• 12 Jun 2007 /  DeCal, Madness, Music

    A recent post on Regina Lynn’s blog regarding a humorous trademark dispute reminded me of the essay Ashley wrote for the DeCal entitled “Grace of Fuck”. Within it she discusses some interesting semantic implications of the verb form of “fuck” acting upon a direct object.

    While it’s true that in some contexts fuck is indeed used to express anger (as is often the case with the exclamatory Fuck!, the verbal command fuck you, or some uses of the present progressive functioning as the adjective fucking, etc.), its different forms hold several other often-fluctuating implications. The verb form of the word itself can mean one of several things; to fuck with someone implies some vague sort of teasing or tormenting, while to fuck someone over denotes some action of betrayal or sabotage, &etc.

    The most notably powerful verb form, though, is that which utilizes the personal direct object: to fuck someone,which is generally accepted to mean, in more passive and appropriate phrasing, to have sex with someone. This use is particularly interesting in that it transforms the clause’s personal object from direct to indirect, negating the use of the preposition with and indicating a new sense of acting upon another person rather than engaging in an action with him or her. In this sense, the word draws a remarkable new sort of modernist meaning that may at once be liberating and emotionally devastating, thus creating a new realm of value in a single verb that is doubtless very useful for drawing certain implications in a literary setting. –Ashley Lystne – and then you explode.

    I can actually recall at least one instance of the phrase “fuck with” that may be problematic. Eazy-E recorded a song entitled “I’d Rather Fuck You” for the N.W.A. album Efil4zaggin that uses “fuck with” describing intercourse rather than torment (the chorus and lyrics would switch between the phrase “I’d rather fuck you” and “I’d rather fuck with you”). This may, of course, be entirely pragmatic. Eazy-E has a habit of sampling the music of Bootsy Collins, and this song is no exception. Here he samples “I’d Rather Be With You” by Bootsy’s Rubber Band. The “fuck with” can be be seen as the pragmatic necessity of maintaining the meter of Bootsy’s original while continuing with the intent to change the meaning of the phrase to something explicitly more carnal. This is consistent with the nature of the lyrics, which are very explicitly sexual and misogynistic (as was typical of Gangsta Rap at the time). As such, the more intimate meaning of the sexual “fuck with” could have been entirely accidental.

    Nonetheless, this choice of phrasing, whether intentional or accidental, creates a far more complex meaning within the song than the standalone “fuck” would have. As described earlier, there’s the irony of the intimate connotation the direct-object-absent “fuck with” contrasted with the sexual misogyny of the verse lyrics. However, there may be another level of (possibly intentional) irony as well which lies in the more common meaning of “fuck with.” When “fuck with” acts upon a direct object it typically means torment, as Ashley described. When taken with this meaning “I’d rather fuck with you” stands in agreement with the misogyny of the verse lyrics rather than in contrast to it. The irony here lies in the assumption that sex is not torment. Unfortunately, this is not always the case, and further may not be the case in this song.

  • 07 May 2007 /  DeCal, Facebook, Meta, Reflections, Software

    As I have mentioned before, I have been getting recent insight into my audience by using Google Analytics. Though for the most part it is exactly how I expected, there are a few…anomalies I had certainly not expected to see. For instance, a significant portion of my incoming referrals originated at the OCF Blog … somewhat unsettling considering I hadn’t been terribly kind to them recently. But a bit more unsettling was the number of search engine hits I was getting for search queries like “facebook selling user information” or “facebook platform hoax selling.” GAH! Both of those are page 1, and that last one is third from the top. Though I haven’t gotten terribly many hits from these kinds of searches, I feel the need to disclaim myself for these topics. I am in no way an authority on Facebook’s terms of use or other legal documents. I do not work for Facebook or represent Facebook’s stances on anything in any way. Though having said that, I still think I’m right about what I wrote.

    Seeing my audience start to grow beyond my local community (and into southern Canada apparently. Huh?) has put a bit of the fear of God in me. I had always intended my blog to be a bit more commentary and criticism of things like art, software, technology and such. The course’s posting requirement has brought up writing that is a lot more personal than I had originally intended. A friend of mine recently commented to me that the blog has a lot of potential for the easy publication of a very professional writing, but that it also maps on to a very personal writing space that makes it difficult to fight the urge to make it your personal diary. I’m thankful that I had been forced to write so frequently as I now have the confidence to consider a broader audience in my writing. With that in mind, I hope I will be able to move out of “beta” in the near future and move into a professionally minded writing release cycle. This, for me, requires the discipline to be very selective in my writing without ceasing to write altogether.

  • 07 May 2007 /  DeCal, Meta, Reflections, Sorority Girls, Wolf

    It has come to my attention recently that running a search query for “sorority blog” on some search engines, my blog comes up on the list of results. I feel an urge at this point to explain myself and my particular depictions based on some of the feedback I have received from my local audience. Then again I don’t think I’ve written anything worth apologizing for either. I have two sets of pieces in my “Sorority Girls” category: those addressing my experience in the History of Information course and those addressing my relationship with Kappa Kappa Gamma. The former was fairly insincere snobbery and the latter was a sincere reach-out.

    Looking back on it, I probably would not have written or titled the first two pieces the same way if I were writing them now. I’m on this stint of exploring stereotypes and trying to expose them wherever they come up, but there’s a large part of me that wants to believe there some validity or justification to subscribing to these stereotypes over others, as these boys and girls (as these societies are undeniably structurally gendered) collectively represent a society of exclusion that I try to actively work against in the communities in which I’m involved. And there is also something about the sorority girl stereotype that makes it easy to explain the different modes of discourse between a Cognitive Science and a Mass Communications major that the nuances in the modes of discourse don’t reach without much more effort.

