bb’s babblings

so following the resolution from a few weeks back i decided not to take part in anything that’d make me late to services. it was good, because even with the usual random stuff, i was already mad late. baruch hashem though, i made it in time for kiddush at the rabbi’s place. as i walked in, the rebbetzin saying hi from the kitchen, the rabbi talking with some guests, the kids running around, getting ready for the rest of the crowd and the festive meal. even with the hardcore pesach precautions, maybe moreso because of them, it just felt so perfect. we’re so lucky to have such a heritage. the first people in the world to not only have a day off, but a religious commandment to observe it. before heading out, i wavered between all the different things that could be done, but in the end something nudged me toward trying to keep the sabbath. walking a friend home and then walking past all the parties and drunks. it was wierd, i wasn’t feeling particularly high or anything, but there was something of that special clarity. for the first time in a long time, i finally had a chance not to break it, or maybe the proper thinking to think i did… for the most part. it’s funny, most of the people i know have no clue what i’m talking about.. but it’s ok… next year in jerusalem.. rebuilt =P