, life surely wasn't easy! frick, the college of
engineering wanted to kick us all out! i flat out heard 2
adminstrators chatting on the bechtel terrace 'bout how parents force
their kids to go into engineering, so they consider it their duty to
dismiss students from the engineering college to get them out. they
assume so much. neway, i had several friends who got dismissal
letters. those of u who actually know me know that i got a
dismissal letter. however, i werked my butt off, i'm proud to say,
n' got my @$$/butt back into the college of engineering. that's a
story 4 'nother day. however, some of my fallen comrades, weren't
so lucky. some of them got kicked out of the college of engineering
n' never got back in. u know, others just plain left. i just
think 'bout how that's all kind'f like the situation of many tekkies n'
engineers r right now, right? they out of the engineering field, so
now what? u know, i think a few months 'go, i was looking @ this
webpage 'bout asian.american per4mances. i saw that 1 of my
exclassmates bennet lin was per4ming w/ his rock group somewhere in the
bay area. c, he was in engineering w/ me 4 like 2 yrs. then
he dropped out to be a religious studies major, specialising in south
asian religions. neway, so i guess he's got his rock band all
going. back in college, i 1nce had a jam session w/ him @ my ol'
hillegass apt. heh, i also had a jam sesh or 2 w/ george chen, whom
i sort'f knew since elementary skool, the guy of zum 'zine cult fame.
hrm... i 'member, there was some modernist poet who studied to be
an engineer 4 a yr, then dropped out. well, he's 'least famous
'nuff now that i 'member reading his biography, but i 4get which poet he
is.
u know what my favourite poem is, right? t.s. eliot's "the lovesong of j.
alfred prufrock." hey, so can u believe there's a webpage devoted to
this poem that sells "my prufrockian ego" gear? ha ha. check out www.prufrock.org.
eh, actually, this person's selling the prufrock shirts, mugs, n'
hats thru cafepress.com. that's the same company that peter park is
using 4 his bronx's junkyard gear. as a bronx's junkyard forum
moderator, i gotta have some bronx's junkyard gear. heh,
imagine if i started selling benomix gear on my site! heh heh. eh,
i don't wanna be a copycat. heh, however, if some1 really came up
w/ a kewl logo 4 me, i'd toss 'round the idea a li'l... or 'least bat it
'round like a kitten bats 'round a ball. ha ha ha. so why do
i like "the lovesong of j. alfred prufrock"? hrm, well, *sigh* i
wonder if it is still my favourite poem. hrm... well, heh! i just
haven't read 'nuff poems lately, maybe. i dunno... back in my early
days of college, i felt i really related to the "lovesong" part of it
all... i thought the poem described a guy who felt awkward looking 4 love;
he felt nervous 'bout it; he wondered if he was hip enuf to impress
chicks, n' yet @ the same time he wondered if the chicks he saw were worth
impressing. that's how i saw the poem.
[later] 306a: kaela took my 'puter 'way from me 4 a while. i
dunno why but she wanted to use my 'puter to do her taxes. well,
i'm back; but now i'm 2 tired to type. while kaela was doing her
tax stuff i was playing some silly fantasy semi.roleplayinggame (rpg)
called rogue on my handspring. c, when i was a kid i used to play
rogue on the pc. now they've got it 4 palm os. i like stuff
like that.
[a min or 2 later] so 2morrow, what am i gonna do? well, if/when
i get a new job, i wonder if i'll have less time to update my journal.
after all, i won't have every 1st n' 2nd mon off, eh?
really, why doesn't some1 pay me to write in this journal all
day?
[later] 1150a: well, i'm still @ home. being home on a mon
really makes me feel as if i had been laid off! geez, i hope
i don't 4get to go to werk 2morrow! ha ha. i've been posting on the
new bronx's junkyard forums. well, it runs a li'l slower,
but maybe that's cos i'm also dling musik videos right now. *shrug* well,
some other ppl on the forums have also sed that the new forums run a bit
slow. it's ok. i'll always appreciate that peter n' jerome
put in so much time n' effort to running these forums. even tho'
i've been a mod @ bjunkyard forums, i'm glad i can leave the admin duties
to other ppl. modding is fun, but i'm sure adminning gives lots'f
headaches. i think all the old posts have 1nce 'gain been deleted.
i sort'f don't like that cos i wish i had a chance to save some of
the things i wrote. a few mins 'go i ate the 2 leftover slices of
the nino's brazilian pizza from fri nite. ah, it was very tasty.
:-) u know what tho? on my 1st of the 2 slices, i put quite a bit of after
death hot sauce. upes. well, i ate it nonetheless, of course.
i think i haven't had 'nuff spicy fud lately, maybe cos i've been
eating frozen dinners 4 lunch on werkdays. well, i hope my
tolerance hasn't gone down 2 much. *sigh* well, what else
would i eat? i could go buy overpriced burritos every day.
*shakes head* no no no. we've gotta save up $$$ 4 the wedding!
i'm sick of the awful fud selection in marin county! ha, of
course, it's been like that 4 a while. geez, maybe i should get a
new job just to get better lunches! >:-( *sigh* really, now that
the days of the teknoboom r over, i really can't imagine going out 4 nice
lunches every single day. geez! back when i 1st started @ this
company some of my cowerkers'd go out 4 pretty nice lunches every single
day. often they'd invite me, but even then i'd hesitate to go often
just cos it was 2 expen$ive. crazy, huh? i dunno... it cms to me
that i could always visualise a group of engineers going out to lunch... i
dunno. why is that? like, i can imagine that engineers all go out 4 well,
moderately priced interesting fud. like, i could imagine that
executives'd go eat @ like the carnelian room or heh some more
conservative, fancy, jacket.required type place 4 lunch every day.
however, i'd more imagine that engineers'd go out 4 chinese or japanese
lunch specials every day. well, shoot. i really don't wanna
spend $$$ every day on chinese or japanese restaurant lunch specials.
i don't even wanna spend $$$ every day on burritos. i don't
wanna eat fast fud every day. back in sf, i'd almost never eat fast
fud. *sigh* being in sf yesterday made me really appreciate the
city. it's so beautiful during the day, huh? well, shoot!
back where i used to werk, in the presidio heights, it was so foggy all
the time. :-( well, sf can be a beautiful place.
*sigh* now it's 1207p. what should i do now? i should get
dressed. i'm still wearing my pajamas w/ a hooded sweatshirt on
top. i don't like being like this, no! well, i titled this
journal entry last nite, but i'm actually now listening to the
title track: the pet shop boy's "opportunities (let's make lots of
money)." it's a dance remix of the song i dled. "i've got
the brains. you've got the looks. let's make lots of money.
you've got the brawns. i've got the brains. let's make
lots of money." *sigh* why do i waste so much time writing in this
journal?! is it that i really have so much to say to all u
ppl? do u ppl want to read this? *shrug* i think when i
start writing 2 much like this, often it's just to record my own thoughts;
don't'chu think? i think so. [a few mins later] 1221p:
here's a pic of myself, taken w/ kaela's digital elph:
[later] 128p: well, shoot! i'm still @ home! i've sort'f
changed now. i'm wearing jeans n' a wife beater. uh, u know what a
"wife beater" is, right? the ribbed, a.shirt, tank top, undershirts?
well, i just don't wanna mislead ne1 into thinking i actually
condone domestic violence. domestic violence is wrong. this
rather inappropriate piece of slang has just become so well accepted...
'least 'mongst my generation, 'least 'mongst my peers.
neway, changed out of my pjs. i did a li'l bit of cleaning in the
bathroom. everything takes so long! *sigh* ok, i'll get out
of here soon. please don't worry!
[later] 308p: i went to 1 bank, to the post office, then to my other
bank. *sigh* i had them "convert" my checking acct to 1 that won't
take $8 out off my balance each month. i have direct deposit; i
deserve free checking! i did all this biz w/ my checking acct.
the teller had to do some things on his 'puter to make the change,
n' apparently it wasn't such an easy task cos he had to call 4 help.
while all this was going on, i knew the teller could c that my
balance was 72 cents. *sigh* yah, it's kind'f embarrassing.
he must've assumed i was a laid off engineer. who else would have
time to do banking @ 3 in the afternoon? ha ha. as i walked out the
door after thanking the teller i realised i still had $1000 in ca$h in my
pocket that i 4got to deposit. upes! back to the end of the line...
*sigh* 2day, everything's taking 2 long! i'm parked outside
of the 99 mall right now cos i wanna go get buns from shengkee.
should i buy some groceries from 99? *shrug* i was planning on
going to solano safeway after this. i'm pretty stressep 'bout all
this housewerk. all i've eaten 2day were those 2 pizza slices.
i feel a stress stomachache comin' on. :-( 2nite we have
demo team practice. we have that big basketball game demo next
week. i really need more cooperation from the demo team members n'
less headaches.
[later] 339p: i bought my buns. i bought a lychee green milk tea
from the café, n' i bought 3 superlotto tix 4 this wed's $115
million jackpot. c, i'm a poor, desperate man! i'm 1 step
'way from the dog tracks! hey the horse track is very close to
here! hahaha! *sigh*
[later] 516p: i went to safeway on solano, did some grocery shopping in
the overcrowded supermarket. *sigh* i felt like everything was
expen$ive n' that i didn't have enuf $$$. *sigh* it's just a state
of mind, u know? but i just feel poor. :-( i tried to buy stuff that was
on sale or that i had coupons 4. there's nuthin' out of the
ordinary 'bout that. i tried to be economical. i
think i always try; but maybe i tried a li'l harder; dunno. *shrug*
then kaela left me a v.mail while i was checking out n' couldn't
answer the fon. well, i picked her up after leaving safeway.
now we're home. we have demo practice 2nite. kaela's not
going cos she has'ta werk on her thesis.
i was debating with myself wheter to type this entry via telnet on my
server or write it on my handspring well, after dinner, toby called me. we talked 'bout 'puter
applications. he's giving me some kewl programs he dled.
[later] i really appreciate toby's giving me these programs. then
ken called me, n' we chatted 4 a while. he gave his fiancée
her engagement ring recently. man! sounds like quite a rock!
we chatted 4 a while. it's good to talk to ol' friends. i
guess i talked to ken, toby, n' jerome yesterday. dang, i feel like
a fon company ad.
[later] lately, i've been writing so much. ...so much, so often.
i worry tho' that i'm not a good writer. sure, i'm a
li'l proud in my consistency in posting journal entry; but u know,
journal writing might be the lowest form of writing. :-( ...low on the
evolution chain of writing. "real" writers write books, articles,
or 'least essays. well, that thought sort'f depresses me.
i figure a writer uses a journal to brainstorm; perhaps a writer
should not publish his/her journal. is posting on the web
publishing? sure, that's why we have the term "web publishing,"
right? well, in the recent past i pondered writing some... i dunno
articles? like, i pondered writing an article on asian ethnicity.
i had 1 so.so article on asian.american ethnicity already,
somewhere on this site, but i don't really like it much nemore. c?
that's what's good 'bout keeping a journal: my thougts n' philosophies r
somewhat dynamic... only somewhat. *sigh* so am i a
bad writer? i'm not a professional writer. no1 pays
me to write. if u read even 1 entry of the beno journal n' don't
donate, u'r a thief! a common thief! (simpson's joke)
c, i'm a bad writer cos i complain 2 much these days. i complain
2 much 'bout $$$. that's what's wrong w/ the world 2day, beno's
complaining 'bout $$$. [later] after eating most of my chicken
curry lunch, i drove to the corte madera village mall to stroll.
there, i still saw some good deals. i bought a cheap pair'f pants @
the gap but resisted a cheap pair'f pants @ br, telling myself i gotta
watch my $pending, u know? i'm always complaing 'bout $$$. 4
richer or poorer, in sickness n' in health... does kaela complain
'bout health? well, right now she's obviously concerned most w/ a
publik health master's thesis!
[later] [later] early evening: i almost 4 got... happy lunar new yr! the yr of
the horse, eh? *sigh* i 'member last lunar new yr: i was s'pposed
to bring kaela down to the so(uth)bay but ended up stuck late @ werk.
that was so aggravating. 2day, i'm 'gain somewhat
stressed@werk.com. i just had lots to do yet was
sleepytired. happy b.day, ken! 2day's ken's b.day. wow, he's 27 now.
crazy! i'll be 27 this yr. i'm still not @ all used
to being 26! i find myself accidentally thinking that i'm 25
n' the beautiful kaela kang's 24. upes. yah, time flies.
well ken, happy b.day! it's great to have u as a friend.
[later] i'm microwaving a lean cuisine frozen dinner 4 lunch. in
the meantime, i can write here. last nite, i went to taekwondo
practice. when i got there, i was pretty stressed 'bout demo team
bizness. jason lead a cardio.intensive werkout. i tried to
drown my worries in sweat, just lose myself in the werkout.
afterwards, i led the demo team in practice. things came 2gether.
[later] i'm @ the beacon gas station on francisco in san rafael.
gas here co$ts $1.059/gal. that was the co$t in san jo like back in
1993, almost 10 yrs 'go. let's reminisce 4 a sec. :-)
[later] b4 u do nething else, go look @ google.com's cute bunny n' bear in a bobsled banner. that's
an order!
[later] evening: what a bizzy day. i didn't get to write much.
:-(
[later] 943p: really! what a day! some werkdays r just 2 bizzy.
well, shoot! if u actually like reading my journal entries,
then dang! i think u've been a li'l spoiled in the past month. in
the past month, i've written 'lot more than usual; don'tchu think?
well, we've been cooking a li'l lately. well, last nite
after practice, i came home, n' kaela had already cooked some kimchi
mandoo. that was good. after we finished all the mandoo, we
were still hungry; so we ate some strawberry special k. ha ha.
2nite, when i finally left werk, i picked kaela up from the vlsb library.
we went to andronico's n' bought some produce. i cooked some
catfud pasta: i put spam n' sardines in it. i also put in shrooms,
green pepper, zucchini, onions, garlic, asparagus... n' some classico
basil marinara sauce. we had that sauce over some fancily cut,
safeway select pasta... i dunno whatchu call it... sumpthin' like
farfalle, but not farfalle. i think the name started w/ a "c."
man, if i hadn't werked so late, i wanted to go to the gap to
return those pants i bought yesterday. i decided i just don't have
$$$ to waste like that, n' i don't like 'em that much. besides, i
don't really need them. in fact, i prob'ly could better use those
pants i saw @ br. *shrug* the thing is, i did wear those pants a
li'l n' cut off the tag. i hope it won't be a prob. i won't
uh... mention that i wore them... after all, i barely wore 'em.
u know... here's a funny/gross story... depending on how u look @
it. back during the teknoboom, when i shopped 'lot, i bought a pair
of khakis @ the gap. i really needed them cos geez! don't engineers
wear khakis?! well, i had a nice pair of ck khakis, but they
were way 2 big, since i bought them when i was going out w/ vivian, back
when i had a few more pounds 'round my waist, right? neway, i
bought these gap khakis. i bought them 32 waist 30 length cos i had
some br khakis b4 that toby criticised were 2 long. those were
prob'ly 32/32, if not like 34/32 or sumpthin'. neway, back in the
days of the teknoboom, 'round late 1998, i had a short period where i was
buying shorter pants cos'f toby's remark. thus i bought 32/30.
i figured engineers always wore khakis so i wore them 4 a week
straight, i think; 1 werkweek, i.e. 5 days. then on that
fri, a bunch'f the ol' p.crew members went to party sushi 4 dinner.
dave saw my khakis n' sed we had the same pants on or sumpthin'.
then he asked what size. i think his were 32/32, but, yah... mine
were 32/30. he sed the pants'd shrink n' would be much much much 2
short 4 me after that. well, like either over the weekend or on an
evening the next week, i went back to that market st. gap n' exchanged the
khakis 4 a pair of 32/32s. i had the receipt n' bag still, n' i put
the size sticker right back on the pants where it came from. i
returned it; not many questions asked. well, i hope i can do that
'gain 2morrow w/ these pants, which r kind'f like warm.up pants but
rn't. u know, that winter, i also wasted $$$ on a pair of ralph
lauren polo cordouroy pants that i bought 2 short. grr! why did i ever
think it was ok to wear pants that r 2 short?! then 'gain, i have
some pants that r almost 2 tight. i thought they gave me more of a
"mature," upscale, young yuppie look. *sigh* they're ok; but i
don't wear them much nemore. besides, i guess i was just a li'l
thinner back in the days when i bought them. i know 1 pair i bought
from urban outfitters on a shopping trip w/ brandie n' deanna in btwn
sparring practice n' demo team practice back in 1999. yah, i was
definitely lighter back then.
this week's practices have treated me well tho', meaning they've been
decently challenging 4 me. heh, not that i've been panting to
death, no. i just feel i've had a decent cardio werkout n' muscle
endurance werkout. i wanna be fit. in the e.mail last week
or the week b4, i received an e.mail 'bout this yr's bay.to.breakers.
cing that it's like a day or 2 b4 kaela's graduation, i'm sure
we'll skip it this yr; dunno. wait! that makes no sense! she graduates on
a sat... hrm, how could the bay.to.breakers be 1 or 2 days b4?! u know...
i think the bay.to.breakers is on her graduation day. i'm
sure we'll skip it! ha ha ha.
it's a bit cold in the apt. it's so drafty in here. it's
been like that all winter, n' that's why the pg&e bill's been 2 high.
*sigh* 'least i can buy gasoline in marin county 4 1993 san jo
prices, right? ha ha. did i mention 'bout the basketball demo? i
don't think i did. the cal v. ucla men's basketball game halftime
demo, it's apparently only 4 mins long! i mean, the ppl organising
the event r only giving us 4 mins. crazy! man, the life of
the demo team leader, eh? *sigh* i just wanna practice more poomsae
right now to get ready to test this summer... if it turns out i will. :-)
i haven't discussed that much here, huh? well, yah... i
might test 4 3dan this summer; we'll c. neway, i gotta werk on
poomsae: palgwae poomsae n' taebaek 'specially. i'm thinking of
entering the uc open poomsae competition. if so, i'll hafta werk on
my keumgang poomsae, but then 'gain... i'll be so bizzy w/ planning the
demo right? dunno. *shrug* happy v.day!
it's vd2002, eh? i think last nite i fell asleep while the
beautiful kaela kang was still werking on her thesis draft.
i don't really 'member her going to sleep. i hope she
finishes her draft soon. we're skipping going out 4 v.day 2nite 4
it. we've postponed it till 2morrow. still, of course i
wanna celebrate v.day! i'm in love; i want to celebarte love! :-)
i'm very lucky to be w/ kaela. don't ever think i don't
realise that. what's a guy like me doing w/ a hot chick like her?
*shrug*
well, i ate some leftover catfud past 4 lunch. oh, i 4got to
mention that i put pine nuts in the sauce. also, i 4got to mention
that kaela prepared a salad to go w/ the pasta last nite. ah, i'm
so full right now after eating all that leftover pasta n' a jumbo orange.
yah, we bought some big oranges from andronico's yesterday.
maybe they rn't as jumbo as the 1s we bought from pusan, but they're
pretty big. u know, last weekend, i drank a good amt of boba
drinks; since then, not enuf. ha ha. *sigh* can u believe how fast this
week flew by? crazy. *sigh* i wonder if there's a basketball game
2nite. if so, parking'll be very tuff. i wanted to go return
those dang gap pants right now during my lunch break, but i'm also
s'pposed to help move some heavy thing w/ some cowerkers @ 130p.
not 'nuff time. *sigh* shouldn't i 'least go 4 a walk right now?
i'm so very full, n' i need to take a walk. i'm so sick of
being trapped in doors all the time @ werk. actually, i guess 4 the
past few months, it's been way to cold to go outside. eh, it's
getting a li'l warmer. i'm typing this entry instead of
writing it on my handspring.
[much later] well, i sure haven't been writing nearly as much these
past coupl'f days, nope! i've been 2 bizzy w/ werk n' stuff, i
guess. well, i type fast, so just cos i write 'lot doesn't mean i
don't werk. don't 4get that. i guess i'm also trying to gain
some level of adeptness or proficiency w/ graffiti.
[later] dang! why am i stuck @ werk so late?! it's valentine's day.
i wanna be home w/ kaela not stuck @ werk! grrr! skrew it! i'm
taking off! 1225a: well, it's not officially v.day nemore. nuts.
well, i gave the beautiful kaela kang a dozen red roses
n' a puppy n' bunny foto album i bought from a store in j.town last sun.
i'm gonna take her out 2nite. last nite (as in a few hrs
'go), when i came home from practice, kaela n' i had a frozen cheese pizza
w/ anchovies. the thing is: kaela wrote "i (heart) beno" w/ the
anchovies. a long time 'go @ the albany apt., when a bunch'f the
taekwondo gang was over, i did that on a pizza 4 kaela, wrote "i (heart)
kaela." :-) very clever of her to do that 4 me 2nite. kaela stayed
home to write her thesis draft, but i went to taekwondo practice. i
thought we'd get to spend the nite practicing 4 our demo, but we had a
special class led by master royce. he taught us to use our knees n'
elbows 4 self.defense. i've done a li'l of that b4. it was
pretty kewl. then we got a li'l time to werk on the demo.
i'm glad it's all comin' 2gether slowly but surely. after
practicing, some of us ran to the office 4 the uc open mtg. ah,
bizzy bizzy, eh? geez. after that, i checked my v.mail.
kaela left me a msg, but i didn't get ne of it cos her fon cut out.
i drove raymond n' johnny to sweetheart café n' sent raymond in to
buy a boba drink 4 kaela n' 'nother 4 me. i dropped raymond n'
johnny off n' went home to kaela. she thought i had heard her msg
cos she was asking 4 a coffee boba. i had told raymond to get her a
coffee boba 4 me. of course, i gave raymond ca$h n' my full buy 10
get 1 free card, which is actually a buy 9 get 1 free card cos they stamp
ur card 1nce right away, don't they? *shrug* neway, we were both
happy cos i had gotten her the drink she wanted even tho' i hadn't heard
the msg.
well, we both signed up to compete in poomsae @ the uc open.
i'll be doing keumgang poomsae. i'll need to practice much, n'
somehow do all that while planning the demos, but eh! i think i can do it.
handling the volunteers, now that's a chore! *sigh* well, we should
make it fun. :-)
well, 2nite i'm gonna take kaela out 4 dinner... of course it's a
surprise: a hip, innovative place in the city. how 'bout that?
*sigh* i've gotta werk 2day. man, why did getting fris off feel
so much better? 2morrow, i think i know what i gotta do @ werk;
i've got a bit of a plan. :-/
i'm happy toby's doing taekwondo. i hope he's having fun.
i bought him a new size 3 dobok to replace the 2 big, size 4, wrong.style
dobok he ordered thru me. yah, they sent him the wrap.over kind,
not the v.neck kind that he's s'pposed to have, that all of us r s'pposed
to have. 2nite, i take kaela out to dinner. then 2morrow,
will i go to the 900-1030a class? kaela n' i have a dimsum date w/
liane @ 1100a. would i even be able to wake up 4 that class?
*shrug* n' we have demo practice 400-600p.
106a: i'm up still. toby 1nce asked what i do staying up late.
well, i sort out my mp3s, i respond to e.mail, i check ebay, i
check bronx's junkyard forums... dunno. sorting out my mp3
collection takes a long time. i've dled so many mp3s, but so many
of them r all messed up w/ their mp3 label 411. *roll eyes* what a mess!
man, i really wanna go snowboarding! :-( i'm also just wasting time
listening to mp3s. i've got all these teeny bopper pop
songs, as well as some more mature, "real" stuff, playing right now.
i'm thursty. my shoulderblade area is really sore. i
need a massage.
late morning, pre.noon: i feel kind'a yucky 2day. since kaela
was in such a hurry to get to class this morn, n' i had to drive her; i
didn't uhm... i didn't get to brush my teeth. :-( i listerined earlier,
but i didn't get to brush. also, i didn't get to shave, i didn't
get to wash my face, n' i didn't put gel in my hair. come to think
of it, i feel straightout nasty!!! x-( yuck! ugh.
also i've very hungry. i ate a slice of anchovy pizza 4 breakfast,
but i wanted more. :-( i didn't pack a lunch 2day. what to eat? dang, i
sure hope i can get to the gap @ lunch to return those pants! u know what?
2day's a much, much bizzier day @ werk than i expected. geez! if fris r
gonna be like this, i definitely'd rather take fris off than mons!
grrr!!!! [a li'l later] yah, it's such a annoyingly bizzy fri! i'm so
bitter that i'm stuck @ werk 2day. i feel so nasty! i just
wanna go home! this is awful! i hate it! i hate it! i hate it! i'm
hungry, so i've been snacking on these peanut candies. the
receptionist just came by n' offered me some tea that was leftover from a
mtg w/ taiwanese investors. i took a cup since it would wash down
this peanut candy stuff. this tea they serve 4 the taiwanese
visitors is really strong stuff. it's tea that definitely'll keep u
awake. *sigh* what's 4 lunch? geez, i really wanna just take off 4 lunch
now. it's 'bout time neway! i'll need to go to the bank 1st,
huh? shoot. well, no. there's an atm i can use @ the mall, right by
gap. how 'bout it?
[a few mins later] so i still haven't left 4 lunch yet, but i really
ought to. u know, i saw sumpthin' interesting recently: i got some
spam mail from some party promoters 'bout some club party this n' that.
i saw that they had entertainment provided by some go.go dancers n'
"dan chan the magic man." huh? that peaked my curiosity.
who's this "dan chan the magic man"? so i looked him up on the
internet. he's 4 real. he's an asian.american that is 1 of
those magician/acrobat/juggler/motivational speaker guys.
interesting, huh? well, i think that's kewl. i say, go 4 it my
asian.american brutha! i mean, it's just interesting cos when i was
a kid, sure i saw lots'f those motivational speakers like that yo yo team
on the simpsons; however i never saw an asian guy come by like
that. neway, so this guy is gonna per4m in the middle of a niteclub
party? well, i hope that gig goes well 4 him. u can check out his
webpage: dan
chan the magic man. recently, in corte madera, by the burdy
sanctuary marsh, there r these balloon animals stuck into a chain link
fence, lots'f 'em! the artist took a bunch'f balloon animals n' made a red
heart n' a white arrow 4 v.day. cute.
i wish i could take a pic, but it's hard to fotograph n' drive, ain't it?
grr! my drive into werk this morning was awful! geez! lemme tell u, i'm
very bitter 'bout being @ werk 2day! u know, i don't get
presidents' day off! >:-( grrr! talk 'bout "i'd rather be snowboarding"!
[later] late afternoon: i went to burger king in san rafael 4 lunch,
had a whopper meal w/ onion rings. they gave me this "zesty sauce"
w/ my onion rings. after that, i swung by demo ski to look 4 a
dakine spike stomp. they didn't have ne. then i went to the
mall. i returned those pants @ the gap. i strolled 'round n'
browsed 4 a bit. then i went back to werk. yah, it's a much
more hectic fri than i'd like it to be. *roll eyes* i can't wait to
go home. i wonder how kaela's doing w/ her thesis. w/o doubt
she's having a hectic fri. well, i'll take her out 2nite.
2morrow, we'll have a pretty bizzy day. sun? u know, we've
lightheartedly pondered the idea of making a daytrip up to the slopes on
sun, but i dunno... i won't think 'bout that 2 much right now.
[later] early evening: what a day! geez, what a hectic day! grr!
*sigh* i just wanna go home now, gotta bust outta here. i'm taking
kaela out 2nite, 'member? :-)
1101p: wow, i have so much to tell u guys! :-) pretty much all
good stuff, i believe! :-) well, uh... i wish could say that
i won the $193 million cali4nia state super lotto plus jackpot. *sigh*
however, no. well, i do have lots'f happy things to say
tho'. well, lemme just list of a bunch'f stuff 1st.
last nite, i took the beautiful kaela kang out
4 v.day. i
took her out to the restaurant foreign cinema a "swank" (is that the right wurd?),
hip, innovative, comtemporary french restaurant in the mission district of
sf. yah, it's a pretty shady neighbourhood, but it's a very nice
restuarant. from the outside, it looks like a niteclub. in
fact, since all the clientele that was waiting outside when we got there
were young asians, kaela remarked that it looked like i was taking her to
a korean niteclub. ha ha. well, hardly... well, it was pretty neat.
lemme tell u, u know what was neat? we ordered a bottle of riesling wine,
right? but the waitress had kaela do all the stuff the guy usually does,
the tasting, etc. well, kewl... i guess it's a very contemporary
restaurant. that's fine w/ me. kaela ordered a fromage appetizer
n' this tombo tuna entrée. i ordered a carpaccio appetizer
n' a duck breast dinner. yes, it was all really good! :-) we also had
dessert: kaela had a apple tart w/ aisukuriimu, n' i had this citrus
granita. n' we had some coffees. what a nice dinner.
it was nice to go to the city.
this morn, we woke up early. even after a nite out like that, we
woke up early cos we had a big day 'head. kaela went to werk early
in the morn, like @ 700a. me, i went to taekwondo practice, the
family class, @ 900a. i picked up toby n' jeffrey from their apt
bldg on dwight. we had a fun class, lots'f cute kids. i left
b4 sparring class to go take a shower n' get ready to go have dim sum w/
liane n' nate. dang! i had a parking ticket!!!! grrrr! last week,
toby told me that the parking n' transit ppl don't check meters until noon
on sats. nope. i fed the meter 4 1 hr n' 47 mins, but i was just a
li'l over that! grrr! stoopid parking n' transit ppl! grrr!
