bb’s babblings

big decisions coming this week.

my cousin and his wife and son are coming soon, g-dwilling. i’m so excited. =P i really look up to him in a way that i don’t with most people.

i loved davis’ dance group. the routine was so genuine and fun. very refreshing. the crowd thought so too. chain reaction was tight too. popping groups are so much fun.

shabbat dinner was so nice. we’re really blessed here at berkeley to have such great rabbies with such families here.

big day tomorrow. kroeber mad early. sleep calls.

This entry was posted on Monday, February 14th, 2005 at 2005.02.14 01:25 and is filed under general. You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0 feed. You can skip to the end and leave a response. Pinging is currently not allowed.

i’ve found a five-month program in israel. livnot. anyone know bout it? any advice? the master plan is to go next winter. i am really excited.

This entry was posted on Sunday, January 9th, 2005 at 2005.01.09 04:58 and is filed under general. You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0 feed. You can skip to the end and leave a response. Pinging is currently not allowed.

it’s wierd around christmas, not being christian. i dunno. seems like most of the people around me are. i think i’ve noticed it a lot more this year than in past years for some reason. maybe it’s because of learning more about the laws and stuff, i dunno. it’s neat with my bro. “can we put the tree up?” “no, we do it after christmas.” usually when he wants to do something he’s hardcore and gets his way but here he understands and leaves it at that. i feel kind of bad for him, because on one hand there isn’t a big community to really celebrate our holidays and stuff and we don’t really go that hardcore bout em at home, and at the same time, for many of the holidays of the people around us, he knows that he can’t participate. i dunno. i guess for we used to be pretty hard core bout new years, in russia even the christians celebrated that and not christmas, but lately everyone’s just tired. it really scares me, how hard my parents work. everything scares me. i dunno. bleh gotta head to bed. it’d be so tight to be in israel right now

This entry was posted on Friday, December 24th, 2004 at 2004.12.24 01:40 and is filed under general. You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0 feed. You can skip to the end and leave a response. Pinging is currently not allowed.

i feel sick. bleh. hopefully just from today’s fast. hopefully gone tomorrow.

the drill rocks. it’s so neat. i can do stuff so much faster. put up one bar of the closet but was feeling too tired to do any more. already though, it’s looking cooler. i think over next few days, gonna try to finish off the project and get closet looking ultraspiffy. really excited.

lots of stuff to do. talk to backup studios (before 11), email o-tn, find a rock guitar for my dad, find the video game for my bro (my roomy recommended this driver game, but i am really excited bout the new kareoke thing), figure out what to get mom. gotta pick and drive bro around. it really gets to me when i get asked to do this. it’s like whenever i’m at school somehow my parents figure out ways to get him to all his lessons without having me drive for four hours. yet the momemnt they know i’m free-bam. there goes a whole day, and day after for recovery. makes me really sympathetic to my mom though, man driving that commute daily. i don’t get how she has any energy at all. my hope is if i leave before 2 i can squeeze through in less than an hour and a half. then i could hit up valley fair and recover for a bit as i shop. hopefully then have enough energy for house practice that night.

ok i’m kind of dead. traffic never got to me this much before. i don’t think it’s really the traffic alone, nor the fast, something’s still a bit off. need to clear shiz up. i think it might be fear of the future. not doing as well as i thought i would in my art classes. hear bad experiences bout tfa. having no clue how to squeeze in living in israel. just general uncertainty about the future. i don’t know. it’s like with all the crazy obstacles and discrimination my parents and grandparents had to deal with, here i am with everything set and i have no clue what to do. bleh. right now my goal is to satisfy every obligation or task to be done asap, but it isn’t as easy as i thought it’d be. hopefully get most of em done soon!

i love mangos by the way. mangos rock!

ugh can’t resist. a few more

neat convo with pj yesterday. it seems that almost every time we chat she says something super cool.
pj: you see i think we’re all part of this same energy. call it G-d if you will. and that’s why when i meet people i let our friendship appear right away. it’s like uniting with another part of yourself.
bb: so you never meet people you don’t like?
pj: there are people that i meet that i immediately become friends with.
…

it’s wierd, today i actually did think bout the stuff i’m supposed to reflect on. maybe not as much as i should, but more than usually. i really want to go to israel. hopefully next year. in rebuilt jerusalem =)

This entry was posted on Wednesday, December 22nd, 2004 at 2004.12.22 23:38 and is filed under general. You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0 feed. You can skip to the end and leave a response. Pinging is currently not allowed.

san mateo is so cool. especially with fun company and yummy greek food. mmm… lamb…. ::drools:: i like ocean’s 12. reminded me of go. i want to see 11 now.

two dance classes in a row is still too much for me. tried but not quite there. house class was off the heezy fo sheezy though. man. by end of class my ear was popping whenever i inhaled. straight craziness. i love it. had cool company too. leading to some scary discussions

my full-fat “diet” is apparently not good for me. this makes me so sad. the thought of having to swallow blueish water or eat non-fat sour “cream”. man. i was all looking forward to this ice-cream-banana-honey creation upon arriving home. but after convo finished my healthy beef noodle soup instead. i guess my arteries are thankfull to id for it. i wonder how they figure all this nutri stuff out.

anyways. i best be going to sleep now. nights

This entry was posted on Friday, December 17th, 2004 at 2004.12.17 02:41 and is filed under general. You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0 feed. You can skip to the end and leave a response. Pinging is currently not allowed.

rabbi’s house was great as usual. i love chabad. the people there are just so genuine. little kids running around, the rabbi sining, random conversations. everyone’s feels their connection to our family.

