いいわけ
"Iiwake" (Excuses)

作詞： okui, masami
作曲： okui, masami
編曲： YAMACHI
  歌： okui, masami
 CDs： - okui, masami: crossroad (KICS-964)
英訳： Teresa Ko (http://www.okui-masami.net/)

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あの日この場所で　出遭った瞬間
そっとなつかしい風に包まれていた
 ano hi kono basho de  deatta shunkan
 sotto natsukashii kaze ni tsutsumarete ita
    When we first met
    On that day, at this place,
    We were enveloped
    By a wonderfully soft wind.

あたりまえに笑う二人の距離は
苦しいけど動き出す心　止められない
 atarimae ni warau futari no kyori wa
 kurushii kedo ugokidasu kokoro  tomerarenai
    The two of us laughed freely,
    And though the distance between us made me ache,
    I couldn't stop
    The quickening beat of my heart.

彼女が待っている駅に向かった
後姿はいつしか 人ごみにまぎれて消えてゆく
いつまでも手を振った私の姿さえ振り返らず
 kanojo ga matte iru eki ni mukatta
 ushiro sugata wa itsushika  hitogomi ni magirete kiete yuku
 itsu made mo te wo futta watashi no sugata sae furikaerazu
    Facing the train station, she waited
    But before she knew it,
    His departing figure disappeared into the crowd,
    Without even looking back at me
    As I endlessly waved my hand.

どんな嘘つきになってしまっても
精一杯の笑顔をあなたに捧げたい
 donna usotsuki ni natte shimattemo
 sei'ippai no egao wo anata ni sasagetai
    No matter what kinds of lies
    There may have been between us,
    I want to show you
    My most brilliant smiles.

あなたが大好きな　この歌を聴く
一人で口ずさんだ夕暮れ　見上げた空
 anata ga daisuki na  kono uta wo kiku
 hitori de kuchizusanda yuugure  miageta sora
    Listening to this song
    That was your favorite,
    I would sing quietly to myself in the night
    And look up at the sky

消えそうに輝く星に向かって　願を込めた心は
誰かの悲しみと引き換えに幸せになるのを望んでいる
なんて自分勝手
 kiesou ni kagayaku hoshi ni mukatte negai wo kometa kokoro wa
 dareka no kanashimi to hikikae ni shiawase ni naru no wo nozonde iru
 nante jibun katte
    Facing the stars, which shine as though just about to disappear
    My heart fills with desires,
    Wishing for someone's sorrow and, at the same time, happiness
    How selfish I am...

'Never I can  love you…'
本当は知っている　あなたはいつも大好きな人見つめて
偶然に触れた私の手をそっと振りきった　それがやさしさだと
臆病な私は　まっすぐな瞳で受け止めること出来ずに
何度もいいわけを探してる
ふいに舞い上がった　あの時とおんなじ香りがする風に
包まれて今日も
 'Never I can love you...'
 hontou wa shitte iru  anata wa itsumo daisuki na hito mitsumete
 guuzen ni fureta watashi no te wo sotto furikitta  sore ga yasashisa da to [1]
 okubyou na watashi wa  massugu na me de uketomeru koto dekizu ni
 nando mo iiwake wo sagashite'ru
 fui ni maiagatta  ano toki to onnaji kaori ga suru kaze ni
 tsutsumarete kyou mo
    'I can never love you...'
    I know the truth
    Your gaze is fixed on the person you've always loved,
    So you gently withdrew your hand from mine [1]
    In a sort of kindness
    I, a coward, couldn't respond or look you in the face,
    And endlessly I search for excuses.
    A wind has suddenly whirled up, 
    Carrying the same scent it had on that day,
    Enveloping me, even to this day.

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TRANSLATOR'S NOTES:
[1] I couldn't fit this smoothly into here, but "guuzen ni fureta watashi no te" means that "(you) touched my hand by mistake/by chance"; that is, you were looking for someone else but you were drawn to me by mistake.