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859a: didju hope i'd have an entry on new yr's day? prob'ly not, but i hoped i'd have an entry on new yr's day. i didn't. however, on new yr's day, i werked on modifying the layout (just a teency weency bit) to accomodate the fact that it's now 2003 not 2002. it sure is. well, how r u? how was ur new yr's? ne new yr's resolutions? me, yah, i might have 1 or 2. *shrug* the 1 i can think of right 'way is that i resolve to ingest less. :-o "whuh?" yah. i think i'm eating 2 much. "dude, what kind'f freak r u?" *shrug* i just think i gotta watch what i eat a li'l more. actually, it's not so much what i eat but how much i eat. i just wanna make sure i don't stuff myself silly as often as i have been lately. *shrug* maybe that's the feeling every1 gets 'round this time, huh? cos'f all the holiday feasts... oh well... i just don't believe that real men have curves. i'd rather be a lean, mean, journal.writin' machine! ne other resolutions? hrm... *shrug* maybe, we'll c.
well, how was ur new yr's? [didju] do nething fun? what did we do? well, i was really tired on tues (new yr's eve) cos i woke up early 4 werk. @ lunchtime, i came home. the beautiful kaela kang made us some lunch: fried spam lite, kimchi, n' instant kalgooksoo. oh yah! on my way home, i stopped by to get some eggs n' green onions from safeway since kaela asked me to. man! when i went into safeway, which was somehow decently crowded on a drizzly new yr's eve early afternoon, i realised, "man! i haven't gone grocery shopping in ages!!!" back when i lived in berkeley, whether as a bachelor or when i lived w/ kaela, i did sooo much grocery shopping. there were times, i was really into cooking, u know? besides that, i shopped like a guy: u c, gurls r more likely to stock up on groceries, while men tend to go grocery shopping right b4 they cook n' get just what they need 4 that nite. well, that's only partially true; there r 2 kinds'f guys: 1) the kind that likes to cook n' likes to "go to market" right b4 preparing his masterpiece n' 2) the kind that just stocks up on frozen hot pockets from costco 1nce every 2 months. ha! yah, in a collegetown like berkeley, u get both. i mean, actually, i think i was more into cooking back when i was in college than after; so u can say sumpthin' like it's just collegeboys that do that costco hot pockets thing while yuppie guys wanna act on shmancy pantsy n' cook. nope, that's not it @ all. sorry! well, neway! i was @ safeway, got the green onions n' eggs, n' then i also figured i'd pick up some bud lite. 1) i wondered if i was gonna go to ne kind'f new yr's eve house party; n', if so, maybe i should bring some beer. 2) well, i decently like beer, so i figure it'd be ok to have some in the fridge. 3) i've always sed that a good host always has beer in his fridge. i didn't get carded 4 the beer @ the checkout. sometimes, i get carded, sometimes i don't. i walked thru the drizzly, misty parking lot to my car n' drove home. @ home, we ate lunch n' watched some buffy season 2 dvd episodes. i took a nap in the late afternoon / early eve. then we went over to ken n' grace's n' had dinner w/ them n' bert n' allison @ chili's. it was a fun dinner. then we went back to ken n' grace's n' just talked n' "chilled." it was a very mellow new yr's eve! after midnite, we pretty much just went straight home.
new yr's day: well, kaela woke up really late, 'round 100p. i drove her out to the eastside hills, up mt. hamilton rd, to c the beautiful so bay view. ah, it was sooo beautiful. even tho' the silly valley air was a bit hazy cos'f the moisture in the air (it wasn't smog; white, not brown!), we could still c so much of the bustling santa clara county n' much of southern alameda n' san mateo counties up to the great san francisco bay. what a beautiful day! we saw lots'f nice mansions in the hills, lots'f horses, n' some goats n' cows. kaela mentioned that the way the east san jo neighbourhoods r set up remind her of anaheim. yah, i can imagine. well, after driving back down the hill, i drove us past eastridge mall, to the gym. we werked out 4 a while. i had a really good werkout. then we went home 4 dinner. my mom cooked some bbq spareribs, salad, corn, n' yams. man! what a hearty dinner! i was very full. 'member? i resolved not to stuff myself. *sigh* well, after dinner, we went to the movies. we went to amc saratoga n' watched chicago. wow! i had such a good time! u gotta go watch that movie! it was so much fun. since we had amc moviewatchers cards, we got free popcorn @ the concession stand. heh, we didn't really need more fud, but ok.
recently, i thought 'bout sumpthin': some of my friends r real akademics, went to cal or else some "big name" preppy college n' then went on to grad skool, to a hi paying job, or else to do not much. so there's that group, which is comprised of "akademia," yuppies, n' scholarly artist types... n' then there r those who maybe just went to j.c. (junior college) or some smaller name state university n' then went on to pursue a decently successful career. often, i feel that these 2 types don't mingle much; but i know i encounter both. i think there is a bit of a polar split btwn "akademia" n' the "fast bizness" world. i think maybe the "akademics" sometimes look down upon those that didn't go thru as much or as highly.esteemed of an education. u know what tho'? i think that's pretty unfounded. some ppl didn't go to fancy shmancy preppy colleges, yet u know what? just by going thru life, they pick up plenty of wisdom. u really gotta give ppl credit 4 that.
*sigh* i really wonder 'bout my life, how life'll change this coming yr. as u know, i'm getting married this summer. i'm not unsure @ all 'bout wanting to get married. i very much wanna marry kaela! :-) what i'm wondering more 'bout is my career stuff. i'm wondering when i'll be able to start taking on a part time career job. after next semester, as long as nuthin' goes wrong, i'll have 18 units. i only need 30 units to get my master's degree. [oh shoot! i just noticed that they skeduled me in to werk on sat 1000a - 200p. i guess no tahoe trip on sat! i'd better remember that i gotta werk this sat morn.] this'll be a bizzy summer w/ the wedding n' all. i obviously can't take summer skool. neway, they don't offer many mechanical engring grad classes over the summer. then in the fall... hrm.. i guess i'll hafta take 'nother 3 class courseload, huh? n' then the following yr's spring term, i can finally just take my thesis/projekt class n' werk. hopefully, i'll find a job by then. hrm... b4 i thought 'bout it, i thought i'd be able to just take my projekt/thesis class n' be done w/ my other classes by next fall. heh, i guess that'd be 2 few classes, huh? so next fall, i'll be a full.time grad student still.
so... this sat we can't be in tahoe cos i gotta be in milpitas to werk. well, that's fine. maybe i was meant to take a break from tahoe. man, last weekend was a disaster. well, i sort'f wanted to go this weekend, n' as the weekend approached, i more n' more wanted to go. 1) ol' berkeley folks wanted to make a trip... 'least they sed they wanted to go, but then i didn't hear much after that. also, mark from taekwondo (who is actually also a berkeley, just not of the same clique) told me he n' his friends have a cabin reserved 4 this weekend. *sigh* since i hadn't heard nething from the berkeley p.crew folks, i started thinking this morn, that maybe we could just go w/ mark. however, now that i c i gotta werk on sat, maybe not. :-/ could we still go up just on sun? yah, maybe... however, i'm just a li'l bit starting to get just a li'l bit weary of driving up n' down 4 daytrips. i wanna make some weekend trips, 1s that don't involve driving back n' 4th from san jo to pick up replacement contacts. :-( *sigh* u know i really like snowboarding. the weather'll prob'ly be pretty good up there this weekend. however, i know that there'll be way 2 many li'l skoolkids n' their parents up there. that's some big dissuasion, lemme tell u. well, some of our friends'll be out of town this weekend; but maybe, kaela n' i stay in the bay area, that'll give us a chance to catch up w/ our other friends. oh yah, next week, linda's coming to visit kaela n' support her w/ buying her wedding dress... well, not financially! ha! X-D no no no, just moral support!
yah, wedding planning. i'm planning to "ramp" that up a bit in the upcoming months. actually, i would've thought more of our friends would want to get involved w/ helping us plan the wedding... cos i think all of ur friends'll get married eventually! so gettin' a li'l involved w/ our wedding planing'd let them get a glimpse of how planning a wedding is much more difficult than planning uc open or wutc! ha. seriously!
well, the things i have on my to do list 4 the wedding right now r:
1 thing that i told kaela that really frustrates me 'bout wedding planning is this: when u go talk to those wedding vendors (sleazy scoundrels! each n' every 1 of them! [besides when i'm a wedding dj... n' our wedding fotographers cm to be nice ppl...]), they always tell me some b.s. like "oh! i'm sooo glad to see a groom that wants to help in the wedding planning! that's so rare! you're a swell guy..." etc. ugh! that is so sugary, sweet fake talk!!! u know, i c right thru it! 4 the most part, they don't want me there! the c it like this: the groom is always gonna be the "treasurer," the "accountant." the bride, they can get her all riled up n' excite her w/ lots'f sparkle sparkle n' then she'll be more willing to $pend, $spend, $spend. the groom, no matter how rich he is, he's not gonna be so riled up or easily moved by their sparkle sparkle. sure, he's gonna be more likely to think (even if he doesn't say it aloud), "yah, this is really nice... but *sigh* if possible, i'd rather not so much 4 this... etc." the groom's gonna be more likely to say that the expen$es r getting out of hand, etc. lemme tell u, in reality, the wedding vendors (those slimey ba$tards) don't want the groom there! if they can convince the bride alone to $spend $$$ on sumpthin', then she can go home n' convince the groom. but if the groom is there in person, he's just an obstacle btwn the wedding vendor n' "cha.ching! i'm rich!!!" ever since i contacted the wedding caterer, she cms to be avoiding me. i think it's cos i'm the groom n' she's thinking that i'm gonna be such a hassle to werk w/ cos all i'll do is wanna bargain w/ her this n' that. i'm thinking this might be the case n' this might be cos we 1st off told her what kind'f fud we want n' since it's korean n' taiwanese it's not fud they can cook so we'll be buying it elsewhere but just having them serve it. i'm thinking she's thinking that maybe they think this'll decrease their profits. argh! don't worry! u'll find a way to rip us off in the end. don't worry!
so it's 1047a now. over 1.5 hrs till lunch. b4 coming
in to werk, after parking my car, i was tempted to go to j.box to pick
up a breakfast jack n' oj 
; but nope, i resisted n' just went
in to the office. i ate a yogurt covered granola bar thingy n' a
li'l snack size payday bar so far. i got into the office a
li'l early 2day, but not that much. b4 werk, i went to the
gym n' had a very quick werkout. i'm guessing we'll go to the gym
2nite to do spin class n' ab lab. 2day is thurs. can u
believe that?
922a: this morn, i didn't wake up as early as i have been waking up
these days. i didn't go to the gym b4 werk, but i did
still get to werk early. i didn't leave the house till almost
830a. when i got to the office, 'twas 851a. i ran over to
j.box to get a breakfast jack combo w/ oj
instead of coffee. it was quite a good deal, i
think. i think it was cheaper than mcyukyuk's 
. 1 thing
i really like 'bout this j.box is that they have hot sauce on the
counter. mmm... i think maybe they get lots'f mexican n' asian
customers who like spicy fud. well,
geez! the should always have hot sauce on the counter. it
was good hot sauce. :-)
so i'm sittin' here @ the receptionist desk w/ a copy of the milpitas post's "2002 guidebook and community resource directory" with its "best of milpitas: readers' choices of the city's top food and services." dude, u know it's best not to let the readers choice "the city's top" when they vote taco bell as the city's best tacos!!! i mean, geez! 1) we live in cali4nia where we have sooo many choices 4 mexican fud! n' 2) we live in the bay area where we have sooo many choices 4 mexican fud! milpitas has a decent mexican population. how the heck could the readers have voted taco bell as the top place 4 tacos?! well, i'm not totally dissin' taco bell... yes, their fud is often tasty. i like their gorditas now n' then; n' their chicken soft tacos r a very healthy choice as far as fast fud goes. ok, who were the 4 runner ups or honourable mentions? una mas, los reyes taqueria, la fuente, n' baja cactus. i know una mas; it's a franchise or 'least a chain... eh! i'm pretty sure it's a franchise. i've enjoyed many burritos @ the now extinct una mas in berkeley, which used to be on euclid ave. in northside, where there's now a sorabol, unless that disappeared. una mas is decently good. well, having amerikan mexican fud is still diff from going to a truly authentic mexican place. sometimes it's nice to go to 1 of those.
well, these readers voted starbucks as their best coffee. *sigh* yah, that's kind'f bound to happen. even tho', since i lived in berkeley so long, i like to c ppl patronise nonstarbucks, indie (or indy) cafés, i know ppl in the burbs don't realise they have alternatives to starbucks. maybe some ppl call starbucks "the buck." wouldn't that be an interesting piece of folkspeech. after all, the starbucks corporation is really raking in the dough, u know? neway... i gotta admit, even tho' i like the idea of indy coffeehouses; yah, starbucks provides reliable coffee; u know what to expekt. yah, that's the whole advantage of franchises. when u go to mcyukyuk, u know what tastes n' flavours to expekt when u finally read fast food nation, u'll learn that this is cos'f all the research the companies have put into flavourings; not necessarily "artificial flavourings", just "flavourings." u'll learn that all these franchises use plenty of flavouring. sooo much research goes into creating flavourings; it's a whole teknology. n' man! u should hear what the diff btwn "artificial" n' "natural" flavourigs is. sometimes, it's better to have artificial flavourings instead of natural flavourings, u know that? really!
neway, sometimes it's best not to let the readers pick the top fud n' services, i gotta say. even in the sf weekly (or was it the sf bay area guardian?), the readers picked nordstrom's as the best place to buy men's clothes, shoes, n' other stuff. well... then 'gain, even tho' nordstrom's ain't some li'l locals' best kept secret, i guess they do have quality merchandise n' supposedly good customer service. *shrug* 'least the bay area guardian, sf weekly, n' the daily cal'll have good categories like best sex toy shop, best s&m parlour, best porno shop... heh, it's not that u gotta say i'm a pervert; it's just that it's nice to know that ur town's open 'bout these kinds'f things. i don't think the milpitas post 2002 guidebook and community resource directory has those kinds'f things. however, 1 thing i do applaud them 4 having is these 2 distinct categories: 1) best ethnic music store (as opposed to the other category "best 'american' music store," n' 2) best ethnic food store. good job!
well, what did i do yesterday? 2day is fri! :-) yesterday was thurs. well, after werk, i picked up the beautiful kaela kang n' went to the mall 4 lunch. i had a healthmex chicken burrito from rubio's n' some fruit punch. kaela got some chicken noodle soup n' 0.5 a chicken breast sandwich from boudin. we browsed 'round the mall a li'l. after i dropped kaela off @ werk, i headed home. i stopped by best buy to get a cat-5 ethernet cable cos i recently bought a hub from fry's to get my 'puter netwerked to kaela's. when i got to best buy, i noticed the parking lot was pretty crowded. i thought, "wow, there must be some good sale going on." nah, there wasn't. i guess ppl just like going to best buy, n' they also had gifts to return/exchange. after i got the cable, i went home. originally, i thought i was gonna take a nap in the late afternoon, but i didn't. i stayed awake. fedex came n' delivered my 3 tires, which i gotta get mounted 2day or else 2morrow morn b4 werk. @ 'bout 530p or so, i headed off to the gym. 'member? i sed i'd prob'ly go to spin class n' ab lab w/ kaela. well, i did. the gym was decently crowded, most likely cos ppl made new yr's fitness resolutions. after the gym, we came home. my mom cooked neuromien. we ate that. i wanted to go to bed earlier, but i didn't go to bed that early.
well, this weekend: i guess i'm gonna werk on sat, n' then we'll go meet up w/ mark @ the tahoe cabin he n' his friends rented. *shrug* we'll board sun, i guess. i hope this is ok. it sounds like fun. this morn, i found grace's mitten (mark's grace) in the backseat of my car (from the daytrip we made w/ them). 'least i can return that to her on sat. i dunno what we'll do 2nite. it'd be fun to meet up w/ some friends, maybe go c a movie or sumpthin'. *shrug*
new yr's resolutions: well, i sed that 1 of my new yr's resolutions this yr is to eat less not necessarily eat better just eat less. well, i don't mean to say i support the idea of just eating whatever unhealthy junk but just not eating much of it. u know, i still don't support the protein diet theory. what i meant in saying that i resolve to eat less not necessarily healthier is that i figure i already try to eat healthier, but right now i think my best way of reducing caloric intake is just to eat a li'l less. seriously! i don't support anorexia! i'm just saying that there r times when i stuff myself silly, but i shouldn't. *shrug* that's all. well... hrm... lemme think: i had 'nother new yr's resolution. what was it? :-/ *sigh* oh yah! i know u all think this sounds all fruity n' all (which means u all can go skrew urselves 4 all i care! ha ha j/k), but i resolve to take better care of my skin. :-o geez, that does sound so much fruitier when i type it out. *roll eyes* neway, don'tchu think we should stop saying "fruity"? there is absolutely no reason to use terms which demean homosexuals! >:-( listen! i drive a subaru forester, a middle age lesbian's car. :-)
[later] 1024a: ooh! i saw a good produkt in the microcenter circular
(a circular is 1 of those weekly sales adverts that a store sends out):
the compacttrio 3.in.1. adapter. it converts sd, mmc, n' memory
stick to compact flash type ii. kewl! it sells 4 $49.99 @
microcenter.
1012a: 2day is sat. this morn, i woke up sort'f early to go out n' get my 3 tires mounted. i got them mounted @ the local chevron station. i went there yesterday, as i sed yesterday, but i was there 2 late in their werkday. well, yesterday eve, after the going to the gym 4 pilates class, the beautiful kaela kang n' i came home, ate some chips n' salsa, n' cooked some fud 4 dinner. after dinner, we watched xxx on my 'puter. earlier this week, i dled it w/ kazaa. i thought i dled the dvd version, but no, it was 1 of those cheesy camera.in.theatre versions. *roll eyes* neway, xxx was not a very good movie! :-( i kind'f sensed it wouldn't be. it just had a bunch'f stunts n' the rest of the movie was just weak excuses to get from 1 stunt to the next. funny, the basis 4 the movie is just like gen x cops, but 'least gen x cops is funny.
well, this morn, yah... as i sed, i got my tires mounted. i helped myself to a 0.5 cup of their comlimentary coffee since i figured i was paying them so much 4 their services. heh. u know, i rarely drink normal coffee, as opposed to espresso. well, w/ 'nuff powdered creamer, it wasn't 2 bad. i walked 'round the strip mall, passed ken's san jo store, n' then read a copy of the wave mag. heh, this is the kind'f community magazine/newspaper i like; better than the almaden times or the milpitas post. well, i got to werk a li'l early 2day, despite the auto service n' all. i went over to albertson's to pick up 2 bagels n' oj. sumpthin' was disconted via that albertson's savings card. i don't have 1, but the ca$hier used hers. i got a blueberry bagel n' a sesame 1. i werk till 'least 200p 2day, so i figure i'd better have some fud 'round since i can't have lunch till late.
pigeons: do u like pigeons? lately, kaela really doesn't like pigeons. me, i'm still ok w/ them. 'member: i really like burdies. i sometimes think ppl'd like pigeons better if they think of them as doves cos that's what they really r. i believe a pigeon is also called a "rock dove." well, how 'bout calling it a "jipbidoolgi," a "house dove." i s'ppose cos'f their fast rate of reproduktion, u can aktually classify them as vermin or pestilence or whatever. :-( yah, pigeons r horny. they reproduce like crazy, n' they don't mate 4 life!!! 'member: burdies such as ducks n' geese n' beno mate 4 life! pigeons r down 4 the 1 nite stand. yah, they get 'round. ever tried to talk to a pigeon 'bout this? they always go, "u'S juSht'A pLaYa hAtah! u'S juSht'A pLaYa hAtah! i dOn't nEedjU hAtin' oN mE! whY U B hAtin' oN mE?!" pigeons r promiscuous. i told kaela, if only we could get them to use birth control, we wouldn't have such a prob. :-( pigeons r doves, as i keep saying. if more of them were white or brown n' white, maybe we'd realise that; but most'f them r "traditional" black n' grey w/ a li'l bit of white n' irridescent purple 'round the neck, right? [i just found out i'm actually werking 1000a - 500p 2day!] now what if we tried to breed or genetically engr pigeons to get more white n' brown n' white pigeons? i think some ppl'd like that better. however, other ppl'd say it's genocide. weird to think 'bout, eh? neway, i don't think ne1'd fund such projekts as breeding pigeons to be more varying in colour, dying pigeons' feathers to make 'em of more varying colour, or making pigeons use birth control. oh well.
so yah, i'm werking 1000a - 500p 2day! crazy! c, i wanted to have a mellow nite last nite n' sleep early cos i knew i'd have a long day 2day: changing my tires, werking, n' driving to tahoe to meet up w/ mark, grace, n' their friends. ok, this is an eventful time, isn't it? linda (kaela's friend) is coming to visit us next week. it's 1 thing after 'nother.
[later] 1220p: hrm, is it lunchtime? since i ate bagels, maybe i'm not ready 4 lunch; but i should eat lunch eventually. days when i don't eat lunch r bad. [later] 134p: i haven't written that much so far 2day. could it possibly be that i'm just finally all talked out 4 the time being?!?!?! lately, i've been writing quite a bit here. *shrug* i'm just a li'l tired 2day, i guess. *shrug*
actually, i had 1 thought recently that i guess i'll mention right now: u know, (actually, 4 a while i've thought 'bout this), ... [interrupted]
[later] 336p: i checked my grades: 1 class reported in. i got an
'a' in that class. i'm not sure which class that is. i don't
know yet 'bout the other 2 classes. i'm really disappointed right
now cos @ 1st, i looked @ the screen n' thought i got straight 'a's.
well... i s'ppose it's still possible, but i wish it were just plain true.
:-(
947a: i'm @ the gym by myself on a tues morn. 955a: right now, i'm stretching.
on sat, we drove up to tahoe, yes. we stopped @ the vacaville in.n.out 4 burgers (dinner), no fries. in placervile (ol' hangtown), we stopped to get the beautiful kaela kang a toothbrush from rite.aid n' a vanilla latté from starbucks. then we drove up to south lake tahoe to the cabin mark n' grace rented w/ mark's ol' homestead hi skool friends. we ate some n' played poker n' blackjack. i didn't meet every1 cos they were 14 very tired ppl, but i particularly 'member van (who knew my friend elbert thru tennis), lori (who will hopefully someday get me a nice job @ lockheed), n' james (who deals poker pretty well).
on sun morn, we packed our stuff back up to go to sierra@tahoe n' go home. on our way out, we met ruby, the across.the.street neighbours' doggy. she was very friendly n' obedient. we took some pics of her that i'd like to show u someday. we took them w/ a disposable camera i had in my car. yah... i sort'f feel guilty taking pics w/ some1 else's doggy w/o their knowledge or permission... but the doggy cmed pretty consenting! she looked @ the cam 4 all the pics, u know! well, boarding @ sierra was great! we got nice parking; so nice, that @ the end of the day, i didn't believe we were in lot "b," thinking we must be in a further lot; but no, we actually were in lot "b." we had such a full day of snowboarding 'cept 4 'bout 0.5 hr spent waiting on the lift when the backside el dorado lift broke down. :-( we spent most of the day on the boardercross trail. it was fun. boardercross trails don't have big jumps or ramps, just li'l rollers. i sort'f gave myself a sore back from taking those li'l roller jumps. sometimes the landings were 2 flat, so that compresses my back a li'l 2 much if i don't compensate correctly. neway, it was fun. after the backside el dorado lift shut down, we headed off to westbowl 4 some pure downhill riding. well, it was a very full day! we did stop 4 lunch thai veggie potstickers n' garlic fries. on our way home, we stopped in vacaville 4 quizno's. :-)
on mon, i woke up early to drop my car 
off 4 service. then i walked from stevens creek subaru
to the bally's gym on the corner of meridian n' hamilton.
well... i knew it'd be a decent walk, but it was a li'l longer than
i expekted. lemme look on y! maps 2 c exactly how long it is.
ok, it's 'bout 3 miles... but i took a diff route from what y! maps gave.
it took me hrm... a li'l less than an hr. so i walked 3 miles
to go to the gym just to get on a treadmill n' walk 'nother 3 miles.
ha ha. X-D i had a weird werkout: i did the rowing machine,
then treadmill, then stretching, n' just a li'l lifting. my left
tricep is sore from snowboarding somehow, so i didn't do ne bench press
type exercises. well, kaela n' jerome met me @ the gym 'round
noon. jerome came down from the east bay. well, we all went
to ken's milpitas store 4 lunch. ken ordered a x.large king arthur's
supreme pizza from round table. it was good. kaela wanted
sumpthin' soupy instead, so she got some tempura udon from the japanese
restaurant next door. i got some minute made valencia orange soda from the liquor store next door.
it takes like the old minute maid orange soda,
i think! well, after lunch, kaela went back to werk, n'
jerome drove me up to the east bay, where we picked up laura from csu
hayward, dropped her off @ home, then went to jerome's old apt, which is
now just andy's 'partment. we just hung out. jerome packed up
some odds n' ends. i asked him 'bout the song from the commercial 4
the disney video game kingdom hearts. he told me it was utada
hikaru's "simple and clean," an english version of a japanese song she has.
he showed me the video to the japanese version, where she just
washes dishes n' lipsynchs to the song. the video is shot from
1 angle, as if we're just watching a webcam or sumpthin'.
:-o geez... that's a low budget video! *shrug* then he
showed me the video game. geez! kids have the funnest video games
these days! :-( it's like a rpg game but w/ lots'f nice anime graphics n'
some disney characters. weird. the graphics look so kewl.
well, we picked up laura n' alice, n' alice drove us down to san jo.
we met up w/ a big group 4 dinner: 'twas ken, grace, billy, linda
(whom kaela picked up from the airport), cynthia, alice, laura, jerome,
kaela, n' me. we ate @ geumbonghwan (golden phoenix) on winchester
blvd near hamilton. they give u lots'f fud. since it was the
dinner after some of the bridesmaids went to look @ bridesmaid dresses n'
the last time i'd get to c jerome 4 a while, i picked up the bill 4 dinner.
also, ken n' grace tend to pick up the bill so often, so u know...
well, after dinner, the east bay ppl went back up, but linda, kaela, n' i
went over to ken n' grace's to meet their li'l miniature pomeranian mimi.
she's sooo small!!! 'bout the size of a li'l bunny!!!
it's crazy! she's very hyper n' fun! we like her!
grace has a ps2. she doesn't cm to have kingdom hearts, but
she has crazy taxi. man, ken n' grace's place is such a fun
place now! X-D
we didn't stay up late last nite, no. this morn, i woke up 'round 700a or so. @ 'round 830a, i went to the gym. i did some typical cardio things. then, i took a step aerobics step n' did some side to side jumps over it. u c, @ berkeley taekwondo, we used to have 1 person duck n' cover his/her head n' then the other person'd jump side to side over the person on the ground. i did the same thing but w/ the step aerobics step. man, i got tired much faster than i expekted. *sigh* berkeley taekwondo was such a good werkout!!! dang, it's 1214p now! i'm @ home. we gotta get some lunch! y! news's kpix local news sed that "an east bay rock star" was arrest 4 dui. when i read the headline, b4 i clicked on the link, i knew it'd be billie joe of green day.
so it's gonna snow @ the end of this werkweek, meaning 'round thurs/fri.
shoot! maybe we'd better go to tahoe this weekend! like, i
was sort'f thinking of taking a break, but i know that i'll
hafta take a li'l break later this month. there'r some hotel
rooms in reno that sleep 4 ppl that r going 4 'bout $50/nite. ne1
wanna split a hotel room in reno this weekend?! this'd be
sooo dang kewl!
1250p:
so... linda's been staying here. uh, where did i leave off updating? mon nite, eh? well, 2day is what? wed? yes, 2day is wed. how was tues? tues, i went to the gym in the morn, came home, n' then the beautiful kaela kang drove me n' linda out to valley fair, where we had lunch @ cpk (cali4nia pizza kitchen). we had 0.5 a provencal salad, some shrimp n' scallop marinara pasta, n' a thai chicken pizza. then we looked 'round the mall a li'l. then kaela dropped me off @ the subaru dealer to get my car. kaela n' linda went to a bridal store. me? what did i do?
[later] 923p: ok, i was interrupted. uh... now it's eve... or nitetime, i s'ppose. well, what did i do yesterday? after picking up my car, i went to the atm to depo$it a check, n' then i went back to the mall (valley fair). i was looking 4 that jack black facial lotion, but i didn't find it. 'member i discussed how i got free samples of it @ the nordstrom down in socal, n' it's werked ok, n' u know i have that new yr's resolution 'bout taking better care of my skin etc. well, i also wanted to use my structure fastca$h: $25 off a $50 purchase. i tried on some jeans, but i didn't like either of them. then i just sat on a bench by the fud ct n' talked to roland on the fon. it'd been a while since i had talked to him, so we had to catch up. while still on the fon, i left the mall, filled up gas, went to the bascom longs drugs to drop off a finished disposable camera, n' drove home. i got off the fon w/ roland cos supermike called. supermike wanted me to order him some martial arts equipment w/ my wholesale discount. later, 'round 730p, ken picked me up to go to grace's (ken's grace) b.day party @ the pruneyard buca di beppo. (the pruneyard is on bascom ave. so i was back to the area i was earlier. kaela n' linda were already @ the pruneyard, conveniently, cos they were looking @ bridal dresses @ trudy's. we had a really fun dinner @ buca 4 grace's b.day. :-) kaela n' i gave grace a set of lotion type stuff. we had tons of fud: calamari, clam linguine, spaghetti n' meatballs, chicken parmigiana, spicy sausage n' shroom pizza... mmm... it was all so good! 1 of the spicy sausage n' shroom pizzas was cheeseless. that was pretty good 2. we had some pitchers of hefeweizen. it was good n' fun. who was there? grace, ken, tim chen, chas, nelson, mike, mike's gf vivian, kerry, kerry's gf tami, bert, allison, linda, kaela, n' me. after dinner, most ppl left. kaela drove linda home, but i rode w/ tim back to ken n' grace's house. oh yah, earlier on the way to the party, ken picked me up, but we ended up riding w/ bert, after ken dropped off some stuff @ his house. tim, ken, n' i went to hollywood video to rent barbershop on dvd. we went back to the house. i got to play crazy taxi a li'l on the ps2. then we watched the movie. allison brought over jessie her bichon frise. man, a bichon is a pretty small doggy, yet it's like 4 times as big as mimi the miniature pomeranian! barbershop was pretty funny n' entertaining. nelson drove me home.
this morn, kaela went to werk. me, i drove linda to the 24 hr
fitness sport on hillsdale n' (i think) leigh. then i went to the
hamilton n' meridian bally's. we both werked out, n' then i picked
linda up n' brought her back home. then kaela came home. that
was when i started this entry, 'member? then i drove us out to lunch
@ myuhngdong soondubujip. we had a great lunch! :-) i had gobchang
soondubu. :-) mmm... that's spicy tofu stew w/ intestines.
then i drove us over to our wedding site. we looked 'round n' talked
to 1 wedding coordinator person. then i drove us home. this
eve, while linda took a nap, kaela n' i went to pilates class @ the capitol
bally's. i can't believe i've been going to so many pilates classes.
it's pretty weird, huh? well, lemme tell u: my main
motivation 4 going to pilates classes is to exercise muscle control.
1 objektive of mine, as a martial artist, is to strive 4 complete muscle
control, to be able to make my body do whatever i want it to, however i
want it to. u know what i mean?
1050a: how r u? it's thurs 2day. i woke up @ 500a to drive linda to the airport. a few drops of rain fell on my windshield on the way back. after dropping off linda, i just drove home. last nite, i thought i'd drop off linda n' then go to the gym early, early in the morn. when linda actually woke me up this morn, i just figured i was waaay 2 groggy to werkout. *shrug* *sigh* maybe i should've gone to the gym, but *sigh* nuts. during this winter break time, i've had several days where i went to the gym 2ice in a day, huh? i figure, 2nite, i'll go to the gym w/ the beautiful kaela kang 4 spin class n' ab lab. *shrug* i should go to taekwondo practice, but after a long break, i'd prefer not to go back 1st on a sparring nite. i'd rather resume next tues w/ nonsparring stuff. *shrug* i'm so split 'bout going to tahoe this weekend or not. i really wish we had 2 more ppl to go w/ us in order to split the co$t of a hotel room. :-(
check out the crap i gotta deal w/ when posting on the dumb snowbomb msg boards. *roll eyes*
dang! last sun, we tried to go to sierra, but they had a power outage. u know, i bought the double whammy pass. i used it 1nce @ northstar. then, i tried to use it 'gain @ northstar, but the parking lot was full. then i tried to use it @ sierra, but the power was out.
re: sierra power outage
by: rip-it
1/2/2003 8:59:17 PM
Too many asians there as it is.
re: sierra power outage
by: beno
1/5/2003 9:47:22 PM
n' not enough uneducated bigots. *roll eyes* anyway, let's get back to talking 'bout boarding... isn't this what this site's supposed to be about?
lame@$$ anonymous flamers! u know, we spend so much time in tahoe, that sometimes i feel like a local, u know? i think, cos we don't act like out.of.towners, sometimes ppl think we're locals. like that day when we were bummin' 'round truckee n' went to panda express n' saw those doggies in the back of a truck n' started petting them: the owner asked if we were from 'round here. i think he actually sort'f thought we might be... even tho' we're asian. heh, maybe we own panda express or sumpthin'. ha ha. 'nother time in placerville, cos kaela had her season pass on, the ca$hier asked if she was instructor @ sierra. yah, i think we just don't act like out.of.towners. like, maybe we look like bay area ppl cos we're asian, but like... we go to biznesses that locals go to, n' we rn't like lost, u know? however, i know when we leave the bay area, we're more likely to run into folks that just don't like to c nonwhite folk. *roll eyes* i really want to think that as long as i'm in cali4nia, i won't hafta encounter so many ppl like that. un4tunately, that's not true. however, man! if i lived in the deep south or sumpthin'... man, i guess it'd be 'lot worse. this summer, when we went to d.c., that really renewed my faith in 'merikans outside of cali. *sigh* i dunno...
check out this recipe i found in the feb 2003 issue of fud & wine; it osunds pretty darn tasty:
chicken with
riesling
active: 30 min; total 1 hr 10 min
4 servings
5 tablespoons unsalted butter
one 3.5 lb chicken, 1uartered
salt n' freshly ground pepper
1 large shallot, minced
2 tablespoons cognac
1 cup dry riesling
6 ounces white mushrooms, sliced 0.25 inch thick
1/3 cup heavy cream
1. melt 2 tablespoons of the butter in a large skillet.
add the chicken, season with salt and pepper and cook over moderate heat
until slightly browned, about 4 minutes per side. add the shallot
and cook, stirring, for 1 minute. add the cognac and carefully
ignite it with a long match. when the lames subside, add the
riesling, cover and simmer over low heat until the chicken breasts are just
cooked, about 25 minutes. transfer the breasts to a large plate and
cover with foil. cover and simmer the legs until cooked through,
about 10 minutes longer. transfer to the plate.
2. meanwhile, in a medium skillet, melt 2 tablespoons of the butter.
add the mushrooms, season with salt and pperp and cook over low heat
until the liquid evaporates, about 7 minutes. increase the heat to
moderate and cook, stirring, until browned, about 3 minutes.
3. in a bowl, blend the flour and the remaining 1 tablespoon of
butter. stir the cream into the large skillet; bring to a simmer.
gradually whisk the flour paste into the cooking liquid and simmer,
whisking, until no floury taste remains, 3 minutes. season with salt
and pepper. return the chicken to the skillet, add the mushrooms and
briefly reheat.
serve with noodles, spaetzle, rice or boiled potatoes.
wine a complex riesling with some body will blend with the cream and
echo the wine here. try the 2000 lucien albrecht from alsace or the
2001 framingham marlborough classic from new zealand.
crazy recipe, huh? sounds really good :-) n' not very lo fat. :-( next time u cook this dish, lemme have some, k? :-) thanks.
since i'm wasting space right now w/ recipes n' other nonsense, lemme please post some song lyrics that i recently thought 'bout:
"suburbia" by the pet shop boys from their album please
lost in the high street, where the dogs run let's take a ride, and run with the dogs tonight break the window by the town hall let's take a ride, and run with the dogs tonight i only wanted something else to do but hang around it's on the front page of the papers let's take a ride, and run with the dogs tonight take a ride, and run with the dogs tonight run with the dogs tonight
roaming suburban boys
mother's got a hairdo to be done
she says they're too old for toys
stood by the bus stop with a felt pen
in this suburban hell
and in the distance a police car
to break the suburban spell
in suburbia
you can't hide, run with the dogs tonight
in suburbia
listen, the siren screams
there in the distance, like a roll call
of all the suburban dreams
in suburbia
you can't hide, run with the dogs tonight
in suburbia
i only wanted something else to do but hang around
i only wanted something else to do but hang around
i only wanted something else to do but hang around
this is their hour of need
where's a policeman when you need one
to blame the colour tv?
in suburbia
you can't hide, run with the dogs tonight
in suburbia
in suburbia
in suburbia
in suburbia
you can't hide, run with the dogs tonight
in suburbia
in suburbia
you can't hide
in suburbia
in suburbia
in suburbia
in suburbia
in suburbia
is the suburb an amerikan invention??? i know in england there r suburbs. ppl 2 often, when they think of england or newhere else in europe, think of only the big city, metropolitan life. nope! there r suburbs in europe. believe me. i've stayed in them b4, back when i was in england 4 my san josé youth symphony orchestra trip.
i'm so happy that joon's back online!!! :-) as he sed on his journal recently; yah, we got to chat online yesterday. joon signed my gbook a while 'go. c, joon's a good person.
[later] 110p: 4 lunch, kaela cooked these things... uh, i dunno whatchu call them. we bought them from 99 ranch a while 'go... last week? they're like the tsungyobing green onion pancakes, but they're much thinner. u fry they coated in egg. we ate these in taipei in that li'l breakfast joint down the street. :-) mmmm... yummy.
so... yesterday, i started thinking more that i'm only gonna take 3 classes next semester. the reason r that 1) i wanna get good grades, of course (straight "a"s) n' 2) i'm worried there'll be more stress in my life as the wedding approaches. *shrug*
[a li'l later] 133p (my 'puter clock is slightly ahead, i think.): so i finally changed my gbook questions. please sign my new gbook!!! :-) well, it's not a new gbook but a new version of my gbook w/ new questions. this time, i won't answer the questions 1st. i wanna give u a chance answer the questions 1st, n' then i'll answer them soon 'nuff.
dude, i can't believe i haven't left the house yet 2day 'cept 4 when i
dropped linda off @ the aeroport.
1036p: hi. how r u? it's fri nite. the beautiful kaela kang r
home right now. yup, totally home on a fri nite. oh well.
i guess we're a bit worn out. notice we're not in tahoe right
now? nope, we sure rn't. well, yesterday was thurs. i
updatedchu a li'l earlier in the day, like 'round noon, right? well,
the day got worse n' worse. i really didn't leave home all day, not
until eve. that's when kaela n' i went to the gym. we were
s'pposed to go to spin class n' ab lab. we missed spin class.
we had our own werkouts n' then went to ab lab. after the gym, we
went to amc mercado 20 n' watched lord of the rings: two towers
b4 the movie started i went to the snack bar n' got a combo #3 w/
the 50 cents off ne combo coupon i got from the amc moviewatchers card.
combo #3 is a hotdog n' a large soda (4 me, sprite 
. man, movie
theatre fud ain't cheap, nope. well, kaela n' i shared the hotdog.
man, i was definitely still hungry. i went back to get my
free small popcorn, also from a moviewatchers card coupon. the movie
was very long, of course: it was like 'least 2 movies in 1. it was a
pretty good epic... u know, like a star wars film. why do
wars make such good movies? however, fantasy world or sci.fi wars r
maybe better than real wars... well, maybe old, old wars... 20th century
wars don't make as good of movies, i think. of course, i've
always thought pre.ww2 asia makes a good setting. neway, yah,
lotr: tt was a good movie. what was w/ that creature thingy?
did it come from harry potter? ha ha, j/k. hrm,
some scenes did remind me of attack of the clowns.
:-/ however, of course, the settings were totally diff.
neway, we came home pretty late cos 'twas a long movie. kaela had a
bad headache, so we were up later than that.
so 2day was fri. 'gain, we stayed home during the day much later
than i wanted to. we ate some radish/turnip flour cakes 4 lunch
(chaitaogwei). then we went out to vallco. i wanted to go to
sears to try to exchange a pair of land's end slippers that grace n' steve
gave me that r a li'l 2 big. well, i went to structure to use me
fa$t ca$h ($25 off a $50 purchase). a while 'go, i tried to use it @
the valley fair structure, but i didn't find nething i liked. i
don't think structure jeans fit me 2 well. hrm, i used to
have a pair of structure jeans that i wore sooo much. hrm,
*shrug* i dunno why i can't find structure jeans that fit me well now.
my favourite pair of jeans right now r a pair of kenneth cole jeans
(good ol' kenny). i bought some nice dress shirts, n' some other
stuff just to make $50. fa$t ca$h can be a good deal. 2day @
structure so much stuff was 60% off the already marked down price.
crazy! neway, sears didn't have the slippers i needed to exchange.
after vallco, we went to the bascom ave. longs drugs. i
picked up my pics n' some other stuff. then we uh... where did we
go? hrm... oh yah! we went to trader joe's on the way home. i
bought some groceries there. then we went home, got our gym stuff,
n' went to the gym. i had a pretty decent werkout. on the
way home, i drove us to the monterey rd tapioca express, where we got a
couple'f boba drinks 
when we got home, we cooked some spam lite
fried rice. mmmm! :-) we ate it w/ some canned smoked oysters.
later, we had some of the choco soy aisukuriimu
i bought from trader joe's. oh! do some ppl call trader joe's "tj"?
yah, i bet they do.
well, r we gonna go snowboarding @ all this weekend? *shrug* maybe, maybe not. i dunno. we could always drive up 2morrow n' get a hotel room 4 the nite n' board on sun. <:-/ *shrug* i dunno; maybe we shall.
oh, i think 2day was peter park's (bronx) b.day. happy b.day, peter. he's had a lott'f stress to deal w/ lately w/ bronx's junkyard lately cos some stoopid kids r giving him a hard time. *roll eyes* i hope he can just hang in there cos so many of us really appreciate all he's done 4 the fans of asian entertainment w/ his website.
heh, we're watching will n' grace, n' jack (on the show) is drinking a sobe. 'member when i used to drink so much sobe? ha.
it's still winter. it doesn't feel so much like winter cos christmas n' new yr's passed.
however, really winter has just begun. it's been really
drizzly in san josé lately. it's not terribly cold, just
drizzly.
759p: 2day was sat. how was ur sat? when u get a chance,
please sign my gbook n' let me know how u'r doing. me, i'm ok.
2day was sat, as i sed. i tried to relax. i didn't
even go to the gym 2day. lessee, 2day, the beautiful kaela kang n' i
started off our day by going to cost plus. kaela bought this black kitty print. 
(the preceding image is just a cute ikon. the print doesn't
look like that!) it's a famous image: it sez sumpthin' like "la
tournée du chat noir" or sumpthin' like that. i've cn it in
a café near sjsu b4. i think the café is called the black cat café or sumpthin' like that.
funny, earlier, on our way to cost plus, we saw a black kitty. *shrug* i looked @ all the kewl wines n'
beers that cost plus has. i also looked @ those prints. wow,
art. i haven't taken 'nuff time in recent days to sit back n'
appreciate art. i wish the opportunities came up more often.
uhm, i s'ppose i could always go to cost plus n' look @ prints or look up
pics online. *shrug* neway, after cost plus, we drove out to the tk
noodles out by de anza college. it was a good, pretty cheap lunch.
then we went to check out the amazingly beautiful hotel, in which
our taekwondo classmate joon werks @ n' which we might have our wedding
guests stay @. no, not joon kim! joon... uh... i 4get his last
name. :-( neway, he werks @ this wonderful hotel. well, if things
werk out right, we can get our guests a good rate thanks to joon's help.
the rooms r amazing. this hotel's only been 'round 4 a few
months, n' it's the best in silicon valley. after the hotel, we went
to look @ flower shops. we tried to find this korean flower shop
called c n' c or sumpthin' like that. ('member c n' c music factory? u
know... what the gay steel mill werkers dance to on the simpsons!)
neway, i think that place is actually more of a wedding planning
agency than a flower shop. we just saw an office, no flowers; n'
they were closed 2day, appeared. we then went up el camino to
conroy's flowers, where the polite salesperson gave us a pretty good
description of what they can offer. then we went to a nursery.
then we went to kimm's flowers (yah, 2 "m"s... *shrug*), a korean
flower shop. the woman there was pretty nice n' offered us a pretty
good estimated deal. we'll c. after that we drove 2ward's
fry's but stopped @ the wolfe rd 99 plaza to get some boba drinks : i got a frosted lychee boba 4 myself n' a hot taro milk w/ pearls
4 kaela. we looked 'round @ stuffed bunnies, n' then left 4 fry's.
:-( the fry's parking lot was a awful place. some stoopid guy
scratched kaela's car trying to pull into a space that he couldn't possibly
fit into cos the person on the other side parked way beyond the border of
his/her spot. :-( ugh.
well, after fry's we came home. we're tired. the 2nd 0.5 of this week, we've just been so worn out!!! :-( as u c, we're not in tahoe right now. we came home. my mom had some jiajiangmien sauce ready. i think kaela cooked some noodles to go w/ it. we just ate a good dinner. 2morrow; 2morrow'll be a diff kind'f day. we're gonna drive up to tahoe early in the morn. then after snowboarding, we'll drive back but only to sactown. we'll stay there overnite in a hotel. mon, kaela'll go to sumpthin' 4 her werk program, n' me? hopefully, i'll drive right back up to the slopes. i've never gone snowboarding alone, but i have driven up to tahoe by myself to meet up w/ other ppl 4 boarding. i hope i can board 2 days in a row. it'll be kewl! :-)
man, i can't believe next week's my last week of winter break. in many ways, i'm looking 4ward to returning to skool. dang, i'm back w/ a vengeance! i'm gonna get straight "a"s next semester!!! my 3 class'll be a cad theory class, a mechatronics class, n' a precision machine design class. they don't offer many grad classes. i'm not sure if precision machine design is a big interest of mine, but who knows? maybe i'll love it. as i've sed b4, my main emphasis in mechanical engring is automatic control design. i'm really into math. :-/ in the end, it's good to have math skills, but u also gotta be able to apply it to sumpthin'. *shrug*
next week, i think we'll go back to taekwondo practice. hopefully, that'll be fun. i'll try to werkout plenty next week. fri eve was a good werkout 4 me. i think i am building up upper body strength from lifting. heh, i wish it'd show more, but :-/ oh well, 'least i feel a li'l stronger. *shrug*
oh yah, i have some pics to share w/ u!!! 'member ruby, the tahoe doggy from my entry last mon 2003.01.06 "ruby n' mimi: every dog has her day"? well, here r some pics of us w/ ruby in tahoe n' 'nother pic of us @ sierra:
beno w/ ruby
kaela w/ beno
these pics came from that disposable cam i recently developed.