*sigh* neway, i met up w/ kaela @ our apt, then we went to the pacific
east seafud restaurant in the richmond/albany 99 mall. ah, it was
so kewl to talk to liane n' nate. we talked much 'bout our upcoming
wedding... or our engagement, i guess. we caught up w/ each other,
n' it was very fun. *sigh* it's good to know liane n' nate, good ppl.
nate treating us to the meal. it was very good. i ate
fast n' was very full. we went over to their nearby apt to look @
liane's wedding dresses n' their wedding pics. then we hurried down
to tri.city in fremont. c, kaela told me last nite she'd buy me a
new snowboard deck 4 v.day!!!! well, we found 1 x152 gian simmen pro
model. the thing was, it had a bit of a dent in the topsheet n'
some1's note scribbled on it 2: "neil - throw a party 4 new years (510)...
calibur_10@yahoo.com." *rolle eyes* well, i told the sales rep, "i really
wanna take this deck, but man... there's a dent in the topsheet n' like
some1's fon number scribbled on it!" well, the deck was already 40%
off, but he sed he'd give to us 4 50% off. kewl! so kaela bought me the
board, n' we drove back up to berkeley. we swung by any mountain to
look 4 a dakine spike stomp, but they didn't have clear 1s. then we
went to oscar's hamburgers on shattuck n' hearst to buy 10 lotto tix.
then we went to the rsf 4 demo practice. altho' many demo
team members missed it, we had a very good, very produktive practice.
i planned it out this week. i'm glad it went well.
afterwards, i hurried out w/ kaela n' raymond. we went to destination 1440
to look 4 my dakine spike stomp. they didn't have ne stomp pads.
geez! then we hurried over to r.e.i. dang! they were closed;
they just closed! grrr! then we went home to drop off my
deck to make room 4 laura, roland, n' clarence. we picked them up
from the rsf n' went to mario's la fiesta on telegraph to eat. when
i was home i received my new handspring/startac cable from gomadic. c, since
i found out this week that i lost it 4 good, i ordered a new 1, but i told
them that i had lost it after owning it 4 just a coupl'f days, n' that
i've been telling my friends all 'bout it. to ease my pain, they
sed they'd send me 2 cables. i got them. that's good
customer service, i say! well, we ate @ mario's. i was so
full after eating a chile relleno n' a chicken tostada. so much
fud! well, then we went home, n' i moved my bindings onto my new
deck! :-) i really want to detune the front n' back ends of the
edges n' get the base waxed. well, here's a pic of the middle of my
new deck:
1106p: so the beautiful kaela kang n' i did a daytrip to squaw valley;
snowboarding. i got to ride my new snowboard deck 4 the 1st time.
well, honestly, even tho' i really like my new deck; it wasn't the
greatest day of snowboarding. we woke up early, like... 500a?
well... by the time we left the apt it was after 600a. we wanted to
wake up @ 400a, but we didn't. there was traffik on the way up.
man, so many ppl were heading up to tahoe on this sun(day).
we stopped @ a mcyukyuk's drive.thru 4 breakfast somewhere like in
fairfield or *shrug* dunno. i had a sausage mcmuffin meal w/ a med
coke, n' kaela had a egg mcmuffin meal w/ a large oj. :-) i tell u
all the details, don't i? neway, i drove up to squaw thru
some snow flurries n' lots'f traffik. on 80 btwn boreal n' truckee,
i saw 2 ford explorers on the side of the road. it was stuck in a
ditch. the other was flipped over. the passengers n' driver of that
flipped over vehicle cmed ok. they were young. they were
waving @ all the rubberneckers. i stopped by truckee boardworks.
i wanted a hot wax 4 my new deck, but they sed they do hot waxes
overnite, so i got a cheap "zip" wax n' asked them to detune the ends of
my edges. they did it really quickly. i could've done
that myself. well, 'least they didn't charge me 4 the detune.
i wanted to buy a dakine spike stomp, but they didn't have ne.
well, we got back on the road, onto a trafficky 89, n' went to
squaw. i looked 4 a stomp @ the store there, but nope. so i
figured i'd ride w/o a stomp. oh well. no biggie.
well, we bought our full price tix, n' went up the funitel. we took
emigrant up. eh, *sigh* the run down was really chunky. it
was snowing on us. then we went down the backside. it was
really chunky... deep powder, i guess... but pretty chunky powder.
my toe strap wasn't buckling in. the ratcheting strap is all worn
out. i gotta replace it. even tho' the deck rode fine, my
binding was having that big prob. then kaela got a headache, so we
went back to high camp to eat lunch. then we tried 1 more backside
run, but it was still really chunky cos of the fresh snow. we went
down the frontside to red dog. we went down a run on that side
1nce, then kaela sed she had to rest; but i went back up n' down.
then she came up w/ me, but she sed her boot had rubbed her foot raw
'gain, so we had to ask ski patrol to let her download. i rode down
fast to the base camp. i thought she'd get there 1st, so i hurried.
i got there b4 her lift got there, so it was fine. well,
then we packed up n' went home. a short day. man, i used to like
squaw 'lot, but i realise after the last 2 times we've been there now that
squaw is big, but there is lots'f flat in btwn the good stuff. i'm
pretty upset i didn't get to ride the park, the 0.5 pipe, or rails 2day.
:-(
we drove thru much traffik on the way back. driving thru
sac(ramento) on the 80 often sucks. there's 2 much traffik, n' ppl
don't know how to drive. maybe it was just the vacation drivers,
dunno. 1 of my biggest pet peeves is 'bout norcal drivers as
opposed to socal drivers. 2 many norcal drivers think 'bout
freeways like this: "if i'm not gonna get out soon, i'll go into the
leftmost lane, no matter what speed i'm driving @." the
right way to think, n' the way that most socal drivers think
is: "if i'm going faster than the other cars in my lane, then i'll pull
into a a more left lane. if ppl on my right r going faster, then
i'll pull into a lane to the right of that lane." i was so sleepy.
kaela had slept most of the way up n' most of the way down.
somewhere like in vacaville or so, we switched, n' she drove.
jerome called n' asked us to go to dinner. i thought we would, but
by the time we got back to berkeley, we were way 2 tired. we stayed
home, watched the 2 new episodes of the simpsons, n' cooked n' ate
ravioli.
so i really like my new deck. it rides very similar to my old
deck, but maybe a li'l stiffer ride... but more flexible edges. u
know what i mean, right? or maybe no. it has a directional flex,
but it rides fakie fine. in fact, when i ride fakie, it feels even
more like my old board. it's very 4giving. it's lighter than
my old board. it jumps fine, but the tail n' nose r a li'l stiffer.
like, it can pop me higher when i ollie, but i gotta use more 4ce.
it spins great... 1 of the advantages of having a shorter board, i
guess. i'd really like to try it in the 0.5 pipe n' park b4 really
"reviewing" it. i need to find a cheap iron cos i wanna start doing
my own hot waxes.
1150p: man, i can't believe i don't get 2morrow off as a holiday!
grrr! i hafta werk 2morrow. *sigh* so 2day wasn't the greatest day
on the slopes, but it's better than nuthin'. i like snowboarding,
so just getting to the slopes is good. it's presidents' day, but i'm stuck @ werk. the beautiful kaela kang [a bit later] so there was a prob w/ my unix server a while 'go.
i couldn't save my file that i was writing my entry in. dang, u
know what i had to do? i did several screen captures, then re.typed
the document from the screen captures. grrr! i got lots'f typing
practice, i guess. i dunno what the prob is.
[later] oh, i didn't mention, b4 lunch 2day, the netwerk @ my office
was down. i had no net access. then i tried to check my
e.mail using my handspring/startac gomadic internet cable. 1st, i guess kaela was
logged into her isp account, so i couldn't log in, but later, after she
logged out, i could use it. it's nice having that cable! as
i sed b4, gomadic's customer support is pretty good. lemme tell u,
if u'r in the market 4 a palm os device, i'd say that the gomadic internet
cable is a pretty good reason by itself 4 getting a handspring.
even if u'r not in the market 4 a palm os device, maybe the gomadic
internet cable is apretty good reason to get a handspring. ha ha ha.
really, if u have a cell fon, u might as well be surfin' the web
from wherever u r 2, right? just don't surf n' drive! heh heh... a
handsfree kit, in this case doesn't do all that much, i guess.
[a few secs later] i c darren ("idigu") signed my gbook.
thanks, darren! yah, long time no c! we gotta meet up sometime!!!! hey, u
never explained what "ich bin ein berliner" means! hey guys, if u'r
into surfing personal web pages, please check out some of my friends'
pages. here's a couple pages, i don't think i mentioned earlier,
but u can check out: "johnny's head on the web" n' "mnm@cafe".
those 2 pages johnny tien's n' michelle martinez's. also,
check out joon kim's "joon's place" n' johnny chang's "let me have my simple
pleasures." of course, if u'r here, u prob'ly also check kaela's page.
[later] i just got off the fon w/ owen. i talked to him 4 a
while, 24 mins. he called me yesterday, while we were @ squaw, n'
left me a v.mail. i told him how i was uncom4table 'bout discussing
his 2by2 bizness, but yah, i do wanna be his friend. i
really felt bad that many ppl have stopped talking to owen, but @ the same
time, i know ppl don't wanna join in on the 2by2 bizness n' don't wanna
talk 'bout it. well, it was a pretty open n' sincere conversation
owen n' i had.
i c bronx's junkyard forums have been down 4 a while now. i
dunno why. [a li'l later] i can't find ne anchovies on ebay, only
anchovy paste, which is either fud or fishing bait, not sure. i
guess i'll hafta keep buying groceries @ safeway. ha ha. oh! it's not even
anchovy paste; it's just anchovy paste pots. i guess ppl collect
these antiques. [later] i guess this weekend was a real
taekwonboarding weekend. 'member? i coined that phrase a few yrs
'go now. taekwondo/snowboarding cross training... or else it could
be a hybrid sport. yah, my kind of biathlon!!! [later] ha
ha ha, u gotta check out "joon's place"; u gotta click on "s (stuff)" n' watch snail's place, joon's flash cartoon. it's
pretty cute! :-) turn the sound on! :-) my car's so dirty after all
these tahoe trips. i really need a carwash, n' maybe even more, i
need to get the inside cleaned. crazy, crazy, crazy. [later]
imagine having a dual monitor system, so u can watch musik videos on 1
screen while u do ur normal biz on the other. that'd be kewl.
man, it's such a chore to go thru my yahoo! inbox n' do my best to
cut down on spam. every so often i go thru all the spam n' click
all the dumb "remove me" links n' block addresses. *sigh* what a chore!
[later] *sigh* so we have a company mtg on thurs @ 100p.
they rn't feeding us pizza, so that must mean bad news, huh? :-( is it
time to start packing my stuff from my cubicle? is it time to take down my
stephen duke santa cruz poster? in that pic, he's riding a gian
simmen board. heh, n' he drives a forester 2, i think. ha ha. that
pic was taken @ dodge ridge. 4 registering my warranty 4 my deck, i
get a free dodge ridge ticket. man, how long does it take to drive
to dodge ridge? *shrug* it's in that yosemite / bear valley direction.
*sigh* neway, it's time to bust outta here! 'bout time!
[later] 1054p: hey joon n' darren. thanks 4 signing my gbook 2day.
ha ha. johnny is a guy i knew from back in college. he was
in the hapkido club. u can find out more 'bout him on his
page. noon: so it's lent these days, eh? u know i'm not catholic, but maybe
the idea of giving up sumpthin' 4 40 days is a good thing. dunno.
if i had to give up a vice, i think i ought to give up whining 'bout $$$.
i think i've heard of some1 saying he/she'd give up whining 4 lent.
c, that's a good thing to give up. *sigh* neway, i'm not in
the greatest mood, n' i'm sure i'm gonna whine very soon. ha ha ha.
i just feel really crappy. it's raining outside what's very
good 'bout that is that my car's getting washed by the rain. that's
good. *sigh* yah, i gotta look @ the bright side of things, or else
i'm gonna get very depressed, very soon! i feel a bit crappy.
well, my back is not so sore 2day. c, it was sore this weekend cos
of this "animal crawl" exercise i had to do w/ the kids on sat morn in
that family taekwondo class. it was part of a relay, i had to run
to the end of the room n' back on all 4s. i think that hurt my
back. so i practice taekwondo n' snowboarded w/ that sore back this
weekend. i'm glad my back is feeling better this morn, but it was
bothering me pretty bad from sat till last nite. last nite, i
skipped out on helping the demo team make this banner 4 our demo, so i
could werk on the soundtrack 4 the uc open demo, which'll also be the
soundtrack 4 the wushu tournament demo. i didn't get much done.
4 1 thing, the wushu ppl didn't tell me yet what songs they want.
*sigh* when i got home from werk yesterday, i didn't go back out.
we ate leftovers: leftover enchanted heat noodle soup n' leftover ravioli.
actually, i ate the noodle leftovers, n' kaela ate most of the
ravioli leftovers. she didn't like the enchanted heat. i
found the leftover noodles to be a bit 2 soggy afer soaking in the soup 4
so long. nuts. neway, i tried to werk on the soundtrack, but things
just didn't werk out. i just felt so crappy. my back was
bothering me, n' the apt was 2 cold. i installed soundforge 5.0,
which toby gave me. that's a start. i just couldn't get my
mind on musik n' mixing. c, i don't want a track by track
compilation 4 the soundtrack, no! i want a benomix remix... a continuous
remix. it's a bigger project then ppl realise. *sigh* n'
our apt's so dang messy. i just felt so crappy yesterday.
it's a disaster zone! i dunno where to start. i felt so sore
n' cold last nite, i could start cleaning the apt. but cos the apt
was messy, it took so long to get from 1 place to the next in the apt.
*sigh* n' i was so thirsty. geez! listen to me whine!!! i
felt so crappy. the tv was on. i sort'f watched the hughleys
on upn after the 730p episode of the simpsons. tv is indeed
evil. what did i really gain from watching that 0.5 hour episode of
the hughleys??? tv is evil. yes, i 2 am sick of
george w. bush saying "evil." everything's frickin' "evil" 2 him. evil
evil evil. geez! can't he find a new wurd?! i don't know where to
start cleaning! linda's coming up this weekend right after our big b.ball
demo. man! that is such horrible timing. if she came up a li'l later,
then we'd have time to clean up. i really don't like this
skeduling. not 1 bit. this week up until thurs, we gotta
practice 4 the big b.ball game demo. it's very important.
cleaning up the apt 4 visitors?! whuh?! how am i gonna find time to
do that? i'd hafta skip werk. yet, yah... the place is a frickin'
dump. i tried to clean a li'l last week. i cleaned
the bathroom. however, it's dirty 'gain. *sigh* i'm feeling crappy,
n' i'm whining like crazy. werk 2day is ok, but not great.
i gotta put up w/ my cowerker's whining. i'm whining 'bout other
ppl's whining now. would i like some cheese w/ that whine?
i'm s'pposed to think of stuff to do w/ our guests? i don't know what they
wanna do. of course, yah, i know lots'f places in the bay area, but
will they like 'em? i have no clue. it's such crappy weather 4
sitecing neway. can i take 'em to pt reyes? in this rain?! can i
take 'em to 0.5 moon bay? in this rain?! *sigh* what am i gonona do? my
car's a mess 2. i really don't wanna be @ werk this week i gues.
call it pms. call it nething. i just feel crappy.
the beautiful kaela kang recorded ally n' voyager last
nite, i think. u know, since i found out jon bonjovi is on
ally i have a slight bit more respect 4 the show. ha! that sounds
so funny, huh? do i idolise jon bonjovi or sumpthin? "whoa oh!
we're half way theeeere. whoa oh! livin' on a prayer..." ha ha ha. no,
it's just that the show did need some1 that isn't such a uh... i
dunno... even tho' he's not like the kind'f "hip" i'd ever wanna be,
'least he has some kind of hipness. neway, i'm not here to
rag on ally cos i've already been scolded 4 that. i'm
trying to give the show a compliment. kaela's still werking on her
thesis draft. she stayed up all nite werking on it. i slept.
i kept waking up n' cing her still on the 'puter. *sigh* i
feel so bad 4 her. what a pain in the butt, this thesis. *sigh* i
wish there were sumpthin' i could do to help, but well... shoot! i can't
write her paper, n' i just feel so dang crappy lately. i feel like
i need more time in a day. i need time to clean up our apt.
i need time to go down to san jo to visit family. i haven't cn my
mom or grace n' steve in ages. i feel like crap 'bout that.
i don't wanna be here @ werk 2day. i can't believe i'm whining so
bad!
[later] 1255p: i'm eating my 2nd dannon yogurt of the day. i had
1 b4 eating the chicken curry leftovers. no1 i'm having a 2nd 1.
these rn't fat free. [a li'l later] now i'm eating some
choco mousse stuff my cowerker brought. [later] so i really wonder
if it'll rain this weekend or what. *sigh* i really dunno where to take
our guests cos i dunno 'bout the weather or how much time we have. :-/
[later] while walkin' to the mailbox in the rain w/ my umbrella, i
thought 'bout writing some less whiney, less depresing stuff.
lemme talk 'bout some other things. i really like burdies. i
like all sorts'f burdies. i even like crows, blackburds, seagulls,
n' even pigeons! i like burdies. [later] i don't think many of u
know, but 1 of my guilty pleasures thru.out life is uh... dungeons n'
dragons kind'f stuff. *sigh* yah, i've always liked geeky dungeons n'
dragons rpg kind'f stuff. back in the early yrs of college i used
to play mud all the time. phil knows how it was!!! mud = multi user
dungeons. so yah... i'd play these geeky games on.line... text
based games! well, last week, i was slightly caught up in playing rogue 4
palm os whenever i found time. it's all so geeky. but *sigh*
i know what a 20 sided die looks like!!! i know what 3d9 means. it means
3 rolls of the 9.sided die! ha ha ha. *snort* ha ha ha. yah, i'm
prone to like some geeky things like dungeons n' dragons or geeky
electronics. *sigh* now i feel all ashamed of myself. i should go
drown my shame is some lard. i should go eat lard out of a bucket
w/ a spoon. :-(
[later] late afternoon: *sigh* i'd rather be snowboarding. it's
so drizzly outside. the precipitation just won't stop. it's
rather dreary, but i just hope it's snowing in tahoe. i really like
snowboarding, u know. i like snowboarding. u know, i know i
sed sun was a really bad day of snowboarding, but u know... i really
appreciate it, n' more so, i appreciate that kaela made it possible: 1)
she gave me that new deck, 2) she took time 'way from werkin' on her
thesis to go w/ me to tahoe. i appreciate it. oh! i got
'lott'f packages 2day, stuff i bought on e.bay, all sorts'f good deals.
geez, i found so many bargains in the past month. i mean,
i'm trying not to get addicted to ebay, but yah, i found lots'f good
deals. now i have a hotsync cradle 4 my handspring hooked up to my
werk 'puter, so i can do more w/ it here. i can load on mp3s from
my werk 'puter or upload journal entries from my handspring to my 'puter
to my server. i got the skip dr. scratch remover. maybe i
can fix that winxp disc now! i got a boxset of simpsons
videos, some of the very early episodes. that was a bit of an
impulse buy, but it was a decent deal. [later] my left molars r
bothering me cos @ least 1 of them is rubbing 'gainst the inside of my
cheek when i chew. :-( [later] yah, i don't like that tooth
problem. :-( *sigh* i think kaela's done w/ her thesis draft now,
but i think she's asleep @ home. i hope i can wake her up by the
time we gotta go to practice. i just wanna get this thurs's b.ball
game demo over w/. man, i need a haircut. i think that's
part of the reasson i feel so crappy, right? whenever i get shaggy,
i feel pretty nasty. i dunno when i'll have time 4 a haircut.
i definitely want a haircut b4 thurs. *sigh* so what would make me
feel better? a haircut? if $$$ rained down from the sky? if i could go
snowboarding. if this demo were over? if uc open were over?
if our apt were clean? if i knew where to take our guests
this weekend? [later] so dang... i can't help but think that i'm
feeling a li'l down right now, just overwhelmed, n' hopeless, i guess.
dunno. :-( i can't believe i'm still whining. *sigh*
[later] evening: i watched the "yuhjainikka" video from the korean
group kiss, not the 70s monster rock group (ha ha). it's a sappy
story. the moral of the story cms to be, if u give ur eyes to a
gurl u like, u just might get a free doggy out of it! well, 2day's date has many 2s n' 0s. 2day is the beautiful kaela kang n'
me's 25th monthversary. :-) yay yay. yes, i'm very happy 'bout
that. i'm very happy that kaela's w/ me. :-} i love her very
much. :-)
well, it's bizzy bizzy of course. sure, i wish i could take
kaela out n' do sumpthin' to celebrate our monthversary 2nite, but we have
demo practice 2nite 4 our big demo 2morrow, n' *sigh* we've got guests
comin' this weekend, n' our apt is such a big mess. this is
absolutely the worst weekend to have guests right now. :-( kaela just
turned in her thesis draft, so she had no time; n' i definitely
have my hands full w/ taekwondo biz right now. *sigh* i did dishes
this morn b4 going to werk, but man... it really made me tardy.
well... u know, yesterday i whined quite a bit, but 2day i feel a li'l
better. after yesterday's practice i felt better. exercise
makes me feel better. however, when we got to yesterday's practice
late, i was very aggravated. i was feeling so crappy. i felt
bitter, angry, n' upset. i felt really defeated. like, we
were s'pposed to get there early to do this uc open voluntter recruiting
drive, but *sigh* we got there late. i have no clue yet if ppl did
the recruiting w/o us or what. i was so frustrated, n' now that i'm
thinkin' 'bout it, i feel more frustrated. u know, b4 i left my
office, i printed out some more volunteer sign up sheets... then i
promptly 4got them in my cubicle. i don't have time 4 this kind'f
stuff cos i werk so late. grr! don't ppl realise how crappy werking life
is? ha, well... of course unemployed prob'ly ain't 2 grand, but
geez... the whole bureaucratic life of u gotta be in ur office from this
time to this time whether u've got werk to do or not... all the precious
hrs of life lost to fighting commute traffik. it's all so frickin'
meaningless n' useless, n' it drives a werking stiff crazy, u know?
i can never emphasize 'nuff how awful it feels to sit in ur car, stuck in
traffik wanting to get home after a long day @ werk. u just sit.
u don't get newhere in the traffik, n' u start thinkin' 'bout life,
n' u can't help but relate ur stagnancy in the traffik to the progress of
ur life. u know u'r not gettin' newhere in the traffik, n' u think
u'r not gettin' newhere in life. traffik really plays mindgames on
u. it's really frustrating. neway... i'm just whining still.
1nce i get my nitely dose of exercise, i'll feel better, right?
exercise is a drug, in a way. it can make u happy.
endorphin addiction, right? well, it's better to be addicted to
exercise than caffeine. it's better to addicted to exercise than
crack. it's better to be addicted to exercise than speed. my
back isn't sore 2day. after practicing handsprings yesterday, while
goofing off, my left foot's arch was sort'f sore, but now it's ok.
[later] a li'l past noon: i'm frustrated w/ life 1nce 'gain. i
just feel so dang crappy 'gain. *sigh* the whole idea of cleaning
our apt b4 thurs? it's 2 hopeless. i need a haircut. i feel
so crappy. i'm planning on just going to the nearby supercuts n'
getting a crappy haircut. *sigh* i feel like such crap, n' i can
overhear my cowerker whining 'bout her job. well, shoot! i'm not
happy either. this world needs less whining. ha ha ha ha ha. grr!
i'm going crazy!
[later] i went to supercuts n' got a haircut. a japanese woman
cut my hair. cutting asian hair is often diff from cutting
other kinds of hair. altho' i know it's assuming 2 much, i couldn't
help but feel a li'l more confident that this japanese woman would do a
decent job on my hair than some other haircutters i've had @ supercuts.
of course, i've had mexican n' middle eastern haircutters that did
good job in the past. well, i feel so much better w/ a fresh
cut... altho' supercuts is overpriced. geez, 4 just a li'l more i
could've gotten my hair cut @ panache or somewhere all fancyshmancy,
right? heh. sure, i would've preferred to have kaela or toby cut my
hair, but dang! when would they do it? when could they do it? i'm
so dang bizzy this week, so my only option was supercuts 2day.
after my haircut, i went to safeway n' bought some lunch n' a li'l bit of
groceries. geez! i can't believe how much i had to $pend. i
tell u, marin county is 2 expe$ive! well, the clouds have left;
it's a sunny day. after safeway, i got into my car, started eating
the bagel sandwich i bought n' the sobe lean i bought. i drove back
2wards my office but stopped @ any mtn to search 4 that ever elusive
dakine spike stomp pad. they don't have it. there's a guy on
ebay auctioning of a set of 2 2day. i wanna bid on 'em.
worse comes to worse, i'll buy it online 4 $10 @ this 1 place i saw.
ha, i can hear my cowerker's doggy lapping up water. :-) [later]
*sigh* so well... 'least it's sunny 2day, n' i got to hear the doggy
lapping up water. those r good things, right?
[later] this morn, on my late commute in to werk, i made 3 fon calls.
i called back this gurl sara from ksa (korean students association)
that wants a taekwondo demo 4 their korean culture show. then i
called ken. then i called nelson. i chatted w/ ken 4 a
while, but nelson sed he was studying n' would call me back later.
i used my handsfree kit when making these calls. i try to be
careful when driving n' talking. i drive n' talk, yet i do realise
there r many ppl who drive n' talk dangerously. i know in general
it's unsafe, n' i try to take precautions. personally, i feel i'm
ok w/ driving n' talking but that there r some other ppl out there that
should not drive n' talk. of course, i don't wanna say that w/ 2
much confidence. otherwise i'd just be asking 4 an accident, u
know? hrm, sometimes i think they should give out special licenses
4 ppl who can drive n' talk safely, n' those ppl should be allowed to
drive n' talk while others can't. in the same way, i think they
should give out special licenses 4 ppl who can drive fast safely, n' those
ppl should be allowed to drive fast, while others can't. eh! this is all
crazytalk, eh?
[later] since i bought 5 tangelos @ safeway, i ate 3 of them right
'way. they r so good! yum yum. since i got my hair cut, i'm
shedding all sorts'f li'l hair bits all over the place. *sigh* u
know, the haircutter use thinning shears on my hair. @
barbershops/salons, they always use thinning shears on me. should i
buy a pair of thinning shears so kaela can use 'em on me when she cuts my
hair? toby never used thinning shears on me. the
barbers/stylists/haircutters in the shops always take my top hairs, clamp
'em 'em thru their fingers, n' then trim the hairs that stick up above the
others w/ scissors. hrm... well, i think toby n' kaela do fine w/o
scissors, using just electric shears. i've had the same electric
shears 4 many yrs. my sister gave those to me 4 christmas like in
uh... 1989 or so.
[later] i went to the bathroom n' washed off my head a li'l cos i got
so annoyed w/ all the li'l hair bits. ok, so i got a li'l sidetracked n' took a few pics. i just wanna
document my life, i guess. sure, it's egotistical, but i hope it's
not as egotistical as u say it is. it's not that i'm saying i'm a
handsome guy; i just wanna document my life. however, i am
saying that the doggy is cute! :-)
[later] early evening: *sigh* what a day. :-( heh, i could say that
every day, couldn't i? should i say, "what a day! :-)"? after all,
there's the truth... *frown* *shake head* n' then there's the truth!
*smile* *nod* ha ha ha. *sigh* well, i got a haircut 2day. that's
good. a few mins 'go i was typing a msg on the y!
caltaekwondopartycrew msg board, n' my boss walked by. *sigh*
werking stiffs know the feeling, right? getting caught doing personal biz
on company time... *sigh* well, shoot... sometimes it just feels more
excusable than others tho'... i'm sitting here waiting 4 my program
to finish running, n' i'm also waiting 4 a big file to transfer.
i'm already multitasking... in a way... *sigh*
[later] *sigh* dang, it's late. i gotta get out'f here.
why am i still here?! *sigh* grrr. well, i've done 'lott'f werk
2day. i gotta go soon. noon: *sigh* i can't believe the big mens basketball cal v. ucla game
taekwondo demo is 2nite. well, it'll be just 4 mins, but we gotta
make it good. neway, i hope we all just relax. we'll have a
big audience, but we've gone thru the routine so many times. last
nite we had practice. i was much better pleased w/ the teams
per4mance n' overall attitude last nite as opposed to the nite b4.
i felt much better. we stayed pretty late tho'. after
practice, we had no time 4 eating out, no time 4 boba. i dropped
off johnny, roland, n' raymond. then the beautiful kaela kang n'
i went to andronico's to buy some groceries right b4 they closed @
midnite. well, it was prob'ly like 1130p when we got there... or
actually more like 1115p. we bought some produce, some juice...
stuff like that. *sigh* andronico's is expen$ive.
it's really nice produce n' other items... but it's expen$ive. heh, i
thought i'd stop whining 'bout $$$, right? ok, i'll try... or
'least i'll try to try! :-)
*sigh* neway, last nite, i did buy 2 more things from ebay: a 7.port
usb hub 4 $16.50 + $6 s/h n' a set of 2 dakine spike stomp pads 4 $6.05
+ $3.95 s/h. both of these things were good deals. roland
asked me last nite if i'm addicted to ebay. eh, sort'f, but now
that i've bought these things that have been on my shopping list, i won't
be checking ebay like every single hr or nething. i've only gotten
good deals on ebay, but i can think of some deals that definitely weren't
as good as others. 4 example, 1 not as good deal was the 8mb cf
(compact flash) card i bought 4 $3.30 but had to pay $7 to ship. *roll
eyes* that was dumb, i guess. make sure u check shipping
co$ts! 1 good deal i think i found that sort'f contradicts this
rule is that i bought a small, simple iron to wax my snowboard 4 99¢,
but then i paid $5 to ship it. eh! still a good deal, i say.
i just want a cheap sumpthin' to melt n' smooth out the wax. *shrug*
yah, all the stuff i bought was cheaper than prices i'd find in the
stores, but 1) i had to pay shipping n' 2) sometimes the items weren't
totally new... never were they totoally not new, but u should beware that
if it doesn't say "nib" or "new in box," it pretty much definitely isn't.
oh well.
shoot! i have a mtg @ 100p, don't i? ooh, i dread this 1! *sigh*
what if it's a farewell mtg or sumpthin'... a mtg to say that the
company's totally gone under? *sigh* neway, i've got some errands to do
right now n' some lunch to go get n' eat, don't i? shoot, i'd
better get the heck outta here!
[later] afternoon: so i took a "lunch" break 'round noon. i went
to the post office to buy a $$$ order, but then i realised that i didn't
have ca$h, so i went to the atm, n' then back to the post office.
then i drove to the town center, the outdoor, not.as.fancy mall... well,
that's compared to the corte madera village mall. i thought 'bout
buying lunch @ mcyukyuk's, but i just had no appetite. part of that
was due to knowing that i'd be getting bad news soon back @ the office @
the company mtg. i just went 4 a walk, a li'l stroll, a very short
stroll. then i went to world wrapps n' bought a smoothie.
then i went back to my car n' drove back to my office. i got there
just in time 4 the mtg. *sigh* well, the mtg wasn't the
worst news... 4, heh, 'least 1 week i have a job, right?
*sigh* n' heh, even 4 a month maybe... but i just don't know 4 sure, u
know? :-/ i just don't know 4 sure past that. this stoopid economy!
