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perhaps not so decisive after all. aah. i really don’t want to drop the art class!
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i’m working on thispoem where i have this idea in my head and need to find the words to describe it, rather than having random words to form an idea. it’s a lot tougher going this way than just busting random gibberish, but i think it’s worth it in the long run… little snidbits… i have this song that catches it, and i can kind of see its colors, but in words.. it’s kind of tough… there’s so much to say but then using saying too much makes it less powerful… i dunno words are strange things… ugh… this is messing with my head.
you are everything
worlds, emotions, truth
it’s all in you
kind shining eyes
soft gentle touch
carrying in it all of life
we dance beyond this place
your warm hand upon my face
hearts beating to your tune
comfy, carefree, free
swaying in your golden melody
you are life
every breath with you
so deep, so true,
life
fully felt, expressed, understood
a ray of the divine breaks through
and shines through you
shines through you
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it’s really wierd how so many dj’s and dancers are teachers =P …. ok nap time…… ah i love my sat class…. it’s so wierd how the class structure is set up. you go up there you teach and you smile and the class responds and is nice. i wonder how one would deal with students being not nice. thank goodness hasn’t happened yet…. ok sleepy time… nights
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uh. it begins
class 9-12
pick up stuff to grade 12:15
cs homework 12:30-2:15
nap 2:15-3
gym 3:15-3:45
experiment 4-5
cs class 5-6
food 6-7
hw at barnes 7:30-10:30
peer advising replay 11:45-12:30 (pine shut down on me =( )
hmm if i didn’t nap or eat food for an hour i could have saved nearly two hours…. hmm also, what happened ot that hour between 10:45 and 11:45???
tomorrow looks like another busy one
class 9-12, 12:30-2
bank 2-2:30
acid lab 2:30-5
class 5-7
meeting 7-8
gym/food/hw/sleep 8
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class 5-7 (tolman)
score! info session 6-8? (faculty club)
movement meeting 7 (7:30-8:30?) (145 dwinelle)
the plan
class 5-5:50
score 6:05-7
movement meeting 7:10-8:30
will it work….? we will see… if class is mad crazy new stuff… will skip info-session… i’m planning to stay another semester anyway…
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i really like the way my brother acts when he’s showing something new that he’s just figured out. that excited but calm kind of thing. like when someone’s really interested in something and they’re still exploring it as they let you get a little glimpse. it’s good stuff
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you know, as much as i get ticked at girls for being stuck up, i just don’t get what’s wrong with guys that attack when they’re not wanted. i don’t mean macking. what the hell? i know sometimes the lower head does all the thinking, happens to all of us, but isht, even your dick should react to a girl crying and screaming. wtf. ever think bout what happens the day after, a week after, a year after? how would you like some lady or better yet a guy with man-boobs to overpower you with a coke bottle. uugh.
it’s wierd, it seems just about all the girls i’ve ever really been close with have been victims of sexual assault. back in hs it was the biggest trip because it was one of the guys i thought was my friend and my best friend was the victim. what would you say in her place. what would you do to him after you found out.. a year after.. pure wackness dude. bunch of dumb-dicked mf’s. ugh
when a gal tells you this stuff and you want to make her feel alright, yet at the same time, knowing you’re a dude, and just giving her a hug might cause more bad memories… bleh.
life’s a trip.. and i’m going to bed soon.
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so i finally get miguel migs’ ‘brand new day’… and it’s the wrong song… not the song i wanted at least. oh wells. haha, still a nice song, but there’s a dif one out there. i guess i’ll ask the dj next time i hear it played. if i get some sleep tonight, it’s all about devotion this sunday. ruben mancias is playing all night, with ahmed on the drums. can’t go wrong with that =P
i’m obsessed with making a slim window-seat-like bed… fell asleep thinking bout it. it’d be so neat to take a furniture-making class
gotta make some new resumes for the start of semester job fairs during the week…
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one would think that if a person’s business plan fails and leaves a company in a huge debt, they wouldn’t be asked for financial advice and definitely wouldn’t be asked to implement that same business again… i guess that doesn’t apply to so-called “peace-making”…. yes, intellectuals with great spelling and fancy metaphors dance around and try to drag their people to “peace” through scandenavian cities.
it’d be nice if their dialogues and surrender games would stay where they are most effective - as theories and imaginary exercises. it’s just sad when they actually get taken seriously and implemented as policies, where it isn’t just money lost on financing the plo regime, but hundreds of lives are lost because of their refusal to face reality.
from reading j and jta, one would think that the american jewish community wants america to put pressure on israel and the plo to accelerate “peacemaking.” i don’t know about the stats, but i’d far rather see america let israel deal with the plo as it needs to–without tying more “peace-making” ropes around its neck. and as far as “credibility” goes, if the arab dictatorships have a problem with israeli self-defense, let’s see them get their standards of living up as high as those palestinians they feel such outrage for.
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moved almost everything…. noone picked up the futon. i tried to give it away but 5 calls and noone showed up so it’ll end up on the corner with a “free” sign. =P
i’m debating whether to apply to this jr admin position. i got the social and tech skills to do it, but i’m a bit hesitant about the commitment if i do make it. six months and it’s like at least 20hr/week, which would be perfect for this summer and for making some dough to pay for art school, but during my last semester here might be a bit too much. it’d be a great step toward a future career, but i am really hesitant about entering the cs lifestyle. leaving at six and returning at eight, drained, and pale from the uv light… not cool. man, if there was only a job that was a nice 8-4 that let you kick it with people and see sunshine without totally draining you from the lack of thinking or the pressure. “lalala… water the sunflowers… every day!” in any case resume needs to be updated to deal with the september job fairs.
off to work to finish up the product list from yesterday… yawns… kaskade tonight! woohoo!
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while taking an overly long break from math work, decided to play with some styles, check out the clean one… that’s my pet project =P (and it’s the resason most of the other pages look mad wierd
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it’s interesting that the murder groups have once again “waged war” on israel and vowed to unleash evertything. isn’t that what they’ve been doing for already? or have they been slacking? or is it that they’ve been holding back for tactical assaults? if so, what difference does it make? they would have attacked anyway? or maybe they’ll step up “recruiting” efforts:
murder group: hi, you’re gonna be a martyr
random guy: but i don’t want to die, i’m going to school and am getting married in a few months
murder group: even more reason to, either you are a martyr or your family and your future wife are going die too
meanwhile tony blair’s wife expresses her understanding of the despair that drives people to go blow up people sipping coffee at a cafe and “peace” groups advocate giving more money and power to one murder group or another for the sake of their latest imaginary “peace” process.
on other hand, imagine the thoughts going through a mom’s head as she sends her daughter to school knowing that her daughter might be the vicitm of this new assault. i’d probably be thinking, oh heck, just give em what they want as long as my kids are safe, but on the other hand knowing that what they want is for us to go away.. which is why we’re there in the first place, this was supposed to be the one place in the world where people couldn’t say “go back where you came from”…