937p: right now, the beautiful kaela kang n' i r in rancho cordova, a city right next to sacramento, cali's state capital. this morn, we left san jo early to go snowboarding @ sierra@tahoe. on the way, we stopped in vacaville to go to j.box 4 breakfast. we stopped in sacramento on folsom blvd 4 gas on the way. we noticed some korean biznesses. i sed that it looked like the area we stopped @ a coup'lf yrs 'go w/ kaela's publik health skool group on our way home from river rafting. that day, we stopped @ a strip mall. kaela n' i went into some small korean grocery store to get some drinks. well, yes, it turned out that the neighbourhood we were in this morn was that same neighbourhood. well, we went up to sierra@tahoe, got there 'round 1000a, i think. there was lots'f fog in the north east bay n' the sacramento valley... that whole stretch of the/hwy 80. that slowed me down a li'l, but i got us to sierra@tahoe pretty quickly. we had a really full day of snowboarding. we rode the boardercross run over n' over n' over 'gain. then we took castle (a black diamond run) down to the front side. then we rode the nob hill lift up to ride upper/lower main a few times. upper main has a terrain park. i had some embarassing bails on a rail n' on a boxslide. since every1's always watching u in the terrain park, i tried to make up 4 those bails w/ some decent airs on the ramps. i'm better @ aerial tricks than railslides, but i really wanna get better @ railslides. well, it was a very full day @ sierra. on our way back west to our sacto hotel, we stopped by placerville to go to starbucks 4 a grande nf hot choco n' rite.aid 4 a bottle of advil.
now we're in a courtyard by marriott room in rancho cordova. u c,
kaela has'ta be in sactown 4 her werk program 2morrow, n' me? i'm on winter
break, so i think i'll hit up sierra@tahoe 'gain, as i mentioned b4.
we checked into our nice room w/ a king size bed, sofabed n' office desk.
we showered n' went out to look 4 fud. aktually, b4 we looked
4 fud, we went to target. kaela only
brought her slippers, no shoes. she needs shoes 2morrow cos she
can't wear her snowboarding boots to the office, right? she bought
some shoes there. then we went down folsom blvd. to look 4 those
korean restaurants. we went to this seoul shikdang (서울 식당: 9336
la riviera dr., sacramento, ca 95826; 916.369.0600), a galbijip restaurant,
sort'f a smalltown version of koryo sootbool (that restaurant that's
sooo popular w/ berkeley students.
kaela ordered the dolsot bibimbap, n' i ordered the yookkyeijang.
man, being @ that galbijip reminded me of how i haven't been to brother's
bbq (형제 갈비) on geary blvd in sf in a very long time. this
restaurant was decent, 'specially since i didn't 'pect much from
sacramento, but *sigh* it wasn't as good as brother's or koryo. :-(
there surely wasn't many customers there on a sun nite! neway, we
stuffed our faces, stuffed ourselves silly. now, we're back in the
hotel room watching the people's choice awards on cbs.
1040a: 2day's tues, but 'tis very hard 4 me to convince myself it ain't mon cos just yesterday i was snowboarding all by myself @ northstar. yah, i ended up @ northstar instead of sierra. right now, i'm @ the meridian/hamilton bally's gym.
so yesterday, we woke up in our rented room @ the rancho cordova
courtyard by marriott. we drove thru the neighbouring mcyukyuk to pick up 2 egg
mcmuffins 4 $2.22. then, i dropped off kaela in sactown 4 her werk
thingy. since i could get on the 80 instead'f the 50, i went to
north tahoe instead'f south tahoe. i got to northstar a li'l b4
noon, all by myself, n' parked in lot h "hornet's nest." i got to
ride a gondola all by myself. since i got my double whammy season
pass, i didn't need to buy a lift ticket. @ the midmtn lodge, i
locked my board n' used the restroom. then i boarded the empty
"pioneer" lift to head up to "lookout mountain." i rode martis, then
prosser; 2 awesome, groomed, black diamond runs.
i liked them! a good downhill riding warmup 4 the day.
then i went down 1'f the mogul runs. really! snowboarders shouldn't
bother w/ mogul runs! i never saw a snowboarder really rip it
up on a mogul run. in fakt, i very rarely c a skier properly
ride moguls!!! last season, a coupl'f andy's friends convinced us to
go down that exact same mogul run. they sed they loved moguls.
whuh? what's to love?! they didn't ride fast 'round the moguls! they
didn't catch ne real air going off the moguls! all i ever c
snowboarders do on moguls it go a li'l then stop, go a li'l then stop!
most skiers do this 2! if ne1 jumps off a mogul, he/she only
gets like 2-3 inches of air! shoot! off terrain park ramps, 1 can
get like 3-4 feet of air! moguls r such a waste'f
time n' energy. however, i told myself to go down the mogul run n'
ride it, steering 'round or over the moguls the best i can. i told
myself, if i were ever in nature, riding 4 my life's sake, i'd never know
what kind'i bumpy terraiu i'd encounter. so i rode the mogul run
purely as a practice of survival skill. after the mogul run, i rode
groomed "prosser" a couple more times, just trying to go as fast as
possible. i was riding alone n' the "lookout mtn" slopes were pretty
deserted on a mon. it was just me, the mtn, n' god. "please
keep me safe n' not let me slam into a nasty death!"
after i had my fill of downhill riding, i rode the shorter 0.5 pipe like 3-4 times, hiking back up in btwn runs. 'twas a li'l 2 soft'f a pipe. i headed up "vista express" to ride the terrain park n' longer 0.5 pipe over n' over, 'gain n' 'gain. phew, no embarassing bails @ all on mon. the boxes, rails, n' ramps were all good.
[later] 257p: now i'm home. i'm so tired these days. :-( winter, u know? hey, ppl signed my gbook! joon, clarence, n' kaela; they r all kewl! :-)
well, after my werkout n' shower, kaela picked me up from the gym.
then we drove out to sjsu. i bought a coupl'f textbooks.
we ate lunch @ tapioca express on san carlos. i got a crispy
pepper chicken bento box w/ a pearl milk tea, n' kaela got some hot n' sour
soup w/ a mango boba. it was pretty tasty. tapioca express: i
like them, not so much 4 their boba, but 4 their crispy pepper chicken.
i think
fantasia has better boba. life plaza down in rowland heights has
good boba 2. mmm... sweetheart café! they have good boba
drinks! :-)
ok, here r some pics from last week, last mon nite when we 1st met ken n' grace's miniature pomeranian mimi:
 meet mimi. |
 beno holds up mimi 4 u to c. |
 beno n' mimi |
 mimi's just a handful. |
1115a: i'm on precor right now. i walked 'gain from stevens creek subaru to meridian/hamilton. [later] 1132a: now, i'm stretching. this morn, i didn't just walk from stevens creek subaru to the gym. i walked from subaru to the valley fair safeway, to n' thru valley fair, to the bank, down stevens creek to bascom, n' then off to the gym. it was quite a walk, but walks like this give 1 a chance to think 'bout n' reflekt 'pon life. i really wanted to n' tried hard to stay out of the sun's damaging, poisonous rays. "dang! i sound like my mom," i thought to myself. when i was a kid my mom always tried so hard to stay out'f the sun n' keep me out'f the sun. then, i thought it was ridiculously dorky, but now i always wear sunscreen n' avoid sun exposure. on my walk, i tried to find shaded paths. i thought to myself "if u always live in some1 else's shadow, 'least u'll have healthy skin!" ppl in the gym r discussing 49ers coach mariucci's getting fired. even tho' i don't follow futbol much, i'm a li'l disappointed cos he was a cal futbol coach b4. neway, back to talkin' 'bout my long walk to 'member.
i wondered, while walking, what life in cali was like b4 cars. in the 1800s, if i had to travel the same distance i walked 2day, would i walk or ride a horse? man! i wonder how long it took to go from san jo to berkeley by horse n' by foot. i walked thru the ebay parking lot. i confirmed that there r indeed 2 starbucks @ the intersektion'f bascom n' hamilton. on hamilton, i saw a sparrow. "cute sparrow," i thought n' wondered if sparrows ever look @ humans n' think, "cute human!" earlier, when i was @ safeway, i bought an everything bagel, a cranberry nut bagel, a big bottle'f h2o, n' a pack of trident white gum.
these past coupl'f days, i've had some bad stomach aches. the beautiful kaela kang told me not to eat spicy fud, just clear broths. :-( do i like ne nonspicy fud?!?! if it's not spicy, i add hot sauce. what do i eat that isn't spicy?!?! [later] 1246p: (i've showed n' am waiting 4 roland to pick me up w/ kaela.) so what nonspicy stuff do i eat? (n' stuff that i don't put hot sauce on) boba, bagels, smoothies, some fast fud (spicy chicken sandwiches r never spicy to me!) (in.n.out burgers r good tho' nonspicy.), some salads, ... [interrupted]
[later] 1132p: so we had a kewl day w/ roland. we aktually stayed in the mall the whole afternoon w/ roland. we ate lunch @ the cheesecake factory. the 3 of us shared mahi tacos n' louisiana pasta. eh! it wasn't spicy. it was kewl to hang out w/ roland.
this eve, we were s'pposed to have dinner w/ ken n' grace, but ken 4got that he had a pool tournament 2nite. in the early eve, kaela n' i hit the gym n' pilates class. i think that'll be my last pilates class 4 a while. i feel kind'f bad cos it was really crowded 2nite n' some ppl almost didn't get to come in. me, i get plenty of exercise. altho' pilates is sumpthin' i like to do now n' then 4 the reason i stated b4: 1 of my objektives as a martial artist is to try to have complete control of my body, to be able to make it do whatever. however, i feel bad cos some ppl... it's like i know if they don't go to the pilates class, they won't exercise @ all. me, u know i'll find exercise elsewhere. i don't wanna take 'way from them. neway, since we didn't go to dinner w/ ken n' grace, we went to amc saratoga n' watched the 25th hour a spike lee joint starring edward norton n' rosario dawson. wow, it was a pretty good movie. in the beginning, i thought the acting was bad. however, the story more than made up 4 that. it turned out to be a pretty touching story, i s'ppose. @ times, i think edward norton could've been a better actor, but the guy who played his dad n' the guy who played his nerdy friend did pretty well, i think. i think edward norton's best acting was his monologue which i guess'd make a great speech 4 d.i. (aka dramatic interp aka dramatic interpretation) as long as u'r 'llowed to swear 'lot in hi skool speech tournaments. i think u'r 'llowed to. *shrug*
neway, i still got a bit of a stomach ache. i didn't really eat
dinner just popcorn n' sprite... n' a bite of
kaela's movie theatre hot dog.
1001p: these r the classes i'm taking this coming semester:
me 250 me 265 me 285
precision machine design. principles of precision machine design. exact
kinematic constraint. error motions of a machine. integration of mechanical
design, materials, sensors, and metrology for precision applications.
computer-aided mechanical engineering design. an integrated approach to cad
including: overview of cad; numerical techniques for cad; computer graphics
and design; principles and management of design database systems; finite
element analysis and cad; design optimization; computer-aided linkage
design; integrated cad systems.
mechatronic systems engineering. introduction of mechatronic systems for
mechanical engineers. combine hardware, software, interface, and system
integration to make an intelligent system, subjects include basic circuit
analysis, logic gates, opamps, encoder/decoder, dc and stepper motors, c
language, a/d, d/a, interfacing and control. hands-on lab practices
construction and tests of working systems.
2day, i tried to relax since my stomach still hurts n' my body's a bit
sore. normally, i would've hit the gym in the morn or afternoon, but
i didn't. i stayed @ home. @ lunchtime, the beautiful kaela kang n' i
went to "hand pull noodles" restaurant (부만루 505 w. capitol expressway,
san josé, ca 95136; 408.448.2188) to get some fud. kaela had
jjajangmyuhn, n' i had the palbochae lunch special (happy family). i
liked kaela's lunch better. i didn't eat nething spicy since kaela told me not to cos'f my stomach ache.
:-( we got some dandanmien to bring home to my sister grace cos she was
over w/ my nephew mason. heh, mason smiles 'lot when i look @ him.
i hope he likes me. well, in the afternoon, i stayed home,
werked on the 'puter on some wedding stuff. in the eve, kaela
brought me to stevens creek subaru to pick up my car. after that, we
went to the gym. the subaru guys washed my car 4 free. i like
it when they do stuff like that. we didn't go to spin class cos we
missed it. we did precor stuff then went to ab lab. then we
stretched a li'l. i lifted weights a li'l. we got ready to
go. we got some smoothies. i picked up the wave
magazine, which has a feature story on pro.anorexia websites. man!
isn't that interesting!!! yah, lemme tell u: anorexia's a bad
thing! >:-( we came home. my mom made some fried noodles.
i resisted the temptation to put hot sauce on it n' ate it.
my stomach still hurts a li'l. my theory is that i have an ulcer in
my stomach that burned into a complete hole in my stomach n' that there's
stomach acid spilling on my intestines. :-(
915a: i've had weird dreams lately. a coupl'f days 'go, i dreamt that i was staying over @ jerome's house. in the morn, i woke up b4 jerome n' went out. somehow, i ended up meeting ses (the korean gurlpop group). i came back to try to wake jerome up. this morn, i had 2 dreams: 1) i dreamt i had to go to take grad skool classes @ my ol' middle skool. whah? yah, i guess it's cos i feel that when i'm @ skool, i c such young undergrads, like they're kids. 2) i had 'nother dream that i had to dj a party; but the party was in a barnes & nobles or sumpthin'. i was using those listening stations they have as cd decks n' somehow had a mixer hooked up btwn them. *shrug* it was very hard to mix w/ those listening station cd players, of course, but i was barely managing.
[later] 1259p: the beautiful kaela kang gave me a haircut. she was s'pposed to much earlier, but we fell back asleep. that's when i had yet 'nother dream. this time we were hrm... going to bellagio (the korean niteclub), i think. i drove my family's old blue 1986 volvo 740 gle, the car i picked kaela up in the very 1st time i met her back in 1996. neway, i drove it to the niteclub, but the niteclub was hrm... more like a hotel. there was valet parking. the valet took my car. then i went in. yah, it wasn't a niteclub really... it looked like a hotel. i 'member i dropped a quarter, n' it rolled 'way from me on the carpetted floor. i chased after it. *shrug*
[later] 252p: grace came over 'gain w/ mason. my mom came home w/ some takeout fud from a vietnamese place. i ate a spring roll, some leftover jjajangmyuhn, some leftover fried noodles from last nite's dinner, n' some red bean soup. heh, right now, i'm watching as one's "day by day" musik video 4 the 1st time. X-D ha ha ha, kaela has'ta c this 1 cos she loves her bunny so much! X-D funny funny. she has'ta c it; no choice!
oh yah, my stomach ache cms to have subsided. 1nce in a while, i feel sumpthin' down there, but it's not nearly as bad. last nite, i realised that lately i've also been getting rashes... n' a li'l acne. :-( i don't like these things.
[later] 500p: here's a pic of that kitty print that kaela bought @ cost plus. i discussed this on 2003.01.11 in my journal entry "꽃집".
i can't believe i'm been inside @ home all day! this is my last weekend b4 skool resumes. 2day's fri. mon's kaela's n' my 3rd anniversary! :-) it's also mlk, jr. day. this weekend, phil n' his gf tanya'll be in town. kaela n' i were s'pposed to meet up w/ our friends jason n' darren 2nite. i think we still will, but i'm not sure cos if we go to sf 2morrow to hang w/ phil n' tanya, maybe we should combine those trips, u know? *shrug* n' ken n' grace, since we didn't get to hang w/ them last week, ken asked yesterday if we can hang sometime this weekend. this is my last weekend b4 skool starts. i should make better use of my time than sitting 'round home. @ the same time, honestly, i'm starting to get in that mood where i don't wanna go out 2 much cos i saw my credit card bill 4 this past holiday season. :-( heh, i think many ppl r prob'ly feeling the shock right now, huh? in this sense, i feel conflikted.
while i deal w/ this, howzabout fillin' out my gbook? it's
more fun than u think! :-)
1159p: oh, it's almost time 4 2morrow's entry! we've been
hanging out w/ phil n' tanya. (2day was sun.)
1202a: it's now the beautiful kaela kang's
n' my 3rd annivesary. :-)
1043a: ha ha, 2day's foxtrot comic is so funny. paige, the older sister skates a figure 8 in the ice. the li'l bro jason (who's a brainiac) carves the symbol 4 the square root of 64 into the ice. paige sez, "you are such a geek." jason sez, "why, thank you." ha ha.
2day's my "last day of freedom." *roll eyes* really, grad skool is not torture 4 me. grad skool is great! i enjoy being a grad student. the spring semester begins 2morrow, n' 4 some reason i feel like i've been living it up like crazy this past mlk, jr. weekend. i've been so... uh... what's the wurd? what's the wurd 4 when u enjoy life irresponsibly??? sumpthin' related to "debauchery," but more of a greek wurd, i think; or was it latin? "bachanalian"??? no, i think it was a less complicated, more common wurd than that. :-/ neway! i feel so bad, so guilty! it's like, as i've mentioned b4, the original concept of the joy luck club. the original concept (from the book) involves a bunch'f housewives using all their precious, scarce resources to party in the midst of wartime depression. they'd gather all their nicest fud, put on their nicest clothes, n' party even tho' they knew they did not have the means to do this... they were living above their means 4 an eve(ning). i feel like i'm doing that right now. as i sed a few days 'go, after cing my holiday credit card bills, i feel... very poor. yet, this weekend, we've been going out, having fun... well... *sigh* honestly, it's not that i've been really spilling $$$ left n' right... it's just that we're getting out of the house, cing ppl, having a good time, n' trying to make the best of our days, u know? *shrug* it's been so eventful these past few days, n' the beautiful kaela kang n' i r gonna go watch cirque du soleil varekai 2nite w/ ken, grace, ryan, n' tiffany.
i don't feel i have 'lott'f time to update right now cos i've gotta get outt'f the house n' live life. i think i'll just haft'a sort'f make a list of what's been going on.
it's 1131a now on tues morn. i really gotta do stuff 2day. i should go out to campus if i know what's good 4 me. i should check if there'r either more books 4 me in the bookstores or some in the library. i have an overdue library book i really gotta return. i wanna hit the gym. *sigh* i feel a bit frustrated cos there r so many things i wanna do 2day.
my life? these days... well, skool starts 2morrow. i feel ok, 'cept kaela's career is really stresses me out n' depressing me to death. :-(
darren, kaela, n' cortney, thanks 4 signing my gbook. if u haven't signed this version yet, please sign it! :-) cortney's msg 'bout eric chang, that's very interesting! :-) i'm trying to find eric 2. i haven't talked to him in ages, but he was a good friend of mine in college on sun eve, i got to talk to fahad on the fon 4 a bit. that was good. i always believe "now is the time to make old friends. fahad's doing well. i'm happy 4 him! :-)
[much later] 1110p: kaela n' i just came back from watching cirque du soleil varekai. it was really kewl w/ all the physical feats n' all. it was very entertaining. b4 the show, ken n' grace went to do dinner w/ us @ florentine's. (kaela n' i shared a prawns n' chicken marsala.) we originally were gonna go to the olive garden, but it was 2 crowded. then we stopped by starbucks on the way to the show. man, we barely got there in time.
i c joon signed my gbook. he offered some terms that he thought i was thinking of when i wrote earlier 'bout how i felt i was living carelessly or whatever i sed. well, those r good terms, but i was looking 4 sumpthin' more classical. *shrug* thanks, tho'. thanks 4 signing my gbook. i still gotta fill out those questions myself.
854a: 2day's the 1st day of the spring 2003 semester @ sjsu. 2day's wed. it's a partly sunny day here in san jo. i had some dreams this morn. a few days 'go, i had a dream that didn't have 2 much of a plot, but i was w/ some friends watching mtv. i saw some gurl singing on tv, n' i thought it was 1 of the olson twins (from full house, but it was avril lavigne. (these kids r getting so young!) now, i either talked 'bout that in real life, or i had a dream this morn that i talked 'bout it. *shrug* i had a dream this morn that i was @ some kind'f taekwondo stretching clinic hosted by some korean taekwondo students from some prestigious place like yong.in daehakkyo. i really wanted to stretch well, but there were some really flexible ppl in that class. i guess i feel insecure 'bout my flexibility after watching cirque du soleil last nite. hrm, i had 1 other dream; what was it?
[a li'l later] 927a: 
when i stress 'bout life, i think, "wow, johnny chang has a nice
window title 4 his webpage: 'let me have my simple pleasures.'" [a
li'l later] 948a: "exely" from the bronx's junkyard forums sed to me "the things you ate sounded so scrumptious too, i
swear you should quit grad skool and be a food critic...or do it part
time." yes, that thought really has occurred to me b4!
i really do like the idea of being a restaurant critic.
u know what? there just rn't enuf asian.am
restaurant critics!!! i really don't like that! i
mean... in the bay area, there r sooo many asian.ams, n' there r so
many asian restaurants. shouldn't there be some asian.am
restaurant critics giving their opinions of these restaurants?
it's not that non.asian ppl necessarily have bad standards 'bout
asian fud; that's not what i'm saying. it's just that asian.ams have a diff
background from which to refer when describing fud from asian restaurants,
u know? :-( well, we'll c. maybe someday i can do this.
[later] 1233p: i still haven't left the house. it's cold in here. it's cloudy outside. i gotta go to the bank. i'd love to go to the gym. i gotta go to campus eventually. my class is 530p - 645p.
[later] 513p: now, i'm sitting in room 329 of sjsu's engring bldg, waiting 4 dr. youssefi's cad theory class. hrm, i know that's not the real class title, but it's basically a class 'bout theories behind cad programs, n' i 4get the real course title. the classroom's filling up. earlier this afternoon, i went to the bank to depo$it a check; then i went to the gym 4 a good werkout.
[later] 948p: class was short. we just discussed logistics, no
actual course material. so this afternoon, i had a kewl werkout, in
that i did cardio, stretching, weights, n' swimming crazy, huh?
then i went to campus, got a jamba juice; the 1st of jamba juice
of the semester. after class, i stopped by the library to get a
book on mechatronics. then i drove home. there was plenty of
rush hr traffik. i came home n' ate tons of salad n' put the
tenderloin in the oven. when i ate my 1st slice of tenderloin, i
spilled tenderloin juice all over my tender loins. :-/ does that
make sense? ha ha ha. well, actually, i spilled beef juice all over my
khaki jeans. :-( what a carnivorous dinner!
116p: 지금 체육관의 주차장 차에 앉아고 있어요. 여러분 어떠세요? [a li'l later, in the gym on a reclining bike] i'm not having a great day 2day. i feel pretty miserable. [later] 153p: [stretching] i worry my life hasn't made 'nuff 4ward progress.
[later] 557p: now, i'm sittin' in a san josé state university (sjsu) classroom, waiting 4 a class but not my class, the beautiful kaela kang's class, a health professions class. this afternoon/evening, i went to 1 class, my "precision machine design" class w/ dr. buff furman. my mechatronics class w/ dr. du was cancelled due to a power outtage. man! classes r sooo crowded! the power outtage caused a bit'f chaos on the sjsu campus as all the bldgs were evacuated.
yesterday (thurs [2day's fri.]), kaela told "the publik" on her
web journalat she quit her job on tues. :-/ yah, it's been
making her miserable, as she sed. she wasn't doing the things she
expekted n' hoped to do @ this job. it got me thinking: 
cos kaela got
that job in san jo, we moved to san jo. cos we moved to san jo, i
started grad skool. if we hadn't moved, if we had somehow stayed in
berkeley, i would've continued to look 4
engineering jobs in the east bay or sf. imagine if kaela hadn't gone
to publik health skool. in that case, we could've moved out'f
berkeley back in 2000, n' i could've
started grad skool @ sjsu back in 2000. now, would that have
happened? no way! life was "2 good" up there back then.
just think: 'twas such a chain'f events n' set'f
circumstances that led us to our "fate" here. "fate"? is that
the right wurd?! let's not say "fate" but say
"situation" instead! life is so crazy.
2nite, i bring kaela to the airport so she can fly to portland, oregon
to visit some naturopathic "alternative" medicine skool there. she
sez she might want to go to an "alternative" medicine skool; but they r
only in seattle, washington; portland, oregon; n' vallejo, cali4nia.
:-( i don't want to move to ne of those places! :-( *sigh* i have
1.5 yrs left'f grad skool here @ sjsu; i've just barely started!
well, kaela sez, if she goes to 1'f these skools, she'd wait till i
graduate. still, it's not so simple! :-( i'm @ sjsu, n' i'm trying
to get into the engring industry here in the silly valley. :-( :-( i
don't like this situation @ all. :-(
[later] 1054p: i'm home now. after kaela's class, (which i admit
was pretty interesting), i dropped her off @ the airport. then i
drove home. @ home i ate some chicken curry my mom cooked.
1152a: 금요일 아침예요. 아직까지 별로 행복하지 않아요. 어쨌든 난 학교의 도서관에 가야 되요. 책을 비려야 되요. 체육관에 가겠지 잘 모르겠어요. it's fri morn. i'm still not that happy. neway, i should go to the library. i need to borrow some books. i dunno if i'll go to the gym.
can u believe they have this stuff now? made by frito-lay, munchies combines mini doritos, mini sunchips, mini cheetos, n' rold gold pretzels! crazy, huh? get some 4 ur superbowl party, raiders fans! or don't... i don't get paid to advertise 4 them! it doesn't matter to me.
1216p: earlier, i ate some chinese chicken salad @ home 4 an early lunch, late breakfast, or brunch. *sigh* what a day! :-/ it's pretty dang grey n' gloomy outside. heh, some days, i enjoy cloudy weather n' say it's not really gloomy. 2day? i just feel bleh. dangit! it's fri!!! i gotta cheer up! i gotta! it's fri!!! *sigh* ok, i resolve to cheer up from this sec on, k? i'll get on w/ my day!
hrm, sometimes i wonder if u readers miss some of the stuff i tack on to the end of some of my entries. u know, sometimes i write an entry n' then go back to it later n' add more. well, in case u missed nething, u can (but don't hafto) check the beno journal archive. u know that, right?
[later] 104p: dangit, i can't believe i still haven't left the house. :-(
[later] 345p: now, i'm @ the post office, finally sending to phil the
cellfon charger he 4got @ our house. i finally made it out'f the
house 2day. i felt sort'f depressed as i brought the garbage can
in b4 driving off to start my day so late in the afternoon. as bringing
in the trash can reminded me of my youth, i thought: am i doing now @ age 27 what i thought as a kid i'd
be doing @ this age? would i, as a kid, have ever thought i'd
find myself @ age 27 leaving this house to start my day @ 'bout
330p! of course, as a kid, i wouldn't've ever imagined the
internet n' how u can get so much done w/o leaving home cos'f it.
in the 25th hour, edward norton's character has a great monologue / soliloquoy (the beautiful kaela kang not 2 long 'go reminded me that in a monologue, the speaker has an audience in the story while a soliloquoy is spoken only to the audience.) in this soliloquoy / monologue (u'll c why i give it both names when u c the movie.), he rags n' rants on his beloved hometown of nyc n' everything / every1 in it. in recent days, i sometimes feel like cursing out my ever.so.beloved hometown of san jo: what has it ever done but tease me? or taunt me... when i 1st lived here, i had no $$$ cos i was a kid. then i moved up to berkeley n' made sumpthin'f myself! now, i find myself back in san jo, 1nce 'gain a nonwerking, full.time student. 1nce 'gain the economy stinks w/ a bush in the whitehouse creating war to take our minds off it. the silly valley has such nice things, but i'm just a student. when i'm in san jo, i feel i don't have control'f my life. #!@$ that! i'm gonna graduate w/ a master's degree in mechanical engineering. i'm gonna make sumpthin'f myself 1nce 'gain. i'm gonna take advantage'f the sweet, juicy opportunities silly valley offers. b4 silly valley was silly valley, it was orchard valley. the land is fertile. it wants to give. it loves. it gives love. it gives loving. sometimes i feel like i don't have a partner. sometimes i feel like my only friend is the city i live in, the city of josés, lonely as i am, 2gether we cry.
519 p: now, i'm @ the sjsu library on a fri eve. 'member? i'm a nerd now!!! i'm a friggin' mechanical engineering genius!!! u'd best respekt my mechanical engineering skillz! u'd best show me love! i'm m.e. fo' life!
man, the h2o in the library h2o fountains tastes awful! >x-p
i'd 4gotten how bad it tastes! i'm so thirsty! it's
not delicious ebmud h2o. like poison it tastes!
348p:if u live newhere near santa clara county, check out this .pdf file: "usgs field-trip guide to the southeastern foothills of the santa cruz mountains in santa clara county, california"
earlier 2day, i was in the sjsu library, doing my hw 4 prof. furman's "precision machine design" class. well, i did most of the hw yesterday eve, but 2day i was werkin' on an easier part of our hw, a questionnaire that asks us both 'bout our engineering knowledge thus far n' 'bout ourselves as ppl. i'll talk more 'bout that questionnaire later cos it was pretty interesting. i had to go to the library to return a "reserve" book by noon. i was 'bout 0.5 hr late. i stayed there 4 'bout an hr @ most, i think. then i went home, ate some chicken salad. did i mention i ate chicken salad yesterday 4 an early lunch; i think i did. i'm sure i did. 2day is sat.
last nite, after leaving the library, i drove to ken n' grace's house. a big group of 10 of us went to dinner @ golden garden chinese restaurant in the mervyn's plaza btwn blossom hill rd n' kooser @ meridian ave. 10 ppl! it sort'f made me reflekt 'pon the old p.crew days. 10 ppl: ken, grace, billy, ken's employee jay, jay's gf pamela, ken's employee amanda, amanda's husband jerrod, amanda n' jerrod's son brian, jason lee, n' me. yah, jason drove down from sf to hang out w/ me a li'l to talk 'bout that projekt that i sed i dunno if i should talk 'bout here. *shrug* after hanging out, i had to go pick up the beautiful kaela kang from the airport cos she came back from oregon, 'member? *sigh* yah... well, that was last nite, fri nite. not much else.
2day's sat. hrm, it's much 2 lazy of a day. i'm not that
satisfied 'bout that.
1028p: sorry, since this whole oregon biz got brought up etc. i just
haven't had much motivation to do nething. i feel so... blah... so
not happy. i haven't felt like writing much. :-/ 4 the
past 0.5 hr or so, i threw myself into some studying to help me 4get all
this crap. :-/ it's good to study. i don't feel much like
talking to ppl. i feel antisocial. *sigh* i got alotta crap
going on in my head. i thing i keep yelling to myself in my head is
that i'm just so pissed @ the idea that i'd get kicked out of san
josé after grad skool. i'm so bitter. there's all
these ppl who grew up n' went to skool outside of the silly valley, then
they move here just to reap its benefits. but then what if i had to
grow up here, go to skool here, hafta put up w/ the friggin' hi co$t of
living while i have no $$$ as a full.time student w/ no job, n' then i get
kicked outt'f here b4 i get to find a nice silly valley job n' enjoy the
silly valley life w/ all its benefits etc. >:-( i'm so mad 'bout
that. neway... i just feel like crap, n' don't feel much like
writing... even tho'... thru.out the day, i have all these ideas that go
thru my head, stuff i wanna write in my journal... but then when i find
time to write in my journal, i just don't feel like writing. :-/
i'm not happy.
939a: 2day's mon. "i see a ship in the harbour. i can and shall obey." (new order's blue monday) i slept on my face last nite. i 'specially don't like that cos i drool. :-( now that i've been temporarily thrown back to the "modern rock" days of my youth, lemme post the tab (which is guitar tablature, but actually, this isn't tab!!! it's just fakebook chords!!! but misin4nmed ppl on the net call it "tab.") 4 james's song "sit down," which was popular to the live 105.3 crowd back in my sr yr of hi skool or so. that'd be 1993. (yah, i'm not just posting lyrics but the tab.)
james - sit down
e e e e now i relieved to hear the wisdom that i seek now i've swung back down again oh sit down those who feel a breath of sadness in love in fear in hate in tears oh sit down
i sing myself to sleep
a b
a song from the darkest hour
e
secrets i can't keep
a b
inside of the day
i swing from high to deep
a b
extremes of sweet and sour
e
hope that god exists
a b
i hope i pray
drawn by the under tow
a b
my life is outa' control
e a b
i believe this wave will bear my weight so let it flow
oh sit down
oh sit down
oh sit down
a b
sit down next to me
e a b
sit down down down down down in sympathy
that you've been to some far out places
it's hard to carry on
when you feel all alone
has been found in the strangest places
feels a lot like love
that i feel for you
and it's worse than it was before
if i hadn't seen such riches
i could live with being poor
oh sit down
oh sit down
sit down next to me
sit down down down down down in sympathy
sit down next to me
those who find they're touched by madness
sit down next to me
those who find themselves ridiculous
in love in fear in hate in tears
in love in fear in hate in tears
in love in fear in hate
oh sit down
oh sit down
sit down next to me
sit down down in sympathy.
u can find guitar "tab" like this from www.guitaretab.com. i aktually borrowed this from http://www.csn.ul.ie/~mel/hobbies/guitar/sit_down.php. james isn't/wasn't a 1 hit wonder group, but that was prob'ly their most famous song.
can u believe that the raiders lost the superbowl in the same "season" as the giants lost the world series?! also, the raiders lost to the tamba bay buccaneers who had never won a superbowl, n' the giants lost to the anaheim angels who had never won a world series! crazy, huh? even tho' i'm not that into bay area sports, i gotta say: geez, bay area morale must'f hit an all.time low this season. :-/ didju know that i didn't watch ne of the superbowl?!?!?! i thought i'd watch some'f it, but i didn't. i'm not sad 'bout it, but i wish i had cn those ever.talked.'bout superbowl ads!!!
maybe waking up this morn, i'm a li'l more able to talk 'bout normal things instead of depressing things. man, i feel sorry 4 being so antisocial this weekend. i was s'pposed to return jason lee's v.mail that he left on sat morn, but i was just 2 depressed all weekend to do nething like that. :-/ sorry. i didn't get a chance to updatechu on all the things that happened this weekend. :-/
on sat, hrm... what happened? :-/ c? i'm starting to 4get! that's what happens when i don't update my journal! >:-( well, i think the most important that 'bout this weekend is that yesterday (sun), i bought the beautiful kaela kang's wedding band. well... lemme try to talk 'bout this weekend. on sat, kaela n' i drove 'round a li'l in the afternoon thru los gatos n' saratoga. then we went to meet up w/ my dad n' his gf sue in milpitas. we ate @ hot pot city. my dad asked us to go to the taiwanese lunar new yr's party in hayward that i used to go to all the time as a kid. i just had 2 much on my mind to go to sumpthin' like that. 'member? i felt so antisocial this weekend. i drove us straight home. i felt like i smelled like bbqed meat, so i took a shower. then we watched the movie 친구 (chingoo). i've had the dvd 4 a long time. i bought it from yesasia. if u ever buy nething from yesasia, please use my link, so i'll get a li'l, li'l, li'l kickback from ur purchase. i bought the "int'l" version of the dvd cos it has no region code n' can play in amerikan dvd players. i meant to hack my mom's dvd player, but i'm not sure if i accomplished it or not. [a li'l later] 1026a: oh! i just found a site that might have the hack! www.dvd365.net hrm, that was the same hack i saw last time! i just tried it. i can't tell if it werked or not. i guess what i need is a non.region.1 dvd to test it out. neway, we watched 친구. it's a very critically acclaimed, very popular korean movie. it came out like 1-2 yrs 'go; more like 2, i think. it's 'bout 4 hi skool friends' growing up to become well u'll c how they turn out when u watch the movie. there's this song i've had from 1 or 2 mix cd compilations. it's called "아 옛날이여" ("ah yeitnaliyuh") by dj 처리 n' 이선희 (dj chuhri n' lee suhnhee). (the title basically means "ah, the old days!") that song's available on the 2002 summer mix mag cd. neway, in the middle of that song, there's a break. in that break, there's a dialogue from a movie. i didn't know, b4 i watched 친구 that the dialogue was from this movie! now i know. as i was watching the movie, i recognised the lines. neway, that was sat nite.
sun, i woke up in the morn n' went to the gym myself. then i came back home, changed, n' picked up kaela. we went out to joy luck place in the cupertino 99 to meet my mom, grace, steve, n' mason 4 dimsum. man, it was very good fud. 'member? just last week, we went to ton kiang 4 dim sum. man, ton kiang is expen$ive, n' their portions r small! however, ton kiang is definitely a diff culinary experience cos it's the only hakka restaurant i've been to on this continent! after dimsum, kaela n' i went to buy her wedding band. then we stopped by fry's on the way home cos i wanted to c what robotics kits they have. i gotta get used to fiddling w/ those robotics kits cos'f my skoolstuff, u know? well, fry's only has really kiddy stuff. :-( i bought some nimh rechargeable batteries. when we came home, we didn't do much. we watched some simpsons episodes, both on my 'puter n' on tv.
[later] 1226p: i'm still @ home, in my pajamas. i don't like this kind'f life. i should've left the house this morn, gone to the gym then to the library or a café to study!
| location | 25th %ile | median | 75th %ile |
| in san josé, ca | $62,599 | $67,395 | $74,455 |
| the u.s. | $54,058 | $58,199 | $64,297 |
[later] 141p: 2day, i shaved w/ a razor 4 the 1st time in ages. why the heck am i still home?! >:-( [later] 156p: a while 'go laura chan 4warded me an e.mail w/ the greatest idea i've heard in a while: when telemarketters call u, say "hold on please," n' then put down the fon n' walk 'way 4 the next like 10 mins!!! of course, if u'r using ur precious cell mins, this might not werk so well. however, if it's ur land line, this is great! :-) oh! 'nother idea the e.mail mentioned is this: when u get an advertisement in the mail that has a pre.paid postage envelope, send it back stuffed w/ ads from other places!!! :-) woo hoo! aktually, i have done this in the past! :-) i like these ideas! :-) now, if there were only a way to eliminate spam! [later] 306p: dangit! why am i still @ home?!?! kaela cooked some 비빔냉면 (bibimnaengmyuhn). we just ate noodles, sauce, n' some boiled eggs. however, uhm, the boiled eggs didn't boil all the way, so we tried to cook them more in the microwave after deshelling them. that doesn't taste good! >x-p [later] 314p: i'm a li'l amazed that it's still jan(uary) right now. it feels like this month's old, that winter's old, that more time has passed since *shrug* i dunno... christmas, i guess. man, i'm so glad i don't live in berkeley right now cos i'm further 'way from that senseless looting that happened after the superbowl! it doesn't make ne sense. on an unrelated note, just think, tho': if it weren't 4 kaela's getting her job in san josé, we'd still be living in berkeley. if i never got 2gether w/ kaela, i'd most likely still be living in berkeley, honestly! strange, huh?
[later] 433p: in the study lounge area of the 2nd floor of the sjsu
engring bldg, i'm sitting, typing on my handspring. man, i've had
this handspring visor edge 
4 quite some time now, n' i've really made use of it,
huh? i finally made it to campus! geez, it feels like i just
made some kind'f grand exodus. :-/ maybe that's not the wurd.
does "exodus" imply that i travelled w/ a big, big group? or is that
just if i say "mass exodus"? in ne case, it feels like i went
thru quite 'lot to get here. why did it take so long to get out of
the house 2day? no motivation? :-( i dunno. what was i
doing @ home? i didn't get ne studying done 2day @ home, not really.
that's why i don't like attempting to study @ home: cos i know i
won't. i did do some housekeeping on my 'puter, meaning i got
'round to burning lots'f big files onto cd n' deleting them from my hard
drive. i'm in need of some cd wallets, not so much to carry musik cd
but more 4 storing data n' video cds.
1 thing i was thinkin' 'bout this past couple'f days is how i found an old usa today newspaper in my car's trunk. i got that newspaper from the hotel, kaela n' i stayed @ in rancho cordova (that li'l town by sacramento). 'member? we stayed in sactown 1 nite, i snowboarded 2 days in a row, n' kaela went to some werk thingy. then i felt sick the rest of that week, 'member? neway, that newspaper had some article called "dumb and dumber," in which an author bags on the 2 tv shows joe millionaire n' the bachelorette which started this season. hey, i've thought of reality shows including but not limited to these 2 as insipid, boring, n' unintelligent 4 a long time, yet i don't get to write an article like that in usa today! >:-(
joe millionaire: i almost kind'f like the idea of this show cos it, in a way, mocks the other reality love/marriage tv shows that have come out. i think this love n' 'specially these marriage reality tv shows really cheapen the idea of romantic love. i would say that i'm offended by these shows, but i'm not the kind'f guy that gets offended, right? heh. well, i like that joe millionaire, in its way, puts these other shows in their places, n' sort'f tries to show that so many of these gurls that go to these "who wants to marry a millionaire" shows r gold diggers n' there4 bad ppl. >:-) however, i can't say i love joe millionaire (neither the guy nor the tv show) cos 1) i don't watch it n' 2) it's still a reality tv show.
the bachelorette: i feel that maybe it's cos i'm a guy that i don't like shows like "the bachelor." hrm, the netwerk ppl cmed to think that maybe they could win me over to reality love/marriage tv shows by reversing the forumula n' have a bunch'f guys swoon over 1 gurl. hrm... now the guy:gurl ratio is switched... n' it's not even in the direktion i as a heterosexual male prefer! if i didn't like watching a whole bunch'f gurls on these kinds'f tv shows, how could a bunch'f dolled up guys win my affektion?! i don't find myself relating to the prize guy in shows like "the bachelor," n' i don't relate to the desperate contestant guys on "the bachelorette." who's the netwerk to say this prize guy is such a prize?! #!!@% jfk, jr! i'm the most eligible bachelor in new york!!! or i would be if i weren't engaged... n' if i lived in new york. X-D
i don't like the characters on most reality tv shows cos they don't represent the kind'f ppl i c in daily life. it must be that i just always wanna c more asian on tv n' am just gonna whine that there rn't 'nuff asians on tv, this that. no, that's not it! granted, the set of contestants/characters they have on these shows r waaay 2 skewed to the imaginary white/black bipolar amerikan demographic that only exists in tv land. however, even if i overlook that, these ppl on reality tv shows r such stereotypes! 'bout 80% of the cast must be of the "greek" fratboy / sorority gurl preppy stock. that's the golden rule, apparently. now what to do w/ the remaining 20%?! well, lessee: let's get 1 aspiring punkrock star from l.a. he can't be the norcal punk type, only the l.a. punkrock type takes good enuf care of his physique to appear on netwerk tv. then, let's grab a black guy... no, not afrikan.amerikan; he's just gotta be black n' represent what tv land wants "black" culture to be. he should be pretty athletic, well.built, into r&b muzik (maybe hip hop but mostly that soulful "i wanna sex you up" stuff), n' definitely must be very vocal 'bout how he's willing to do ne of the women on the cast. to even it out, they'll prob'ly cast a female counterpart 4 him; that's bound to create some formulaic enthnogender sexual tension! it's possible that there'll be a similar duo, which'll be latino/latina instead of black. in that case, the guy's allowed to be a li'l less athletic maybe, but only if he spends most of his week werking on racecars or car stereos. hrm, maybe we need a cowboy/cowgurl, some1 from texas. n' then a thoroughbred white new englander w/ lotsf $$$. these shows find such stereotypes 4 their cast that i find these characters less believable than those on fictional shows!
as u know, i can tolerate some programs on amerikan tv, as i aktually like buffy the vampire slayer. i think those characters r more believable than the characters on most reality tv shows!!! u know that?! i feel ppl 'round me; my friends, ppl i hang out w/, ppl i encounter on campus; r more like the ppl i c on buffy than the ppl i c on reality shows. take a look @ xander: he's a decently nice guy. he's not extremely nerdy, but he's not a preppy fratboy jock. spike: he's british n' more of an "alternative" type guy. his muzik on the muzikal episode? i can believe i'd hear songs like that on the radio. buffy: she's strong.willed yet multi.dimensional; more like females i encounter in real life. willow: she's... well, she's a lesbian... i don't hang out w/ many lesbians but i c 'lot more of them in real life than on tv, i think. she's also hrm... well, maybe she's a li'l bit geeky.... n', yah, i do c that in real life... but that's not the most believable part of her. perhaps what makes me like her character more than reality show charcters it that she has magical powers, n' we all know gurls in real life have magical powers! these stoopid reality show gurls don't do ne witch craft! *roll eyes*
k... what really makes me think characters on buffy r more realistic than reality tv show characters it that they r better looking!!! seriously! ppl on reality shows rn't very good looking! it's not just that my standards r raised by airbrushed models! it's that ppl i encounter in real life r better looking than those i c on reality tv shows!!! these reality show ppl, as far as looks, r below avg! really! i'm not speaking 'bout myself, but hey! my friends r good looking ppl! :-) heh, even ppl i don't like but encounter in real life r better looking than ppl i c on reality shows! u know... 1 thing: maybe it's cos i live in cali4nia... u think? maybe it's just that cali4nians look better than the amerikan avg. :-/ i'm 'member supermike used to insist this's true. *shrug* nah, that's prob'ly not it. u know who r the most beautiful ppl in the world? beno journal readers!!! much better looking than usa today readers. well... i guess u can c why i'll never have an article in usa today i dunno how i manage to use all these paragraphs n' not really get to a pt.
[later] 950p: i had "computer aided mechanical design class" w/ dr. youssefi. the class is sooo crowded! i think we were s'pposed to have only 25 ppl, but now we have like 64 ppl! :-o it's crazy! dr. youssefi split the class into 2 lab groups, so i volunteered to be moved to the 200 - 430p lab sektion (on wed) instead of the normal 530 - 645p sektion (also on wed). after class, brian told me 'bout a job fair in berkeley on wed n' thurs. i'm gonna go w/ him. i gotta find some kind'f internship 4 this summer or some kind'f engring job!
after i left campus, i drove local rds to the gym. i didn't go to
pilates, but kaela came n' went to pilates. i did a li'l
cardio werkout, lots'f stretching, n' a li'l bit'f weights. i saw
the kwando strike/spar class. it looked like so much fun. i
miss doing more taekwondo. :-( after the gym, we came home.
my mom had cooked some broccoli beef, tomatoes n' eggs, n' some taiwanese
sausage.
1159a: continuing w/ my last century "modern rock" theme from yesterday, i got these lyrics from petshopboys.net:
i've got the brains
you've got the looks
let's make lots of money
you've got the brawn
i've got the brains
let's make lots of...
i've had enough of scheming
and messing around with jerks
my car is parked outside
i'm afraid it doesn't work
i'm looking for a partner
someone who gets things fixed
ask yourself this question
do you want to be rich?
i've got the brains
you've got the looks
let's make lots of money
you've got the brawn
i've got the brains
let's make lots of money
you can tell i'm educated
i studied at the sorbonne
doctored in mathematics
i could have been a don
i can program a computer
choose the perfect time
if you've got the inclination
i have got the crime
oh, there's a lot of opportunities
if you know when to take them
you know there's a lot of opportunities
if there aren't, you can make them
(make or break them)
i've got the brains
you've got the looks
let's make lots of money
let's make lots of...
money
you can see i'm single-minded
i know what i could be
how'd you feel about it?
come and take a walk with me
i'm looking for a partner
regardless of expense
think about it seriously
you know it makes sense
let's (got the brains)
make (got the looks)
let's make lots of money (oohh money)
(let's) you've got the brawn
(make) i've got the brains
let's make lots of money (oohh money)
i've got the brains (got the brains)
you've got the looks (got the looks)
let's make lots of money (oohh money)
money
all the love that we had
and the love that we hide
who will bury us
when we die?
[later] 304p: 
in this day n' age, maybe it's more important to be hard
werking than smart. there was a time when smart but lazy ppl could
live large, but not now. i'm kind'f stating the obvious, huh?
