±Ý¿äÀÏ ¿ÀÈÄ: wow, i can't believe it's fri afternoon already.   *sigh* the wknd'll come n' go.   then the 1st 0.5'f next wk'll come n' go.   then, i'll be on crutches, rt?   my acl/menisci surgery's next wed.   my arrival time @ the dept'f orthopaedik surgery's 1115a.   aktually, i don't go to the dept'f orthopaedik surgery; i go to the dept'f ambulatory surgery, i think.   what's gonna happen?   what'll life be like after next wed?!   *sigh* god only knows.   only god knows.   i prefer the latter statement o'er the 4mer.   god's in control.   to say god "only knows" makes it sound like god knows but isn't in control, while other ppl know as well as r in control.   "only god" knows better describes the truth that no 1 but god knows what life'll be like.   [later] yesterday, @ my pre.op apptmnt, dr. sanghvi (my o.s. - orthopaedik surgeon) told me to think 'bout what i want to eat 4 dinner after the surgery, i.e. during the surgery... cos ppl who optimistikally think 'bout life after surgery'll do better n' heal faster, etc.   well, yah... what do i want 4 dinner after the surgery.   i imagine 1'f 2 things: «»Í jjambbong from ¿¾³¯ Â¥Àå yeitnal jjajang or ÇØÀå±¹ haejanggook from ¼­¿ï °õÅÁ seoul gomtang.   dude, u know what?   4 some reason, lately, i've been eatin' 2 much fatt'nin' fud n' not exercisin' 'nuff.   i really wish i could've gone to the sunnyvale skate park 2day.   [just a li'l later] not to get whiny, but the hekticness'f the past few months cm to have left me as an emotional mess @ this pt in the yr.   i feel really jittery n' anxious.   i feel like my mind n' heart r a mess.   i feel like things r tangled n' jumbled up.   just now i wondered, "if i were to die 2day, who would cry?   who would be glad to c me gone?   who would be indifferent?"   i've ingested 2 much sugar 2day.   the company gave us free 40th b.day cake 4 our company's b.day.   also, our division had our 0.25ly clean.up day, so they gave us cookies, brownies, n' nice cheeses w/ crackers n' drinks.   i had a couple'f cups'f decaf coffee n' some cheese n' crackers, 0.5 a chocolate walnut cookie, n' 0.333'f a brownie.   in a few mins, i'll have a grp mtg that'll prob'ly have more fud n' sweets.   [later] i'm sure this sugar rush's messin' w/ my emotions.   i had 2 much sugar durin' halloween wk.   then i switched to eatin' 2 much protein this wk.   however, 2day i had 2 much sugar 'gain cos'f all these free dessert_items@werk.com.