i came out of wheeler, from ids. it was dark. and there was this girl sitting on the brick siding of the planter with this dog. the girl's not especially pretty, but just the sight of her sitting there with a dog, in the dark night, was nice.
if only i had a camera and the guts to take the picture. but then, i was thinking as i was walking past her, i'm only a photographer. i only capture pictures, moments. i can't create. what if there were a great idea i had for a shot? well, i'd have to set it up or find it. moments that pass are gone forever for me. the two civics that were pulling out of the 2 exits of a K-mart. one old, one newer. nice picture.
but i'm only a photographer. only recreate. capture. reproduce. if i could draw i'd paint scenes that i remember. perhaps i don't even recall them correctly, but have blurred them in my mind, have changed the focus, have altered the mood. but hey, i'd be able to paint them. as a photographer i'm much more limited to reproducing reality.
But reality is what I do. try to capture it as it is. see the beauty in the normal everyday world. right now, without my camera, i see many scenes as beautiful. they're not extraordinary. they're just normal. but they're real. and they are pretty to me. i'd try to pass it on to people that they can see what i'm seeing. i'd try to recreate the picture on their computer in the same way i first saw it with my own eyes. that's why photoshop i don't use. i'd only correct the whitebalance or brighten the picture (cause they're almost always darker than what we see with our eyes. our eyes are just amazing). or blur with the camera. hmm, is that artistic? i dunno. cause sometimes i move the camera to blur images. perhaps i'm just trying to recreate the scene i see in the way i see it.
near barrows, as i was walking home, i was thinking about action. how do i capture action? i need to work on that. action is pretty hard to capture, cause one image is one image. in life we see many images, all at once, all following one another, nothing distinct and individual. well, photographs aren't movies. they can't be. (anyway, much easier to deal with photos than movies. you can't print out movies). so how do you capture action?
for a waterfall you slow the shutter speed. so you can see the water in two places at once. moving. but it's not really.
so i gotta work on that.
so in ids today we watched this video. after this really boring woman spoke on suicide and i fell asleep. the video was on girls growing up, their self-confidence, something like that.
she was trying to make points how advertising and the media creates this self-image of a woman that every girl tries to fulfill. but it's just simply not a true image. nobody looks like that (first off, i disagree with that. some people are beautiful without makeup and airbrushing). then she was telling women to empower themselves. to take a stand. in trying to make her argument she was citing examples from history. how when women were fighting for the right to vote the other site wasn't helping them. how when blacks were trying to free themselves from slavery they could only depend on themselves.
i don't know about the women's suffrage movement (i'm pretty sure men did help) but i definitely know (or definatly as most write it) that there were WHITES involved in helping the blacks gain their freedom. apparently she hasn't heard of the North, you know, where anti-slavery was the popular thing? hmm, and i guess the Underground Railroad must have been all black people. no whites involved. what is she thinking? she is blatantly lying to make a point. just for that i won't believe anything she says. she has lost credibility in my mind (well, i still think some of her points are very good, but i don't like her. and as such, i won't believe her. cause i'm a human and i believe what i want to believe)
ok. so fine. i haven't really written. cause it's hard work having to write first, then transfer to a blog. that's what i was thinking about doing. so i will write now. (i might put up my theory on writing later. but it'd be nice to keep a record. like if someone could record these and email them to me or something)