229p: i have class @ 400p. i've been very bizzy lately! i guess i'm making up 4 time i lost while being depressed last weekend. i'm catching up on life. yesterday, i went to a job fair in berkeley, n' i aktually left feeling very good. not only did i score lots n' lots'f kewl freebies (like @ job fairs in the good ol' days), i aktually felt like employers will want to hire me.
my last entry was pretty cheesy ("they want us to go back to the good ol' days of 80s greed."[2003.01.28]): i just put up some pet shop boy lyrics that i think i put up b4 in the past. *roll eyes* greed, huh? i was also gonna put up lyric's to wax's "money," which isn't a 1980s song, no. however, i guess it sort'f sounds like it could've been a 80s new wave hit in korea. *shrug* here's a sample:
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money 로 뭐든 다할수 있고 행복한 삶을 살수도 있어. money 로 예뻐질수도 있고 사랑도 쉽게 얻을수 있어. |
w/ money u can do everything, and you can live a happy
life w/ money u can be beautiful, and you can easily get love. |
1020p: who started this ascii drawing (shown below)?
so i totally have not been updating u ppl. lately, in my car, i've been listening to my jaurim true (live) cds. it's a 2cd set of live concert stuff. 1 song i really like is "미안해 널 미워해" ("mianhae nuhl miwuhhae," meaning "sorry, i hate u"). jaurim isn't the asian bubblegum many ppl have come to expekt. no, it's korean alt rock. this cd set is not new @ all. i've had it 4 a long time, 'least a yr, i think. however, it comes in an nonstandard shaped package, so in the past i've avoided bringing the cds to my car. last week or so, i made back up copies of lots'f my cds. now i listen to the back up copies in my car.
so where did i leave off updating u? i wrote that cheesy short entry on tues. tues... i went to class. i have 2 classes on tues/thurs ("precision machine design" n' "advanced mechatronics") n' only 1 on wed ("computer aided mechanical design"). on tues n' thurs, i go to taekwondo practice @ 730p. i get out of class @ 645p. it feels so much better not having so much dead time btwn class n' taekwondo! :-) of course, sometimes, i'm in a rush, as i was 2day. tues nite, i went to taekwondo by myself, as in w/o the beautiful kaela kang. she was off in sf buying her wedding dress w/ laura copenhaver. sounds like they had a good time, n' i know kaela returned really happy cos she found her dream dress. yah, it sounds like its gonna be quite an outfit! :-) on tues, i told mark lee @ taekwondo 'bout the job fair in berkeley. when i got home, i ate dinner. what did i eat? uh, some leftovers from the nite b4 (which was broccoli n' beef n' tomato n' egg) n' some shrimp w/ beans (sumpthin' similar to lima beans) n' onions. my mom cooked it. it was very good. i werked on my résumé. i was up much later than i expekted, werking on my résumé n' chatting w/ friends online. man! i really gotta update the version of my résumé that's on my website!!!
well, wed, i woke up early. i wanted to wake up earlier, but oh
well. i left the house 'round 840a. i had a bunch'f
résumés. i printed out some 4 my classmate friend
brian cos he sed his printer sucks. nelson dropped off some'f his
résumés cos he talked to me the nite b4, i told him 'bout the
job fair, n' he asked me to pass out some of his résumés, if
i could. *shrug* the opportunity didn't come up, in the end.
neway, i drove out to the sjsu park n' ride shuttle lot. brian
picked me up from there n' drove us up to berkeley. cos we were hungry, we stopped @ dixon
landing n' got burger king breakfast. 
i
bought brian's breakfast cos he was driving n' all. i had decaf
coffee w/ my croissanwich. i drank it black. 'member? i don't
usually like normal coffee, only espresso! well, eh! it's not like
i'm gonna get espresso from burger king. i aktually was fine w/ the
normal coffee. *shrug* when we got to berkeley, we felt the sidewalks were much emptier than
we expekted. *shrug* we figured it was just the middle of the hr, so
students weren't walking to class. it was midmorning... no,
late morn. it was like 1030a or so. we had a really
hard time finding street parking, so we eventually resigned to [interrupted
by nelson's fon call but now back, 1114a] parking in the durant.channing
garage. b4 going into the job fair, i stopped by the asuc (student
union) to buy a professional looking portfolio. i already have 1, a
really beautiful 1 that my sister n' steve gave me 4 my graduation, but i
don't know where i put it. it's prob'ly in a box in the garage.
i knew these things'd be kind'f expen$ive tho' i didn't know 'xactly
how much till i bought 1. i bought a black 1 cos the 1 i already have is brown. i like having a nice portfolio to bring
to interviews. in the past yr, i'd been using manilla folders to
carry my résumé n' paperwerk to n' from interviews. :-(
i'm sure that was unimpressive. :-( well, we went to the job
fair. i had a great time! i talked to lots'f
companies, prob'ly passed out 'bout 15 résumés. i just
honestly had a good time. the recruiters aktually gave me lots'f
hope. i feel good 'bout my career prospekts right now. i
really think i'll find a decent job in the silly valley, n' dang! i really
need it!!! it was just plain fun "hangin' out w/ the guys" in berkeley. @ lunch, a bunch'f us went to steve's
bbq: mark, his roommate john, roland, brian chi, brian cheung (my
classmate), n' me. earlier, we saw wei (from demo team) @ the job
fair, n' roland pted out that we could put on a demo right there!
X-D ha ha ha! ah, it was good to have steve's bbq 'gain.
i ordered chicken bibimbap. i know joon'd
understand how i felt having steve's bbq after all these months!!!
like, we all know steve's is not the greatest korean
restaurant, no matter what the daily cal sez in its "best of
berkeley" readers' poll. (these readers just
don't know korean fud. *roll eyes*) well, really... steve's is not
the best korean restaurant, no; however, man! where else can u get
decent galbi @ such a good price n' so conveniently?! sure, there's
the sorabol franchise, but joon sez "there's just no love there," n' he's
sort'f right. :-/ like, i've never had a really good experience @
a sorabol, but i've had many good experiences w/ steve's! when brian
(cheung) drove us thru northside to drop off roland, i saw that the euclid
sorabol is now "asiana garden" or sumpthin' like that. i'm sure
it'll be better than sorabol. b4 we left the parking lot, we needed
to buy sumpthin' from the durant.channing alleyway to get validation.
i bought a box 4 $5 from the postal annex. a box 4 $5?!?!
yah, i need to use it to send off a shedrain umbrella, which has a
lifetime warranty but broke. well, it was cheaper 4 me to buy the
box n' get validated parking than to pay the unvalidated parking fee. :-(
[i was on the fon w/ roland 4 a while. now i'm back. 1157p]
we drove back down 880 n' went to our cad class.
after class, i went home. kaela was home. we ate dinner. my mom cooked some fried rice n' some shumai she got from costco. after dinner, kaela n' i went to romeo 5 art café n' bar in sf j.town to meet up w/ jason lee (betelnuts), darren (idigu), john pai (gulid), hyun (dj krazy) n' some other ppl to watch some of jason's movies. man, romeo 5 was a really kewl venue!!! i had never been in there b4. heh, it was funny to drink japanese shochu instead of korean soju. they make asian.fusion cocktails there. [dang, now it's 1201a on 2003.01.31.] the movies were really kewl. after that, i drove kaela 'round north beach cos i was s'pposed to find her some coffee. *sigh* everywhere was closed! :-( we drove back down 101 n' went home.
2day (which is now yesterday) was thurs. i was @ home much later than i wanted to be. i was werking on my hw 4 my "precision machine design" class. the thing is: nowadays, since i feel ca$h is scarce, i opt to stay home 4 lunch more often. however, i really hate it cos i know i don't get my skoolwerk or studying done @ home. there r 2 many distraktions!!! i know i have a much, much, much, much more produktive day when i pack up my skoolbag n' head off to a café or the library to study. sure, i hafta shell out a few bucks 4 lunch; but i gain sooo much produktivity!!! :-( cos'f my skrewed up skedule, i feel i've gotten a rotten start to the semester. :-( i really need to get back into the routine of leaving the house in the morn n' hitting the books n/or the gym during the day b4 class. that really made me a good student, u know?
neway 2day (which was yesterday), i got to class barely on time. :-( i went to my 2 classes. in btwn, i went to the library to pick up some books, then i met kaela in the student union. there, i quickly got a jamba juice b4 heading off to my "mechatronics" class. after class, kaela was still in her class. i went to taekwondo practice. 1st, i had to buy some gas @ the stoopid, overpriced chevron on santa clara st. i only bought a 0.5 tank. as i drove down santa clara 2ward compaq arena, i felt like i was driving thru sf or oakland 4 a sec. the tall bldgs just gave me a flashback of sorts. santa clara st was crowded cos'f a sharks game. last tues, it was the same case as i was also driving off to taekwondo practice. when i got to taekwondo practice just barely in time, i was surprised to c that we jumped right into sparring w/o a warmup. wow. well, it was a good practice. man, earlier 2day i was pondering how i just don't put on a hogu n' get kicked n' kick as often as i used to. man, back in berkeley, back in 1999 when i was on the taekwondo "competition" team, i put on hogu every nite, pretty much... 'least every weeknite. well... even tho' i get less practice, i feel a li'l more... focused while sparring these days cos i feel like i have much less stressful politiks on my mind than i did while practicing back in berkeley in our final days there. hrm... some ppl @ our skool here cm to think mark n' i r the best fighters. :-o heh, i feel so weird. yah, mark, he's really good! i definitely do think he's the best fighter @ our skool. however, me?! i never felt that great back @ cal. 'least not in a long while... honestly, ppl @ cal train really hard. it's true. hey, u should visit our taekwondojang's website!!! http://www.us-tae-kwon-do.com ha ha, 2nite, after practice, we had a funny conversation 'bout how all the good domain names r taken n' how ppl pay crazy prices 4 domain names.
after practice, i came home. kaela was home. we ate some fud my mom cooked: pan.grilled chicken breasts, corn on the cob, caesar salad, n' chili. after sparring practice, i felt great eating.
now it's 1216a on 2003.01.31. hrm, i think i'll go 'head n' end
my entry here.
1236a: since i've been putting up song lyrics lately that
talk 'bout $$$, u prob'ly think i'm just becoming sooo $$$ driven,
huh? yah, @ the job fair, i felt really good that the job outlook
appears closer to decent than i would've otherwise thought. 
it's not that i'm getting greedy 4 $$$, really! it's just
that, geez! just how long do u want me to go b4 realising i
can't pay off my bills?! i've gotta care 'bout $$$ some,
right? it's not that i'm doing engring just 4 the $$$! *roll eyes*
i have genuine interest in my engring studies. however, i
do plan on using my engring skillz to find myself a com4table
living situation. 
[later] 210a: ken n' i stayed up 2 late having an online conversation.
[later] 1052a: my domain name server (or whatever u call them, the domain name registration place) has had some probs lately. sorry. maybe u've had some probs accessing my website, ending up in 404ville. they say they'll have these probs resolved soon, like w/in the next 24 hrs. [a li'l later] 1103p: i just ate a banana n' some leftover chili. i drank some apple juice. i wonder if we'll go snowboarding 2morrow. a bunch'f friends r going to a cabin 2nite, snowboarding @ sierra 2day n' @ northstar 2morrow. us, we have our double whammy season passes, so we really shouldn't go to northstar on a sat, cos that's the 1 day we can't use our season pass there; but we can use our season pass @ sierra ne day of the week. as $$$'s tight, we can't be renting hotel rooms so often, n' i hear the cabin's 2 full, so we'll hafta make a daytrip. if we make a daytrip, well... it's hard to do northstar instead of sierra cos 1) we hafta buy lift tix there, 2) northstar's parking lot fills up faster, n' 3) the snow's beter @ sierra right now. man, this is 1 funky snowboarding season. it was really good snow 4 a while, but now it's just totally warm n' snowless. :-( cos the weather's so good in the bay area, so sunny; i haven't been so much in the snowboarding mood. yet, when ppl talk 'bout snowboarding, i get a li'l excited. b4 these past 2 weeks, we'd been going sooo regularly! 'member: to us snowboarding is not a luxury resort experience!!! it's a sport. some kids play soccer every sat. we go snowboarding every weekend. same thing. i really like snowboarding, u know!
[later] 1145a: i just uploaded a updated version of my résumé. please have a look. :-) i sure would like a nice job! :-)
[later] 824p: so in the early afternoon, the beautiful kaela kang went to werk @ her job 1 last time. while she was in the office, i took her car n' drove over the the pruneyard mall. i studied @ the campbell roasting co. i had a very good study session there, a nf cappuccino, n' a blueberry scone. i'm glad i patronised this li'l asian.am.owned bizness instead of a megacorporation. (the owners r korean.) i studied well. i took 11 pages'f notes, i think. it was good. it felt good. then i went to fry's to return the handystitch that kaela had me buy a while 'go, just cos she wanted to switch it w/ the 1 she already has. it's not that we did nething bad!!! u c, the thread on this handheld sewing machine came off... n' she didn't know how to loop it back in, so she just got frustrated n' had me buy a new 1, so she could start over. of course, since it's just a sewing machine, u'r s'pposed to be able to loop the thread back in netime u want. i think kaela figured it out now, but i dunno. u c, my mom threw 'way the box earlier, so she couldn't just go n' exchange it. complicated situation... well, after fry's, i picked up kaela. we went to the gym 'round 500p. aktually, 1st we went to rite.aid. i did a li'l cardio, lots'f stretching, n' then a li'l bit'f weights. kaela went to pilates class. when we got home we ate mandoo / guoteh n' shumai. we watched on channel 28 this gameshow thingy called "happy together." there was hyori (from fin.k.l) teaching john from 5ion how to speak korean n' some other guy teaching annie (of tashannie) to speak korean. funny; i didn't realise so many korean gasoo r korean.amerikans. i mean, i knew j is... n' park junghyun (lena park)... n' of course, dave kim talked 'lot 'bout jini from kiss.
well, i guess we'll be leaving 4 a tahoe daytrip early 2morrow morn. depending on how early it is n' how we feel, i figure we'll pick btwn a free day @ sierra w/ our season passes, or a day w/ gotta pay 4 @ northstar but w/ a bunch'f our friends who r already up there. we'll c.
this weekend is the real lunar new yr, tho' my family
aktually sort'f celebrated last weekend. in mandarin, ppl
say, "gongji fae chai." i think that means "rooster flying
vegetable." X-D
1043a: >:-( probs w/ my domain name registration server persist. >:-( that's really frustrating. i just wondering how many of u get to my page using www.benomix.com n' how many use www.ocf.berkeley.edu/~beno. i prefer u use benomix.com cos i pay 4 that service. however, the service has been very flaky lately. the song "flake" by jack johnson frequently plays on the radio nowadays. i can't believe it's feb already!!! :-o
so yesterday the beautiful kaela kang n' i made a daytrip to sierra@tahoe. [much later, 913p] i called this entry "hippity hoppity" cos i was proud to c kaela doing li'l jumps yesterday on her snowboard! :-) so proud! so we left san jo early in the morn, we stopped by carl's jr. somewhere near fairfield 4 breakfast. we snowboarded @ sierra. 'twas free cos we have our season passes. we had lunch @ the west bowl smokehouse. we had a bowl of adobe chicken w/ toasted corn soup n' a ft long hotdog. mmm, it was so good. it started snowing while we were @ lunch. we snowboarded 4 a li'l more in west bowl thru the snow, then we headed back to the front side to ride the li'l baby terrain park 4 a while. lemme tell u... on rails, i can 50/50 grind 'em (riding them straight on), but i aktually haven't gotten the hang of frontside or backside railslides (where u straddle the rail). also, i only ride pretty small rails, i gotta admit; no big 1s yet. well, after a good day of snowboarding, we hit the road, which was now a li'l bit snowy. i stopped 4 gas in cordelia, n' we pretty much just went home.
aktually, b4 we went home, we went to safeway to get some groceries. @ home, kaela cooked portabello shroom n' asparagus pasta. we watched one hour photo on vcd, which i dled. we were watching national velvet on kqed 9 (pbs) but fell asleep.
2day, we went to sf j.town. i guess kaela had some talk to go to
that had to do w/ that skool of alternative medicine or sumpthin'. *shrug*
she didn't really explain to me what she went to cos she knows i get all
pissy when she talks 'bout those skools cos i don't wanna move to oregon or
washington. :-( neway... :-( thinkin' 'bout it depresses me, but i'm
getting better 'bout not thinking 'bout it. :-/ while she was @
her thing, i met up w/ jason lee n' this gurl courtney who's werking on
that projekt jason has w/ us. aktually, b4 i met up w/ them, i was
hanging 'round the bookstore, where i realised that 1 thing i really like
'bout japanese ppl over other asian ppl is that japanese ppl aktually
snowboard!!! like, i mean... in japan... like, i guess
taiwanese ppl in taiwan don't snowboard cos there's no snow in taiwan.
i hear korean ppl in korea just sort'f snowboard n' ski 4 the look
of it... they just do the whole preppy, "après.ski couture" thing.
in japan, i know they really do snowboarding w/ all the freestyle
tricks n' airs, not just riding 4 the sake of saying they ride.
that's good. neway, i met up w/ jason n' courtney. we talked
'bout the projekt 4 a while. we got some crêpes from sophie's
crêpes. i just had a li'l strawberry 
jam crepe
cos kaela n' i ate lunch @ home (leftover pasta). aktually, b4 jason
n' courtney got there, i had a nf cap from café hana. when
kaela joined us, she went n' bought a dozen takoyaki balls from the stand
outside of benihana. aktually, last nite, we saw a bit of a japanese
television show, where the kids kept eating takoyaki. it was kewl to
try it out. 'round 500p, our li'l mtg broke up. kaela n' i
went to the greeting card store. then my classmate friend dave came
by to drop off the textbook i lent to him. then we went home.
4 dinner, my mom prepared hot pot, what many ppl call shabu shabu. @
home, we call it hwuh gwuh in taiwanese... uh... i have no clue how to
romanise it! :-( (nuthin' looks quite right!) i'm really sleepy
right now. i just realised on fri, when i was studying, i took
13 pages of notes, not just 11. i was really bizzy, u know.
oh yah, earlier 2day, this morn, kaela n' i watched some of espn's
x.games 7 on abc kgo.7 while doing laundry.
1051a: i'm still @ home. i dunno if u realise how much i don't like being @ home. u know why? cos i don't study well @ home!!! i really need to be in the library or in a café! badly! i need to get out n' study in a library or café!!! *sigh* like, i feel pressure to eat lunch @ home to save $$$, but it's just bad 4 my studying n' skoolwerk, u know? >:-( i feel so trapped. :-( 1 distraktion i've had so far this semester is that i find my mind wandering 'lot more 2wards thinkin' 'bout $$$ n' career, u know? last semester, i didn't worry so much 'bout it, but this semester i have. 'least my classes this semester r more "hands.on" n' "industry.oriented" instead of more theoretical like last semester. in this case, it makes more sense 4 me to think 'bout engring jobs etc. :-/ well, i gotta werk sometime!!! every1's gotta werk sometime! :-/
right now, i'm listening to an old 박혜경 (park hyeikyuhng) cd. the beautiful kaela kang n' i have this dilemma: we buy "cute" postage stamps, but then kaela doesn't wanna use them cos she sez they're 2 cute. :-/ i tell her: if we don't use the cute stamps, the usps'll stop making cute stamps, they'll just make plain ol' flag stamps. :-(
4 the past coupl'f weeks or so, the furnace pilot lite was out. it wasn't so cold 4 a while, but this morn was really cold. i relit the pilot lite.
[later] 114p: sometime last yr, a long time 'go, i was in a pissy
mood. i wrote a few lines on my handspring but never posted them.
when did i write these lines? *shrug* i believe it was maybe like
in aug or sept. *shrug* since i mention 92.7fm, it must've been
the day after i wrote an entry 'bout 92.7 fm. *shrug* when was that?!
*shrug* neway, i ended up never posting these lines, i just felt they
were 2 pissy. b4 i left the house 2day i felt really pissy.
now i'm in the sjsu library, studying. throwing myself
into my books helps me 4get all the stressful crap i think 'bout.
neway, here r the lines:
not only is it better to
give than to receive, it feels better to give than receive.
generous ppl r greedy ppl.
every1's either passive aggresive or else an out in the open @$$hole.
b4 92.7 was tekno radio, it was just 'nother ksjo frequency.
do u 'member when i wrote some comments 'bout some dumb article i found on the net some kid wrote criticising 92.7fm as a radio station that just plays cds that out.of.werk dotcommers left behind in the bay area? i must've written those lines back then. hrm... sometime not 2 long 'go, i 'member hearing sumpthin' on tv on some fictional show where a woman was arguing that helping ppl is greedy. that's not a new idea. it's been discussed in literature n' film 4 decades n' centuries. i believe dostoevsky's crime n' punishment discussed this idea. i believe the movie grand canyon discussed this idea. what 'bout the idea that all ppl r either passive aggressive psychos or flat.out @$$hole jerks? yah, i sometimes believe that. lemme tell u, if u'r passive aggressive then u'r manipulative n' deceitful. if u'r a flat.out @$$hole jerk that makes demands of ppl, then ppl hate u more than u think n' they'll exact their revenge in due time. talk 'bout pessimistic talk! geez, just what kind'f pissy mood was i in b4 leaving the house 2day?!?!?!
i'm just 1nce 'gain not happy. i feel dissatisfied w/ life. how can i study when i feel like this? last semester, i had my studies all focused. so far this semester, i feel like crap. what?! should i just drop out of grad skool?! grrr! when was the last time i was really satisfied w/ life? has it not been since like 2000 or so? no, that's not true. i think i was decently satisfied w/ life last semester. life has its ups n' downs. i don't want so many ppl to envy my life, but i guess there've been times when i managed to find bright spots in dark times. i can be optimistic. right now? i don't feel as optimistic, no. i have mood swings, yes.
of course, all this talk 'bout oregon n' washington has set this off.
it's more internal conflict than external conflict. i
don't think ppl realise that. they think it's just me not letting
kaela pursue education. no, it's not that. i'm off hating
myself 0.5 the day. after weeks, a bunch'f 0.5 days add up, u
know. what kind'f fiancé doesn't let his fiancée go
to college?! it's not like she didn't go thru 7 yrs of berkeley n' came out w/ bachelor's degrees from 2
depts n' a master's degree! it's not like i'm saying women
shouldn't go to college, they should just graduate from hi skool n'
become housewives. obviously, i'm not saying that. but how
can i keep twisting n' contorting my life just so that kaela can go
'round collecting degrees?! i'm so not happy. :-(
100p: sorry, i haven't updated in a while. i'm ok, i guess.
how r u? i have "cad" lab @ 230p. hopefully, i can
write more later. uh, in the meantime, if u need beno journal
entries, u can always read my archive n' sign my gbook.
1207a: now it's 1207a on thurs morn / wed nite. on mon nite, after class, i went to kinko's to make some fotocopies of some reading material i need 4 skool. then i went to the hamilton/meridian gym to werk out 4 a while. i got to watch more of winter x.games while werking out. i came home. the beautiful kaela kang n' my mom already ate dinner. i ate the same thing: some aidell's habanero chicken/turkey sausages n' some salad. tues, i drove kaela to some integrative health clinic where she sed she's gonna volunteer to werk as a receptionist to learn more 'bout the bizness. i hung out @ borders bookstore in santana row 4 a while. then i picked up kaela. we ate lunch @ valley fair's fud ct. i had a healthmex mahi.mahi burrito from rubio's, n' kaela had mongolian bbq from great khan's. we found some crazy good deals @ br on winter clearance stuff. i bought a pair of nice, nice merino wool gloves 4 $6.99. kaela got some really kewl stuff 2. we went to campus n' studied in the café 4 a while. then i went to my classes, n' kaela went to her old office to clear out her things. she came back, picked me up, n' we went to taekwondo practice. it was fun. there wasn't many ppl there @ all. we sort'f had an open werkout. i got to werk on lots'f "demo" stuff. it's funny to call it "demo stuff," cos i know i'm prob'ly not gonna do a demo in a while, but eh! they're "demo techniques," u know? fancy stuff... then we came home, ate some salmon w/ black bean sauce, vegetables, n' tomato n' egg.
2day was wed. kaela n' i ate lunch @ home: steamed shaolongbao. ("small dragon buns..." some ppl call them postickers, i guess.) then we went to campus. i had class @ 230-430p cos i switched from the 530-645p sektion to this sektion. thus on wed, i have lab from 230-430p, n' then i'm done. on mon, i still go to lekture @ 530-645p. we picked groups 4 our lab projekts 2day. i thought i'd end up grouping w/ brian, but it didn't turn out that way. i'm grouping up w/ 2 new guys: rami n' payam. they're both iranian, so i'm the only non.iranian in my group. heh, funny. oh yah, during my class, kaela went to get a haircut. after class, i couldn't reach her. i wandered 'round the campus trying to figure out what to do. i guess i sat in the library 4 a while n' checked my e.mail etc. then i went to the atm to get some $$$. i was gonna next go get a drink from the student union, but i ran into kaela! :-D funny! so funny! we went to the health center n' both used our university health insurance to skedule free physikal checkups, since we can. then we went to sunnyvale 4 a cake tasting w/ a baker. well... i thought the cakes were all very beautiful... but i wasn't so pleased w/ the texture of most'f the cakes: 2 dry n' heavy!!! i prefer asian style cakes w/ lite, airy cake n' plenty of fruit! well, i'm glad the baker was very straight4ward n' honest. heh, 1 thing... the helper that greeted us; she didn't even acknowledge my presence when i walked in w/ kaela. she was only interested in speaking to brides not grooms. crazy. already, i've sensed that wedding vendors resent grooms. 'least this woman was more honest 'bout that. heh. well, after eating all that sugary, fattening cake, we drove thru sunnyvale, got on the hi.way, n' went to the capitol expwy. gym. we werked out 4 a long time cos kaela was watching the bachelorette. while i waited 4 her to finish her show, i saw part of star dates w/ gary coleman. man... <:-( i sort'f feel sorry 4 him cos he cms to express that ppl don't take him seriously, n' he cms to be rather unhappy 'bout that. :-(
oh yah! phil was recently quoted in an ap national news article! check out: "opinions change over a military draft," by david crary on y! news. go phil! :-)
recently, phil's sister vicky n' a guy name tsu moua signed my gbook n' showed us that they r kewl. :-) u can 2, u know. :-) sorry 'bout my domain name being all messed up still... 'member... if u have probs accessing nething on benomix.com, just replace the "www.benomix.com" w/ "www.ocf.berkeley.edu/~beno/", n' that'll fix it. :-) teknical difficulties, u know? sorry.
[much later] 233p: it's still 2003.02.06, still thurs. i have
class @ 400p. i have 2 hw assignments due: 1 4 my "precision
machine design" class n' 'nother 4 my "advanced mechatronics" class.
i'm typing up my "precision machine design" hw right now. i
haven't left the house 2day. kaela n' i ate buffalo wings n'
smoothies 4 lunch; strawberry.banna smoothies. 
[later] 1024p: how r u? :-) i'm ok. i'm @ home right now, typing on my handspring. i'm trying to spend some time 'way from the 'puter cos man... i spend 2 much time on the net on the 'puter. :-/ so i went to class 2day. it was ok. in btwn classes, i found kaela in the market café in the fud ct. there, i got myself a nonfat cappuccino. after class, i went to taekwondo practice. since it's thurs, 'twas sparring nite. my legs were pretty dang tired. on my way home, i got some gas (4 my car, not in my stomach). when i got home, i ate baby back ribs, beans, n' salad. we had buffalo wings 4 lunch n' baby back ribs 4 dinner. it's like we live in chili's! :-) that's what i jokingly told kaela, but we liked the fud.
oh yah, this morn, i had a dream that there was this machine that could find out what u dream 'bout n' display it on a screen. weird n' futuristik, huh? weird to dream 'bout dreams, right?
well, 2morrow's fri. u know what'd be kewl, if kaela n' i drove
up to tahoe 2morrow, snowboarded, stayed overnite, snowboarded sat, n'
came home. well, it was a thought i had earlier this week.
*sigh* it doesn't look like it'll happen tho'. :-/ i'm thirsty.
1111a: how r u? :-) u gotta tell me, u know. u can sign my gbook to let me know! :-) i haven't yet answered those gbook questions, eh? :-D well, no1's bugged me 'bout it yet. :-)
last nite, i stayed up 2late... sort'f. i wanted to go to
sleep earlier, but i was watching tv. last nite, i avoided the
internet! can u believe that?! i didn't turn on my 'puter @
all yesterday! i used my handspring to type the last part of
yesterday's entry. ('member: u always gotta check my daily entry to
c if i added stuff to the end. :-) ) i watched tv w/ the beautiful
kaela kang.
u know she watches so much more tv than i do, right? i
watched some of the simpsons of course. then i saw most of 2
episodes of will and grace. u c, kaela kept flipping the
channel to er, so i might've missed a li'l of all these shows, but
maybe just a li'l. i watched an episode of 3rd rock from the
sun. even tho' i wanted to sleep, star trek voyager came
on n' the episode "dark frontier" was just sooo interesting!!! 
it must've been a season finale cos it was
sooo elaborate w/ the special effects, etc. in this episode
captn. janeway get ambitious 'bout taking advantage of the borg.
man, i dunno if they'll show the continuation of "dark frontier" 2nite on
upn44. i dunno if i'll be home to watch it @ midnite. i
wonder if i should find out what the name of the next episode is n' try to
dl it. *shrug* uhm, is searching the net to find the name of star trek
episode i wanna download just a li'l 2 nerdy? <:-( 
(worst... episode... ever!!!)
here's a mugshot of me being arrested 4 being 2 much'f a nerd:
[a li'l later] 1151a: so i'm gonna try to use the internet less 4 a
while. i dunno. it cms like i've been online 2 much lately.
i don't wanna be a nerd. :-( just nerdy 'nuff to be a good
engineer. :-)
109a: i'm so shaggy. :-( i badly need to be sheared. :-( i need a haircut so badly! :-( *sigh* oh well. well, it's either fri nite or sat morn, depending on how u look @ it.
2day... 2day, i drove the beautiful kaela kang 'round hicks rd, which loops 'round almaden valley's famous quicksilver park. 4 the past few weeks or months, we've been talkin' 'bout this green patch on 1 of the hills that is cn from almaden valley, which is the neighbourhood we live in in san jo. we used to think the green patch was on mt. umunhum, but then we realised it's not. it's on 1 of the closer mtns. i drove 'round hicks rd. we went up to sierra azul preserve. it was so dang beautiful there. we saw how the vegetation changed as we got to the higher altitude. up there, it looks like the landscape on the thunder mtn. railroad ride @ disneyland. it's beautiful.
well, after driving 'round hicks rd, we went to talk to cake vendors. whuh?! that's how we spend our fri daytime nowadays?!?! yah, really! that's what we did! we went to some bakeries, looked @ their goods. as i sed, on wed nite, we went to a bakery. that's what some ppl call an "american" bakery. it's really "european.american..." 2day, we went to asian or asian.am bakeries. we bought some buns from sogo bakery. we ate them. oh yah, b4 we left, we ate some baby back rib leftovers 4 lunch. after visiting 2 bakeries, we got espresso drinks from starbucks.
after visiting our 3rd bakery, we went to the gym. we werked out 4 a while. while @ the gym, i read the wave magazine n' the metro. i like those publikations! :-) i read some really funny articles in the wave. in the metro, i read 'bout david choe's graffiti art exhibit @ gallery anno domini @ 800p 2nite. gallery a.d. is located @ 150 s. montgomery st in san jo.
well, right after our werkout, we headed out to c this exhibit. it was pretty kewl. i think the dj that was spinning @ the exhibit went to my hi skool, this guy matt ro. if that's who i think it was, he was in band w/ me n' skateboarded w/ me a li'l. the exhibit was really kewl, n' i felt "@ home" there. like, i felt like i fit in w/ the art... more so than the other ppl who came to view the art. i didn't talk to the artist. we didn't stick 'round that long.
we drove over to tony & alba's @ the main street strip mall. we ordered a linguica pizza a la gilroy (w/ garlic n' jalapeño). while waiting 4 the pizza, we walked over to albertson's n' met up w/ ken n' grace. we got some drinks, caesar salad, n' anchovies. :-) we picked up the pizza n' headed over to ken n' grace's. we ate n' watched the banger sisters.
have u cn the proposed designs 4 the cali state quarter? check out: "california quarter design - poll". the voting's over. i didn't get to vote. which 1 do u like best? hrm, which 1 do i like best? dang! so many goldrush designs, n' #3 looks like disney's cali4nia adventure! i do like the idea of having a bear on it tho'. the golden gate bridge's important since sf's the world's top tourist destination. coin #13's kind'f cute cos there's that cuddly bear wading in the water right next to the miner. :-D hrm, maybe #13'll be the winner. #16 has a quail, n' i do like burdies. does ne1 know the winner yet? *shrug*
u know... 2nite i found out that those naturopathic doctorate programs that kaela's applying to r 4 4-5 yrs. :-o all this time, i thought they were just 1 yr. that really stressed me out. :-( i dunno... u know me... i'll just try not to think 'bout it... :-/ i'll just... *sigh* i'll just do sumpthin'. :-(
i'm frickin' 27 yrs old. :-/ how come some ppl
can be young n' restless n' do it so gracefully... yet every1 'round me...
well, so many ppl 'round me... it just isn't the "rebel w/o a cause" life 1
would expekt?! :-( *sigh* what do u think'f the whole bipolarity of yuppie
life v. starving artist life? well... aktually... is there a
bipolarity? or r ppl of my generation trying more to bridge the gap?
i think the whole internet age sort'f changed that. now, u
can be a young punk n' yet be pretty dang geeky! that wasn't the
case in the past, right? *shrug* heh... i'm not saying we're all geeky
punks... :-/ geez! what the heck gives me the right to be
so dang self.righteous all'f the sudden?! absolutely nuthin'!
sometimes, tho'... i just think that i used to be a more intersting person
n' kick myself 'round 4 that. don't 4get: after doing taekwondo 4 a
while now, i can kick pretty hard.
am i just gloomier these days? <:-(
*shrug* it goes off n' on. i dunno... what'd make me happy?
<:-/ i dunno... i'm just more pessimistic now, eh? well, if
i sit 'round thinkin' that i'm gloomier these
days, i get more depressed. :-/ what can i do to think more
positively? :-/ u know... i think yesterday i had the idea 'bout
spending less time on the net n' maybe trying to get more back into djing.
what happened to my ol' zeal 4 muzik?!?! yah... i dunno. yah,
i'll try to get back into more djing stuff. i think i shall.
well... we'll c. :-(
119p: my legs have been sore this past week. i'm typing from my
home 'puter, so i'm not in tahoe snowboarding right now, nope. i'd
like to be, but we didn't go to tahoe. 1 reason i didn't go is that
my legs n' back have been so sore lately. i've been getting a decent
'mount of exercise lately. i guess i've been exercising every single
day: either going to the gym or taekwondo. that's a good thing.
my back, it originally got sore early in the season from doing
stoopid li'l jumps on sierr@tahoe's boardercross trail... what is
that run called? smokey, right? neway, i always say that small jumps
hurt me more than big jumps. big freestyle ramps have a decline on
the other side of the ramp, u know? it goes takeoff, table, then
landing. some of the li'l jumps i go off of when i'm
not in the terrain park, those jumps r just li'l jumps w/ a pretty
flat landing. in these cases, when i land, 'lott'f the impakt gets
absorbed by my body. u c, when u have a decline on ur landing, u
land n' go fast, but ur back n' knees don't take so much impakt.
man... all this snowboarding talk makes me wish i were in tahoe. :-(
we're definitely going to tahoe next weekend w/ ppl from taekwondo.
i hope we can go to tahoe 2 weekends in a row. u c, i feel sort'f
bad 'bout going to tahoe now cos i'm trying not to make 2 many
daytrips now n' do more overnite trips. however, in that case, we
gotta rent lodging, n' i feel bad spending $$$ on lodging, u know? i
mean, since we have season passes, we don't hafta buy lift tix, n' that's
so kewl!!! however... we still gotta pay 4 gas, lodging, n' fud. :-(
well, i hope we can go 2 weekends in a row; n' i hope it snows this
week. 
i gotta keep reminding u that
snowboarding to us isn't a luxury resort experience; it's just an athletic
activity.
what's been going on lately? i haven't updatedchu in a while... a while, meaning some span of time btwn 1 n' 24 hrs, right? *shrug* no, i think it's been longer than 24 hrs since my last update. right now it's sun. it's early sun afternoon. yesterday: what happened yesterday? well, yesterday was sat. what did we do? well, we weren't in tahoe. we uh... we had lunch w/ the beautiful kaela kang's grad skool friend n' my hi skool friend margaret leung. she was in band w/ me when i was a sr n' she was a freshman. we both played clarinet. we went to olive garden 4 lunch, n' i had the seafud uh... uh... seafud portofino pasta! i had peach iced tea. wow, so much seafud, so much fud! then kaela n' i went to valley fair. i had some jewelry biz to do... by jewelry biz, i mean this: i had to go to a jeweler to get my mont blanc belt (which kaela gave me 4 our 3rd anniversary) adjusted. then i had to get my esq watch's battery replaced. the belt adjustment was free. the watch battery replacement was $10. i didn't buy nething, but we looked 'round the mall 'lot. then ppl 4 jason's "projekt" met up in valley fair. john pai (gulid) 1st met up w/ us. then jason n' his fellow film maker buddy aaron showed up. we hung out in the fud ct 4 a while. man, i'm so excited 'bout the upcoming asian.am film festival. jason gave us some literature 'bout it. i wanna go c some of these movies. in the past, i also wanted to go; but i never got to. :-( i told aaron 'bout how my sister grace n' steve know the film maker of "kung pao chicken." aaron knew the movie. he told me we can watch the film on ifilms.com. yes, i did find it; it's there. well, it's aktually linked on ifilms.com to some atomfilms.com site. *shrug*
after hanging out w/ the "projekt" group, kaela n' i went to the gym.
we went to the capitol/aborn 1. we werked out 4 a while.
i did cardio, stretching, n' weights, as usual. i got a
decent werkout, i think. after werking out, i took a shower there.
u know, it really helps me to take a shower @ the gym after lifting
cos it keeps my muscles warm, u know? if i lift weights n' then go
right out in the cold winter air, i get so sore n' stiff. :-( after
the gym, we went home. we ate dinner: beef n' broccoli, shrimp n'
beans. it was pretty late by then, but i didn't realise how late it
was. nelson called me during dinner to ask me some teknical
questions. then he proposed going out to do sumpthin' social n/or
fun. yah, after kaela showered, we went out. as i sed, i
didn't realise how late it was; so, even tho' we discussed watching a
movie, there weren't really many showings left @ that hr. we were
kind'f late 4 ne ~1030p showings, n' we didn't wanna stay out 4 those post
midnite showings. no movies @ the amc theatres were starting 'round
1100p. that would've been fine. we drove out to downtown san
jo, parked @ the pavilion's free evening garage. we went to e&o
trading's lounge. it was only open till midnite. when we got
there 'twas already 1100p n' last call 4 drinks. nelson bought us
some drinks. i had a "guava god." kaela had a "kiwitini," n' nelson
had a kewl, diff chocobanana rum drink. we sat 'round n' chatted. it was fun to talk to
nelson. i hadn't cn him a while... i guess, not since grace's b.day
(ken's grace).
i have some random tasks to do 2day. man, i really sort'f wish i were in tahoe snowboarding. :-/ well, i gotta rest sometime, right? *shrug* kaela n' i ate some microwave minipizzas n' salad 4 lunch. man, this semester... i sort'f miss those theory classes. i had just gotten so used to doing paper probs, n' now i'm 4ced to do more hands.on projekts. yah, it's kewl... those r fun things... but hrm... it's major flip.flopping from theory to hands.on. well... i guess the rest'f grad skool'll be more hands.on stuff... but hrm... that's why i sort'f wanna write a thesis instead of doing a "projekt." we in the msme (master of science mechanical engineering) program have a choice of doing a projet or thesis. *shrug* 1 thing that bothers me is that these more conceptual classes... i gotta stay @ home n' do the hw on my 'puter instead of just taking my engineering pad (engr's graph paper tablet) to a café n' doing my hw there. in some cases, i can just type my hw on my handspring. that werks out ok 2. however, if i'm @ home typing on wurd, using the ms equation editor, then yah... i don't like that so much cos home has 2 many distraktions. i don't like it. it has distraktions n' makes me feel like a bum. that's sooo discouraging!!!
[just a li'l later] 212p: hrm, i'm trying not to end my journal
entries on negative notes. lessee, what can i say positive? uhm,
i'll just leave w/ a pic of mashimaro (aka "the bunny"):
[later] 1004p: dang, i ate so much 2nite. :-( kaela n' i ate salad,
baked ziti w/ meat sauce, n' boisenberry pie. dang, i ate so much,
n' aktually... no exercise 2day. :-( 2day, we got out of the house
so late! 'round 400p, we went out to target... but not the 1
closest to our house, the 1 in westgate mall. man! that's a big
target. i guess the 1s in newpark mall n' in that san mateo area
mall (i 4get the name) r pretty big 2. these r 2 story targets.
after that, we went to the pruneyard trader joe's, which 'gain
isn't the 1 closest to our house but bigger.
1214a: it's late sun nite or early mon morn. do u know 'bout happy bunny? happy bunny is a series of drawings by some guy named jim benton. on sat, when the beautiful kaela kang n' i were walking from our car to valley fair mall thru its parking lot, we saw a car w/ 2 cute li'l air freshners taped to its rear windshield. 1 was happy bunny pointing to some red lip prints on his butt cheek, n' the other was happy bunny pinching his nose n' saying "you smell like butt." we both thought these drawings were very cute.
i think i found this copyrighted image on jim benton's website: www.jimbenton.com. no, aktually, i think i got it from the website that markets his paraphernalia (stickers, t.shirts, air freshners, lunchboxes, patches, etc.): www.blackjackinc.com (very much not to be confused w/ www.getjackblack.com, where i bought some manly men's skincare produkts a while 'go.
well, earlier
2nite, i was thinking 'bout what my "ideally yuppie"
life'd be. k, do u know what i mean by that?!?! i mean... u
know i have my "yuppie scum must die" influences, as well as my "why
don'tchu cutchu'r hair n' get a job?!" influences. u get what i'm
saying right? basically, i'm not saying i was thinking 'bout how i'm
dreaming of some ideal yuppie life. i was more
imagining if, in a parallel universe, if things had werked out diff'ly, how
i could be living some ultimately yuppie life @ age 27 instead'f being a
grad student, right? like... what if life were like this: i'm 27.
i may or may not have gone to grad skool, but i definitely have my
bsme (bachelor of science mechanical enginerring) n' werk 4 some big
corporation which prob'ly makes missiles... or they could make 'puter
chips... who knows? k, let's say i have a decent engring job that
pays 'bout $70k - $80k... hrm, or should i say $60k - $70k? :-/
hrm, which'd be more realistik? :-/ well, let's say $60k - $80k
then. imagine i had that kind'f job. i drive to werk thru
commute traffik every day; eat a burrito @ lunch. let's say i bought
myself 'least a condo if not a quaint li'l house. what kind'f
neighbourhood? *shrug* hrm... well, a nice 1... not 2 snobby but not
ghetto. i drive from that (li'l) house or condo to my werkplace
every single morn. maybe i drink coffee. let's say kaela n' i
r married or not, but we live 2gether, just the 2 of us, in that condo or
house. we have mtn bikes. we ride them every so often.
we travel now n' then to somewhat "exotic" locations... or well... 'least
to places like europe n' whatever tropical destinations r hip these days.
well... since i've got a nice engring job n' own my own dwelling,
we've got a doggy. what kind? oh, i dunno... a lab, golden
retriever, husky... sumpthin' not 2 wimpy but fun n' not menacing.
well, the house... it's not 2 big... since i'm a young
yuppie, i still dream of bigger n' better things. i've spent $$$ on
a decent tv, digital satellite, nice furniture... nice kitchen... we go
out to eat nice fud n' drink nice wine almost 1nce a week... yah, we
travel, as i sed... but maybe not that often... like 1nce a yr...
but we, as young yuppies dream of doing more in the future.
we don't have kids yet cos we're young yuppies, but we want them
sometime down the line. we shop @ nice grocery stores, buy gourmet
fud now n' then... but still watch our budget... cos we're young
yuppies. so yah... imagine if that were the case.
:-/ u know... like, living in san jo, i c how that life
could happen... i won't say could've happened... cos i guess
it still can happen... but the pt is that right now, in the
present, i was thinking how things didn't turn out exaktly like that.
like... i guess i thought 'bout that while we were in trader joe's
last nite (which was just like 5-6 hrs 'go). i was thinking how
well... dang, what if i wasn't in grad skool right now but werking, making
bucks. yah, maybe we'd have our own nice place. we'd have a
kitchen. we'd go out to trader joe's now n' then get some innovative
frozen n' jarred fuds. maybe we'd have a doggy. maybe
it'd eat fud from trader joe's.
u know... my grad skool program only takes 2 yrs... then i'm outta there. i hope to find myself a nice silly valley job. it's such a dramatic change in lifestyle 4 an engr to be in grad skool or werking, i guess. geez, i really hate how the silly valley keep tempting my mind to think materialistically. it's so evil! >:-( but... but all i want is a decent job, a home... n' not cos i'm so dang hellbent on owning property... but just cos if we have our own house we can own a dog! that's my motivation! man, u all roll ur eyes @ me. :-/
u know... i'll always have some spite 4 those college kids who'd question my motives 4 studying engring; ppl who thought all engring students just study engring cos they wanna make big bucks. @#%# all'f 'em!!! so how r they thinking now?! now we're frickin' 27, n' every1 wants a job that'll permit a com4table life... don't tell me only engring students were sellouts! edukation 4 edukation's sake... that's what college was s'pposed to be 'bout, eh? well, dang! i do enjoy engring... @ the same time, i think 'bout career n' finances now n' then. maybe my line of edukation n' my career just sort'f go 2gether more than ppl who pursued other fields of study. so what?! we all gotta think 'bout both sometime... n' that includes the latter: career n' finances. it's fun to be in skool... 'least... it was fun to be in skool.. back when we were young... man, now it's really diff. going to skool past ur b.s. @ this age... it's not the same as doing ur undergrad fresh from hi skool. ppl always say u'r losing so much $$$ while being in grad skool instead of werking, n' they're right. in the end, is it worth it?! well, 4 me... just 2 yrs to get my masters... that's all i'm trading in... i've committed to it. i've committed to it, n' i've gotta stay strongminded n' focus on my studies instead'f feeling all frickin' whiney 'bout how there r such nice things in the silly valley, but i'm stuck being a full.time grad student. i tell u: i'm a dang good engr!