remedy was so much fun. julias papp played the most amazing set. oh. just beautiful. ep made me accomplish my current goal. i busted in the circle. twice. it was the scariest thing ever, but now i did it. man. my relationship wiht him is so one-sided. he does all this stuff for me and my buddies and i dunno, gotta figure out some way to give back.

just got back and found out i get to be development co-chair. i really want to do a good job. gotta really sit down with the other co-chair and figure out who’s responsible for what. and then get to business.

ah. i’m in the best mood right now. there’s an all-age house party tomorrow and i know my friend will totally be psyched. gotta ask if she needs to study first. if not, we’re probably going for a tidy. ooh and peer advising bowling party. man. ok i gotta head to bed now. nights

This entry was posted on Saturday, December 11th, 2004 at 2004.12.11 04:08 and is filed under general. You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0 feed. You can skip to the end and leave a response. Pinging is currently not allowed.

baruch hashem! i doubt israel is making needed parking space in gaza, but at least it’s doing something. seriously, if any other country had a bunch of animals firing rockets at their homes and schools, the towns where they fired from would be wiped off the face of the earth. but yeah. it’s really good to hear that israel is doing something. it’s kind of wierd that there hasn’t been any more footage of un vehicals being used to ship rockets and guns earlier. maybe it was to more easily identify and stop the killers, but in any case. good stuff. it’s really too bad that so many people had to go into shock and get killed for the operation to start. someday the guys funding all this will get what’s coming to them, g-dwilling.

it’s interesting that a bunch of the leaders of the failed oslo/roadmap/appeasement movements keep getting interviewed about their views on how to bring “peace” to the middle east. it’s really interesting to consider what “peace” is. for many, the goal is a peace of legally binding paper. personally i have no confidence in the un or international organizations that fail to enforce anything, unless of course someone accuses israel of doing something, then it’s guilty before the crime is defined. i really don’t think those agreements are worth the paper their written on. to me, “peace” means people not having to worry about bombings, missiles, or snipers firing at them.

from this perspective, lets take a look at “peace” with syria. since israel has taken over the golan, there have been very few (although still to many) missile and artilary attacks onto israeli farmers and such. the only real problem is the hezbollah driving around and firing from civilian areas every once in a while. now, for some reason, people thirst for “peace” with the commy dictatorship. they claim israel should give up the mountains to syria in return for that worthless paper. i don’t get it. what does israel gain outside of the paper. a lier’s word that hezbollah won’t attack anymore now that it has far greater range? syria’s army is nothing compared to the idf, baruch hashem, so security from those forces, especially with the golan, israel already has. syria’s economy seems worthless unless one counts drug and car-smuggling, which might then raise it to almost worthless level. i just don’t get it. israel has to give up the security border of the golan heights for a worthless market and a lier’s promise that hezbollah won’t attack any more farmers. wtf. and risking its water supply to do so, bs. once again this whole different goals thing pops up. from the paper perspective this makes sense. from the perspective of reality, if israel really wants to gain that security from hizbollah, it should just start bombing beirut and arming those abandoned back in 2000. about a week or two and the peace that people so desire in papers might materialize.

This entry was posted on Sunday, October 3rd, 2004 at 2004.10.03 02:41 and is filed under general. You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0 feed. You can skip to the end and leave a response. Pinging is currently not allowed.

there’s so much stuff. i purposely didn’t schedule too many classes and didn’t sign up for too much stuff but it seems like there’s a lot. man. i’m really glad i got a little bit more together over this summer. i think if i didn’t i’d be tripping right now. but my shoes ain’t untied and shabbat approaches….

This entry was posted on Friday, September 10th, 2004 at 2004.09.10 19:44 and is filed under general. You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0 feed. You can skip to the end and leave a response. Pinging is currently not allowed.

it’s a bit of a trip to know this being pretty young and not knowing what to really do in life or as a career, and being old enough and at a point in life where you already should know and should be on your way.

as far as making dough. i have the skills and experience to get by alright, but it seems like right now i have an opportunity to pursue some dreams and such, dreams i should have pursued earlier, and dreams that if i don’t pursue now i’ll never be able to.

but it’s not that simple. if it was just bout me, i can get by, i don’t need that much money or anything. but my parents are getting older, and soon enough i’ll be the one supporting them and my brother, and helping out the rest of the fam. just as they helped me get all the chances i have right now.

and with these opportunities, they want me to be happy and well off so they want me to try some things that can bring in some crazy cash, and some of them seem pretty neat and i wouldn’t mind doing them. but the thing is, at least it seems from my not yet sure point of view, is that if i don’t try to pursue art right now or try living in israel a little bit now, i don’t think i’d be able to later on. i guess one could say the same thing bout pursuing investing and econ or real estate, but eh. i don’t know.

eh, i don’t know, i be trippng.

This entry was posted on Tuesday, August 31st, 2004 at 2004.08.31 01:06 and is filed under general. You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0 feed. You can skip to the end and leave a response. Pinging is currently not allowed.

pulled allnighter for already late paper. highlight: “our vocabulary’s doubled”! hehe

remedy. gotta love it. no matter how wack i feel, by two in the morning i’m in my own little world. i was doing my thing by the drummers and this lady feels my vibe and steps up and hehe–this is what i love bout house clubs as opposed to skanky hiphop places–i couldn’t keep up. the dancers there are so good! mad motivation to learn.

there’s a sunday morning tap class at the beat and the works is just two blocks away. and there are two house classes in fremont. shivers with excitement.

and…. dunh dunh dunh.. for some very good news….. flying to new york!

This entry was posted on Saturday, July 31st, 2004 at 2004.07.31 15:48 and is filed under general. You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0 feed. You can skip to the end and leave a response. Pinging is currently not allowed.