*sigh*
while i was @ the post office in line, i saw this ad 4 stamps that
"celebrate the decades" in american history. the 60s set appealed
the most to me altho' the superman stamp in the 30s set was pretty
kewl. hrm, maybe i gotta say 1930s n' 1960s now. we're y2k
compliant, u know. neway, that made me think 'bout a quote from a
some movie i never saw. the line is sampled into a song that was
used 4 the soundtrack, a song by a group called big audio dynamite ii.
funny name 4 a group, huh? the leader of this band was the
lead singer of a somewhat better known british rock band from the 80s
(1980s) called the clash, who's most famous song is prob'ly "should i stay
or should i go?" the movie line is "the 90s are gonna make the 60s
look like the 50s!" that movie came out like in 1989 prob'ly... or
actually, maybe 1990 or 1991. i 4get. hrm... or was it even
later? i 4get, but the movie was 'bout some hippie that wakes up in
1990 or sumpthin'. i 4get what it was called... sumpthin' like
flashback or sumpthin'. neway, heh... do u think that was
true, now that u can look in retrospect? heh, what i worry 'bout is
that the 2000s r gonna make the 1950s look like the 1960s! do u
understand? it's all 'bout the sociopolitical environment.
i just worry that the 2000s'll be just that conservative.
eh, but i'm not gonna go into a political schpiel 'gain. i just had
that thought when cing that ad.
[a li'l later] ever since that mtg, *sigh* i think every few mins i go
from feeling ok to feeling really nervous. :-/ [a li'l later] i haven't
eaten much 2day @ all. it's like i'm on a liquid diet. i had
that smoothie. earlier, i started a lizard lightning sobe. i
haven't totally finished it yet, but i will. i ate a quaker oatmeal
bar earlier, sumpthin' like a nutrigrain bar. i ate some wheat
thins b4 my "lunch" break. *sigh* so i'm nervous. i'm
nervous 'bout my job, but i'm also just a li'l nervous cos 2nite's demo.
it's not the demo i'm so worried 'bout; it's more getting to the
demo on time cos'f my job. i'm worried i left my demo team jacket @
home. last nite or this morn, i thought i had it in my bag in my
car; but now that i think 'bout it, i'm pretty sure i don't have it w/ me.
*sigh*
[later] @ our belated v.day / early 25th monthversary dinner @ foreign cinema,
kaela told me that i was very lucky to be single during the teknoboom,
that vivian dumped me @ just the right time 4 me. :-/ u think? she
sed since vivian broke up w/ me right @ the start of the teknoboom, right
b4 i got my current job (or 'least started werking 4 my current company),
i had 'lot more $$$ n' i didn't hafta share ne of it w/ her, i could just
spend it on myself, go out w/ friends, n' have fun. true.
there was 'lot more going out to eat in groups in those days, yah.
i would definitely say, altho' i give much more $$$ to fancy restaurants
nowadays, i use to give a lot more $$$ to the moderate to casual
establishments back then. u know? sure, back then i had never been
to the carnelian room or the 5th floor, but i went out w/ the p.crew to
168 every single weeknite n' off to places like chevy's or tgif's or tony
roma's many weekend nites... true. i dunno. heh, well of
course, when i got 2gether w/ kaela, the economy was still ok, wasn't it?
i think so. w/ the way ppl were talkin' @ 2day's mtg, 4 a
brief sec, i thought that maybe i should've applied 4 that uc berkeley
chem dept job that would've been a paid cut from this job... @ least it'd
be a job if this 1 disappears. hrm... but i only thought 'bout that
4 a brief sec. i know i can't really apply 4 'nother ebmud job till
after i pass the eit exam, which i take in april. :-/ in a way
these r volatile times, rn't they? in a way, i wish i could take
advantage of the bad economy by taking time 'way from my main career to do
a noncareer job just 4 the fun of it, not 4 the pay. of course,
roland mentions that his physical trainer job won't pay much n' that
is an issue; n' 4 me... *sigh* yah, it would really be an issue
right now w/ this wedding to budget etc. heh, but i won't whine
'bout $$$ right now. nope.
[later] on my drive in to werk, i listened to the copy i made last nite
of the wushu team's demo soundtrack, or 1 of them 'least. they've
been putting musik in their demos 4 much longer than we have.
that's defintely a kewl thing 'bout their demos. neway, the 1st
track on their soundtrack was the them from the matrix. heh,
it really hyped me up, i think. i had to stop @ the shell stn near
our apt 4 gas 1st, b4 really getting on my way to werk. *sigh* i
started thinkin' 'bout the matrix n' neo (keanu's character).
i was thinkin' how he's a hacker that has a job that he doesn't
like, to which he's always late. i knew i was running late.
i'm not a hacker. i felt i was dressed like neo would dress to
werk. i'm wearing grey slacks, a light blue button down shirt, n' a
rain coat, n' sunglasses. heh. *sigh* didn't that movie really get
guys all hyped up 'bout fashion? i know it got both supermike n'
jeff kao all hyped up 'bout long coats. ha ha ha. long coats n'
sunglasses. *sigh* i don't mind dressing like this. shoot,
many engineers just wear jeans n' polo shirt, don't they? who
dresses like this? ha, managers? *shrug* dunno. [later] well,
shoot... *sigh* i think there's nuthin' wrong w/ trying to look
better. sometimes i try. do i suceed? heh.
*shrug* morn: hey, 2day's date also has 'lots of 2s. in 20 yrs, we'll
have 2022.02.22. i wonder if we can still get the bk deal $2.22 4 2
burgers n' 2 fries. ha ha ha. dunno. maybe by then
it'll be $22.22 4 the deal. ha ha ha. *sigh* neway, i feel weird
cos i haven't updated till this morn, but heh... it hasn't really been
that long since i updated yesterdasy evening, right? right now, i'm
drinkin' a sobe liz blizz, what used to be known as lizard blizzard. heh.
a while 'go they changed the name to just "liz blizz."
yesterday, i vistied the sobe beverages website 4 the 1st time in a while.
they don't have ne free t.shirts or free hats in exchange 4 bottle
caps promotionals right now. oh well. neway, i pted out to
them via their contact e.mail that they misspelled "edge" as "egde" on 1
of their pages. well, i got an e.mail back 2day: "thanks for the
heads up." well, i guess it's good to know some1 read my e.mail. heh,
neway, there's a good chance i wasn't the 1st to spot the error.
btw, "edge" is the name of 1 of their drink flavours.
well, hey, what the heck am i talkin' 'bout sobe drinks right now 4?
it's not like they pay me to, n' they should.
i should be talkin' 'bout our big b.ball game demo last nite! :-) well, it
went pretty well. there were some glitches, but i think it was
definitely a good experience n' fun. the crowd... the crowd was
huge n' very supportive. it was similar to that haas demo we did
uh... like 3 yrs 'go now. (wow! time flies!) i'm talkin' 'bout the 1 where
the beautiful kaela kang broke her foot. it was like that
crowd in that the crowd was very loud in cheering, very supportive n'
enthusiastic. however, it was uh... maybe 10 times bigger.
that was the biggest audience i have ever done a demo in front of! wow.
the cal v. ucla men's basketball game. wow. neway, it
was good. i would say the main thing the demo team needs to
werk on is discipline. ne mistakes... they all find their roots in
lack of discipline. heh, now i sound so strict or sumpthin', but u
know i'm not! neway, there's progress to be made, but last nite was
really kewl.
after the demo, after master yoon talked to us, after i talked to the
demo team, we all skipped the normal practice n' went to durant fud ghetto
to eat. i got some chicken bibimbap from steve's. ppl got
fud from all over i was 2 full to finish my order, but heh... james
looked so hungry, so i told him to eat more of mine. kaela had pad
see ew from thai basil. we could've just shared 1 order. i
ended up chucking lots'f my fud cos there was 2 much even 4 james to
finish. i think he didn't wanna eat so much of mine cos there
wasn't much meat left. he ordered tonkatsu from bear ramen house,
but they didn't give him much tonkatsu, mostly just rice n' some cabbage.
i've never thought of katsudon as bear ramen house's specialty.
actually, if u'r really hungry, u should order the jjajangbap
there. u'll get plenty of fud! after eating, we rushed back
to the rsf 4 a uc open committee head mtg. it's a shame that so
many demo team members gotta be committee heads. they r really
overburdened! well, i am however very proud to say that the
demo team is a very responsible bunch. really! the do not
have time to be picking up so much slack 4 the rest of the club, but i
wish they'd be recognised by the club 4 sacrificing so much 4 the sake of
the club.
last nite, i talked to nelson 4 a while on the fon. we talked so
much 'bout 'puter stuff as usual these days. i am glad that
i have a fellow 'puter nerd to talk 'bout some of this stuff, but well...
i also hope we can talk 'bout more than just tekstuff sometime. we
used to talk 'bout relationship issues, what gurls nelson liked, etc.
nowadays, yah... it's always just tekstuff. 'course, don't
get me wrong; i do enjoy talkin' 'bout this stuff w/ nelson, n' he
has built up quite a knowledge base in the past few yrs 'bout
'puters, so he can really help me out w/ stuff i need. i really
appreciate that. he sed he'll hook me n' kaela up w/ a good
copy of win xp corporate, a better version than what he gave us last time.
*sigh* i can't wait to solve all of kaela's dumb 'puter probs.
they've been such a big source of stress.
well, i got to werk right on time this morn. heh, i felt like i
came in early, but heh... that's just cos i haven't been uh... on time in
a while. <;-) (nervous smile) wow, this liz blizz has so much
sugar; i feel it. yah, sobe drinks have lots'f sugar; except 4 the
sugar free 1s, sobe lean. oh yah! sobe drinks r on sale @ safeway
right now. :-) well, when i get home 2nite we'll just spend the
whole evening cleaning. c, i originally thought that linda was
getting here last nite. well, i found out from kaela, like
on tues nite, that linda's getting here 2nite. *sigh* that was
such a relief. hrm, maybe i found that out on wed nite; i
4get. neway, we'll just spend the whole evening cleaning. i
want linda to meet nelson cos somehow i think cing the 2 interact'd be
very interesting. they graduated from ucsd, n' they r both like...
i dunno... i can imagine them teasingly ripping on each other 'lot.
it'd be fun to c.
[later] last nite, james was surprised to find out that i'm 26.
he sed he thought i was like 21 or sumpthin'. jerome sed, "no, he's
a hyung!" n' james replies, "well, u'r all hyungs to me!" cos he's a
freshman. ha. weird to think that jerome's now older than so
many ppl in taekwondo, but geez! i'm 'lot older than so many ppl in
taekwondo n' still 'least a bit older than even more ppl. heh.
well, jeff wang's older than me by a yr. neway, i was thinkin' this
morning, "geez, i'm 26!" n' i thought 'bout how this 1 guy i sort'f know,
this guy rob lin, who's more like my sister's age... or maybe a yr older
or sumpthin'... neway, this guy pledged lambdas (lambda phi epsilon, the
asian.am frat) @ age 26 cos he went to sfsu after going to community
college. heh, that's crazy! i mean, that means he'd have guys like
well... like johnny tien's age hazing him! ha ha ha. imagine
that! geez... i mean, i guess i hang w/ some younger guys
now n' then.... like geez! sometimes the crowd @ bronx's junkyard cms
so young! still, there r older guys. neway,
[later] 1239p: i should be on my lunchbreak by now, but i'm not.
i'm still werkin' on stuff. so a while 'go, earlier, in the morn, i
received the ups shipment w/ the latest martial arts gear order.
*sigh* i was hoping this stuff'd get here yesterday, so megan n' asia'd
have their shoes 4 the demo. nuts. neway, it werked out fine.
i have 1 set sparring gear to give to some green or blue belt
person. linda e.mailed me earlier 'bout directions to berkeley.
she sed she's leaving socal from her werk @ 500p, i think.
ergh, it'll be a race: her driving up her v. our cleaning up the place.
ok. i'm up 4 the challenge. bring it on, baby! ha ha ha. urgh, actually,
*sigh* it is gonna be quite a challenge. i hope this won't be 1 of
those fri nite where i'll be so dang exhausted from a crazy crazy day @
werk. i'll tell u, i've got plenty to do @ werk 2day. right
now, on my "lunch" break, i'd like to go get my car washed, but boy! i
really need to get werk done. :-( i've gotta get a carwash tho'. my
car is so dang nasty! *sigh* what to do? whatever i do, i've gotta
act fast! *sigh* it'll bizzy afternoon @ werk.
[later] it's 104p! i still haven't gone on my "lunchbreak." grrr! i
gotta get outta here!
[later] 629p: i'm still @ the office. grr! some 'puter things went
wrong 4 some mysterious reason, so i had to redo a bunch'f stuff.
right now i'm on the fon w/ phil who's staying @ toby's place.
[later] ok, i was talkin' to phil 4 a while; now i'm on hold.
neway, earlier, i went to mill valley. i ate @ j.box: a spicy
chicken sandwich combo w/ diet coke. i 4got how close mill valley
is to corte madera. i should go to that cheap arco to fill up more
often! then i got my car washed @ a car wash there. eh, it
wasn't all that. i paid 2 much. :-( *sigh* neway, 'least the car
is clean. well, i've been bizzy doing wedding planning biz
as well as my werk 4 a li'l while now. i'm here late now.
it's 635p now. bizzy bizzy weekend to plan!!!! hektic!
there's also ken's b.day party! many, many things to do, ppl to
meet up w/. so many good friends i wanna meet up w/ this weekend!!!
745p: so! i skipped an entry yesterday, eh? when was the last
time i skipped an entry? *shrug* ah, i spoil u guys! ha ha ha.
well, this weekend, linda, the beautiful kaela kang's
friend from hi skool n' childhood. yah, 'twas a weekend 4 ol'
friends, i guess. well, she arrived on fri nite w/ her current bf
kevin. uhm, i never got his last name. neway, they stayed
over in our living room on fri nite. we were watching a movie on tv
when they got here. i think the movie is called primal
fear. it stars richard gere n' has edward norton along w/ many
other big name stars. it's 'bout a catholic choir boy who's on
trial 4 killing an archbishop. i had cn it b4 yrs 'go. i
4get when. can u find in my previous installations of my journal
when i last saw this movie??? i guess i could... or maybe i
didn't log it. neway, linda n' kevin arrived. we had managed
only to tidy up a li'l, not really clean up the place. :-( neway,
they sed it was ok. i was relieved. maybe linda called it
"lived in," i 4get. oh well. neway, we started talkin' 'bout
the wedding, i.e. kaela's n' my wedding oh! we found out linda n' kevin brought kevin's doggy boston w/ them,
n' he was in linda's car. on sat, i told them we should bring
boston w/ us on our trip to research wedding n' reception locations.
they thought he'd be 2 much trouble, but i was very excited to have
a doggy in our car! well, we put the brown, greyhound mix doggy in
the back of my forester. we left our apt. i dropped off some
sparring equipment w/ a gurl who ordered some. apparently she's my
cousin's roommate, my 2nd cousin. she told me earlier in an e.mail
that she lived w/ my cousin. i assumed she meant she lived w/ alan.
upes. she lives w/ my 2nd cousin anne. neway, after that we
picked up laura. it was 5 of us; we took off 4 the south bay.
we had lunch @ some somewhat korean.style chinese restaurant on el
camino in, i think, sunnyvale. since i thought we were in sunnyvale
or 'least somewhere near sunnyvale, we visted the historic del monte bldg
1st. eh! i had no big hopes 4 the place, n' i found that to be w/
decent reason... not that it's a bad place, but just not the right 1 4 us.
next, we went to villa montalvo. kaela n' i had already
visited villa montalvo... like 1.5 times, i guess. we really like
it. then we went downton to the fairmont hotel n' the hyatt st.
claire. we like the fairmont hotel better... 'least i like the fact
they can provide some asian fud. hyatt st. claire is 100% serviced
by il fornaio. my company used to order fud from il fornaio.
it's good. i've never directly patronised il fornaio b4.
they have a location in the corte madera town center. that's where
my company gets fud. it looks very ritzy 2 me. @ the same
time, i know i've been to "ritzier" places. *shrug* neway, after
that we went to the hayes mansion, which ken kind'f recommended to me.
it was ok. then we visited the ainsley house in campbell.
2 bad we can only rent the outside. :-( well, it was getting
dark, so we headed back up to berkeley. we dropped laura off.
then when we got back to our apt., linda n' kevin left 4 'nother 1
of linda's friend's place. her friend lives in martinez. i
haven't heard of many ppl living in martinez. back @ ebmud, i knew
1 guy who lived in martinez. well, kaela n' i took off to sf 4
ken's n' gordon's b.day party. we were starving n' very much
wanting dinner. sf was so crowded cos of the chinese new yr
parade. it was crazy! we picked up nelson, his bro mike, his
bro's gf vivian, n' their friend caroline, n' went to j.town to get some
dinner. we ended up @ sanppo sushi. [later: i took a break
to watch simpsons. now it's a commercial break.] we ate dinner @
this korean.owned japanese restaurant [later: simpsons is over; malcolm in the middle is on.]
sun: phil n' toby came over w/ phil's cousin regina who's a freshman in
berkeley now. we went to fatapple's 4 breakfast. i had the
spicy tortilla scramble, which wasn't spicy @ all w/o the tabasco sauce i
added. fatapple's is a li'l overpriced, i 'membered. then we
drove phil to sfo. i dropped phil off. i had to go pee so
badly. we stopped in some south of san francisco area @ a union 76.
i went pee n' bought a li'l gas. since it was a
beautiful day, i drove us out to 0.5 moon bay. we walked on
the beach a li'l. then we went to mcyukyuk's n' got a coupl'f
aisukuriimu cones. &then i drove us back to berkeley via sf on the
freeways. it was already like 400p. we bought some groceries
from andronico's. i figured we'd cook some jjajangmyuhn 2nite.
well, we went home. i took a short nap. then kaela
sed it was time to make dinner. upes, we had no jjajang sauce.
upes. well, she cooked some italian pasta instead.
well, that's the weekend up till now. 2day was so
relaxing compared to how the rest of this week has been. joon
called me while we were driving back from 0.5 moon bay. joon told
me that he told my dad 'bout all the stuff that's going on in my life n'
that his dad told me not to stress. well, 2day was relaxing.
hrm, i haven't had a boba drink 1240a: 2nite i've been werking on the uc open / wushu / wutc demo
soundtrack. it's been a bit of werk, but it's fun werk.
speaking of werk, i was searching on y! careers 4 a job. *sigh* yah,
job... nuts. gotta look 4 jobs, u know. i hooked my dj equipment up
to my 'puter. i haven't had it hooked up to my 'puter ever since
the end of last semester, i guess. 2morrow's a werk day. *sigh*
[later] 112a: i'mve been trying to wake the kaela kang up
4 a while now cos she sed she'd take a 1 hr nap n' then resume her hw.
she's not getting up. *sigh* i just had a thought: it's weird to
think that i can't refer to her as the beautiful kaela kang 4 all
that much longer, huh? of course, she'll still be beautiful (duh!),
but she's gonna change her last name to hwang when we get married. wow!
:-) i feel so honoured. :-)
[later] a li'l b4 noon: well, i stayed up till like 330a or so mixin'
musik. i got back into dj mode. i really like djing, u know.
ha, 'bout when i went to sleep, kaela finally woke up. it's like
we took shifts sleeping! ha ha. she woke me up this morn. i
was really dizzheaded, muddleheaded, n' confused. i'm glad she woke
me up to drive her to class cos that got me to werk on time. i
don't feel all that sleepy right now, altho' i feel my eyes r baggy.
i often feel like that these days... i don't think it's so much a
lack of sleep thing as it is an age thing. it scares me.
*sigh*
well, i'm glad i got to werk on dj stuff mixing the soundtrack 4 the
ucmap combined club demo (taekwondo/wushu/hankido). it's put me
back on track w/ djing. 'member, this winter i got all hyped up cos
hyun sed bellagio had an opening. then he sed the hired some1, n' i
totally ditched djing 4 a while... almost... i was still dling mp3s n'
thinking of songs to mix, but i stopped actually mixing. mixing
last nite felt good. u know, the songs i gotta use r sort'f whack
n' don't really mix all that well, but i still enjoy trying my best.
i hope master yoon likes the finished produkt. last nite's
recording is not the finished produkt. i'll do 'nother take
2nite, i guess. 'course we have demo practice 2nite n' tues nite...
but uh... i hope i find some time 2nite after practice.
i've gotta put some time into doing some web editing. i should
make my résumé a li'l tidier, n' i gotta design a wedding
page. carreer n' marriage, eh?
u know, yesterday, while driving kaela n' me to 0.5 moon bay, i
realised that some ppl come from other areas (such as socal) to berkeley 4
college n' then leave w/o ever visiting all these wonderful places of the
bay area outside of berkeley. some of these ppl'll never know how
beautiful the bay area is; all they'll ever know is the uc berkeley campus
n' the surround ghettos. that's such a shame! *sigh*
such a shame. u know, there r also some ppl who grew up in the bay
area that just don't get out 'nuff. ppl should really take
advantage of 0.5 moon bay, pt reyes, carmel/monterey, santa cruz, napa,
etc. really! u know, whenever i get the chance, i'd love to
take some friends out to some of these places, if they'd like to go.
u know, i really love sf 2. that's the thing, the bay area
has some beautiful nature, n' then it's got this glamourously cosmopolitan
city sf. also, the bay area has plenty of com4table suburbs.
n' it's only 3-5 hrs 'way from tahoe. :-) *sigh* how could i ever leave
the bay area? :-(
i know that socal has its nice things 2. definitely, it doesn't
have as much nature tho'... it's got big bear n' lake arrowhead, but
they're not the same. there's just so much more opportunity to c
green as opposed to brown in the bay area. however, yah... socal
has some nature. it has big bear n' lake arrowhead, n' it's
got some sunny, warm beaches... of course, those beaches have more ppl
tho' 2. socal has many, many, many com4table n' more
affordable suburbs, i s'ppose. it's got better ethnic
diversity maybe... maybe... i'm not sure. hrm... 'least there is,
in some ways, more cultural preservation, i guess. there r many
malls in socal. ha. there's lots'f convenience in socal.
of course, if u'r in san jo or the east east bay, like the
pleasanton or walnut creek areas, u can sort'f get the socal suburb
experience, i guess. *shrug*
[later] speaking of the sf bay area :-), while mixin' last nite, i
rediscovered mars n' mystre. i bought that cd set faith in
2000 last yr, listened to it 4 a while, then sort'f 4got 'bout it.
funny. 'member, 4 a while i was so into the atb track "don't
stop." i didin't realise i already had that track on this mars
& mystre set. upes. oh, the relation of mars & mystre to
"the sf bay area" is that, i guess, these 2 rave djs r very definitive of
sf rave/club trance/tekno musik, very representative of it. i
noticed that the back of their album cover has like the twin peaks radio
tower on it... i think. well, it's definitely lunchtime now.
it's 1234p. what should i eat? i don't want nething 2
expen$ive. i don't want nething 2 fatt'ning. :-/ what to
eat???
[later] mid.afternoon: i went out 4 lunch on this sunny, sunny day in
marin county. i drove out to greenbrae, went to the bank, got a
subway 6" turkey breast sub on country grain wheat (or whatever it's
called) n' a small diet pepsi on sat, kaela n' i'll be in corte madera 4 a cpr class. crazy.
heh, it'll be just like a werkday: wake up, drive to corte madera...
i hope i get to meet up w/ my sister n' steve on sat 4 lunch.
we'll c.
[later] it's such a sunny day outside. why am i inside?
the air.conditioning is making my office 2 cold. :-( [later] early
evening: wow! the sun stays up so much longer now. crazy! *sigh* i just
worry 'bout that tahoe snow melting! :-( please don't melt! u know,
i'm so glad that it's not as cold in our apt now, n' the water isn't as
cold. we don't run out of hot water so quickly now. geez, i
wonder how long we'll live in that apt. really, i don't
think 'bout buying a home these days. i just got some more 411
'bout our wedding co$ts 2day. i was somewhat pleased w/ what this
place can provide, but i was somewhat disappointed w/ the co$t... i guess
i expected it, but heh, i guess i was just wishfully thinking.
neway, this particular place that we really want doesn't take reservations
4 our date yet. they only take reservations 1 yr in advance.
well, we just gotta save some $$$. heh, n' uh, i need a new
job. a need a job, that's 4 sure, n' i'd like a higher
paying job. :-/ i spent some time 2day trying to clean up my résumé.
[a li'l later] we have demo practice 2nite. i wanna keep it short
n' simple. i gotta finish that demo soundtrack 2nite.
2morrow we'll have normal taekwondo practice n' then a combined ucmap club
demo team practice afterwarsd. *sigh* the uc open is really
creeping up. a while 'go i uploaded some pics from the past few
months onto ofoto n' ordered a few prints cos i had 10 free print credits.
yah, i still had to pay 4 shipping, but eh! since we haven't been
priniing ne pics out w/ our fotoprinter lately... i hope we do
print some sometime soon. eh, so... i gotta send out my
résumé to some places soon.
how's life gonna be this yr??? i know there's gonna be big
change. i'm a li'l excited n' a li'l scared. it's weird to
be able to say i'm excited. however, maybe it's just that i'm
trying to look on the bright side? i could just whine that
the economy sucks, but i dunno... right now i actually feel excited 'bout
the likelihood i'll have a diff job soon. heh. well, we could call
it "the likelihood i'll have a diff job or no job soon." ha ha.
*sigh* now yah... that's sort'f pessimistic. even more pessimistic
would be to call it "the likelihood i'll have no job soon," right?
i feel employable. i know i have good experience n' education, n'
there must be an employer out there that needs me n' 'll pay good $$$ 4
me. :-) that's feeling good. that's feeling optimistic. now
what if i end up unemployed 4 a li'l while or longer? :-( hey! that's a
realistic possibility, right? :-( dunno. how will this spring be?
kaela'll graduate. we'll both have new jobs? 133a: i'm sleepy. i'm rather sleepy. i wanna go to sleep.
2nite, i came home from werk n' werked on the ucmap demo
soundtrack. i finished it. i'm very happy. there r
some glitches that i wanna fix, but eh! it'll do 4 now. i was a
li'l late to practice 2nite cos i was werkin' on that cd. practice
lasted longer than i expected. the beautiful kaela kang n'
i came home n' ate leftover pasta, but the noodles were so soggy. i
was still hungry after eating the sauce n' most of my noodles. i
ate some chips n' salsa. we watched tv. we talked 'bout
wedding stuff. i'm so sleepy now. :-( i'm sleepy. i feel i
should be doin' sumpthin' 'bout finding a job right now, but i'm so
sleepy. should i start calling myself a "soon.to.be.unemployed
engineer"? ha. as i sed, i don't think i'm unemployable.
i think i definitely have good experience n' decent education.
*sigh*
[later] 1229p: i haven't had lunch yet. i was in mtgs all morn.
i started feeling sleepy during the 2nd of 2 mtgs; i felt i had no
energy. actually, last nite @ practice, i felt like i didn't have
much energy. i think i felt like i had no energy @ practice cos i
didn't eat much yesterday. what's 4 lunch?! yah, i dunno.
as always i'd prefer not to spend 2 much, n' i'd prefer to eat
sumpthin' not 2 unhealthy. what r my options? *sigh* in marin
county? not 2 good. :-( yesterday, i had that subway sandwich. b4
going to subway, i was in the bank 4 a long time, waiting 4 a teller.
oh yah! i saw a pair of mallard ducks @ that greenbrae bon aire
strip mall! yup! :-) they were so cute. they were pretty
big. i really like cing pairs of ducks! duck couples! i like.
*sigh* well, what's 4 lunch 2day?! dunno. i'm really hungry.
i c my cowerker's doggy. it looks bored. i'm
hungry.
[later] [later] my eyes feel tired, like they've been staring @ a 'puter screen
2 long. however, i actually haven't been staring @ a 'puter
screen 4 very long. :-( [a li'l later] i still need a watch battery 4 that
free structure watch i used to wear. it's got a battery w/ markings
that no battery website can cm to identify. :-/ [later] cos some1
mentioned it on the bronx's junkyard forums, i started to 'member what it
was like to do the 911 challenge last yr. how did it feel? well, i
felt very accomplished n' happy after finishing it. it felt good to
have my friends n' kaela there. my face n' hands were burning.
then my stomach started feeling the crazy burn. well, u know
how it was. neway, i'm glad i did it, but i'd hesitate to do it
'gain. if it were some sort of charity fundraiser? yah, then i'd do
it 'gain, but not just 4 glory or nething... :-/
[later] i sent off my résumé out to a coupl'f companies.
i don't like wasting my time w/ job seaches. if these
companies don't have the right jobs 4 me, i don't want them to waste my
time. however, if either has the right job 4 me, i do hope
they talk to me. i saw an interesting article on thingamajob: "column: engineering students need to stick with it."
it's an interesting article. @ least to me, it's very
interesting! i think they actually stole the article from ucla's
daily bruin. *sigh* the whole job search thing, eh? *sigh*
[later] oh yah, earlier my cowerker gave out some starbuck's frappucino
aisukuriimu bars. i ate 1. it was very good. last
nite, @ demo practice, i had the demo team practice breaks on the "thick"
boards. i did my old signature break, the jump spin hook kick
break. i used to do it over a person's head tho': either supermike
or jerome. *sigh* it's been a while. i broke the board, yah;
but it just made me realise how long it's been, etc. *sigh* time flies,
eh?