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come on baby 세상을 내게 맞추고 말고 난 할 수있어 두렵진않죠 꿈이 있는한 당신앞에 나를 봐요... forever i wanna be a star. |
come on baby, the world was made for me and i can do it. i'm not afraid. right in front of dreamy you, see me... forever i wanna be a star. |
i'm not a parapara queen, but i'll be a parapara king! :-) uh... i think... what's a para para queen or king? *shrug* maybe it has'ta do w/ that video game para para paradise. <:-( *shrug* that's a ddr (dance dance revolution) type game where u also use ur hands. well... i don't play para para paradise or ne ddr.like game... but i'm gonna make it in this world! :-)
earlier 2day, i reflekted on a philosophy i developed during college 'bout big fun v. small fun. u c... i know lots'f undergrads have this kind'f prob of not being able to distinguish btwn big fun n' small fun n' not knowing which's better. k, lemme tell u what big fun n' small fun is. dang! i feel like robert kiyosaki talkin' 'bout rich dad v. poor dad on late nite infomercials w/ mike rowe from evening magazine popping up to support my box set of cds (or cassette tapes) n' video tapes. k, big fun is stuff u really kind'f go all out to do... it's what is a bit daring but rewards w/ lots'f good times. small fun is the somewhat fun stuff that doesn't take 2 much "risk" but doesn't really pay off that great in the end. let's differentiate the 2 (take the differential? <:-( no!):
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so... the things that r small fun... they're more like things we do to procrastinate! we do them quickly... but then we don't feel fulfilled... then we do more of them... then more n' more of them. pretty soon, we're filing our lives n' our whole daily skedule w/ small fun n' not getting our necessary tasks done such as skool or werk.
now the things that r big... oooh, they're kind'f risky! they take a li'l 4thought... or u think they 'least should. they prob'ly take a bit more $$$. u gotta sort'f commit to these things. 1nce u'r @ a party, u'r not gonna break open the books n' study 4 o.chem!!! these things take resources, but u know that they pay back in fun! u come home from snowboarding 4 a week or from clubbing 4 a nite, n' u've had tons of fun... u've made memories... u feel refreshed! u've given urself an experience of the good life. now... now u'r back @ home, back in the skool library, back @ werk; n' u'r ready to buckle down n' werk cos u know u've had ur fun!!! there's a certain dosage of fun every person needs, n' u'r better off getting it all in 1 shot instead of wasting ur time trying to accumulate it thru.out the whole week!!!
u got that? u understand my whole dang sermon?! i didn't
even ask 4 a donation 4 that wisdom! :-D i mean... i don't mean to
call myself a wiseman cos i'm not... but i know that developing that
philosophy during my undergrad studies really changed my akademics
n' my life. :-) ok ok ok... if u really feel obligated to give me
$$$, feel free to send some $$$ to my e.mail address via paypal! :-) u can
also e.mail me to get my mailing address 4 checks! X-D
1244p: how r u? i'm ok. i didn't update yesterday. sorry... the day b4's entry was pretty lengthy, right? i sort'f wanted to leave that as the most recent entry as long as possible cos i real wanna emphasize my pt 'bout "big fun v. small fun." i really think that's an important concept. "don't procastinate. either play or werk; don't try to do both @ the same time. don't underestimate or undervalue ur need to have fun now n' then! we rn't robots." that sums it up, right?
2day's wed. yesterday was tues. lessee, what happened
since my last journal entry? :-/ hrm... i woke up on tues
sometime... uh... i stayed @ home n' ate leftover ziti n' salad 4 lunch.
hrm... i stayed @ home much later than what's good 4 me. i
hope u ppl understand that it's really bad 4 me to be @ home n' eat lunch @
home. i really need to be out of the house n' in 1) the library, 2)
a café, or 3) the gym. those places make my life produktive.
sitting @ home makes me feel like a tree stump. the bad part
is that i know that eating lunch @ home saves $$$ 4 me. :-( however, it
really ruins my produktivity n' motivation. :-( oh well... well, i
went to my classes. ater my classes, i drove over to the cupertino
99, where i picked up the beautiful kaela kang, who
was waiting in her car in the parking lot. we went to taekwondo
practice. we went back to the cupertino 99 to go to fantasia to get
a coupl'f boba drinks. then we went home n' ate sausages, beans, n' salad.
this morn, we woke up to rain. it's raining here in san jo, maybe
in all of the bay area. *shrug* i hope it's snowing in tahoe! :-) we
had to rush to campus cos we both skeduled dr apptments 4 this morn.
our university health insurance gives us each 1 free physikal a yr, so we
wanted to exploit that. i drove us to campus in kaela's kia.
the road
was slippery, n' i sort'f wished i had driven my subaru w/ its awd instead. :-(
oh well. we managed not to crash. traffik was horrible.
our apptmnt's were 4 1000a 4 kaela n' 1015a 4 me. since i
know the parking garages r full in the morn, we had to park @ the park n'
ride shuttle lot. kaela rode the shuttle 4 her 1st time. we
hurried to the health center. the nurse sed we were 2 late 4 kaela's
apptmnt, but they'd accept me. i hadn't had a physikal in a very
long time... maybe since i was like 5 or so? ...so i went 'head n' did it.
wow, i never go to the doktor, so i was pretty not used to these
procedures. oh well, i got everything done. i didn't eat
breakfast 2day cos they told us to fast 4 10 hrs prior to the apptmnts.
since they wouldn't c kaela, she took her keys n' left. i'm
been trying to call her, but can't reach her. when i got out of the
health center, i was really hungry. eventually, i got lunch: i went
to the student union cafeteria n' got a eggplant panini. it was
pretty good. i've had it b4.
now it's 101p. i have my cad lab @ 230p. i've gotta remind myself to go to rm 333 not rm 213. i've been sitting in the engrng bldg's lounge area on the 2nd floor, studying. i gotta go pee badly, but i don't wanna leave my seat cos i'll lose it. oh well... i guess i gotta go sometime.
lessee, nething else i wanna talk 'bout? well, what's going on? this weekend, we'll go snowboarding w/ taekwondo ppl... taekwondo ppl from u.s. taekwondo academy, not ucmap... 'cept mark is also from berkeley like us. we're heading up to tahoe on sat n' coming back on mon morn (presidents' day).
[later] 119p: whoa whoa whoa! rewind!!! whiiiiiir... wo wo worrrgh... i made a big mistake in my recount of this week so far!!! i skipped mon! mon, i went to campus by 'bout noon. i studied 4 a li'l... just a li'l. then kaela picked me up from campus 4 lunch. i had a stoopid idea: since, on sun, we went to westgate mall's target right 'round the time the mall closed, we didn't get to explore the mall. thus, i suggested that we go there 4 lunch. since kaela had some kind'f morn snack, she wasn't hungry yet. we looked 'round michael's, the craft store. we were there 4 quite a while. then we went into the mall. we got an orange julius. u know what that is, right? b4 smoothies were so popular, there were orange julius joints in malls, li'l shops that sell fruit flavoured drinks, hot dogs, n' fries. i 'member going as a kid w/ my sister to oakridge mall n' getting orange julius fries n' eating them w/ malt vinegar. uh... i went w/ my sister, right? i think i also did that w/ some friends. *shrug* neway, that wasn't lunch. we looked 4 fud but didn't c ne good, appropriate options. [later; i was on the fon w/ kaela 4 a while; 156p] we ended up @ carl's jr. after lunch, i went to class. after class, i went to the gym. kaela was there, but she was in an "ab lab" class. i saw her, but she didn't c me. i did my cardio, stretching, n' weights werkout. i caught kaela on her way out. i told her to go on home cos i'd stay to lift more n' shower. @ home, we ate fried rice, salmon, n' asparagus. k, so that was mon. :-)
2day's wed, as i sed. 2morrow's thurs. i have hw due 2morrow 4 both "mechatronics" n' "precision machine design." i finished my "mechatronics" hw a while 'go, but i still gotta do my "precision machine design" hw. that assignment includes making a cardboard model. crazy, huh? do i have ne glue? i haven't had an assignment to make stuff w/ cardboard, glue, n' toothpicks etc. in a while. i hope i have glue.
[later] 213p: i checked my mail, using my handspring connekted via gomadic cable to my v60c. i dled 17 msgs, all spam!!! i aktually felt a li'l depressed by that. don'tchu hate getting more spam than real e.mail? i know spam marketing's increased like 1000x in the past yr or so.
[later] 939p: well, i went to class. after class, kaela met up w/
me on campus. we went to an engring 'puter lab to print out some
skool stuff. then we went to the gym, the capitol/aborn location.
i werked out... not 2 hard. kaela did powerflex n' ab
lab. we came home n' ate pork chops, leftover salmon n' asparagus,
tomato n' eggs, n' some leftover hot n' sour soup that kaela bought as a
snack yesterday afternoon from the cupertino 99. i really hope to
get a haircut 2nite from kaela. i'm so dang shaggy. i don't
like being shaggy. :-(
1010a: it's ken's b.day 2day! :-D heh, this guy's 28 now! man, crazy, huh? happy b.day, ken! :-)
i have hw due @ 400p 2day. i gotta do my hw. last nite, the beautiful kaela kang did indeed cut my hair. phew! i feel much better. :-)
[later] 1202p: kaela n' i ate some red bean soup.
[a li'l later] 1241p: 
so
earlier 2day, i was thinkin' 'bout this upcoming war that i detest so much. the press tells me that the
terror alert is high this weekend etc. *sigh* well... u know, the 1
thing dubyah is doing to stimulate the economy is to make sure the u.s. is
the most hated country in the world; that way every1 wants to kill us all.
in that case, why save $$$?! just go out n' spend, spend,
spend! problem solved.
a long time 'go, i had 'nother thought. c, i don't come up w/
thoughts that often. X-D u know, some ppl go 'round saying that
the u.s. hast'a go to war cos the iraqi government is mean to their ppl, so
we gotta do sumpthin' 'bout it or else the rest of the world won't respekt
us. >:-/ well, the way i c it, that's like justifying this situation:
teacher: tyrone, why did you hurt miguel?
tyrone: miguel sed my mom was a 2 dolla' ho, n' all the other kids
were laffin' @ me, so i stuck a skrewdriver thru his hand to make him
shuddup!
if ppl r supporting the war cos'f human rights etc., how come the ppl promoting the war effort rn't like amnesty int'l types? how come i don't c arab.americans totally rallying 4 war? i mean, i do know arab.americans. i don't necessarily know that they're totally 'gainst the war, but i certainly they're not the 1s totally promoting the war.
[later] 226p: i guess i'm done w/ my "precision machine design" hw cos i made my model of a kinematic clamp. that was the 1st part of our hw, but i saved it 4 last. (save the best 4 last.) i had to construct a model out of cardboard n' uh... stuff. me, i used drinking straws n' air freshener beads. i had to find glue. yes, we do have a bottle of elmer's glue, which was sitting in a drawer in the eating area... the uh... the room adjacent to the kitchen which isn't the dining room but the casual uh... some ppl'd say "breakfast nook," but i won't call it that. here's a pic w/ me n' the bottle of glue!
i've thinking that i'll skip taekwondo practice 2nite to let my back
rest since we have the big taekwondo snowboarding trip this
weekend. 2nite's sparring nite. i really like how
i've been able to go to taekwondo pretty consistently lately. oh
well. well, my classes end @ 645p. maybe i'll hit the gym
really quickly. after that, i can come home n' cook dinner.
kaela's class doesn't end till 845p.
1039a: happy v.day! 
353p: i don't have that much time to write/type cos we're gonna leave to tahoe w/ mark n' grace in 'bout an hr, n' the beautiful kaela kang n' i still gotta pack. kaela's bizzy doing sumpthin' on her 'puter, but i dunno what. i think it might have sumpthin' to do w/ our wedding invitations; i'm not sure. neway, she won't even come over to this room to look @ the amazingly ridiculously cute thing on my desktop. it's the windows media player visualization called "softie the snowman ii." it has this cute snowman dancing in falling snow to the beat of the song u play. his heart lites up, n' his scarf flaps. :-) it's fatally cute! dled it from the korean windows site. i dunno if the amerikan 1 has it or not. *shrug* u've gotta c it!!!
'nother thing that's terrifyingly cute is cellular teddy.
i gave kaela a cellular teddy 4 v.day. it looks like this: 
it's a cellfon speakerfon. u plug ur fon into
it, n' then u talk to it. it's head n' mouth move when it talks to
u. i like. i hope she likes it.
yesterday, 4 v.day, i took kaela to carmel. we had lunch @ anton & michel's. kaela had red abalone, n' i had sand dabs. we also shared a single artichoke, a bottle of jekel riesling, n' a cherries jubilee dessert 4 2. after chillin' in the restaurant n' walkin' 'round town a bit. we went to 17 mile drive. it's beautiful. @ nite, we drove back to san jo. i took kaela to a movie @ amc saratoga 14. we watched gangs of new york cos it's got all those oscar nominations. man, it was so violent. :-(
this morn, kaela n' i went to some presentation @ the center 4
integrative medicine (cim). this lady talked 'bout uh... uh... i'm
not sure whatchu call it... she just talked 'bout healing ppl thru like...
uh... touch, etc... kind'f like massage... but not really... she
mentioned stuff 'bout pull on ears n' sending energy from 1 hand to the
other thru a body part. she also talked 'bout scanning 4 ailments w/
ur hand. well... they do that on
star trek w/ that li'l elektronic device thingy. well... i'd like to
be the guy to invent that scanning thingy!!! after the presentation,
we went to the wolfe rd cupertino 99 to get pho 4 lunch @ superbowl.
we got boba drinks @ fantasia after that. then we
went to vallco mall. kaela went to order her bridesmaids' dresses.
then we went home. in 'bout 0.5 hr we're gonna leave 4 tahoe
w/ mark n' grace, as i sed.
i like softie the snowman. a long time 'go, i heard that some guy
had a winamp skin w/ seunghee lee dancing to the beat of the musik.
i never saw it.
1155a: 지금 명동순두부집에 점심 먹고 있어.
[later] 135p: now, i'm in the sjsu library. 2day, i had lunch w/ the beautiful kaela kang @ myungdong soondubujip n' then brought her to the airport. she went to visit 'nother skool of integrated medicine, this time in seattle. i'm in the library n'll be here till class @ 400p, i guess.
this was a very fun weekend. we went to tahoe. on sat afternoon, mark n' grace came over to our house. then we got in my car n' drove up. on the way, kaela realised she 4got her helmet n' goggles. marked convinced her to get a pair from a sporting goods store n' return them after this weekend. we were in fremont @ the time, so it would've been pretty hard to drive back home to get those things. we stopped in concord @ sun valley mall, where there's a copeland sports. we ate dinner @ cpk asap. (that's "california pizza kitchen a.s.a.p.," an "express" version of california pizza kitchen.) kaela n' i shared a portabello shroom pizza n' some white corn tortilla soup. the pizza was small. we 4got that cpk asap, which is also in the sjc mineta airport, serves personal size pizzas. after our dinner, kaela got an almond pretzel from auntie anne's. well, we were off to sactown. c, i booked a room 4 the 4 of us in the sactown la quinta inn, in the northern part'f sactown, right off the 80. i figured that'd get us to northstar on sun morn the fastest. it was an ok hotel, n' they gave us complimentary breakfast w/ fresh made waffles. i didn't know my snoring's still that bad, but mark n' grace told me it is.
sun was kewl. we met up w/ shim sabuhmnim n' "julie," (whom we usually would've called kang sabuhmnim, but she told us to call her julie.). dangit! the northstar ppl were being jerks n' didn't let us use our season passes cos they sed it was a holiday! grrr! sun wasn't a holiday! mon was presidents' day!!! >:-( however, they sed it was on our contrakt, blah, blah, blah. kaela n' i had to buy lift tix. neway, it was such a great day 4 snowboarding. the powder was so fresh n' pretty deep. it wasn't a freestyle day, not a terrain park day, just a powder n' downhill day. i had to do lots'f riding w/ my nose up, u know? that's how u plow thru deep powder. it was really fun! we did mostly black diamonds. we had lunch @ the top of the mtn. shim sabuhmnim bought us lunch. it was really delicious stuff from the bbq: grilled portabello shrooms, chili, cornbread, salad, garlic bread, clam chowder... mmm! dang, the resort was so crowded tho'. well, it was most noticeable @ the cafeteria, where it was impossible to get a seat inside. it was ok; we ate outside. it was a li'l cold, but no big deal. we had a great day, n' i got to show every1 else how fun it is to ride back to the car using homerun. if we had more time, i would've wanted to hit more of lookout mtn. i got to ride the 0.5pipe 1nce, but i didn't hit the terrain park @ all. it's ok. it snowed on us a bit. it was the kind'f snow w/ snowflakes! :-) after going back to the car, i drove us to reno.
we checked in @ the atlantis hotel. mark made the reservations, n' i didn't know we were aktually gonna be staying in the adjacent motor lodge not the main hotel tower. well, it was cheap; so that was kewl. it's a weird arrangement tho'. i guess atlantis bought out whatever used to be the nearby motor lodge n' sort'f annexed it. @ dinner, we went to downtown reno n', heh, ate pho. funny, huh? i'd cn that pho restaurant b4 a long time 'go but had never been there. u c, 1tym, when i went boarding w/ supermike n' eric johnson, we stayed in uh... either the silver legacy or circus circus; i 4get... neway, when we got to the hotel (that time), s.mike kept saying he wanted pho. i kept telling him, "there's no pho in reno!!!" instead we ate @ the silver legacy's restaurant. i 4get if it was the buffet or some other restaurant there. neway, in the morn, i opened the hotel room's curtains. what did i c right 'cross the street, down below? in big letters, "pho." ha ha ha X-D so that's how i discovered that downtown reno has a pho restaurant. it makes sense; lots'f vietnamese ppl werk in the casinos, so there's gotta be some vietnamese fud in reno. well... heh, shim sabuhmnim bought us dinner. we felt really grateful n' guilty 4 such good treatment. after dinner, mark, grace, kaela, n' i went to the circus circus casino. kaela n' don't have much luck w/ gambling, 'ccording to her aunt's palm reading, so we don't gamble much. we just played a li'l slots. we were in the casino 4 hrm... maybe 'bout an hr. then we went back to the hotel.
in the morn, we got up kind'f late. mark n' grace hit the casino, but kaela n' i just had a li'l snack @ the café. then we checked out n' left. we stopped by the panda express in truckee 4 lunch. there was plenty of returning vacationers' traffik on the way back to the bay area. geez! the whole bay area was in tahoe 4 presidents' day weekend! aktually, presidents' day wasn't a holiday @ sjsu. well, my prof 4 my only class, didn't really have class; he just told us to meet w/ our projekt groups. i got to san jo just in time to meet w/ them.
ken had kaela n' i come over 4 dinner after my group mtg. we had pizza. kaela n' i brought over some soda n' beer. heh, we watched the finale of joe millionaire. u know i don't really approve of reality tv or much tv @ all, but i watched it n' was mildly entertained.
2day's tues. wow, in a way, i guess time is flying by fast this semester. i'd better stop writing this stoopid entry n' get back to studying! >:-( *sigh* it's crazy crazy crazy how time's flying by this semester. :-/
oh yah, this weekend was kind'f special in that i got in touch w/ a coupl'f old friends. while we were in copeland's, elbert called me from japan. we talked 4 a while. he's in a cell physiology graduate program in a japanese university now. on the slopes @ northstar, i ran into hannyu chang. she heard mark yelling "beno" to me. she was standing next to mark. she's in minnesota w/ her bf, werking. i believe she's doing 'puter stuff. i knew her from leland cos she was in band w/ me. then she also went to cal n' did taekwondo there 4 a li'l. she told kaela, back in 1995, to order taekwondo sparring 'quipment from me, who had a connektion from ken. that's how kaela encountered me the 2nd time. :-)
well, what else has been going on? *shrug* it's 207p on tues
afternoon, n' i really should get back to studying. >:-( right now
i'm typing on my handspring
.
i've been telling myself to spend less time on the 'puter, less time
online. since we have dsl, i feel i should get my $$$'s worth from
it, n' i guess that's sort'f a subconscious pressure or 'least
justification to be online more. tv's evil, yes; but internet, it's
not that great either, i s'ppose. it's better than tv but
still not that great. 'member the good ol' days when
companies'd pay u to be online? ha ha ha X-D what a concept, huh?
what 'bout being paid to watch tv?
1222p: i'm sitting in a cushioned chair on the bottom floor of the sjsu student union. when i look up from my chair, i can c 2 staircases n' some wooden artwerk that resembles the skeleton'f some sort'f prehistoric creature. sunlite flows in thru the skylite. it's a partly cloudy, partly sunny wednesday. i wish i had gotten out'f the house earlier, but i was printing out a job cover letter n' some class notes. 'member how i had a physikal checkup a week 'go? please c "a doktor a day keeps the apples 'way," from 2003.02.12. in a few mins, i have some sort'f follow up 'ppointment where, i guess, the drs.'ll tell me whatever results or whatever. *shrug* 'member: i never go c drs., so i dunno what to expekt. *shrug* however, i guess i do expekt it to be a really short apptmnt.
on my drive in 2day, i had several thoughts. 1 thing i thought 'bout was how my undergrad yrs were... 'specially in comparison to how my grad student life is. i'm sure many ppl who used to read my journal quit due to getting so dang sick'f hearing whine 'bout being a "poor grad student." don't worry! that's not my topik here! i just thought 'bout my undergrad yrs n' tried hard to 'member what they were like, tried hard to pikture in my head a scene from a typikal day from those yrs.
in doing so, i 'membered 1 funny incident from my undergrad yrs. back in those yrs, most'f us didn't have cellfons. sure, some "rich kids" did, but back in like 1995 or 1996, most'f us berkeley students didn't. sure, many had pagers, n' that includes me; i had a pager. now, if some1 paged me, what did i do? well, in those days, usually when some1 paged u, u'd either go find a payfon or ask to borrow the house fon; 4 example, if u were studying @ a friend's place. well, brilliant, brilliant toby came up w/ an ingenious solution, great 4 answering pages while on the berkeley campus!!! he figured out how to make off.campus calls from campus fons!!! [1248p: in health center waiting room] this involved dialing some extra #s n' finding sekret codes or borrowing a dorm.residing student's sekret code. toby hunted down sekret codes by trial n' error; it was sort'f "hacker" style, but neither'f us r hackers. campus fons r, or 'least were, located all over campus. [112p: my medikal report was perfekt, according to the doc. now, i'm in the market café eating a mediterranean vegan sandwich w/ baby spinach salad.] besides the normal, wall.mounted, "handset n' base" type rotary or dial tone fons, yellow, "emergency call box" campus fon provided us w/ a way to exploit toby's method. whenever some1 paged me while i was on campus, or whenever i wanted to call some1; i could use a campus fon. i had 1 restriktion, in that we could not make long.distance calls, or else our unauthorised use of the codes'd be discovered n' the codes'd get cancelled. as long as we didn't make toll calls, we weren't doing nething wrong. in slight contrast, some'f our friends had homemade elektronic devices which emitted sounds that permitted free calls on payfons. that method was a bit more in the direktion'f illegal aktivity, i guess.
sometime in 1996, pac bell (now sbc, the local fon carrier) granted all home customers a free month of *69 (star sixty.nine) service. *69'd letchu call back the person who last calledju w/o needing to know the fon #. back then caller i.d. was not very available. toby n' i came up w/ an idea: we called my home fon from the yellow box by sather gate on sproul plaza, the bizziest entrance to the berkeley campus. then we went to my apt n' dialed *69. that let us broadcast our voices to a big crowd'f berkeley students. we sed some silly things like, "help! help! i'm stuck inside this yellow box!" etc. some students got kicks from our silly antics. 'nother time we did a similar stunt but w/ a yellow call box by barrows hall. i 4get, either hannyu or elaine or maybe both recognised our voices n' talked to us. funny.
well, it's 142p. 'member: i have lab @ 230p. i'll go to the lab soon. so... my medikal report was very good. the dr. sed my diet n' exercise habits must be great. i'm so happy that i don't smoke!
[later] 822p: we just ate steaks 4 dinner. argh, i overcooked them! :-( u know me: i'm fine w/ eating raw beef. i shouldn't've cooked 'em so long! what was i thinking?! well, i went to class this afternoon. i guess i'm learning this cad program pretty ok. i would've expekted to use pro/e in this class, but we use unigraphics. after class, i went to the gym. it was crowded. after that, i picked up kaela from the airport.
right now, kaela's watching the bachelorette. even tho'
i'm not a fan'f either, i was more entertained by joe
millionaire.
1051p: 2day's the beautiful kaela kang's n' my 37th monthversary. :-)
'pparently, it was jeanna's b.day a coupl'f days 'go. happy
b.day! :-)
1125a: i'm sittin' on a bench in front'f the jumbo safeway on almaden expressway near branham cos i dropped my car off 4 an oil change @ the nearby "precision auto care." while killing time, i browsed thru marshalls n' safeway. this marshalls aktually has some really good buys 4 men n' home. 2 bad i'm not in the mood to waste $$$. i did buy some glucosamine from safeway... n' a blueberry vitamin b monster odwalla.
yesterday, the beautiful kaela kang n' i woke up early to do a fri daytrip to northstar (snowboarding). it was crowded. 1nce 'gain, the whole bay area was in tahoe.
[later] 918p: i'm sitting in theatre 6 of amc mercado, waiting 4 the
950p showing of daredevil starring ben affleck n' jennifer garner.
this afternoon, i spent hrs washing, waxing, n' vacuuming my car.
2 much sun exposure! i started waxing our (snow)boards.
kaela took me out to dinner @ menar morrocan restaurant.
we're stuffed. the dinner was complete w/ stewed lamb, stewed bunny,
couscous, n' bellydancing.
1231a: i sleep quite a bit these days, so it feels like i'm up pretty late right now. back in the good ol' days, this didn't feel late. so i put up a animated .gif depikting what i look like snowboarding. the beautiful kaela kang took that movie on fri w/ her digielph. it's not a big jump. don't go 'round thinking this is what i consider crazy, wild snowboarding. it was just a li'l bump off of the prosser trail on northstar's lookout mtn, right b4 u hit the ski lift. keep in mind that we didn't visit the freestyle terrain park @ all on fri, so there rn't pics of ne big jumps. fri was totally a freeride day... not a freestyle day. it was fun tho'. i rode fast n' got to catch a li'l air off of ledges n' small hits here n' there. heh... there was 1 incident where i really used my helmet!!! i took a ledge that i thought would be like 3 ft or so... it turned out to be more like a 10 ft ledge. i jumped... looked down n' thought "oh dang!" i landed but not @ a good angle n' soon my helmet hit the snow. "wow," i thought, " that would've been my bare head!" i barely felt nething thru the helmet, but i guess i would've been sort'f stunned if i were just wearing a beanie. phew.
so it's mon now, but a few mins 'go it was sun nite w/ the grammy's n' all. man... :-( so these past few weeks, i've been trying to cutback on my internet usage, thinking it'd increase my produktivity. *shakes head* man... no no no. instead i've been watching more tv, n' my produktivity's prob'ly gotten worse. :-( i'm very disappointed. :-( well, i know more 'bout the world of tv. 2nite (which was aktually yesterday nite), i saw norah jones sweep up on the awards @ the grammy's. i'm sure michelle branch, avril lavigne, vanessa carlton, n' john mayer would've preferred it if she shared a li'l. i have a copy of norah jones's album, which i played @ dave n' emily's wedding. personally, i'm not totally in love w/ the album, but *shrug* i never heard these other young artists' albums. :-/ (i've only heard their singles.) cos'f cutting back on internet n' watching more evil tv, i know a li'l 'bout i'm a celebrity - get me out of here! u know i don't love reality tv... but i'm sort'f interested in this show cos it reminds me of gilligan's island. i remarked to kaela yesterday that tv is turning out like what was shown in ed tv n' the truman show. oh man... have u cn are you hot? hey! they aktually had an asian guy on. way to go! :-) i saw bits'f 2 episodes of the jimmy kimmel live show. i kind'f like that he's a bit more daring than some other late nite talk show hosts... like he's willing make a li'l more irreverent jokes w/ his guests n' is still pretty funny. *sigh* tv, tv, tv. :-(
so on sat nite, as i mentioned b4, kaela took me to dinner @ menara morrocan restaurant. it was 4 our 37th monthversary. this time, she took me out. :-) she mentioned in her journal a bit 'bout the background behind our date: u c, a while 'go, when we were in sf... prob'ly the nite of jason lee's romeo 5 movie screening thing, kaela sed that we'll never get to go to a moroccan restaurant cos we never go to sf nemore. well, i told her there's moroccan fud in san jo. she didn't believe me. i sed, if i could find a moroccan restaurant, then she'd hafta take me to dinner there. she agreed. well, i found it, n' she took me to dinner. oh yah, the belly dancer that we saw looked like our friend erin. i mean... heh, it wasn't her, but both kaela n' i thought so.
so sat was a day 4 chores 4 me... both kaela n' me. sun: we just went to the gym... uhm... i've been having some severe back probs these past coupl'f weeks... uhm... u'r obviously tsk.tsking me cos "how can u go snowboarding n' do taekwondo like that if u've been having back pains?! >:-(" well, i didn't think it was back probs... i've been feeling the pain in my hamstrings. kaela read some self.care health book on sat n' told me that it's aktually back probs. :-( well, now i'm gonna take it easy... but i did go to the gym on sun. i did treadmill... i stretched a li'l. i lifted weights, but i took it easy: i didn't lift all that much n' less weight than usual. after the gym, we went to valley fair 4 kaela to return the stuff she bought from copeland's. we were there 4 a while, i guess. we came home n' ate hot pot w/ my mom. oh yah, on sat, while i was washing my car 4 so many hrs, kaela cooked a nice vegetarian linguine 4 lunch. we ate those leftovers 4 uh... breakfast, i guess. b4 going to the mall on sun, after the gym, we stopped by the monterey rd. tapioca express (which is such a li'l kid hangout!) n' had some boba drinks w/ crispy pepper chicken.
2morrow... uh... i mean... 2day, i gotta check out some résumé clinic @ the sjsu career center. there's a career fair next week. yah... as u c, i still keep thinkin' 'bout getting a job. why should i be thinking 'bout it? i need 1! *sigh* it's 4 the experience, n' it's 4 the $$$. i mean, shoot! who r we kidding here?! i do need $$$. u know what? i aktually put up a classified ad on craigslist saying that i'll wax snowboards 4 $25. i did that on sun. no customers so far. i'm willing to do it tho'. man, lemme tell u... if i were able to open a snowboard shop, that'd be kewl. :-)
sometimes i think 'bout the economy n' how crappy it is. i sometimes think that this country's headed in a direktion totally diff from where it's been 4 the past few decades. maybe we'll just turn into a society that's more 'bout subsistence werk... uhm... i guess i don't really mean to say that we're all gonna be living in shacks growing vegetables n' hunting ferrel animals 4 survival... but i mean... i'm thinking that things rn't gonna be so luxurious in this country in yrs to come. :-( perhaps more n' more'f us'll be "just getting by." *shrug* i dunno... maybe that's just a really bleak view... yah. until the country turns into mad max, i guess we can just sit back n' watch reality tv. they need to put more footage of my snowboarding on tv.
oh yah, i gotta 'member to buy tix to watch the asian.am film festival
next month!
317p: it's tues. i'm in the sjsu library studying w/ dave n' brian.
[later] 1102p: i had class. then i met up w/ the beautiful kaela kang @
taekwondo. we had a lite werkout w/ basic techniques, poomsae, n'
self.defense. i was very happy to do exercise that doesn't hurt my
back. we stopped by fantasia on the way home 4 boba drinks. kaela had a
frosted mango, n' i had hot grass jelly w/ pearls n' taro balls. mmm! :-)
when we got home, we ate the neuromien my mom cooked.
this afternoon, i realised how infuriated i am that the msme (master of
science mechanical engineering) program's so overcrowded!!! it
really pi$$es me off that it's so hard now to talk to our profs cos there r
2 many students. i'm switching into full.on berkeley mode! >:-( no more mr. nice guy! i'm
gonna kick all my classmates butts this semester! total cut
throat... that's berkeley mode n' how i'll be 4
the rest'f the semester! i'm out 4 blood! >:-( grr! i'm a
damn good engineer, n' the world will know!
1244p: it's wed 2day. i got to skool early 4 a labview software package seminar. our "precision machine design" prof told us to come, but i noticed very few students showed up. 'twas 900a - 1200p but ran overtime a li'l. the beautiful kaela kang sed she'd come pick me up 4 lunch. i had to park in the park n' ride shuttle lot this morn.
on mon, kaela came w/ me to campus; she drove us to campus. @ lunchtime, we ate @ tengu sushi in downtown. it was decently good n' affordable. on mon, i went to a résumé werkshop @ the career center. did i already mention this? mon nite i "revamped" my résumé. on mon nite thru tues, i applied to many jobs online. i really want a job, u know. i neep a silicon valley job, sumpthin' in biotech, chips, or aerospace/defense. if ne other interesting industry comes up; yah, i'll consider it. yah, sumpthin' w/ digital imaging or optiks is good 2.
[later] 636p: i'm home now. after class, i tried to go to the post office to mail off sumpthin' but they were closed. i just walked to the nearby downtown post office. after that, i went to camera 3 to buy tix to watch crouching asian, hidden cheese n' charlotte sometimes on march uh... march... 16? no, march 15. after that, i walked back to the bus stop to get my car n' go home. i didn't go to the gym or nething.
right now i'm listening to a mix that roland made 4 the cal taekwondo demo team. :-) pretty good stuff! heh... trance/tekno... well, he sed some of the transitions rn't his own, but the whole thing sounds pretty good so far. softie the snowman is dancing to roland's mix! :-) do u 'member softie the snowman? if not, please refer to "dance to the musik" from 2003.02.15. i'm thinking of clearing my entries off of the "recent" entries page sooner, so i hope my readers (that means u :-) ) check the "archive" page often. :-/ well... i hope my journal's not 2 boring.
oh yah... if u r reading this, u ought to be kewl like kaela n' sign my gbook. i know i wanna be kewl like kaela, so i'll answer those gbook questions now (i'm gonna post my answers here not on the aktual gbook.):
name: 비노 황
e.mail: beno at benomix.com
homepage url: http://www.benomix.com
what will u make 4 breakfast? (chorizo n' egg breakfast
burritos, strawberry
crêpes, red bean filled buns, sweet love to beno, or rice
porridge) strawberry
crêpes
what kind'f exercise do u regularly do?
taekwondo 2ice a week; gym werkouts
almost everyday (when i'm good) that include 20-35 mins of cardio werk
(precor, stairmaster, rowing machine, treadmill, etc.), 10-15 mins of
stretching, n' ~30 mins of weights (usually machines); snowboarding on
weekends (in the winter n' spring n' fall); occassional swimming n'
walking
what's ur theme song this week? maybe roland's mix? :-)
what's the best deal/bargain u've gotten
recently?
kaela's wedding band... :-) not
that it was that cheap... but a good deal! b4 that... a while
'go i bought some clothes @ structure that were on super, super, super
post.holiday clearance. i also used structure/express fa$t ca$h on
that purchase 4 an extra discount... i saw lots'f post v.day sales... but uh... i
didn't buy much, right? uh... when did i buy those br merino wool gloves?
that was b4 v.day, right? they were really cheap.
what would be / was ur 1st dance song @ ur
wedding?
nuthin' cheesy or cliché!
sumpthin' classy... we'll c.
additional comments:
sometimes i think i used to be a
more interesting person. then sometimes i think i used to be more
interesting cos i was even more of a loudmouth then than i am now.
some ppl'd think i'm rather reserved; yet some ppl prob'ly think i talk 2
much. *shrug* i think i talk more when i'm happier, right? *shrug* @
the same time, i tell myself not to be such a loudmouth but to give others
a chance to talk. i think maybe when i was a really fat kid thru.out
hi skool etc., i used to talk 'lot... n' maybe ppl put up w/ that cos they
thought "hey, that beno kid's so fat, i feel bad 4 him. he talks 2
much, but i'll 4give him cos i feel sorry 4 him." *shrug* do i think ppl
thought that? do i sound superficial 4 saying that? hey! i'm
not saying that's how i think... i'm just wondering if that's how
other ppl felt 'bout me. i try not to be so
egocentric, u know? but it's still a conscious effort, i think.
:-/
[later] 915p: i've been doing a li'l msging (instant msging). 2nite, i talked to dave, jerome, laura, n' uh... kaela. ha ha ha X-D
[later]1149p: i wasted some time putting some new apps on my handspring.
:-( geez, this sounds so geeky, huh?
730a: not 2 long 'go, i woke up to a weird dream, where the beautiful kaela kang n' i were having our wedding rehearsal... but it was a dress rehearsal 4 some reason... n' all the guests were invited to watch 4 some reason. *shrug* well, the interesting part 'bout the rehearsal was that, yes, kaela came out in her gown... n' what's more interesting is that, in my dream, i saw that her back had tattoos. :-o ...n' they were like asian gangster tattoos! X-D hrm... come to think'f it, it's like sumpthin' out of scott jeongkang liles's drawings! check out medeasin.com!
922a: i've got lots'f hw to finish by 400p. :-( i can't believe it's
almost march.
957a: it's march. 2day's sat. how r u? i feel i've kind'f fallen behind in updating recently, eh? :-/ well, i've had skoolwerk, etc. man... i still have lower back pain. :-( i haven't been exercising all that much. i skipped taekwondo on thurs. we're aktually not snowboarding this weekend @ all... so yah... i am trying to rest n' relax to help my back... *sigh* well, sometime in the next 2 weeks, i'll prob'ly just make a dr. apptmnt 'bout it. next weekend, tho', we will go snowboarding cos 1'f our friends has a timeshare available, so we'll stay there etc.
so... where did i leave off updating? i left off on thurs morn, when i still had hw to do, eh? (please refer to "깡패 신부" on 2003.02.27.) ok. lessee... how did thurs go? well... it was a hektic day cos i had hw to turn in, n' the beautiful kaela kang had a midterm. i had to build some structural models 4 my "precision machine design class." more cardboard n' glue. this time i used a hot glue gun. i always have such trouble finding stuff cos so much'f our stuff is packed 'way in the garage... but i managed to find my sister's old glue gun. kaela drove us to skool. we had to sit in our parking space 4 a while cos her parking pass isn't valid till 330p. i showed kaela to the student union bookstore so she could buy a scantron. there, i bought some puffed corn snacks... like those quaker mini puffed rice n' corn cakes but some other brand, some organic brand. i ate some, gave the bag to kaela, n' went to class. 1st i went to "precision machine design class," then i went to "mechatronics" lab. lab ran late as usual. after lab, i went to the market café to wait 4 kaela. i bought a "mini loaf," sumpthin' like an elongated muffin. i also bought a bottle'f h2o. i waited. then when kaela got out, we went to the gym. i just had a lite werkout: precor, stretching, lite weights. i aktually felt better after doing some back exercises... *sigh* like, the pain isn't in my back; it's aktually mostly in my left butt cheek. after i sit down 4 a long period'f time, when i stand up, i'll feel a s#arp stinging pain in my left butt cheek, n' it'll shoot down the outside'f my hamstring like a muscle cramp. well, we came home n' ate fried pork chops that my mom cooked; that n' string beans.
fri, i werked on this "nsf grant proposal" hw assignment 4 my
"mechatronics" class. originally, it was due thurs, but our prof
extended the due date cos it was a bit'f a tuff assignment. we met
w/ my mom by noon @ her office cos kaela wants to learn 'bout real estate
sales n' investment to find some kind'f career in that direktion. my
mom drove us to a house in east san jo. we drove thru the silver
creek hills neighbourhood. wow, i'd 4gotten it looks like such a
hidden paradise... cos u drive thru an industrial area, up a hill, n' as u
go over the hill, u c this valley filled w/ very beautiful track homes.
yah, i know... some ppl really had track homes n' gated
communities... but they r really nice homes. the house we
went to was a li'l older than those in that neighbourhood. it
was 19 yrs old, i think, but very beautiful. the owners gave it a
very modern decor. we took pics of the house to make a flyer 4 it.
while we were there a korean woman came to look @ the house, n' my
mom had kaela talk to her. after the whole house thing, we went to
lunch @ some east lake chinese restaurant. it was pretty good; their
lunch specials were huge. i ordered the kungpao chicken lunch
special. after lunch, my mom drove us back to the office.
kaela n' i got in my car n' drove off. we were gonna go to the
bakery to order our wedding cake. kaela sed she wanted some wedding
cake pics, so we went to target to get a wedding mag. when we got to
target, i went to the snack bar to buy a white cherry smooshy. 
(not as good as squishees! >X-P) ok, it was aktually an "icee,"
but if u'r as much'f a simpsons fan as we r, u can play 'long!
kaela looked @ some facial soaps, @ some calla lilies in the garden
center, n' @ some other things. then we went to the bakery, but the
wedding cake baker 'gain wasn't in. we'll go back on tues, i guess.
we went home; i werked on my "grant proposal" hw. in the
evening, we went to u.s. taekwondo academy (our taekwondojang) to judge
promotional exams. we were late. i felt bad walking in late
in front of all those kids n' parents. it was fun tho'. we
hadn't judged promotional exams in a while. well, we'd never judged
so many kids. it's diff from judging more adults, as we did @ berkeley. @ the end of each test, we'd ask the
students some questions 'bout taekwondo, 4 which they had memorised
answers. funny. however, it's good they learn 'bout
philosophy, history, n' other background info 'bout taekwondo. after
the exam, shim sabuhmnim's wife brought pizza from costco, n' some
student's mutha brought some veggies n' cake. i ate 2 slices of
combo pizza. it was interesting to meet sabuhmnim's wife cos, altho'
she's also korean, she's much more "americanised," as mark told us right b4
we met her. after all the students left, we cleaned up, n' the black
belts went next door to 안전지대 (anjuhnjidae), the hof next door.
john (who's aktually also a taekwondo "master," but it's funny to say
"master yoon," since kaela n' i think'f our ol' berkeley instruktor...) ordered a bunch'f bbq meat n'
some soju n' maekjoo. kaela had a bad migraine headache, so we
aktually left b4 we ate, but dang... we already ate pizza, so it was ok.
aktually, originally, we were s'pposed to go to a party after the
taekwondo exam... ken's employee amanda, who we've hung out w/ a few times,
her husband jerrod's in the army. he's leaving 4 iraq 2day.
we were gonna go to party 4 him. well, i called ken to tell him we
couldn't make it, but they didn't have a party neway; instead, they went to
watch a movie. amanda n' jerrod r really young but they have a kid
brian. 'member? i talked 'bout that time ken, grace, kaela, n' i
took brian w/ us to dinner, n' it was kind'f interesting cos we were all
asian 'cept 4 li'l brian who's totally blue.eyed blond. (please
refer to "labour n' horror" on 2002.11.10.)
it's 1107a now. i really wanna update my index page sometime. it's so out of date. :-( i just don't find time to do that kind'f stuff. sometime soon, i gotta go get fitted 4 my tux 4 ken n' grace's wedding. hrm... i never know if i should type "ken n' grace's" or "ken's n' grace's." now that i look @ it, i think the 1st choice is right, but so often i type "kaela's n' my." ??? :-(
[not really that much later] 1121a: check out the "make a flake" link on starkdavingmad.com (david kim's page), on the february 28, 2003 entry! it's so kewl!!! :-) this is mine:
[later] 913p: i'm waiting in l... [later] 1149p: we just saw how
to lose a guy in 10 days
209p: can u believe it's the 2nd day'f march already?! it's sunday, 2day. i'm sittin' in the capitol/aborn bally gym's lobby area. 2day, i'm a li'l happy n' plenty pissed n' frustrated. [later] 449p: now, i'm @ the café in the santana row borders, studying.
[later] 948p: so i try so hard to updatechu from all diff places, eh? i've thought 'bout it b4, n' rn't i the online journal writer that updates u from the most varied locations? i wonder how many other bloggers out there use handhelds. every1 should! well... some ppl think i spend 2 much time writing my online journal. the thing ppl need to 'member is that i type fast. when i have long entries, it doesn't necessarily mean i don't get other things done! i type fast. i don't spend the whole day updating my journal! >:-( as i've sed so many times in recent weeks, i'm trying to spend less time online. i'm spending less time on trillian (instant messenger), less time on forums, less time surfing the web. i don't wanna spend 2 much less time werking on my webpage, but... :-( as i keep saying, i really wanna update my main page n' stuff like that. i wanna fix the pages other than this online journal.
so what's been going on? 2day was sunday, n' yesterday was saturday. yesterday, the beautiful kaela kang n' i stopped by my mom's open house 4 the nice house in east san jo that we saw on fri. then my mom told kaela to help her enter the property into the real estate board 'puter. we went to her office. however, on the way, we stopped @ the beautiful new lunardi's w/ a peet's coffee inside. it's on ruby ave. it's beautiful! kaela wanted coffee, so she got a caffé freddo from peet's, but we quickly browsed the store. the wine cellar manager told us to stop in their wine tasting room to try some monterey vineyard's wine. we went in, n' the representative 4 the winery was very eager to talk to us. *shrug* maybe she was just bored... we mentioned that we're getting married n' would need wine 4 our banquet. she sed she just got married, so we talked 4 a while. she was very nice, but i felt bad cos i knew we needed to get to my mom's office. well, we got there. kaela entered the stuff into the 'puter. then we went to vallco. there, i had to go to the tux shop to get fitted 4 a tux 4 ken n' grace's wedding. i mentioned that b4. i got fitted, then we walked 'round the mall just a li'l. i still don't feel like spending ne $$$ these days, so i didn't buy nething. we went to the car n' pondered what to eat 4 dinner. well, we drove out of the parking lot n' then decided to drive back to the mall to go to todai. yah, we went to todai n' had asian sushi/seafud buffet. it was really good. then we went to amc mercado to watch how to lose a guy in 10 days, as i sed b4.
that was an interesting movie. mark n' grace saw it a while 'go n' sed it was "a guy's chick flick." yah, i was thoroughly entertained. when it started, i dreaded it cos i found the acting n' dialog to be sooo unbelievable. but the plot got decently interesting, so i enjoyed it. u know... i really like movies that deal w/ love n' relationships. in fakt, i don't watch many movies that don't have sumpthin' to do w/ love n' relationships, right? 4 example, i don't like war movies... i mean... i guess i like star wars movies n' lord of the ring movies... but i didn't watch black hawk down or behind enemy lines. i guess i did watch saving private ryan. ("saving ryan's privates..." X-D) i watched harry potter movies, n' they don't have much to do w/ love or relationships, i guess. however, most movies i watch have sumpthin' to do w/ love n' relationships.
