frustration
there’s this insanity that gets into people’s heads. it makes them think they have rights over another person, it makes them search for reasons to get pissed, it lets them think they have the right to treat someone close worse than they would a stranger. i hate knowing that i’ve let it through. i hate seeing it in those around me. it’s so ridiculous and it causes so much pain.
sometimes i wish i could drop everything, move somewhere else, and start clean. no responsibilities. the guy at work keeps telling me i have no responsibilities. that’s bull. responsibility isn’t a one-way street. i wish i could wave a magic wand and make so many members of my family see how freaken dumb they act sometimes. it’s so sad to see people you love act this way.
one of the reasons i respect my granpa is that he’s never out to hurt anyone. he’s a simple man that doesn’t build conspiracy schemes to justify abuse. i wish more people would learn from his example. but it seems the more intelligent people think they are, the more likely they won’t.
i’m exhausted. nights.