[later] maybe i'm feeling caffeine crash from the diet pepsi @ lunch.
i feel so yucky. i'm very not happy right now. i'm
seriously stressed. i'm very_unhappy@werk.com right now.
there's so much crap i hafta do. i have to clean up other ppl's
messes (not literally), n' they just don't realise that they should've
done things right in the 1st place! grrr! neway... it's not that
i'm always this kind of employee, but just right now i'm pretty
aggravated. grrr! i'm feeling so crappy. kaela's asking me
'bout planning wedding stuff, but like the places don't even wanna hear
from us yet cos our wedding's much further off than they're planning 4
right now. i don't even know if i'll have a job in the near future.
c? i'm pretty stressed. X-I *sigh* rent's due soon. morning: good morning. i just got my 1st rejection letter from
sending out my résumé. :-/ neway, that
particular job didn't sound like a match 4 me neway; i just liked the
company. i though the company sounded like a theoretical
match 4 me as defined by my résumé, u know?
like, i can never know so soon if a company is really a good
match 4 me, like pplwise, but maybe it sounds like a good match 4 me cos'f
their industry etc, u know? *sigh* neway...
i got to werk very on time 2day. :-) i didn't sleep much tho'.
last nite, 'gain, the beautiful kaela kang n'
i stayed up till 300a, talkin' 'bout the wedding. *sigh* well... i
felt really crappy @ the end of the werkday yesterday, as u might've been
able to tell; but since kaela was in a good mood when she called me on my
way home, i think i felt better. we went to practice a li'l early
cos we had to meet w/ yoon sabuhmnim 'bout some volunteers committee stuff
or sumpthin'. there wasn't all that much to talk 'bout but some
reason he wanted to talk to us. neway, practice went ok, altho' i
felt i needed to stretch quite a bit more than we did. well,
actually, i felt really tired n' fatigued. i felt like i had
0 endurance. :-( i recognised this feeling: i get it when i don't sleep
'nuff. i don't like it. neway, i convinced myself, "even if
i'm sleepytired, i've gotta push myself n' kick hard. martial arts
has its roots in self.defense, n' i never know if some1'll attack me when
i'm sleepy or whatever." i tried to kick hard. it felt like
i was using up all my energy w/ a single kick, then i'd recuperate, then
i'd use up all my energy 'gain w/ the next kick. i didn't feel that
i had the kind of energy that'd let me go on n' on w/ a bunch'f kicks,
just energy to do powerful kicks 1 @ a time. well, if we're
thinkin' 'bout self.defense, then i guess i'd be hoping to put my attacker
down w/ the 1st kick. heh... well, i dunno... neway, we had the uc open
combined demo practice afterwards. we used my soundtrack.
the demo's much shorter than i thought it'd be n' yoon sabuhmnim was a
li'l critical 'bout how i made each track of the mix a bit long. i
thought i was supposed to make the soundtrack a li'l long to fit
the time of the demo! well, he sed he wants me to make each track 1 min
long. well, that was just a "1st draft" neway. :-/ [a li'l later,
after doing a li'l werk] so after practice, kaela n' i got some frogurt @
yogurt park. it tasted so good, i gotta say. mmmm. raymond
was w/ us in the car, n' he sat in the driver seat, while we went in to
get our frogurt. a cop came to scold him 4 waiting in the red zone.
>:-( 'least the cop didn't give raymond a tic! phew.
u know, u really should give me a job! heh heh. *sigh* really. where
am i gonna werk? who's my future employer? 'member
how my old lab partner sam bae used to tell me that a man is complete when
he has a wife n' a job, that if u only have 1 or the other u'r only 0.5
complete? well, i found the wife part, now i'm looking 4 the other
part. there was a time when i had the job part but not the other.
[later] i've been looking on hotjobs 4 a while. their way of
letting u conveniently apply to jobs w/ 1 click is pretty neat, but heh...
i'd better reserve praise till after they find me a job, right? ha ha.
*sigh* i'm so sleepy [later] didju c that pic above of maggie sleeping on a jello mold?
like, i spent a whole bunch'f time cleaning up that pic, but then my
finished produkt looked worse n' was a much bigger file, so i reverted to
the orginal. :-( [a li' later] it's such a beautiful, bluesky day in corte
madera. the weather is happy n' makes me reminisce of the glorious
days of the teknoboom @ the end of the 1990s. i'm wearing jeans n'
a short sleeve, br "stretch" shirt. i feel a li'l bit uhm, from the
wrong era right now. like, i feel i'm dressed like a late 1990s
teknoboom engineer. well, i feel like eating some late 1990s
teknoboom fud. why can't i have a burrito from pancho's tacqueria
right now?!?! >:-( ha haha. *sigh* the big question lately has
been: am i a yuppie? n' if so is it good or bad? it's just that i'm so
used to the idea of "yuppie scum must die," but well... it's good to have
a job n' get on w/ life, u know? *shrug*
[later] after lunch: i went to the corte madera village mall 4 lunch.
i figured i'd get a burrito from la salsa. i was surprised
to find it had been replaced by some new mexican joint w/ a name like
"sam's mexican grill" or sumpthin'. it was pretty much the same
fud, same everything, but w/ a diff owner n' w/o the franchise name, i
guess. the place used to be run by this 1 mexican.american who
really knew how to cater to his non.latino/chicano customers in that,
altho' i know he speaks perfect spanish, he chose to communicate w/ his
non.chicano customers in a total ned flanders, "american" accent. after lunch, i strolled 'round the mall, taking full advantage of my
lunch break. i looked in macy's, gap, n' br. i didn't really
wanna spend $$$ since... heh... my werk situation n' all. well, in
the end i bought a cheap pair of khaki coloured cordurouys to replace my
yucky, worn out, beige pair. that old pair was way 2 baggy 4 me,
since i lost weight. i hafta have a pair of cords 4 werk, pretty
much. it's pretty much 1 of those things engr's gotta have.
*sigh* well, even tho' i dunno how much longer i'll be werkin' @
this place, i'm sure i'll always need a pair of beige or khaki
cords. i'll donate my old pair to the salvation army or somewhere.
[later] so back to that yuppie question: i know i have 'lott'f
teknogadgets. *sigh* does that make me a teknoyuppie? in the
realm of fuzzies n' tekkies, i'm obviously a tekkie. uh... or am i?
i mean, of course i love to write n' get involved w/ musik. that
makes me fuzzy, doesn't it? however, i werk as an engineer n' play
w/ all these teknogadgets. that makes me such a tekkie. i'm
a fuzzytekkie? well, i'd rather be called a tekkie than a
nerd! yah, some of these teknogadgets make me feel all 007
james bondish. *sigh* heh! i even looked @ those mobile pants dockers
2day. they weren't on sale tho', so i quickly ignored them as being
untouchable. neway, i don't really like those pants all that much.
i just like pants w/ lots'f pocketspace. my cargo pants do
that 4 me, n' i have a pair of these summery br khakis, or whatever they
r, that has pockets very similar to the dockers' extra "hidden" pocket.
[later] well, if i am a yuppie, i'm definitely a younger breed
of yuppie. uhm, to be a yuppie, u'r s'pposed to be young,
urban, n' professional. can u be an unemployed
yuppie? maybe part of the reason i avoid starbuck's is to avoid
being the stereotypical yuppie. 'member in best in show,
that couple that met cos they saw each from different starbucks accross
the street from each other? ha ha. n' they were so obsessed w/
j.crew n' l.l. bean, right? heh. yah, isn't that ur
stereotypical yuppie? yah, yuppies can be engineers, lawyers,
biznessppl, doctors... tell me, can ur avg yuppie do this? hyah!
hyah! hyah! can ur avg yuppie do this? hyah! hyah... oooh! my back! [later] early evening: the sun goes down much later now. it's
much warmer now. it feels like summer. i'm so sleepy.
it's much later than i realise cos the sun's still up. it's still
so bright outside. how much longer do i gotta stay @ werk?
[later] still relatively early eve(ning): *sigh* i'm still@werk.com,
yah. i'm still very sleepy. what's gonna happen 2nite?
*shrug* i figure kaela n' i'll find some fud somewhere. u might say
that we'll find some "grub" somewhere. yup. while i was in br,
earlier 2day, during my lunchbreak, my mom called me. she knows i'm
not sleeping much n' that i'm stressed 'bout employment. :-/ well,
i'm glad she called n' showed she cares. i feel kind'f like joon cos he
talks 'bout talkin' to his parents in his journal. of course, my
mom tells me to find werk closer to the sobay. :-/ eh. well, 2day
on hotjobs, i submitted my résumé to companies in varioius
parts of the bay area. u know, i really wonder if companies
actually respond to résumés submitted via hotjobs. i
should look up these companies' contact 411 n' directly contact them, eh?
jobs jobs jobs. :-/ *sigh*
u know, this past week, i thought 'bout the winter olympics. i
was thinkin' 'bout it from an asian person's standpt, thinkin' 'bout how
asians r represented in the winter olympics. well, obviously
there's michelle kwan n' b4 her time there was kristi yamaguchi who sed
she won the olympics as an american not an asian.american, i 'member her
saying. i think some journalist asked her to comment on being an
asian.american athlete, n' she responded w/ sumpthin' like that.
personally, i wouldn't respond like that. sure, i'm an american n'
an american citizen; however, i feel a response like that somewhat
disrespects my heritage n' roots. i wouldn't answer like that.
i wouldn't say nething dumb like, "yeah! my victory just goes to
show azns kick @$$! mutha@$#ers!" ha ha ha :-D i'm definitely not
into being yellow trash! ha ha. however, i do feel i'd need to
acknowledge my heritage n' asian community. neway, that's me.
well, i guess asians were portrayed poorly in this olympics cos'f
that korean speed skater who got disqualified. :-/ hrm... he got
disqualified cos the american touched him, right? heh heh. well, howzabout
this? how 'bout we change the speed skating event to a roller derby on ice
event instead? then we don't hafta worry 'bout who touched whom,
right? ha ha. neway, in thinkin' 'bout how asians r represented in
the winter olympics, i realised it's my urgent duty to spend every single
weekend in tahoe to prove that asians can snowboard n' can do it well. :-D
i don't c ne asian.am pro snowboarders. i c plenty of asian.am pro
skateboarders n' japanese pro snowboarders... but i haven't cn ne
asian.american pro snowboarders... i don't think... hrm... maybe i
have heard of 1 or 2, but i'm not sure. i do c a few asians
werkin' @ the resorts in tahoe, either as instructors or other positions.
my sister was an instructor @ mammoth. now i'm cold in my
cubicle. if i'm gonna be cold, i might as well be on the slopes!!!
[prob'ly 'bout a min later] oh yah! last nite, when i was werkin' on
the 'puter on the wedding guestlist, all'f the sudden, my left hamstring
cramped up n' cramped up really bad!!! grr! it was awful! *sigh* i
hate that, when a muscle all'f the sudden tenses up n' won't let go.
*sigh* well, i got over it, but i really feel like i need to stretch out
my hamstring. :-( well, how much longer must i stay in this freezing cold
cubicle? *shrug* well, i hope to go home soon. i think i'll stop
writing here 4 now.
[later] ok, since i'm still waitin' 4 a program to finish @ werk.com,
i uploaded a dumb pic i took of myself earlier 2day. i feel really
dumb putting up pics of myself on this journal; but, as i sed b4, i figure
i should record my life in this journal, including how i look, i guess.
'member, 2day i'm dressed as a late 1990s teknoboom engr. *sigh*
ah, those were the days. ha ha.
[later] 1130p: well, i'm less tired than i expected. i came home
from werk, brought kaela home her new 'puter, which arrived @ my office
via ups this morn. we got lots'f teknogadgets 2day. kaela
received her new 'puter. me, i received the last of the things i
bought on my ebay binge: a memplug cf card handspring adaptor n' a xircom 7 port
usb hub, which i got 4 $16.50, a really good deal. u know,
kaela's puter came in a pretty unprotected box. our receptionist
took 1 look @ the box n' sed i should check it out cos it looked like it
might be damaged. when i got home n' we opened up the box, lo n'
behold the 'puter's enclosure was a li'l dented. *sigh* i dunno
what we'll do 'bout it. well, i was so tired when i got home, so
tired. kaela was so anxioius to play w/ her new 'puter. she
doesn't have ne ddr ram 4 it yet tho', so she started looking 4 places to
buy ddr ram. *sigh* our apt is pretty messy 'gain. well,
after watching the 730p simpsons, we went to yeitnal jjajang to get
dinner. kaela had jjajangmyuhn/jiajiangmien, n' i had
jjambbong/chaomamien. then we did some grocery shopping @ pusan
plaza. we bought lots'f stuff. then we came home n' i
started doing the white laundry. [a li'l later] well, i'm still
awake, writing e.mail, n' watching 3rd rock. i'm awake, but
really... since i don't get 'nuff sleep these days, like i feel i don't
have endurance. i'm awake, but i feel i need to breathe more.
it's not a good feeling. :-( i wish i could just stay home
from werk 2morrow or fri or sumpthin'. i'm trying to plan out this
weekend, but i'm so unsure what we'll do. i still need to buy some
replacement toe straps 4 my snowboard bindings. i drank some pepsi
a while 'go. 'member? we bought 2 2.litres of pepsi @ the safway
near j.town b4 going to ken's party. no1 drank the pepsi, so we
brought it home. [later] 1150p: hrm... i wonder if the laundry
washing is done? if so, it's time to dry. late morning: i have such heavy eyelids right now. i feel
like i must have awful sagging bags under my eyes. i definitely
don't wanna c myself in a mirror right now. :-( i thought i'd go to
sleep earlier yesterday cos we didn't have taekwondo practice. in a
way, i just couldn't sleep! it's sort'f like insomnia, i guess; but
it's not. i don't toss n' turn in bed! instead, i
just can't go to bed. i sat in front of my 'puter, organising my
mp3 files, writing a few e.mails, posting in bronx's junkyard forums, etc.
this recent behaviour n' sleep pattern is very reminiscent of 1999,
those days. i don't icq or aim like i used to in those days.
i don't even have icq, aim, or y! msgr installed on my new home 'puter or
my new werk 'puter! jerome reminded me of that fact 2day when he e.mailed
me n' mentioned that i'm never on icq, aim, or y! msgr nemore.
nope. however, i just dled y! msgr 4 palmos n' icq 4 palmos, just
now. jerome used to keep an online journal 2, but that was a long
time 'go now. well, he sez he reads this, n' i appreciate his
readership. hey! i appreciate ur
readership! some1 named melissa signed my gbook
yesterday. thank u. did i mention that young signed
my gbook
n' that i appreciate that very much? well, thanks, young.
well, 2day is raymond's b.day! happy b.day, raymond! i
don't think he reads this journal. :-/ he's what? 22 2day? geez, ppl get
older, eh? he was born in 1980?! these days, ppl who were
born in 1980 r turning 22?! :-O wow, that really freaks me out! (heh, is
this really the way to give raymond a b.day greeting?)
2day, on my drive to werk, in albany, i passed an intersection w/ a sr
citzen, asian man as a volunteer crossing guard. he was a decently
tall, white haired, asian man w/ a blue cal baseball cap. he looked
pretty content w/ life. it looked like he could find simple
pleasure in helping kids out. that's kewl. i hope he's
happy. i can't tell 4 sure, u know? maybe there's lots'f
things that stress him out everyday. *shrug* :-/ dunno.
[a li'l later, after writing some e.mail] *sigh* just think: i might
have a diff job sometime in the near future. :-/ i surely hope i won't end
up w/ a longer commute. imagine if i wasted even more time in
commute than i already do. :-( what if i don't have time to write in my
journal nemore?! :-o well, 1 good thing's that i have my handspring [later] whuh?! it's 106p, n' i haven't gone to lunch yet!!! this is not
right! *sigh* we still need to ask 99 ranch 'bout fud 4 the uc open
volunteers. dr. lieu recommended that we feed the uc open
volunteers w/ chinese fud from 99 ranch. we gotta order some.
i never have time. :-(
[later] mid.afternoon: so i went to lunch n' came back. w/ such
beautiful, bluesky weather outside, i just couldn't stay indoors.
b4 i went out, i ate several tangerines, which we bought @ pusan
plaza, n' 1 roll of uhmook (fishcake) kimbap, which we also bought there.
well, that's not quite a lunch 4 me, so i went out to 4age 4 more
fud. i got in my car n' drove off. my cd player was pumpin'
out some mars & mystre tracks. as i drove on the street, i saw
a pair of mourning doves on the road. i stepped on the brakes even
tho' i caused a slight back up. later, @ the intersection stoplite,
a motorcyclist, who had been behind me, pulled up n' sed, "right on, man!"
i just sort'f laffed. n' he sed, "i didn't c that @ 1st,
sorry." i was a li'l confused n' just sed, "it's ok," but realised
he meant he didn't c the mourning doves @ 1st n' tried to pass me, i
think, n' then he saw them. sometimes, when strangers start
conversations like that i'm not the best conversationist. that
makes me appear shy, but i'm not really shy, right?
[a li'l later] ok, so i drove to the corte madera town center. i
went to world wrapps. i wasn't totally sure what i wanted when i
got there, but i decided on the chicken bombay curry wrapp. small
or large? well, i went w/ the small cos 1) i wasn't that
hungry, 2) i gotta make weight 4 the uc open, n' 3) it's cheaper. i
ate it @ an outside table. the servers bring out ur fud to u.
i guess it's like carl's jr. or sumpthin'. neway, i ate my
wrapp. i saw a blackburdy eating some scraps on the ground.
this blackburdy didn't have functional legs. it hand legs, but they
didn't werk. why do i c so many blackburdies w/ birth defects or
de4mations? i don't get it. so many r missing feet or toes.
[later] after eating, i browsed thru r.e.i., then drove back to my office.
it was such a nice sunny day. i really didn't wanna return
to my cold cubicle. i actually put sunscreen on 2day b4 going out
to lunch. crazy.
what r some places to look 4 jobs? :-/ *shrug* i hafta be @ werk.com
2morrow. hrm, do u think "werk.com" is a registered domain name?
heh, back in the olden days, ppl would've just bought that domain
name as an investment. ha ha! those days r gone, rn't they? *shrug* neway,
i hafta be @ werk 2morrow. :-( hrm, i'd rather take fris off n'
come in on mons. :-/ neway, shoot! it's not even worth arguing 'bout.
what i really need is a new job! so where can i find
a new job?
i think this weekend, we'll eat 'lot. that's my guess.
maybe i should be a tangerine n' orange diet until fri nite. [later] i was just glancing @ 2day's entry in an online journal i
sometimes read, nelson wong's. he sez that an online "blogger"
got fired from her job cos of sumpthin' she wrote in her online journal!
:-O crazy! in the past i was a li'l more careful 'bout not
mentioning werk, but these days i've been talkin' more 'bout my werklife.
urgh! well, *sigh* i think this is really bad that the werk fired
her cos'f stuff she wrote in her journal. hrm... ppl @ my company
used to know that i was the #1 referrer to the company website, that
my website generated the most traffik on their site out of ne
sources. funny, huh? i don't believe ne1 ever made a habit
out of reading my journal, but u know, i never know! shoot, 4 all i
know, my boss might read this journal every day! *shrug* i think many
employees @ my office, in the past, knew i had a personal website that
gave the company's website traffik, but i don't think they really were
interested in my site. some even knew what i had on the site.
i overheard a conversation 1nce btwn 2 cowerkers: an i.t. employee
was telling some1 how my site generated so much traffic to the company
site. then the other person asked what's on my site, n' the i.t.
person sed sumpthin' n' mentioned that i had an online journal.
still, i don't think either were much interested in it. ...but i
never know, right? well, shoot. i very much try to live an honest
life. sure, maybe it's a li'l like edtv, but i'm sure i'm
not that exciting, right? i mean, like in that so.so movie,
the whole country was so hooked on watching the reality tv show that
followed this guy 'round all day. *sigh* neway, from hearing 'bout this
story, i think i will start censoring myself 'bout my career a
li'l. it's a shame. i'd like to talk 'bout life as openly as
possible, but hrm... maybe i'd be careful when it comes to my job...
neway, u won't even notice the change. really, i don't talk
that much 'bout my job, right? i mentioned lately that i'm
looking 4 a job... but eh! neway... i won't talk 'bout every detail.
hrm... i know, if i were a boss, i wouldn't make sure my
employees had some freedom to have a website like mine, right? i think so.
*sigh* neway, what else is going on? i know i really like ducks.
i wish i could c some ducks right now. [later] man! i ate
so many tangerines n' oranges 2day! i ate hrm... like 4
tangerines 'least n' 2 jumbo oranges! 'member? i buy huge
oranges from pusan plaza. :-D that's 'lott'f citric acid n' lots'f
fibre. [later] early evening: well, kaela sed i got lots'f vitamin
c 2day cos'f all those tangerines n' oranges. true, i guess.
my mouth feels like i ate 'lots'f citrus stuff. whah?! it's march already?!?!?! crazy! i can't believe it's
march! well, march always creeps up on u cos feb is so short. it'll
be officially spring very soon! crazy, huh? *sigh* we gotta go
snowboarding more! we can't let the tahoe snow melt w/o going
snowboarding more! do u guys realise the urgency of the situation?!?! i'm
panicking! :-( gotta get to the snow!!!
neway, i heard some good rumours 'bout my company this morn! :-) uhm,
heh, didn't i say i'd talk less 'bout werk? well, these rumours
were so good, i just gotta say that i'm happy to hear them. these
rumours made me feel a li'l lazurussy, a li'l back from the dead, u know?
i hope they're true. i really do. doesn't the theme
song to the show laverne n' shirley have a line, "we're gonna make
it after all!" i feel like singing that, but eh! that'd be dorky.
[later] well, the beautiful kaela kang's s'pposed to be coming over to my werk 4
lunch. i wonder if our accounting guy's doggy dusty is here.
if u 4got, dusty is a giant golden retriever. his owner sez he's
"obnoxiously friendly." what a cute doggy! *sigh* i really
hope these rumours i hear 'bout my werk r true. 1 thing is that i
heard i might hafta go to taiwan 4 my werk. *shrug* dunno. well, i
think i'd rather go to taiwan than north carolina. it's just that
they sort'f mentioned that if the company were to fold, then i might be
able to take a job @ some company in north carolina that'd buy some of our
equipment. heh, if that were the case, dang! of course, i'd just find
'nother job in cali! seriously! it would not be worth it!
*sigh* geez, i really hope these good rumours @ werk r true! i'm
actually very excited. :-) urgh, i hope i'm not getting excited over
nuthin' tho'. <:-( dunno. this is making me very nervous.
this morn, i drank some pepsi b4 leaving the apt. i ate a coupl'f
bites of leftover jjajangmyuhn n' drank a few sips of pepsi. oh! i
didn't mention what we did last nite!!!
well, last nite, we actually skipped taekwondo practice! :-O
whah?! really! we did! we napped a li'l, cooked some jjajangmyuhn,
n' then went to a uc open mtg. we drove raymond n' johnny home from
the rsf, then went home. then i did some laundry. nuts;
the laundry machine broke during the spin cycle. our laundry was
left totally wet! stoopid machine! i wasn't sure whether to
spend $1 to put it thru 'nother wash or to dry it 4 a long time. :-/
well, i dried it 4 a long time, but it still wasn't dry this morn.
grr, how did this load of laundry turn into such a pain in the
butt? maybe i stuffed the machine 2 full. it didn't look
like a big load! *shrug* well, the zipper from my taekwondo
shibuhmdan jacket got stuck in some moving parts of the machine, so i
think that might've broke it. well, i dunno if it's really broken
or what. *shrug* well, this morn, i sort'f took my time getting up
n' stuff. i took a shower this morn. i had some lousy
traffik on the way to werk, just a li'l. hrm, i need a new cd in my
car. i've been listening to mars n' mystre, g.o.d.'s "dorawajwuh,"
n' "damn, it feels good to be a gangster" 2 much. g.o.d.'s
"dorawajwuh" takes a sample from extreme's "more than words." of
course, i really liked that song. i used to play it on the guitar
'lot. while listening to the song, i started to miss playing
guitar. 2nite we're having a b.day party 4 raymond. 2morrow,
kaela n' i have cpr class. later we'll have a dinner w/ ken, i
think.
[later] after lunch: i took kaela to lunch @ cpk (cali4nia pizza
kitchen). then we walked 'round the mall. we looked in shoe
pavilion. kaela saw some shoes she wanted, but she 4got her purse,
so i just bought them 4 her. man, we're so stuffed from lunch right
now. we shared a "field greens" salad n' a jamaican jerk chicken
pizza. so full. as i sed, this weekend's gonna be a lot of
eating. well, my sister n' steve rn't comin' up to the east bay
nemore this weekend, so our plans r changing a li'l. i'm not sure
exactly how yet tho'. i wonder how life's gonna turn out?
yah, not really sure, u know? the whole career/job thing, i just
don't know. [a li'l later] yah, will i have $$$??? what a question!
*sigh* come to think of it, i really wanna go snowboarding. i
know that's all i talk 'bout, but it's hard 4 me to get my mind off of it,
huh? *sigh* well, what else can i talk 'bout? ok, lemme tell u
'bout sumpthin'. these past few weeks, doug kim of the hankido club
was talkin' to kaela n' me 'bout doing some big demo @ the smithsonian
institute in d.c. we finally told him that we'll prob'ly do it,
unless our jobs stop us. we hafta be in d.c. 4 2 weeks, but get all
our expen$es paid + $1000 each. yah, we were told not to discuss it
b4; but i think now that we've sed we'll do it, i think it should be ok to
talk 'bout it. well, now we'll be professional taekwondo demo team
members, in a way. ha ha ha. i mean, "professional" in the sense
that we'll be getting paid, right? this isn't until the summer.
i think it'll be fun. we'll c. it's doin' sumpthin'
diff, right? sumpthin' diff from the usual routine, right?
:-) we'll c.
neway, i'm so sleepy right now. hrm, what's w/ my crazy sleep
patterns these days? :-(
[later] i'm not so sleepy now. my old cowerker stopped by the
office to say hi. she's having a baby; i mean, she's pregnant, not
that she's 'bout to have a baby right this instant. she's the same
age as me. i told her that my sister's pregnant 2. did i
mention that it's gonna be a boy, my sister's baby? so i'll have a
nephew! :-) kaela n' i were looking @ the ultrasound grace e.mailed to me.
my cowerker told me i was looking @ it upside down! ha ha.
upes!
[later] it's such a beautiful day outside. oh, hey! dave cheng,
my ol' friend from san jo signed my gbook.
we go way back! he was prob'ly 1 of the 1st kids i met when i moved
to san jo from idaho falls, when i was 5. i think his mom owned a
fish n' chips store, or else my mom n' his mom always went to this fish n'
chips store 2gether. :-/ i'm guessing his mom owned it. he n' his
bro took piano lessons from the same teacher that taught my sister n' me.
later, i referred nelson's li'l sis to our piano teacher.
thanks 4 signing the gbook, dave!
[later] i gotta 'member to stop by pusan plaza 2nite to buy some stuff
4 my mom: an orchid (preferably red n' white), 2 things of tofu, n' some
unagi. gotta 'member. now i'm all alone in my office.
it's still bright outside. i can't believe spring is so rapidly
approaching. it feels very relaxed here in my office now that
every1's gone. heh, it's been 1 really hektic week here. :-/
yah, talk 'bout emotional rollercoasters! well, i'll hope 4 the best, of
course. 2morrow, i've gotta swing by tri.city on my way down to the
sobay to get those replacement toe straps 4 my snowboard bindings.
heh, i've got quite a shopping list right here in this paragraph, eh? ha
ha. well, 2morrow morn's the cpr class, then we'll head down south.
hrm, we've got some planning to do 'bout this weekend. i'm
not totally sure what we're gonna do 2morrow n' sun. now that my
sister n' steve rn't coming up to the east bay on sat, what'll we do?
well, 2nite, i should pick up those things from pusan plaza 4 my mom.
i should bring them to her 2morrow afternoon. so yah, how r
we gonna go 'bout this weekend? *big time shrug* 1130p: well, it's been quite a weekend. fri nite, we took
raymond out 4 his 22nd b.day dinner @ tony roma's in oakland's jack london
square. it was so empty there, altho' in the past, on a fri nite,
it'd be so jampacked! 'member back in 1998/1999?! it would've been
jampacked back then! it was empty. i think it's cos'f
the bad economy! :-( well, we had a big dinner: kaela n' i shared a
buffalo chicken salad n' a half rack of red hot baby back ribs, which
weren't spicy @ all! *roll eyes* i had a cocktail drink, a
hurricane, to toast raymond. i felt 2 affected by the drink to
drive, so i had the beautiful kaela kang drive us home.
johnny n' clarence rode in my car. we stopped by pusan plaza
cos i needed to get some things 4 my mom. then we went home.
oh! b4 we left to tony roma's, i started waxing my snowboard, so
when we got home, i finished the job. sat morn, we woke up early, but eh! not as early as we wanted to.
we rushed off to corte madera 4 our "red cross cpr saturday" class.
we had to stop by the uc berkeley publik health library 1st 4 kaela
to drop off sumpthin'. it was so weird to get to corte madera
'round 930a on a sat morn. it was like going to werk, but it was a
sat. we were s'pposed to be @ the fire station by 845a. we
were late, but they late us take the class. phew! the class was
really not as good as the cpr classes i've taken in the past from fast
response in berkeley. it was not as organised, but the behaiour of
the students really ruined it. @ fast responses, most of the
students r young ppl applying 4 jobs @ the paratransit company, the
company that runs these shuttle busses in the east bay 4 eldery ppl, i
believe. @ this corte madera "red cross cpr saturday" class, most
of the students were old ppl just takin' it 4 fun. they actually
goofed off 'lot n' didn't let the instructors talk. that was bad!
well, after we received our cpr certificates, we drove back to
berkeley to get some things, then drove to tri.city in fremont. i
was looking 4 that snowboard binding toe strap n' needed to get raymond
tri.city gift certificate b.day present. i didn't find the toe
strap. kaela bought some swimming fins tho'. then we went
looking elsewhere. i wanted to go to oshman's in the great mall cos
dealtime sed oshmans.com had them. i was disapointed to find that
oshman's was replaced by sportmart n' sun n' ski sports. huh?! i didn't
know that! when did that happen? i don't really trust
sportmart as a retailer of good snowsports equipment. u know, when
it comes to snowboarding equipment, i'm pretty picky. neway, i
didn't find what i needed @ the great mall. then we went home to
drop off my mom's groceries. i was really grouchy cos it was hotter
than i expected, n' i was having such a hard time getting newhere that
day. traffik was bad. i just didn't feel great. we
stopped by starbuck's to get drinks. i don't drink coffee often, so
i got a tazoberry. kaela had a frap. we saw this 1 gurl who
had a parrotlet sitting outside. we talked to her 4 a while 'bout
parrotlets. she knew 'lot n' apparently spends lots'f $$$ taking
care of her parrotlet. she was very happy to share her knowledge.
then we went to any mountain n' go skate in search of my toe strap.
i find sort'f what i need @ go skate. heh, i spent so
many weekends in my youth @ go skate as a skateboarding kid. it's
kind'f neat to end up back there. it's funny that skateboard
manufacturers recycle old graphiks. kaela showed me a beanie w/ an
elephant on it. i told her that used to be the graphiks on a john
lucero board, but eh! i dunno who uses it now. i also bought some
cheap, cheap board wax. i hope it werks ok! :-/ then we went
off to look @ 1 wedding banquet site. grrr! i got a frickin'
parking ticket! that really frustrated me! i couldn't c the
meter, so i just assumed there wasn't 1! grrr! it was so dumb!