2day was a beautiful day. what made me happy was my back didn't bother me so much 2day. after my werkout, i felt pretty "darn" good. on my way out of the gym, i picked up some silly flyer that w/ the title "back pain: black belt magazine reveals new treatment that revived shamrock's career." the flyer advertised the services of dr. matt n' mike janzen who perform "active release treatment, a.k.a. a.r.t." well, it sounds pretty kewl, but i hope i don't need it. listen to this: how does active release work? when an injury occurs to a muscle, tendon or ligament, it tends to become tight and inflamed. the tight muscle develps [sic] microscopic tears, as well as constricts blood flow to healthy tissues. the body's natural response to the inflammation and reduced circulation is fibrosis and adhesion (scar tissue). this fibrosis and adhesion glues together the muscle fibers and surrounding structures, leading to pain and improper function. the muscle becomes tight, leathery and bound-up with a higher probability to injure again. the pain comes and goes and each flare-up being a little worse than the previous. hence the cycle continues. yah, i can imagine everything they r saying is true. the flyer goes on to say that a.r.t. drs. find the spots where u have adhesions, which r scar tissue, n' then "make it move in a way that breaks it away from the tissues" with their hands. i imagine it's sumpthin' like a massage. well... i can imagine it werks, but *shrug* i dunno 4 sure. the flyer has a coupon 4 a $40 special that includes a consultation, exam, 1 active release treatment, n' 30 min massage. well, as i sed, i hope i don't need stuff like this, but i find it somewhat credible. yesterday n' 2day, i took naproxen instead of advil or generic tylenol. 4 the past couple'f weeks, i'd been taking advil off n' on. then i switched to generic tylenol this past week. this weekend, i switched to naproxen, n' it cmed to have done some good. *shrug* i dunno... i hear it's important 4 me to stress less, n' that help my back the most... *shrug* what i've been hating is the fakt that i've been cutting down on my exercise cos i've been feeling my back needs the rest, but dang! i don't wanna get out of shape! i need to be fit.
ok... so what else did we do 2day? ok, so we went to the gym, as i sed. dangit, i left my bath/shower towel @ home. i needed to shower, so i brought in a 2nd hand towel from kaela's car to use as a shower towel. :-/ usually, i prefer to wrap my big bath 'round my waste to walk to/from the shower. 2day, instead, i had to walk to/from the shower just holding that li'l hand towel just sort'f covering whatever it could. eh! whatever. *roll eyes* u know, i think in most'f asia they don't use big ol' towels like they do in amerika. i know in korea, ppl mostly use pretty small towels to drive off after showers n' baths. amerikans just have that fixation w/ size... so we got all these frickin' gas guzzlin' trucks n' monster suvs. *roll eyes* (why am i rolling my eyes so much in this paragraph?!) well, after the gym, we drove thru east san jo to get to a strip mall across the street from eastridge mall. i had thought that there was a quizno's there, but there wasn't. there was just togo's, panda express, coldstone, albertson's, n' 2 starbucks. 'member that the renovated el cerrito plaza has 3 starbucks. well, this strip mall only has 2, but it is a much smaller strip mall. taking that into acct, isn't this the better strip mall? ha ha ha. X-D well, we ate lunch @ togo's, shared a bbq chicken sandwich on whole wheat w/ a bag of wow! chips n' a sierra mist. after lunch, we quickly looked in the beauty store cos i'm looking 4 a haircutting cape... the cape u wear when u'r getting ur hair cut. then we got some aisukuriimu @ coldstone. well, i insisted that we get frozen yogurt instead... 4 health reasons, i guess... i just can't bear to eat full fat aisukuriimu! we got cheesecake yogurt w/ black cherries n' crunch bar in a waffle bowl; a regular size. it was good. then we drove across town to santana row borders, where we studied 4 a bit. santana row is pretty nice. this is so crazy! san jo is getting more of these shopping areas that look more like ol' european style towns, eh? the shopping area where lunardi's is on ruby ave. also looks like a classy, european village. i do like it, i guess. man... is it just 2 yuppie of me???
c... what really frustrated n' stressed me
out 2day was the thought i get every so often of this: i'm 27 yrs old.
shouldn't i be living the yuppie life? shouldn't i spend my
weekends taking kaela to trader joe's to buy fancy cheese n' gourmet pet
fud 4 the doggy we would have if we were living the yuppie life?
then that makes me question the whole idea of my being in grad skool.
what if i were simply to drop out of grad skool n' take whatever
dumb job i could find in the sucky economy... whatever dumb job... just
sumpthin' that'd pay me whatever $$$ just 'nuff to rent some stoopid apt
somewhere in silly valley. it wouldn't be 'xaktly what i want... but
u know... i'm in grad skool. i'm not werking. since i'm not
werking, i can't buy a house or pay rent, so kaela n' i gotta live w/ my
mom. u know... u hafta understand that's a bit'f a morale blow,
right? i mean, i know it's pretty fine in asia 4 a guy to live w/
his family right up till he gets married etc... but in amerika it's so dang
disrespekted 4 a 27 yr old guy not to be out on his own w/ some bachelor
pad or else a place to live w/ his gf/fiancée. u gotta
understand how this has been buggin' the heck out'f me since we moved to
san jo. back in berkeley, we had our own
place. we went to safeway n' andronico's, bought groceries, cooked
dinner, did the things that young cohabitating couples do, i guess.
but then, the economy turned $#!++y, we moved to san jo, it wasn't like we
could afford a place on our own 4 what it's worth, n' then i started grad
skool. i've felt like i lost so much control of my life.
however, that's just how life's turned out. :-/ i've been trying
so hard these past few weeks to apply to as many engring jobs as i can.
i'm much more motivated than i was b4 to apply 4 jobs, i guess.
since i'm in skool full.time, i guess i still can't afford to take
on a job w/ the notion that i wanna just take whatever job to earn $$$ in
order to rent a place 4 us 2.... but i do very badly want to get
back in the whole career world, u know? me n' my stoopid whining.
don't i ever get sick'f myself. don't worry; i do.
oh yah... 2day, b4 we went to borders, we stopped by a korean catering place. i had discovered it 1 time while walking from stevens creek subaru to the gym. 'member those long walks this past winter break? X-D yah, those were kind'f ridiculously long walks, but i had a good time, i guess. well, i pted the place out to kaela, n' we saw there were ppl in the parking lot loading up vans, so we stopped by to talk to them. i thought it was a good talk. they have lots'f good fud. i think it sounds good. heh, in a way, i'm glad the woman didn't make 2 big'f a deal that i'm a taiwanese guy that speaks korean. some ppl just totally freak out. i mean, sometimes they think it's pretty neat or whatever; but :-/, i mean, after a while, i just feel like a freak. like, i'm glad the ppl @ taekwondo've accepted it decently well. neway, kaela did most'f the talking. i didn't wanna tell the woman to speak slower, but she lost me a coupl'f times.
[a li'l later] 1110p: 2nite, when we came home, my mom had a rotisserie
chicken 4 us 4 dinner. heh, it was really good. oftentimes,
kaela n' i c rotisserie chickens @ safeway n' say they look really tasty,
but we don't get them. well, 2nite we got to eat 1. we
do really appreciate this. *sigh* isn't that a philosophy
i've had in life? i've tried to tell ppl to appreciate things that
happen in life 4 what they're worth. sure, u might not have the
ideal life that u dreamed of. maybe it's just not yet.
so... well, maybe u'll attain that dream life in just a few more yrs or
even just a few more months. till then, just appreciate ur current
situation 4 all the good things it has to offer. :-) u might miss them
when these times pass.
151p: dangit! maybe i should've waited till 303p to update my journal. i'm just quickly sitting @ a table outside the student union cafeteria b4 mtg w/ my me 265 lab group. me 265's my "computer aided mechanical design class." i aktually woke up @ decent time this morn, took my naproxen pills n' went swimming @ the gym. the pool was rather empty, n' i like it that way. i hafta exercise, don'tchu know? since the economy's so $#!++y, i'll hafta get a job as an erotic dancer @ a strip club 4 women. i can't be 2 out'f shape. since all amerikan men age 18-25'll soon be drafted to go to iraq, more n' more women'll come c me @ the club. uhm, i never saw the full monty; is that what it's 'bout? X-D n' i thought the tv show are you hot? was 'bout designing air conditioning systems. ok, what a silly paragraph full'f lame jokes! "farms in berkeley? mooooo!!!!" hey, u'r alright!
after the gym, i got gas @ some "usa gas" station, $1.939/gal. gas's so dang expen$ive. there's a rite.aid right by that gas station. i quickly ran in to look 4 a few "free after rebate" items i wanted, but ppl'd already ransacked that store. i shouldn't waste my time in drug stores! >:-( that's procrastination! i stopped by a post office to send a letter off to korea but realised i didn't have ca$h to buy a book'f stamps from the machine n' didn't have time to stand in the line to buy a single stamp from the counter. i went home. i ate some leftover beef n' onions my mom left in the fridge. [now i'm sitting inside the engring bldg cos it was cold outside, n' some lame.os were smoking, so it stunk.] the beautiful kaela kang didn't want to eat so much beef, so i cooked some "ling ling" brand potstickers (만두) 4 her. after lunch, i washed the dishes [dang! it's raining now! i'm so lucky that i just came inside! wow!!!] i drove off to skool but made 2 stops. i got $20 quickca$h from the atm, n' went to the post office to buy a book'f 5 80 cent airmail stamps from the machine. my $16 of change came back in susan bs n' saccajaweas, 16'f 'em. i felt i was winning on a reno slot machine. when i got to campus, i found a nice parking spot on the 5th floor'f the garage. i got a jumbo raspberry iced tea from the student union cafeteria, paid 4 it w/ 1 dollar coin n' 2 dimes, n' got 1 penny back as change.
2day's mon. wed's the big sjsu job fair. i gotta get my stuff ready. i need a job!
[later] 321p: i'm in 1 of the engring lab rooms, but my lab
group's not here. i didn't do an update @ 303p.
nuts.
1157a: i woke up in the morn n' got lots'f things done. i'm on a roll, i guess. well, hopefully, the beautiful kaela kang n' i'll order our wedding cake 2day. i was s'pposed to have lunch w/ bernard huang, but sumpthin' came up 4 him, so nope. i have class from 400p to 645p. then, i guess, kaela n' i'll go to taekwondo practice. 2morrow's the job fair. uhm, should i say, "eeek?" or is that 2 much of a gurly thing to say? i'm kind'f anxious 'bout it. *shrug* thurs, i have my "mechatronics" lab report to turn in, but i don't think i have ne "precision machine design" hw to turn in. lemme check the website 'gain. so far, no hw. this weekend, we're going to tahoe cos our friend has a timeshare there 4 the week. i'm thinking of driving us up there on thurs nite, if possible. we can leave right after kaela's class, crash there, board on fri, board on sat, board on sun, n' then come home. i dunno... my friend has'ta get back to me 'bout whether or not kaela n' i can stay there on thurs nite. i'm looking 4ward to this weekend. 'member a coupl'f weeks 'go i started waxing our boards but didn't finish? i put on all the wax, but i have yet to scrape it off. well, obviously, i gotta scrape it all off b4 we hit the slopes. i hope i can scrape it off right now. a long time 'go, steve (my bro.in.law; my sister's husband) told me to store boards over the summer w/ wax on them. that keeps the moisture out. i think some articles i read on.line also told me to do this.
this morn, 1 of the tasks i accomplished was to "retype" this korean
catering menu... u c, kaela thought the menu they gave us (the paper) was
all gross n' stained etc. so she told me to type it up 'gain n'
print it out. well, i did it... but the prob is that kaela's printer
sometimes has this prob where when i print sumpthin' from my 'puter, it
gets stuck n' keeps printing out that document... so i ended up printing
out a whole bunch'f copies of the menu... n' i also so i had some typos on
it... but the thing is... cos there was extra space on 1 corner, i added 1
of those ascii bunnies to it.
(Y)
(-.-)
(")(")
1 of those! so it printed out like... *sigh* *shrug* like 50 times
maybe? now, i have a whole bunch'f scratch paper w/ a korean
catering menu n' a bunny on it. should i print out my
résumé on the flip side n' hand 'em out 2morrow @ the job
fair?! X-D no, i'd better not.
neway, i gotta keep being produktive, so i don't have time to be updating my journal right now. aktually, 1 other thing i accomplished this morn is that i updated my gbook, so there r new questions there now. please sign it! :-)
yesterday, i received a package in the mail from jack black, the manufacturer of men's skincare produkts.
they asked me to try out this elektric razor preshave gel or
sumpthin' n' fill out a survey 'bout it. that's kewl. man, i
really wanna update my index page. :-( u know, if i wrote an entry a yr 'go
2day, i could've entitled it "020304," just like i entitled yesterday's
entry "030303."
532p: so 2day was wed n' the big job fair. man! it was
sooo packed! i only talked to the following companies:
lockheed martin, applied materials, boston scientific, northrop grumman,
lam research. after that, i just gave up. man, it was so jam
packed. my lab partner payam keeps saying i got the applied
materials job cos he sez the hiring manager responded very well to me etc.,
but i dunno... we gotta c. i'd love to werk there. i got to
the job fair 'bout 1000a... a li'l later. it started @ 1000a 4
holders of express passes, which u had to have gotten from the career
center. otherwise, u couldn't come in till 1130a. dang! so
many ppl had express passes. there was such a line. b4 i left
home, i ate a croissant. my mom bought croissants from costco, n'
she left 1 in the oven. when i got to campus, i parked in the
shuttle lot n' rode the shuttle to the main campus. the job fair was
in the sjsu events center. i met up w/ my lab partner payam there,
n' then afterwards we werked on our "computer aided mechanical design" hw.
b4 going to the lab, we stopped by the student union, so i could get
a chicken pesto uh... what do u call those italian sandwiches? oh
yah, panini! i had a chicken pesto panini n' a large hawaiian punch.
after class, i went to the soda machine on the 2nd floor cos
i was thirsty. i was gonna buy a bottle of hawaiian punch, but the
machine spit out an mandarin orange slice. yah,
it did that to me b4. i should've known it'd do it again. why
am i drinking so much hawaiian punch? *shrug* well, i just feel like it's
healthier than other sodas cos i think it has vitamin c. maybe not.
hrm, i just checked their website, n' there's no info. :-( http://www.hawaiian-punch.com/index.cfm
hrm, 'nother page tells me that it does have 100% of my rda
of vitamin c: hawaiian
punch. "i wanna go back
to my little grass shack in kealakekua, hawaii." -- 
krusty the clown in "insane clown poppy," episode babf17 of the
simpsons.
it's nice to be home earlier 2day. i felt like i was just a regular werkin' guy, coming home from werk. i wore a tie 2day 4 the job fair. i wasn't sure if i was going to, so i carried it to skool in my bag. i used my over the shoulder yakpak bag instead of my green adidas bag cos somewhere i read that students should avoid carrying backpacks to job fairs cos it makes them look unprofessional. my yakpak is more of a briefcase, even tho' it's a young guy's briefcase. well, sort'f... neway, when i got to the job fair, 1nce i got into the events center n' walked down the bleachers 2wards the floor, i pulled away from the stampeding herd n' put on my tie. i didn't have a mirror on the wall in front of me; i was just standing in the bleachers, u know? i put on my tie. i knew it didn't feel right, so i took out a li'l pocket mirror i got as a freebie from target @ that stoopid bridal expo we went to last yr. guys don't use li'l pocket mirrors much, but i was checking my tie not putting on makeup. after the job fair i took off the tie. neway... yah, driving home @ a decent hr, 'round 530p, n' being dressed 4 werk made me feel like a regular werkin' guy. heh...
well, i really hope i do get a job. last nite, we went to taekwondo practice after class... oh yah! b4 class, kaela n' i ordered our wedding cake, like i sed we would. man, yesterday was the most produktive day i'd had in weeks! :-) 2day wasn't 0.5 bad either! i'm on a roll! :-) well... i hope to keep it up. :-) so yesterday, we went to taekwondo practice. my back was ok. i haven't jumped 'round in a while. i tried to do a li'l more jumping stuff. we took out the heavy bag n' hung it on its hook 4 kicking. i did some flying side kicks. i haven't done stuff like that in a long time. it felt ok but far from great. in general, my back feels better these days, but it still needs to rest a li'l. we're going snowboarding this weekend, tho'. it's no big deal cos snowboarding doesn't really hurt my back. things like bending over to tie my shoe hurt. we'll be going to tahoe on fri morn, not thurs nite. our friend doesn't have the cabin till fri nite, n' then he has it 4 a week or sumpthin' like that. neway, i gotta go to skool on mon. last nite, when we came home from taekwondo my mom had some fish n' spinach 4 us.
well, kaela's home now. it's 606p. we gotta go to her real estate licensing class now.
[later] 1150p: b4 kaela's class, we stopped by taco bell. kaela got a monterey chicken quesadilla combo (quesadilla, taco, n' jumbo drink), n' i ordered a chicken baja gordita n' a bean burrito. i ordered cherry pepsi as the drink. we took it to go n' ate it in the hotel lobby. the class was @ a hotel. we ate in a rush. kaela pretty much only ate the quesadilla. i didn't finish the whole bean burrito n' threw some 'way. neway, when we got home we ate some chips n' salsa n' some fried rice.
230p: i'm still home but have been pretty produktive 2day. i don't like being @ home till the afternoon; but since i've been produktive, it's not as bad. i've been writing my lab report 4 "mechatronics" class n' writing thank u letters 4 yesterday's job fair. i made a compilation hip hop cd 4 the beautiful kaela kang. i made smoothies 4 breakfast n' ling ling brand wonton soup 4 lunch. [later] 251p: i was listening to the sheryl crow / kid rock song "picture." how many of u like sheryl crow, like the song, but never really liked the whole concept of kid rock? i sort'f feel like that. [later] 302p: so how r u? :-) make sure u sign my gbook n' let me know! kaela did cos she's kewl. :-) isn't it funny how windows media player 9 dls album cover art 4 u when u play mp3s? (well, it werks 4 amerikan/european musik, not asian musik.) softie the snowman's dancing to the red hot chili peppers' "the zephyr song." in general, my back feels so much better these days. i just still feel a li'l tingle in my hips n' hammies (hamstrings), a li'l twinkle in my hammies; just my left side, of course.
 softie 춤을추다. |
 눈이 와. |
[later] 720p: i'm sitting in the market café. i ate 0.5 of a 0.5 priced apple fritter (cos pastries r 0.5 price in the evening) n' drank most'f a nf single latte. i usually get cappuccino, but i have latte 2day. u know latte is more of a kaeladrink than a benodrink, right? :-) i'm done w/ classes 2day. on the tv, the cafés playing extra, that entertainment tonight type show. they were just talkin' 'bout dresses stars'll wear to the oscars or sumpthin' *shrug* well, i had my "precision machine design" n' "mechatronics" lectures 2day. in "mechatronics," we had a guest lecturer, a chem e. (chemical engineering) prof. we'vef had lots'f guest lecturers this week. in "precision machine design," we had a guest lecturer, sort'f... but the guest lecturer's a student in our class, a "continuing edukation" kind'f guy, u know? the same sort'f thing has happened in our "mechatronics" class. >:-/ so... how r we s'pposed to do well in a class when we're competing 'gainst the instruktors of the class?! >:-( i don't like that. 'emmber: my classes r big, n' well... i want good grades! it's more competitive than u'd think here.
i've had a produktive week, i guess. 2morrow, we drive up to tahoe n' snowboard 4 the weekend. it's so kewl that our friend's letting us crash @ his timeshare. we really appreciate it! we'll be hanging out w/ those absolute dragons dragonboat ppl. we're not dragonboat ppl but lots'f other taekwondo ppl r.
so what else has been going on? hrm, i feel like there was sumpthin' type here into my handspring, but i 4get. :-( our "mechatronics" guest lecture was 'bout biosensors, did i mention that? i've been going to sleep earlier these days n' waking up earlier; but kaela's been waking up later n' staying up later. it's like we're taking shifts or sumpthin'. :-/ it's almost 730p now. i gotta go to the library to return an overdue library book. :-( did i mention that my back's pretty much ok these days 'cept 4 the occasional mild to painful tingle in my leg? yes i think i have. yah, every so often, i'll sit the wrong way or stand up after sitting 4 a long time, n' i'll feel a "cramp.like" spasm/pain in my butt/leg. other than that, i feel pretty good. u know, right b4 the biosensors guest lecture, i ran (or jogged) to the bathroom. that felt good, u know that? it's lke my leg really wants to c some aktion, u know? *sigh* ok, well... i'm gonna do some stuff like return my overdue library book. i'll prob'ly continue typing later. do u ever stop to think 'bout how i updatech'u from so many diff places? as i've sed b4, every on.line "journaller" or blogger needs to have a handheld to write journal entries from newhere. :-) oh, is that show i'm a celebrity - get me out of here done? who won? chris judd? it's just that access hollywood is on the tv now. does it sound like i'm typing after drinking caffeine? i feel like it sounds / reads like i'm typing after drinking caffeine. *shrug*
[later] 803p: now i'm typing on a 'puter center 'puter in the 'puter center of the 2nd floor of the sjsu library. i got a surprise 4 kaela li'l while 'go. she's in her "complementary integrative/alternative medicine" class. when i walked to the library, i could c into her classroom. well, i have a surprise 4 her. i hope she'll like it, n' i think she'll like it.
well, as i was walking, i realised 1 thing i wanted to write 'bout in my journal. right after class, i was talkin' to dave n' brian outside our classroom. this other mechanical engineering grad student came up n' was waiting to talk to 1 of us. he was in my "finite element analysis" class. he aktually wanted to talk to dave, but i thought maybe he was waiting 4 me cos i aktually knew him from way, way long time 'go when we were kids playing soccer. i recognised his name. he was surprised when i told him who i was. "didn't you used to be fat?" heh... yah, i get that 'lot. X-D he used to be dave's cowerker.
man, i really think more 'bout career these days... i mean... well, the job fair was yesterday... hrm, should i call it the "job fair" or "career fair"? :-/ neway, i was telling dave n' brian after class how i feel like i feel more pressure to find a niche industry these days. like, i used to werk in biotech... sort'f... n' b4 that i werked in the h2o (water) industry. well, i think i've pretty much burned my bridges w/ the water industry now. :-/ well, i wouldn't mind werking w/ the water industry... but i think i'm now more suited 4 more of a "hi.tech" industry. as i've sed b4, yesterday i talked to biotech, aerospace/defense, n' 'puter chip companies. i don't have as much experience w/ the chip industry as some other students in the silly valley, u know? i mean, some students went to sjsu 4 undergrad n' had chip industry internships or moved to the silly valley 4 a chip industry job n' then came to sjsu 4 grad skool... me, yah... up in the east bay n' sf, there rn't as many chip industry companies... what do they have?! sort'f a mishmash, i s'ppose. :-/ definitely some biotech in the emeryville/berkeley area as well as in south sf. there surely isn't much aerospace/defense up there... unless u'r specifically doing some kind'f research 4 a prof @ berkeley maybe. hrm... what other kinds'f companies have i heard of mech engrs werking @ up in the east bay or sf? uhm, i guess i've heard of some 'puter hardware startups... there's process control stuff like pharmaceuticals n' ebmud... n' whatever faktories or breweries or whatever r around... hrm... *sigh* neway, i'm boring u w/ this mech engring industry talk, eh? heh. i dunno... i just want a job!
i'm happy i had a produktive week. i don't feel bad @ all sort'f rewarding myself w/ this tahoe weekend. i feel good. i feel like i've been able to "keep on top of the ball" this week. i've been getting up earlier, going to sleep earlier, n' wasting less time on the internet n' watching less tv. don't 4get that the internet n' tv can be really evil!
oh yah... i 'member sumpthin' i was thinkin' 'bout earlier 2day... this is more of sumpthin' i wanted to write 'bout in my journal: beno's management philosophies!
ok... *sigh* well... i've never managed ppl @ werk b4... but i've been
put in positions of authority b4 4 various projekts... perhaps mostly
martial arts related in the past decade. i know @ times i had probs
delegating werk. u know... i think i learned from those
experiences tho'. 1 important thing i learned is this: u can't both delegate werk n' be a control
freak! if u r gonna delegate werk n' ask other ppl to help u w/
tasks 4 a projekt, then u can't be so nitpicky n' critical of the results.
that's counterproduktive. if u'r gonna give such
discouraging wurds to the ppl who r werking w/ u, then they will, in
return, refuse to cooperate. this doesn't mean u gotta be a
pushover or accept sloppy, substandard werk. what this means is
that, if u choose to delegate, u must also agree to encourage ur
delegates. is that whatchu call 'em? if u don't accept this,
then u'll be doomed to be a control freak who is 4ced to do everything
himself or herself. it'll either be that no1 wants to werk w/ u or
that u rn't ever satisfied w/ other ppl's werk, so u'll take it upon
urself to do everything; 1 or the other. well... that's the 1st
lesson from beno's skool of management! :-)
645a: i'm in tahoe. i just woke up from a dream in which i killed
a deadly spider. it was called a "cerzoid's spider." in the
dream, i was werking on the beautiful kaela kang's
'puter which is in my sister's old room. in the dream, i looked down
@ the floor by the chair n' kaela had some public health paper on the
floor, n' it talked 'bout this deadly "cerzoid's spider." later, i
looked down n' there was the big tarantula.like spider, sitting right next
to a picture of itself. i pondered over whether i should capture it
in a clear, plastic bucket or kill it. i decided to kill it.
i went to our room n' got 2 tennis balls. i repeatedly threw the
balls @ the giant. black n' brown spider, while chasing it 'round the room.
each hit took off a leg or 2, but the spider was hard to kill. oh
yah, b4 all this happened, kaela was telling me 'bout the deadly spider, n'
i was boasting to her in a macho tone, "oh yah, i've killed those b4,"
while i wasn't sure if i really had cn 1 b4. i guess it was a sort'f
"that's whatch'u get!" situation.
1120a: so we were in tahoe from fri thru sun. the beautiful kaela kang n' i snowboarded 4 3 days in a row!!! crazy. have we ever done 3 days in a row? last yr, w/ raymond, we did 3 out of 4 days in a row. i liked snowboarding this weekend, of course. it was spring conditions; that's not totally a good or bad thing. it's good cos u don't get as sore from cold muscles, but u also don't go as fast, n' the snow isn't as predictable n' consistent as well... maybe freshly groomed winter powder, i s'ppose. also, the jumps, ramps, n' 0.5 pipe get mushy when it gets warm like this. that's not a good thing cos u want to take off from a pretty solid surface. well, it's been a pretty good snowboarding season, eh? i totally 4get how many days we've spent on the slopes this season, but i know it's in the double digits. snowboarding does mean 'lot to me, n' i always wanna be the best snowboarder i can be. how have i improved this season? well, i know i spent several days doing more freeride n' downhill than freestyle. i think i've just plain gotten better @ fast downhill riding on steep slopes, i guess. i've gotten better @ freeride jumps, i think... by that, i mean those jumps u take off of steeper black diamond slopes where u don't have a real pre.built ramp, just some natural li'l hit or ledge or whatever. i 4get who it was who sed this, some professional snowboarder... i think it was stephen duke or gian simmen... i 4get... neway, this guy sed he figures the pt of snowboarding is to practice tricks in the terrain park n' then go out n' per4m them on natural slopes. maybe so. i feel the time i spent in the terrain park this season, i've spent more on riding rails. so far i really only do 50.50s on rails, but i really wanna get 'round to doing frontside/backside railslides. i haven't spent so much time riding the ramps in the terrain park this season. @ sierra, both kaela n' i spent most of our time riding the boardercross run. :-) i'm glad kaela got 'round to jumping this season. :-)
i guess i've been kind'f injured cos'f my back thingy... in taekwondo, i haven't done my usual demo, jumping, spinning kicks in a while. i'm worried that there's a natural progression of: "i can't do it cos i'm injured" to "i can't do it cos i haven't practiced it in a while" to "i can't do it cos i'm 2 old." :-( please don't let that happen! it's funny cos even tho' i feel my taekwondo has stayed stagnant cos'f my back injury, i've been able to do plenty of snowboarding n' do better stuff than b4 cos i'm practicing that. *shrug* why does kicking hurt more than jumping on a snowboard? i guess what sort'f hurts my back is making contact on a kick. like, the nite we were kicking the heavy bag, that kind'f hurt. well, 2day, my body is a bit sore from all this snowboarding, i gotta admit. nothing hurts, my body is just generally sore from exertion, u know? i know i played hard this weekend, i s'ppose. i didn't get all that much rest cos well... it was big group of young ppl (all 'bout our age), so u know... things were kind'f loud. i felt like such a party pooper cos i kept wanting to go to sleep way earlier than every1 else. i really wanted to be social! it's just i knew i came to tahoe to snowboard n' yah... i just take snowboarding a li'l 2 seriously sometimes. on sat nite, i ate a lot 4 dinner. i had like uh... maybe 4 pieces of chicken?! i also had 3 beers on sat nite w/ my dinner. i just felt like they had bought so many beers n' not that many ppl were drinking them. we also had pasta n' salad n' edamame. lots'f fud. i felt, since i was snowboarding so much, maybe it was ok to eat a li'l more than usual. crazy, so much fud.
neway, this weekend was very fun. so the group we were w/ was the absolute dragons snowboarding team. u can check out the absolute dragons website (http://www.absolutedragons.com). we stayed in a timeshare in stateline, nv, right next to heavenly ski resort. there r lots'f timeshare condos out there. i didn't realise there were so many! c, the reason we could go w/ this dragonboat team is that many of the dragonboat team members r from taekwondo or hapkido, etc.; so we knew many of them... maybe most of them? *shrug* it was very good to hang w/ berkeley ppl 'gain. :-)
heh, u know how kaela n' i have spent so much time on the slopes lately? we've gotten so used to eating snow resort fud. X-D garlic fries, hot dogs, chili, adobe chicken w/ toasted corn soup (@ sierra's west bowl)... last season we had plenty of portabello shroom burgers @ alpine. :-) mmm... those were good... sure... some ppl (like andy or jerome) would say it makes no sense cos there's no dead animal inside... heh, but we're ok w/ not eating meat! :-) that chicken adobe w/ toasted corn soup @ sierra's west bowl smoke house is really good! we never get ne of the smoked meat sandwiches altho' they sound good. aktually, on sat, some'f the ppl w/ us got them, but they didn't like them 2 much... 'least they sed the pork was 2 dry. maybe the beef is better. *shrug*
2day's mon. i had a dream this morn that i was weightlifting @ the aborn/capitol bally's gym w/ roland n' an ol' friend chen cheng. chen's a really big guy, a body.builder. he went to hi skool w/ me n' hung out w/ ken n' me in our early days of college @ cal.
2day's mon. what's the plan this week? well, we won't go snowboarding this next weekend, prob'ly... instead, we'll go catch some of the asian.am film fest, which is happening right now in sf but will make its way down to san jo by this weekend. i have some employer "info sessions" to attend this week: lockheed martin n' applied materials. [a li'l later] 1222p: well, i want to have as produktive of a week as i did last week. aktually, i have a midterm on thurs 4 "mechatronics." i gotta study 4 that. just cos i'm still home @ 1223p on a mon morn doesn't mean i'm not being produktive. i've been doing some skool.related n' career.search.related stuff this morn.
oh yah, while we were @ northstar on fri, it was the us national collegiate ski n' snowboard competition. we saw college kids from all sorts'f college from all over the country w/ their ski n' snowboard teams. i was a li'l worried cos i 4got to bring my snowboard lock n' our boards have big cal stickers on them. i didn't want the stanfu team to steal our boards while we weren't looking or sumpthin'. heh.
[a li'l later] 1233p: uhm, i usually mention like everything i
eat on my journal, huh? well, on our way up to tahoe on fri morn, i
drove thru the mcyukyuk drive.thru n' got some breakfast burritos.
on fri nite, we ate some ling.ling potstickers w/ jeff n' kathleen @ the
cabin. kathleen also made some garlic bread. on sat, ppl made
eggs n' bagels 4 breakfast @ the cabin. @ the resort, we ate @ the
west bowl smoke house, as i sed: adobe chicken w/ toasted corn soup n' a ft
long hot dog. 4 dinner, we had all that chicken, pasta, salad, n'
edamame. on sun, breakfast was eggs n' pancakes. we didn't
really have lunch, but drove.thru in.n.out on our way down in the early
evening. when we got home my mom had some roll sushi n' miso soup.
the roll sushi was more like kimbap, i s'ppose. it had tuna
fish, lettuce, n' egg in it. *shrug* it was good.
1246p: oh yah, on thurs i sed i got kaela a surprise. i never
toldju what the surprise is. well, i got us 2 tix to watch erasure's
concert on march 21 @ the bill graham civic auditorium in sf. it'll
be the day right after our 39th monthversary. the next day'll be the
uc open in berkeley. erasure is 1 group
i've liked thru.out all these yrs. i'm glad kaela likes them 2.
:-)
630a: i had a dream. i think it may've involved some snowboarding in the beginning, but i'm not sure. i do know, in my dream, i killed a guy. in my dream, hrm... the beautiful kaela kang n' i lived in some kind'f communal house or sumpthin'. we lived w/ a bunch'f ot other ppl, including nelson. many families, mostly if not all asian, lived in this communal living space. my mom lived w/ us. in my dream, some punk teenage kid, an asian kid, stole kaela's wallet. it wasn't her current wallet but her old wallet. i got the kid w/ the stolen wallet. when i found out it belonged to kaela, i stabbed him multiple times in the chest w/ a sharp knife. it was pretty awful. somehow, the cops came n' sed the kid died of natural causes. however, 4 some strange reason, some coroner type guy sed he had to "drain the body" of its blood n' needed 1 witness present. i think some1 else, maybe nelson, was s'pposed to go but was 2 squeamish, so i volunteered to go instead. [later, 1012a] s'pposedly, the coroner guy had to bleed the body to prove that the kid died of natural causes. *shrug* of course, that makes no sense, but it was all just a dream!
well, let's c just how psycho i am! >:-) jerome talked 'bout some psycho test. u can find it @ http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv
| disorder | rating |
| paranoid: | low |
| schizoid: | low |
| schizotypal: | low |
| antisocial: | low |
| borderline: | low |
| histrionic: | moderate |
| narcissistic: | moderate |
| avoidant: | low |
| dependent: | low |
| obsessive.compulsive: | low |
so s'pposedly my 2 biggest probs r that i like attention n' am
self.centered. n' burdies go tweet! tell me sumpthin' i
don't know! i've been making an effort in recent yrs to avoid
being in the spotlite 2 much or talk 'bout myself 2 much. of
course, having an on.line journal doesn't help that situation, right?
heh... no, it does. i mean, if i didn't have an on.line
journal, maybe i'd be off sending every1 i know a copy of each day's
journal entry, instead of making it so ppl only hafta read my journal if
they aktually come to my site. heh. neway... u know
i'm a leo, right? u know what they say 'bout leos: egotistical,
egocentric, need to be in the spotlite, attention.loving, blah blah blah.
u c, @ the recent absolute dragons snowtrip, we had a "white
elephant gift exchange." 1 of the presents that roland gave 'way was
a book called how
to spot a bastard by his star sign
.
it talks 'bout how leos r so egotistical, this that.
*roll eyes* i'm not that bad! neway, i wonder. u know
how ppl say ppl have diff types of personalities based 'pon their star
signs? well, maybe it's that we all have traits of all the star
signs, but when u find out some1's a leo, u focus on those leo traits,
etc.; u know? like, maybe i also have traits of the other star
signs, but ppl just don't wanna think 'bout those traits as much 1nce they
hear i'm a leo. *shrug*
neway, i don't have time to blab blab blab 'bout these things. i got a midterm this thurs, so i gotta study 4 that. 2day's tues. my midterm's on thurs.
yesterday, what happened? yesterday was mon. we ate lunch @ home, leftovers of that tuna, lettuce, egg kimbap/sushi roll n' miso soup. then kaela drove us to my mom's office where she had to pick up some books. on our way to campus, we stopped @ the tapioca express on monterey hwy. it's never very "express" there; the service takes so long! we ordered a milk tea w/ small pearls, a #8 (spiciness level 8 out of 5 or 10, i'm not sure) squid balls, n' a latte snow bubble. &bnsp; the milk tea n' squid balls r a combo, combo b. well, we sat there waiting in the shop w/ a bunch'f li'l asian kids. as i've sed b4, that place is such a kids' hangout. yah, i feel pretty out of place there. oh well... well, kaela dropped me off on campus. i werked on my "computer aided mechanical design" homewerk in lab. i went to lekture. after that, i went to the library to wait 4 kaela cos she was s'pposed to pick me up so we could go dinner w/ mark n' grace. kaela went home to shower after going to the gym, n' then she'd come pick me up. while in the library, i checked my e.mail n' phil sent me an article:
From: CAIR MUSLIM UNIVERSITY STUDENTS THREATENED IN CALIFORNIA
(SAN JOSE, CA, 3/10/2003) - The Northern California office of the Council
on American-Islamic Relations (CAIR-NCA) said today it met Friday with the
FBI about threats made against Muslim students at San Jose State University
(SJSU). The threats took the form of expletive-laden graffiti scrawled at
locations around the campus. One threat stated: "Muslims will be shot on
San Jose State University campus on March 10, 2003."
After being informed of the threatening graffiti by the campus Muslim
Students Association, CAIR-NCA Executive Director Helal Omeira called for a
meeting with SJSU police, the local FBI Hate Crimes Unit, the San Jose
Police Department, and the university's Office of the President to address
the security concerns of Muslim students. Participants in that meeting
mapped out a plan to deal with the threats.
"It is encouraging to see that law enforcement authorities are taking these
threats very seriously and are doing all they can to ensure the safety of
San Jose State University students. We appreciate the quick response and
the professional manner in which the Muslim community's concerns were. .
.
Date: Mon, 10 Mar 2003 16:30:20 -0500
To: islam-infonet@cair.biglist.com
Subject: ISLAM-INFONET: Muslim Univ. Students Threatened in California
CAIR meets with FBI about threat to shoot Muslims on campus
well, the e.mail got cut off there. *shrug* neway, from my 'puter, i looked up n' saw a security guard standing 'bout 10 ft 'way from me visually inspekting all students walking in the door. ah, maybe that's why that guy was there even tho' he usually isn't! man, war sucks! u know, the other day on meridian ave, i saw some bozo in a van w/ a coupl'f homemade bumper stickers: "war in iraq? yes, in my name." n' "visualize no liberals" *roll eyes* what a @$#$er. well, on our way up to tahoe, on the 80, i saw a young guy in an ol' pickup truck w/ a big cardboard sign strapped to the back of his cab that sed sumpthin' 'bout no war in iraq n' "god is king. bush is NOT!" good 4 him! he's got it right. as i passed him, he gave a peace sign. i just gave a guys' upward head nod, but if i wasn't so concerned 'bout having both hands on the wheel, i would've returned a peace sign. 'round the sjsu campus, i've cn these dumb flyers posted 'round the engring bldg that read: "cost of peace: war. cost of freedom: priceless." stoopid. neway, i had not cn the anti.muslim graffiti myself, but i'm very ashamed that it was on the sjsu campus. *sigh*
well, after kaela picked me up, we met up w/ grace n' mark @ 황제순두부 "fusion korea" restaurant in cupertino, near sunnyvale. (황제순두부; 20956 homestead rd., #a.1; cupertino, ca, 95014; 408.366.1367) it's a korean.owned restaurant that serves korean, chinese, n' japanese fud. pretty kewl! i didn't c till when we left that the korean name is "hwangjei sooondubu" (mark just sed the name was "fusion.), so their soondubu must be their specialty. neway, it was very good to c mark n' grace. i ordered 돌솥비빔밥 (dolsotbimbimbap, stone.pot mixed rice). it was pretty good. every1 else ordered chinese fud (korean chinese fud, some ppl'd say.): 짜장면 (jjajangmyuhn) n' 짬뽕 (jjambbong).
well, i don't have time to talk, so i'll go now. 'member? i wanna make this week as produktive as last week!
oh yah, 2 things: 1) as i sed b4, i'm gonna be clearing entries of my
"recent" page more frequently, so i hope u check my archive 4 entries u may
have missed. 2) i'd sure like it if u signed my gbook, the
latest version of it! :-) thanks.
1217p: i'm on the 3rd floor of the sjsu library. i was s'pposed to go to an employer info session in the student union @ 1230p, but it got cancelled. heh, in the student union right now there's this really cheesy taekwondo demo by tae yun kim's jungsuwon skool. heh, the demo team members r wearing headbands! i saw them setting up, but i didn't stick 'round to watch cos i'm very short on time this week. this is a crazy week. no time 4 journal entries, no time 4 exercise, no time 4 nething. it's a week full of midterms, projekts, n' jobhunting! it's anti.fitness week, i guess. i really wish i could go to the gym, but i've got so much crap to do! :-(
yesterday, i went to an info session 4 an aerospace company that i won't name here, i guess. man, i was sooo disappointed! it cmed like such a waste of my time 'cept 4 i got to have refreshments: chicken skewers, bbq chicken wings, n' black bean quesadillas. do u know what happened @ the info session?! they just advertised the company's produkts, mostly fighter jets n' missiles, n' all these military fanatics totally kissed @$$ to the recruiters by asking all sorts'f inane, lame questions 'bout fighter jets. therer was barely ne discussion of aktual employment or careers @ the compoany, just a bunch'f ppl akting like 8 yr old boys playing w/ $@%ing transformers n' g.i. joe! *roll eyes* 1 of the recruiters sed sumpthin' sooo offensive 2. k, some wannabe military bozo asks, "do you sell the exact same plane to foreign countries as you do to the u.s.?" the recruiter sez, "to canada and to britain, we sell pretty much the exact same planes. of course, to the uae (united arab emirates), we sell a dumbed down version." n' all the boneheads let out hearty laffs. wtf?! did we just not deal w/ a bunch'f anti.arab hate graffiti on our campus on mon, n' this guy wants to make a joke like that?! i was very unamused. i'd be willing to werk 4 an aerospace company, even a defense contractor cos they get to werk w/ very fancy technology. they have funding. however, i take some'f these big picture issues a li'l more seriously. where there's war, there's death. this isn't a sci.fi movie. i'm extremely interested in engineering concepts n' werking w/ cutting edge teknology. i don't like death. neway, that info session kind'f put me in a bad mood 'bout the whole job search thing. if i werk 4 an aerospace company, will i definitely need to put up w/ a bunch'f these war freaks? if i werk 4 a big company, do i definitely need to be surround by a system where kissing @$$ gets u promotions while real skillz doesn't? *sigh* :-( it really frustrated me, but i'll try to refind my sense of hope.
well, since 2day's info session was cancelled, i got a jamba juice n' am on the 3rd floor of the library ready to study on this wed afternoon.
yesterday, after the info session, i pretty much had to go straight to
class. after classes, the beautiful kaela kang
picked me up. well, she was sort'f late, so i went to the market
café n' bought an energy sobe n' some cajun snack mix. when
kaela picked me up, we went to taekwondo practice. wow, taekwondo
practice hasn't felt so good in a long time. i mean, my back hasn't
felt so good during taekwondo in a while. i'm well on the way to
recovery. :-) i still gotta take it sort'f easy n' not go all out 4
a li'l while longer. on the way home, kaela n' i got boba drinks
from
fantasia. when we got home we ate some shrimp n' scallop noodles my
mom cooked.
326a: i had a wedding dream just now!
[later] 954a: so what was my wedding dream 'bout? uhm, it was the wedding day. :-) however, things weren't going as planned. :-( in my dream, we were getting married in a hotel... a decently nice hotel. however, i guess we were having the wedding there n' then having the reception @ the place that we're really getting married. well, it was a hektic day but exciting. very few ppl came... it wasn't a very big wedding. what was really wrong was that we had the ceremony set up, but we didn't have the reception organised, so we weren't sure what was gonna happen next. well... things were pretty frantic, but i think we both knew that, even tho' everything was hektic n' frantic, the beautiful kaela kang n' i both were very, very happy to be getting married to each other. :-)
well, i hope things r much more organised than that @ our real wedding. n' i hope our guests do show up. <:-( i really want it to be a fun wedding... w/ lots'f muzik n' dancing n' laffter (laughter)... smiles, lots'f smiles! it should be pure celebration! :-)
well, sorry i haven't been very uh... respondent? is that the wurd i'm looking 4? no, i think i'm looking 4 "responsive"! i'm sorry i haven't been very responsive. some ppl have e.mailed me personal e.mails, but i haven't had so much time to reply cos i have 2 midterms 2day... well, 1 midterm n' 1 quiz. i have a presentation projekt due next week... plenty of homewerk... etc. i guess the semester is just naturally progressing. neway, i haven't had so much time to keep in touch w/ every1, n' i don't have time to be updating my journal right now. 'member? yesterday, i sed i don't have time to update my journal or exercise this week. it's pretty awful. u know, i really need to keep in shape, right? well, i'm just glad that my back is healing up ok.
yesterday, i studied on campus most'f the day. i had that aloha pineapple jamba juice in the morn. in the afternoon, i got lunch: a "salsa chicken chiquita burrito" from the burrito place in the sjsu student union cafeteria. i also had uhm a diet pepsi. yah, i've sed i gave up on toxic diet sodas but now n' then i have 1. i werked on my "computer.aided mechanical design" hw w/ my lab partner payam 4 a very, very long time. it was a good experience tho'. i wanna make sure i have 3d cad skillz cos employers really care 'bout that. after skool, i just went home. i ate some mabo tofu n' snow pease w/ shrooms that my mom made. she was watching "가을 동화" ("gaeul donghwa") dubbed into mandarin. i've never cn it in korean or in mandarin b4. apparently, it starts out w/ the story of 2 middle.skool gurls who were switched @ birth. 1 has parents that spoil her, the other has a mom that is really mean to her. the rich family gives their daughter lots'f fuzzies. kaela should've cn it. when she came home from her realty license class, i told her 'bout the fuzzies n' the show. she sed her parents have watched that series. hrm, yah, i think i did c that they had the tapes, didn't i?
2morrow, i think i'll be heading in to sf in the morn to do some research 4 our "precision machine design" presentation. i'll be visiting an ol' cowerker who now werks @ the sf general pathology lab. i gotta check out the microtomes there. in the eve(ning), i think we'll be watching a movie from the asian.am film fest in san jo. on sat we have tix to watch crouching asian, hidden cheese, which is a compilation of shorts, n' charlotte sometimes, which gets its title from a cure song.
has this week been as produktive as last week? yah, pretty much so. it's got more stress n' pressure than last week, tho'. i hope i go to the gym on sat during the day. i gotta go to the gym eventually!
2day is thurs. i c jerome signed my gbook. i like his idea 4 a reality tv show. :-D it's funny. every1! please sign my gbook! i think that "reality tv" question prob'ly puts a li'l pressure on u, huh? u might feel u gotta come up w/ sumpthin' really, really creative. :-/ eh! just write sumpthin'! u can always come back n' give a diff idea, u know? please, sign my gbook n' sign it often! X-D thanks, jerome! (or jet...)
the album to buy from beno's yesasia associate link n' listen to this week: 박지윤 6집 (park jiyoon 6jib) yes, i like it when ppl buy produkts thru the "associate" links i have on my webpage. :-) 2day's the 13th? thurs the 13th, heh...
[later] 1142p: well, i'm typing my journal entry addition here @ my home
'puter. how r u? didju sign my gbook yet?
:-) how was ur day? me, i went to campus. i studied.
then i took a lunch break. i contemplated getting a salad from the
market café, but the line looked 2 long, so i headed back out the
door, thinking i'd go to the cafeteria. then, i saw bernard huang in
line @ bk. i sed hi n' joined him in line. the gurl
btwn us in line let me cut to stand in line w/ bernard. i ordered a
chicken whopper meal w/ uh... diet pepsi. i made the meal medium
size; otherwise, i think they make it large size. bernard n' i ate
outside @ a table. it was good to catch up w/ him, but i felt kind'f
bad cos it cmed like i talked so much 'bout myself. :-( i
don't wanna be so egocentric. i had left my cellfon in my car, so
after lunch, i went back to the car to get it. then i went to the
library to study w/ dave n' brian. time flew. we went to our
"precision machine design" class n' took a quiz. kaela brought a
boba drink 4 me. she didn't realise that i'd be in class by the
time she got to campus. she waited outside our classroom till after
the quiz. when the prof told us to hand in our papers, kaela rushed
in n' handed me the boba drink in a bag. heh, i wanted to make it
discrete, but i heard from brian later that, as i was trying to hide the
drink down on the floor by my bag, the prof was so intently watching,
trying to figure out what it was that i was trying to hide. brian
sed it looked sooo funny. X-D ha, i had no clue.
after "precision machine design," brian, dave, n' i had to head upstairs to
take our "mechatronics" midterm. it was aktually pretty easy.
i felt i sort'f lucked out 2day. on both exams, there were problems
i just luckily had the answers to... man, maybe it was just the
grace of god, i tell u. like, a few questions, i didn't feel i knew the
answers 4 them, but i had a weird "gut feeling," n' i later found out that
those answers were right. :-o weird, huh? *shrug* what do i
say? i was just very blessed 2day, i guess; is that what i say?
*shrug* well, after the "mechatronics" midterm, the prof discussed how
we'll hafta do projekts soon. after class, brian, dave, n' i
pondered going out to celebrate; but brian sed he was gonna go to bible
study. well, we went to the library, so brian could check in w/ some
friends, n' then we could discuss it more. we were kind'f talking
loud in the library, so i felt kind'f bad; but it was pretty late in the
evening, almost 730p, so there weren't that many students studying.