    However, it is obviously hypocritical to then ask my house mates to drop those same stereotypes and biases for the purposes community building with our neighbors. In my attempts to give the benefit of the doubt I think I may have inadvertently reinforced some of them to my local community. At the same time I’m still not entirely sure a large chunk of my intended audience was ever reached to begin with. I am still happy with what I wrote in the last two pieces, but I would have liked them to hold more weight in the real world.

  • 07 May 2007 /  DeCal, Meta, Reflections

    As a preface and implicit apology, I would like to say that I have given up on my original idea for this 5-post series that will become my final paper for the Blogging DeCal course. I had originally intended to write a series on my patriline to honor my recently deceased grandfather. I made two unfortunate realizations recently. First, I have run out of time to craft anything that thorough and have instead opted to write something significantly less intense so that I have something to hand in to the course facilitator on at Monday’s class meeting. Second, I don’t have nearly the fiction writing skills to do any honor to the mythology of either of my bloodlines.

    In most other time-insensitive scenarios, this work would come spaced days apart with posts in between. It is certainly my first attempt to publish anything in a serial format. With that in mind, the restrictions of the course are forcing these out much closer in time than I have intended., so if they seem a little packed together it’s because they’re meant to have a bit more padding. On that note, the time-sensitivity is also forcing these to be ordered in a somewhat less natural fashion. I intend there to be few if any dependencies in the next four pieces, but they all depend on this introduction, which will be pushed to the bottom of the page before it is read.

    Enough apology. The following pieces are a set of reflections on topics I have chosen or intended to write on frequently, on my experience in writing within the framework of this course, and on some of the feedback and responses I have received about particular pieces or on the ideas within them. I don’t intend to entirely revisit all the pieces I’ve written on a particular topic, but they will certainly be referenced. I hope to steer away from a tone of finality as I am afraid such a tone will discourage me from writing when the course ends, but it cannot be avoided entirely as this is also an earmark for the end of this stage of my writing experience.

    So here goes nothing: these are some reflections on my past semester as a blogger…

  • 28 Apr 2007 /  DeCal, Obvious Hints

    To continue both Ashley’s and my own belligerence and strife-mongering, I too would like to stand in support of alcohol. I have known about as many douchebags who smoke pot as I know dickfaces who drink. What this tells me is that it is rarely the drug of choice that makes the jerk, but rather that the jerk is so regardless of the drug.

    Considering myself to be 1) neither a douchebag nor a dickface (at least under the influence of alcohol) and 2) quite fond of alcohol, I have no choice but to take public offense to Nicole’s recent comments.

    That is all I have to say on the matter.

  • 25 Apr 2007 /  DeCal, Obvious Hints

    I’ve counted 52 posts starting with my first post for the class on January 23rd. Waaay more than the 30 something posts Miguel claims I’ve written. I demand a recount!

  • 21 Apr 2007 /  DeCal, Meta

    With no offense intended towards the course or it’s facilitator, I refuse to post any overt fiction. I don’t like writing fiction, and when I do, it sucks. I was reminded of this during our first writing exercise when I started writing an intro to a zombie apocalypse piece that could go nowhere but badly, with an introduction half ripped off of Gears of War. What?

    I furthermore did not sign up for a fiction workshop, rather a non-fiction blogging workshop. Now this isn’t to say that that I don’t like making shit up. I lie all the time and will probably do so in my blog in the future. It’s just that particular format that I have no interest in producing work for.

    I hope you will all accept my various burst-fire rantings in place of walking into a laundromat with a dog named Jesus.

  • 14 Apr 2007 /  DeCal, Meta

    I’m a lot further along in my requirement than I had originally thought. I nonetheless am finding it difficult to muster a motivation to write. I can combat senioritis, so let’s hope that’s the culprit.

  • 20 Mar 2007 /  DeCal, Meta

    The blogging workshop has been an odd experience for me in terms of developing work and craft. In an acting workshop, writing workshop, or other artistic workshop, there is a continual development of an unfinished work. None of the art can be complete until it has come under the scrutiny of your peers and modified to account for their feedback.

    This is kind of the way the blogging workshop works. The scrutiny is there, as is the feedback. But at least for me, there is no sense of this unfinished work, and as a result, there can be no modification. We review published posts, work that has already been released to the public, which for me means that it is finished and can no longer be modified. I will fix grammatical and spelling errors if they are obvious, but I will never change the nature of the piece. What this means is that the workshop only allows for the scrutiny of a person’s writing in general, and in particular with their use of the blog format.

    I guess I just wanted to know how the rest of you felt about that. Are any of you willing to modify posts based on feedback in the workshop (or outside it), or is a published post a completed work for you as well?

  • 05 Mar 2007 /  Computers, DeCal, Meta, OCF, Software

    I think I’m going to avoid the urge to bias you on my piece. The open letter below is my submission for critique. Please do with it what you will.

    My blog, if you couldn’t tell, is up and running again. Hopefully it will stay that way. It may, however, move in the near future if I can find some free webspace.

    As a result of my laziness, my 2.1.1 upgrade has been delayed, though I must say I am lucky for the delay. 2.1.1 was declared dangerous because some hacker got access to the download and injected his own nasty code. Since they weren’t able to determine which downloads were affected, the entire milestone has been deemed corrupted. Ouch. Let’s not let this happen again, WordPress.

    As a result of the OCF downtime, I haven’t upgraded to 2.1.2 nor experimented with Akismet. Hopefully I’ll be able to play with them this weekend and report back on the results.

    I think that’s it. Hopefully if I keep up with this three posts a day thing, I can catch up for my blogging slackerhood.