*sigh* well, then after that, we were off to the stanfurd buca di beppo 4
ken's b.day dinner, which didn't cm like such a b.day dinner, more like
just a dinner w/ some friends... i wasn't sure. maybe it wasn't s'pposed
to be a b.day dinner. *shrug* neway, who was there? ken, grace, tim chen,
his gf lily, billy yu, nelson, kaela, n' me. lately, i've gotten to
talk to nelson more, so that's kewl. nelson gave me this dj lites
package 4 a late christmas present. i hope to put it to good use.
nelson n' i gave ken a pocket breathalyzer as a b.day present.
i think it's sumpthin' young ppl ought to have since u know... ppl
drink when they go out etc., so u should be safe 'bout not drinking n'
driving. neway, it wasn't a big present, but we felt it was
sumpthin' very useful. it was a very big dinner, pretty good.
well, kaela n' i drove back to berkeley by driving north on el
camino n' crossin' over on 92. it was neat to c some of these
peninsula cities. there r so many nice neighbourhoods in the bay
area that we don't regularly c.
well, guess what. heh. this morn, kaela n' i woke up a li'l
after 600a, n' took off to tahoe 4 a daytrip. wow, 2002 has the
comeback of the daytrip. last yr, i stopped doing those, but now
we're doing it 'gain. why? well, i guess i figured i don't wanna
waste $$$ on hotels when i don't need to. i drove us up to tahoe
really fast. there wasn't all that much traffik. we went to
northstar cos we had a free lift ticket there from doing some of our
christmas shopping @ sun valley mall. well, also kaela bought her
glasses there. c, if we spent sumpthin' like $300 there, we got a
free lift ticket. was it $200 or $300? uhm, i think it was
$300. 'member? this christmas i spent quite a bit. neway, we
boarded a pretty full day. we took a break when kaela fell n' hit
her head. i went up by myself 4 a run in the pipe n' park.
then she rented a helmet n' joined me 'gain, after eating some lunch.
i had fun riding the park n' pipes. the jumps n' rails, :-)
i was so happy to get back to them! it wasn't bizzy so i didn't feel
nervous @ all 'bout ppl watching me, n' i didn't hafta wait 4ever to drop
in, etc. i didn't ride as fancy as i did last month cos i'm still
gettin' used to my new board n' i haven't had a chance to ride real
freestyle in a while. kaela took some pics of me doing jumps,
riding the pipe, etc. we'll c how they turn out. really, i
didn't do nething really fancy 2day neway... however, i don't have
ne pics of me actually snowboarding, so i just wanted to have
some pics of me doing nething on a snowboard. :-/ if the
park were ne more crowded, i would've been very ashamed to be
having my pic taken riding like that. heh. neway u know me: i
wanna document my life... 'least 4 my own interest... cos i'm just such an
egotist. *roll eyes*
well, after a decent day of boarding, i drove us home as quickly as i
could, altho' we hit plenty of sacramento traffik. when we got back
to berkeley, we fon.ordered some fud from shk (sun hong kong): abalone n'
preserved egg jook n' wonton noodle soup. dr. eric johnson called
me 'bout coming to the uc open next weekend n' asked if i could go w/ him
to heavenly next sun. eh! i doubt i can, but i really appreciate
his asking. i would like to, but man... the uc open'll have just
finished. i'll need to recover. well, now it's 1210a on
2003.03.04, so heh! i ought to end this entry here. g'nite.
:-) 423p: i can't believe i was able to hold out until now to write a
journal entry. maybe i'm addicted to writing journal entries.
if so, i'm glad i was able to hold out till now. maybe the
less i write 'bout my life, the more i'll live it, right? i dunno.
sometimes i wonder if it's so good 4 me to keep an online journal:
1) maybe it's a waste of time, 2) there's always that privacy issue, n' 3)
u can get into trouble. *sigh* 'member? there's that 1 online article: "why web journals suck," written by some1 who used
to keep a web journal but no longer does. well, yah... web
journals cause probs n' can be a burden 4 the individuals who maintain
them. it takes time n' energy to write them. it takes time
n' energy to prevent them from causing trouble. it takes time n'
energy to fix the trouble they cause. however, in the end: 1) i
feel keeping a web journal is worth it to me. 2) i respect those
who can keep a web journal. i like reading web journals.
as i've sed over n' over 'gain, i feel my web journal is an open letter
to my friends... n' to my family, after i found out they read it.
some ppl say web journalers, in a way, cause a disservice to society.
there's a flip side to that: maybe ppl who read web journals
cause a disservice to society. ha! ain't that welcoming of me! ha
ha ha. well, it's just that, when u read a web journal, u hafta
realise what it is n' not take it 4 nething more than that: to many ppl a
web journal is a diary. why do they put it on the web? 1) cos they
want to access it from newhere n' 2) they don't mind sharing their
thoughts w/ other ppl. i think the biggest probs that come up when
readers consider web journals as talkin' behind some1's back. 'why
don'tchu just say it to his face?!' etc. u know? *roll eyes* in many ways,
a web journal is a way 4 its author to gather his/her thoughts. ppl
who have web journals r making themselves very vulnerable by being so
open. there r many irresponsible ppl on the net, n' it isn't always
the ppl who host web sites. it's a diff world now that we have the
internet, ain't it? what happens to 1st ammendment rights? freedom
of speech? ppl need to distinguish btwn flat out slandering a
person in a newspaper n' a online journaler's discussing his/her thoughts
'bout a person. it's quite diff. online journalers think
aloud. sure, maybe we're like ppl who walk down telegraph mumbling
to themselves. sure, maybe we're weird, but we're not necessarily
evil.
the things is... i guess i also sometimes think of my journal as a
newspaper column. sometimes i do like to write 'bout my
political/social/teknical opinions as if i were writing in a newspaper of
magazine. sometimes i do want ppl other than my just my close
friends n' my family to read what i write. i want to be heard.
well... sure maybe some web journalers r egotistical, maybe some of
us r lazy, maybe some of us but we're not necesarily evil.
neway, uh... i'm home right now. i didn't go to werk 2day cos it
was s'pposed to be my 2ice a month day off. i woke up in the morn,
drove the beautiful kaela kang to class, dropped off a disposable camera @
longs drugs 4 developing, came home, chatted on the fon w/ toby, changed,
went to best buy in pinole to buy some free.after.rebate cd.rs, went to
the nearby orchard's supply to buy a replacement band 4 the dirt devil
vacuum, went to the emeryville compusa to buy some other free.after.rebate
garbage, but got a call from kaela 'bout meeting her 4 lunch, so left
compusa w/o buying nething, drove back to berkeley, found a good parking
spot in front of university hall, went to lunch w/ kaela @ van san kan
japanese restaurant (kaela treated me to a bento lunch), dropped kaela
off, came home, cleaned a li'l (just a li'l), waxed kaela's snowboard,
shamefully waxed my board 'gain (i feel ashamed that i cm like such a
weirdo 4 waxing my board 'gain after only riding it 1 day, but it just
looked like i didn't wax it well the 1st time), n' started writing this
journal entry. heh! long sentence, eh? our apt's a big, big
mess right now. :-( i feel quite helpless 'bout that. the
task of actually cleaning this place cms totally overwhelming to me. :-(
i can't believe it's 500p now! grr! i have so much to do! aaah!
i've gotta fix that combined ucmap demo soundtrack! man, i'm
freaking out here! *sigh* so i've gotta werk on that instead of writing in
my web journal.
this weekend, i got an e.mail from phil that cmed more like a journal
entry. i was telling toby how i felt it ought to be like published
in a newspaper or sumpthin'. yah, it was a pretty long e.mail 4 ppl
who use e.mail as a more functional thing, but it was very well written.
phil out to put that letter online! heh heh. well, if not,
maybe someday i'd like to share 'least parts of it w/ u in my journal.
phil just sent me 'nother e.mail just now. it's a 4warded
e.mail 'bout how the seattle times ran the headline: "Hughes as good as gold ..... American
outshines Kwan, Slutskaya in skating surprise." hrm... :-/ isn't
michelle kwan just a li'l bitter @ american media 4 doing this to
her 'gain?! *shrug* neway, wow, that's really interesting.
it was such a beautiful, warm day in the bay area 2day. *sigh*
now the sun's headed on its way to go down. it's 514p now.
*sigh* i don't really like mondays, i guess. *shrug* dunno. :-(
this whole not going to werk on mondays thing? :-/ it just isn't all that.
*sigh* ok, i feel i've gotta get on w/ life n' stop writing this journal
entry. c u later! :-)
[a min or 2 later, 5:30p] note to self: stop dressing like the last
movie u saw was the matrix b4 u get mistaken 4 a .com web developer
n' some1 comes up n' sez, "hey, didn't i c talk to u in the unemployment
line last week?!" ha ha. just kidding. nuthin' but peace n' love to
all my fallen homies. :-) 253a: i'm up 2 late. i'm trying to make a new version of the
combined ucmap demo 4 the uc open. i've been trying to make the
tracks shorter. ugh, i'm reaching the physical limit of djing.
i've been mixing like mad trying to get from track to track. ugh!
i'm making the mix as "tight" as i possibly can... by tight i mean
not leaving much time btwn mix to mix (transition to transition)...
really, i'm only letting each song play 4 like 30 secs. *sigh*
neway, the beautiful kaela kang has been passed out on the floor 4 a
coupl'f hours. after watching news radio @ 1200a, she fell
asleep, using some bubble wrap as a pillow. *sigh* it's not good.
i've been trying to tell her to get up n' go to bed, but *sigh* u know...
she's deep asleep. *sigh* it's quite a ridiculously comical scene,
our apt. it's such a mess, my fiancée is passed out on the
floor on top of packaging from her new computer shipment, n' i'm up till
300a mixing tekno musik! *sigh* "please don't tell ne1 how i live!"
(simpsons reference: episode 5f06 "realty bites")
well, 2nite's 730p simpsons really applied to us: it was 'bout
homer's getting a webpage, publishing stuff on it, n' getting in trouble 4
what he wrote on his webpage. funny, huh? funny i was just
talkin' 'bout the subject. neither of us had cn that episode b4
2nite.
after the simpsons, after doing lots'f werk on the 'puter 4 the
uc open volunteers committee, we hurried off to practice but still got
there late n' had to do pushups n' situps. eh! no big deal.
i was almost happy to follow that tardiness policy just to get the
exercise. well, we had demo practice. then we came home, ate
some yachae mandoo n' watched tv. well, now it's 308a, n' i want to
go to sleep. :-( i'm wondering if i'll skip the normal class practice
2morrow nite to werk on this soundtrack n' then go to the combined ucmap
demo practice. :-/ not sure. it's not the best option, but it's
better than not having a soundtrack, i s'ppose. *breathe* ok, i
should go to sleep.
[later] 1205p: wow, the werkday's going a li'l fast. however, i
am very sleepy. i was very hungry when i got to werk this
morn, but luckily i discovered i had left some yogurt in the fridge.
good. we didn't eat 2 much last nite, but that's a good
thing since i'm s'pposed to lose 6 lbs by fri nite 4 the uc open weigh in.
i'm just doing poomsae (forms) not gyuhroogi (sparring), but i
actually still need to lose weight. last week i was pretty much on
par, but i gained weight over the weekend. [later] of course, my
mom thinks i'm 2 skinny n' should eat more. i just need to lose 6
lbs temporarily. it'll mostly be water weight. i'm not
anorexic. i'd rather be fit. muscle is good, but fat is bad.
i just visited a couple'f friends' pages that i hadn't cn in a while:
andy wang n'
chals
chang. andy's page is in under lots'f construction but is
lookin' pretty good. chals's page is the same.
[later] late afternoon: outside, in corte madera, it's sprinkling.
i can really smell the rain. [later] 712p: now i'm
home. i was @ werk.com pretty late. i was so sleepy!
it was a bit torturous. i picked up kaela. she was gonna
took the bus, n' was gonna walk home, but i called her n' picked her up on
her way. now i gotta werk on the demo soundtrack. 1259a: well, 2nite (as in last nite), i finished the demo soundtrack just in time to go to werkout. i burned the mix to cd as 1 14 min 44 sec track. no time to cut the mix into individual tracks. i hastily got dressed 4 werkout, n' the beautiful kaela kang n' i went to werkout. 'twas a good werkout. efren led us in a long warm ups n' stretching. yoon sabuhmnim led us thru the 8.step exercise (rather peculiar to ucmap). then efren led us in some sparring paddlewerk. i was pretty sweatty. thru.out the werkout, i felt i had to keep fixing my dobok (uniform) top. during the 8.step exercises, i realised, while i was wearing my pants, i was wearing kaela's top!!! i didn't get a chance to share my revelation w/ her until after class, when most of the demo team n' yoon sabuhmnim heard me. ah, they all thought it was so funny. my arms looked so long!
well, we had the combined ucmap demo team practice, n' i got an opportunity to debut v2.0 of my mix. it was nice to c wushu oldtimers still 'round, ppl like patrick lee, felicia sze, n' raffi kamalian. all those ppl r actually just a li'l older than me. that's kewl. neway dr. link gave us the news that the uc open demo's cancelled due to lack of time on the tournament day. well, to pretty much all of us, it was both a relief n' a disappointment. we practiced neway, 4 future demos. we played my mix. yoon sabuhmnim really liked it. kewl. better than the 1st version!
[later] late morn: well, it's raining 2day. i read on my y! news front page that it snowed in tahoe! woohoo!!! that makes me very happy, yah. i'm really sore. i don't think it's so much from snowboarding. actually, 1 leg cramped up a li'l while walking up the stairs back to our apt after snowboarding, but i don't think i got 2 sore from actually snowboarding on sun. i'm prob'ly a li'l sore from taekwondo practice on mon n' tues nites, i guess. actually, i was already pretty sore by tues, so i guess 'twas mon nite. :-/ hrm, but what did we do that'd make me so sore? hrm, maybe snowboarding did make me a li'l sore, but i just didn't feel it till later. well, i weighed in @ 152.4 lbs. this morn. i need to weigh in as 149.9 lbs. w/ a 3 lbs. allowance w/ my dobok on; so i could actually weigh in as 152.9 lbs. w/ my dobok on. this morn, i weighed myself clotheless. [a li'l later] so i don't need to panic 2 much 'bout losing weight, but i gotta maintain this weight until fri nite. i'm not anorexic; i just gotta make sure i make weight. ha, even tho' i'm just doing poomsae, i gotta stay in my weight class. neway, this is my weight class. it's not like i'm dropping a significant amt of weight to go into a lower weight class. i'm sore, n' it's not all that com4table. it's not all that com4table to walk. however, i sometimes like being sore from exercise cos then i know i'm exercising, right? exercise is good. i really wish i could get more exercise n' feel healthy. lemme tell u, career life really sucks in that respect! :-( well, back @ ebmud, we had that employee gym. that was really kewl. *sigh* i wish i had sumpthin' like that now, that n' a shorter commute! :-( *sigh* dang, if i werked in berkeley, that'd be so kewl. :-( it'd be so kewl. :-( now i feel like crying, but eh! i shouldn't whine like that! every1'd prefer to werk closer to home, right? *shrug* maybe not. maybe there r some ppl who actually wanna get 'way from home. well, after all so many ppl live in places on the outskirts of the bay area or just outside the bay area, yet commute 2 hrs to get to san francisco or silly valley. do the regret it? *shrug* werkin' in the city does have its kewl pts. sf is really kewl. (i sure am saying "kewl" 'lot in this paragraph.) it's such a classic town! it's very classic n' classy. i like it. :-) still, i'd prefer to werk in berkeley... or else maybe emeryville or sumpthin'.
so yesterday was the primary election, but i never got confirmation from my voter registration! i didn't know where to go vote. kaela received 3 primary election voter information guides, but me? i didn't receive ne! strange, huh? i feel rather disenfranchised! (uh, u guys know what that means, right? if not, please look it up. yah, now!) well, i don't feel 2 bad that i didn't get to vote since it was only the primaries. *sigh* of course, i'm sure there were some ballot measure i would've wanted to vote on. 'least i didn't miss voting on ne big party v. party elections, right? *shrug*
[later] i'm so happy the demo soundtrack went well. i really like djing, u know. making a good mix, feels great. like, when u'r mixing, n' u know things r going well, ah... that feels good! u know, when it's live, it's even better! taekwondo, snowboarding, n' djing! heh, i always say those r my interests, n' yah! they really r. my snowboard has a pic of dj on it. ha. it's like i've combined those 2. my old snowboard had taekwondo stickers on it. ha. so i combined those 2 back then! u know what i like best 'bout snowboarding, right? catching air! snowboarding almost equates to flying, in a way. i like jumping n' getting some hang time. well, in the past coupl'f seasons, i've had to do more downhill, so i've sort'f acquired a taste 4 fast downhill 2; however, my 1st love of snowboarding'll always be catching air. u know, 'bout fast downhill, the thing is that i ride a very short board, so i guess i don't go as fast as if i rode a longer board. since i'm not going that fast (relative to if i had a longer board), i tend just to skip the whole carving thing n' bullet down mtns, straight w/o turning. i guess ppl like carving n' that's why they want longer boards, eh? hrm... well, me? i don't really carve much then... i just go 4 jumps.
[later] 'round noon: *sigh* life sure is bizzy, ain't it? i
always say that; but when will i ever stop saying it? we
rn't kids nemore. we don't have time to watch afternoon
cartoons while eating grilled cheese sandwiches. :-/ will life ever be
like that 'gain? is it ok to live a full life? full life or
simple life? what is simplicity after all? *shrug* [later] there's sumpthin' to be sed 'bout optimism: optimism kicks @$$!
i like optimism. we should all think positive thoughts,
think happy thoughts. yesterday, when i left werk, i felt so
crushed, so stressed. i drove home, pretty stressed, worried that i
wouldn't have time to finish that demo soundtrack. then i picked up
kaela. i was happy. she cmed to be in a good mood, n' i got
happy cos'f that. i was happy cos she was in a good mood.
she looked so pretty. we were very happy. it's like we were
reunited after a long time; a long time being the whole werkday. i
felt like we were 2 doggies who always play w/ each other, but who had
been kept apart 4 9 hrs. as we walked up the stairs to our apt, i
imagined us as 2 doggies jumping all over each other sniffing each other's
butts. when we got upstairs, i jumped right into mixing, n' all
went well, n' i felt great. it was a sort'f "high," i guess.
i don't do drugs n' hope i never do, yet i guess this is what u call a
"high." i like optimism.
we have a company mtg in 45 mins. i hope it's good news.
[less than a min later] speaking of jobs, when i get some $$$... heh... i
have a new wishlist gadget toy: the targus handcam springboard camera. sure! this
is the most unnecessary, teknoyuppie, lame-o toy out there, but *sigh* i
guess that's why i'm attracted to it like a gnat to a buglite. *sigh*
seriously! i don't need this gadget! *roll eyes* this
morn, i saw a pair of mallard ducks in the parking lot as i pulled into my
faraway parking spot. this morn, there were so many cars in the
lot. i couldn't find a close space. after the 1st round of
layoffs, i felt we had more parking. right b4 that, i felt we
didn't have 'nuff parking. all these cars, they must not be 4
our company, must be some other company in this bldg. i wish
i had a parking spot right in front of my office every day. :-)
neway, i was so glad to c this mallard duck couple. i wish i
could've taken a pic to show u how cute they r. well, heh! i guess
that be a use 4 the targus handcam. however, if it were
really that urget, i could've grabbed the office's canon powershot s10 to
get a pic.
[later] mid afternoon: so we had our mtg. :-/ not really good news, no.
:-(
[later] oh yah! last nite, after practice, kaela n' i went to safeway
to buy some groceries. we bought pretty random stuff, stuff that
was on sale w/ the safeway club card, u know? we bought some
odwalla bars. they're much like clif bars, it turns out.
actually, a long, long time ago i had a bite of 1. i think duc of
the hapkido club had 1 n' offered me some. the label sez it has no
gmos, genetically modified organisms. oh, ok.
if u haven't done it recently, yes, please sign my gbook.
i c mirei antonia recently did. thanks.
[later] wouldn't it be fun to raise parrotlets 4 a living instead of
being an engineer? wouldn't that be a simple life? heh. well, i'm
sure there's a parrotlet breeder out there thinking, "wouldn't it be fun
to be an engineer instead of raising parrotlets 4 a living?" ha ha ha.
:-/ well, what can i do to get paid tons of $$$?! if
ppl rn't offering many engineering jobs these days, what r they
willing to pay ppl $$$ to do? :-( deliver pizzas. hrm... i'm
wondering how i can write a good cover
letter. :-/
[later] early evening: i actually went to sleep @ a pretty decent time
last nite. notice, i didn't update @ some insane hr of the wee
morning, right? ha ha. *sigh* well, i'm still kind'f sleepy right
now. i go from sleepy to depressed 'bout my career, back n' forth.
[later] evening: i wonder if ppl'll realise i added onto my journal
entry several times 2day. they might think they've read all of
"2day's entry" n' then 2morrow check in n' just skip to 2morrow's entry.
well, joon does pretty much what i do: he updates thru.out
the day. neway, even tho' i'm really sleepy right now, i just had a
thought: "if u ever wanna give out a fake stock tip to sound like a smart
investor, tell some1 to buy a stock, that it's actually gonna go down a
li'l soon, but it'll go sky high later." if they buy the stock n'
it goes down, they'll think u must really know what u'r talkin' 'bout.
if it goes up, they won't care that u were wrong cos they'll have
more $$$ neway! ha ha ha. neway, me, i'm not into giving out fake
stock tips. remind me not to take ne stock tips that sound like the
example above. ha ha ha. 1217p: oh, i didn't update last nite after leaving werk? oh, ok.
well, after i left werk, i picked the beautiful kaela kang up
from the publik health library, then we went to taiwan restaurant on
university ave to meet up w/ mike shea n' the managers there to werk out a
catering deal 4 feeding the volunteers @ the uc open taekwondo
championships on sat. after we werked out that deal, kaela n' i sat
down @ a table n' had dinner. mmm! it was so delicious! we
had string bean beef, do miao (pea sprouts) n' this hot tripe w/
vegetables. man, it was all so good! i 4got how good n' cheap
taiwan restaurant is. i had parked out in the lot behind the
restaurant. didju know the meters there run till 1000p?! crazy,
huh? ooh! which reminds me... i gotta go out n' send off those parking
ticket appeals right now! hrm, or should i eat a microwave frozen
pizza 1st, then go out? :-/ yah, maybe. well, after dinner, i went
to longs drugs to pick up my pics. this time i also bought the
pix on cd option. last time, i had the pix on floppy disk option,
but i didn't like the lo resolution. the cd option gave me much
better resolution, but the pix had not.so.good color depth. :-/ oh well.
[a li'l later; i just put my microwave pizza in the microwave.] so how
did the pix come out? lemme show u 1:
neway, i finished eating my pizza. i ate a thin, thin slice of
this eclair my cowerker bought. uhm, i think it's my manager's last
day here. i'm not even sure cos he hasn't sed nething explicit to me but
did say some odd things 'bout taking care of things if he's not here. :-/
well, i'll say some things sure rn't doing well @ werk, but i won't
go into the details online... 'specially not now. neway, i think
i'd best get my ghetto@$$ booty over to the post office n' bank, right?
i weighed in @ like 154 lbs this morn, i think. i shouldn't
eat 2 much lunch. after weighing in 2morrow nite, i can pig out
like crazy, no prob! :-) man, when u'r trying to make weight, fud
never looked so delicious!
[later] afternoon: so i went to do my errands. i went to the
post office to drop off my parking ticket appeals n' my cowerker's bill
payments. then i went to the village mall to return sumpthin' @
sharper image. then i went to the mill valley arco to fill up gas.
that place, in the past, was always the cheapest gas in the bay
area, pretty much. 2day the price was $1.13. i don't
'member, is it $1.13 or $1.139? do gas stations still do that
$0.009 thing?! *shrug* well, i filled up there. i wonder if that
is the cheapest it gets in the bay area right now. last week
or the week b4, i saw $1.09 in san rafael @ the tesoro. neway,
after filling up on gas n' getting my change, i went to calfed. i
dunno if that's in mill valley or tiburon. *shrug* if i had more time, i'd
love to figure out marin county geography better. neway, it's such
a beautiful building! i was afraid the werkers there'd be all
snobby cos i was in marin county n' the building looked so nice.
eh! nah, they were the typical bank werkers... like ppl joon prob'ly
werked w/. :-) well, i'm sure the banks that joon n' fahad werked @ were
diff cos they were so near campus. those banks have so many
students as tellers. neway, after making my deposits, i drove back
to werk, n' here i am. the sky is so blue right now. i saw
marshmallowy clouds off in the northern distance. the sky was
beautiful. it's not raining right now in corte madera, but it's
been a bit windy. [a li'l later] i hope i can skip werk 2morrow n',
instead, come in on mon. [later] hrm, i might be coming in to werk
the whole week next week, huh? neway, i'm feeling pretty depressed
'bout career life right now. :-( yah, i'll be glad to stay home
from werk 2morrow n' go in to help set up the uc open, etc. :-/
i've been drinkin' lots'f water 2day. hrm, i dunno if that's
good or bad. i figure it's better than eating, right? i'll
pee n' sweat out all the water by fri evening. i know i have lots'f
water weight. this is stoopid, huh? cutting weight just to do
poomsae! *roll eyes* i wonder how competitors r in each poomsae division
right now. i wish some1'd tell me!
[later] 607p: i feel so weird right now. *sigh* c, lemme explain
'bout my werk situation: so our boss yesterday told us that as of next
week, we're all on indefinite, unpaid vacation. we're all pretty
much packin' up our stuff n' thinkin', "wow, so this is what it's like to
stick to the end." :-/ it feels so weird. on mon, i'll come into
werk. *sigh* we'll c how things go.
right now, i'm writing on my handspring [later] 642p: wow! jerome just called me to tell me not to come
to taekwondo practice 2nite cos there's a campuswide power
outage!!! aha! i knew sumpthin' crazy happened! 1144a: so i'm not@werk.com right now. i'm @ home. the uc
open is 2morrow. last nite, we had a uc open mtg @ kip's pizza.
it was kewl that dr. lieu bought us ne snacks we wanted.
un4tunately, i had already ordered some fud n' drinks w/ the beautiful kaela kang b4
dr. lieu announced he'd cover ne charges. well, i gave him my
receipt. i hope i get reimbursed. well, we ate some buffalo
wings, chili cheese fries, fries, fried calamari, onion rings, nachos...
i didn't get ne onion rings. neway, u know i weigh in @
600p. i weighed in @ a li'l under 153 lbs last nite. this
morn, i weighed in (after sittin' on the toilet) @ like 152.2 lbs.
that's good. i'm right on, i guess. i mean, i'm s'pposed to
be 149.9 lbs, but they let us be overweight by 3 lbs. i'll go
werkout on the butt gallery in an hr or 2. then i'll practice my
keumgang poomsae 4 a while. then i'll help set up from 300p till
whenever. maybe i'll get to practice some more after that.
then i'll go to sleep as early as possible cos we gotta be @ haas pavilion
@ 600a!!! *sigh* i hope we wake up. :-( that's so weird that
we had that power outtage last nite on campus! weird! weird! weird!
well, the power's back now. kaela's watching evening
magazine, which they show on upn44 4 some reason even tho' it's a
kpix5 production. they just talked 'bout how the metreon has this
device that beams an interactive guide to ur palmos device. heh,
that's kewl. neway, kaela's eating udon, but i'm not gonna eat
nething till later. maybe i'll eat an odwalla bar, if i can.