(the mirriam.webster online diktionary (http://www.m-w.com)
sez both "loud" n' "loudly" r correkt adverbs. *shrug*) well, 'round
730p, i convinced dave to go have a beer w/ me @ the market café, n'
i convinced brian to come watch us have beers. heh! i got a pyramid
hefeweizen. man, the beers there r really small! oh well.
well, after we finished our beers n' talked a while, we figured we
had to leave. brian n' dave left, but i stayed on campus. i
walked over to kaela's classroom n' just hungout nearby 4 a while. i
talked to toby on the fon 4 a li'l, but he was watching a knight's
tale on dvd, so i didn't wanna disturb him n' betty. eventually,
kaela got out of her class, n' we went home to eat dinner.
man, lately, i've been having probs w/ my handspring. :-( lately, it's been crashing 'lot, 'specially
when i open up eudora or avantgo. :-( *shrug* i dunno why. is it
just getting old? :-( well, really... there rn't ne handhelds that i
really want right now. the superduperkewl sony clié that has
the built in keyboard, 2.0 megapixel digital camera w/ flash, mp3 player,
n' wireless internet connektion is waaay 2 bulky, n' the palm
tungsten doesn't have a built in digital camera. :-( someday when
either the palm tungsten gets more features or the superduperkewl sony
clié shrinks in size, i'd consider getting 1 of those; but not yet!
>:-( i dunno what's wrong w/ my handspring. i know 1
app i added lately is really kewl: quickbits. it doesn't overclock
ur cpu, but it makes other adjustments that make ur palm os based handheld
go faster. :-) i like it. i don't think that's what's
crashing my handspring.
oh yah, more tech troubles: 2day, i was trying to use my muvo mp3
player, n' i couldn't get it to power up. :-( man, 'member? it broke b4
like this, n' i had to send it in to get fixed. :-( *sigh* what's up?!
i'm glad, i still have my soundsgood handspring mp3 module as a
backup! 
that's a really good produkt! :-) it's never given me
much problems n' is so versatile! well, 1 thing: i wish it had
expandable memory, but eh! oh well.
601p: i'm in sf on a rainy fri eve. i've been waiting 4 the
beautiful kaela
kang 4 the past 2.5 hrs. i can't find her, n' she's not picking
up her fon.
1054a: it's a lazy sat morn. the sky is very blue w/ big, white, puffy clouds. it's a beautiful, "after the rain" day in san josé! :-) lemme tell u, yesterday was a disaster of a day. i dunno whether to talk 'bout it here in my journal or try to shove it deep, deep, deep into the back of my brain n' try to 4get it. it was pretty awful! :-( well, now that it's sat n' i've had more time to rest n' relax since yesterday, i guess i feel ok 'bout it 'nuff to talk a li'l 'bout it.
yesterday, i went to sf to visit my ol' cowerker rodney @ the san
francisco general hospital (sfgh) cos i need to investigate microtomes 4 my
"precision machine design class." the beautiful kaela kang n' i
left later in the morn than we planned of course. originally, i was
planning to get to the hospital by like 1100a or so. i wasn't sure
where i was going. rodney told me to page him when i was ready to
come over. i always knew where the sfgh was cos kaela used to
volunteer there. well, when rodney talked to me after i paged him
while on the road, he told me to go to 1000 parnassus. when i got to
sf, i figured he must werk w/ a lab associated w/ sfgh @ ucsf. i
drove to ucsf on parnassus, but i couldn't find 1000 parnassus. i
circled 'round a few times. it was lunchtime, n' kaela n' i were
hungry. well, i paged rodney; he called back n' apologised profusely
cos he had sed the wrong street name. he meant "potrero",
not parnassus. that made sense cos that would bring us back to the
main sfgh campus that kaela volunteered @. of course, it takes a
while to drive a short distance cos it's sf. however, the scenery is
gorgeous cos it's sf. we got to the hospital n' eventually found
rodney. he showed us the equipment, but man... the timing wqs awful.
like, rodney earlier sed we'd go to lunch 2gether, but his werk got
2 bizzy. well, i had to drop kaela off @ her bridal store, a li'l
boutique on maiden lane in union square (basically, the rodeo drive of sf,
i guess). she was really stressed 'bout making her 200p apptment w/
the boutique. we grabbed a quick, stressful lunch @ noah's bagels @
portrero center. i hate eating while stressed, so i just focused on
the cheerfully hopping sparrows outside. they r really cute! :-)
i had a roasted "toikey" on marbled rye w/ cole slaw. kaela
had a hot pastrami, i think. we shared a jumbo bottle'f odwalla
oj. i
dropped her off @ union square. i told my classmate brian to meet me
@ sfgh w/ some screwdrivers so we could examine the microtome. well,
i was @ sfgh, looking @ the microtome from like 200p till 'bout 300p @
latest. i really appreciated rodney's help. brian n' i put
the microtome back 2gether n' left sfgh. i told brian i planned to
pick up kaela n' then drive down hwy 1 back to san jo n' go watch a movie @
the asian.am film fest. well, i left the hospital. i went
back to the portrero center to safeway. i bought 2 sobe drinks: 1
sobe lean 4 me n' a sobe green tea 4 kaela.
then i went to union square to find her. as u read yesterday,
i waited 4 her 4 2.5 hrs. i meter maid chased me away from a no
stopping spot that was very com4table. i saw him/her getting out of
his/her li'l cart, n' i started up the engine n' zoomed 'way. that
spot was outside the northface store on post btwn grant n' kearny.
even tho' that was a no stopping spot, can u believe it took me 4ever to
find that spot?! i mean, all the no stopping / no parking
spots were occupied! crazy! well, after zooming off, i drove
'round a bit more. i drove kind'f aimlessly. i had to go pee
so badly. i found a parking spot outside of j.town (japantown).
i went in just to use the bathroom. then i went back to the
car n' sat in the car a li'l longer. that's when i wrote yesterday's
short, li'l journal entry. i ate the rest of kaela's pastrami
sandwich. i drank the rest'f my sobe. toby called me right b4
i found that parking spot n' visited the bathroom. i told him 'bout
my situation n' sed i couldn't talk right now. 'round 605p
or so, i drove back to union square. i parked my car across from
where i was chased 'way by the meter maid. after 600p, it's ok to
park there. i went to kaela's wedding store to ask 4 her since i
knew it was a small, small store. they sed they had cn her but that
she had left "forever ago." i had hoped i would've found her there.
i was so dang worried by then. i knew it was a bad, bad,
rainy day, so i started worrying that maybe a skidding, out'f control car
ran her over, n' that i should just return to the sfgh to look 4 her there.
:-( i left so many text pages on her fon, several v.mail.
earlier, while waiting in my car, i wanted to kill time by surfing the net
on my handspring , but
avantgo crashed. 'member? i've been having such a hard time w/ my
handspring lately. :-( neway, i dunno why i'm mentioning that now...
back to the story! so i left kaela's wedding store w/ no clue where
she was. i just ran 'round in the rain in the union square shopping
area hoping i'd run into her. dang! so many gurls have coats similar
to hers on a rainy day. i was getting very soaked even tho' i had an
umbrella. it was cold. the day had started out so beautiful,
but then the rain came, u know? finally, 'round 630p or later, kaela
called me. she sed she had been studying in borders, had lost
track'f time, n' didn't hear her fon ring. *sigh* well, i knew we'd pretty
much miss the movie @ 700p in san jo.
right b4 i picked her up from borders, jason called n' sed he had
overslept. c, he was planning to go watch the movie w/ us @ 700p.
man! that was so weird that both he n' we were 'bout to miss the
movie! well, i proposed that we all just hang out in sf instead,
since we were all there. well, in the end, we decided to just try to
head down to san jo to catch whatever part of the movie we could n' attend
the opening nite gala 4 the film fest. it was a rainy day on the rd;
dangerous. i had to drive carefully in kaela's kia. i
made my way to 280s. i drove locally to avoid the 101s commute
traffik. i didn't take the most direkt route cos i was just a li'l
bit disoriented. it was frustrating. eventually, we got on
the freeway, n' i guess i was very thankful there wasn't much traffik.
aktually, there was pretty much no traffik on 280s. i drove
carefully. i pulled off the freeway in menlo park to get gas.
it was so expen$ive of course. jason beat us to san jo. he
went into the movie n' told us it was prob'ly 'bout 0.5 done. we
got to san jo a li'l later. when we got to the theatre, kaela
realised she didn't have the tix w/ her. man... it was such a mess.
*sigh* i tried to salvage the situation by taking us to dinner @
inca gardens, a simple, li'l peruvian restaurant on san fernando near 3rd.
wow, that restaurant was really empty. it was 'bout 830p, i
guess. we ate peruvian fud: ceviche pescado (i 4get the exakt name),
some marisco rice n' some marisco pasta. we had some peruvian juice
drinks 2. well, jason called us right as we got our fud, n' i told
him we'd meet him @ the reception event 4 the film fest. it was a
cold, drizzly nite. we drove the short distance from the restaurant
to the d.p. fong art gallery @ 383 s. 1st street. it was a pretty
neat art gallery. jason had explained to the staff that we 4got our
tix, so they let us in regardless. we hung out there 4 a bit.
then the event wrapped up, so we tried to find a place to hang out n' talk,
but i wasn't doing 2 well w/ finding a place. lots'f running
'round... *sigh* we just decided to call it a nite.
well, yesterday... it was a real disaster... but then 'gain, i should try to look on the brite side of life. let us try to find 5 positives 'mongst yesterday: 1) the day started out so beautifully in sf; i mean the weather was pretty ok earlier. 2) i got to catch up w/ my ol' cowerker. 3) the sparrows outside'f noah's bagels were so cute. :-) 4) sf is a beautiful city. 5) the asian.am film fest opening nite gala reception gave out free beer, wine, drinks, n' cake from aki's bakery. mmmm!
u know, u can get free magazine subscriptions? if u go to my links page n' sign up 4 mypoints.com, u'll get these offers 4 free trial magazine subscriptions. if u cancel w/in 6 months, u'll get all ur $$$ back. i've been doing this 4 a while. i get lots'f magazines, n' i don't pay 4 them in the end. well, my favourite magazine of the day is men's health. wow, it really has lots'f good info! i really like it. this month's issue has an article on back pain. i like that. it has lots'f articles on eating right. u know, we should all avoid hi fructose corn syrup. it skrews w/ ur metabolism, give u so many calories, n' makes ur body store it as fat. apparently, aspartame is a very good, nontoxic alternative! from now on, we must check all our fud labels to make sure hi fructose corn syrup is not 1 of the top ingredients!!!! we must get rid of hi fructose corn syrup!!! it's so awful. i tell u, men's health is a really good magazine. :-)
some other magazines i've read lately 4 free r: wired, pc magazine, computer shopper, time, budget living, discover, popular science, popular mechanics, gq, fud n' wine, travel n' leisure... it's kewl to get free magazines! :-)
i'm pretty frustrated that my handspring n' muvo have had so many probs
lately. :-( man, don't i miss the days when i had a decent job n'
could go out n' buy gadgets now n' then? that was the yuppie life,
huh? yappie? have u ever heard'f that term??? "young
asian professional"...
do u know what time it is? it's 1158a on sat. we oughtta get started w/ our day!!! [a li'l later] 1200p: the burdies singing outside, it's so beautiful!!! i c lots'f cute sparrows. the wildflowers r beautiful! not only do we have thousands of li'l white daisies popping up in our backyard, we also have a handful of cali4nia golden poppies! :-) this morn, i had a dream that kaela had a doggy.
[later] 1219p: this journal entry up until here, i typed on my handspring. now i'm on my 'puter. lemme tell u: 1 of the nicest things 'bout my handspring is that i have that targus stowaway keyboard n' can type on it. really, it often does the job of a laptop, u know? if all u wanna do is type a document, u can often get 'way w/ just a palm os based handheld n' a targus stowaway keyboard! this good cos a palm os handheld uses less power than a laptop.
[later] 1239p: joon's kewl cos he signed my gbook. r u kewl?
[later] 204p: i'm so frustrated cos we're still @ home! >:-( i
wanna be outside. i have errands to run, n' i should've gone to the
gym 2day! do u realise how long it's been since i went to the gym?
i'm not happy 'bout that! >:-(
931a: yesterday, the beautiful kaela kang n' i went to watch 2 showings from day #2 of the san francisco asian.american film festival in san jo @ camera 3. well, the day started out really slow, as u may've read from yesterday's entry: "the sekret to long life, happiness, n' prosperity? cut out hi fructose corn syrup! (2003.03.15). in the mid.afternoon, i finally got out of the house, went to fry's, n' bought a few things i need. i came home, n' kaela n' i got ready to go to the movies.
we saw a series of shorts (short films by diff film makers) called crouching asian, hidden cheese. they were mostly pretty funny. then we watched a feature drama called charlotte sometimes. u should check out that movie's website: http://www.charlottesometimesthemovie.com.
'bout the shorts: lemme just borrow from an e.mail i sent out a few mins 'go, since i don't have much time: "the shorts: they varied in quality. i was disappointed w/ movies that still beat on the issue of 'finding ur asian identity.' as i've sed b4, i think that's been done way 2 much already. in this category, there was a short 'miwon,' it was pretty amateurish n' yah, i felt it was all about this 'finding ur asian identity' n' sort'f immature. . . i think the best films were well... prob'ly some of the sillier films: 'how to do the asian squat' n' those japanese culture explanation 1s. both sort'f pretended to be documentaries as a vehicle to amuse the audience."
sorry, since i really don't have much time right now, lemme borrow 'gain from that e.mail to describe the feature charlotte sometimes: "_charlotte_sometimes_ was a pretty good movie, _i_ thought, definitely a character.based movie, as the film maker declared it was. . . charlotte/darcy's character was kind'f confusing. i didn't feel that duality 'cept 4 in the motel scene where u c her next to her reflektion. i gotta admit 1 thing 'bout the sexuality in the movie: by principle, i really like it cos i _do_ believe asian.amerikans need to be portrayed as more sexual n' _in_a_healthy_way_. obviously, we have the whole 'me love u long time,' exotic, sexuality; but movies need to show more asians being sensual n' sexual w/ each other cos it further 'proves' that we r human. it's only human to be sexual. n' so, i want to promote media that further humanises asians; take them out of that exotic, zoo animal realm, n' just shows them as humans but 1s that just have diff n' sometimes separate culture. eric byler (the film maker) was saying that he had a tuff time getting funding cos'f the all.asian cast, that potential sponsors were saying that the characters didn't do nething that really required them to be asian, so he should just make them nonasian. i'm so glad he didn't cos i really want to promote the fakt that yah: sometimes we asians do things that rn't necessarily 'asian,' but just 'human,' but maybe we sometimes do them w/ other asians."
check out the movie's "mission statement": http://www.charlottesometimesthemovie.com/mission.html. i guess the movie just plain set out to do what i just sed i'd like to c asian.amerikan cinema do. it also entertained me that the film maker during the q&a session sed that he used the cure song "charlotte sometimes" cos he feels many asian.ams that grew up in the 80s n' 90s felt sort'f isolated n' ostracised, so they turned to the musik of groups like the cure, the smiths, n' depeche mode as sort'f a way to find com4t, i s'ppose... cos these groups were more the musik of marginalised communities or sumpthin'... ('least in amerika it turned out this way... even tho' these r british groups.) in a way, i guess that "finding ur asian.amerikan identity" issue is just a li'l bit still there, but i just feel movies like charlotte sometimes really show a much more mature n' developed side of asian.amerikan culture.
after the movie, i took kaela to dinner @ kubota. we had sushi. we hadn't eaten much yesterday. btw, yesterday was sat. we ate microwave minipizzas 4 brunch, i s'ppose. then we shared a latte n' a lemon bar @ the movie. after dinner, we were still hungry. X-D we went to ben n' jerry's to get aisukuriimu. i didn't order frozen yogurt but real, full.fat aisukuriimu cos men's health told me to avoid hi fructose corn syrup by ordering aisukuriimu instead of frozen yogurt. later, i thought 'bout it n' concluded that a fine company like b&j prob'ly uses real sugar not hi fructose corn syrup (aka hfcs). oh well.
ok, i have bizzy day 'head of me, i'll talk to u later! :-) til then, please sign my gbook. thanks! :-) i hafta admit, i've been pretty pmsed lately; but i'm trying to be a nice guy. :-/
[later] 1025p: it's not that late, 'specially 4 a 27 yr old guy
like me, but i'm a li'l tired n' 'bout ready to hit the hay or whatever.
2day, kaela n' i went to the monterey bay aquarium w/ ken n' grace.
well, lemme tell u how our day went: 1st, kaela n' i went to the
closest starbucks to get coffee n' tea. kaela ordered a tall nf
latte 4 herself. i ordered a tall nf tazo chai 4 myself n' a grande
caramel macchiato 4 ken. then i drove us to ken n' grace's house.
i parked my car across the street from their house, n' we jumped
into ken's m3. ken drove us to los gatos, where kaela n' grace
looked @ a bridal store. ken n' i took a stroll. we went to
sur la table n' looked @ kitchen stuff. a middle.aged woman asked us
to attend a demo 4 some cooking equipment. i told her i wasn't sure
if we had time. then she asked us if we were single cos they have
singles' cooking classes on evenings. i sed, "no, we're getting
married... uh... not to each other... our fiancées r down the
street..." yah, that must've sounded awkward! btw, u know the
erasure concert kaela n' i r going to on fri? apparently, ken n'
grace r going 2. kewl. well, after we left los gatos, ken
drove us down 85s to 101s. we stopped in gilroy (i almost sed
vacaville!) 4 in.n.out. i got a #3 hamburger meal animal style n' a
cheeseburger animal style 4 kaela. we drank 7up despite how it has
horrible hi fructose corn syrup! ken drove us down to monterey.
it took us a li'l while to find a parking space n' some more to find
a trash can to throw 'way our in.n.out garbage. we had a fun time @
the aquarium. the otters were very cute, of course. i really
like the aquarium. looking @ sea creatures n' the ocean really
relaxes me, i think. man, all the fish n' shellfish looked so
delicious!!! i wanted to eat almost everything! the only
thing i ingested there was a li'l apple.shaped, glass bottle of
watsonville.based martinelli's 100% pure apple juice, which i shared w/
kaela. i really like the waterfowl exhibit n' don't particularly
want to eat those burdies. :-o @ the end of our visit, we
watched a video 'bout being conscientious consumers of seafud: we shouldn't
support irresponsible overfishing but rather consume seafud which is caught
in a manner that doesn't so much adversely affekt the environment.
they gave us a list of seafuds that r ok to eat, 1s to be careful 'bout, n'
1s to avoid. kaela n' i got to pay student price to visit the
aquarium, but geez, it's not that cheap to visit. well, ken drove us
back to san jo 4 dinnertime. @ 1 pt, kaela was asleep in the car, n'
then i fell asleep n' accidentally bonked my head on hers n' woke up.
she didn't wake up but just shifted. ken told me to go 'head
n' take a nap. i sort'f resisted but quickly fell asleep 4 a good
'mount of time. we went to dinner @ the fish market on blossom hill
rd. i had their "world famous" cioppino. kaela had grilled
tilapia, which is on the "good" list. i had sooo much fud!
man, i really feel the fat growing on my body from this past week of
physikal inaktivity! :-( seriously, it's not good. i gotta take
care'f my body. after dinner, we went to ken n' grace's house n'
played w/ their miniature pomeranian mimi. she's very cute.
she's grown a li' but is still very small.
1137a: 2day's mon, st. patrick's day. the big news everywhere is that "the u.s. is on the brink of war." everywhere u go, "brink of war," "brink of war," "brink of war..." this morn, i woke up n' drove to the gym @ a li'l b4 900a. i did 'bout an hr of precor n' saw plenty of news headlines scrolling 'cross the screen 'bout "brink of war" on the tv. i also saw colin powell n' kofi annan plenty. i saw christina aguilera's "dirty" video. i saw last weeks top 10 basketball plays. man, this 1 guy stole the ball from the other team, dribbled down 0.5 the ct, jumped, did a 360 n' slam dunked! that was only like play #10 or sumpthin'. i guess basketball fanatiks r more impressed w/ the plays that sink a ball right @ the buzzer. :-/ personally, i liked that 360 better. heh, can i say, "i'm all 'bout style"? maybe that sounds dorky. well, i did 'bout an hr of precor, stretched 4 a while, did some back sit ups, did some situps or crunches, n' did just a teency weency bit of lifting, just a teency weency bit. uhm, aktually, i think all i did was 3 reps of biceps curls on the machine. i plan to hit the gym 'gain 2nite, i think. well, after th gym, i came straight home. it was like 1100a or so, since i had to take some time to take a shower @ the gym. man! when i got to my locker in the locker room, there was a friggin' cockroach on the bench in front of my locker. i killed it w/ my shower sandal, but man! that's gross! why r there roaches in the locker room?! i thought roaches just liked dirty kitchens. :-(
it's pretty certain bush's troops'll go to war. dubyah sed he's
giving saddam 72 hrs to leave iraq, but eh, i don't c how that'd be an
option 4 saddam. so here we go 'gain, 'nother war. *sigh* on
my drive into the gym, i was thinking: back @ jeff's tahoe cabin on the absolute dragons
snowtrip, i saw andy play some video game w/ some other ppl. i 4get
what it was called... time sliders? time loopers? time
killers? time wasters? it wasn't time cops, but it was a
game where u went back in time n' *shrug* penetrated military bases or
sumpthin'. neway, i saw andy n' the other player kill lots'f those
pawn guards that u always c in video games n' movies. what is it
like to be 1 of these pawns that get killed off so easily?! isn't
life so dang meaningless in that case? u never get to have a full
life, raise a family... that's the possible fate 4 so many soldiers
n' gang members, u know? u get sent out to do some1 else's dirty
werk n' get shot n' killed on the 1st day on the job. i feel like i
wasn't born to be a pawn. is this nietzsche's superman? or is
that sumpthin' else? on my drive to the gym, i was driving on
branham ln n' saw there's a street called "new compton drive." why
wouldju name a street "new compton" when u know compton's so famous 4
streetgangs? maybe a bunch'f compton gangstas immigrated up to
norcal n' settled in that neighbourhood n' named it "new compton."
heh, i guess i'm just kidding.
[later] 1256p: ken invited us over 4 dinner, so i guess i won't
get to hit the gym a 2nd time 2day. oh well. i'll hafta wait
till 2morrow morn.
1127a: i'm waiting 4 the shuttle bus to campus on a sunny, sunny, breezy tues late morn. i made a super.super.quick visit to the gym this morn. it's impossible to find gas cheaper than $2/gallon, n' the news channels talk 'bout the upcoming war like a futbol pregame show. (that's amerikan futbol, not soccer.)
[later] 1223p: 2day's a li'l bit'f a frustrating day so far. i rushed to campus to meet w/ 1 lab group, but the guys sort'f cancelled that mtg. well, i had 'nother lab group mtg @ 1230p, but that got pushed back to 100p. i have other things to take care of. :-(
[much later] 1118p: i got my "mechatronics" test back 2nite. i aktually did ok. woohoo! man, i just spent like $250 on mechatronics parts... i dunno if these parts'll be 4 my class projekt, 4 my masters thesis projekt, or 4 what... i just figured it's 'bout time i started tinkering w/ things @ home. crazy, crazy, crazy.
2nite, i missed taekwondo practice cos i got out of class kind'f late n' had to take the shuttle bus back to my car. the beautiful kaela kang also missed practice cos she lost track of time while shopping 4 wedding things @ michael's. instead'f going to practice, i went to fry's. yah, that's where i bought some mechatronics parts, but i also had to do an exchange'f sorts there cos ('member?) my muvo broke 'gain. well, i had to exchange a part of it, but aktually, i'm not sure if it's that part or sumpthin' else. i think maybe when my muvo breaks (i hope it doesn't break 'gain), i need to format the memory n' reload all the mp3s. maybe that's the trick. *shrug* well, i switched out the part neway. i also bought a few other things... including a cheap laser pointer 4 our "precision machine design" presentation on thurs 'bout microtomes.
man, what a day 2day. i felt pretty groggy. i wish i had hit the gym earlier. *sigh* my group 4 the "precision machine design" presentation got some werk done when we went over to brian's apt after lunch. 4 lunch, i grabbed a salsa chicken chiquita burrito from the cafeteria. i found out i can get a "spartan value meal" n' get that burrito, chips n' salsa, n' a large soda 4 $3.69. i didn't know that b4. 4 soda, i had diet pepsi cos i'm so 'gainst hi fructose corn syrup right now.
well, i don't wanna stay up 2late 2nite. i wanna wake up early
2morrow n' hit the gym. i gotta werk on my "computer aided
mechanical design" projekt w/ that lab group n' on the "precision machine
design" presentation w/ the other group. thurs, we have our
presentation. fri, kaela n' i'll go to sf n' watch erasure in
concert. toby sed we can spend the nite over @ his place cos we
wanna go to the uc open taekwondo tournament on sat. 
crazy, huh? eh, not that crazy. next week is
spring break!!!
why don't i have a job yet?! i heard applied materials is laying off lots'f werkers soon. :-( does that mean they rn't hiring? i was telling my "computer aided mechanical design" lab partner how we gotta take our job hunt in stride: the problem is that we go in spurts; hunt like crazy 4 1 month n' then get burnt out. we gotta pace ourselves out.
i'm pretty disappointed that we missed taekwondo practice 2nite. i really need to practice taekwondo. :-( 2morrow morn, i gotta go to the gym.
i talk 'bout some really nerdy stuff on this journal when i'm talkin'
'bout my skool stuff, huh? 
i'm gonna be fiddling w/ the parallax basic
stamp 2sx controller. that's what i spent a bunch'f $$$ on 2day...
well, that n' some other things.
what i'm listening to these days: 환상의 가요 리믹스 (hwansanguy gayo remix), a 4 disc set.
there r only 2 interesting personalities in amerikan pop culture right
now: yao ming n' jin tha mc. i saw jin tha mc on mtv this morn @
the gym. he's the chinese.amerikan rapper that got every1's
attention last yr by winning all the freestyle rap battles. i think
he has an album out now or sumpthin'.
1024a: i wish i weren't still @ home. this morn, i woke up ready to go to the gym but then realised that i had a bunch'f werk to do 4 our "precision machine design" presentation on microtomes. i 4got that i told the guys that i'd resize, edit, n' label all the pictures. last nite, i was 2 bizzy trying to find info 'bout my former company resolution sciences, which werked w/ microtomes. it's much harder to find info 'bout the company cos it's now defunct. :-(
well, i hope i can go to the gym as soon as this cdrom of microtome pics finishes burning. i wanna werk out. then i'll go to campus n' meet w/ my "computer aided mechanical design" projekt group. shoot, i really gotta get out'f here! this morning really started out slow cos'f the microtome pics.
earlier, i was thinking how it'll soon be "wartime" 4 the u.s. maybe we'll hear phrases such as "wartime economy"? like when studying history, u hear often hear "wartime" in reference to ww2 since ww2 was such a popular war. were there anti.war protests b4 ww2? obviously, there were anti.war protests 'gainst vietnam, n' there's anti.war protests 4 this upcoming war.
2day's andy
wang's b.day. happy b.day, andy. u know that andy drew
the art 4 benomix4집, right? 
yesterday, a macy's ad came in the mail 4 the beautiful kaela kang.
i saw that it advertised lots'f spring fashion. crazy, crazy, crazy.
it really will be spring pretty soon. in fakt, we'll be
springing our clocks 4ward an hr very soon, 2 soon. well, that'll
mean we'll have more daylite in the evening, right? *sigh* crazy,
crazy, crazy. while thumbin' thru the macy's ad i was reminded that
maybe i could tell ppl that we have a wedding registry @ macy's.
s'pposedly it's really tacky to tell ur guests that, but eh! i figure it
helps every1.
323p: i'm in the sjsu library's 'puter lab. no time to type!
i have my "precision machine design" presentation in like 0.5hr.
i just wanted to say that 2day's the beautiful kaela kang's
n' my 38th monthversary. :-) i'm very happy she's stuck w/ me n'
that we're getting married.
1042a: it's fri morn. yesterday was thurs, of course. i'm sitting @ the kitchen table typing on my handspring. 'member: a handspring is more energy.efficient than a 'puter, so when i just hafta type, i might as well use my handspring, right? 2nite's the big erasure concert in sf. right now we have war in this world. dubyah's troops r @ war w/ iraq. *sigh* u know how i feel 'bout it now? i really hate war n' don't like this war or the reasons we're having this war. however, @ this pt, i just want them to get it over w/ as fast as possible. just get it over w/! >:-( erasure: i think in england, they pronounce it like... let's say u take an eraser n' erase sumpthin'; then u'd have an "erasure." in amerika, ppl tend to say "erazure." *shrug* since amerikans brainwash well, i've been accustomed to saying "erazure." this morn, i woke up early n' went to the gym n' came home. last nite, i went to the cheesecake faktory w/ brian n' dave after finishing our "precision machine design" microtomes presentation. well, after that presentation, we had lekture 4 our "mechatronics" class. an m.i.t. professor came to talk 'bout "binary mechatronics n' future space robots." after that, we went out. i text msged the beautiful kaela kang n' told her to join us after her class, but she didn't get the msg :-o our neighbour's li'l white doggy just ran past our backyard sliding door! since the fences got knocked down by storms, they sometimes go thru our backyard. kaela sez she saw the big, brown doggy run by the sliding door a coupl'f days 'go. i 4get; lately, i've had thoughts in my head that i wanna write in my journal, but i've been 2 bizzy to write.
[later] 1158a: i'm just trying to figure out where to park n' if we should take some publik transportation to get to the concert cos i don't wanna get stuck cos'f the anti.war protests. hrm, should i call them "anti.war" or "pro.peace"? "pro.peace" sounds better. i'm not 'gainst these protesters cos i don't support the war, but *sigh* i think it's pretty futile. we sort'f gotta accept that we live in a diktatorship n' if we protest dubyah's war, we'll get thrown in jail. heh... is that a good way to put it? *shrug* i feel pretty ashamed that right after the tv showed anti.war protests in sf, it showed "support our troops" rallies in san jo. *sigh* r they trying to portray san jo as the conservative, wholesome amerikans?! grrr! well, they did mention that there were anti.war protesters near the "support our troops" ppl... but they didn't talk 'bout it much. as u can c, i don't feel all that much 4 "supporting" "our" troops. sure, i hope no1 i know in the military gets killed; that's obvious... n' i do know ppl n' have friends in the u.s. military. geez, "some friend i am," it sounds like, huh? well, i really want them to live, n' i'll support them... but i just don't feel the whole "support our troops" craze... u know? sorry, but the fakt that we r @ war... it's serious... not just a matter of cheering 4 our team... altho' dang! while i was @ the gym n' watching the news, man! the news does quite a good job of providing sports.coverage.like play.by.play aktion! it's great! it's like, "i just wanna c stuff blow up!" maybe there r guys who'll get 2gether 2nite, get a keg, n' watch the war. as i sed, i just them to get it over w/! since there's no stopping it, just get it over w/ fast! >:-(
k, i wanna give u all the details 'bout all the fud i've eaten lately n' all that stuff, but i don't have time. i'll hafta get back to u on that. 2nite's the erasure concert. 2morrow's the uc open. oh yah, as of yesterday evening, it's now spring break!!!!! i guess i'll fiddle w/ my new basic stamp microcontroller kit a li'l over spring break. i hope we can go snowboarding some. we'll c. i told kaela earlier 2day, when i wake up in the morns these days, it's so brite outside. pretty soon, we'll be springing our clocks 4ward. that'll make the war 1 hr shorter. ha ha ha. X-D
[later] 6.48 pm: i'm sittin' on the floor, maybe 6 ft from the stage of
the bill graham civic auditorium, waiting 4 erasure.
818p: i had waaay 2 much caffeine thru.out the day 2day. this morn, toby gave me a cup of coffee. @ dimsum, i drank plenty of tea. @ the uc open, 심사범님 (shim sabuhmnim) bought me a cup of coffee. 2 much caffeine! now, @ home in san jo, i feel caffeine crash. :-(
1 thing i've been wanting to talk 'bout 4 sooo long here on my
journal is a coupl'f car commercials. 1st off, how do u like that
mitsubishi outlander commercial where the young afrikan.amerikan fellow
drives 'round thru diff eras of his life while télépopmusik's "breathe"
plays in the background. i feel that guy in the commercial is me,
driving 'round in my forester. my forester's been w/ me for a few
phases of my life in the past few yrs, n' i feel it'll c me thru many more
phases of my life. in the commercial, the guy starts off as a single
guy. he meets many interesting friends, drive them 'round town, goes
clubbing w/ them, goes to concerts w/ them, this n' that. then he
gets a gf. he takes her on dates. then he marries her.
then they h ave kids. then he drives a fuzzy, jumbo teddy bear
'round... i can picture my life like that, u know... however,
un4tunately 4 mitsubishi, i don't need to buy their car. the 2nd car
commercial i wanna talk 'bout is the latest saturn ion commercial w/
pachelbel's canon in d n' all the couples getting married. u know
the series of commercials: it started off w/ childhood, then the prom, now
they're up to marriage. well, u know that i can relate to the
wedding commercial cos i'm getting married. life, u know? i'm
living life.
speaking of weddings, i'm wondering what i'll say 4 a best man's toast 4 ken. :-/ i've definitely had ideas, but i still gotta think more.
so how's life been? me? uh, ok, i had a bizzy week w/ my presentation n' all. on thurs nite, i went out to the cheesecake faktory w/ dave n' brian. i had the uh... chinolatina chicken 4 dinner. since beautiful kaela kang couldn't make it (cos she didn't get the txt msg), i brought home 0.5 my entrée n' a slice of kahlua coffee cocoa cheesecake. that's how we spent our monthversary.
however, on fri, i took her to the erasure concert. i had planned that to be more'f an monthversary event. we didn't leave san jo till later than i expekted, not till the early afternoon, i guess. we ate some leftover fud @ home 4 brunch. oh yah, i went to the gym early on fri morn, as i sed b4. we went to sf. yah, there was lots'f protesting. i went to gingiss formalwear to get back a $10 depo$it i gave to them @ that not.so.great bridal expo back in 2002. (please refer to "bridal expo" on april 21, 2003.) that gingiss formalwear was on sutter street. the block was blocked off by buses full of cops waiting to break up protests. it was pretty crazy! i took some pics of the cops lined up by the crocker galleria. well, the gurl werking @ gingiss sed she couldn't give me a refund cos only her manager can do that. *roll eyes* typikal bureaucracy! i expekted they'll make it hard 4 me cos i know now that those bridal expos r full of scoundrels waiting to snatch up $$$ from innocent, young couples. >:-( neway, since the road was blocked, i pulled over into a loading zone space. i told kaela to wait in the car, cos even tho' there was protests going on, i really worried 'bout leaving my car parked illegally in front of hundreds of uniformed cops. :-/ i guess i was being silly, but *sigh* really! wouldn't that make u nervous? well, when i got back to the car, kaela was gone cos she went to buy coffee n' a cookie from briazz. the blockade disappeared 'bout the time kaela got back. we drove to the bill graham civic auditorium. it was 'bout 400p by then. we saw that there was only a small line'f ppl waiting 4 the erasure concert. since it was pretty early, i decided we could scout 4 some fud. we went to an early dinner @ cpk (california pizza kitchen) on van ness. i ordered the jambalaya pasta, n' kaela ordered the tricoloré salad pizza. it was good. well, 'round 500p, i parked my car in the civic center garage, n' we got in line. i was a li'l surprised that the ppl lined up were almost mostly asians. i dunno... i guess i should've expekted that, but *shrug* i dunno why i simply expekted a diff crowd. i guess it's just that i'd never been to an erasure concert b4, n' the erasure crowd is slightly diff from the depeche mode crowd, a li'l more diff from the cure crowd, still a bit more diff from the nine inch nails crowd, n' pretty diff from the green day or juliana hatfield 3 or lollapalooza or primus crowds... heh... yah, the erasure crowd consists of mostly pretty "clean.cut" ppl, definitely not so much "rockers." well, while we were in line, the peace protest marched past us 2ice n' the cops chased them. it was a racially diverse protest crowd. u just know i'm gonna make a dumb comment like "there were lots'f asian.amerikans protestors" or sumpthin' like that, n' yah, there were. heh, i know it sounds pretty stoopid that i'd comment on that... but *shrug* u know me, i just gotta keep track of asian.amerikan issues, etc. well, the doors opened to the auditorium @ a li'l b4 700p. nuts! kaela had run to the car to put 'way her vogue magazine. well, she came back n' the sekurity guards were nice 'nuff to let her cut back in line right as i was entering the door. well, yah, we got to be very close to the front n' center. we waited quite a while 4 the concert. ken n' grace came n' joined us. we saw the opening act: "cooler kids." they were interesting; 3 nyc (new york city) teenagers (maybe a li'l older but not much) prancing 'round while sort'f per4ming 80sish pop. there was a big break btwn the cooler kids n' erasure which was oddly filled by some old radio drama. *shrug* the audience got pretty restless. well, the erasure show started 'bout 900p, i think. vince clarke came out in a shiny tuxedo.like suit. andy bell came out in a victorian, black dress. they had 2 female backup singers. it wasn't the big, big produktion that i heard the abbaesque tour was, but it was very entertaining. the set was a victorian parlour w/ a framed mirror that was aktually a widescreen tv that showed random artistic clips including shots of a greyhoundish dog sniffing the camera lens during "always." they started w/ some newer songs, which many ppl in the audience including me weren't all that familiar w/. they moved in to older stuff which so many'f us loved, stuff from chorus, crackers international, wild, the innocents, circus... n' of course they played "oh l'amour" from wonderland, their original big hit... uh, hrm... wasn't that their 1st hit? or was "who needs love like that?" 1st? well, neway, "oh l'amour"'s their most famous track ever neway... i realised that many of their ballads r kind'f depressing like "ship of fools." when i'm depressed, i sometimes think 'bout the lyrics "why is life so precious n' so cruel?" oh, heh... of course, they played their current hit cover of peter gabriel's "solsbury hill." apparently, their latest album other people's music also has covers of elvis presley's "can't help falling in love" n' the righteous brothers' "you've lost that loving feeling." some other songs i 'member them playing include: "sometimes," "victim of love," "breath of life," "chorus," "love to hate you," "piano song," "chains of love," "a little respect," "piano song," "blue savannah son"... hrm... there were more, of course. they had 2 sets n' a 2 song encore. during the 2nd set, they wore suits made of fabric that had the fox racing logo all over it. interesting. since we were so close, my neck got a li'l strained from looking up the whole time. oh yah, while waiting 4 the show to start, kaela got us some earplugs from the rock medics n' a bottle'f h2o. that was good. even tho' i've put my ears thru 'lot from all the concerts, elektric guitar playing, n' djing; i guess i've gotta take care'f my body more now. :-/
well, we got to toby's 'round midnite, i guess... no, maybe a li'l earlier... b4 going to toby's, we stopped by party safeway on college ave. n' picked up a 6.pack of pyramid hefeweizen n' some trident white gum. @ toby's, toby, betty, kaela, n' i talked n' watched galaxyquest.
this morn, we woke up b4 900a. i guess, we woke up @ 830a.
we all had to shower. then we went to dimsum @ hong kong east ocean
in emeryville w/ betty's friend betty... betty cho (instead'f betty yeh).
it was such good fud n' so much'f it. the view was beuatiful!
after dimsum, we dropped toby off w/ his tutee (the young teenager
he tutors). then we went to the ucopen. :-) we watched 4 a
while. it was 'bout lunchtime now, but we were so full from dimsum,
of course. we sat w/ the u.s. taekwondo academy ppl 4 a while. jason lee
showed up n' hung out w/ us. he was interested in cing some
taekwondo. kaela helped the 2 u.s. taekwondo academy students warm
up. then we watched 1'f them reggie win 1 match. then we went
to ref. it was pretty fun to ref, i guess. this was the 1st
time i reffed (how do u spell the past tense of the verb "referee"?) w/ the
new rules. there r just a few small changes. it was fun to
talk to so many'f our old friends! :-) *sigh* i do really
miss berkeley ppl!!! the tournament was
much smaller this yr than most yrs. the wurd was that it was cos
there were no paper applikations, only on.line applikations. yah,
many parents these days still rn't used to using the internet to register
their kids 4 taekwondo tournaments, n' tournaments like the uc open usually
have sooo many youth competitors! oh well... i think
the tournament ran very smoothly, n' it ended much earlier than it
usually does. well, kaela n' i wanted to stick 'round to party w/
every1, but we were tired n' came home to san jo. i'm really sleepy.
:-(
724a: a few mins 'go, i woke up from a bad, bad dream. i dreamt that the beautiful kaela kang n' i were gonna go on a trip w/ the absolute dragons dragonboat team to disneyland. well, heh... of course, that was the good part'f the dream. in my dream, the war was on, as it is... unless the war ended while i slept last nite. in my dream, i was getting ready to go meet up w/ the absolute dragons ppl to go on the trip. then i found out that terrorists had messed 'round w/ some system that navigates passenger airplanes, so airplanes were crashing all over the country. i heard that a plane flew into a hi skool. i then found out that the plane n' hi skool incident happened in l.a., n' that it was an isolated incident... but the country was still panicked. i drove over to a condo that, in my dream, jeff wang owned right along the runway of the san josé airport. i 'member, i was trying to find kaela but couldn't reach her on the fon n' couldn't find her. i went home. i think my mom was home. i started giving myself a haircut but wasn't doing 2 well. then kaela came home. she was able to fix my haircut, n' i was just plain so happy to c her. :-)
what a dream, eh? well, as u c, i woke up pretty early 2day. i wanna go to the gym. originally, i was thinking of going a li'l later in the morn, hoping kaela'll go w/ me. however, i know she's not feeling 2 good, n' it's better that 'least 1'f us go than if both'f us don't go. :-/ last nite, we ate a 비빔밥 (bibimbap) that i salvaged from the uc open tournament's v.i.p. room when sung, clarence, n' i were cleaning it. well, sung, clarence, n' this other dude, they knew what they were doing. i tried to help but didn't know what to do, so ended up mostly standing 'round eating tangerines. well, i'm so glad we got to go to the tournament n' hang out w/ ol' berkeley friends! i'm so happy. :-)
[later] 903a: a while 'go, i was telling kaela 'bout hrm... a philosophy
i have... which isn't even much of a deep thought... n' i dunno why i say
it's a "philosophy." :-/ let's just call it "a thought."
neway, i was telling kaela 'bout a thought i have. there r 3 kinds of burdies: 1) burdies that r always
2gether w/ a big flock (like sparrows, coots, sometimes pigeons, blackburds, seagulls), 2) burdies that hang out by
themselves (like most burdies of prey, maybe blueburds...), n' 3) burdies that r always in pairs
(like geese, ducks, n' some other water fowl). 
[later] 953p: yesterday nite, kaela n' i watched ymca 야구단
(ymca soccer team) on dvd @ home.
1229p: i've been awake n' active since 730a. 2day's mon, the 1st
weekday of spring break. isn't it nice to know i'm produktive during
spring break? :-) what have i done? uh, well, i caught up on some
e.mails i needed to respond to. i opened my basic stamp2sx
microcontroller n' started reading the manual. i polished my shoes.
well, when i was polishing my shoes, i dropped a li'l shoe polish on
the hardwood floor. nuts! i panicked. i tried to clean it up
w/ mop n' glo. it sort'f came out. then i went to the
garage n' got the goo gone that i use as snowboard base cleaner. i
prayed that it would get everything out. woohoo! it did!!!
goo gone is so kewl! i used it to clean off the grease from the
uh... the hood above the stove? what do u call it? i wanted
to call it a fume hood right now, but that's whatchu call the thing in the
chemistry lab... well, u know... the fan hood overhang thingy... i
cleaned off all the grease from it. goo gone is so kewl!
basically, it's citrus oil cleaner.
yesterday, when i went to the gym, i kind'f uh... pulled my left pec muscle. it's strained. i put an ice pack on it this morn. i was lifting 135lb on the barbell cos well... i usually use the bench press machine, but guys feel the pressure to use the free weights cos *shrug* that's what guys do. *roll eyes* well, i was lifting fine, but then i felt a bit of a pop in my muscle. ugh. :-( it's not really bad, but it still hurts... basically, i must've just pulled the muscle. geez... i feel like i'm old or sumpthin'... my back... my joints... my muscles... ugh. i'm not old! >:-(
man, when i left the gym yesterday afternoon, the antenna fell off my
v60c. 
i gotta go into ken's store 2day to get a replacement fon, a
loaner (i guess) until i can send my fon in 4 warranty repair n' get it back.
yesterday evening, the beautiful kaela kang n' i did a li'l acting to help jason w/ his film class homewerk. heh, we've gotta werk on our acting a bit. <:-/ well... we'll c. heh... neway, b4 we did the filming @ ken n' grace's house, jason, kaela, n' i ate dinner @ florentine's pasta shop. we had a pretty good dinner. they had this dinner special, a dinner 4 4 ppl... well, there were only 3'f us so we had plenty of leftovers. the dinner included fried calamari, a medium cheese pizza, n' clam linguine. it was a pretty good price 2. neway, we ate so much. as a film prop, i bought some salad from safeway. kaela n' i really liked the spinach salad.
oh yah, this morn, i saw this burdy n' squirrel fight in my backyard.
i think they were fighting over red
berries. *shrug*
1006a: wow, this is turning out to be a very uneventful spring break, eh? heh... X-D u expekted better of me? *shrug* oh well... well, i woke up this morn 'round 630a, but i fell back asleep. 2day, i'd like to go to the post office, go to the gym, n' go to the tux shop. sound good? we'll c. oh, n' 2nite, i'd better go to taekwondo practice; no excuses!!! >:-( antonia, thanks 4 signing my gbook! u r kewl. this morn, i sort'f had a dream. i 4get it tho'. i know i was in a job fair @ the end, but it was a really bad job fair, n' i got there as it was closing. i think the beginning of the dream had more to do w/ skool or sumpthin'. :-/ hrm, maybe i should eat some leftover pizza 4 breakfast. pizza n' grapes maybe? [a li'l later] 1021a: ok, i ate a slice of pizza n' some grapes. :-) [later] 1033a: i'm looking into some wedding ceremony musik stuff. [later] 1103a: i wish i weren't still @ home. :-(
so what's been going on? yesterday, was a beautiful spring day
here in san jo. :-) uhm, lessee; the beautiful kaela kang n' i
went to the gym, werked out 4 a while. then we headed over to
milpitas to ken's store. i needed to get a loaner fon while i have
my fon fixed. i mentioned that yesterday. i bought a 32 oz.