[later] 958p: wow, it feels much later than this. so i went to
the rsf, werked out on the stairmaster 4 20 mins, practiced keumgang
poomsae 4 'bout 0.5 hr, then organised volunteers w/ kaela n' helped w/
setup. toby was there. that was kewl. wow, i was so
happy to c so many volunteers! kewl! i like this. it makes me feel
good. well, after setup, i had to weigh in. ooh man! i was
starving the whole day n' felt so weak. well, i weighed in @ 151
lbs. that's w/in my allowance, less than 3 lbs over 149.9 lbs.
i didn't even hafta change into my dobok. the weigh.in
committee didn't care. ha, josé moreno stripped down to his
boxers to make weight! ha ha. funny. i just stripped down to my
shorts n' the thermal top i was wearing underneath my demo team warm.up
suit. ah, after weigh.ins, kaela n' i went to 168 n' had a
biiiig dinner! aaah. :-) we had tsumpi ji (orange peel
chicken), uhah jien (oyster omelette), n' this eggplant w/ "balsi" (it's
s'pposed to be basil!) sauce. we also had a glass of jenjoo
naicha each. mmmm... after u fast, fud tastes sooooo good!!!
afterwards we walked 'round the 99 ranch mall. we browsed in
the korean gift store 4 a while. then we browsed 'round the 99
ranch supermarket. we bought 2 superlotto plus tix 4 the $40 mil
jackpot, which we need to win. we ran into tiffany hsu, whom
kaela knew from a phi o, n' i knew from taekwondo. she werks @
bayer in berkeley w/ (i think) her bf john. i saw a job posting 4
bayer that interests me. i told them 'bout it, so i'll send tiffany
my résumé
asap. *sigh* somebody! please give me a job, 1 that pays quite well,
please. :-) also, 1 that doesn't require much of a commute out of
berkeley... thank u. :-) *sigh*
after browsin' thru the 99 mall, we went to the solano safeway to buy
stuff 4 the volunteers. in the end, right b4 we checked out, mike
shea called me to let me know that he already bought drinks n' plates 4
the volunteers. ha ha. d'oh! just in the nick of time. we
almost bought redundant stuff, just almost! we did buy some
personal groceries tho'. well, now we're home. i had to do
lots'a volunteers organisational biz just now, yup. well, we gotta
wake up early 2morrow, so we should go to sleep early. dang,
i wish i could get a haircut 2nite, but not much chance of that. *sigh*
420p: right now i'm watching the "wax buhsuh concert shilhwang," the
korean gasoo wax's debut concert video. i like that it's more
rock musik, not just bubblegummy britney spears stuff. wax
is a singer, but she has a very hard werkin' live musician band playing 4
her. it sucks so bad that they don't get recognition!
that's so messed up! :-/ hey, she's singing jewel's "foolish game" now! ha
ha. i dled this video from bronx's junkyard, of course. i heard, in the
beginning of her musikal career (not 2 long 'go, of course), she didn't
appear live in concert but had some actress go on stage n' lip sync 4 her.
i guess she was 2 shy, didn't think she was pretty 'nuff, or her
producers thought she wasn't pretty 'nuff. *roll eyes* actually,
she's okay, decently good looking . it's sad to hear stories of
superficiality in that sense. ok, now she's singing alanis
morisette's "you oughtta know." uh, so she doesn't cm to have 'nuff of her
own material, 'specially since her debut hit uses the melody from cyndi
lauper's "she bop." 'gain, it sucks that her musicians don't get 'nuff
recognition. :-/ after all her lack of her own material isn't their
fault.
well, so how r u? the uc open is over! woo hoo!!! so
yesterday, i woke up early to get to haas pavilion to handle volunteers.
the beautiful kaela
kang slept in a li'l, not much. i got the volunteers
committee started, got christina fu ready to help us. she was
such a help 4 us! i'm glad she was willing to wake up n' get
to haas pavilion @ 600a. i tried to dress a li'l nicer 4 the
tournament, wearing sort'f slacks n' a button down shirt. well,
when kaela woke up, i went home n' picked her up. then pretty soon,
it was time 4 me to change into dobok n' get ready to compete in poomsae.
well, actually, i got dressed pretty prematurely, but i tried to
practice a li'l, since kaela wanted to practice. yah, actually,
that was good, i guess. well, eventually, it was the adult black
belts' turn to compete in poomsae. we were all in ring 3, in the
center. no other cal ppl competed in my division, but kaela's
division was all uc berkeley ppl. i did keumgang poomsae, as
i was s'pposed to as a 2dan black belt. eh, i didn't place.
i got the same score as the guy right b4 me, i think. like he got
7.1 across the board, but i got 7.2, 7.0, n' 7.1. i didn't place
out of 6 competitors. oh well. i just wanted to try my best
to represent our skool. back to werk! kaela, of course,
placed. her division was just 3 cal ppl: kaela, linda buell, n'
sophia. linda buell hasn't been practicing taekwondo, but she won
poomsae n' sparring 4 her division, i think. most of
the competition team ppl didn't do poomsae, but they did pretty well in
sparring. efren fought garth in the end n' won the ticket to korea
4 the 2nd time in a row. he's improved so much since his freshman
yr. crazy!
well, it was a long, long day 4 us committee heads n' volunteers.
kaela n' i went to pick up the volunteers' lunch from taiwan
restaurant w/ doris n' percy from wushu. the fud wouldn't all fit
in my car, so when we dropped off the 1st batch, mike shea went out w/ his
car to help pick some of it up 2. kaela n' i picked up a small
batch of the stuff n' quickly went home 4 kaela to change. we were
so hungry! then we went back to the tournament right away.
it was hard 4 me to find parking in the rsf garage w/ my free
parking permit. honestly, (i've sed this b4) each yr, putting on
the uc open gets a li'l less stressful 4 me. of course, i hope, by
saying that, i'm not iniviting the high.up senior dan ppl to bestow upon
me the tournament director position or nething. ha ha ha. nah, i'm
not that high rank neway, so i won't worry 'bout it. like, i know
kevin had to do it 1nce, n' he's a young guy, but 'least he has a 4dan
rank. well, in the afternoon, when the rings sed they desperately
needed referees, after kaela n' i felt somewhat ok 'bout the security
personnel (since it was severely understaffed earlier), we went in to ref.
kaela corner judged, n' i both corner judged n' center ref'd.
dave won switched off w/ me every 3 mathces 4 center reffing.
it was pretty kewl. i hadn't done it in yrs! not since like
uh... 1998, i guess! crazy. the rules n' procedures have changed a
li'l since then, but i adjusted. roland was a big help w/ that cos
he was more familiar w/ the way matches r run nowadays. oh, i guess
right b4 i went in to ref, i ran into khoi (maverickvns from bjunkyard).
it's kewl to think that bjunkyard's like a li'l secret society or
sumpthin', heh heh; it's kewl to run into bjunkyard ppl in real life.
well, the tournament eventually ended. it was... well, pretty
fun! we headed off to kip's 4 the volunteers' after party.
to my surprise we had lots'f pizza but not 2 much beer. i was
totally fine w/ that. i didn't drink ne beer @ all.
kaela n' i held the volunteer raffle. this 1 gurl, jessica from
wushu, 1 tons of the gimmicky, ucmap paraphenelia prizes. funny.
our "substantial" prizes were 5 ben n' jerry's gift certificates, 2
blockbuster gift certificates, 2 martial arts belts, n' 1 taekwondobok,
the grand prize. duc le of hapkido won the grand prize. it
was fun. wow! i can't believe it started raining! it was
fine all day, n' then it started raining right b4 the party!
actually, it was prob'ly 1 of the coldest uc open's ever since it
was held so early in the yr.
2day, grace n' steve came up to berkeley, saw our messy, messy apt, n'
then took kaela n' me out to brunch @ fat apples. i ate so well.
ever since weighing in i've ate so much! talk 'bout
"good eatin'"! well, my sister's baby is showing. she's uhm,
almost 4 months into their pregnancy now. it's gonna be a boy!
they just bought a house 2. after brunch, they went to ikea
to do some shopping.
[later] 913p: what a lazy day it's been! sleep, eat, sleep.
well, we took a nap. that was b4 i started this entry.
then we watched some korean musik videos. then we ate some
chinese fud leftovers n' watched the simpsons, malcolm in the
middle; n' now we're watching the x.files. i feel so
lethargic n' lazy. what a day! :-/ hello. how r u doing 2day? i'm in my office, in my cubicle.
well, i dunno how much more time i'll spend here. life is
semi.uncertain, i guess. as always, that's a li'l scary yet a li'l
exciting. yah, where will i werk next? *shrug* my parents both have
suggested going back to skool, going to grad skool. well, shoot!
i'd love to, but 1) i dunno if i can get in, n' 2) $$$. :-/ [later] so
what should i have 4 lunch? dunno. i dunno if i'll be in corte
madera 2morrow. maybe i won'ot be here 4 the rest of the week.
maybe i won't be here 4 the rest of the month. maybe i won't
ever be here 'gain! strange, huh? i 'member cing a witty
dilbert comic strip last sun. lemme c if i can find it
online. found it:
i just got a stoopid telemarketer fon call on my cell fon. 'twas
an advertiser from the ramada inn. i told him not to call me on my
cell fon n' he sed sumpthin' dumb like, "if you didn't want us to call you
on your cell phone then why did you leave that number with us?" crap n'
hung up. stoopid punk@$$ b**ch! obviously, i left my cell fon
number w/ the hotel in case they had sumpthin' important to tell
me! i'm gonna find the ramada inn webpage n' complain there now, i
guess. grrr! their crappy@$$ website is taking 2 long to load!
so what am i gonna eat 4 lunch? hrm... what is sumpthin' i
like to eat 'round here that i can't get in berkeley? :-/ not much.
maybe some of the mexican fud. *shrug* what's sumpthin' that's very
reminiscent of the good ol' days of werkin' in corte madera?
*shrug* maybe roadrunner burrito? yah, maybe. roadrunner burrito,
fresh choice... *shrug* i like some of the indian buffets in marin county,
but i won't go to them by myself. i guess if i were in a much more
social mood i could call up dave in san rafael. eh, it's just that
we don't hang out as often as we used to, so it'd be a li'l out of the
blue. however, i do wanna c dave sometime. i wonder
if he'll go snowboarding w/ us ever 'gain. i'd rather be
snowboarding.
[later] so i went to lunch @ the greebrae roadrunner. @ that
strip mall, i saw 2 mallard duck couples! they r so cute!
*sigh* that's 1 thing i'll miss 'bout marin county, the wildlife! :-( i'll
miss the ducks. i really like ducks!!! i wanted to take a pic of
those duck couples but didn't have a camera w/ me. :-( neway, i'm
sure u know what mallard ducks look like.
[later] as i sed b4, both my parents highly approve of the idea of my
going back to skool. however, do u know that grad skools have been
flooded w/ applications cos'f the teknobust?! really... i worry i
won't be able to cut it, u know? :-/
[later] i just went upstairs to pick up my mail. the accountant
called me into his office to pick up my paycheck, n' his big, big golden
retriever dusty came running up to me!!! i really like that doggy.
he's huge!!! as i keep saying, his owner sez he's
"obnoxiously friendly." he ran up to me n' expected me to pet him.
ha ha ha. will i ever 'gain find a job w/ so many cute doggies?!
[later] well, i sed tentative "it's been good werkin' w/ u"s n' "good
luck"s to the chemists. they've always been so nice to me.
man, gas prices have sort'f skyrocketed in the past week or so. :-(
[later] well, shoot. i haven't had much werk to do 2day, n' it's
been a li'l hard to focus on ne 1 task. i got some things done this
morn, but this afternoon has been sort'f scatterbrained. :-/ maybe
i should just pack up my stuff.
[later] early evening: well i've spent the past hour or so cleaning out
my desk. well, just now jerome called me. he was surprised
that i'm @ werk, but he didn't realise i'm only here 4 2day, as far as i
know. :-/ well, b4 that i was reading an e.mail from my mom.
the 1st e.mail she's ever sent me! :-) funny, huh? well, i get
e.mails from my dad, my sister... but this is the 1st time my mom e.mailed
me. she e.mailed kaela 1nce. it's really neat. i
know my whole family reads this journal. w/ my mom, it's sort'f
been just a 1 way street... i mean, the internet has been sort'f only 1
way... up until now. she commented on my recent career situation,
saying she can sympathise 'bout the bad economy n' all. [later]
*sigh* well, i dunno what to pack up. :-/ i've thrown 'way lots'f stuff
now. i'm not gonna take nething bizness related 'cept 4 my
paystubs, etc. ugh, of course i've got so much junk
accumulated in my desk, in my cubicle. :-( 153a: a while 'go i took a shower. when i opened the shower, i
saw this brown spec on the floor of the tub. @ 1st i thought it was
a spider, but it was 2 round. :-/ upon closer inspection, it was a
inverted ladybug! i flipped it over n' picked it up using a piece
of cardboard, actually the lid of a box. it was a li'l wet cos i
had dalready turned on the water. i let it sit on a catalog on the
bathroom counter n' dry out. i wonder if it's ok now. neway,
how did it ever get in here?!?! *shrug* no clue. well, when we had
an aphid prob, we could've really used this ladybug.
ladybugs r kind'f cute as far as bugs go, rn't they?
[later] 1231p: so last nite i went to lead demo team practice w/o the
beautiful kaela
kang cos she had a bad stomachache. most of the sparring team
ppl weren't there cos they just finished the uc open this sat. of
course, some demo team members competed on sat, but we got this demo next
sat nite, so we gotta practice. demo team practice was fine.
then i called shk (sun hong kong) to order kaela some abalone n'
preserved egg jook w/o ginger. since i had a buy 1 get 1 0.5 off
coupon, i ordered some singapore style chowfun 4 myself. i took
johnny, raymond, n' clarence in my car over to shk. i left clarence
there to order fud 4 himself to go, n' i drove the other 2 home n' went
home. kaela n' i ate n' watched tv. i feel like such a couch
potato, 'cept we usually eat on the floor w/ the bapsang (the korean
style, low table). we watched tv. u know, taxi is a
pretty good show. i try not to stay up so late that i end up cing
it, but yah... it's a pretty good show. were all 70s sitcoms so
deep? in this episode, louie (danny devito) has a blind gf, n' he's
deeply in love. he's usually a sleazy guy, but he's sincere 'bout
this love. he's 'bout the propose to her when he finds out she's
gonna have an operation the next day that will cure her blindness.
he gets very nervous cos he isn't prince charming. ain't that a
dilemma? originally, he felt his looks didn't matter cos his gf n'
possibly future wife'd be blind, but now she'll be able to c.
uhm... so i'm sitting here on the 'puter now writing reviews 'bout reruns
of old 70s sitcoms?! am i advertising 4 upn44?! i don't get it! *sigh*
so far 2day, i'm just sitting @ home, eating n' vegging. it's
getting very, very, very aggravating! i wanna feel useful! i
feel like i'm just eating n' getting fat. it's really pi$$ing me
off! >:-( [later] 147p: i am so aggravated sitting @ home! i
really hate this! i wanan 'least go to the rsf n' werkout or
sumpthin'. i hate sitting @ home like a bum!!! 220a: so the job search continues. i'm up late. *sigh*
what a life! :-/ maybe i ought to go out in the middle of the nite
to go grocery shopping or sumpthin'! then i'll really feel
like like a bum. :-/ nah, i don't think i have that kind'f energy to go
out n' go grocery shopping. we really lack beverages 'round here!
the beautiful kaela kang had a stomachache all day yesterday.
i was home all day yesterday. i did laundry. in the evening,
i finally left the apt to go to taekwondo practice. kaela stayed
home. i got to the rsf barely in time; but as soon as i left my
car, i realised that i 4got my wallet @ home! talk 'bout "d'oh"!
*sigh* well, yoon sabuhmnim called me as i was nearing the rsf.
he told me to tell dave currie to lead a light werkout n' leave
time 4 open werkout. well, after i got to the martial arts room,
after convincing the rsf front desk guy to let me in w/o my id, i told dr.
lieu that msg since dave currie wasn't there. we had a light
werkout. then dr. lieu called a uc open mtg, that went on 4 a
while, pre.empting the skeduled demo team practice. oh well.
ugh, it's now 247a. i'm so tired. i guess i'll retire from
the job search 4 2nite. well, i'll write more in the morn, i'm
sure. :-/
331p: i'm @ my 'puter. i just ate some jook (rice porridge) w/
some leftover beef n' broccoli. how has my day been so far?
i woke up pretty late. @ 'bout 1230p, i drove kaela to class.
b4 dropping her off, i stopped by sweetheard café.
kaela ran in n' got us each a boba drink. my cup was sticky, so i
got sticky stuff all over my steering wheel. :-( then i drove to
the main post office to drop off some mail. laura called me during
that time, n' we chatted 'bout some stuff. then i drove to my bank
in el cerrito since i couldn't find parking by the berkeley branch.
i really needed to use the bathroom cos i got a bad stomachache
2day. i didn't c a restroom in the bank, so i just waited. i
went to the solano ave. safeway, used their bathroom, then did lots'f
grocery shopping. my original total was like $70, but w/ the
safeway club card n' coupons, i got it down to $37! heh, that made
me happy. :-) well, i came home, put away groceries, ate some
edamame n' that jook. i eat 2 much these days. i really
wanna go to the rsf n' do some butt gallery werkout n' maybe some lifting.
we'll c if i make it. i won't go just yet cos i gotta
digest. oh man! 2morrow i gotta go to my office to drop off a ups
shipment 4 kaela. she needs to return her 'puter to the store she
got it from. they insist on having it picked up from the place it
was delivered, so i gotta have it picked up from the office! grrr! how
lame! neway, i gotta pick up some stuff i left there neway.
man, i've been wearing my bronx's junkyard hoodie quite a bit lately.
it's like my uniform or sumpthin'! ha ha. *sigh*
handspring talk: 1) bad news: yesterday, kaela found that a bottle of
water leaked in her backpack n' soaked her handspring deluxe, the 1 i gave
her 4 christmas last, last yr. :-( it's most likely a goner. :-(
2) not bad news: well, i installed eudora internet suite on my
handspring visor edge. i moved some games n' not so much used
programs / databases onto a compact flash card, which i can access, when i
need it, via my memplug cf adaptor. i figure using eudora mail'll
be better than using the palmos mail cos i can send off mail using my
gomadic visor to startac internet connection cable setup... that
way i can actually send e.mail off from newhere w/o having to telnet into
my unix server. 2day i got some ofoto prints. originally, i had them send me
some prints that were mostly free from credits i had w/ them.
however, that shipment got lost by the usps, i guess. the fedexed
me a duplicate order. some of these pics r from christmastime, some
r from tahoe, some r just random pics. i should put these pics in
my foto album sometime. right now i'm listening to kim gunmo, some
ballady stuff. last nite, i found 4 potential job leads on monster
or flipdog, i 4get which. well, i should follow up on them 2day.
i wanna write good cover letters 4 each of them tho'; so it may
take a while. *sigh* still, i ponder getting a gre study book n'
cdrom set 'gain. :-/ *sigh* the eit exam's in a li'l over a month.
don't 4get hyun's a dj @ bellagio, but he used to be an it guy until he
got laid off. 'member, i was talkin' 'bout ppl who took advantage
of getting laid off to do things they've always wanted to do instead of
their "normal" careers? please c: "opportunities (let's make lots of money)" what
ever happened to that ladybug in our bathroom??? oh, kaela just
e.mailed me, saying she needs to be picked up. hrm, i'm starting to
doubt i'll end up @ the rsf @ all 2day. :-/ i should remember to
bring a wet napkin down w/ me to wipe off my steering wheel.
[later] 449p: dang! i'm so pi$$ed! i just wrote a long e.mail to
the demo team, n' eudora crashed! c? it's crap like this that
makes it so i don't get nething done during my day! grrr! now i hafta
rewrite the e.mail! grrr! the stoopidest things just slow me down.
the fact that the apt's messy n' i gotta walk in a weird path to
avoid stepping on sumpthin' every time i go from 1 place to 'nother slows
me down. the fact that i'm using a 56k dialup instead of dsl or
cable modem slows me down.
[later] 817p: well, i still didn't go to the rsf. instead i ate
'lot. :-( definitely, getting decent exercise is part of feeling well.
i'm not getting decent exercise, so i'm not feeling well. :-(
*sigh* well, kaela made this baked pasta dinner. we have
tons of pasta right now. it's good that we can eat pasta cos it's
cheap. :-) ugh, i feel so full, so stuffed. :-( *sigh* staying @
home? it's really not 4 me! no no no. u know, i don't think i'd
wanna do telecommuting so much. i need to be out of the house. :-(
[later] 851p: oh yah, as i was leaving safeway, i bought 1 superlotto plus
ticket. i didn't win the lottery 2day. [later] 921p: i still
haven't gone to the rsf. :-( uhm, yah, i don't think it's gonna happen
2nite. :-( shoot! 2morrow, i gotta go to the office to drop off
kaela's 'puter! :-( well, i should pick up my box of empty cd cases 2.
i've kept them stored in my cubicle 4 a long, long time now.
nelson called me a while 'go. we chatted 4 a bit. he always
wants to talk 'bout 'puter stuff, like kaela's 'puter. well, i
appreciate his expertise n' advice, but sometimes he tells me to do things
i just don't have time to do. 1121a: i'm listening to an extended remix of cyndi lauper's "she-bop."
'member? wax's debut hit "obba"'s melody is borrowed from this 80s
song. this happens. well, i've been outside 2day.
when i woke up, it was so cold in our apt. i brushed my teeth n'
got dressed. i took the beautiful kaela kang's
'puter, all boxed up, to my office 4 ups to pick it up. as i got on
the san rafael - richmond bridge, i saw my cowerker's subaru.
eventually, she saw that i was right next to her, n' i waved. when
i got to my office, i talked to a few cowerkers, even offered a li'l help.
then i got kaela's package better prepared 4 the ups pick up.
then i hurried back home cos i knew kaela'd wake up late n' need a
ride to her swimming class. i drove back home n' waited 4 her in
the carport. then i drove her to the rsf to pick up her swim gear
the to hearst gym 4 her class. :-/ i realised that was a real waste
of gas. it just cms like such a waste to drive to all these places
that r so close, yet so far by car due to all of berkeley's 1 way streets
n' awful street layout! :-( *sigh* oh well.
1133a: well, i hope i go back to the rsf soon; this time to werkout!
when i got home from dropping kaela off, i quickly prepared myself
a bowl of cereal. i was so tempted to go get a boba drink or
sumpthin', but 1) the stores prob'ly weren't open yet neway, 2) i gotta
save $$$, n' 3) we've got tons of fud @ home right now. also, it'd
be 2 sugary, wouldn't it? i need healthy, werkout fud! i'd
rather be snowboarding. :-( w/ this time off, man! how i'd love simply to
take off n' go snowboarding midweek! :-( then 'gain, i do
have taekwondo practices to take care of. hrm, when a sec 'go, i
had the idea to werk on some djing stuff this morn. :-/ hrm, not a bad
idea! also, when i was in the carport, waiting 4 kaela, my boss
called n' sed he might need me to come in 2morrow to move stuff.
heh, well... they will pay me engineer's salary to be a mover,
right?! i realised later that maybe when he asked if i would be
available the next "couple of days," he might want me to come in on sat.
absolutely, no way! kaela n' i hafta visit a wedding site on
sat! no way, no way!
[later] 419p: so i finally made it to the rsf!!! woo hoo! i
parked my car @ a meter that had a li'l bit of time on it. i went
upstairs. i spent 20 mins on a bike. then i saw an empty
precor n' jumped on it. then a li'l later, a gurl came up to me.
i thought, "hrm, she's prob'ly some1 from ucmap... prob'ly wants a
t.shirt 4 volunteering @ the uc open or sumpthin'." no, she sed the
precor was hers, n' i needed to sign up on a sheet. upes! i
went to the sheets. the gurl werking there was really nice; i
thought she'd be pi$$ed that i jumped on the precor w/o checking the list.
she pted me to an open precor w/ no wait. kewl. i did
that 4 20 mins. then i stretched 4 a while. then i went
downstairs to check my meter. the parking n' transit officer was
right there checking my meter, this old pilipino man. hrm, i wonder
if that guy werked 4 parking when toby werked 4 parking. i 'member
some old pilipino man. neway, i had 30 mins left, so i went back up
to lift a li'l. then i went into the combatives room n' practiced
some taekwondo poomsae. then i picked up my stuff, went to the car,
pondered going 4 a boba drink, decided not to waste my $$$, n' drove home.
i cooked myself a protein lunch in the late afternoon. i
figured this was perfect timing: werkout, eat, rest, then go back to
werkout. aah, ain't this the life?! heh, there must be tons of guys
that don't have real careers, that just werkout, make kissy faces @ their
muscles in the mirrors, n' maybe have a part time job @ like goodguys! or
sumpthin'. heh, well, i'm not striving to be 'nother 1 of those
guys, but man... werking out during the day, while knowing i'll have
'nother werkout @ nite is great!!! heh, those kinds of guys,
don't they all end up on blind date? ha ha. we haven't
watched that show in ages, since upn44 replaced it w/ taxi.
hrm, it cms like taxi, altho' just a silly sitcom, is a li'l more
intellectual, as i sed b4. :-/ i'm sure it's not, it just cms like that to
me cos i'm just not that bright, i guess. :-( just a simple guy that likes
to lift things in the gym. maaaahseul! goood! 1024a: well, i came into werk 2day, as i sed i would, just to move
things. *roar* i'm just pure muscle! ha ha, just kidding.
well, it's nice to be in an office w/ a doggy. :-) *sigh* the place is
getting emptier n' emptier. i'm thirsty i ate a powerbar
harvest on my drive into werk, but i didn't have ne beverage. i
tried to drive fast into werk cos i was running late, but then this
richmond police car got on the freeway w/ its sirens on. @ 1st, of
course, i freaked thinking it was gonna pull me over or sumpthin', even
tho' city police don't usually pull over speeders on the freeway,
which is s'pposed to be the chp's domain, but i totally slammed on the
brakes n' downshifted neway. well, he wasn't after me, but well...
every1 else slowed down 2. eh! that's what u'r s'pposed to do when
an emergency vehicle needs to get thru neway. it's funny, the toll
booths on the richmond - san rafael bridge all have 5 mph speed limit
signs now, even the fastrak lane's s'posed to be 5 mph. whuh?! how is that
"fastrak" then?! *roll eyes* neway, i slowed down. lately,
i've just cn so many chps pulling over speeders on the highways.
i'm very paranoid. i don't wanna get a speeding ticket.
i really don't need it!
last nite, after taekwondo practice, after demo team practice, after
getting boba drinks w/ raymond @ sweetheart café n' coming back to
the rsf to pick up the beautiful kaela kang;
after cooking n' eating yachae n' kimchi mandoo, while watching the usual
upn44 shows, i chatted w/ toby on the fon 4 a while. it's good to
talk to old friends, n' he mentioned he talked to ed park. crazy! i
haven't heard from ed in ages. i should try to e.mail him right
now. [a li'l later] ok, i e.mailed "parked@mit.edu." i dunno
if that's right or not. my cowerker n' i moved a printer from
upstairs to downstairs, a colour printer. we plugged it in, n' i
tested it out by printing a pic of kaela n' me sitting in 1 of northstar's
cable cars. [a li'l later] i went upstairs to get a few cups of h2o
from the water cooler. even tho' i know marin county municipal
water is great, i've been drinking water cooler water @ werk 4 a while now
cos it's cold n' some1 needs to drink it. i went to check my
mailbox, but there was nuthin' there. i did, however, notice
that the accountant has his big golden retriever doggy dusty w/ him! :-)
dusty's a cute, big doggy. i didn't c the whole doggy thru the
window, from the hallway, i just saw a mound of sleeping fur lying on the
ground. i like doggies. :-)
it's fri, eh? i really need a haircut! i'm so shaggy!!!
a few days 'go i read a thread chris (photon) posted on bjunkyard
'bout how life isn't going so great 4 him right now. :-( *sigh* that's 2
bad. i really hope things pick up 4 him. he's such a nice,
jolly guy.
[later] 414p: well, dave cheng (the guy i've known pretty much since i
moved to cali4nia) told me to dry out kaela's handspring really well, n'
then maybe it'd werk 'gain. i 4warded the msg to her. all
she did was change the batteries, n' it werks now. kewl!
well, yesterday, i opened up the enclosure, n' dried the pc boards w/ a
hairdryer set to low. after trying that, it still didn't werk, but
i'm glad it werks now! :-) i'll say "woo hoo!"
earlier 2day, my boss told me that my website is still generating the
most traffik to our company's site. :-p ha ha. well, he also sed it
generates the most internal (w/in the company) traffik to our website!
:-o whuh?! so i guess every1 heard that my website generates the most
traffik to my company's website, so all my cowerkers went to my site to
check out what site is generating all this traffik, huh? heh heh. *sigh*
well, i figure ne publicity is good publicity in a case like this.
funny tho'.
well, i spent the day moving things n' dismantling cubicles.
yup, physical labour. actually, i did do some engineering
werk here n' there. i went into the imaging lab n' did some random
tasks here n' there. i'll be back on mon n' tues of next week
'least. 'round 100p 2day, i took a lunch break, got lunch @ the
nearby fresh choice n' bought a new watch battery 4 my structure watch w/
the skier on it. even tho' i'd prefer it to be a snowboarder, i
guess it's a kewl watch... n' it was free! :-) heh heh. uhm, well, that
means the $3 battery co$t more than the watch! heh.
well, what am i gonna do 2nite? *shrug* kaela should be finishing up
her thesis 'bout now. @ 1st, i wanted to head down to san jo 2nite
cos we gotta go to a wedding site 2morrow, early afternoon; however, kaela
sez she has 2 much skoolwerk, so we can't go. maybe toby can cut my
hair in berkeley 2nite? :-/ dunno. that'd be superkewl, i know that!
well, we'll c. i really need a haircut!!! i
hate having shaggy hair like this.
[later] 938p: it's a fri nite, but we're staying in. kaela has
some homewerk to do, but we're watching the amazing race 2, i think
it's called... it's on upn44. it's a reality challenge show... u
know, like survivor. i'm starting to feel a sore throat!
that's very bad! well, i cooked some rice, n' kaela cooked some
miyuhkgook n' some fried spam. yup, we're just staying in, eating
home.cooked fud. well, it's economical, n' that's a very good thing
right now! :-) *sigh* i hope kaela can cut my hair 2nite cos i
really need it! i didn't call toby early 'nuff, so he
couldn't cut my hair. 2nite, he's watching the uc men's octet sing.
'member, toby used to be in that prestigious, collegiate, acappella
group.
[later] 1058p: ok, we watched star trek voyager. it was
a pretty neat episode where they encounter the "kezon," who r kind'f like
a species that acts like streetgangs, in a way: u hafta kill a person to
"earn ur name," etc. *sigh* tv, tv, tv. i don't like having
this sore throat. it's now 1100p. this'll be my 3rd episode
of simpsons. 1126p: done n' done. don'tch'u dislike
it when i just recap what i watched on tv?! ~220p: the beautiful kaela kang n' i r @ union chinese restaurant in
campbell. [later] that's where my dad used to take me all the time 4 chao
ma mien / jjambbong n' jiajiangmien / jjajangmyuhn. back in
those days, this restaurant had hand.pulled noodles. it's
still pretty good neway. 2day, i had jjambbong, n' kaela had
jjajangmyuhn. we drove down to the sobay 4 an appt @ a wedding
site, but the representative didn't show up! oh well. 'twas
such a beautiful day.
[later] 1134p: well, we did the ksa demo! woo hoo! no more demos till
after spring break! ha ha ha :-) woo hoo! it was a very fun demo! their
korean culture show was really kewl! i really liked it.
i hope ppl didn't feel i 4ced them to stay, but they had us bow w/
the rest of the cast @ the end of show, so i think it was good that we
stayed. it was just a really interesting n' fun show. they
had this mtv real world skit running thru most of it as a backdrop,
introducing different acts including us, (the berkeley taekwondo demo
team). the demo went well; good crowd; i liked it. i admit,
i felt a li'l nervous right b4 the show... on our last runthru on stage, i
even messed up the basics... but the show went great. i didn't mess
up the basics on stage, i did my halo break w/ jerome; all went fine. :-)
well... 'cept that kaela felt nauseous during the rehearsal, so she
couldn't do the demo... oh well, we have many more demos this semester...
either 4tunately or un4tunately, depending on how u look @ it! :-/ ha ha.