"energizer" smoothie from the gym's pro.shop b4 we left. b4 we got
to ken's store, we stopped by huong lan vietnamese sandwich shop in
milpitas to get some'f those tasty vietnamese sandwiches. i bought a
bbq chicken sandwich $ $1.50, but i'm not so sure it was chicken; it looked
more like pork. *shrug* kaela had some uh... rice flour dumpling things
filled w/ meat n' uh... shrooms, i think. *shrug* we also got some boba
drinks. :-) i hung out @ ken's 4 a while. kaela went to officemax
to get supplies 4 wedding invitations. after we left ken's store, we
went to officemax closer to our house. then we went to michael's.
then we went to office depot. there, we ran into bernard huang.
then we came home, ate leftovers from florentine's n' some orange
roughy my mom made n' some costco potato salad n' grapes. i was
pretty tired. we watched the miss usa pageant, but i was so
sleepy i barely watched it. u know, i think the miss usa contestants
r better looking than the miss amerika contestants. do u think so?
still, some r rather unattraktive, i think... like, i don't
think miss alabama should've been the 1st runner up. i don't think
she's all that. ugh, texas sed the stoopidest thing; she sed it's
wrong 4 hollywood stars to protest the war cos we should support the
president. *roll eyes* she got all the lame-os in the audience to cheer cos
the pageant was in frickin' san antonio, texas. whatever!
is the situation w/ the war nething near what it was like w/ the vietnam
war n' peace protests in the 60s??? i wonder; i really wonder.
is it @ all similar? me, i just haven't felt all that
enthusiastic about nething as far as the war. as u know, i
don't love it. heh... that's a nonstatement, isn't it? X-D
like, i don't feel that compelled to join the peace protests n' get
arrested; @ the same time, i don't have all that many great, so.called
patriotic, militaristic feelings. i don't feel all that moved by the
"support our troops" movement. i definitely do not like
dubyah; never did, never will. i get sort'f excited in that
stoopid, li'l 8 yr old way when i c footage of explosions on tv.
it's like playing star wars action figures, u know? ...or
transformers. like, if i really think 'bout the politics, i don't
like the war 1 bit. if i think like a stoopid, li'l 8 yr old, i like
cing explosions. heh. well, let's say i were more'f an anarchist.
then i'd say i want both sides to totally kill each other n' have
maximum death, maximum carnage. i don't think i really feel that,
i'm just saying if i were more of an anarchist or whatever. i
sort'f wish dubyah'd just flat out say this whole war is 4 the u.s.'s
benefit, that we're just fighting 4 cheaper oil. i mean, hey! i
don't like paying over $2/gal 4 gas! >:-( would i support the war
then? well, no... but i'd feel that we'd be a more honest
country if that were the msg. sometimes i c signs that say "it's all
about oil! israel!" i'm not a very politically
savvy guy. in fakt, i'm pretty stoopid, so i don't really understand
what the whole israel stuff is about or palestine. well, maybe i'll
find some answers @ "the arab-israeli conflict: a brief history" a site i
found on ask.com. well, it's a pretty nice site, but i didn't get to
read it in depth yet cos *sigh* i have other things to take care'f, i
guess. :-(
[later] 1226p: i ate 'nother slice of leftover pizza, the last 1. i also ate some potato salad n' grapes. i made some chicken noodle soup from a can 4 kaela.
even tho' the asian.am film fest came n' went, there is still asian.am cinema to watch: check out this article about better luck tomorrow on the koream journal website.
[later] 443p: "better luck tomorrow," that's how i feel right now.
i'm @ home. i did go out 4 a brief moment; i went to
the post office to buy stamps n' send off some mail. then i came
home. i feel so unproduktive 2day. u read what my goals 4
2day were, n' all i did so far was go to the post office. :-/ it's
445p now. i'm not happy 'bout that @ all. i just tell myself,
"better luck tomorrow." geez... i woke up @ 630a this morn. i
should've just driven off to the gym 2 that pt; i really should've.
757a: hey, i woke up pretty early 2day. all the things i didn't do yesterday, i wanna do 2day. :-) i really wanna have a produktive day 2day. i am not a shut.in! >:-( yesterday, i was thinking, from my last credit card bill, it appears that i've managed to cut down spending a li'l lately. well, i already knew since we moved to san jo n' in w/ my mom, i stopped spending on rent... but my credit card bill still stayed higher than i would've expekted. i mean, i haven't had ne real werk since well... maybe last spring... i mean, this past summer i had some werk, but it really wasn't much, now that i look back. so yah... considering that i didn't have a steady paycheck, i was definitely spending 2 much. this past fall, i thought i cut back on spending; but i still spent a bit more than expected on going out to dinner n' lunch. then i 'gain thought i cut back on spending but then christmas, anniversary, n' valentines came n' went. those required $$$, u know? also, snowtrips co$t a li'l $$$. well, in the month'f march, i guess i aktually managed to cut down a li'l on spending! :-) however, w/ the wedding coming up, i'll be dropping more n' more bills. like, when i bought our wedding insurance (yah, they aktually have wedding insurance these days...), i dropped a whole bunch'f $$$. when i bought my basic stamp microcontroller n' all those elektronic parts 4 edukation's sake, i dropped a li'l $$$. i haven't done nething like clothes shopping in ages, n' that's a good thing 4 me.
in the car, i've been listening to 환상의 가요 리믹스 (hwansanguy gayo remix). it's a 4 disc set that has songs from as early as 1995 (or earlier) to near present. some of the older songs remind me of the 1st times i went dancing @ korean clubs. back then, the sf korean niteclub was cairo, which was located where nv is now. a coupl'f the most memorable songs from those nites r clon's "꿍따리 샤바라" ("ggoongddari syabara") n' dj doc's "여름 이야기" ("yuhreum iyagi"). back then, ken's exroommate was the ksa president, so we'd sometimes get to go to the club on ksa party nites 4 a free or sumpthin'. i 'member back in 1999, i was driving jerome, efren, n' karuna to the western taekwondo collegiate championships weigh.ins, the nite b4 the tournament. i had some korean 가요 ("kpop") playing in the car, n' karuna remarked, "my friend told me that korean musik is still stuck in the 80s. they're still in that "wake me up before you go go" wham! era." yah, in a way, he was right. groups like sechskies put on really whamish songs! also, so many female vocalists have that laura brannigan. r u kids old 'nuff to 'member laura brannigan?! she had a song uh... i guess it was called "self.control." i guess she had some other decently well.known danceable songs in the 80s. i guess she was sort'f a club diva back then, sort'f. also, lots'f korean male vocalists have that rick astley sound. u kids old 'nuff to 'member him?!?! he was popular when i was in middle skool... 'round 1987 or so... he had a hit song "together forever" n' 'nother "never gonna give you up." he had others, i guess. neway, geez! these r really 80sish singers! X-D however, korean musik has much more variety of sounds than that. i'm just pting out a coupl'f ways some somewhat recent korean pop musik does sound kind'f 80sish. aktually, many'f these artists tend to borrow from the 80s europop / sythpop tradition, u know? u got some songs that have more'f that depeche mode or erasure sound. heh, on a unrelated note, i 'member driving from weigh.ins that nite to dinner @ a korean restaurant in hayward that linda picked out. efren was so annoyed w/ some of the remarks from uh... some1 in that car that he was off kicking dumpsters. ha, all that from a coupl'f car rides! heh, u had to be there.
well, it's spring break. what's gonna happen? u c, since i didn't go to taekwondo @ all last week, i feel pretty obligated to go both tues n' thurs this week. 2nite, the beautiful kaela kang has her real estate class. i told her we should go watch a movie either b4 or after her class @ the amc mercado 20 cos we get free popcorn on weds cos'f our moviewatchers cards. :-) neway, cos'f these things we gotta do this week, we can't make a long midweek snowtrip or nething. :-( we're thinking of going to northstar 4 a daytrip on fri. we'll c. if we're gonna do that, kaela's gotta wake up early.
[later] 903a: i wrote up a martial arts equipment order 4 mark n' this kid paul. i'll try to fax it in 2day. last nite, i was looking 4 jobs. i submitted an application to 1 recruiter (headhunter) 4 an unspecified aerospace company. i got back a reply this morning that sed: "Looks good, I will do what I can" :-/ i often get nice wurds from recruiters, but i still don't have a job. it would be nice if i really could get this job. *shrug* well... i'd like to go to the gym this morn. i'll go 2ice 2day if i have to. i wanna buy some kind'f plastic bin box to keep my electronic parts in. if all goes right 2day, i'll go to the tux store. hrm, i wonder if ken or nelson'd wanna go w/ me. *shrug* [later] 925a: dangit, i gotta get out'f here!
[later] 756p: so i reserved my tux 4 the wedding. heh, it feels good to be making progress 2ward the wedding, pretty exciting, i guess. :-) @ oakridge mall, in sears, after doing the tux biz, i bought a divided bin box 4 my elektronik / mechatronic parts. :-) oh, i also bought a pair'f wire cutters. the tux group rental package gave me a free 2 nite hotel stay @ the worldwide travel center. man, now we have 3 vacations to take, since we got 2 other vacations from buying that royal prestige cookware way back then. well, we should use these vacation certificates someday.
so this morn, i went to the gym. i did some precor, stretching, n' a li'l lifting. i did lots'f crunches n' stuff like that. btw, 2day's wed. did i mention that already? after my werkout n' shower, i went to my mom's office so she could help me do my taxes, since i'm shamefully clueless 'bout these things. i faxed n' called gingiss formalwear n' got my $10 back. i faxed in the martial arts equipment order 4 mark n' paul. i went back home 4 lunch. i was starving but didn't want to waste $$$ on buying some fast fud. [a li'l later] 827p: my calves r a li'l sore. hrm, is that cos we went to taekwondo last nite or cos'f the gym this morn. *shrug*
[later] 1045p: now i'm home typing on my home 'puter. earlier, i
was writing on my handspring , while in
kaela's real estate class. it went later than i expekted. i
was sleepier than i expekted to be. we were s'pposed to go watch
cradle 2 the grave after her class; but it was late, n' i was tired.
we drove 2wards home, hungry. we stopped by a j.box
drive.thru in willow glen. i ordered a chipotle chicken sandwich
meal w/ curly fries. kaela got the 5 chicken breast pieces w/
frank's red hot sauce. it was a good lite dinner,
i s'ppose. well, now we're home. i sorted my elektronic parts
into bins in the box. geez, spring break is flying by fast!!! 2 fast!
ppl signed my gbook! ken, grace, n' pk r such kewl ppl! :-)
well, i wonder what i'll do 2morrow. @ nite, i'll go to taekwondo sparring practice. during the day? i s'ppose i'll hit the gym 'least 1nce, if not 2ice. it's just that i can imagine i could go 1nce b4 kaela wakes up n' 'gain w/ her. *shrug* maybe i'll werk on more of my personal mechatronics projekts. *shrug* here, here's a pic of me w/ my basic stamp "board of education" kit:
1 prob w/ late nite drive.thru fast fud is that u often don't c whatchu'r eating, n' i feel it might taste better if i saw it. :-/
:-) i may have found us some musicians 4 our wedding ceremony! :-)
1017a: i wish i weren't still @ home but already @ the gym werking out. geez, what a spring break, huh? i feel that i'm spending my spring break doing more like random tasks n' errands than wild spring break partying. however, that's just the way life goes cos i'm not a 20 yr old undergrad or nething. spring break? ha! that's 4 kids. i'm not a kid; i'm an adult! well, i hope i go to the gym 2day. my ideal plan's to go to the gym asap (hopefully, w/ the beautiful kaela kang), go to lunch, uh... do other stuff 4 the rest'f the day, n' go to taekwondo sparring class in the evening. kaela sed she wants to do a daytrip to tahoe 2morrow, but i'm not so sure she can wake up cos she's been going to sleep n' waking up so late. :-( we'll c. i wanna remindju always to check my previous entries in case i added stuff @ the end. like, yesterday, i ended up adding a whole bunch'f stuff 2wards the end of the day, u know? u can always browse my archived entries.
[later] 1102a: well, i spent the last 0.5 hr waking up kaela. i think we can now go to the gym n' then go out to lunch. she sed she stayed up till 500a, updating our wedding gift registry @ crate n' barrel. i'm picking up songs to include in our "wedding soundtrack," both musik to be played during the "cocktail hr" n' dinner as well as musik to be played during the boogie boogie dance time.
[later] 636p: what a day! :-/ man, what a day. we went
to the gym, had a pretty complete werkout. after werkout, i bought a
32 oz. berry fit smoothie w/ soy protein. the smoothies @ the gym r
pretty dang overpriced, but they gave me 2 entries to win a portable cd
player... which i don't really need, but hey! it's nice to win
stuff, i guess. kaela went to the temp agency. i walked over
to radio shack across the street n' got a stereo rca female to 1/4"
standard male converter, a gold.plated 1. then i browsed 'round
tower records 4 a while, listened to some trance cds. then we went
to look 4 lunch... even tho' it was like 400p. we 1st tried hand
pull noodles on capitol, but they were closed. we went to union
chinese restaurant on the corner of union n' bascom n' had chaomamien
(짬뽕) n' jiajiangmien (짜장면), a very late lunch. then we browsed
'round cosentino's market. we saw all sorts'f fancy, gourmet
groceries. we got some strawberries n' some
clover brand uh... organic (?) milk (nonfat). i went thru all
sorts'f produkts on the shelves, checking 4 evil hi fructose corn syrup.
really! u gotta check! if u have a choice btwn 2 brands, 1 w/ hi
fructose corn syrup n' 1 w/ sugar or some better sweetener, go w/ the 1 w/o
hi fructose corn syrup!!! please! do urself a favour n' boycott hi
fructose corn syrup! well, now i'm home. i should leave to
taekwondo practice pretty soon. why the heck am i typing a journal
entry?! i gotta be getting ready!
[later] 1006p: i'm in our room, typing on my handpsring while watching the simpsons episode where apu has an affair w/ the squishee lady. i went to taekwondo sparring practice 2nite. man, lemme tell u: the men's health article 'bout back pain told me to take 800 mg of ibufrofen (advil) 3 times a day, that's 4 advils 3 times a day. lately, i've been taking 4 advils 2 times a day, sometimes 3 times a day... very rarely. neway, this morn, when we were @ the gym, man! i felt great! i thought maybe my back pains were gone 4 good! :-) but then i didn't get to take my 2nd dose of advil 4 a while... when i got to taekwondo practice, man... my back hurt. i took advil right b4 going cos well... i didn't have time, 'member? i came home from cosentino's etc. n' then i had to hurry off to taekwondo. the advil didn't have time to take effekt. :-( i felt like such an old man! :-( it was bad 'nuff that i haven't sparred in ages i didn't do well @ all. :-( there was this young kid, a ucla freshman. he's 0.5 taiwanese, 0.5 korean.... like kaela's n' my future kids. heh... or else ken n' grace's... neway, i felt so old w/ my back pain. i benched 1 set. my left pec still kind'f hurt.
when i came home, i ate some prawns my mom cooked. i think they were tiger prawns or sumpthin'. they tasted like li'l lobsters! :-) kaela made smoothies just now, but i think we should go to sleep soon. :-( we're s'pposed to do that tahoe daytrip 2morrow morn!
lately, i've had a thought: it used to be that many'f
my friends (both guys n' gurls) agreed that guys make friends w/ each other
better n' more easily than gurls do. it was agreed that gurls r
maybe more "catty." well, lately, i've noticed that i have guy
friends who don't get 'long. i mean, me, i wish every1'd just get
'long. however sometimes i find myself in btwn friends who don't get
'long, who don't like each other. :-( what to do, u know?
u know, this morn, i had this dream, where uh... my exroommate n' i were friends 'gain. weird. n' in my dream, he asked me to live w/ him 'gain. i sed ok... but then i told him since we ended up in such bad disagreement after living 2gether b4, we shouldn't live 2gether 'gain. weird.
neway, when i was friends w/ my exroommate, i did have a li'l bit'f hard times w/ troubles btwn my friends n' him. i often tried to mediate or keep the peace, but eventually, i got fed up w/ him n' blew up. u know, even tho' i don't mean that ppl gotta be conformists, i gotta say that if every1 has problems w/ u, then the problem isn't necessarily not u. u know what i mean? i've always been a proponent of introspektion. ppl who always think their philosophies n' aktions r right w/o ne 2nd thoughts r simply often very unpleasant ppl.
ok, on to a diff topik!
1003p: i'm waiting to watch about schmidt @ amc saratoga 14.
well, i guess some things happened since my last update. on
fri (2day's sat), we made a daytrip to northstar. the snow wasn't 2
good (mostly ice), but u know i try to board thru all conditions.
2day, we werked out n' got some gift shopping done @ valley fair.
i hadn't been @ the mall in sooo long! well, it was
crowded. 2day, valley fair was obviously "the place to be."
it was nice to be @ the mall 'gain.
336p: it's such a warm cesar chavez day! 2day's mon, n' it's cesar chavez day. i may or may not have class later 2day; i'm not sure. the prof sed sumpthin' 'bout having class 2nite, but the university webpage sez the campus, including the library, is all shut down. :-/ *sigh* i wish i knew. it's cesar chavez's b.day; we should take the day off. well, spring break is over. how was spring break? *scoff* spring break?! i'm 27 yrs old! there's no such thing as spring break 4 me! i'm not an undergrad! no trip to cancun, ensenada, rosarito... no! no way! i'm just glad i could squeeze in 1 daytrip to tahoe. other than that, what did i do this spring break? well, i guess i did lots'f wedding planning. it's not a simple wedding, as u know. well, it's not like we're inviting a whole lot'f ppl. it's not that big; it's just uhm... well, i dunno... there r just lots'f things to do to put it on, i guess. :-/ neway, i guess over this spring break; i got my tuxedo stuff squared way, i got some ceremony musik stuff resolved, n' i guess we got some catering stuff resolved 2day. ppl who haven't participated in putting on a wedding wouldn't understand @ all what it takes to put on a wedding. :-/ it's lot'f werk.
*sigh* neway... how r u? u can sign my gbook n' let me know. even if u've already signed this current version of it, u can sign it 'gain. :-) 2day's mon. it's so warm! this whole weekend has been extremely, unbearably beautiful! it's crazy. it's the end'f march, n' it feels like summer here. what's been going on? i haven't really updated this weekend. yah, i guess i haven't felt as much like updating lately. maybe it's the war; maybe the war depressed me. it depresses shoppers, u know? that is, s'pposedly, ppl rn't $pending these days cos'f the war. that's a shame. hrm, it cms to me, if u wanna support our country, instead'f going out on the street corner n' waving a flag 'round to get ppl to honk 4 u, u should go into the mall n' $pend, $pend, $pend! i won't honk 4 u if u wave a flag. but if u walk out'f a mall w/ arms full of purchased merchandise, i'll honk if u want me to! X-D yup, we're a nation @ war. no, i'm not talkin' 'bout the war in iraq. i think there's 'nuff disagreement just w/in this country itself. i don't feel there's tolerance. i feel uncom4table. i feel ppl rn't getting 'long. :-( do u know what i mean? do u also feel this? maybe u don't, n' u just think i'm crazy.
right now, i'm sittin' in my car in a parking lot, the parking lot of the "main street" strip mall on the corner of santa teresa blvd n' blossom hill rd. i'm waiting 4 the beautiful kaela kang. right now, she's in an interview @ manpower temporary services. i'm sitting in my car. it's so warm, n' i wish the sun weren't shining on my so much. neway, it's good kaela's talking to the temp agency. right now, the economy sucks big time. u cannot be picky 'bout what kind'f job u werk. if u c ne opportunity to earn some $$$, just take it! lemme tell u, right now, we really don't have the luxuries that we had a few yrs 'go. in a way, i really do miss the 1999-2000 yrs. right now, it's hard 'nuff to find a job in an industry that's totally practical. u just gotta do exactly whatever pay$, u know?
my back, it's been better 2day but not totally better. u c, whenever i tell myself i should go c a doktor 'bout it, then my back'll get better just long 'nuff 4 me to think that i don't need a doktor nemore. :-/ it's the frog that won't dance if i try to show it to my friends. well, if that's the analogy, i don't want this frog to dance. i want it to give up dancing 4ever! i'm looking @ the men's health article 'bout back pain. lemme quote a few lines from it:
back spasm, or what [some doktor] calls "weekend-warrior syndrome, " can humble a grown man. he sees hundreds stagger into his clinic begging for mercy - and rightly so. if your back hurts, life sucks.
[this patient]'s doctor-recommended plan of medication, hot and cold packs, and gentle exercise (stretching and light weight lifting) is the best starting point - and usually the ending point - for any man with muscular back pain. "the majority of patients on this type of program respond in 72 hours," says [that doktor]. "after that, they just have to be careful doing what injured them in the first place."
as for [some patient], the doktor says there's nothing wrong with his trip to the chiropractor, other than timing. [the doktor] and his colleagues at texas back institute usually reserve chiropractic treatment for those patients who don't respond to [that 1st patient]'s style of treatment, which is the first line of offense. and why pay a chiropractor when the cheaper self-treatment usually works? that said, [the doktor] fully supports chiropractic care. "one knack chiropractors have is getting patients out of pain quickly," he says. "my only caveat is that i there's no improvement in 2 weeks, something else needs to be done." it could be physical therapy, or it could be a consultation with an orthopedic surgeon to see if the injury involves more than muscle.
['nother patient]'s self-prescribed rest and ibuprofen could help him, [the doktor] says, but not nearly as quickly as ice, heat, and exercise would. and he's doing nothing to strengthen his back to ward off another injury, which is bound to happen. . . bottom line: when back pain strikes, one of the things you don't do is nothing.
man, it's 406p. it's so hot in this car, sittin' in this parking lot. i'm wearing blue jeans n' a black shirt. it's hot. 2day, i didn't take ne advil. did i yesterday? i 4get. if i did, i didn't take much.
so, i wonder where i left off updating u w/ my life? :-/ hrm, i
totally 4get. i mentioned the daytrip to tahoe. we woke up in
the morn. it's easy 4 me to wake up early these days cos the sun
shines in thru the window. we stopped in cordelia n' got some
mcyukyuk's 4 breakfast we got to northstar 'round 1100a.
the snow wasn't very good. it was a beautifully sunny day but
chilly. the slopes were totally covered w/ ice. there wasn't
much snow, mostly ice. however, u know me; i say i want to be
able to board in ne condition, so yah... i accepted the challenge.
we had lunch in the early afternoon, ate chili w/ cornbread @ the
lodge @ the top of the big mtn. well, we went home. we ate
uh... i think we ate dinner @ home, right? i guess we made pasta;
simple pasta, just thin spaghetti w/ some jarred sauce n' frozen veggies n'
canned shrooms, nuthin' fancy.
sat, what happened on sat? uh, heh... i guess we tried to go to
the caterer to talk w/ them, but they were bizzy, so we skeduled a mtg 4
this morn. then what? uh, we ate lunch @ khanh's garden. man,
whenever we go there, i never order the right thing. this time, i
ordered some "vietnamese sausage" in thin rice wrap or skin or sumpthin'.
it wasn't what i expekted. it turned out to be a certain dish
that u can always buy @ those cheap vietnamese delis. i dunno how to
describe the dish, it's sort'f like potstickers or wontons... but it's
diff. neway, i felt a li'l ripped off, but the fud was
decently tasty... just overpriced. well, after lunch, we went to
valley fair n' did some gift shopping. we also updated our wedding
registry @ macy's, n' that took 4ever. after leaving the mall, we
went to dinner on el camino, @ 소공동 순두부집 (sogongdong soondubujip).
it was ok, but i still prefer 명동 순두부집 (myungdong
soondubujip). after dinner, we went to the theatre to watch about
schmidt. (please refer to "waiting to watch about schmidt from
2003.03.29.) 'twas a thoroughly entertaining movie. like, @
1st, i found it sort'f depressing. when u have a movie that's
s'pposed to portray "realism," n' it's pretty much 'bout depressed,
unattractive ppl... :-/ it's sort'f depressing. heh, i know
that remark sounded really superficial, but i'm just speaking from a
filmviewer's pt of view. neway, well... it turned out to be a fun
movie... i mean... like, if u have fun watching movies like american
beauty, then u can enjoy a movie like about schmidt... u know?
like, these movies sort'f follow a character thru life... maybe thru 1
particular crisis period... do u know an old robin williams movie
called the world according to garp? i 'member watching it on
tv a long time 'go, but i 4get what it was like. even tho'
i'm trying so hard to boycott hi fructose corn syrup, i had to buy a large
sprite @ the theatre.
sun, ken n' grace had a bbq @ their house. kaela n' i went to safeway to get some . . .
[later] 427p: i couldn't stand it; i had to go pee so badly, n' sitting in this warm car w/ the sun hitting my guts n' crotch really wasn't helping. i ran into the nearby albertson's n' used their urinal. i didn't buy nething, altho' i could use a cold beverage. well, please allow me to continue sun(day)'s story.
kaela n' i went to the neighbourhood safeway to get 1 head'f green leaf lettuce, 2 red tomatoes, a red onion, a jar'f dill pickle relish, 2 bags'f mixed salads, n' salad dressing. the bbq was pretty fun.
[later] 1031p: uh, it's much later now. lemme still keep going w/
talkin' 'bout sun: well, the bbq was fun. we ate burgers, those
sinai kosher hot dogs, n' chicken kabobs. mmm... we ate
sooo much! also, nelson's bro mike's gf vivian made a good
strawberry cheesecake! it
was good. we watched some movies: maid in manhattan n' sum
of all fears. after the bbq, kaela n' i went home to get our gym
stuff n' hit the gym. oh yah... on sat, we went to the gym 2.
on sat, we went to the meridian / hamilton location instead'f the usual
capitol / aborn location. i had a very thorough werkout on sat.
i was pretty sorer all the way till 2day. on sun, we had a
very quick werkout cos it was pretty late. the gym closes @ 900p on
sat n' sun. i didn't realise that. after we came home, we ate
some leftovers. we watched 접속 (contact, a korean
romance movie. it was a very clever movie. i liked it.
i have it on vcd. i got it a long time 'go, but we didn't watch it
till last nite. yah, i really liked it. u know, i think 1 of
my favourite korean movies... maybe 1 of my favourite movies period is
카라 (calla). uh, i mention this not just cos
접속 n' 카라 r both korean movies but cos they both have to
do w/ some1 trying to find some1 they're obsessed w/. neway, i like
both'f these movies.
well, now it's 1048p, n' i'm sittin'; in our room w/ kaela watching will n' grace. 2nite, we went to the gym. i didn't have class 2day, but i went to check. i saw my "mechatronics" professor, n' she was wondering why i was on campus. i told her our "computer aided mechanical design" prof sed we had class but apparently we didn't. well, kaela n' i went to the gym.
hrm... wait, how did this day start out? uh... oh yah, we 1st went out to meet w/ that caterer. after that, uh... we went to lunch, right? yah, we went to lunch @ 비원 (biwon). i ordered 짜장면 (jjajangmyuhn), n' kaela ordered 잡채밥 (japchaebap). i felt like i ate so much w/ all the 반찬 (banchan) n' all. after lunch, we stopped by the bank. then we went grocery shopping @ 한국 마켓 (hangook market). oh yah! there was a sparrow in the market, flying 'round! :-) i really liked that! :-) somehow, it got ahold'f an open package of 뻔튀기 (bbuhntwigi) n' was eating it. she was a female sparrow. well, hrm... kaela n' i thought we heard 2 sparrows. i only saw 1. well, after grocery shopping, i dropped kaela off 2 the temp agency. i went home to get a few things: kaela's gym clothes, kaela's skoolbook, n' my targus stowaway keyboard 4 my handspring. then i went back n' sat in the parking lot. that brings us back to the beginning of 2day's entry!
so i guess lots'f ppl consider grace adler, played by debra messing, of
will n' grace is the best dressed woman on tv. maybe
so. 2nite, @ the gym, i did a bit'f treadmill. then kaela n'
i went to pilates class 4 the 1st time in ages. when we came home,
we ate costco rotisserie chicken.
310p: i'm sittin' on the 3rd floor'f the sjsu library w/ classmate dave doing our required reading b4 the guest lekture in "precision machine design." i'm sooo sleepy on this tues afternoon, our 1st day'f skool after spring break. we have so many projekts to do this month, soo many projekt! [later] 317p: it's a grey.skyed tues afternoon. it rained last nite. it's s'pposed to rain 'gain 2nite n' on fri. this morn, i did 'lot'f hot/cold treatment on my lower back. i put an ice pack on it 4 a while, then switched to a microwaved aromatherapy heat pack, n' then repeated this cycle a few times. my back felt pretty good 4 a while after. now, it hurts a li'l. i took 3 advils b4 leaving my car in the parking garage.
[much later] 1055p: check out dave leip's atlas of u.s. presidential elections (http://www.uselectionatlas.org). wow! i had 4gotten how much'f the latter 20th century amerika spent under the reign of republikans! i was just thinkin' 'bout politiks cos'f all the politikal diarrhea certain ppl have been spewing on the bronx's junkyard forums in the past few months. of course, that webpage only talks 'bout presidential elektions, not congressional elektions... (it also talks a li'l 'bout gubernatorial elektions.)
[later] 1118p: ok, i just took a shower. well, what happened
2day? well, last nite, the beautiful kaela kang
gave me a haircut. my hair had gotten sooo long. i
was way past the pt of caring, u know? i just figured i'd just have
shaggy hair. :-/ there's a real threshold pt, u know? i
mean... u either have short hair or shaggy hair... n' then u can have long
hair... but that takes 'lot longer, of course... 'member when i
used to have pretty long hair? please c: http://www.benomix.com/hair.html
1209a: 2day (meaning yesterday), i was driving to skool 'round 230p. i saw snow on mt. hamilton. i couldn't believe it. i kept staring @ it. there was a muffler on the rd. luckily, i didn't hit it. crazy! snow on mt. hamilton on an april afternoon!
2day (meaning yesterday), i went to the gym 2ice. in the morn, i went to the gym. i came home 4 lunch. the beautiful kaela kang n' i ate leftovers from tues nite's dinner. it was wed yesterday (what i've been calling "2day), n' 2day's thurs. on tues nite, i went to taekwondo practice. i've sort've gotten to know the younger guys now. when i came home, my mom had tuna fish kimbap/sushi rolls n' miso soup. 4 wed's lunch, we ate leftovers. i went to class, which was more'f a lab group mtg that lasted from 230p till 700p. now that spring break's over, it's totally crunch time 4 all my class projekts! after class, i went to michael's n' target to shop 4 wedding candles in the rain. it was a li'l stressful, so i went to the gym to sort'f "blow off steam." dave (yee) sed he werked b4 his wedding 'lot to blow off steam. maybe i'll just be like him? *shrug* well, i got home 'round 1030p or so, i think. so did kaela. we ate some bbq rib that my mom bought n' some beans, caesar salad, n' cherry pie. sounds like quite a meal, huh? yah, i gotta be careful! i wanna be buff or cut, not flabby!
[later] 1100a:
 my artwerk! :-) |
 beno @ target, looking down @ his targus handcam w/o much expression |
do u 'member the snl skit called "sprockets" w/ mike myers? here's a webpage that talks a li'l 'bout it: http://www.gawth.com/~desolate/sprockets.html. i 'member that owen used to really like "sprockets."
last nite, after the gym, i badly needed gas. i went to the chevron on the corner of capitol n' silver creek. it was $2.059/gal there. i figured it was $2.059/gal @ rotten robbie, usa, n' world 2. those r my usual gas stations these days. i figured i might as well get ritzy, designer, brand.name gas 4 the same price. i filled up. as i drove up capitol, i found out usa n' world now sell gas 4 $2.019/gal. oh well. i think rotten robbie's still @ $2.059/gal. well, if u need 89 or 91; usa, world, n' that chevron all sell them 4 $2.159/gal n' $2.259/gal respektively. in that case, u might as well get the designer brand gas, right? @ nite, when i was watching the kpix nitely news now shown on kbhk upn 44 @ midnite (as a rerun), i heard that the gas prices in cali should drop below $2/gal by the end of this week. do i believe it? :-/ i dunno.
a few weeks 'go, kaela n' i noticed some sparrows had built a nest in the uh... rafters? is that whatchu call it? well, the sparrows built a nest on a beam underneath the roof overhang that only covers the front part of our house where the 1st story sticks out extra. we c the nest when we walk out the front door n' look up. it's a very, very cute li'l nest. 2day, i peeked out the window thru the shutter blinds n' saw the li'l female sparrow sittin' in the nest. i really like that! :-)
u know, yesterday, i took 2 showers @ the gym. i'm clean, rn't i? :-/ i woke up late this morn, so i didn't go to the gym. i plan to go to taekwondo sparring practice 2nite, while kaela takes her midterm. i want to werkout as much as i can. i want to be fit.
if u go to http://www.m-w.com n' look up "rafters," u can follow some links to an illustration that explains what "rafters" n' "ridgepoles" r: http://www.m-w.com/mw/art/ridgepol.htm. so uh... i guess a rafter isn't what i thought it might be.
over @ the bronx's junkyard forums, as i sed, there's been some
ppl saying some pretty dumb politikal stuff. there's this 1
closed.minded, ignorant conservative that has 4 an avatar, a usa flag
covered by the texan flag. as a satirical retaliation 4 all his
stoopid remarks that all liberals suck, darren (idigu) changed his avatar
to a texan flag covered by a french flag! X-D good job, darren!
:-) seriously, from what i've cn lately, i have a very low opinion
of texans... n' i know that's not fair... but geez! if so many
texans r aktually proud that dubyah's a texan... *shakes head* well,
a while 'go, i made a special cali state flag that i like:
130p: i'm sittin' in the university computer center on the 2nd floor of
the sjsu clark library. i feel a li'l queasy in the stomach.
i hope i didn't get some foodbourne illness. :-( well, i wrote a
li'l bit of an entry yesterday on my handspring , but my
handspring crashed n' lost my data. i had to back up the system
when i got home last nite. so what's been up? *shrug* where
did i leave off updating? on thurs nite? prob'ly.
2day's sat. fri, the beautiful kaela kang
spent the day @ this real estate investors' seminar. aktually, it's
a 4.day program. she's there right now. i was there w/ her
this morn, but i'm @ skool now. it's crunch time w/ my projekts, u
know? neway, yah, yesterday, we were @ the seminar all day.
ugh, i was so tired by the end of the day. 4 lunch, we went to
katanaya ramen in sj j.town. we luckily didn't hafta have a
dinner break n' then more class, even tho' that's what was on the skedule.
the class voted just to listen thru the dinner break n' go home
early. still, it wasn't that early! kaela n' i didn't
go home 4 dinner. instead, we drove over to the willow glen
neighbourhood n' went to willow street pizza. aktually, there was a
bit'f a wait 4 a table there, even tho' it was past 800p. i guess
it was fri nite, so it was a bit bizzier, right? well, it cms like
a very popular place! kaela n' i shared this asparagus n' goat
cheese salad n' this salmon n' spinach pizza. (btw, 4 lunch, i had
a udon combo w/ chicken katsudon, n' kaela had this mapo tofu ramen.)
after dinner, we just went home. we didn't do much b4 going
to bed.
2day, we woke up in the morn, went back to the radisson hotel 4 this seminar thingy. well, aktually, the 1st thing we did there was get on a bus, n' they showed us some houses in the san jo / santa clara area. it took a while. then they dropped us back off @ the hotel @ lunchtime. kaela n' i searched 4 fud in that airport hotel area n' found some chinese fast fud joint called ume chinese fud or sumpthin'. we ate there. as i sed, my stomach feels sort'f queasy. :-( neway, i'm here @ the library.
so what is this crazy seminar 'bout? well, they basikally just teach u some rules 'bout real estate investing n' like keep reinforcing that it's a good idea. i like hearing some of the bargaining philosophies they have but can do w/o some'f the fast talkin' they do. like, i think all they teach is pretty legit(imate), n' when u talk to the instructors in a smaller group environment, they sound pretty "real," u know? some'f what they talk 'bout is 'bout buying really crappy, rundown houses n' fixin' 'em up 4 resale. some of what they talk 'bout is buying certain kinds'f properties that they say lots'f other ppl r willing to buy off of u 4 a bit more soon after u buy it... i dunno... it's somewhat interesting.
u know, sometime this week, joon was talkin' 'bout c.s. lewis's chronicles of narnia book series on his journal. as i read his journal, i looked up from my 'puter @ my bookshelf n' saw the complete chronicles of narnia series that my mom gave me 4 christmas when i was a kid. when i got that as a christmas present, i was sooo excited! :-) well, the next morn, i was back @ my 'puter. i looked up @ the shelf n' realised that my mom had taken away all'f my childhood books from my shelf including the chronicles of narnia set. *sigh* oh well... like, i know i prob'ly wouldn't've reread them... not really... i just hoped that she donated the books to somewhere nice instead'f just recycling or throwing them 'way. :-/ i dunno what happened to them. i'm not necessarily mad 'bout it... like, if i were a kid still; yah, i'd be absolutely furious... oh well. well, i just let it go, i guess. however, the next morn, i had a dream that my mom took all my dj equipment out of my room, disassembled it, n' put it in the garage. it was a nightmare! a really scary dream! i felt so helpless in my dream. when i woke up, i ran to my room... phew, my dj equipment was still there. i need it more than ever these next few months cos i gotta record some premixed cds 4 the wedding reception!!! man, i was so panicked but then felt relieved. u know the feeling. well, later that morn, i went into my closet to get clothes n' noticed my mom had removed my spare mixer from the closet shelf. i dunno where she put it, probl'y the garage... if i were more immature, yah, i know i'd be furious. @ this pt, i'm just relieved that my nitemare wasn't true, so i won't complain... it's just my spare mixer, what i use in the case that my real mixer breaks down... which has happened b4. *sigh* :-( it's... it's such a situation, i guess... :-( like, i really appreciate being able to move home while i'm in skool... but... :-( *sigh* i dunno... :-( i really appreciate it, but... :-(
neway, i'm in the library now. now, it's 151p on a sat
afternoon. i wanna do some werk on some projekts despite the fakt
that i'm locked out of the mechanical engineering 'puter lab. i
need access to some cad n' fea (finte element analysis) software. i
need access to solidworks, pro/e, n' pro/m. also, i need matlab to
werk on my "mechatronics" lab. well, aktually, heh... i'm quite
skilled @ matlab, (if i don't say so myself. heh heh...) so what i plan to
do 4 the next coupl'f hrs or so is just type up some matlab code either
here in the 'puter lab or on my handspring... well, i'm a li'l worried
'bout my handspring's crashing since it crashed yesterday n' lost my data.
:-( i dunno. neway, my classmate friend dave is s'pposed to meet me
on campus to borrow a copy of the matlab software from me. uh... heh, :-)
that makes no sense, huh? why is it that i'm complaining that i
don't have matlab to do my lab report; but i'm 'bout to loan out a copy of
matlab to my friend. heh, if u have the patience to put up w/ my geeky
nerd talk n' think 'bout it, then u'r prob'ly sort'f dumbfounded.
well, it's just that i never installed matlab on my home 'puter cos i
figured i'd have access to matlab in the 'puter lab n' didn't wanna
clutter up my already cluttered hard drive. i really gotta spend
some time n' move all my movie n' muzik files from my hard drive onto
cd.rom. i try to spend time doing that, but then every1 just thinks
i'm goofing off if i'm werkin' on my 'puter. :-( *sigh* really, since
matlab is 1 of my specialties as an engineer, i ought to have it on my
home 'puter, right? right. *shrug* well... we'll c. later, i
gotta return to the real estate investors' seminar, 'least to pick up
kaela if nuthin' else.
oh yah, this morn, when we left, i 4got my fon (my cellfon), so u can't
call me 2day.
912p: daylite saving time has begun. it's called "daylite saving time," w/ no "s"; that is, it's not "daylite savings time." it was very hard to wake up this morn. i wanted to sleep earlier last nite, but saturday nite live hosted by bernie mac w/ good charlotte as the musikal guest was very fun to watch. what could i do? :-(
just a while 'go, i managed to find the mitsubishi outlander commercial,
which i like so much, online. u 'member which 1 i'm speaking of?
it has that afrikan.amerikan dude driving the car thru diff periods
of his life: thru lots'f partying, thru a date, thru more partying, on his
wedding day, to the hospital w/ his pregnant wife, n' w/ his kid in the
back. as i sed, i really feel that my life is like that, n' i live
my life w/ my car, etc. "the millenium forester," 'member? X-D
that's what some p.crew ppl called it back in the day cos i put it thru so
much like han solo did to his spaceship. neway, if u wanna dl the
commercial, u can go to http://www.mitsubishicars.com/tv_ad_popups/.
well, u can watch it there. if u wanna aktually dl (btw, dl
means "download.") it, u gotta use hi.net recorder, like i do. :-)
i learned 'bout hi.net recorder from jerome n' bronx's
junkyard.
910a: i'm eating great grains cereal. i'm @ my home 'puter.
last nite, i burned all my gayo mp3s ("gayo" is the korean wurd 4
"pop" muzik.) to cdrom n' deleted them off my 'puter to clear up space.
i also did that to my gayo videos. i'm trying to clear off
space on my hard drive. maybe i'll install matlab on my home 'puter.
*shrug* neway, i wanna clear all the mp3s off my 'puter n' then gradually
load all the muzik files i need 4 the wedding on, so i can start burning
cds to play 4 the wedding reception. i have a 37gb atlas 10k ultra
160 drive. 37gb just isn't 'nuff these days. if i ran an ide
system, i'd go out n' get a 80 - 120 gb drive. it'd be cheap if i
had an ide system, but i run a scsi system. 
since i cleared off all those mp3s, i don't have as much'f
a muzik selektion to listen to on my 'puter while i type this entry.
i accidentally didn't burn my direktories that have videos 4 lee junghyun,
finkl, or shinhwa. luckily, i caught that mistake b4 i deleted
those direktories. well, since i need muzik, i'm playing the video of lee
junghyun's "아리 아리" ("ari ari"). i finished my cereal. the
beautiful kaela
kang is off @ her last day of that real estate investment class.
it's a 4.day course.
i only went to less than 0.5 of the
course. 1 thing i realised from it, tho', is that i really
should've bought a house in albany back in the days when i aktually
contemplated buying a house. like, after i stopped making $$$ @ my
last job, i guess i kept saying i was so glad i didn't buy a house n' have
a mortgage to pay off. however, now i realise that i really
should've bought a house back then purely cos real estate is a such
a good investment n' when i found out i wasn't gonna have a steady income 4
a while, i could've just sold it off. it wouldn't have been the
end'f the world! paying rent, that was just throwing $$$ down the
toilet. :-/ i realise 1 prob i had back then was i just was unsure
of myself, in that i thought i was 2 young to own real estate.
geez... looking back on life, like when u'r 25 or so, u think u'r 2 young
to do this n' that. certain thing sound like "grown up" things, n' u
wonder if u'r still 2 young to do those things... but now that i'm 27 n'
turning 28 this yr, i'm thinking, "geez, when did i think i'd be
grown up 'nuff to do those things?!" there r certain young@heart
things i wanna keep doing 4 life, but those things shouldn't prevent me
from doing the "grown up" things i need to do in life in order to make
progress!
do u believe in luck? i've sed b4 in this journal that i think luck is more a matter of ur perspektive on ur current situation: if u choose to focus on the bad things in ur life, then u'll eventually come to the conclusion that u have bad luck. if u choose to focus on the good things in life, then u can come to the conclusion that u have good luck. last thurs nite, i was thinking that i'm having bad luck lately... since i've had bad things happen to me lately... like, how i don't cm to be finding a job, how my back had probs these past few months... stuff like that... i started thinking 'bout how in elementary skool i came up w/ a theory that every other yr i had good luck n' then bad luck, u know? i thought i had bad luck in 4th grade cos i felt i had lots'f issues, social issues... like, i didn't get 'long w/ some kids in my classes. then in 5th grade, i felt i had good luck cos i did have lots'f friends in my classes n' got 'long great w/ lots'f other kids. then in 6th grade (middle skool), i felt so awkward started middle skool n' being thrown 2gether w/ lots'f kids from other elementary skools. i felt unpopular n' clumsy, so i felt i had bad luck. maybe things shaped up in 7th grade... or aktually, maybe i just stopped thinking 'bout this good luck / bad luck every 2 yrs thing. then i think in college... i think in my soph yr, my mom told me i was having a bad luck yr, i think. then when i had my big car crash in 1999, i think maybe i heard i was having a bad luck yr... i mean, definitely, ppl sed i was having a bad luck yr 4 my car. in 2000, my cellfon kept breaking down on me, so ppl joked that i was having a bad luck yr w/ my cellfon. aktually, recently my current cellfon has been breaking down on me 'lot, right? the antenna... neway, lemme entertain this silly idea 'bout good luck / bad luck every 2 yrs. lemme plot out which yrs were good yrs n' which were bad based upon my theory back in 5th grade:
| 4th grade | bad luck |
| 5th grade | good luck |
| 6th grade | bad luck |
| 7th grade | good luck |
| 8th grade | bad luck |
| 9th grade (freshman yr of hi skool) | good luck |
| 10th grade (soph yr of hi skool) | bad luck |
| 11th grade (jr yr of hi skool) | good luck |
| 12th grade (sr yr of hi skool) | bad luck |
| fresh yr of berkeley | good luck |
| soph yr of berkeley | bad luck |
| jr yr of berkeley | good luck |
| sr yr of berkeley | bad luck |
| 5th yr of berkeley (1997-1998) | good luck |
| 1998-1999 | bad luck |
| 1999-2000 | good luck |
| 2000-2001 | bad luck |
| 2001-2002 | good luck |
| 2002-2003 | bad luck |
| 2003-2004 | good luck |
k, lemme analyze this table:
| 4th grade | bad luck | yah, i felt unpopular. |
| 5th grade | good luck | yah, i felt popular. |
| 6th grade | bad luck | yah, i felt unpopular n' awkard. |
| 7th grade | good luck | *shrug* maybe i felt better luck. *shrug* |
| 8th grade | bad luck | no, i aktually felt pretty good in 8th grade. |
| 9th grade (freshman yr of hi skool) | good luck | hrm... no, i aktually felt i had better luck in 8th grade. maybe i flipped these 2 yrs. |
| 10th grade (soph yr of hi skool) | bad luck | *shrug* maybe, i dunno... aktually, this was the only time i got straight "a"s in hi skool... n' i started going to church n' got an elektric guitar. :-/ it was a pretty good yr. |
| 11th grade (jr yr of hi skool) | good luck | yah, i felt pretty lucky. i passsed all 4'f the ap tests i took that yr. also i a national merit scholar. |
| 12th grade (sr yr of hi skool) | bad luck | how could i possibly feel bad luck in my graduating yr of hi skool? well, some mis4tunes happened, i s'ppose. :-/ i 'member feeling pretty stressed 'bout cliqueishness... n' my grades slipped in my final semester cos i already was accept into berkeley n' had senioritis. |
| fresh yr of berkeley | good luck | no, i aktually had pretty awful luck freshman yr! |
| soph yr of berkeley | bad luck | yah, i had very bad luck soph yr! |
| jr yr of berkeley | good luck | yah, i had a pretty good jr yr. i got really pretty good grades n' had lots'f fun... lots'f fun!!! |
| sr yr of berkeley | bad luck | hrm... i dunno, i thought it was ok. i got a co.op internship n' stuff. |
| 5th yr of berkeley (1997-1998) | good luck | yah, i felt it was a pretty good yr. i graduated from college n' had a job lined up. |
| 1998-1999 | bad luck | well, i definitely had bad luck w/ my car; but i had decent luck in that i had a decent job. |
| 1999-2000 | good luck | yah, i had good luck! :-) this is the time period in which kaela n' i got 2gether! :-) |
| 2000-2001 | bad luck | hrm... how was that period? i guess i was still living in the hillegass apt n' had that big explosive conflikt w/ my ex.roommate. :-/ those were fun times, but the apt situation sucked. |
| 2001-2002 | good luck | well, i had lots'f fun, felt i was living a pretty good life. however, the economy real sucked n' my company started to have all those probs, so my job situation turned really bad. however, since kaela n' i got engaged, it was a good time. :-) |
| 2002-2003 | bad luck | well, this is right now. i'm glad i'm in grad skool. life in san jo is ok; it has its ups n' downs. i was really stressed w/ kaela's career situation 4 a while. i had some car troubles, but they rn't 2 bad. the ekonomy sucks, there's a war, n' i don't have much luck w/ finding a job. :-( on the other hand, i'm gonna get married @ the end of this akademic yr. (notice i'm using akademic yrs here!!!) planning the wedding is plenty of stress, but i'm glad we're having the wedding! |
| 2003-2004 | good luck | well, we'll hafta wait n' c. i'll hopefully graduate w/ my master's @ the end of the 2003-2004 akademic yr. hopefully, i'll be able to get a nice job during this time, n' kaela n' i can get ourselves a nice home n' a doggy. |
ok, so that's my analysis. i really like to say i don't believe in this luck theory, 'specially not nemore. however, i worry that since i spent all this time typing that junk out that i must believe it. what's worse is that the idea of self.fulfilling prophecy, u know? i shouldn't go 'round saying i have bad luck, or i will. hrm, or is saying that a self.fulfilling prophecy in itself?! i should say, "just cos i say that sumpthin' bad'll happen, doesn't mean it will happen."
*sigh* neway...do u know what time it is? it's 1025a. i wanted to go to the gym this morn n' then go to the 'puter lab to werk on my class stuff. i dunno... i might just hafta skip the gym @ this rate. i'm not sure. u know, i haven't been to the gym since last thurs!!! :-( :-( :-( last week, i had such a good routine going w/ the gym n' all. u know, when i exercise, my back feels better. this weekend, w/ the real estate investment course n' everything, my werkout routine just went downhill n' disappeared. well, i've been measuring my weight n' fat content. i was like 155 lbs n' 6.0% body fat a coupl'f nites 'go. this morn, i was still 155 lbs but 7.8% body fat or sumpthin'. :-( i want to be lean, u know? lean but muscular... "cut," u know? *sigh* meway... geez... i hope u appreciate this journal entry cos i really wasted 'lot'f time typing it up! :-/ when u get a chance, please sign my gbook. it's not a new verusion or nething; the same ol' questions still. i have yet to answer those myself. i'll do that eventually.
what have i been eating lately? yah, i usually talk 'bout that,
huh? well, on sat nite, i cooked 순두부 찌개 (soondubu jjigae) @
home after that real estate investment course. aktually, earlier in
the afternoon, during the aktual "dinner break," i drove kaela over to
huong lan vietnamese sandwich shop in milpitas, n' we got some'f those
sandwiches n' boba drinks. aktually, i didn't have boba, just taro milk
w/o boba. kaela had some pearl milk tea. neway, that
nite, i aktually cooked soondubu myself. :-) even tho' u know i cook korean
fud now n' then, i aktually had never cooked soondubu jjigae all by myself.
sat nite i did that. on sun, i ate leftovers of that 4 lunch.
@ dinner time, i cooked some string beans in black bean sauce n'
some grilled tilapia. i'm eating fine. it's mon 2day.
it's 1033a now.
better luck tomorrow is that asian.am movie that's gonna open @ amc 1000 van ness this fri. u should check it out! it opens in san jo a week later. if u don't live in the bay area, check ur local movie listings. if u c it listed, go watch it! :-)
[later] 242p: i aktually did manage to make it to the gym. i had a quick werkout. i did some treadmilling, quickly stretched, n' lifted some weights. i made it a pt to bench some. even tho' i don't go as all out w/ the 135lb bar as i would w/ the taekwondo guys 'round to spot me, i guess it's better that i bench w/ the free weights like this, instead'f the machine, just to get more n' more com4table w/ using the free weights n' bar instead'f the machines. i also made it a pt to do back exercises. after i showered, i went to my car. wow, it was pretty warm outside 2day. i got in my car n' drove 2wards skool. 4 lunch, i stopped by a vietnamese sandwich shop on tully to get a ham, headcheese, n' pâte sandwich to go; just $1.50! :-) well, i went to campus, found parking on the 5th floor n' came to the mech engring 'puter lab to meet w/ my lab group. i'm here in the lab right now, werking on my matlab image processing stuff 4 my "mechatronics" class. 'member: i'm a matlab genius! always was, always will be... heh, how's that 4 confidence? ha ha. seriously, i've werked w/ matlab 4 a long time, so i really like it, n' would like it if i could find an engring job where i could use it. we'll c.
[later] 340p: i'm still here in the lab, werkin' on matlab. @ 530p, my lab group has a li'l presentation 4 our "computer aided mechanical design" class. [a li'l later] 352p, now it's 352p. [a li'l later] 401p: now it's 401p. as u c, i'm not saying much. i guess i'm aktually pretty bizzy w/ this matlab stuff.
[later] after my "computer aided mechanical design" class, which ran
way over cos ppl had long presentations, i went to the gym. i tried
to werkout hard on the precor. i wanted to push myself till i was
'least breathing hard, u know? i felt like back when i was training
hard in taekwondo @ berkeley, i much more often
werked out the pt of breathing hard, panting; but lately, i haven't.
:-/ well, i tried to push myself harder. i stretched,
did some crunches, lifted a li'l. i showered n' came home to eat
some costco rotisserie chicken. heh, i've been eating that 'lot
lately, huh?
149p: i'm in the mechanical engineering 'puter lab. 154p: i'm
werking on matlab n' also chatting w/ roland on y! msgr. [later] 236p:
still werking on matlab n' chatting w/ roland. i wanna do a really
good job w/ this matlab assignment cos i'm a matlab genius! :-) [later]
258p: i'm still doing those 2 things...
1037a: i'm in line @ the post office to pick up a package. a few weeks 'go, i bought a korean movie dvd on ebay from a seller in hong kong. i have other errands to run, such as going to the bank to depo$it a coupl'f checks. oh yah! the big news: i have a job interview next mon morn!!! i'm very happy 'bout that! :-)
[later] 1122p: @:-/ ne1 who thinks i just spend my days werking out @ the gym, dling muzik n' videos, drinking boba drinks, n' snowboarding all weekend; u r very unappreciated right now. i spent the past 9 hrs or so in the mechanical engineering 'puter lab! >:-( i was there werking on my "cad" projekt w/ my group n' on my matlab assignment till 'bout 1100p; no dinner, just a diet pepsi n' a kitkat big stick.
this afternoon, the beautiful kaela kang n' i had lunch w/ roland @ 부만루 hand pull noodle chinese restaurant. i ate some 짜장면 (jjajangmyuhn/jiajiangmien). it was pretty good, n' i was so stuffed! i guess it was a good thing since i had to skip dinner. u know, i am a full.time grad student!
hey, kaela signed my gbook 'gain. she's kewl. u can sign my gbook 'gain 2.
:-)
~100a: i found this on the net: November 06, 2002 CHICKEN : Hey, uh, I got a question... How are you guys so cool and
relaxed all the time?
Personally, I'm ahh-um more the active type.
(the cows sit still and silent, staring at the chicken)
CHICKEN : Silence, OK like a zen thing. I get it grasshopper, I'll work
on that.
COW 1 : (underwhelmed) Wow.
COW 2 : (chuckling) Yeah, Poultry...
from "capsaicin commentary: bob and weave"
(http://www.habanerosalsa.com/MT/CapsaicinCommentary/archives/000106.php)
Bob and Weave
There is this commercial for California cheese / happy cows that is
hilarious. The voice of Bobcat Goldthwait was accompanying a chicken who is
talking to two cows on a grassy plain, and it goes like this:
(cluck)
You know, bob and weave, bob and weave...
(his head is swaying from side to side)
Where you guys just hang out all day in the sun, you're all like mellow
- what's your secret?
(the chicken runs off into the distance)
[later] 311a: i finished my "mechatronics" lab report. i also have some "precision machine design" hw to do n' a quiz to study 4 in that class. really, i'm a hard werking student, n' u gotta understand that! >:-(
[later] 757a: i just woke up from a dream. in the end'f the dream, the beautiful kaela kang n' i were looking @ some developed n' printed fotos; yah, the ol' fashion way. we were lookin' @ pics we took @ some amusement park... but in the amusement park, u got dressed in clothes of like 18th century europe n' like pretended u were living in that time n' place.
[later] 958a: i can't believe jet li's cradle 2 the grave has already been taken out of amc mercado 20. it had so much hype when it was 'bout to be released, n' sooo many ppl went to go c it opening nite. the ratings from critic's shown on y! movies say it stinks. :-( i checked y! movies 4 local showtimes. the only place that's showing it now is milipitas's cinema saver 10. over there, they're also showing catch me if you can, which kaela n' i missed but which i've been dling from kazaa 4 the past week or so. i've been dling 2 diff versions of it, a version that's burnable to vcd, which is the (dvd viewer), n' a version that's s'pposedly the full dvd version, which won't fit on a vcd, but'll fit as an .avi file burnt onto a cdrom. i c cinema saver 10's also playing view from the top, the movie w/ gwyneth paltrow n' mike myers. i wanna c that 1. it looks really funny, but lemme c what the critics say. whoa, it got pretty bad ratings 2. the user ratings r worse than cradle 2 the grave's. hrm, i wonder how shanghai knights is. like, these martial arts movies w/ big names, i guess i'd rather rent the dvds than dl them from kazaa cos i kind'f aktually care 'bout them (heh), u know? lessee what the critics say 'bout it. eh, so so. well, yah. i can imagine renting shanghai knights n' also cradle 2 the grave on dvd someday. heh, there rn't 'nuff martial arts movies out right now; 'least in comparison to how many military war movies there r right now. :-/ geez, basic, tears of the sun? ok ok, maybe there r only 2... but it cmed like there were many. maybe that's cos i sort'f count the core as a military war movie since it's such a armageddon type movie... which, heh, doesn't make sense 4 me to say cos it's not like armageddon was a war movie! ha ha. neway... the next movie i wanna c is definitely better luck tomorrow, as u know.
[later] 1228p: every so often i have this thought: do u ever think some particular chapter of ur life was worth making a movie 'bout? or maybe writing a book 'bout... or maybe writing a comic book 'bout... *shrug*
[later] 1051p: r u excited 'bout the matrix reloaded. last
nite, i read 'bout it a li'l cos it was featured in wired magazine.
i hear they'll have the matrix 3 coming out this nov!
crazy, huh? neway, how was ur day? :-) me, my day wasn't bad, i
guess. i felt pretty dang stressed as i started my day; but by the
time i got to skool i felt like... well, do u know the popular saying
"everything's coming up milhouse?" if u don't, then u gotta
getchurself edjukated!!! u'd best check ur local tv listing on yahoo! to
find out when syndicated reruns of the simpsons 
come on in ur area!
neway, yah, everything was coming up beno it cmed. well, i guess i
just felt good cos i managed to find a parking space as soon as i drove up
the ramp to the 5th floor. a car was pulling out. yah, that
really brightened my day. on my way to skool, i stopped by rite.aid
to get some advil on sale n' some folders. the advil was pretty
cheap cos i had a coupon from the ad n' a coupon from the box. when
i got to campus, it started to drizzle. it was just a li'l warm
spring sprinkle. i didn't mind cos i had my nice, big umbrella in
the backseat. :-) c, everything was coming up beno! :-) (in
case u don't know, this is milhouse: 
) i went to the library n' did my "precision
machine design" hw w/ my classmate friends dave n' brian. we went to
class. we thought there'd be a quiz 2day, but i guess the prof
decided to postpone it till next thurs. well... like, they r
teknically "pop" quizzes, but like most'f us have figured out his
skedule... or so we thought! we just had a normal lekture.
on sat, april 19, the class'll take a field trip up to lawrence
berkeley lab. :-) sure! i like going to berkeley! :-) after that class, we had 1 more
class. then i went to taekwondo sparring practice. it was a
pretty lite werkout since lots'f students r gonna compete @ the chabot
college tournament on sat. me, i'm definitely not gonna
compete, but kaela n' i'll go watch, coach, cheer, whatever. we'll
be glad to c some old friends from berkeley 2!
:-) 2day was thurs.
after practice, since i felt everything was coming up beno, i went 'head
n' stopped by fantasia to get a boba drink. i got a
frosted mango, pretty much our favourite there. i got that on tues,
when kaela n' i went. on tues, kaela had a frosted red bean boba
drink. that was aktually pretty good. i figured out from a
sign that was written in chinese that they're giving out double stamps on
their frequent drinker's card (buy 9 get 1 free) 4 certain boba drinks,
including mango. :-) c? everything's coming up beno! :-) i
drove home. i felt happy, felt really good. since i don't do
drugs, i'm not sure what ppl really mean by feeling "hi." maybe, i
felt hi, but *shrug* i dunno. i just felt happy! :-) oh
yah... this afternoon, b4 leaving to skool, kaela cooked some fried rice w/
spam lite. :-) i like spam lite. :-) in the morn, i ate a breakfast
of honey bunches of oats w/ strawberry. i mean,
this version of honey bunches of oats cereal comes w/ freeze.dried
strawberries already mixed in! it was very
good. neway, i came home n' ate a li'l bit'f dinner. my mom
had cooked kongching chai (the hollow tube veggie) n' some cold tofu w/ 1000 yr old egg. :-)
i ate that w/ rice n' some cashews n' some leftover beef stew from
uh... last nite or 2 nites 'go, i 4get. this beef stew isn't
amerikan beef stew. it's taiwanese beef stew w/
daikon/무/radish/turnip/chaitao/lohboh/"whatever u call it" n' carrots. kaela n' i watched the 138th episode
of the simpsons (syndicated rerun of course).
ha ha, oh yah, 2nite i found in the mail some aarp (amerikan association
of retired people) membership kit 4 me! ha ha!
625p: i'm sittin' in the lobby of the capitol/aborn bally's gym, waiting 4 the beautiful kaela kang. how r u? e.mail me sometime. i like getting non.spam e.mail! :-) otherwise please sign my gbook to let me know how u r!
2day's fri. it was a pretty nice day. it started out
pretty warm n' sunny. it got sort'f cloudy, but it didn't get 2
cold. this morn, we dropped kaela's kia off @
the nearby chevron station 4 a l.o.f. (lube, filter, oil change) n' tire
rotation. we had an ad from the local pennysaver. . .
[interrupted]
130p: i'm writing while riding @ stationary reclining bike @ the capitol/aborn gym. i had a job interview this morn. the ppl were very nice. i'd really like to werk there. it was such a nice place! after the interview, which went a li'l longer than skeduled, i drove to east san jo. 4 lunch, i got a vietnamese sandwich from huong lan (i've been eating way 2 many'f those! they're just so cheap. <:-() n' a bottle'f apple juice.
[later] 159p: now i'm stretching. the beautiful kaela kang sed she'd meet me here @ 200p. how was ur weekend? please sign my gbook or e.mail me. there were some b.days this weekend. happy b.day to laura n' the 2 jeffs. i heard there were some b.day parties 4 them. we would've loved to celebrate their b.days, but we knew that there was already other stuff planned n' that we weren't invited. oh well... neway, we were up in hayward all day on sat 4 master yoon's chabot college taekwondo tournament. it was sooo kewl to c master yoon n' his family, sam, n' christina kim; all'f whom we haven't cn in ages. of course, it was also kewl to hang w/ the u.s. taekwondo academy bunch 2. i'll be up next sat 4 a class field trip to lawrence berkeley lab.
so what did we do this weekend? on fri morn, we hired a florist 4 the wedding. we spent most'f the afternoon in lab w/ my "c.a.d." class projekt groupmates. i ate a pesto chicken panini 4 lunch. later, we went to the gym. oh yah, on fri, kaela got an oil change. please c "kaela gets an oil change" (2003.04.11). in the eve, we ate @ yas persian restaurant n' watched shanghai knights @ saratoga amc 16.
[later] 527p: i'm sittin' in a classroom waiting 4 my "computer aided mechanical design" class to begin. i spent quite a while @ the gym this afternoon. after 'bout 1.5 hrs there, kaela showed up.
[later] 937p: i'm pretty sleepy. 2morrow morn, i'm s'pposed to go to a labview seminar @ some silly valley hotel. i 4get which 1. :-( i'd better figure it out 2nite. neway, didju know that phil's a kewl guy cos he signed my gbook recently? well, he is. phil's a kewl guy. u can be kewl 2! :-) please sign it when u can. :-) right now i'm listening to an mp3 of helene rolles's "je m'appelle helene." it's a li'l elevator muzik ditty. i've been trying so hard to get this song. a long time 'go, i managed to dl it in .wma format, but i want it in .mp3 format. this mp3's only 96kbps, n' i prefer bit rates of 128kbps or higher. oh well, this is the best i've found so far. neway, this is a bit of elevator muzik, but i like it. u know why? well, besides the fakt that it's in french, i like it cos it's from the movie 카라 (calla). 'member? i really like that movie. heh...
2day's mon. uhm, this is sort'f a disorganized journal entry, huh? :-/ oh well... on sat, when we got to the tournament, we got there right @ lunch time. yoonsabuhmnim n' shimsabuhmnim saw us n' sent us straight to the v.i.p. room to eat lunch. ha ha. mrs. yoon was there managing the potluck buffet table. we quickly ate n' went back to help w/ the tournament. i reffed 'lot. kaela corner judged 'lot. wow, some'f these li'l kids r pretty good. heh. n' well... w/ some of the really li'l kids, man! scoring is quite diff from when u'r scoring adults! u gotta give'm a pt if they get ne good clean shot to the scoring zone, u know? w/ adults, u don't give'm the pt unless u got that n' decent impakt, u know? oh yah, right after we ate lunch, we saw this exhibition match btwn master sergio cardenas n' mr. gila. (i hope i spelled the 2nd name right. :-/) neway, i recognised the name "cardenas" n' eventually connekted it to joon! that's right! he's joon's taekwondo instruktor these days. after the tournament, yoonsabuhmnim told us to go to the v.i.p. / volunteer banquet. mrs. yoon had cooked all this korean fud!!! it was crazy! well, she cooked it w/ some church friends, she sed. neway, it was very good, n' she had us take home so much'f the leftovers. on the way home, kaela n' i stopped @ target @ newpark mall. there, we ran into my ol' apartmentmate cathy. i run into her @ weird places. the last time i saw her was @ that bridal expo last yr, but she was there 4 a friend's wedding not hers.
neway, lessee... sun... what happened sun? oh yah, kaela's friend n' bridesmaid cynthia came down from berkeley to visit us n' help us w/ our wedding invitation assembly (assembling our wedding invitations). we took her to lunch @ 명동 순두부집 (myungdong soondubujip), my favourite soondubujip 'round here. :-) i aktually had 회냉면 (hwenaengmyuhn; cold, thin buckwheat noodles w/ raw skate fish meat [spicy]). after lunch, i dropped the 2 of'em off @ some bridal trunk show in ol' town campbell. during that time, i went to fry's elektronics n' office max. i picked them up, n' we went back home to werk on the wedding invitations. cynthia left b4 dinner. 4 dinner, we ate some tilapia, spinach, n' egg n' tomatoes that my mom cooked. we watched the simpsons n' ate this delicious fruit tart from costco. :-) heh, in last nite's simpsons, homer moved out to live w/ 2 gay guys.
[later] 1030p: oh kewl! while, i was off watching the simpsons (syndicated rerun, the stampy episode), my kazaa dled a 128kbps version of "je m'appelle helene." kewl! :-) yah, it's a really wimpy, flowery piece of elevator muzik, but i like it. heh. 'nother ballad i've liked lately is "without you" by kiss (the korean gurlypop group, not the 70s glam metal group).
ok, so 2morrow morn, i gotta be @ the hilton hotel (4949 great amerika
parkway) 4 my labview seminar. man, i doubt they'll give us free fud
or even free coffee, huh? oh well... bizzy bizzy, i tell u!
it looks like i'll hafta skip taekwondo praktice 2morrow to assemble our
wedding invitations. heh... it's a good thing i exercised 'lot 2day,
i s'ppose. [later] 1058p: just in case u don't know, labview is a piece of
engineering software. it especially helps w/ interfacing electronic
equipment w/ a pc.
1127a: this morn, i missed the labview seminar. last nite, i really started feeling a sore throat. this morn, i woke up feeling decently sick. i stayed up till 300a writing follow up letters 4 my interview. i really want that job, u know? the office bldg there was so nice! it had water fountains n' ponds all 'round it! the ppl were really nice, n' the office environment was very organised; i liked it. i hope i get the job. :-/ neway, yah, i missed the labview seminar this morn. it shouldn't be 2 big'f a deal. i'm going to 'nother 1 next week or so @ san josé state. oh yah, this morn, i dled the saturn ion wedding commercial. :-) i've been dling all the commercials i like, huh? :-) i dled the mitsubishi outlander commercial, the bob n' weave cali4nia cheese commercial, n' this saturn ion wedding commercial. what other commercials do i like? well, i like the j.box commercials n' the boost mobile fon commercial w/ the old asian man talkin' like a young, streetracin' punk. ha ha. X-D oh yah, yesterday nite's fear factor on nbc had 2 asian.am contestants: a really short korean gurl (4'9") n' a pilipino guy. un4tunately, they both got eliminated 1st. oh well... wouldju do fear factor? lemme tell u, if my back were totally healthy, i'd be up 4 most'f the physikal challenges, but man... the fud challenges r really gross. X-P last nite, they ate live slugs. slugs r prob'ly pretty tasty when cooked since cooked snails r pretty good; but on fear factor they're always eating raw, live things. i dunno, i hear raw, live octopus is pretty good. n' i hear raw, live lobster is good.
[later] 1238p: ok, the beautiful kaela kang n' i just ate lunch @ home. we ate the leftover 잡채 (japchae) that mrs. yoon made. apparently, my mom bought a huge costco pack of mango flavoured mochi aisukuriimu! :-) yummy. *sigh* so i think i'll be missing taekwondo practice 2nite to assemble our wedding invitations. *shrug* i should go to office depot n' buy a big paper cutter. [later] 1253p: i should go to campus now. man, packing my skoolbag / backpack feels like such a big task right now.
[later] 240p: i'm in the sjsu mechanical engineering lab. i'm so
frustrated n' pi$$ed 'bout how i have sooo many class projekts
right now n' $@#!# it's just 2 @#@#$in' much! so much $#!+ to do.
n' it's not just individual $#!+ where if i just @#$$@#in' fail the
projekt it doesn't affekt ne1 else; i've got lab partners depending on me.
849a: we've had some funky weather lately up here in norcal. i can't believe there's 60-124 inches of snow @ northstar n' 84-132 inches of snow @ sierra yet both resorts r s'pposed to close their doors 4 the season this coming easter sun, (which is this sun). yah, i had a feeling our last day on the slopes (please refer to "waiting to watch about schmidt" from 2003.03.29.) would be our last day 4 the season. :-/ oh well... yah, it's kind'f good 4 me to give my back a rest... even tho' snowboarding hadn't really been hurting my back. no, like jumping n' doing tricks n' stuff was not hurting my back. the stuff that hurt my back was stuff like tying my shoe, turning n' reaching to the back seat from the driver seat of my car, sitting in a chair 2 long, standing up from sitting in a chair 2 long... sometimes sneezing'd hurt my back or bowel movements. heh... i just know u wanted to hear that. i'm just rehearsing cos i'm gonna c a doktor in less than an hr, so i wanna be able to say w/ a straight face that bowel movements have been hurting my back. the things is that my back really doesn't hurt all that much now. i really feel, in general, prob'ly cos'f exercise, my back has been getting better. however, it's not 100% like it used to be back in my heyday (like, when i was off in d.c. doing taekwondo demos every single day). also whenever i'd think 'bout going to the doktor 'bout my back, my back'd magically heal, but then whenever i 4got that thought, it'd start hurting 'gain. thus, i went 'head n' skeduled this doktor's apptment since i needed to convince my back i'm really thinking 'bout going to the doktor, so it'd just keep healing instead'f flip.flopping! neway, i don't have much time to type right now cos i've gotta get out'f my pajamas n' into some real clothes to head to campus.
last nite, nelson n' cynthia came over to help us assemble wedding invitations. wow, we aktually got quite a bit done, n' it was pretty fun to have these 2 over. cynthia drove all the way down from berkeley. yes, we really do love it when ppl come n' visit! :-)
yesterday, 4 dinner, we ate some costco sushi that my mom bought a coupl'f days 'go. i think it would've been better fresh, but it was still pretty good. it didn't have ne raw fish or nething, so it was ok to keep it 4 so long, i guess.
u know, lately, i've been thinking 'bout how it's my left side'f the body that always has this stoopid li'l (really li'l) injuries. like, 'member a coupl'f weeks 'go, my left pec hurt, so i couldn't really bench press? n' then earlier this week, my left deltoid kind'f hurt from sleeping on it bad. often, my left ankle feels funny from that snowboarding skid out on the castle run @ sierra last season. my back injury: i don't feel it in my back; what i do feel is a slight sting in my left hamstring, which i'm believing is caused by sumpthin' wrong in my back. u know that? neway, it's so weird that the left side of my body's always doin' this to me. :-( strange, huh? u know, how there has been that worldview of the left side being the sinister side? i mean, hey! check this out: look up the wurd "외로" ("wehro") in a korean diktionary n' this is whatchu'll find: "leftward; to the left; to the left hand; in the wrong direction; to the wrong path; to an evil course." funny, huh? last nite, after assembling invitations, i felt really sleepytired n' lazy. i couldn't go to sleep right 'way, maybe cos the tv was on as the beautiful kaela kang was watching tv. i just watched it n' relaxed. u know me: i usually think watching tv is such a waste of time! however... i just told myself to chill n' relax. u c, i've had a bit'f a sore throat lately, so i wanna make sure i don't get really sick, u know?
1 last thing 'bout snowboarding b4 i sign off 4 now (it's 907a.): these past few months i had this thought 'bout extreme sports that what really is the objektive of extreme sports is to do tricks that putchur body in a position where u show that u don't have control n' then being able to regain control from that position. u get what i'm saying? like, let's say u'r on a snowboard. u jump. n' then u can do sumpthin' like... let's say u pull a method air, a good ol' 80s trick. u pull the board behind u'r back n' then grab it w/ ur front hand. in that position u r in no position to ride off in control, right? but then u put the board down, land, n' u r in control. n' w/ some more contemporary tricks, u jump, bone out the nose, tweak ur body, contort this way n' that, n' yet land in complete control. n' like railsiding: while u'r sliding on the rail, u don't have the ability to really steer ur board, u just hafto have jumped on @ the right angle n' speed. i'm totally not into the motorcross scene, but i guess it's been roped into the extreme sports scene. those guys have crazy tricks where u jump, lie back on ur motorcycle like u'r lying on a reclining chair (lazy boy) n' then regain control to land. neway... just a stoopid thought i had sometime in the past few months... aktually, it's all just stating the obvious.
[later] well, i hope i don't lose this portion of this entry.
i'm typing it on my handspring n' plan to send it to my unix acct via palm
eudora. however, sometimes palm eudora'll totally crash my
handspring, n' i'll lose all my memory. man, i really hope that
doesn't happen 2day cos i have 2 big e.mails on here ready to send off.
i think if i send off the e.mails b4 receiving ne e.mails, i'll
be ok. i hope so.
well, i went to my dr. apptment earlier. of course, i was totally hurrying to it. i hate how the sjsu health center is sooo strikt 'bout apptment times. u gotta be there 15 mins early, n' if u'r late -- even if the dr. has time -- they'll tell u to reskedule n' prob'ly charge u a fee. neway, they were aktually nice 'nuff to me even tho' i was a few mins late. the dr. sed i prob'ly just have a back muscle strain, not nething serious. she's having me go to a physikal therapy apptmnt 'least 1nce. however, she thinks i'll heal soon 'nuff. i hope so. i had to get an x.ray. i had x.rays done back when i had my full physikal. i hope i'm not getting 2 many x.rays. the x.ray teknician was the same as last time: this middle.aged, caucasian woman who lived in taipei n' likes to talk 'bout taiwan to me n' speak to me in mandarin. i uh... don't always understand what she's saying, not cos she doesn't speak mandarin well, just cos i don't totally understand mandarin. earlier, while i was sitting in the dr.'s office waiting 4 the dr., i saw that she had surfing fotos up on the wall. i started thinking 'bout what'd it'd be like to take up surfing. after all, i've been snowboarding 4 a long time, n' i used to be a skateboarder, right? why not? well, we'll c. i'm glad the dr. didn't tell me nething like don't go snowboarding cos yah... that's the last thing i'd want to hear. i'm 27. i'm still young. this back injury (which is really getting better) is just a temporary thing. i've got many exciting adventures ahead'f me!!! really! like, watching fear factor the other nite, i thought 'bout how i totally wanna do exciting things... n' yah, i shall!
it's 1156a. i'm on the 3rd floor of the sjsu library. i sed i'd study 4 a while here n' then go get a burrito from la victoria or sumpthin' 'round 100p. yah, i've gotta study 4 my "precision machine design" quiz, which will be this thurs. i know last thurs, i panicked cos i thought we'd have a quiz but we didn't. well, we really will have a quiz this thurs.
really, i'm not the kind'f projekt group member who panics. u c, i'm usually a cool.headed guy. i believe in keeping a cool head n' werking hard. w/ projekts n' projekt groups, it never helps to panic n' stress out the other group members! stressing out, nervousness, panicking, it's all counterproduktive!!! instead'f wasting energy w/ panicking n' stressing out, channel ur energy 2wards produktivity! i'm not a lazy guy. when u c a cool.headed, laid back guy, u might think he's lazy. no! i'm very produktive n' industrious. i just understand that panicking, freaking out, stressing out, etc. r all counterproduktive aktivities. in other wurds, i'm always being way 2 produktive (even when i look laid back) to stress out or freak out or panic. cool head beno.
[later] 1215p: shoot. my handspring did crash cos'f palm eudora. luckily, i did send out my journal entry n' e.mails b4 checking my mail n' thus b4 my handspring crashed. phew. neway, it does sort'f suck that my handspring'll be useless 4 the rest'f the day now. now, it's just a useless elektronics device, sittin' in my backpack. oh well. right now, i'm typing on a 'puter in the sjsu library 'puter center. when i get home 2nite, i can sync my handpsring n' get all the data back from b4 this morn. however, i gotta remind myself to re.enter the dr. apptmnts i put in this morn. i have a physikal therapist apptmnt next fri morn. however, i might reskedule that if we end up skeduling our engagement portraits 4 that day. i just gotta call 24 hrs in advance if i wanna reskedule. i have a follow up dr.'s 'pptmnt on may 7 @ uh... 1130a. the 'pptmnt next fri is @ uh... 1030a. heh, it's obvious u don't need to know this. i'm just typing this out 4 my sake. ha ha.
[later] 111p: ok, i went to lunch @ la victoria's, had a regular
chicken burrito n' a strawberry agua fresca all by myself, n' walked back, trying to keep my head under a roof
to avoid rain by walking thru bldgs instead of outside. it was warm
yet rainy outside both while i was walking to la victoria's n' on my way
back. on my way to lunch, i stopped by the post office to mail off
a rebate form. when it started raining, as i left to lunch, i
paused 4 a moment wondering if i should just get lunch @ the student union
cafeteria. "eh," i
thought, "i shouldn't let a li'l
rain keep me from having the lunch i want." heh. u know that
i never eat lunch by myself in a sitdown restaurant, but i'll go eat fast
fud by myself. i usually consider a taqueria fast fud.
still, i felt kind'f weird eating by myself in la victoria's cos every
other table cmed so social. :-/ oh well. neway, it was a
good lunch; i'm very full.
as i sed, on my way back, i walked thru bldgs instead'f outside. i walked thru what used to be the main gymnasium. the magnificent san josé state events center replaced it yrs 'go. neway, since i walked thru the old gym, where the human performance dept is, i walked past the gym in which i attend a taekwondo tournament back in 1994. i was a green belt back then. @ that tournament, i broke my hand. that was almost 10 yrs 'go now... almost. neway, things have really changed since then. man, i am really not the same person i was then. some ppl'd be surprised to hear that i was a taekwondo green belt back in 1994 cos they think i've done taekwondo longer than that. no, i started in college. however, i practiced nonstop, pretty much... i mean, i never really took a break. i never took a semester off or nething. the longest breaks i had were over winter breaks. there was 1 short period over a summer when i was a red belt where i was sort'f lazy, i know. however, other than that, i really werked out hard n' tried to improve. well, in comparison to all those yrs, maybe i'm a li'l lazy these days. :-/ nah, not that bad. *shrug* even tho' i only can go to taekwondo practice 1nce or 2ice a week, i try to go regularly to the gym, u know?
so right now, i'm typing from the mechanical engineering 'puter lab, not my handspring. grr, i'm a bit annoyed that my handspring crashed 2day. i think i'd best uninstall n' reinstall palm eudora. :-/ *shrug* i dunno if that'll help, but it's the best i can think of right now.
[later] 255p: i'm still in the mechanical engineering 'puter lab. listen! no time to waste! go direktly to: http://www.falafeldog.com. go now! >:-( do not waste ne time!!! this is urgent!!! when i get home, i gotta dl http://www.falafeldog.com/falafel.swf, the shockwave file. this is very important.
do u 'member back in the 2001-2002 snowboard season when kaela n' i'd
always c a "falafel" doggy sticker on a post of a ski/snowboard lift @
alpine meadows? that sticker always made us so happy.
922a: i'm up, awake, n' on the beautiful kaela kang's
'puter printing out some lekture notes 4 my "precision machine design"
class n' updating my journal 4 u. :-) i definitely have a quiz in
my "precision machine design" class 2day; no doubt. that's my big
task 4 2day, to get a good grade on this quiz. it's pretty wet
outside but not raining as far as i can tell. last nite was funny
weather. it was drizzly or else rainy all day yesterday but not 2
cold. we've had 'lot'f that "tropikal" weather lately. well,
last nite, after class, i went to the capitol/aborn gym. when i got
out of my car, it was drizzling but not raining. i wasn't sure
whether to bring an umbrella or not. i can stand some rain,
u know? well, i werked out 4 a decent 'mount of time, showered; n'
when i left, i was very glad that i brought my umbrella cos it was raining
pretty strong. phew. i drove home in decently strong rain.
when i got home, i ate dinner my mom prepared, stuff from costco:
some chicken w/ wild rice entrée n' some egg rolls (which were
either from costco or trader joe's, i 4get.) neway, it was all
pretty good. it was almost 1000p by the time i got home, so i took
dinner up to our room n' watched simpsons, the episode where lisa
finds a rival in the new gurl alison taylor, played by
winona ryder: "lisa's
rival (1f17)". 2wards the end of this episode, ralph wiggum
sez "i bent my wookie" 'bout his star wars aktion figure.
heh. that's a classik. *shrug* i dunno some'f us just get
such a chuckle from that line.
neway, didju visit http://www.falafeldog.com yet? "falafel dog" sounds like a great vegetarian dish; but no, it's not referring to fud. u need to check it out! falafel doggy! oh yah, the site had a li'l tendency to crash my internet explorer if i wasn't patient 'nuff to let some'f the stuff fully load. well, don't let that stop u from visiting the site. it's such a good site! :-)
lately, i've had a sore throat. i've had it since mon or so. 2day's thurs. it's not a full.blown cold, but the sore throat doesn't go 'way. :-( well, i'm done printing out my lekture notes, i think; but earlier, i started a scan disk on my 'puter, so i still can't use it n' hafta use kaela's 'puter. yesterday eve, kaela asked if we could go snowboarding on fri cos it's gonna snow in tahoe this whole week up until fri. well... do u realise how much i'd love to go snowboarding?! however, :-( i don't think i can go snowboarding these days cos'f all the junk i gotta get done. :-( i have sooo many projekts to werk on these days. as i've sed b4, each class has a projekt; n' that doesn't mean they don't also have hw, quizzes, n' midterms. :-( all this stuff is due in early may, i guess; it's gonna be really crazy!!! i still gotta turn in my major advising form. u know what i mean by a "major advising form"? like, every semester, u'r s'pposed to get faculty advising 'bout the classes u pick 4 the following semester? well, i gotta turn my advising form in. i haven't turned it in yet cos i'm not sure what 1 class is "me 296b." i definitely do not need to take it cos the only 2 class i need to take still r me 281 n' me 283, 2 controls classes. the skool's only offering me 281 next semester. me 283'll be next spring (spring 2004). i also gotta sign up 4 my thesis (me 299) or projekt (me 295a) class. however, b4 i sign up 4 my thesis or projekt class, i need to come up w/ a projekt or thesis idea. i don't even know if i wanna do a thesis or projekt! :-( i'm so lost on that subjekt. :-(
[a li'l later] it's 1001a. i should get on w/ my day.
[later] 1039a: i had like 20 pieces of spam e.mail in my inbox this morn. >:-( i hate spam e.mail! >:-( oh yah, last nite i got 1 piece of good e.mail. check this out:
Date: Wed, 16 Apr 2003 07:43:32 -0800 Hey Beno-
Very cool that you found my sticker on Scott chair at Alpine (if I
remember correctly) and took the time to look us up! I look forward to you
joining the FOF crowd. I will be sure to send your permanent FOF card out
soon. If you would like to have a falafeldog.com email address
(beno@falafeldog.com) it simply means if you ever choose to use the
address your email would be forwarded to your current active account
(benomix.com). Let me know if you are interested.
Take Care!
Falafel (and Jessie)
wander about
Subject: Falafel here
From: falafel
To:
http://www.falafeldog.com falafel & friends
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i like getting that kind'f mail. :-)
well, what's gonna happen this weekend? i'm wondering if maybe kaela n' i'll go watch the 18 might mountain warriors' theatre show on fri nite n' then go watch better luck tomorrow on sat. better luck tomorrow's playing @ camera 1 here in san jo. i c from y! movies that it's still playing @ amc 1000 van ness in the city! kewl! it's also playing @ shattuck cinemas in berkeley. hrm, how come it's ok to call sf "the city"? u know, san jo's a big city 2! in fakt, it's a much bigger city! >:-( well... heh... i know no1 agrees w/ me here on this 1. X-D sf's the world's #1 tourist destination. i'm just thankful we live close to sf here in san jo. check out the 18 mighty mountain warriors website. they're playing in san jo on fri n' sat. sun is easter. sun is april 20; there4, sun is also kaela's n' my monthversary. :-) well, on sun, kaela n' i'll cook easter uh... brunch? lunch? *shrug* we're gonna cook some stuff. heh. kaela's pretty excited, n' she's gotten recipes out of 3 cookbooks including the chez panisse cookbook n' this vegetarian cookbook phil gave to us. :-)
ok, it's 1052a. hrm. how can i get a move on 2day? i
gotta pack my bags. as i sed, that's such a chore. i gotta
pack my taekwondo gear n' my skoolbag. ok... the 1st step to
getting a move on 2day is to stop writing this journal entry. u
know, i haven't put up a pic of myself on my journal in a long time.
well, i'm not gonna 2day either. heh. i was just thinking
'bout how i haven't; that's all.
1243a: :-) i'm happy that the beautiful kaela kang n' i could celebrate our 39th monthversary last nite. i took her to helios in cupertino. i'll tell u more 'bout it later, but here r some pics:
 kaela by the fireplace (helios is located in the cypress hotel in cupertino.) (the fireplace is in the hotel's lounge area.) |
 kaela thru the looking glass |
2day's easter sun. yesterday was sat. during the day, i went to berkeley w/ my "precision machine design" class 4 a tour of the advanced light source facilities @ lawrence berkeley lab. it felt like when i was a kid n' my dad'd take me to asme (american society of mechanical engineers) tours. i drove 2 classmates up from sjsu n' 3 back. on the way up, we stopped 4 gas. we got to berkeley a li'l early, so i took my 2 classmates to sufficient grounds (on durant) 4 some morning coffee. i got a single nf cappucino n' some kind'f healthy.looking berry scone. the tour went 4 a coupl'f hrs. we saw lots'f hi.tech stuff. after the tour, my carload ate lunch @ bongo burger on euclid. after that, i swung by the eggster taekwondo demo to say hi to the demo team. un4tunately, i couldn't hang cos i had my carload to bring back to san jo.
on fri, i spent the 1st 0.5 of the day werking on my "computer aided mechanical design" projekt w/ my 2 lab partners. we had vietnamese sandwiches from cali deli 4 lunch. in the afternoon, kaela n' i went to costco w/ my mom to get fud to cook 2day 4 easter lunch. after that, kaela n' i went to trader joe's, safeway, n' pw super to get even more ingredients 4 our crazy crazy easter lunch. we ate costco sushi 4 dinner. i was exhausted.
on sat, after the tour, after i dropped off my classmates @ skool, i
came home n' washed my car. then i took kaela to our 39th
monthversary dinner @ helios restaurant, as i sed. heh, our friend
joon from u.s.
taekwondo academy (not joon kim), who werks @ the cypress hotel, where helios
is located, hooked us up w/ the best "couple's" table in the house! woo
hoo! that was so kewl! even tho' the restaurant wasn't totally
crowded when we got there, it got crowded later. we had a nice
dinner. we shared a baby greens salad. then kaela had this
scallops risotto, n' i had soy ginger sea bass, a fusion dish. we
had this coffee toffee parfait 4 dessert, a bottle of 1998 domaine
schlumberger alsatian riesling, n' espresso drinks. after dinner,
we had to go to safeway on stevens creek by lawrence to get even more
ingredients 4 this easter lunch. crazy crazy. on our way
home, we found out that there's a yeitnal jjajangjip on stevens creek. :-)
we like that place. 'least, we like the berkeley (oakland) location. there's also 1 in
sf, we know; but we've never been to that 1.
234p: right now, i'm in the lobby'f the gym, waiting 4 the beautiful kaela kang to come down. yesterday was easter sun; 2day's mon. yesterday, kaela n' i cooked easter lunch 4 my mom, grace, n' steve. we cooked lamb w/ white beans (from the chez panisse cookbook), stuffed artichokes, n' mushroom ragout. kaela also made a fruit compote n' an asparagus n' arugula salad w/ walnut vinaigrette. phew, that lunch took quite a bit'f preparation. i hadn't cooked like that in ages! back in college n' right after college, i was really into cooking. then i stopped cooking so much... or aktually, i only stopped cooking fancy european dishes. in more recent yrs, i've been more into cooking asian dishes. yesterday eve, kaela mentioned we didn't cook nething spicy. i then realised maybe that's a big reason i sort'f turned my back on european style cooking, that i've been more into cooking spicy fuds. *shrug*
yesterday eve, kaela n' i went w/ ken n' grace to watch better luck
tomorrow @ camera one theatre on 1st st. it's a great movie; u
should go watch it!
1148a: 1nce 'gain i'm waiting 4 the beautiful kaela kang in the bally's gym lobby. lemme tell u tho', if u think all i do all day, all week is hang out @ the gym, i really despise u right now! >:-( last nite, i was werking on my "c.a.d." class projekt w/ my lab partners in lab till 1000p. that's just the life'f a college student. i am a full.time graduate student! this is how my life goes. college students stay up late n' werk on projekts 2gether. that's just how it is! i gotta stay up late n' werk. i have hw due on thurs n' a midterm in my "mechatronics" class. in the next 3 wks, i gotta finish 3 term projekts!
[later] 903p: i'm in the mechanical engineering lab n' 'gain very mad @ ppl who don't realise that i'm a full.time grad student n' have to stay in lab late @ nite!
[later] 1057p: 2day, 4 lunch, kaela n' i ate @ the green burrito on cottle rd. u know what the green burrito is, right? it's a mexican fast fud restaurant that's part'f carl's jr. yah, this the green burrito is inside a carl's jr. kaela had a 2 fish taco combo. i had 2 "big spicy tacos": 1 chicken, i steak. they weren't very spicy. :-( however, the fud in general was pretty good 4 a fast fud franchise.
from 200-400p, i was @ a labview seminar. then i had class. then i werked on my hw in the lab as i skipped taekwondo practice. :-( kaela got us a salad from the market café, a thai tofu salad.
schroedinger, thanks 4 signing my gbook! u'r kewl!
[later] 1130p: oh yah, 2day was earth day. didju c the cute
google banner? heh. does ne1 else 'member the dramarama song that
went "it's april 21st, and everybody knows today is earth day. merry
christmas. happy birthday to whowever's being born"? i 'member it.
apparently, the song's called "what are we gonna do." i'd
4gotten the title. i found out @ http://www.cybercomm.net/~flem/drama/lyrics/vinyl.htm.
i thought ben n' jerry's'd be giving out free aiskuriimu 2day.
i sent kaela off to get a free cone, but she reported that they're
gonna give out free aisukuriimu exaktly a week from 2day. :-)
946a: i guess i'm not going to the gym 2day. i should get to campus n' werk on my "mechatronics" hw n' study 4 my "mechatronics" midterm 2morrow. hrm... maybe there's a minute chance that i can go to the gym this evening. *shrug* i'm so bizzy w/ skoolwerk these days. i missed taekwondo practice last nite, as i sed yesterday. well, u know what? the beautiful kaela kang n' i r planning to make 1 last trip on fri to sierra@tahoe b4 it closes 4 the season on sun. that'll be 1 last day of snowboarding 4 this season. it'll snow on fri. it'll be cold. i hope this werks out. werk hard; play hard. u know that's my werk ethics.
this morn, i had a weird dream where jason lee (betelnut) n' mark lee (from taekwondo) knew each other n' came to visit me down here in almaden valley. we walked 'round by my old middle skool talking 'bout stuff. i dunno... just life stuff; i 4get. i 'member, @ 1 pt some kid rode by on a mini skateboard n' mark borrowed it 4 a sec to ride it. i wanted to 2. do u 'member? a yr 'go or so, i kept having dreams 'bout skateboarding. heh, not lately.
[later] 1037a: shoot. there's sumpthin' i'm looking 4 in my ol' bedroom / 'puter room that i can't find: it's an elektronics kit. 'member over spring break how i got into some mechatronics projekts? like, i bought this kit from fry's that'll be a musikal light controller; it makes a set of dj lights turn off n' on to the musik based upon the frequency of the sound. *sigh* i can't find it now. i want to build it in time 4 the wedding, etc. grr!!! [later] 1200p: shoot, it's noon. man, why does it cm like i can never get all the things done that i wanna get done? grr! grr! grr!
did i ever discuss how, 4 the past few months, i've been thinking, "what'd life be like if we had mtn bikes?" heh, i'd like to have a bike, so i wouldn't hafta drive if i wanted to go to the nearby safeway or post office. if i ever get a bike, i want a bike helmet that has built.in stereo speakers. i've cn them. i like muzik when i drive. it's aktually illegal to wear headfons while operating a vehicle. well, someday, i'll get a bike. it's sort'f a wishlist item, s'ppose. shoot, i have a midterm 2morrow. i gotta study!
oh yah, this morn, after that earlier dream. i had a dream that i
woke up in bed but i had slept on my cellfon n' broken the antenna off of
it. aktually, u c, right now i'm using a loaner fon w/ my
titanium antenna that i got from ebay. in my dream, i broke my real
cellfon, the 1 that got repaired by motorola on a warranty repair order.
it has the new motorola antenna on it.
*sigh* shoot. i just got my rejektion letter (e.mail) from my interview last mon. :-( *sigh* it's so discouraging. this sort'f puts me in a foul mood... but i'll resist being in a foul mood. i'll try to channel this negative energy into sumpthin' positive. :-/ :-( u can understand this'd be discouraging, right? :-/ *sigh* i put so much energy into this stoopid job search. it's really frustrating. :-( oh well... i don't have time to wallow in my own pity. i have this frickin' midterm to study 4 n' hw to turn in 2morrow.
the quote in 2day's title is from depeche mode's "shake the disease."
[later] 201p: i'm in the student union cafeteria, just got to campus, ready to study "mechatronics" 4 'bout 0.5 hr b4 mtg my "c.a.d." projekt group up in the mech e 'puter lab. i have my muvo n' headfons on. i was just enjoying kiss's "without you," which i talked 'bout a li'l while 'go. b4 i left the house, i was a li'l depressed, thinkin' 'bout how i felt much more optimistik 'bout life last semester: when kaela was werking @ the publik health office, i had such a good daily routine going. i really liked it. i liked going to the gym or studying @ a café in the morn, mtg kaela 4 lunch, n' then going to campus. it was a good routine; i liked it. does that make me a "creature of habit" etc.? i know lots'f ppl (either young ppl or ppl who think they're still young n' hip) like to bag on lives w/ prediktable routines. "why werk a 9 to 5?! fire ur boss!" i get tons'f spam e.mail promoting "careers" where u can leave the "9 to 5" behind. well, shoot! it's also nice to be able to depend on getting a good, solid,