*sigh*
ok, lemme recap what we did 2day, this insanely bizzy day: so we
woke up in the morn, relatively early 4 a sat. kaela cut my hair in
the bathroom. our dirt devil still isn't werkin' all that great
altho' better than b4 i dismantled it n' poked @ its insides a li'l,
earlier this week during my time off from werk. well, i couldn't
vacuum up my hair scraps, but i used a pledge grabit mitt, n' it werked
great! pledge grabits r great! :-) i can't believe i'm
this excited 'bout a housekeeping produkt. well, i've been
using them 4 a while now neway... they ought to pay me to endorse
their produkt so enthusiastically, right? ha ha. *sigh* neway, i cleaned
up the bathroom n' took a quick shower. then kaela n' i got a li'l
dressed up to go to the wedding site mtg we had. we needed to stop
by the bank 1st tho' 4 me to take care of some $$$ biz. ha, n' we
needed gas, n' we were starving... but we didn't have time to eat just
yet. we went to our mtg, but the person wasn't there. oh! i already
sed that in the 1st paragraph. ha ha. so u know how we
went to union chinese restaurant n' had those noodles! a ha! so u think
u'r so smart, eh? :-) j/k. ok, well, i rushed us back to berkeley 4
the demo.
i sort'f got to demo practice late n' frantic. i had so much to
do. *sigh* so we had some warm up drills, stretching, n' a runthru
of the demo in the martial arts room, then i got us to wheeler auditorium.
the ksa president wanted us there by 500p, even tho' the show
wasn't till 700p. well, we prob'ly got there a li'l after 530p or
so? maybe earlier than that... neway, yah... that demo was
fun.
then afterwards, we had a dilemma 'bout where to go eat... i
thought ppl wouldn't mind getting out of the campus area, so i convinced
raymond to go get his car to help drive ppl. after we dropped
raymond off @ his car, ppl called me to tell me that they were going to
the durant fud ghetto instead. oh well... since kaela n' i both
needed to have sumpthin' warm n' soupy, we wanted to go to pyungchang
soondubu. heh, i told the team i wanted to go somewhere that sponsors
ucmap, n' well... i guess kaela n' i ended up @ a sponsor in the end...
sometimes ppl cm to get upset that i try to lump 2gether ppl into a
group to go somewhere 2 often, so well... if i hope they don't mind i
didn't show up @ durant. i did, however, worry that raymond
was gonna get lost cos we told him to pick up ppl in front of unit 3.
well, kaela n' i looked 4 him there but didn't find him.
man, u know, on fri n' sat nites, u can't park on durant! 'least not
legally... so yah, the fud ghetto was not a good option 4 us...
well, i didn't 4ce ppl to go w/ us, but we didn't wanna go to the
fud ct. it's just that we go there so often, n' have been there so
many times, since we ever started attending berkeley as students... u
know? on weeknites after practice, i'll go to the fud ct, but i
figured... it's sat nite! i wanna get out of the campus area. *sigh*
neway...
yah, 1 of these nites kaela n' i really gotta take up johnny chang's
offer of going to dansuhngsa w/ him n' his gf! i feel bad cos i
never cm to be able to meet up w/ him! like... i guess 2nite would've been
a possibility, but well... plans change so last min. ... ha ha ha,
i just 'member the funniest thing: this 1 character in the real
world skit, she's s'pposed to be the "typical korean clubbing gurl,"
n' in this 1 scene she says sumpthin' like, "i gotta practice my
choom!" ha ha, like, if u speak korean, u know "choom" is
"dance," but like... no1 sez nething as lame as "i gotta practice my
'choom'"!!!! ha ha ha... that's just 2 funny! X-)
hey! isn't brandie in town right now?! yah, we gotta meet up w/ brandie
sometime. well, 2morrow nite i have a dinner mtg w/ doug kim 'bout
that 2 week demo gig 4 me n' kaela n' washington d.c. this summer... the 1
that's hush hush, on the downlow. :-) shoot, i politely asked doug
kim to let yoon sabuhmnim know 'bout this demo gig... 'specially since i'm
pondering testing... urgh :-/, i wonder if he told him!
oh shoot! it's 1205a, so i ought to be on 2morrow's journal
entry not 2nite's! huh? yah, u get it, don'tchu? neway, i might as well
stop here. 1224a: man! sometimes using a 56k dialup insteads of dsl really pi$$es
me off cos i can't easily edit my journal while dling mp3s! grrr!
using a unix telnet window n' having netlag?! grr! it's so annoying!
neway... i am glad we have dialup cos then i can use my handspring *sigh* i wish i could go snowboarding 2day. :-( heh, if i didn't
have this dinner mtg w/ doug kim, shoot! maybe i would've! :-) nah... but
kaela hast'a study right now, so we wouldn't go. :-( true. well,
shoot! next week (as in, not this week, but next week) is spring
break! woo hoo! i should call it "quote/unquote spring break,"
since i, as a nonstudent, don't teknically get a spring break! *roll eyes*
why do ppl say "quote/unquote" instead of "quote [blah blah blah]
unquote," which makes more sense to me? grr! english is such a dumb
language, huh? ha ha.
... which reminds me of that ksa skit w/ the "fob" character "chulsoo,"
(which is such a typical korean langauge textbook name). as they
introduced each character, they had background musik, n' his song
was h.o.t.'s "candy"! ha ha ha. hrm, uh... i gotta stop talkin' 'bout that
ksa show, huh? that "sa i goo" (4.29 incident) presentation was
rather sobering, in a way... i guess that's the wurd i'm looking 4.
well, shoot... it's now 1239a. what r we doing? i'm sitting here
typing in my journal (i just recently posted yesterday's entry.),
n' the beautiful kaela kang is on the couch reading her jane
magazine. every so often i tell her to stop playing w/ her hair cos
it's bad 4 her hair. my left ankle is still taped up. i
taped it up b4 the demo cos the flying side kick is a li'l harsh on
my ankle, which received serious abuse from snowboarding this season.
[later] 123p: what a lazy sun(day)! we didn't get up till like
noon or sumpthin'. well, i got up like @ 700a n' couldn't fall back
asleep. i heard so much rain falling on our roof. it was so
cold! i got out of bed to turn off my 'puter. i should've
shut it off last nite! :-( then i went back to sleep, while
listening to the pitter.patter. i reawoke @ noon to bright sunlite
pouring thru our bedroom window. i fetched the sunday paper, made
my a bowl of microwaved quaker granola cereal, n' brought everything back
to the warm bedroom. that was the 1st time i microwaved a bowl of
granola n' milk; it was pretty good. then 'gain, i was pretty
hungry. i got online using my handspring so what time it it now?! *shrug* 143p. *sigh* am i just
gonna waste this day 'way?! what to do?! :-/ my car needs an oil
change. :-( when will i get to that? *shrug* there r things i gotta do...
of which, revamping my website is 1 thing. i need a new index page,
a new friends page., etc.
*sigh* when shall i ever get to that?! well, i've been lying
on the bedroom's carpetted floor 4 quite some time now, scribbling on my
handspring.
[later] 921p: well, i got back from the mtg @ doug kim's place.
yah, as i sed b4, it's sort'f a hush.hush / on the downlow thing.
:-) kewl, we're part of a secret society! just like in that song that i
mixed into the demo soundtrack... the song is called "illuminati," n' i
think it must be from the tomb raider soundtrack: "illuminati.
secret societies do exist." well, it was a neat mtg.
i've actually been to doug n' bonnie kim's place b4, but i bet they don't
'member. i barely 'member. it was back in my lame, vivian
days. (ha ha.) yah, vivian brought me along to a hapkido potluck there.
i 'member helping her n' her friends make uhm... tiramisu in the
kim's kitchen. doug n' bonnie have twin kids: 1 boy n' 1 gurl.
that's exactly what kaela wants in the future. i told 'em
that. we ate korean fud ordered from koryo sootbool n', i'm
guessing, pusan plaza. i think the kimbap must've come from pusan
plaza. also, doug barbecued some bulgogi. mmm... ppl thought
i ate so much n' think i just eat 'lot. well, if u really
know me, i don't eat that much; but i just liked the fud.
i ate fast 2.
did i mention i installed a new watch battery in my structure watch w/
the skier? uh, i think i did mention buying
the battery, but i didn't tell u that i put it in. :-) well, i'm
happy to have the option of wearing a sports watch 'gain. :-) like,
i'm not gonna wear my nice esq watch on the slopes or nething.
'member, kaela gave me that esq watch 4 v.day last
yr. 'member that v.day? that was when i took kaela to enrico's
n' gave her a pair of diamond earrings. :-) the v.day b4
that, i gave her the silver watch, n' she gave me the butterfly knife.
:-) funny, wasn't it? that was when i took kaela to the carnelian room.
wow, i ate 'lot 2day! well, my mom ought to be happy.
really, i ate so much 2day. what a day! can u believe it rained so
much this morn, yet it still cleared up quite a bit. can u believe
i didn't leave the apt till the early evening? on my drive to doug
n' bonnie kim's place, i pondered making a glossary 4 my journal: 1) ppl
sometimes might not understand my benospeech n' benospellings, n' 2) some
ppl might just not understand some of these names of places, ppl, n'
things i encounter so often. 4 example, do my readers know what
"the rsf" is??? (the rsf is the uc berkeley student/faculty/community gym
/ sports facility. "rsf" is an acronym: "recreational sports
facility.")
i dled that pic from kaela's digi.elph. i was having probs using
the 128mb cf card w/ my cf card reader connected via my usb hub.
however, when i hook the cf card reader directly to the mobo's usb port,
it werks. *shrug* :-/ sorry 4 drifting into nerdland 'gain. [a li'l later] whoa! i heard (via channel 2 news) that it snowed in
oakland 2day! whah?! wow! yah, it's been really cold. there
was 4 inches of snow on mt. tam 2day! man, tahoe! tahoe! tahoe!
tahoe! man! i dunno what our plans r next week. tahoe! of course,
tahoe! but i just dunno exactly which days, where, etc. i still
have a free tic to dodge ridge. what to do?! morn: well, i'm @ werk. i thought i'd just be doing manual
labour, but i'm actually doing some engineering maintenance stuff 2.
the drive in to werk was ok. on kqed radio this morn, i
heard there were some accidents in marin county, so i thought i'd have
some bad traffik, but no. 2day is mon. i went to sleep
really early last nite, but the beautiful kaela kang
stayed up doing hw till like 400a. i've slept so much
lately. hrm, i had some dreams, but i 4get. :-/ i might've
had a taekwondo dream; i often do. eh! i 4get. i took a
shower this morn, as opposed to last nite. i actually didn't use up
all the hot h2o. u c, in our apt, we have a tiny h2o heater.
each unit in our complex has its own h2o heater, i guess; n' i'm
guessing each is as small as ours. we usually use up the hot h2o
supply w/ 1 shower. this situation helps us appreciate the rsf
showers.
maybe it's cos i went to berkeley n' still live in the city of
berkeley, but i can imagine receiving hatemail 4 my use of pledge grabits
cos their disposable nature makes them unenvironmental. i can
imagine it; environmental hatemail. :-/ 'member? @ taqueria cancun, some
old man got all pi$$y @ me 4 having a car. *roll eyes* outside of
berkeley, americans w/ all their dagnabbed "comfort" fud prob'ly can't
fathom this, eh? well, of course i feel bad 'bout driving a car.
@ times, i've thought my current car'll be my last petroleum.based
combustion engine car. :-/ i just don't think the alternative fuel cars on
the market right now have 'nuff power. :-( however, who knows how they'll
be by the time i buy a new car. i don't wanna do that 4 a long
time.
[later] this morn, i got an e.mail reply from ed park over @ mit. kewl!
:-) it's been so long.
[later] late afternoon: well, i've been doing mostly physikal labour
all afternoon. man, if i were to get hurt, my insurance'll cover
it, right? :-/ while driving back from the gas station after lunch, i
passed by the usual crowd of mexican daywerkers in industrial san rafael.
i thought, "dang, what if i were out there offering to do
daywerk?!" as i've sed b4, i really respect that these guys w/ no
official jobs r willing to werk instead of just panhandling like those
telegraph junkies.
[later] 719p: well, i'm home. i'm 'bout to upload my entry.
demo practice 2nite. what's gonna be 4 dinner?
really, i eat so much these days! 120a: hrm, i'm still awake. nuts! 4 a while, i was being so good
'bout going to sleep early, "but not tonight." do u know? "but
not tonight" was my favourite depeche mode song. :-) well, demo practice
went great 2nite. it went great, but it ran rather late. it
was a fun practice. things werk out well when i can plan ahead.
i came home, n' the beautiful kaela kang had
burned a frozen pizza a li'l but managed to salvage most of it. we
ate that tombstone light veggie pizza n' watched tv.
i didn't mention that i fixed 1 li'l silly thing on my index page. didju
notice that i replaced the old, disfunct angelpop banner w/ a yesasia search box? well, i did. i'd
surely be happy if u buy stuff from my "sponsors" using my links, but eh! u
don't have to. :-) u can just donate $$$ to me via paypal, y!
directpay, or c2it... uh. is that what it's called? :-/ cit2go? c2it? :-/ i
4get. i 4got to mention that i've been dressing almost ridiculously
casually to werk. it feels weird, but if i'm gonna do physikal
labour, n' since i definitely wouldn't get reimbursed 4 damaged clothing
(like the shoe i ruined, while building cubicles a long time ago), i feel i
might as well wear my levi's silver tab jeans, my ucmap, grey long sleeve
t.shirt, n' my green, club monoco zip.up fleece. might as well.
*breathe* it's almost 200a now. :-/ it's like 149a or so.
[later] 212a: i just sent andy a b.day y! greeting from my handspring [later] late morn: oh yah, i was gonna tell u sumpthin' last nite, but
i 4got. 'member how i was happy to get my watch werkin' 'gain after
putting the new battery into it? after practice last nite, when i
got home, i took my watch out of my pocket, n' found that it stopped
werking! grrr! so in this case i wasted $3! *sigh* cheap
watch... well, free watch. *sigh* it's a relatively warm day
now. this morn, when i woke up, it was cold. :-( cold weather sucks
cos the electricity bill goes up! :-( :-( :-( however, cold weather is
good cos that means snow in tahoe, right? :-) so 2day is andy's
b.day. altho' he doesn't read this, happy b.day, andy! :-)
[later] 1220p: speaking of andy, i've been listening 'lot to tekno
remixes of faye wong's "eyes on me," the somewhat esoteric hit song from
final fantasy vii, the video game. (i guess i sort'f mean
it's like a "cult hit," in a way.) i really like the tekno remixes.
it's a very, very pretty song! :-) well, my old manager from
ebmud just e.mailed me that there's a job opening n' that i should go to
the downtown oakland ebmud office to pick up an application. hrm,
i'm pondering just taking off right now n' doing that! my boss @
my current job has made some plans 4 me to werk a li'l bit these
next 2 weeks. of course, i'm @ werk right now. i'm
been doing some physikal labour all morn till now. it's been almost
fun. just me, using my hands, arms, n' legs, while listening to
mp3s on my soundsgood springboard module. :-) it's fun. :-/ my
hands r all dry tho'. nuts. *sigh* oh! i just noticed that my ol'
cowerker's li'l, mini "zen"esque waterfall is plugged in n' running on her
desk. i hear the trickling water. what should i have 4
lunch?! :-/ i'm so confused. *sigh* man, if i drive out to oakland right
now, i gotta drive all the way out to oakland (given) n' pay bridge toll
coming back. :-( *sigh* well, shoot! i gotta do what i gotta do!
we'll c. [a li'l later] well, my boss came to talk to me 'bout some
werk things. btw, i really wanna keep my friends n' family clued in
on how things r going 4 me in my career, but yah... i do keep in
mind that "loose lips sick ships," so i will say that i won't post here
everything that hast'a do w/ my company, u know?
[later] x-| phew! what a trip! so i drove to oakland n' back..
man! it was exhausting! *sigh* i made very good time to oakland, but then
i realised 2 late that i was on my way to alameda cos taking the oakland
exit from 80w spits u out onto 880s, skipping 24w n' 980w. X-( upes!
so it took me a while to get into chinatown where ebmud is.
then i missed a good, free parking space, circled 'round, n' parked in the
renaissance plaza, underground lot, which is $1/hr. i went to the
bank to get some ca$h, then picked up my application, tried several times
to check my e.mail (but i found out kaela was already logged in, so i
couldn't), figured i had some time to kill since i had to pay 4 an hr of
parking, deposited a check, bought a soyberry boba drink @ sweetheart
café after finding out that maria's bakery is gone, then slowly
walked back to my car after paying my parking. then i was gonna
quickly rush off back to werk, but i got distracted by a fon call from
some "special investigator," who'll meet w/ me 2morrow 'bout supermike's
d.o.d. (department of defense) security clearance. cos i got
distracted by that fon call, i ended up driving locally thru berkeley
instead of getting on the hiway. my dad also called me. so
man... that trip took way longer than it was s'pposed to! :-(
however, it's ok, i guess. :-/ the ebmud position? wow, it sounds
pretty good! i gotta return the application pretty soon tho'.
oh! while i was trying to dial in to check my e.mail w/ my
handspring, toby called me to ask if i wanted to go to costco cos he
thought i'd be @ home doing nuthin'. heh, even tho' i would've
loved to go to costco; yah, i was far from doing nuthin', sittin' @ home.
:-) well, neway... back to werk! :-)
[later] late afternoon: yah, it was good to have a good boba
drink morn: 2day is the beautiful kaela kang's n' my 26th monthversary! :-) i'm gonna
take her out 2nite. last nite, she really took care of me cos i was
limping so much after demo practice. i wasn't seriously injured or
nething but pulled both groin muscles... r those hamstrings? moons over my
hammy. (that's a denny's menu item, a breakfast sandwich.) i
iced my muscles n' then took a hot shower. later, i also ate an
advil. hrm, i didn't even think to suck on the caplet a li'l to
enjoy the outer couting. :-/ neway, while i was doing my cold/hot
treatment, kaela cooked dinner (fried rice n' unagi). mmmm.
it was very delicious, n' i really appreciate that she did that 4 me. :-)
i guess last nite's demo practice is the kind that makes me feel like an
old man. :-(
i'm so hungry right now. i left home w/o eating nething.
yesterday, during the day, all i ate was 1 clifbar in the morn, a soyberry
surprise boba drink from sweetheart, n' then 1 clifbar in the early
evening. i'd like to eat a li'l better 2day. then 'gain, i
am taking kaela out to dinner 2nite, so i'm sure i'll eat plenty
there.
yesterday evening, 2wards the end of the werkday, my boss came down n'
gave me this forbes book of business quotations. when he
handed the book to me n' sed he thought i'd like it, i thought it'd be a
mark's mechanical engineering handbook or some crc reference book
(based on the size and appearance). however, yah, it's a pretty
neat n' fun book w/ quotes '4 all occasions,' u know?
on my drive back to werk yesterday, 'member how i had to drive thru
berkeley? well, i took hopkins n' gilman back to the freeway 4 a change of
scenery n' to check if the chipotle restaurant, the chain so often
advertised on kqed.fm, had opened its new location @ gilman n' san pablo
yet. nope, still not open. oh well. 2day's date is
02.3.20. when i write it like that it's a bit of a palindrome.
didju know that march 14 is considered "pi day"? i mean, it
obviously makes sense, n' i was thinking 'bout it on last thurs
(2002.03.14), even b4 i found out 2 nites 'go that it's considered pi day.
[later] late morn: so i just had my interview w/ the air force special
agent who came to ask me 'bout supermike to make sure he's good 4
department of defense clearance. it was a very relaxed n' almost
fun interview. it got me to reminisce 'lot 'bout the goodtimes i
shared w/ supermike. :-) the guy particularly focused on if their was ne
material, nething in supermike's past that ppl could blackmail him w/.
i flat out told him: nah! supermike's so open 'bout everything he
does. he talks 'bout everything even sex stuff. ha ha. i
hope he doesn't mind i sed that. ha ha.
*sigh* man, i'm still thinkin' "what's 4 lunch?!" hungry, i tell
u. hungry! what is 4 lunch?! :-/ [a few secs late] oh
hey! 'member when that ny times journalist interviewed me by e.mail
'bout alllooksame.com? that was just b4 9.11, n' right after 9.11,
i figured, "dang, now the article'll never get published cos all
ppl wanna talk 'bout is terrorism!" well, the journalist pamela
o.connell just e.miled me to let me know that the article'll be in the
ny times on thurs, 2002.03.28! kewl! i'll get quoted! ...i
think. :-/ ha ha :-) hey, here's a good quote from the book my boss gave
me: god must love the rich or he wouldn't divide so much among so
few of them. - h.l. mencken funny. i dunno who h.l. mencken
is.
[later] just b4 noon: 1) i'm gonna meet kaela 4 lunch in the east bay.
2) tim chen just called me cos he wanted to tell me 'bout a job
opportunity @ intuit in santa rosa, but then i told him that, since he's
looking 4 an i.t. job, he might be able to interview @ tumbleweed, ting's
company, where roland used to werk. well, a few secs go i recut
myself, n' my thumbs bleeding. c, i cut my thumb a li'l when i was
taking apart cubicles yesterday. then i bandaged it up fine
yesterday evening n' was glad it cmed to be healing fine. however,
while talking on the fon w/ tim, i started playing w/ 1 of those springy
paperclips. then i somehow pulled the cut open. yuck. so i
was bleeding. such a small cut, yet it was bleeding more than i'd
expect 4 a cut that size. :-(
[later] midafternoon: so i met kaela 4 lunch @ the 99 ranch mall.
since i didn't have much ca$h, i thought 'bout going to 168 since
they take credit cards, but kaela sed she wanted to go to the pho place,
n' i didn't mind. i ate 2 much tho'. :-( i had that egg
noodle soup thingy w/ all the miscellaneous meats n' seafud things in it.
the 1 i got was a large bowl, prob'ly more than i should've ate 4
lunch. kaela had our favourite kind'f pho, the thin, rare beef n'
tripe. we both had 3.color bean drinks. 2 much fud, i guess.
kaela had to take her lunch home. well, i hurried back to
werk after we stopped by 99 market to buy some superlotto plus tix.
we really need to win the lottery, u know.
[later] do u know this gurl? more 'bout asian pop culture: so hyun posted some of his remixes of
korean gayo songs on bronx's junkyard forums. i have yet to dl ne
of his mixes, but i saw he posted a remix of a cool song... oh! i mean
the group cool (or ku:l, as they used to spell it); that's their
name, "cool." he described the song as their 1st hit n' that it
uses the melody from "what's up," by the dj miko, which is a cover of the
4 non blondes song. neway, yah, i knew which song he was talkin'
'bout, but i didn't know the name, until i did a search from the lyrics.
the song is called "seulpuhjilyuh hagijuhnei." it's a cool
song... n' it's also a kewl song. :-) (ssuhlluhng ssuhlluhng.) that
song really exemplifies korean gayo from the days that i 1st got familiar
w/ it; happy, poppy, bouncy stuff. however, i hate when ppl think
that's the only kind'f korean gayo, or that the britneyspearsesque stuff
is the only kind'f korean gayo. [a li'l later] i dled the latest koyotae
album 4jip from bronx's, but i haven't listened to it yet. yah, i'd
really like to hang w/ some bjunkyard ppl, but suprisingly i'd rather do
sumpthin' w/ them other than clubbing. heh, i used to be the #1
"let's go clubbing" guy, right? ha ha. well, sure, i'll go clubbing
again someday. definitely, i'd rather go to bellagio than ne other
club in the bay area. seriously, i prefer going to korean clubs cos
their just not as skanky.
[later] while trying to figure out 4 sure when the wushu club practice
times r, i came across some wushu club webpage hosted by some1 named
"furious g." who's furious g?! i'm sure i've cn him in practice,
'specially during our combined ucmap demo team practices. i just
dunno who he is. i wonder if the wushu clubs has sociopolitical
probs like the taekwondo club runs into. :-/ it really sucks things got so
complicated. :-( granted, there was always some form of
unfriendliness in the taekwondo club, but the current sociopolitical probs
rn't good, nope. oh well. :-/
[later] late afternoon: 252p: i'm @ the jiffy lube on university ave, getting an oil change w/
an $8 off coupon from safeway. man, jiffy lube's gotten even more
expen$ive, i think. grr! >:-( *sigh* what a day! how
did i end up @ jiffy lube in the middle of the afternoon?! long story, i
guess. however, u
know me! :-) of course i'm gonna tell u! ha ha. now where do i
start?! well, right now i'm sitting in their contemporised guest
lounge listening to my soundsgood mp3 springboard module last nite, i took the beautiful kaela kang out
to dinner @ la rue, a new, "contemporary french" restaurant on san pablo,
near gilman, in berkeley; right by destination 1440, the
snow/skate/surf/golf store.
[later] 1051p @ home: we actually skipped taekwondo practice 2nite, can u believe it?
i just have so many things to do. i also gotta werk on my ebmud
application; that's my main excuse. what a weird, weird day! left
werk early, got an overpriced oil change, spent the rest of the day n'
evening in the south east bay. weird. also, there's been
lots'f talk lately 'bout the crappy ucmap sociopolitical situation. :-(
well, it'd be nice to come to some sort'f resolution soon. argh! we're
gonna miss the simpsons hollywood movie marathon! nuts!
:-/ 448p: so i went to werk 2day 4 6 hrs. i moved cubicles 'round.
my cubicle is really funny now. in the middle of my window i
have 1 tall cubicle wall. :-/ well, we just had to werk w/ what
parts we have. i guess that's the best we can do. i didn't
expect to do much physical labour 2day cos i didn't yesterday, but upes! i
did. shoot, i should've worn grungier clothes. :-/ i had
lunch @ fresh choice 'gain. the netwerk was down @ my werk, so i
had to check my e.mail using my handspring [later] 901p: i'm so frustrated cos we haven't left yet! >:-( we have
more solid plans now: 2nite, drive to raymond's parents' place, stay
there. 2morrow, make a daytrip to heavenly come back to raymond's
parents' place. sun pm leave 4 reno, check into the package deal
thingy. mon, board @ alpine, stay @ reno. tues, board
alpine, go home. it's good we have plans, but i'm so frustrated
that we haven't left yet cos i still gotta mount raymond's bindings @ his
parents' house n' wax his board. we should've gotten to sacramento
by now. 3 days of snowboarding... i thought we were gonna do more.
:-/ 1157a: yesterday, from sacto, we made a daytrip to heavenly. we drove
to south lake, stopped @ kfc to use the restroom n' got lunch - blazin'
strips, "not like those posers n' wannabes..." *roll eyes* of
course they're not spicy, the way i like
things spicy, but they're decently peppery, i
guess. then we went to the boardinghouse board shop 4 raymond to
buy some bindings 4 his new burton clash 153 deck. on fri, he
bought some $50 snowpro bindings from they berkeley any mtn, but they
don't fit the burton hole pattern, altho' apparently the clueless
salesperson told raymond they would. b4 we left sacto, in the morn,
i had waxed n' detuned raymond's board. we got to heavenly pretty
late. i parked my car on ski run blvd, not in the parking lot.
instead of using or $47 albertson's vouchers, we bought $42 0.5 day
tix.
heavenly's terrain majorly disappointed us! 2 many flat areas n'
moguls, n' not 'nuff real snowboarding terrain! >:-( stuff was 2 spread
out; like @ squaw, but much worse! we had to push/skate over so
much flat n' spent so much time on lifts to get to where we wanted to go!
grr! the novelty of boarding in 2 states on the same afternoon soon
wore thin. we wasted so much time just pushing/skating over flat
land. 'twas like cross country snowboarding. that sucked! @
400p, when they closed, kaela n' raymond took the gondola to anothem base
lodge, but i boarded down to our original base lodge, got my car, n'
picked them up from a café. heavenly's quite a ripoff, a
luxury resort 4 lazy, rich skiers who wanna hang out @ the lodge n' drink
beer! it's so snowboard unfriendly. it sucks!
well, i drove us back to sacto. originally, we planned on going
to chevy's n' a movie after showering, but instead raymond's parents
cooked us a fancy chinese dinner, n' we watched zoolander on rented
dvd w/ raymond's sisters. zoolander was so funny, 'specially
that "gas fight" scene! wow, the dvd w/ all its "extras" was such a
project! really kewl! then we watched snl, w/ billy bob
thornton as host n' creed as the musikal guest. i don't get it: how
r they not pearl jam?!?! creed n' the calling n' these new rock
groups? they sound just like early 90s grunge groups! clones!
well, 2day raymond, kaela, n' i'll be taking off to reno. the
time is now 112p. 144p: well, we came back last nite. what a trip! well,
alpine meadows kicks butt! it is kewl! we like alpine meadows!
the beautiful kaela kang n' i bought season passes 4 alpine meadows.
they were only $99 bucks each. the spring fling pass, i think they
call it. it's a huge resort yet cheap. i wish it had a 2nd
0.5 pipe n' a 2nd terrain park, however their 1 terrain park does
have lots'f ramps. like, there many ramps sort'f close 2gether, so u
just gotta jump, jump, jump, n' keep jumping. if u try to stop n'
take a break, by the time u stop, u'r 2 close to hit the next ramp n' get
air, u know? neway, dang! it was so much fun!!!
well, on sun afternoon, after raymond's parents took us to a delicious,
huge cantonese lunch, raymond navigated us to the outdoor mall in downtown
sacramento. after we shopped 'round n' browsed, we had some frozen
yogurt n' got our parking validated. then we stopped back @
raymond's house, got our stuff, n' took off to reno. upes! i left
my change wallet w/ my credit cards n' my driver license @ raymond's
house! raymond n' kaela did most of the driving while we stayed in
reno, altho' i did some local driving. we stayed @ the
holiday inn, which is a decent hotel w/ a scummy, dark, smokey casino.
in a way, it's a bit of a scuzzy place, altho' not nasty, yet it
was transformed into sumpthin' it usually isn't cos so many cal students
bought that package that jerome bought, the 1 we were using. eh, it
was an ok deal, not superfantastic or nething. i drove us
out to raley's n' we bought a lemon herb rotisserie chicken n' some whole
wheat rolls 4 dinner. we brought the fud back to the hotel room n'
ate. well, we tried to go to sleep early.
on mon morn, we took off decently early 4 alpine meadows. kaela
drove. we stopped by thte truckee mcyukyuk's to pick up some
breakfast n' took off. getting the season pass took so
long!!! the part that took a long time was waiting to get our
pictures taking by the li'l webcam. i dunno why, but on our
actually pass, our pics r all stretched out, so we look fat! :-(
well, dang! we boarded all over alpine meadows! it was a full, full day!
on mon, i didn't get to ride the terrain park cos we ran out of
time. we had a portabello shroom sandwich 4 lunch. mmm, it
was so good, n' the garlic fries there r really good!!!
mmm... well, on mon, yah, i didn't get to do much freestyle, just
did lots'f downhill riding.
that nite kaela drove us back to reno. we showered.
started watching striking distance (w/ bruce willis n' sarah
jessica parker) on tnt, went to the peppermill island seafud buffet,
walked 'round that smokey but nice.looking casino, came back, watched the
2nd 0.5 of striking distance, which they were showing 'gain, n'
then went to sleep. ugh, we ate so much @ the buffet!!!
what's w/ buffet? how come ppl always eat so much n' so
unhealthily when they go snowboarding? actually, i think perhaps
the healthiest meals while snowboarding happen when we rent a cabin n'
cook, huh? well, the buffet was pretty good. kaela n' i had
been there b4, 2 yrs 'go: please refer to "[upes! i
4got to name this journal entry!]" on 27 march, 2000. on the
way back into the hotel, we saw leo n' nancy w/ some friends. leo's
grown his hair back out.
well, on tues morn, we packed up, checked out of the hotel.
kaela drove us back to alpine meadows, but we skipped mcyukyuk's.
'gain, we snowboarded 'lot! :-) i got to hit the terrain park n' pipe 4 2
decently long freestyle sessions. :-) well, during the 1st session, in the
morn, i was sort'f getting back into things, so it wasn't as good, altho'
it's not like i bailed or nething. i just didn't do as fancy of
stuff, just got used to hitting the ramps @ the right speed, etc.
the 0.5 pipe was awful. the walls were all mooshy. i. boy,
oh boy! i really wanna use my startac as a wireless modem 4 my visor edge!
last nite, b4 dining w/
seunghwan n' gang @ daruma, we had demo team practice. [later, after
eating a chicken picante burrito @ the greenbrae roadrunner] @ practice, i
let the black belts know that i really do expect them to help
organise the team. honestly, i can't help but think that if i
didn't spend so much time organising taekwondo demo team, i'd be
better @ taekwondo cos i'd get to practice more. i even went ahead
n' told 'em all that. then kaela n' i told master yoon that we're
getting married next yr. his casual response reminded kaela of her
parents' casual response. ha ha. we have demo practice 2morrow afternoon.
[later] kaela has an eye appt w/ dr. susan link @ 1100a 2morrow
morn. dr. link's office is in pittsburg or somewhere... somewhere
in the east east bay... the northeast east bay. i'll prob'ly
go w/ her. i don't have this weekend well planned out.
when will we snowboard next?
i need a haircut. my sister grace sed b4 she thinks my hair's 2
short. right now, it's not 2 short. i'm 2 shaggy. if
u want me 2 have not short hair, enjoy it now!
pittsburg
then
we rushed over to practice. dang! i 4got my dobok n' clean
underwear etc. ugh! so i wore my new demo team warm up pants n' jerome's
warm up jacket. ok, i gotta go now we're gonna go eat party
sushi!
royal laundry
snow in marin county
is a 256mb compact flash card 4 $104. eh! if i had $$$ these days,
i'd definitely buy it. however, sheez, u know how much that memplug
springboard costs? well, @ compusa it's $49.95. *sigh* well, i
don't even like that much how springboards add so much thickness to the
visor edge n' make it so u can't put the cover on. i wish
handspring'd make a new springboard adapater 4 the visor edge that'd
invert the springboard module n' allow 4 the cover to fit into the
adapter. uhm, u have no clue what i'm talkin' 'bout, do u?
nuts. yah, i'm all fired up 'bout palm os n' handhelds, etc. man,
i'm such a geek 'bout this stuff. yah, what if i werked 4
handspring. heh, what would i do 4 them? *shrug* i dunno,
they might need a mechanical controls/optics engineer 'round, right?
dunno. compact flash is kewl. kaela's digicam, her digital
elph, uses compact flash. i like compact flash. *sigh* uhm, i gotta
quit saying such nerdy stuff, huh? well, i didn't say "i love compact
flash," right? wow, they have a weird springboard module,
the "jetlog 24x7 powernapping module." u sleep w/
ur thumb on ur handspring on the module's sensor. it controls ur
sleep, so u get the most out of ur nap! whoa! weird!
beno w/ his fresh haircut @ the end of the werkday
early in the morn
; raymond bought me a
strawberry 
soymilk 
w/
boba. i'm not sure the reason why; i think it's his payment 4 my
driving him home all the time. he also bought kaela a
strawberry.apple boba drink. i think that was either 4 driving him
to sactown last, last week or as a reward 4 finishing up her postwerkout
shower faster than usual; not sure. neway, after the buying the
boba drinks, we swung by thai basil (in the durant fud ghetto) to say hi
to a bunch'f demo team members, who were there eating dinner. i
wanted to join them, but i knew i needed to wake up early this morn.
wutc press demo n' banquet
cute, huh? kitty! i like
kitty. :-) nowadays, i think frisco
anticipates my return home so he can sit on the hood of my car 
:-) so what r
we gonna do 2nite??? *shrug*
icb2f: i can't believe 2morrow's fri!
hrm, as i enter all the li'l graphics n' icons in my journal, i gotta type
out the html fast cos... well, shoot! i'm a bizzy guy, so all this 'puter
stuff n' coding, etc... it's a waste of time, n' i gotta type fast.
all this fast typing reminds me of swordfish n' reminds me 'bout
how much i hate somethin' 'bout sowrdfish n' movies like that: i
hate how they pretend that hacking n' 'puter coding looks kewl,
that u c all these 3d graphics pop up as u type! *roll eyes* whuh?! heh...
yah, everytime i use unix ftp some big graphical interface pops up w/ all
these cubes n' spheres that look like some kind'f molecule model or
material science crystal model! tsss... *roll eyes 'gain* *sigh* so yah,
that really bugs! *exit geek mode*
"i am so great. i am so great. everybody loves me. i
am so great."
i 4got to put gel in my hair 2day. *sigh* i hope i look
ok.
i
honestly think i'm the best snowboarder 'mongst the ppl i know.
yup, that's plain out cocky, but i've gotta say it. u know why
tho'? well, 1) i've been snowboarding since 1993, n' 2) i go snowboarding
often. how can i go snowboarding often? is it that i'm just plain
loaded? frick, of course snowboarding n' skiing co$t $$$, but it's not
that i have so much more $$$ than other ppl i know... no way! it's that
i'm willing to sacrifice other things in order to afford
snowboarding. also, i'm willing to drive up to tahoe.
granted, i'm very lucky n' 4tunate to have a car, let alone an all wheel
drive car. still... it's defintiely not not a sacrifice 4 me
to drive... in other wurds, it is a sacrifice 4 me to drive! don't
4get smashy.smashy on the 50 back in 1999!!! yah, i wanted to go
snowboarding so badly, n' well, shoot! i obviously paid a very great price
4 it... but i really like snowboarding. i like it very much, i make
the sacrifices needed to go do it often, n' so i get better @ it.
... n' thus i've gotten to a level where i feel i'm the best snowboarder
out of the ppl i know. 
kids in my
neighbourhood, dang! so many of them had parents that took 'em skiing all
the time. spoiled, right? *shrug* i dunno... some might say that,
some might not. whatever. let's not make those kinds of judgements
right now. neway, i want to expose my friends to
snowboarding. i'm willing to drive 'em up to the slopes, i'm
willing to do what i can to make lodging arrangements, i'm willing to do
what i can to find cheap lift tix... but i can only do so much. n'
so yah... i'm very glad that other ppl r taking care of the
arrangements this weekend... i really hope this ride situation gets
straightened out.
u can't c the license plate holder, but it does
say: "i'd rather be snowboarding" n' then "sports chalet".
california ready to drive by
the numbers, by kpix - trisha carlson
commuters in the south bay can
now drive by the numbers.
caltrans unveiled its first numbered exit
sign in morgan hill friday. the cochran exit off highway 101 will
now also be known as exit 367. that number represents the number of
miles between the off-ramp and beginning of highway 101 in southern
california.
caltrans says the system will ehlp travelers find their
way in unfamiliar areas. it's already in place in the rest of the
country.
oh yah, i did c numbered exits in reno b4.
phil n' beno b4 headin' off to snow summit, 2001.12.23 (picture stolen
from kaela's digital elph)
yah, that's phil n' me down in socal, in the morn, b4 we left to snow
summit.
keno @ the wutc press banquet, 2002.01.29 (picture stolen from kaela's
digital elph)
yah, that's us @ the world university taekwondo championship press
conference banquet. that was after the big demo.
the mini big snowtrip that i didn't
plan
mon ends the weekend.
sign of the times
all hooked up
to my startac 
fon! i can surf the web from newhere! well, w/in this country...
as i werk. [later] i read a y! news article
'bout the superbowl ads: "super bowl sponsors turn nostalgic." [later]
i
don't like that. there's already 2 much "american conservative"
thought these days. on z95.7's morn show, they sed "comfort food"
is in. what the heck is "comfort food"? s'pposedly it's
mashed potatoes n' gravy n' meatloaf n' stuff like that. *roll eyes* give
me sushi n' falafels instead! geez, i still haven't gotten that
boba drink i've
been craving since last wed morn or so. [later] this week so far
we're back to waking up to gene n' julie on z95.7 instead of "npr" on
kqed. now i miss kqed. u know, i used to think npr
was 2 "nerdy" 4 me; but then we woke up to it in the morn this winter.
now i really like it. it surely beats mindless banter 'bout
"comfort food"!!! grrr!
how beno looked 2day in his new, reversible, hooded jacket, on the way out
of the office
007
via
this gomadic internet cable thingy connecting it to my startac!
wow! i feellike james bond w/ these gadgets! crazy!
i've been craving? "n' where's that kid w/ my boba?"
ha ha. i'm actually alluding to a simpsons line, a line from 1 of
my least favourite episodes, the mel gibson 1. homer sez,
"n' where's that kid w/ my latte?" *roll eyes* i don't like that
episode much, n' i actually don't like that line much @ all.
*sigh* so yah... i wonder if i'll end up werking 4 ebmud 'gain.
shoot, i just plain wonder whom i'll be werking 4 next yr.
of course, if i werked @ ebmud in the oakland main office, i'd get to have
boba from oakland chinatown all the time. yah, there's asian fud so
readily available there. of course, if i werked 4 ebmud, i might
end up back in orinda, where i werked so much in the past. there,
it's very similar to corte madera n' marin county... butch'u know? i think
it's still a li'l less snobby out there. if i had to choose
btwn living in orinda n' marin county, i'd definitely choose orinda.
hey! 'member from the wutc press conference banquet?! the mayor of
marin city is a korean man! whuh?! really! then 'gain marin city,
as u must recall me saying, is the 1 city in marin county that has tons of
minorities. 'member? i go out to best buy n' taco bell out there,
n' i c tons of black kids. marin city has housing projects.
it's not like the rest of marin county. i'm quite perplexed by it.
*sigh* i like berkeley. sometimes i really know i don't
love berkeley. i hate parking in berkeley. i don't
necessarily like that almost all the houses n' buildings r ancient.
i appreciate the cultural divesity in berkeley, but i wouldn't mind even
more asian biznesses. by that, i pretty much mean that i do
like how in silly valley (silicon valley), i can find chinese/taiwanese
shops n'
restaurants in all those 99 ranch malls n' korean 
biznesses all
over el camino. in berkeley? u can find chinese/taiwanese stuff in
the richmond 99 ranch mall n' oakland chinatown n' korean stuff on
telegraph in oakland n' that other koreatown area near chinatown.
however, parking is hard to find n' the korean areas of oakland r just
plain ghetto! *sigh* it's 2 bad.
suhngin
*sigh* interviews: i
surely may hafta do interviews 'gain soon. roland was telling me
that, from hearing what i do @ werk, he thinks i might be pretty well cut
out 4 the "i.s." field, which is pretty intertwined w/ what ppl call
"i.t.", u know? well, yah... i do like 'puters... n' i
have given the is/it field a thought recently; i really have.
toby told me his friend, the 1 that got us free internet dial.up
access 4 a while, was werking an it job n' got paid $80k. however,
now he's been laid off n' is unemployed. roland sed that the it
jobs that r left r pretty stable. yah, that's prob'ly true.
as much as i hate $$$ n' greed, i really do wish i was paid more $$$.
*sigh* i lookd @ some job listings that kaela sent me yesterday. 1
job that sounded interesting n' right up my alley was 4 a uc berkeley
chemistry lab, a job that involved computers, programming, digital
imaging... however, dang! the pay was absolutely horrible! geez!
professors don't realise that professional engineers ain't grad student
slaves! c, that's the prob w/ my job now! my
managers/bosses/cowerkers r all academics n' totally don't realise that
professional engineers ain't grad student slaves. in that sense, i
totally missed the late 90s silicon valley boom, i guess. just
think 'bout what was discussed in po bronson's the nudist on the late
shift. engineers were so respected n' esteemed in the alte 90s
silicon valley that he describes. *sigh* yup, there was a time when
venture capitalists valued engineers so much. they'd give some
lunatic w/ a farfetched idea millions of $$$ just cos he's hired some
engineers. then the lunatic w/ the farfetched idea'd pass on a
decent amt of $$$ to the engineers cos the vcs gave him $$$ just cos he
has a crazy idea n' some engineers on staff. *sigh* well, obviously life
ain't like that in this day n' age, but personally i think it's even worse
werkin' 4 academics. c, that's why i'd be making more $$$ werkin' 4
the h2o company.
enjoy the silence
woo hoo! boy,
oh boy. what to do? i hope to drink 'nother boba this weekend, i
guess. ...that n' werk out!
sad beno after finding out he misplaced his
handspring/startac internet connection cable
beary full day
sweetheart hadn't opened yet. mandarin house
hadn't opened yet. altho' i was parked right in front of
sweetheart, i walked 'round the block to quickley n' bought 2 boba drinks.
i brought home kaela her boba drink.
waiting
"opportunities (let's make lots of
money)"
beno @ his home 'puter.
well, that's sloppy me 2day. u can c my flat panel monitor, i
guess. *sigh* my "desk" is a mess. i got lots'f housewerk to
do, lots'f stuff to do 2day. grocery shopping? maybe.
yesterday, while i was waiting 4 kaela, i was a bit hungry, right?
i thought 'bout what fuds i could buy to take home, stuff to eat later;
since i figured i'd eat dinner w/ kaela, so i didn't wanna buy nething to
eat right @ the moment. i couldn't think of nething @ 1st; but
later, while driving back to ucsf, i realised geez, i could've bought some
buns from shengkee on irving, or i could've bought some piroshkis from the
russian bakery/deli on geary. i've never been inside that place,
but i assume they've got 'em. i 'member that my dad used to buy
piroshkis from sf n' bring them home to san jo. they were really
delicious, but i dunno exactly where he got them from. i also don't
know exactly where he bought these really good cheesesteak sandwiches in
san jo. *shrug* alright, alright. it's 'bout time to change
out of these pajamas! it's 1233p.
now is a good time to make old
friends.
. [a few
mins later] i received a big box of taekwondo equipment from golden tiger
via ups just now. i thought there was a prob w/ the order, but
luckily, no. kewl. [later] i'm pretty sleepy 2day.
yesterday, b4 practice, i took a nap. it reminded me of those days
when i'd werk in sf 800a-500p, come home, nap 1-2 hrs, practice taekwondo,
go out to eat, then stay up 4 2-4 hrs writing e.mail or journal entries n'
chatting online. of course, that's like back in 1999 or so.
last nite, after practice the beautiful kaela kang
picked me up from the rsf in her kia sportage. she had given me a
ride to practice. i didn't have time to shower @ the rsf.
kaela also drove raymond, johnny, n' roland home. while i was @
practice kaela was s'pposed to werk on her master's thesis, but she also
did lots'f chores: she bought groceries (in addition to the $50 of
groceries i bought in the afternoon), cooked chicken curry, n' continued
the laundry session we started earlier. we ate the chicken curry n'
myungran juht (salted pollack eggs) that kaela prepared. yum.
i had planned on cooking the chicken curry b4 practice, but i was 2
sleepytired. kaela asked me @ dinner how i planned on cooking
chicken curry when all i had were chicken thighs n' onions. *shrug*
well, all the vegetables looked so expen$ive to me. <:-( heh, it wasn't
just that; the produce @ the albany safeway looked pretty miserable.
i wish we could afford to shop @ andronico's all the time. ha ha.
i
received the pair of walkie.talkies 2day. i like e.bay. man,
it's decently warm 2day. it's a beautiful day. last nite, i
talked to ken a bit 'bout our respective weddings. ...wedding
budgets. well. ken pretty much wants to buy a house this yr.
me? i really don't plan on buying a house this yr.
ken's b.day
sarang
anchovy pizza
new deck!
beno's new santa
cruz x152 gian simmen pro model deck, kaela's v.day present to
him
i spent some time deciding what kind of stance i want. i tried
to make it as wide as i had it on my h3.153, but i moved the back binding
up 2cm to compensate 4 the x152's 2cm backward center offset... i know ppl
like to ride directional these days, n' this board does have
directional flex, but i wanna be somewhat bidirectional just like in the
good ol' days! :-) i'm just takin' u back to the ol' skool cos i'm an ol'
fool! ha ha ha.
daytripper
a pic kaela took of beno n' his board @ the beginning of the day
well, i'm glad i didn't mess up my board 2 much, no base damage, but
some dents to the sidewall area.
werkin' on presidents' day
blame it on the rain
25th monthversary
i tried to take a pic of myself w/ my stephen duke poster,
but it didn't werk 2 well. my new haircut got chopped off. 
it just cms a bit wrong to me to take n' post up pics of
other ppl's pets, but i just couldn't help it. this is my
cowerker's doggy.
so this is my fresh haircut. is it ok? this
looks a bit like an id pic, but the angle's a bit wrong, eh?
big b.ball demo 2nite
chunggyuhl
chaanei issneun gae
, of
course. linda talked 'lot 'bout her sister's somewhat recent
wedding to give us pointers. she made some budget 4 us, n' i was
pleasantly surprised to c it was very reasonable n' very similar to what i
had thought of already, give or take an item or 2. neway, kaela n'
linda talked 'lot 'bout their hi skool friends 2. linda n' i talked
a li'l 'bout careers. well, eventually it was lites out n' every1
went to sleep.
. it
was so.so. then we went back to the york hotel, where the b.day
party was @. well, we watched tv, had some drinks, snacks, n'
cake... watched ppl play some card games... talked a li'l... then we left.
it wasn't a very long party.
in a long time...
[later] i just ate some strawberries. mmmm.
dj culture: living in a satellite fantasy
. then i drove out to staples n' compusa just to
browse. i didn't buy nething. this compusa werker carried
this 2 poofy white puppies out from the back of the store out the front
door. i dunno why. they were very cute. what breed
of doggies? *shrug* u know i'm not good w/ doggy breeds, sumpthin' big
like a husky, but white n' poofy. they were very cute. after
browsing thru compusa, i went back to my office. on my way out to
my lunchbreak, i saw that the fence by the burdy marshlands had a balloon
animal mosaic 'gain. this time it was the olympic rings:
the olympic rings balloon animal mosaic
starving engineer: will werk 4 fud
after lunch: i lunched @ the central san rafael taco bell, had
the #8 gorditas meal: a chicken supreme gordita, a chicken baja gordita, a
crispy beef taco, n' a 32 oz diet pepsi. do u 'member the
old taco bell cheese? the more finely shredded stuff... i
liked that better but wonder if the new cheese is ne healthier.
prob'ly not, eh? after lunch, i went to rite.aid, then bought gas @
beacon 4 $1.12/gal. @ the tesoro in central san rafael, it would've
been $1.09/gal. nuts. kaela called me 'bout wedding stuff.
i drove back to the office.
teknofuzzy
n' starting to feel just a li'l discouraged. [later] i
guess, right now, i feel like i'm farming 
: i'm plainting
seeds n' waiting to c what pops up. tomacco. ha ha ha. 
"all 4 homer," kaela
sez. 
heh, i
mean, maybe this pleased some of the corte maderans, but personally, i
don't really relate to ned flanders talk, u know? like, uh... how
would i rather have him greet me? 1) "'shup, man?" (upwards nod) or 2)
"hi diddly ho, pardner!" ha ha ha :-D "what can i do u 4?" heh heh. *sigh*
of course, as a "professional" engineer in cali4nia, which is still
part of the usa (last i checked), i know i gotta flandersise my speech now
n' then 2. it's just what i gotta do in the professional world.
i don't like it; it gives me a big headache if i do it 2 long, but
i gotta do what i gotta do. neway, the chicken super burrito was
fine. it was a li'l dry but i put plenty of salsa on it.
they have this good mango salsa there. i love how it's free! :-)
heh, when i had just started eating, some li'l toddler came
crawling onto the bench opposite my side of the booth. this li'l
kid crawled up n' started bouncing on the cushions. his aunt sed
his name's alex. n' i sed hi n' stuff, but the kid just sort'f
ignored me n' kept bounching, while his mom got ca$h out of the atm.
eventually he got bored, n' eventually his mom n' aunt took him
'way. he really wanted just to stay n' bounce on the cushion n'
stuff. it was a bit awkward 4 me, who had just gotten my fud n'
hungrily wanted to start eating. geez, i sure hope my kids never
act like that. i mean, the kid was cute n' all, but erm, i think
it's best if parents don't let their kids do stuff like that.
ha ha
ha. j/k. :-p
beno the teknofuzzy
wangmandoo
. on my
way into werk i ate a big uh... dumpling... uhm, we bought a pair of 'em @
pusan plaza. [upes, stepped out to do some werk 4 a bit...] neway, those "dumplings":
well, i guess @ pusan plaza they call him like wang mandoo or sumpthin'
(since they're big), but uhm, i guess like my family'd call 'em bow.ah.
i always thought of them as more of a taiwanese/chinese thing than
a korean thing, but i guess koreans eat 'em 2. in fact, heh... in
case u actually care, i just found a korean recipe 4 them: wangmandoo
recipe. i just figured, in case u totally don't know what i'm
talkin' 'bout, this recipe webpage has a nice illustration.
bakkwuh
hot/cold treatment
i cleaned off the
base w/ goo gone, then melted wax onto my board w/ that cheap iron i
bought on ebay.
beno's board shop: if only i could make $$$
waxin' snowboards...
i drip wax onto the board, then i spread it out by ironing it right onto
the board.
misty
it's been so warm in the bay area lately, but it's s'pposed to rain here
this week n' snow in tahoe. i really want that tahoe snow!
can't wait till kaela's spring break! oh! i'm writing this journal
entry 2day using my handspring .
transvestite
'twas a rainy day in corte madera 2day.
time life musik presents: ghetto@$$ booty
in yo face big bass mix
like this.
so that's the 1st snowboard action shot of me i'm posting on this
website. eh! it's not the best pic. what am i doing?!
actually, i'm coming down from catching a li'l air. yah,
that's actually the finish of my jump; i'm not in mid flight or nething.
as i sed b4, it wasn't my finest day of freestyling cos i had been
out of the freestyle loop 4 2 long. i kinda wish i 'least had a pic
of my doing a tail grab or method. w/ a single pic, u can't tell if
i did a 180 or 360 or nething. actually, i think kaela snapped 1
pic of my doing an alley oop in the pipe, but all u c is my rentry, so u
can't tell if i spun 'round or just rode the side of the wall or what.
*sigh* i can't wait to get back on the slopes!!!
cos i can't cm to access ne berkeley internet. weird. i
hope berkeley hasn't blown up or nething!!! while cleaning out my
office, i found my original hanpspring visor edge to startac internet
cable! d'oh! well, i s'ppose it's a good thing i found it.
now i have 3. i tried to dial into the uc dialup using my
handspring. it wouldn't connect. huh? some campuswide
internet outage!
weighing in
good eatin'
tentative
dilbert: [to dogbert] i need career advice.
dogbert: you came to the right place.
dilbert: should i keep my comfortable job that has no growth potential? or
should i take a better job with longer hours and a hideous commute?
dogbert: the first choice is a sure path to self-loathing and unhappiness.
the second choice will squeeze the life out of you like a vise on a
peach. you can't win. so i recommend the choice that keeps you away from
home more. because frankly - and i'll try to say this delicately -
a little bit of you goes a long way. that's the problem with good
advice: no one wants to hear it.
-- dilbert 2002.03.03
moodangbuhlrei
sticky steering wheel
geuneun cheiryuhkeun gwengjanghandei muhrineun
shiwuhnchanhda.
ha ha ha. just
kidding. i did eat a very protein.rich lunch. it consisted
of leftover jook, leftover beef n' brocolli, n' an egg. lots'f beef
n' egg. well, my boss e.mailed me. i'm going to werk
2morrow. i'm going just to lift things, not to do engineering werk.
i'm gonna need these big maaahseuls! ha ha ha. 442p: i hafta go
pick up kaela soon.
speedy
ksa demo
sunday lazy sunday
w/ the startac internet connection cable thingy. :-) yah, i
do like that! :-) ok, my 'puter just finished dling that
mp3, so i have more "bandwidth," i guess. :-/ buzzwurd! buzzwurd!
buzzwurd!
. i tried out the eudora web browser. it's ok, but i sure
wish i had more ram on board now. :-( u can't really upgrade the
ram, altho' w/ my memplug compact flash adaptor, i sort'f can.
however, that adds to the overall size.
how 'bout
comparing eudoraweb n' avantgo? well, avantgo cms to be generally
better, 'specially w/ graphics. however eudora web gives u
bookmarks n' handles frames n' wide pages better. :-/ *sigh* oh! avantgo's
cache management's better: u can select which cached pages to delete.
good.
keno @ our prospective wedding location (pic stolen from
kaela's digital elph)
ori ori
after lunch: i had lunch @ the greenbrae noah's bagels w/ the
cutest mallard duck couple! i fed them pieces of marbled rye from
my pastrami rachel sandwich. they ate, each took a dump, then flew
off. i like ducks!
my lunch companions 2day
after all is said and done,
one and one still is one.
when we cry, when we laugh,
i am half, you are half.
-- from robert miles's "one and one"
hayan geurioom
. i love using internet apps on my visor edge. :-) *sigh* 'nuff w/
the nerdtalk! i gotta go to sleep!!! g'nite!
in the
middle of my werkday, wasn't it? :-) [later] ah, hard werk, eh? :-/
[later] evening: i stayed late@werk.com to use the scanner to scan some
old fotos, but i could only do it in b&w, not colour. :-/
neway, i'll show 'em to u later.
i dress casually to werk these days.
26 monthversary
she's "bboogga." sometimes u c it romanised as
"pucca." i guess it's usually romanised as "pucca," but actually,
"bboogga" is a romanisation more true to her actual name written in
korean. however, she's s'pposed to chinese. she's sort'f
like the korean ppl's visualisation of chinese ppl. ha ha. she has
"wangmandoo muhri." basically she has shao long bao 4 hair, those 2
knobs; like sailor moon's meatball head, right? she cms to walk
'round talkin' 'bout jjajang this jjajang that, etc. neway, she cms
to be a very popular cartoon character right now.
'nother
quote from the forbes book of business quotations; a confucius
quote, "study without reflection is a waste of time; reflection
without study is dangerous." :-/ do i reflect w/o studying?
in a way, i feel keeping this journal is a form of reflection. :-/ so
confucius's real name is kung futsu, eh? why the heck do we say
"confucius"?! hrm, it's not snowing in tahoe right now, is it? dang! we
gotta get up to tahoe b4 the snow melts! 
northwest to southeast
plugged
into my handspring visor edge
, which is connected to my startac
via that gomadic
cable i just don't shut up 'bout! what a pathetic teknoyuppie!
*roll eyes* 'least i'm just wearing slippers... n' a plain undershirt, n'
brown cords. i don't look 2 teknoyuppieish, do i? :-/
wow! what a day! crazy! so since i didn't have
much to do @ werk n' felt guilty charging them 4 idle time, i left @ 100p.
i picked up kaela from campus. she had w/ her a coffee
source salad. he brought it home n' ate it, but i was still hungry.
i microwaved a frozen dinner n' ate that. then i got that
oil change. then raymond picked us up n' drove t tri.city. i
helped raymond pick out a new deck. kaela bought a helmet, a
jacket, a kewl santa cruz skateboards backpack, n' more
thermals. then we drove back to berkeley, but we stopped in union
city 4 dinner @ chili's. the 3 of us shared the southwestern
eggrolls. i had a tuna steak sandwich. kaela had that asian
lettuce wraps thingy. funny, huh? she went to chili's 4 2
asian dishes! :-) ha ha, well, they were actually not bad, so that's kewl.
raymond had cajun chicken pasta. i actually had 2 beers, a
bud light n' a coors light. actually, i had a pilsner urquell beer
last nite @ la rue, but b4 that i hadn't had beer in a while, so i had a
li'l appetite 4 it, i guess. 
after eating such a filling dinner, we walked
to the nearby albertson's in this jumbo stripmall, very reminiscent of
orange county. we asked 4 heavenly lift tix, which r available 4 $47
there. they sed they didn't have ne. then we went to krispy
kreme cos raymond'd never been to 1 b4. raymond got a 0.5 dzn, n'
we got a 0.5 dzn assorted donuts. then raymond got back on 880n.
we got off @ claremont n' went to the rockridge albertson's to try
to find heavenly lift tix. i wasn't expecting much, but hey! they
had them! kewl! kaela really wants to c heavenly; she's never been
there. of course, neither has raymond. heavenly is a very
luxurious resort. normally, it's very expen$ive, but we got these
discount tix, so that's kewl! :-) after getting the tix, raymond
dropped us off @ home. now it's 1144p, n' i'm looking 4 lodging 4
this weekend in south tahoe. we're hoping to go to sierra@tahoe on
sun, n' hoping to meet up w/ johnny n' michelle. we'll c. on
fri nite, we're gonna stay @ raymond's parents' place in sactown, as long
as it's fine w/ them. :-)
bombanghaki sijakhae.
.
what's gonna happen now? no clue. how come raymond doesn't return
e.mails nowadays?! >:-( jerome's been complaining 'bout that 2.
i think raymond gave me an excuse yesterday, but i didn't quite
hear it... maybe that ppl keep bugging him 'bout so much stuff or
sumpthin' 'long those lines. however, i do need to make
lodging plans asap! i wonder if he bought his bindings 2day or what. :-/
no clue! i sed i'd mount his bindings n' wax/detune his board 2nite @ his
parents' house 4 him, but i do hope he did get the bindings!
dang! we gotta check carl's jr. 4 sierra@tahoe coupons!
snowboarding! snowboarding! snowboarding!
in sacto
we're in sacramento. the beautiful kaela kang n'
i have been staying @ raymond's parents' place w/ raymond. [later]
1239p: we still haven't really gotten out of bed. raymond's
parents say he sed his stomach hurt last nite, n' i guess he didn't go to
sleep till really late or sumpthin'; he's still very much asleep.
stalefish